MATCHMAKER

male reader x kwon eunbi

10k words

You can hear your heart pounding in your ears. Hell, even the cicadas, hushed and stilted, have contented themselves and are listening in. Should you have even had the courage to turn and face her, you’d sooner die than let Eunbi see the flush searing its way across the bridge of your nose.

“Hey.”

That lilting voice, it grips you. It pulls your eyes over your shoulder. You can’t decide if you first need to cough, laugh or cry—perhaps all three. God only knows.

—

A look back across the table, and there she is—still. The model. Eunbi had told you as much, scrolling through photo after photo of this woman like she was trying to sell you a car.

At least she’s pretty.

It’s hardly the qualifier you wish it was, repeating it in your head over and over. You’d liken this to pulling teeth—but you’re willing to bet you’ve had better chemistry with your dentists. Despite a mouth full of utensils and consistently lying about how often you floss, it’s not like your conversations weren’t cordial.

The sharp clattering of silverware tossed on the plate in front of her rouses you from your idle thoughts.

You watch her eyes dart across the table and back to you. Fists clenched, her knuckles turn white. You can hardly hear the exasperated huff that billows out of her chest over the sound of chair legs scraping against the hardwood floor.

“You’re an ass,” she spits.

You start to piece together how you’ll apologize to Eunbi—god knows she’ll hear about this—because at this point, you’d long exhausted whatever goodwill you still had for this woman. Nothing. Zero. Zilch. Your words roll off your tongue faster than you could possibly hope to muster any kind of self control to contain them.

“Well, at least I’m not just an ass.”

Dark red, dreadful really—a glassful of wine hurdles across the length of the dinner table. It’s just your luck. Realistically, it’s what you deserved. You’d thought this would be the kind of thing that might happen in slow-motion, a cathartic moment to question your life choices. In reality, it’s over in an instant. The table seemed so very long only seconds ago, but the drink sticking to your face, your shirt, in your hair, dripping down your nose, it makes you regret not being sat a few feet closer to the door.

“Prick.”

You don’t dare open your eyes until the strident tap-tap-tap of those tall heels fades into the background noise of the restaurant, now almost silent, clearly watching this scene unfold with bated breath. You feel each pair of eyes crawling up your skin as it finds its way onto you. If there was a god, a merciful one, now would probably be as good a time as any to open the earth beneath your feet and swallow you whole.

You pull at your face with the palm of your hand, the alcohol out of your eyes, your nose, your mouth. You can hear the whispers shuffle around you. And upon finally opening your eyes, you find yourself centered on the world’s most damned stage, a spectacle for restaurant staff and patrons alike.

Mortifying.

There was good reason for the moratorium you’d put on letting Eunbi play at matchmaker. Quite a few actually. And you wish you’d have the wherewithal to remember any of them whenever she’d get that irresistible urge to ruin a perfectly good evening.

Truthfully, it’d been the same for as long as you can remember. Kwon Eunbi kept her friends close. And she’d fill her days pairing off everyone in her orbit, results be damned. Three relationships you’d since suffered. All born of Eunbi’s machinations. All inevitably folding, fumbling, crashing in spectacular fashion.

Things didn’t improve when she found fame either.

Even back in school, though you weren’t necessarily unpopular by any means—friendly, athletic, and smart enough to stay out of any serious trouble—compared to her, you may as well have been nobody. It certainly came as no surprise that she found her stride on stage, making a career of capturing hearts.

And with that, her life abruptly launched her into meeting no small number of fascinating people, as so eventually would you. But considering the ways these evenings consistently play out, it just never quite did seem to stick.

Your waitress leans in trying her best not to catch any of the gazes meant for you. “Would you like your check sir? And maybe a towel?”

A drop of red wine swells and drips from your nose to chin. The slow, labored breath you draw fills your cheeks on its way out. It’s the first time you’ve been this soaked at the end of a meal, but it’s far from your worst date.

—

You could’ve sworn it was just summer. The cool breeze setting on the streets catches you off guard. Though, the soaked shirt around your shoulders was hardly paying you any favors.

Eunbi shoves a hoodie into your chest. “What the hell did you do?”

“My best if I’m being honest,” you say, ripping the tag off the sweatshirt. You can clearly see Eunbi’s eyes fill with contempt as you start to pluck at the buttons at the front of your sad, stained shirt.

“Jesus. You’re just going to give everyone a show?” Glaring, Eunbi wraps her fingers around your wrist and drags you off the sidewalk, her short hair bouncing in place. Pressed to answer, you’d say you missed those long, silky locks that used to tumble off her shoulders, but as it always was with Kwon Eunbi, and quite unfairly, everything looked good on her.

“Now talk.”

“I mean there’s not really a whole lot to say.” You wrestle your arms from your sleeves and search for the opening at the bottom of the sweatshirt. “I’m honestly more curious what made you think that would ever work out.” Arms trapped in the sweatshirt over your head, you click your tongue against your teeth. “Eunbi. Eunbi—eyes up here.”

“Oh piss off.” Clenching her fingers into two tiny fists, she hides her scowl with a smirk. “What am I supposed to do now? You know the two of us are going to be filming again next week? I’ll need to say something.”

Her questions marinate in terse silence while you give the hem of the shirt a final tug, snugly fitting it over your chest. “How much was the sweatshirt?”

Eunbi shakes her head and sends her hands to her hips, a pitied laugh falling out of her nose. “Forty bucks.”

“But honestly, tell me.” You dig the cash out of your wallet before slapping it into Eunbi’s open palm as you open your complaint. “You ever actually talk to her? I’d wager I’d have gotten on easier with an electrical outlet.”

She soaks up your words, her thumbnail between her teeth. You watch her eyebrows twist into a familiar, pensive look. “Hardly—mostly on set, and about work.”

“And somewhere in there you figured… Hey this would be a great idea,” you say, arms stretching to the side.

“Look—I don’t know—I thought she was hot.”

She was hot. And arrogant. And self-centered. And rude. And utterly miserable.

Eunbi shoves her hands into the pockets of her jacket. “How hard is it to have a drink or two, go back to your apartment and get to knocking boots?”

You pause. The stray idea that Eunbi was imagining you—in any capacity—knocking boots? The inside of your cheek starts to burn as you bite into it. “Well we certainly didn’t make it that far.”

“Yeah. No kidding.” Eunbi glances at the time on her wrist and a laugh, dry and humorless, separates her words, “It’s not even nine-thirty.”

“Believe me. I’m aware.” Your shoulders indulge in a despondent sigh. “And I’m beyond ready to turn in. Where did you park?”

“By the 7-Eleven.” She looks at you, gears churning behind her eyes.“But I’m not taking you home yet. I’ve got at least another hour’s worth of dodging my manager to do.”

You narrow your eyes. Maybe she’s toying with you—you wanted nothing more than a hot shower and to be wrapped up in your bed ready to greet the morning. Tomorrow had to be better than today. You aren’t Dante delving through the depths of hell for goodness’ sake. That isn’t your story.

You shout out as Eunbi starts making her way back onto the sidewalk, “And do what?”

“I don’t know. Take a walk. Explain to me why you can’t keep that tongue of yours on leash. I don’t care.” Hands still buried in her jacket pockets, she flares her elbows to the sides in a pitiful shrug. “You made me grab you a change of clothes—the least you can do is help me kill some time.”

—

You’d thought fresh air and getting up onto your feet might help you finally relax after an evening of stifled conversation. The reality is that under the twilight sky, walking aside her, it becomes noticeably difficult to breathe.

The park tucked between the city’s metro hub and its boardwalk of chic restaurants truly was the quintessential date spot. Fingers locked and sneaking kisses under the moon, the couples you keep seeing more than confirmed as much.

You can’t help but find it a little humiliating.

The two of you walk, shoulder to shoulder, leaving as wide a berth between you as the prim gardens along either side of the trail allowed. God forbid your fingers have the audacity to graze one another.

“Man. And she just stood up and threw it?” Eunbi stretches her arms over head, the faintest glimpse of her toned stomach peeking out beneath her shirt. “Nuts. I mean deserved maybe. But nuts.”

“Yeah. Really. Straight out of a TV drama script, huh.”

Eunbi looks up at you through the corner of her smoky lashes, smirking.“Does that mean we’ll get to see you do a big Hollywood kiss in three or four episodes?”

“Either that,” you say, “or I end up dead. Nothing in between.”

She laughs, a perfect smile stretching across her face. “I doubt we could ever be so lucky—but I’m not going to rule you out as the character in a coma either.”

Even though you become lost for words when your eyes linger in hers a moment too long, and your breath shortens when you hear her voice, Eunbi is stupidly easy to talk to. Always has been. Countless were the detentions you both served for pissing off so many of your teachers, constantly chatting and whispering during class.

On another stolen glance, you marvel at the contented look in her eyes. The dimples at the corners of her mouth, the wispy hairs that fly off her face just in front of her ears, that mark on her cheek, dotting each of her wonderful expressions like an exclamation point—you’re so damn weak to all of it.

A reprieve, you crane your neck, gazing up into the night sky. Hardly any stars out tonight, the moon’s too bright. The cicadas though—the cicadas are out. Not so unlike you, they gather and sing, in search of a little romance. God willing.

Both of you, hands in pockets, walk quietly. You listen simply to the soft sound of each other’s footsteps. The gravel grinds beneath your feet and the familiar feeling sets over you. Aching, throbbing, hurting, your heart begins to sink. It’s hardly the first time. You endure these moments, these tiny glimpses into a life you could never have. You’ve been friends for ages—but every chance you get to feel close to her, to look at her, you only realize she’s so far away.

Eunbi could make a thousand friends, introduce you to each and every one of them, and none of them would be her.

“Hey—” Your mouth dry and your voice hoarse, you split the overwhelming sound of the cicadas. “What about you?”

Eunbi keeps her head down, eyes locked on the trail in front of you. “What about me?”

“I mean, we’ve examined and dissected every way to midnight my love life is a complete and unmitigated disaster. What about you?”

Eunbi laughs under her breath. “You know how it is, company rule and all.”

Ah, yes. That rule. The rule that was equal parts draconian and unenforceable. Such an impossible rule.

“Really? I guess I figured that was just some industry secret.”

Eunbi stops in her tracks and looks at you, brow twisting inquisitively. “How do you mean?”

“Well,” you say, stopping in your tracks, hands on your hips. “Talk about a perfect way to let a guy down easy. And to always have it in your back pocket? It’s genius really.”

Eunbi’s chin jerks up at you, her eyes narrowed and her lips nearly curling into a grin. “You’ve always been too clever for your own good, you know that?”

She spins on her heel and moves to the empty bench at the side of the trail. You can barely hear the huff leaving her lips as she collapses onto it. Her face buried in her fingers, rubbing at her temples, she draws a heavy breath in through her nose and out the way it came.

Eunbi’s mouth opens, closes, and opens up again, eyes rolling toward you. Her voice navigates a dip into an uncharacteristic quiver, “Dating is fucking hard.”

Yeah.

You probably knew it better than most, but the comment catches you by surprise nonetheless. You’d figured she’d never been in want of a boy to call her own. There was always someone. There was your classmate whose dad owned some big import company—first to get a car in your grade, notably last to pass his entrance exams. The upperclassman who had apparently trialed for the national volleyball team. Of course, the day he broke—no, tore?—something in his knee, you can’t say you were all too bummed to hear about it. And then there was that guy in university, never once abandoning that black leather jacket. Lord, the memory makes your stomach churn.

You square your shoulders to hers, hovering anxiously beside the bench. Judging by what you’ve seen so far in the park that evening, it’s decidedly a seat reserved for couples.

“You know, I always thought you seemed good at it.”

Eunbi shoots you a flippant look and shakes her head. “Yeah. Just look at all my success.”

“Maybe you just have bad taste in men.”

Her brows furrow before she returns her eyes to the gravel. “Thanks. For the unsolicited advice. I’ll tuck that away somewhere.”

“Look.” You run your fingers through your hair, trying to figure out how you might walk back the careless remark. “I just mean… maybe you haven’t found the right guy yet. And you know he’ll adore you when you do.”

Eunbi lets out a soft sigh, one that creates and fills its own silence. She places her hand beside her, patting the bench softly. “Sit down.”

You’d hardly drank enough at dinner for your knees to wobble the way they do as you lower yourself onto the cold metal bench. Staring down at your feet reminds you of how much you looked like a total mess—dress shoes, pleated pants, a hoodie, the wine still stuck and stained in your hair. But it hardly mattered. Even your Sunday best would pale miserably in comparison to her.

When your wits return to you enough to face the woman sitting past your shoulder, you stumble directly into Eunbi’s piercing gaze. Her head resting on her hand, she closes her eyes briefly and draws a slow, purposeful breath.

“What all have you figured out?”

Your eyes narrow.

“Very little.” You sink into a slouch, your hands finding warmth and safety again in your pockets. “But still you’re gonna have to narrow down the question for me.”

She returns you a laugh that resembles air rushing through pipe more than any actual fit of laughter. “I mean when you meet someone new—what do you look for?”

Jesus. A breeze, heavy enough to rouse the old aching limbs of the trees above you, makes them creak and crack as though they too were responding to the question.

“Serious?”

She pulls her shoulders up into a tiny shrug.

“I dunno.” You point the toes of your shoes inward toward one another, scraping gravel along the way. “What does anyone look for? Kind, smart, makes me laugh.” You turn your eyes back to the sky and smile. “Extra points if she’s pretty.”

Quietly, Eunbi shifts her weight parallel to yours, lazily sliding into an identical slouch. She tilts her head up, and you can see the reflection of the moon fill her eyes.

“Yeah, well.” She puffs out another heavy breath and her lip—that perfectly glossed, tender, kissable lip—curls between her teeth. “You know I feel like I put you through a lot.”

More than she’d ever know.

Her fingers tuck her short hair behind her ears. “Sometimes I wonder what motivates you to get back out there and try again. Whatever it is, I’m jealous. I wish I had it.”

You pause, knowing what you want to say, but hardly how to say it.

“Guess I’m just… tired of watching all my friends find their other half. You can see it in the way they look at each other.”

The way you look at Eunbi.

“Life’s simple right? I’m sure there’s someone out there for me. Hell, it’s kinda embarrassing, but sometimes I sit and wonder if they’re somewhere right now. Feeling the exact same thing.”

Under these blasted stars—the fucking lack of them—you wonder how long you can possibly continue to play at this wicked game. For christ’s sake, Eunbi is sitting in arm’s reach and here you are blabbering like this.

Your voice trembles. “I just know—I want to be with someone who makes me happy.” You lean forward, elbows resting on your knees. “Someone I want to make happy.”

You can hear your heart pounding in your ears. Hell, even the cicadas, hushed and stilted, have contented themselves and are listening in. Should you have even had the courage to turn and face her, you’d sooner die than let Eunbi see the flush searing its way across the bridge of your nose.

“Hey.”

That lilting voice, it grips you. It pulls your eyes over your shoulder. You can’t decide if you first need to cough, laugh or cry—perhaps all three. God only knows.

Eunbi pulls her knees into her chest and leans against the back of the bench, her sneakers pointing at you. “Do you remember that summer between grade ten and eleven?”

Like it was yesterday. You exhale a long breath through your nose. “Wh-what about it?”

Her cheeks stretch over the shy smile she saves for herself. “I think it was after summer classes ended—when all of us got into my parent’s liquor cabinet.”

You swallow hard.

She runs her hands through her hair, letting it bounce perfectly back into place. “Gosh. What a nightmare that was.”

“I just remember someone getting so sick I was wholly convinced they were going to die.” You wet your lips with your tongue, pulling them back into a tight smile.

“Chaewon.” Closing her eyes and grinning wide, she lets the memory wash over her. “Even all grown up, she’s hardly changed a bit.”

Eunbi rolls her body forward, her arms wrapping around her shins—she’s pretty, she’s so wildly pretty. Her eyes find rest in yours with such ease it’s unfair. The flicker of the gas lamp behind you, dancing and glittering in those dark pools, it has you hopelessly seized.

“Well—before that—do you remember what I asked you? When we were playing those dumb drinking games?”

You look down. “You asked me who I liked.”

With the toe of her shoe, Eunbi kicks a rock off the bench and you watch it roll into the trail. “Remember your answer?”

You remember feeling the flush boil behind your eyes and nearly steam out the top of your head. You remember hesitating for way longer than anybody else. You remember scrambling to cover your ass. Of course you remember your answer.

“Minju.” You barely manage to choke it out.

Eunbi buries her face into the top of her knees, her half-lidded eyes peeking just out over the top of them. She smiles beneath her sleeve and her response rests on a whisper, “yep.”

You can feel your ears begin to burn, your heart beating so fast it might rocket out of your chest.

“I-I-I remember you worked fast. You set us up dating before year eleven even started. You tricked us into going bowling.” You fidget at the loose thread you’d found in your pocket. “What a shit-show that was, huh? I don’t know if there’s ever been a more toxic—”

“Did you mean it?”

You bite your lip, only releasing it upon the bitter taste of copper. Your voice is so choked up it nearly gets caught on the way out. “W-well clearly, it didn’t work out between us.”

Eunbi sits herself up, her expression soft and entirely unreadable. “When you answered me—were you lying?”

You’d lied to Eunbi in that basement the same you’d lied to Eunbi a thousand times. You’d lied to Eunbi for years. For years. Something despicable, something uncontrollable moves you to push it off your chest, gasping.

Yes.

The word leaving your mouth pulls with it the last breath out of your sail. Your stomach twists. Your fingers feel slow as you open and close them into tight fists atop your thighs.

Eunbi’s eyes return down, along her cheeks. She folds her fingers delicately atop her knees and her voice leaks beneath her breath, “thought so.”

Life’s simple right? You’re sure there’s someone out there for you. Hell, it’s kinda embarrassing, but sometimes you sit and wonder if they’re somewhere right now, feeling the exact same thing.

Like wildfire, a dumb, obstinate courage you’ve never dared entertain moves through you as you navigate the distance between you. Your chest heaves and shudders. A finger under her chin turns her head to you. Eyes widen, eyebrows jump, and you press your lips to hers.

Softly, you feel her. You taste her. You hold her.

But you don’t dare to open your eyes.

You’d shared so many kisses with so many others. Yet it’s this one—this plain, chaste, motionless kiss—it sunders your thoughts and sends your head spinning.

Like a razor’s edge you feel the fingers of each and every emotion clawing at your chest. Joy; anxiety; sadness; helplessness; frustration; hopelessness; emptiness; fear; they knock in unison on the door to your thoughts, louder and louder as you hold Eunbi’s lips in yours.

Your heart swells and aches so profusely you want to die. But you can’t die. You can’t die, not yet. You need to feel the swell of Eunbi’s lips just a touch longer. Those lips that were out of reach. You can feel them. You can feel them tremble. You can feel them—because in this stolen moment—they are yours.

Eunbi shivers. Her chin between your fingers, you hold her face tight to yours, but your lips part. The space between your mouths slowly fills with short, hot breaths.

Eunbi’s eyes are wide, searching with urgency for something. “What are you doing?”

“I—”

Your stomach drops.

“—I don’t know.” Your response carries your honesty, your dishonesty all wrapped up together in the simple, pained admission.

It simply isn’t fair. You regret meeting her. You regret suffering the fact that every girl you ever know, every girl you ever kiss, every girl you ever love, you compare to her. You regret keeping her in your life so closely—so impossibly beyond your reach. You regret letting her ruin you.

Eunbi places a clenched fist on your shoulder. Her eyes welling with tears and closing tightly, a whisper leaves her lips, “What are you doing?”

“Eunbi…” Why must even her name make you falter? You look for an explanation, some foot to put forward, but your thoughts are only filled with her. “I—”

Her voice, neither firm nor resolute, rasps on an anguished breath, “again.”

“What?”

Always your mouth moved faster than it should.

Eunbi opens her eyes, shining, glistening. A series of long, anguished blinks punctuates her request. “Kiss me—again—please.”

It’s not real. It can’t be. It’s not real. You repeat it in your head. But the silky touch of her hair on your fingertips, the shallow breaths on your lips, your nose against hers. It feels real.

Your fingers meet the backs of her ears and you find her lips again. Tickling you on each pass, her long lashes flutter against yours before firmly resting shut. Slowly, Eunbi moves her knees from between you off to the side, your bodies twisting and turning to meet the urgency of your kiss.

She buries her hands in your hair as her voice quivers over a series of tension-filled hums. Sinking backward, her hands pull you along with her until the two of you are nearly horizontal on the bench, her weight only supported by a precariously perched elbow.

Your mouths pull and press against one another. The brief moments between your kisses create a vacuum of air between your lips that every muscle in your body demands be closed again—soft, smacking sounds ringing midst them. You need more of it, that light candy flavor on her lips, the smell of her coconut shampoo, her silky hair running between your fingers. You need it more than you’d ever imagined.

Eunbi’s fingers wrap around the thick fabric of your sweatshirt, clinging to you and holding onto you like her life depends on it. Her soft moan, locked between your mouths, coaxes your lips to part. Eunbi’s narrow tongue slowly teases and toys at your lips, your teeth, your tongue.

So overwhelmed are you with everything you feel, everything you touch, that a noise beyond your wet lips, your shuddered moans and hums—a whistling—goes nearly unnoticed. You know the noise. It wanders across a range of notes whose purpose is simply to be heard.

To her visible, flustered frustration, you pull away against the fingers on your clothes and yourself off of Eunbi’s lips enough to set your eyes on a man, casually making his way down the trail toward you.

No words exchange between you. Only the staccato panting of the man’s dog and the droning buzz of cicadas fills the strained silence as he passes. You offer him a polite, tight-lipped smile. But the man simply brings his face to the sky, hardly interested in what it was that made your heart race.

Into the night his footsteps vanish.

Eunbi’s fingers hold your jaw and turn you back down to her. Catching her breath, she leaps into the quiet pause. “Your cheeks are very red.”

Licking at the inside of your dried mouth, you swallow the lump in your throat. “Talk about embarrassing.”

“Don’t worry,” Eunbi says, smiling, “It’s probably not even the worst thing he’s seen tonight.”

Chuckling, you bring your elbows to either side of Eunbi’s face. It makes you pause, soaking in the beauty beneath you. You’d seen it, gotten lost in it, countless times, but never had you held it in your arms.

Her eyes dart from yours to your lips, presumably imagining the things she might do to them, the things she might do to you. She leans herself up, her expression steeled and determined. But even with every reason to be the most confident woman in the world, Eunbi stutters through the question.

“Can we…” She bites her lip and her eyebrows express an anxious stare you’ve seldom seen. “Go somewhere?”

A thousand times yes. The fact that you’d make any girl nervous has your heart rocking back and forth on its toes. The fact that it’s Kwon Eunbi whose breath you steal makes you dizzy.

—

It’d have probably been prudent for the car to be equipped with its own lights, siren and everything. From the moment you sped out of the 7-eleven parking lot, Eunbi drove like it was an emergency.

Her finger taps incessantly atop the steering wheel. Each intersection might as well be an obstacle placed by some cruel god—probably the same one who refused to smite you earlier. You’ve been to her apartment more times than you count. Hell, you helped her move into it. But as Eunbi’s foot reaches recklessly onto the gas pedal, your chest tightens.

Rows of houses, apartments, restaurants, cafes, groceries pass out the window before you realize the distinct emptiness in your hands.

You open your mouth, tongue clicking. “Ah.”

“Yeah?” Eunbi asks, “something on your mind?”

“I forgot my shirt.”

The car rolls to a stop in her building’s garage. Eunbi’s key turns in the ignition and the headlights click off, the dull hum of the car’s machinery disappearing along with them.

“On the bench?”

You pause. “Yeah.”

Eunbi looks at you from under her lashes with a stare both equally concerned and frustrated. “You wanna go back?”

You take in a slow breath as her question registers in your head. “No, I… It’s irreparably stained anyway I imagine,” you respond. “You saw it didn’t you? Just absolutely drenched.”

Eunbi leans over the center console, seizes your lips with hers, and sucks hard at your bottom lip before pulling hers away as confidently as they came.

“I did.” She smirks. “And so am I.”

She’s again on you the instant you slam close the passenger side door. And unless you two were going to do it on the concrete floor of the parking garage, you have to lift her into your arms.

The echoey garage, the painfully slow elevator ride, the hallway to her unit—your clumsy union finds no reprieve as you and Eunbi stumble your way into her apartment. Setting her down and kicking your shoes off somewhere behind you, your hands roam the curves of Eunbi’s body, the shape of her beauty. Feeling your fingertips hover anxiously against her chest, Eunbi pulls you by the wrists onto her t-shirt, begging you to knead and caress her breasts in your hands.

A small yelp escapes Eunbi’s throat as you push her back firmly against the wall. She was someone you’d pined for as long as you remember, but the lust, the need to have her, it’s stronger than it’s ever been. And judging by the way Eunbi’s waist bucks and grinds along your thigh, her calves quietly rubbing together, you’d guess she recognized that feeling all the same.

Eunbi runs her hands beneath your sweatshirt, her cool palms landing squarely on your chest and her thumbs grazing your nipples. Navigating her fingers beneath the thick, bulky fabric, she pulls and lifts until your arms are up over your head.

“Fuck,” she whispers under her breath, biting her nail and letting her eyes wander your body.

“Eunbi,” you tease, “eyes up…”

In an instant, she pulls her shirt over her head so quickly that you struggle to make it to the end of the jeer. You’re stunned. It’s impossible to decide if she looks good in her underwear, or if her underwear looks good on her. She crosses her arms in front of her faultlessly smooth stomach, gathering her cleavage for you.

Drinking it in, your bottom lip curls behind your teeth as you search impossibly for any one place to rest your eyes. Dumbfounded, you land unconvincingly at the end of your usual taunt, “—here.”

A smug smile stretches across her face, quickly descending on you. “That’s what I thought.”

The skin on her chest, her arms, her stomach against you is only cold to the touch for a moment. Your tongues flick past one another, neither contented to their usual residence as Eunbi wrestles under your weight. One hand buried in your hair, the other looking to the belt around your waist, she squirms beneath you.

Gathering her delicate wrists in a quick motion, holding them barely above her head against the wall, you whisper against her ear, “No. Not yet.”

She whines as the tips of your fingers reach down the front rise of her pants. Eunbi wasn’t lying. The thin fabric between her legs is drenched. Though lucky for her, you can more than sympathize. You break your kiss, circling your fingers firmly against her mound, watching closely the varied expressions of frustration and pleasure fill out across that perfect face.

“You—” Eunbi lets out an adorable squeal as you push your fingers dangerously against her entrance. Her voice squeaks out again, “you.”

You drag your nails lightly over the fabric and Eunbi shudders. Your lips kissing and caressing its folds, you whisper again in her ear, “talk to me Eunbi.”

“Y-you,” she whimpers, her mouth curving into a wide smile, “you—reek so badly—of wine.”

She starts laughing as you release her hands from above her head. You check the backs of your wrists and hesitantly under your arms with your nose. Sure enough, the sickly sweet smell of that night’s calamity stings your nostrils. It was after all that mess that got you into this mess.

Your fingers sift through your hair, feeling again the dried sugar still residing in it. You laugh as it dawns on you. “Yeah—my bad, huh.”

Eunbi’s arms relax around your shoulders and you swear her warm smile could very well send you melting onto the floor. “C’mon, I’ll get you a towel.”

—

Steam rises off your shoulders, and for the first time since you’d left your apartment that afternoon, you feel clean, at ease even. A strange turn of events, but ultimately, wish granted you suppose.

You look around, studying the pattern of the small gray tiles along the wall in front of you.

Truthfully, there are few things as disconcerting as being in an unfamiliar shower, what with the foreign controls, the angle of the shower head, the pressure, the temperature, a variety of hair and skin products you feel you ought to be able to recognize. Though as it were, none of that mattered. This was Eunbi’s shower.

Sliding to the side, the glass door rattles in its track behind you.

Slowly, Eunbi’s delicate hands wrap around your chest and waist. Her fingernails gently drag along your skin and send bolts of anticipation crackling down your neck. You can feel her cheek lean into the space between your shoulder blades, her soft breasts pressing tightly into your back. The only thing keeping you from turning around and requiting the embrace is your commitment to hiding that dumb grin you’re wearing.

She reaches her hands in front of you, cups them and collects a handful of water. “Are you clean?”

You let yourself laugh. “Still getting there.”

She splashes the water against your stomach, gathering between her fingers the soap you’d lathered across it. Her fingers splay over the muscles of your chest as she admires the shape of your body. You feel as Eunbi’s lips drag along your back, not quite ever forming the kisses you craved.

“You know…” Eunbi’s voice surrounds you, echoing off the shower tiles. “Before everyone’s lives got hectic and busy, us girls—we’d often get together and chat. Any idea what we’d talk about?”

“Why would I?”

“Because you’re clever.” Eunbi nestles her nose into your shoulder. “School, clothes, music—boys.”

You knew very well what she was talking about. The content of those conversations filled your dreams and nightmares all the same. You let out a nervous hum as you shift your weight between your feet.

“Oh yeah?” you ask, more than contented to play dumb.

Eunbi draws circles over the muscles of your stomach as she plants a soft kiss into your shoulder. “For years… I listened to them talk about you.”

You swallow hard, finding the sharp drain grate of the shower an unwelcome companion for the bottom of your foot.

“First it was Minju, then it was Hyewon—and Sakura,” Eunbi says, running her hands along your chest, “you know how much of a gossip she can be.”

An anxious chuckle betrays you. “Hear any good stories?”

“Well… a lot of complaints actually. Valentine’s, birthdays, anniversaries…” Eunbi pushes her hips into yours, the sharp corner of her pelvic bone reaching into the cushion of your butt. “You always were rather inconsiderate—or forgetful, maybe both.”

You try to interject, “well it wasn’t always clear—”

“You know what’s interesting though?” Eunbi plants a trail of kisses down the nape of your neck. Her hands sliding along your sides and across your thighs, she wraps herself around you. “They would all wax lyrical—about this.”

As fast as they are gentle, Eunbi’s slender fingers find their way around your cock. She pulls your sensitive skin taut in one hand, and strokes you leisurely in the other.

The unremitting buzz of the shower head, pouring hot water onto your chest, is cut by the groan that heaves from deep inside your lungs. Eunbi had just dragged a whole host of bittersweet memories right in front of your nose. In any other context, reminiscing over any one of those old flames would be enough to ruin an entire day. But your thoughts are only able to concern themselves with the woman at your back, holding you delicately in her fingers—and Eunbi knows it.

You can feel her soft lips as they graze along the ridge of your spine, finding their way across its bony divots. Effortlessly she stirs your cock firm and upright, her thumb teasing across its tip.

“For years.” She again finds her cheek against your shoulder.

You reach your hands behind you, holding onto Eunbi’s thighs as you melt in her embrace. The two of you stand nearly motionless beyond your fingers pressing into the smooth skin of her legs and hers around you. Only the sound of water falling to the floor fills the moment.

You turn slowly. The water turns to steam along your neck, along your shoulders and back as you shield Eunbi from it. Short-lived is the departure of her hands on your cock—immediately finding their way back to your aching length, teasing, caressing, stroking, pumping.

Eunbi’s half-lidded eyes linger and slowly dip. Her teeth worry gently at the swell of her lower lip. The tilt of her head mirrors opposite of yours. You’d only seen it a handful of times, and never before today, but you’d have been a fool not to recognize the expression that sits on Eunbi’s face, demanding your kiss.

Once, twice, three times you find her lips with yours before lifting your chin and grabbing the bottle of coconut shampoo from the wooden shower caddie beside you. “Still gotta get this mess out of my hair sweetheart…”

Eunbi’s eyes dart between yours, frustrated at first, and then slowly calming into their usual soft, beguiling selves. She smiles, punctuating her words with kisses down your chest. “Please. Do take your time.”

Her knees bend, her shoulders sink, and in no timid effort, She breathes you in. Her hand firmly at its base, Eunbi’s mouth ventures along your length. Its heat, softness, wetness—that tongue—it overwhelms you. Your only lament is that you’d need to brave the shampoo just above your eyes to see it.

But you can hear it. And you can certainly feel it. Eunbi’s lips seal themselves noisily around your throbbing length. Your breathing tightens and your heart races. Her hand slides along your shaft, picking up in between her fingers water and spit alike. The slick mixture around you, her grip tightening, loosening, tightening again, Eunbi delivers pleasure exquisite.

“Mnph.” The sound coming from her throat echos around the shower, now chalk full of steam. Reaching a point of difficulty as she swallows you, she redoubles her efforts. Her tongue teases and darts under your sensitive tip. Her mouth twists around your throbbing cock, and her fingers, eager to please, follow along with it.

“Shit—that feels so good,” you hiss.

Eunbi pulls you out of her mouth, holding your length delicately between her finger tips and caressing your thighs.

“This feels good too doesn’t it?” She leads her tender lips, pressed firmly against your cock, from its tip to base. You can feel her nose tickle the soft underbelly of your shaft as her tongue massages and teases your balls.

“Fuck,” you curse, lathering the soap in your hands

“But maybe—you like it more here, right?” Eunbi’s fingers grip tightly around the head of your cock. The tiny, minute, and dangerously fast motions of her wrist draw a heavy breath into your chest, sucked sharply past your teeth. “Oh yeah. He likes it here.”

You run your fingers through your wet hair, scratching and rubbing that shampoo into your scalp as your knees struggle not to buckle and collapse. You lean back, the water pooling in your bangs, and it takes significant effort to not fall back head over heels.

“Mnnnph…” She hums as the heat of her mouth finds you again. Eunbi’s fingers fan out along your hips and her mouth pushes slowly down your length, her lips nearly kissing your crotch. Her head nods gently as she tries to take you—all of you. It sends your voice reeling through a needy groan, the sound of water splashing to the floor around you.

“Eunbi—fuck.” Your teeth grit. Your eyes clench tight. You can hear the tension building in your ears. And for christ’s sake you can feel the shampoo hovering in your brows, ready to blind you. You aren’t going to let Eunbi make you cum and not even be around to see it. You take a step back, your cock popping from her mouth, a strand of saliva glistening along with it.

“You—are fucking good at that,” you say between ragged breaths, wiping at your brow with the backs of your forearms. Your hands over your shoulder, you turn slightly to rinse the shampoo from between your fingers.

Eunbi shoots you a mischievous smile, fingernail between her teeth.“I’d hate to think I listened to Sakura drone on and on about how she’d get you off for nothing.”

“She always was… passionate.”

“Yeah. I heard.” Eunbi sinks onto her knees, her perfect smile beaming up at you. She runs her fingers through her hair, now wetting into dark, thick bundles. “I don’t know if I can take you like she could though—or at least how she described it.”

At this point, you’re too damn wound up to feel embarrassed.

Eunbi’s voice lilts as she taps a finger to her chin, “But I can’t remember…”

She shuffles her weight forward, hands at her ribs, pressing her flushed, burgeoning breasts together into an impossibly inviting cleavage. You can feel your eyes dilating at the sight.

Eunbi’s grin stretches from ear to ear. “What do you think? Do you think any of those girls might’ve ever mentioned anything about fucking you with their tits?”

“I don’t think they did,” you mutter under your breath, entirely transfixed on the image of Eunbi squashing her ample breasts between her hands.

“Well in that case…” Eunbi smirks and nods over your shoulder. “Grab the conditioner behind you. Pink bottle.”

Eunbi was absolutely stunning. And it wasn’t as though it were some well-guarded secret. Cute, sexy, elegant all bundled into one breathtaking package—there’s no reason why Eunbi wouldn’t know it just as well as you. This cramped shower, hot water beating on your back, it made for the world’s most wonderful stage. And with the confidence and gravitas that only a beauty of her caliber might possess, Eunbi knew how to perform.

Eunbi watches your eyes closely, fixated hopelessly on her fingers, lathering the conditioner all over her chest. Her breasts become sleek and glisten as her fingers work the slick lumps of gel into her skin.

“Tell me.” Eunbi’s eyes pull you into hers. “Do you like my tits?”

You let a single, effortless laugh. “Fuck me, who wouldn’t?”

“How do you think you’ll like your cock between them?”

Instinctively, and certainly without instruction, you find yourself bending at the knees.

Tucking her chin into her chest, she raises herself up to your waist and envelops you. You’d always known Eunbi was well endowed. Flustering yourself as you watched her run in a loose fitting tank top; stealing a glance down the collar of a shirt; the summer all your friends practically lived out of Chaewon’s backyard pool; you’d always known. But you’d never imagined that it would be your cock—not a necklace or a button—staring back at you from between this magnificent pair.

Eunbi’s smile couldn’t be any larger, her eyes any wider, while she watches you writhe between her. She cups and lifts herself around you, caressing and stroking your length, all while keeping her gaze painfully on you.

“Fucking hell, Eunbi. I’ve never—” you shudder, your words lost in pleasure.

“Never? Really?” Her voice feigns a certain innocence, teasing you, “Then—do you like it… fast?” She hurriedly moves her slick breasts around your length, reveling in the lewd noises of the makeshift lubricant slipping and squelching around you. “Or maybe… you prefer it really slow.” Her elbows swing to the sides, pressing her cleavage tight around you. It creates a warmth, a tightness, a bliss that you’d only ever figured you’d find between her legs.

“So fucking good,” you release over the top of a wistful sigh, slowly bucking your hips into her immaculate cleavage.

“What if I stick out my tongue like this?”

It’s too much. You were on puppet strings in her hands, her breasts. She could ask you to walk into traffic and you’d at least consider it. Jerking, tugging, pulling, Eunbi hardly allows for any rest in her assault. You’d already been close to losing yourself in her mouth moments ago and you feel that urge to hold your breath and close your eyes once more flood your thoughts.

“Tell me—when—you’re going to cum,” Eunbi says between quiet hums and pitched moans of her own, focused heavily on everything happening between her hands, “I want to swallow it.”

Jesus-mother-cunting-christ. She might as well have just asked for it then and there. You push out a single breath, nearly panting as the word travels on it. “Yeah.”

Eunbi looks up from her breasts, slightly bewildered. “Yeah? Yeah what?”

You nod your head, lips pursed, struggling for breaths.

Needing a moment to realize what she’d done—what she was capable of—she gives you a blank stare, eyebrows twisting like question marks. She’s just too damn cute. Lord knows the idea of letting yourself release onto her tongue and down her throat was appealing as all hell, but you aren’t going to make it.

At the bottom of her stroke, your cock drowning in the soft, heavy mounds around it, you finally let go. You pump yourself into her chest, each throbbing pulse of cum joining the sloppy mixture of liquids between her breasts. Your hips buck and your knees wobble. Holding herself still tightly around you, Eunbi doesn’t even realize it. She’d brought you to your orgasm without even realizing it. Truly, how fitting.

Eunbi, watching you wither and crumple, looks back into her breasts, only now realizing what she’d made you do. “This—this… Oh. Oh. Oh!”

She takes you again into her mouth, sucking and pulling at whatever you have left—as if most of your load wasn’t already between her tits, splashing to the floor and down the drain.

“Eunbi.” You begin to rouse yourself back into reality.

She makes no effort to stop. Her cheeks hollow as she works mercilessly at your tip. It feels incredible, just as it had before, right up until the point it starts to ache.

“Ack! Eunbi—please!” You shuffle backward clumsily, practically dragging her across the tile floor with you.

Her mouth finally leaves your sensitive cock with a loud pop and her eyes shoot you a look most mischievous. She stands, fitting perfectly in your arms and starts to laugh.

Your hands wrap around her waist. “Good god. You’re gonna kill me.”

“I would never.” Placing kisses into your collarbone, Eunbi reaches her hands under your shoulders and finds a place to clean up in the water behind you.

Rubbing on Eunbi’s slippery breasts, your chest heaves as you catch your breath. Laughing into the woman entangled in your arms, with your noses nearly touching, she gives you a single, loud, smacking kiss, swift and efficient. Her fingers wrap gently around your poor length while she pulls stubborn strands of hair out of her face.

“You know you’re still very hard?”

Always a blessing and a curse. You reach your hand onto the back of your neck as you try to come up with a good way to phrase your candor.

“It’s what you do to me—if I’m honest.”

“Well, if that’s the case.” Eunbi’s arms wrap around your shoulders, her face coming close enough to feel her breath on your lips. “I like honest.”

Before she can kiss you, you reach your hand down between Eunbi’s thighs and find her swollen bud with the pad of your fingertip. The wetness you feel with your hand could be from anything at this point, but you’d reckon the coarse, punched out breath that leaves her open mouth was as sure a sign as any.

“Looks like—you’re every bit as honest as I am Eunbi.”

Another groan, needy and obscene, leaks from her lips as you drag the length of your finger between her folds, taunting her aching entrance with the firmness of your fingers. Her dark, round eyes clench shut.

“It feels r-really—” she gasps and slowly turns the pained look on her face into a smile. “—really good.”

You twist your wrist, your hand gliding, your fingers reaching. The skin at your touch swells and aches. And with your fingertips, you tease Eunbi’s entrance, the shallow depths of her warmth.

“Fuck.” The word barely makes its way into a whisper. Eunbi bites gently onto the corner of her lip and rests her eyes in yours—her expression full of need.

You tease your thumb—its flat, unforgiving pad—all across her entrance. “Should I go… deeper?”

You can see Eunbi’s mouth open for a moment, only before closing again. Her silent response becomes the fingers she reaches around your cock, pumping you leisurely between your stomachs. Her hips start to fidget and roll against you, finding everything they demand on the shape of your fingertips. You feel her thumb, teasing the tip of your cock, coax a sheen of pre-cum into her fingers.

Reaching your hand behind her, you pull her close. The soft, pliable skin of her ass fills between your fingers. She yelps as you press her into you. Slowly, Eunbi lifts a leg—the long limb becoming wrapped and entangled around the back of your thigh. In a quiet movement, she pulls your hand away from her slicked entrance, shoulders shuddering as it leaves her aching mound.

A look of pure, unbridled desire sets across Eunbi’s face, her long lashes barely masking the lust in her eyes. Her voice quivers, “I want you—in me.”

Your knees bend and Eunbi’s toes curl as she lifts herself up onto the balls of her feet. And in a single, reprehensibly brief moment, she surrounds you.

Eunbi gasps, her eyes shut tight. She wraps her arms around you, falling backward until her shoulders rest against the cold tiles of the shower wall.

It takes you but a moment, your frenzied thoughts rushing to find themselves at her side. Your words nearly trip over themselves, asking, “Are you okay?”

She tucks her lips in, nodding through the pain, the pleasure. The long, unsteady breath you both draw rips from your rigid anticipation. Exhaling through puckered lips, Eunbi’s chest relaxes first, the tension evaporating into the steam above your shoulders.

Gently, you rock your hips—the unspeakable warmth enveloping around you. Your forehead against hers, you feel her breaths, punched and tight, roll past your nose and onto your cheeks.

“Eunbi.” Her name spills from your lips uncontrollably.

She whines. She mewls. And her eyes open. Your own reflection greeting you in those dark pools.

“Kiss me. Please.”

Beneath the shower head, a silver cloud of hot, steaming rain, you feel joy. The water beating at your back wraps you in a cocoon of warmth. The embrace around you, pulling you tight, cradles your bruised and swollen heart. It’s her, it’s always been her, it’s Eunbi—who forever seemed impossibly out of reach—she’s close. She’s so incredibly close. And it’s everything.

Your hips buck and your legs flex. Eunbi’s urgent need to find the back of your mouth with her tongue is betrayed by the indecent moan she lets resound between the shower walls. You set onto a dangerous rhythm, your hips crashing wildly into hers.

“yes—yes—yes.” Eunbi’s voice hides beneath her breath as her eyebrows twist, bewildered and astonished at the pleasure you brew between her legs. She runs her lips along your neck, under the skin of your jaw, tickling your cheeks and finding your ear. A stream of curses tickles your thoughts and your name on her lips becomes a prayer.

How many times have you heard your own name—not knowing it could sound like this?

You drive yourself into that wet, inviting heat again and again. With your weight against her, she starts to slip, sliding down the wall behind her. Your hands reach beneath her, and in an elaborate yet clumsy motion, you scoop her knees over your forearms and she clings tight around your neck. Your body flush against Eunbi, and hers pinned to the tile in front of you, your hips beat against the flush skin on the backs of her thighs.

Eunbi turns her face to the side, gasping for breath. “Fuck!—you are so deep!—so fucking deep!”

She struggles to keep up with you, her frantic, pitiful kisses falling off your lips, your cheeks, your chin. Each stroke into the staggeringly-tight depths of her pussy engulfs your cock in such perfect, overwhelming warmth. The way she takes you, the way she completes you—it’s beyond magical, it’s divine.

“Please, please—please don’t stop.” Eunbi’s fingernails dig into your back, searching desperately for release. Her breaths, coming in fits and starts, fill the air between you.“Please—more—give it to me!”

Your face flush, your arms burning, sweat beading and disappearing amidst the steam, you press your fingers into her firm ass, stretching her wide for your motion. There’s no comparison—every girl you’d ever known, every girl you’d ever kissed, every girl you’d ever loved—they would never be her.

“Fuck—fuck—fuck! You’re going to make me—”

Eunbi’s face freezes, anguished and caught on a mute note of stupefying emotion. Her head snaps backward, her muscles tense, her feet dig into your thighs, and she quivers in your arms. She pulls you into her, into an impossible tightness—a closeness only you two could share.

“Eunbi—” you moan through gritted teeth as if she was in any state to hear you out.

Her name is all that can venture off your tongue as you let the sensations flood through you. You rest your weary face into the soft skin on her neck as the walls come down around you.

A final stroke, deep and unrelenting, into the desperate grasp of Eunbi’s clenching cunt immediately draws your fate. She quivers and trembles around the eruptions of hot cum you send deep into her body. You quickly feel it pool and fill around your aching shaft. Once unshackled by the silent crescendo of her release, Eunbi pushes lungfuls of lustful air past your ears.

There is hardly a calm in the world that compares to holding the woman you love in your arms. You’d stand here under the incessant hum of the shower head for eternity if your knees would allow it. But under your weight, under her weight, you feel your strength quickly wane.

Your amorous embrace, as perfect as it is, collapses. Your entanglement, your limbs hazarded in one other, lands fatigued in the puddles at your feet.

Eunbi wiggles herself to somewhere half-way comfortable, stroking her fingers through your hair. “Fuck me—I never imagined it like that.”

Your breath still ragged and exasperated, you pant hard. You splash your hand in one of the pools of water on the floor next to you. “Yeah—I guessed it might be steamy, but—”

Eunbi pulls your face against hers, depriving you of that opportunity to make her eyes roll.

Tightly she holds you, your kiss filling holes in your heart. She will always take your breath away, steal your words when your eyes meet—but right now—she’s yours.

Eunbi parts her lips from you, and her eyes search for everything she needs inside yours. “C’mon. It doesn’t count if we don’t do it in a bed.”

—

A shoe. Your pants. Her underwear. Eunbi tosses everything into the laundry basket under her arm as she moves about the apartment in a huff.

She lets out a groan as she checks her watch.

“Fuck me—she’s going to be here any minute.” She rushes into the laundry room, her voice trailing with her. “I told you to set an alarm.”

You feel a little guilty.

You’d kept her up late—you’d kept each other up late—but you’re the one sitting just sipping coffee, without a care in the world.

“Can you try and look at least a little presentable? Or go hide in the closet or something?”

You run your fingers through your hair, hardly addressing the bedhead you’d woken up with. You give a hopeless shrug as you return the coffee mug to your lips.

“Whatever. Just don’t say anything weird—maybe—maybe, just don’t say anything.”

The sun creeps through the windows of her apartment, filling the room with a golden glow. Eunbi draws the curtains and bathes the room in bright light. You wince as it hits your eyes, slowly adjusting to greet the morning.

A knock at the door grabs both of your attention, and Eunbi gives you one final anxious look of here we go before shuffling to answer it.

A woman, tall and callous—her manager presumably—enters the kitchen, a binder under her arms and her phone in her hand. She looks at you, eyebrow perking and back to Eunbi.

“Who’s this?” she asks, hardly looking past the screen of her phone.

Eunbi holds her thought for a moment, a visible flush on her cheeks. “—A friend.”

The admission is honest, but your foolish heart finds it a little distant nonetheless.

“A friend?” The woman turns on her heel and hovers next to the kitchen table. Her imposing nature is hardly helped by the fact you’re sitting in your underpants. She gives you the world’s most disingenuous smile. “Well then. Mr. Friend. Here are the rules. First off, nothing—and I mean nothing—in public.”

You certainly can’t imagine she’d be thrilled about you making out in a park—however brief.

“Two,” she says, increasing the count on her fingers, “no love marks, hickies, bruises—what have you—where a camera might see them.”

Over her shoulder you can see Eunbi hiding her face in her hands, practically dying of embarrassment, an uncharacteristic shade of red filling out her face.

“—And I swear to god, if you get this girl pregnant—You’ll be dead faster than you can say plan B.”

Your words well in your throat. It was like you were seventeen again, getting a stern talking to from your girlfriend’s parents. “Y-Yes. Yes mam.”

Eunbi’s voice, mortified, squeaks out from beneath her hands. “Don’t call her mam.”

Her manager eyes you over one last time before turning to Eunbi. She whispers at a volume intended for you. “Just remember you’re playing with fire—now go finish getting ready. You’ve got a schedule that starts in an hour.”

Eunbi gathers her wits, brushes herself off and marches into the bathroom. The gray tiles peeking through the open door effortlessly tease your memory.

Feeling your skin start to crawl, you sip your coffee again. It’s possibly the only thing normal about the scene in her kitchen.

The manager dumps her belongings on the kitchen table and sends her hands to her hips, her cool gaze fixed on you. “Whatever you do—don’t you dare break that girl’s heart. She’s a good soul.”

Your smile hides behind the cup of coffee. You wouldn’t think of it.

VANITY

male reader x kim chaewon

5k words

“Quarter to six?”

“Quarter to six.”

“Quarter to six?” you ask one more time checking your watch, praying for a different answer.

She repeats herself with stern punctuation, “Quarter to six.”

You hazard the obvious question, “I thought you said check-in was at seven?”

“I also said we’re meeting everyone for drinks at a quarter to six. You should listen to me more often.”

“Well. Shit.” You swing yourself about the door frame of the bathroom, your dress socks on the wood floor like skates on an ice rink. “Then we probably need to get ourselves—”

Your eyes immediately find Chaewon’s reflection in the mirror, astonishing, mesmerizing, confounding.

“Whoa.” You have no idea if the word actually spills out of your mouth or the airy sound it makes is audible only in your thoughts.

A shy smile dimples her cheeks, pretending it doesn’t notice the obvious leer on your face. “How do I look?”

Gorgeous. Ravishing. Fuckable.

You swallow that candor back down somewhere into your throat before it might otherwise escape you, completely unrestrained.

“You look—incredible.” The word sticks to the roof of your mouth as you dart your attention up and down the tiny cocktail dress that barely even constitutes clothing. Its black fabric hugs the contour of her figure so tightly it leaves little to the imagination, but even then you can’t stop imagining all the ways you might rid her of it.

Admittedly, perhaps shamefully, you didn’t think much of Chaewon the first time you met her. Just another pretty girl that would get up on stage to sing and dance—big deal. However, something wouldn’t let you leave it alone. Not only were you wrong, she made damn sure you were sorry for it. You’d found her obstinate, a tad selfish, and more than anything, entirely irresistible.

Before your brain can chide your hands, you saunter forward and wrap yourself around her hips.

“You’re late ya know.”

“I wonder why that might be,” you say, pressing your lips into her bare shoulder. Your nose tickles the bottoms of her primly cut hair and you breathe in deep. The muddled mix of her shampoo, perfume and the perfect smell that is simply her—it makes a flutter rise in your chest as you let the breath roll off your shoulders.

“You certainly weren’t putting up much of a protest.”

“Didn’t realize I had been given a choice.”

She smirks, the playful warmth in her eyes holding your reflection with ease. “That’s because you weren’t.”

Chaewon pulls your hands forward, folding them gently atop her stomach, the thin material of her dress letting you feel the tightness of those muscles above her waist.

Grabbing a makeup brush off the counter, she delicately applies the finishing touches on a canvas of smooth, porcelain skin, the masterwork of an artist, stretching out along the meticulously drawn lines that define her figure. Your eyes on her and it fast becomes a grand heist of stolen glances; the perfect cut of silky hair resting at her jaw, sculpted eyebrows, sweeping lashes, those perfect lips—the true injustice being that she was so much more than simply the sum of her parts.

You blink your way out of the riptide of brown and gold in Chaewon’s eyes. “Should probably call your friends and let them know we’re running behind schedule.”

“Why can’t you?” she asks, “I gave you Minju’s number didn’t I?”

“Well, I mean, they’re not my friends.”

Her reflection shoots an eyebrow up somewhere behind those jet black bangs. “Since when are you worried about first impressions?”

“I dunno Chae—you tell me—are they the kind of people to judge a book by its cover?”

“As if there’s anything in those pages of yours worth reading.”

Lowering your head, you whisper gently into her ear, “didn’t stop you from paging through them earlier today. Twice.”

“Please,” she pleads, sparing you a pitiful laugh and slapping playfully at your hands.

Chaewon turns herself in your arms, pulling the hem of that less-than-modest cocktail dress again over the curve of her rear—a battle she’d doubtlessly wage against the fickle garment all evening, one you can’t imagine you’ll ever tire of watching. Hell, you’re not even sure who you’re rooting for.

You watch her eyes widen, glistening, as she reaches her hand up along the edge of your jaw, feeling your smooth, fresh shaven face between her fingers. “You clean up surprisingly nice ya know.”

You cock an eyebrow. “Surprisingly?”

Finding a bounce in her feet, Chaewon lifts herself out of her heels. No more than an inch or two, failing to arrive where she wants to be, she repeats the motion several times—her blatantly conspicuous method of demanding you reach down and kiss her.

“Chae… Is there something I can do for you?” you ask, a grin betraying your attempt to play dumb.

“You ass. Come here.” A small huff billowing out of her chest, she teases her fingers at the smooth skin on your neck. “Let me at least get a kiss before this becomes all stubbly—otherwise I imagine I’ll have better luck making out with sandpaper.”

Before you even get the chance to sink your shoulders, she wraps her fingers around the bottom of your tie, and with a twist and a tug she pulls you into her.

A kiss, sweet but efficient, lingers between you no longer than is prudent. The next, short and inquisitive, is like a second serving of ice cream—inadvisable. For a brief moment, you hold each other with your eyes, able to communicate far more than either of you could ever say. And the third, foolish as it is inviting, finds the last of your inhibition wanting.

You let yourself sink into her, the taste on her lips warming, welcoming, tempting. The spaces between your kisses fill no longer with shy smiles and bated breath, but with profound longing, crashing again in emboldening familiarity.

Your fingers dip dangerously at the hem of Chaewon’s dress, the boundary where smooth skin meets impossibly thin fabric—a playground of reckless decisions. Opposite of you, in no less good judgment, she slides her hands up your chest, quietly lifting your jacket up off your shoulders and finding room for it on the countertop beside you.

Your lips stretch into a coy smirk against hers. “What are you doing?”

Chaewon opens her eyes, mischief smoking from beneath her long lashes, and her voice lilts, “nothing.”

She holds her gaze with you, her eyes smoldering with the same playfulness that paints the subtle smirk stretching across her face. She maintains her composure, delicately sweeping her bangs back perfectly into place with one hand, as though she weren’t prying her fingers into the buckle of your belt with the other.

“That’s a whole lot of nothing for someone who was—seconds ago mind you—on my case to hurry up.”

“And you’re talking a lot for someone I can feel already getting hard through his pants.”

You dig your fingers into the roundness of her ass, pulling her body flush against yours. “I thought you said we were meeting everyone for drinks at six?”

“And I also said check in was at seven,” she says, snapping the belt away from your hips.

“You’re insatiable.”

“Well, you’re the one who decided to kiss me.”

Your eyebrows twist skeptically. “I don’t think that’s how I would describe it.”

Her eyes run across the features of your face, resting on the glances she so loved to steal—finding herself contemplating how best she might put your lips to good use. Chin lifted, her voice opens again, “Are you calling me a liar?”

“Perhaps.” A flat chuckle breaks your response. “Among other things.”

Your hands wander from her waist, up the slender contour of her narrow frame, and you find the shoulder straps of her dress. Rolling them between your fingertips proves them to be as delicate and dainty as they look, easy to sweep off her shoulders with hardly even a simple push.

“Go on then. Let’s get it all out of your system.” She unbuttons the front of your pants, sending them to a heap collapsed around your ankles. “What else?”

You think for barely a moment, chirping the first thing that comes to your head. “You’re self-centered.”

She pinches the inside of your waistband with her fingertips, pulling it as far as the poor garment will allow before releasing it with a loud thwap. “Uh-huh.”

“Spoiled rotten.”

“Now that seems a little cold,” she says, her voice feigning a despondent tone.

You pull the straps of her dress over her shoulders, letting them fall helplessly down the bare skin on her arms. “And you’re a bit of a brat.”

Chaewon’s knuckles fight the tightness of your shorts as she slides her hand to meet the bulge stirring beneath them. She watches closely at the quick breath you draw through tucked lips as she lets her fingers find their favorite spots along your length.

You should be better at this game you play—it’s only the thousandth time you’ve played it. And the score hasn’t been worth keeping for a long time. Maybe somewhere along the way you could’ve picked up a trick or two, but Chaewon is always a step ahead of you, untouchable.

“And still—” Chin lifted, she taps her finger against her lips, her grip beneath the waistband of your shorts tightening. “You want to fuck me so bad.”

If she didn’t know it then, she knows it now: somewhere inside you, a red light turns green. You see Chaewon’s mouth opening again, another taunt ready to launch from it, but you steal from her the opportunity, your hand reaching at the nape of her neck, tilting it back—you capture her tender lips again between yours.

Your hands under her arms, you lift her up onto the counter and her legs wrap themselves around you, the edge of her helpless dress rolling up along her thighs until it springs up around her stomach. Her kisses drag along your cheek until you can hear the heat of her breath in your ear.

“What was it you called me? Insatiable?” She works her hand still beneath the tight confines of your shorts as best as they might allow, varying the strength of her fingers’ grip around you—not to mention the unyielding touch of her palm—she rouses your cock fast against its confines. A haughty laugh precedes her. “When you’re this fucking hard?”

“Oh please. Pot, meet kettle.” Dragging a finger tip up across the warmth of her entrance, sampling the damp fabric daring to hide it from you still, you listen to her suck a sharp breath past her teeth. 

Mimicking the smug tone of Chaewon’s voice just now, you taunt, “Chae, it lacks a lot of bite when you’re this fucking wet.”

You pull the top of her dress down past her chest, two perfect handfuls of soft breasts jumping out over it, two tempting dark buds begging for your lips, your tongue, your teeth. Your nose runs the length of the cleavage gathered in your hands, before again finding her kiss. Once politely, and again expectantly, you pass your tongue against the swell of her lips until finally she lets you in.

“Mmph…” Her muscles jump as you slip your hand again between her thighs, your fingernails ever so barely making contact with gray fabric underneath them. Acquainting themselves quickly to their hot surroundings, your fingertips discover the touches that always make Chaewon weak.

“Twice just wasn’t—enough for you today was it?—you poor thing,” you slip forward in the labored breaths between your kisses.

“If we’re keeping count.” She bites onto your lip and her hands slide up your chest, looking for something to moor herself to as you press hard against her aching hole, a quiver jolting through her hips. “You only—came in me once.”

“I don’t know Chae,” you tease, forcing your way past the elastic band around her waist, drawing a gasp from Chaewon’s throat as you dip fingers past the wet warmth you discover. “Weren’t you going on and on about how upset Minju and Yena might be if we’re late?”

“Oh—” She squirms at the pad of your thumb, callously brushing her own wetness over and around her swollen bud. “Screw Minju. Screw Yena. And screw you.”

“Well if that’s the case—suppose I could go all by myself.” You begin to lean yourself away from her when she reaches for your wrist.

“Do not,” she whispers, finding you again with her eyes, now lit so clearly ablaze with want and need.

Her chest jumps at the pleasure you bring, rubbing circles against her freshly shaved mound, and she can’t control the shy smile forming at the corners of her mouth as you drag and tug at the lips of her pussy on each revolving pass. One finger slips inside her warmth, squeezing past her tight entrance. She closes her eyes and tucks her chin to her chest, slowly drawing a purposeful breath in through her nose.

Her hands clutch greedily onto the fabric of your shirt, as you continue to explore the warmth of her hole, teasing at the spots you’ve long learned to recognize, the ones that could make her sing.

“So.” Rubbing and caressing the warm walls around it, your finger makes way for a second, Chaewon shuddering at the sudden inclusion. “You want to cum on my fingers? Or my tongue?”

“Don’t tease me.” Her fingers grip tightly around the shape you imprint against your underwear and her brow furrows. “I want this.”

There’s a part of you that wants to refuse her, especially when she dons that pouting look, eyes blazing and scowling—you’re convinced she’d trademarked it—but you’ve been trying your best to persuade your thoughts to think of anything other than pinning her to the wall since you caught her reflection in the bathroom mirror. There was no chance.

You feel Chaewon clench around you as you slowly drag your fingers out of her pussy, your fingers coated still in her warm wetness. A step back and the two of you let your eyes communicate to each other exactly what it is you need. Two sets of underwear sliding down off your legs, you both gaze upon temptation, upon the only thing that might release you from it.

Your fingers still wet with the fruits of her excitement, you pump them liberally around your cock, lathering a slippery sheen from hilt to head. Chaewon’s eyes still fix closely on you, like an architect reading a set of blueprints, or a musician a new piece of sheet music, she studies you, undoubtedly taking meticulous notes. Even with the experience she’d built, entanglement after entanglement, seducing orgasm after orgasm out of you, she always had a hunger for more.

Coaxing her forward on the counter, she raises her hips and hangs her ass just over the edge of it, supporting herself on the hands she plants onto the counter behind her. Chaewon whines as you rub the tip of your cock between the lips of her pussy, gathering more of the wetness that glistens and shines around the warmth radiating just beneath its beautiful folds.

You shuffle your feet, adjusting your height to hers. “Ready?”

She hooks herself off the back of your neck, lip curling between her teeth, and for the first time in a while, Chaewon has no cute response, no quip to needle. She simply nods her head.

“Fuck,” she hisses, her face wincing as you push yourself into her warm embrace. The further and further you fill her, the more you can feel her stretch to receive you. You hang your head a moment on her shoulder, overwhelmed by the heat, the depth, the tightness that is Chaewon around you. It doesn’t matter how many times you’d buried yourself inside her, it always rearranges your thoughts, makes it difficult to speak.

“Chae—god—you’re tight.”

Your hips are second to move, Chaewon quickly lifting hers against you, desperately searching for the friction they now so desperately crave. She punches her breath into your ear, teasing again, “C’mon now. It’s not your first time—don’t just stand there.”

A groan leaks from your chest, your cock carefully moving itself again past her entrance. You struggle with the tie around your neck, and Chaewon gathers the cue to start working at the buttons down your shirt, freeing you of everything save a pair of dress socks you hope she wouldn’t look down to notice. Though luckily she’s more interested in your lips—reaching her hands into your hair and seizing you into a kiss of her own. You can feel the vibration of each quiet moan that escapes her lungs rattle off your teeth as your slow thrusts find a momentary rest, deep in the heat of her aching cunt.

You cup Chaewon’s breasts between your fingers, squeezing the soft malleable skin a tad harder than you should, and a strained yelp spills through the seal of your kiss. The sound only persuades you to find her swollen nipples, rolling and gently twisting the sensitive flesh between your fingertips. You drink in the sounds of her reactions, wincing and gasping, working her between your hands.

Slowly, on account of the way Chaewon manages to suck you in, you find yourself moving faster, hitting deeper, the connection between your lips struggling to meet your rhythm. Chaewon’s legs reach around you, pulling you further into her at the end of each thrust, wrapping and gripping your cock with a perfect warmth. It’s your turn to roll your lip past your teeth, biting down to find a momentary release as the feeling of Chaewon’s tight body becomes foolishly enjoyable. You stammer, “You feel so fucking good Chae.”

She closes her eyes tight. “Yeah—you’re—making me—so—wet.”

Heavy breaths slice the words coming from Chaewon’s mouths into fragments, each rising and falling with the motion of your hips crashing against hers. “Your cock—it feels so—amazing.”

Reaching forward, you find the soft skin beneath Chaewon’s jaw with your lips. The way she looks, the way she feels, the way she sounds—your thoughts are filled with her. A taste of salt from the first few beads of sweat enters your mouth, and there’s little left you can do to possibly escape her.

“Fucking—,” Chaewon groans, her fingers digging into your back, “I need it faster—harder.”

You pull yourself off her, untangling her arms and legs from your back and in one swift motion, gathering her ankles together over your shoulder. The toes of her shoes click against one another as you position her where you want her, where you need her. The weight of her round thighs pressed into one another—the slick walls around you—you feel it almost pushing you out of her warmth completely. But you dig in on your heels, pushing yourself into her and relishing the unreal tightness that you bury yourself in, again and again.

The sounds off her lips, they drive you mad. The look on her face, it drives you mad. The grip she has on your throbbing cock, it drives you mad. But its her eyes—filled now with urgency and need—lustful eyes that drink in the image of you fucking her, trusting eyes that look to you provide everything she could ever desire, gentle eyes that hold you tender yet, they effortlessly set your heart aflame.

No longer committed to words, having found the adjusted angle, the new depth, the novel sensation of your cock burying itself into her, she simply lets out a long, seedy moan, one that starts on the lofted pitch of a particularly lustful note, and ends panting miserably beneath her breath.

“Chae,” You groan, teeth gritting as you slam your hips into the soft cushioning of her thighs, “you feel incredible.”

“Faster.” The word barely makes it over the out-of-breath puffs of dry air that heave off her chest. “Please—I need more.”

You give her more. And then some. There’s little you can hear beyond the sound of your own thighs slapping wet skin against hers. Each time you bury yourself into her, you can hear the blood rush to your head, spinning and twisting your thoughts about and flushing back down as you pull yourself out along the slippery walls of her pulsing cunt. You hug tighter at the legs across your chest, gripping Chaewon’s delicate body and racking it beneath you—her moans grow louder, more intense, more needy.

Again her voice rasps, “faster.”

Always is everything on her terms. It doesn’t quite make you angry, but you’d be lying through your teeth if you said she didn’t often frustrate you. You slow yourself at the end of a long stroke, dragging your throbbing length slowly out of her pussy and wiping sweat from your brow. “Hop down.”

Exasperated, she complains, “What the hell are you—”

“Hop down.”

Chaewon’s eyebrows twist in confusion, and she whines as you pull yourself from her grip completely. Her feet land on the floor and a huff of hot air shoots from her chest. Just because she’s a handful doesn’t mean you can’t steer her with a commanding voice, the sternest you can muster—a commodity increasingly in demand.

“Now turn around.”

With a slight hesitation, and her gaze lingering in yours, she shuffles and faces the mirror. You press yourself behind her, your slick shaft welcomed by two gentle curves of her ass. She’s caught in your reflection, just as you are in hers. You watch closely how her lips purse and her eyes shut tight the moment you take her breasts in your hands. “Do you want me to make you cum?”

A quiet voice, subdued and meek, splits the silence, “yes.”

You lean forward, lips hovering against her ear. “Grab the sink.”

For once, Chaewon does as she is told, her fingers curling over the top of the chic white bowl beneath the mirror. The hourglass of her figure presenting itself perfectly at your waist, you grab a hold of hers, the bunched fabric of her dress filling your hand.

You dip your finger into her folds, quivering in exactly the messy state you’d left them. “Tell me exactly what I should do.”

She raises her face between her shoulders, eyes practically glaring at you through the mirror. “Fuck me.”

The tip of your cock against her, you tease the lips around her entrance, the obvious look of need filling in Chaewon’s expression.“Aw—Chae—we both know you can give better directions than that.”

Begrudgingly, desperately, she plays along. “I want you—I need you—to fuck me until I—”

You watch her mouth gape and her eyes widen as you drive into her. Burying yourself in the inviting, stretching, grips of her pussy, your hips land flush against the soft tender skin of her ass. It’s an angle that hits deep, Chaewon still struggling to vocalize the words failing to leave her tongue, but as you thrust yourself into her again, the look of shock becomes one of pure euphoria.

You can feel a specific fatigue, one that arrives with three sessions—Chaewon’s appetite voracious—in a little under twelve hours, but any weary thoughts you harbor are galvanized by the image of Chaewon’s toned, tight, athletic body, folded against your waist, writhing in the pleasure only you could bring. Finding again a tumultuous rhythm, you fuck the girl in your hands with reckless abandon.

“How does that feel Chae?” Tightening your grip on the fabric of her dress, you pull her back into each of your thrusts, her ass receiving your hips and ringing with a strident slap.

“So hard—so deep,” she gasps, her voice trailing off into an urgent cry, “so—fucking—amazing!”

The prim cut of jet black hair that rests on her shoulders had become disheveled and unruly, a rare sight. Her face twists and contorts deliciously in front of you as she watches attentively at the way you fuck her.

“God—God—God, fuuuuck!” she cries, rolling her hips back and rocking opposite your thrusts. Yearning, pleading, she needs you and your cock bad. Sinking her face between her shoulders, she slides forward onto the counter. “There. There. There. There!”

You can see only one hand, knuckles clenched, grip helplessly at the sink, while the other steals away between her thighs, rubbing and caressing at the hot mess between them. There was never an enough for Chaewon—always needing more attention, love, pleasure—little was ever sufficient.

The dress around her waist, bundled and clutched in your hands makes the perfect rein, and you pull back on its makeshift strap, bringing Chaewon’s shoulders nearly flat against yours. Taking in the image first on the mirror, your flushed faces inches apart, gasping for breath, you bend and kiss at the skin that draws her neck from her shoulder.

“Fuck—fuck—fuck—fuck!” The cries of pleasure keep you locked into a dangerous cadence, slamming your hips into her, filling her with your throbbing shaft. She mewls, she moans, and you reach a hand against her breasts, pressing together soft skin—an outlet for your pleasure and a conduit for hers. “You’re gonna—I’m—fuck!”

You whisper into her ear, catching a nipple between your fingers, twisting, teasing, tormenting. “Cum on this cock Chaewon—cum however you like.”

Her voice is hoarse, but still she begs, “Tell me—tell me how you like fucking me.”

“Chae,” you strain against gritted teeth, “I fucking love it.”

“Tell me there’s no one—no one better.”

“Nobody—” you clench your eyes tight, letting the blood flow anywhere else in your head. “Nobody is even close.”

“I can’t!—Fucking—I can’t!—god it’s so—fuck!”

The words out of her mouth are less and less cohesive, your name, curses and nonsense all muddled beneath her breath in whatever order the pleasure reeling through her head prefers. She moans, she mewls, and all too obviously, she seeks release.

Her eyes find yours through the reflection above the sink, smoldering, they say a thousand words, most of them fuck and please admittedly, but you recognize the look that makes your heart, droning along its dull beat, catch fire and race—the one she held beneath her lashes the first time she told you she loved you, and every time after that.

She’s obstinate, selfish. She can be a bit of brat. But she’s perfect. And she’s yours.

“Chae I’m gonna—”

Just a little more, she mouths silently, nodding her head and struggling to keep her eyes open still, stealing everything they need from you.

It takes everything in you to keep yourself from crossing that threshold, to make it just a little more. Cumming together was for fairy tales, and you weren’t going to be around to see the look on Chaewon’s face should you beat her to it. You bite your lip, your cheek, your hands press relentlessly into her breasts, her ass, anything that might distract you just a few more precious moments from the intense, quivering heat clenching around your shaft.

“Fuuuuuck.”

The word is long and drawn out. Through its vowels, it meanders from its initial register a scale of wildly salacious notes, each one more debauched and husked than the last, until finally it lands hard, crackling on those final consonants. Chaewon’s body goes rigid, landing forward again against the counter.

Leaning into her, you follow the curving rise of her spine, fingers digging harshly into the perfect shape of her ass—pulling her into the ends of your thrusts. She quivers and quakes, trembling through the storm of pleasure you’d both created between her legs. It clutches you, clenches around you.

“Fuck, Chae, I’m gonna fucking cum—”

A surprisingly lucid moment has you both staring into each other, Chaewon’s face twisted and strained—her eyebrows curling and her lip between her teeth—she nods. And on a particularly deep, rather unforgiving thrust, she takes you completely into her. The warmth envelops you and you begin to feel dizzy. You don’t even know how to describe the sound that leaves your lips, but it makes the tension building in your head more bearable all the same.

Chaewon’s cunt still quivering in ecstasy, you erupt.

Her voice rasps past your ears as you continue to fuck your cum into her, “Fuck—baby, that’s it, cum for me.”

As much as you want to continue soaking in the visual in front of you, the curve of her back, the flare of her hips, the flustered look on her face, your eyes shut tight. A primal instinct, involuntary and cruel. You feel each jolt from your hips delivering more of your hot release deep into Chaewon’s orgasm—clenching and pulling you further into her.

Your hips slow to a halt, your cock still resting in her, and Chaewon reaches up again, finding your lips in a clumsy kiss, her lips cool, wet and comforting. Heavy breaths shared between you start to rouse you back into reality and the noise of Chaewon’s phone buzzing stridently on the vanity rips you both back into the world of the living.

Minju’s smiling face appears atop her name on the dark screen—slowly vibrating its way to the edge of the counter. You pant, gathering enough breath to ask the obvious question, “Are you gonna answer that?”

Chaewon stares at it blankly for a couple seconds, weighing her options, before finally reaching forward and picking it up. Her breathing still beleaguered, she does her best attempt at whipping a composed voice together.

“No—we’re still—I know, I’m sorry.”

She mouths to you, pointing expectantly at the heap of clothes on the floor. And then she sees it.

“Were you wearing those socks the whole fucking time?—no, Minju, I mean—I’m sorry that was—” She gives you a sour look and tosses your jacket out the door. Holding her phone against her neck, Chaewon’s instructions are clear, “Check-in is at seven.”

DEPARTURE

male reader x hwang yeji

13k words

So far as you can tell, Yeji never loved you. A wish beyond your reach.

-

April, and you were barely seventeen. It was spring, but the weather hadn’t gotten wind of that just yet. So—cool, rainy, just like every April before it.

Yeji’s voice stuck a perfect landing in your ears. “You know what’s crazy?”

“No?” you responded cautiously.

“Apparently this stuff starts out as a wheat, or a rye. You believe that?”

You paused. “What the hell is rye?”

“It’s… well, it’s like a wheat.”

The wood crackled again, embers sent flying into the chill night air. Now that the fire had already begun burning out in front of you, you pulled your jacket tight around your shoulders.

“Okay. Ready? On three.”

“Wait a second.” You raised a finger in the air. “One, two, three?—or, one, two, three go?”

“Who on earth does one, two, three, go?”

“I dunno.”

Yeji twisted an eyebrow without saying anything and leaned forward to rest her elbows on her knees. The coals and dying gasps of the bonfire between you illuminated the sharp, perfected features of her face, casting a set of even sharper shadows.

“I mean some people do,” you added.

“Do I look like some people?”

That mischievous smirk again pulled at the corner of her lip. It was dark and hard to see, but you could feel it.

“You look like you’re trying to get me sick,” you said.

“Don’t be such a baby about it. Just do it with me.”

“On go?”

“On three.” She curled her lip, dissatisfied with you yet again. “One. Two. Three.”

Eyes closed, you tilted the cup back against your lips. A dark, dreadful liquor pooled in your cheeks. And against your better judgment, it finally seared its way down your throat. For a moment, it sat woefully in your stomach, like a question mark. Your eyes watered, your chest heaved, coughing and choking.

It took a beat, but eventually you would make peace with it, the beverage equivalent of a kick to the head. You were just thankful it had not elected to leave the same way it came.

“Ugh,” you sputtered, wiping your mouth with your sleeve. “I swear it’s like someone wondered what would happen if you tried to drink dirt.” Your eyes drew over the bonfire—or at least what was left of it—to find a face beaming with the smuggest grin you’d ever seen, the drink in her hands entirely untouched.

“Gotcha,” she lilted.

“Oh of course, you ass.”

Yeji’s hand covered a laugh, the corners of her mouth sneaking out from behind it. The sound of it alone made nearly puking worth it. She stood. And in one uninterested motion, tossed the contents of her cup—a kind of alcohol you’d only learn later in life could probably be used to start a car—right out into the grass. Twisting the insides of her jacket pockets, she sauntered around the pit, briefly lit in the spits and licks of the dying fire.

“Think there’s any room on that tree stump for one more?”

Her eyes, sharp and magnetic, always pulled you deeply into her. She held you in them for a moment, a long couple of moments, and the flickers of the fire painted bright streaks of gold in those whirlpools of deep, earthen brown. When she smiled, the corners of her eyes creased, snapping at your attention.

“You deaf?”

“Dunno. Depends,” you said, still clutching your chest and clearing your throat. “Who’s asking?”

Hwang Yeji. Your first kiss. Your first a lot of things actually. However for the sake of this story, your first kiss. It was somewhat crude how she’d stolen it off you too. Though still that was your fault mostly. It’s only fair that you got what was coming to you for the way you had dragged your feet.

A playful slap landed on your shoulder. “Scoot over.”

You think about it less and less now, and as a result, the actual details of it have begun to elude you. Obviously you remember kissing her—or rather her kissing you—but that’s just about all you remember. There’s the way it started; her fingers under your chin, dragging your eyes away from the pile of embers that glowed in the fire pit. And of course how it ended; a wide smile dimpling her cheeks as her lips pulled away from yours. But everything in between? Years after the fact? God, your guess is as good as anyone’s.

Still, in spite of their incompleteness, Yeji shows up in a lot of your memories, the good ones anyway. You tease them through your head time and time again just to make sure they’re still there, intact.

She’d been around for a lot of the growing up you had to do in school, persistently dissatisfied you wouldn’t do it any faster. Never before had you gotten that close to anyone, let alone someone as vibrantly charismatic and beautiful as her. Allowing yourself to think back on it, there was a lot of downtime, time where nothing in particular was happening at all—the walks home after classes and clubs, Saturday afternoons just spent hanging out on your parent’s couch, not to mention all those late night runs on the local Pelicana for more chicken wings than anyone should ever eat—it all seemed like such a big deal at the time (though arguably, Pelicana is still a big deal).

To be clear, no, the two of you never dated. It was far too difficult to describe it like that. When one of you would turn eyes to the other for comfort, for compassion, for a sincerity absent in those everyday flirtations, you’d always find her—or she’d find you—with eyes pointed away, thoughts elsewhere. Though that didn’t mean you wouldn’t get teased about it, relentlessly you might add. Your friends would see the Friday evenings and Sunday mornings you’d spend together on what must’ve looked like nothing other than what they were: dates.

But the truth was more complicated than you ever cared to explain. So—you let them think what they wanted. You’d always return back to them and field twenty questions about what the two of you got up to, if she was good at kissing, what position she liked, how she was down there, whatever the color was of the underwear she wore that day. You’d make up your own answers, the ones they wanted to hear. It always did shut them up.

So, officially, you were friends. And you were the first person she came to when she got the news.

“In Seoul, huh?” You shoved your hands in your pockets.

“Yep.”

“For how long?”

“No one knows.” She twisted at the collar of her shirt, pulling and turning it into a tight knot. “For some people it’s a year and then they know it’s not really gonna work out. For others it’s a whole lot longer.”

“Well, it’ll get pretty quiet around here then won’t it.”

Yeji smiled. “You’ll survive. I know you will.”

A brief silence hung between you, different from any of the other lulls in conversation or times just spent quietly in your thoughts. Dry leaves crunched and mashed as you walked, and you could hear the wind shake old tree branches of whatever was still left on them.

“I bet you’d be good at it.”

“What’s with that?” A muted laugh and Yeji’s eyes were again pointed up to the sky, as if she were counting stars. Always she was looking at the sky like that. You knew it. Maybe she knew it too. She didn’t belong here.

You let out a short sigh and shrugged your shoulders. “Just a hunch.”

-

Five years had passed now, and you still remember vividly the conversation that had become your last. A fresh blanket of snow over the street hadn’t yet been disturbed by the morning traffic. Yeji’s hands were balled into two tiny fists, hidden in the long sleeves of the overcoat of her school uniform, a hand-me-down from her older sister ostensibly. Her hair was tied back into a loose ponytail, a pair of white earmuffs sitting atop it, and for the first time you’d ever known, she searched and searched for that bright smile—only she came up empty.

She told you she was leaving. She told you she wasn’t coming back. And then without skipping a beat, tears welling in her eyes, she told you not to wait for her.

See, our memories are a rather peculiar thing. In the backyard of that party neither of you belonged at, when the two of you were kissing beside those dying embers, you thought it’d be the memory you always play back in your head, clutching it tightly to your breast like your life depended on it. But truth be told, you can’t even tell at this point what’s fact and what you’ve since fabricated to fill the gaps.

As fate would have it, it’s that scene—in the middle of your driveway at four-fifteen in the morning—you remember it perfectly. While it played out, you made no special notice of it. You’d never stopped to think what a lasting impression it would make on you, how five years after the fact you’d manage to recall it in excruciating detail.

You had paid no attention to all that scenery around you either, the stars disappearing to make way for the sun, the sound of snow crunching beneath your feet, the gentle hum of the electric generator heating your home, or the white puffs of air that leaked off your chest. No, you were paying attention to yourself, the things you felt. You were paying attention to that unfairly beautiful girl standing arm’s length in front of you. Your thoughts wandered about the two of you together, and then again, retired solemnly back to yourself.

To make matters worse, you were in love. A troublesome, frustrating, complicated love.

With very little to say, you said very little. She said she’d call. She didn’t. You understood. Time passed. And then some. Later, you’d hammer out a drunken text message on New Year’s Eve the next year. A final albeit clumsy effort to hold your world together. Sent, but never opened.

And that was it. There was little else to do about it. You figured it was time to move on. Not that you had even an inkling of an idea how. Playing it back again in your head only ever filled your teary eyes with an almost unbearable sorrow. Realizing you’d never know if Yeji loved you.

-

It’s October and you’ll soon be twenty-four. The seat belt sign above you lights up. The cabin shakes and struggles. And your ears ring as the aircraft begins its descent onto a runway at Heathrow Airport. You typically enjoyed the window seat to get a good picture of where it was you were arriving—even if it wasn’t new—the layouts of highways, parks, train stations, large construction projects, all the things that made a city unique. But by the time the aircraft breaks through dark cloud cover, the only thing you can see beyond the ground crew in rain jackets and the chain linked fences around the tarmac, beyond the cold autumn rain beating down upon it, is that unyielding, gloomy sky. Again—London.

Buckles unlatch and passengers stand, gathering their belongings from the overhead bins. You remain stuck in your seat, chin resting on your hand, gazing at the backpack of the woman across the aisle—the contents that peek out of it blindsiding you: a copy of Vogue magazine with five unbelievably gorgeous faces on it, Yeji’s most noticeably staring back at you.

You’d groan out loud if you weren’t surrounded by people. It was becoming untenable.

Most of the reason you’d taken your job abroad was to keep from seeing her at every turn. There were the advertisements, the billboards, the promotional material you’d find on buses, subways, anywhere with decent foot traffic really, and that’s just what you could see. Her voice was always in your ear, and her name on the tip of everyone’s tongue.

And now it seems that even all the way out here, on a short flight from Zurich to London, that plan to escape her is already now showing delicate cracks in its optimistic veneer.

Perhaps it was the way your lips twist, or how your eyebrows furrow—you’ll never know—but a stewardess feels it within reason to check up on you, to see how you’re doing. She asks first in German, and then in French, and then finally in English that you can understand.

“I’m okay—just a little lightheaded.”

“Are you sure?”

“I’m fine, thanks,” you say, pulling your gatherings together from beneath your seat.

-

You’re not crazy, no more than anyone else. So it logically follows that you don’t believe in ghosts. At least certainly not in the colloquial sense. And the queue for immigration and customs at London Heathrow Airport has to be about the last place on earth anyone would choose to loiter about for eternity. But those ones you create for yourself? The ones that haunt you?

“I told you! I packed them in a little gray bag! The one you threw across the room at me!”

Those are real.

“Why the hell would you pack them away—when it’s the first thing you’re going to need to get off the plane?”

“Maybe I packed them away safely because we’d need them first thing.”

Yeji waves her hand flippantly at the girl beside whose hair was dyed a garish blonde. She rolls her eyes with enough disdain that it drags her face over her shoulder. You watch her do a double, a triple take and your eyes lock with hers. Be it accident, be it fate, it doesn’t matter—it makes it hard to breathe. You shake your head, blink your eyes, but the two of you are stuck in each other’s gaze like it were a finger trap, unable to look away.

Nevertheless there’s some part of you still that refuses to believe in what is now a few feet in front of you. The same scene, playing out back home—assuredly there would be no end to the camera flashes and people chasing and begging for autographs. If anything, the only interest it gathers here, halfway around the world, is impatience from the scowls of grumpy travelers who’d rather be anywhere else.

“Yeji?” The girl beside her, whom you now absolutely recognize—god, you wish it was a mystery to you, what all Yeji had been up to since she walked right out of your life—she asks again, frustrated, “are you even listening to me?”

“Hang on. Give me a second.”

She walks with purpose, an insatiable curiosity gnawing at her thoughts. Those heeled boots that tucked in the bottom of her jeans tap loudly against the concrete beneath your feet. And her hair bounces in place against the shoulder of a beige knit sweater on each step. The baggy garment’s sleeves are long, just as she always liked them, hiding her hands in their cuffs as she marches toward you.

Each step leads into the next with such grace and poise it leaves you frozen. Yeji had always been easy on the eyes. And of course you’d seen her everywhere, seen the beautiful woman she’d grown into, taking mental note of it more times than you could count. But even your most particular memories—no matter how bold you chose to remember her—they never could’ve imagined this confidence, the way she carried herself with such raw assurance and certainty.

She sweeps the hair out of her face, looking up at you, confirming exactly what it was she thought she saw. Glistening, her eyes widen, and she holds you in them for the first time in years. You can feel your chest tighten and your stomach twist—she’s so unbelievably pretty it hurts. It’s something like the way you experience a master painting, a Rembrandt or a Hals, by not only letting it steal your breath from far away, but also up close, where you might appreciate the brush strokes.

Shaking her head, laughing quietly to herself in disbelief, she leaps headlong into the silence. “What are you doing here?”

See, this had been a scenario you’d puzzled over a million times in your head already. She’d find you, or perhaps you’d find her, and the two of you would smile, before saying something cute, something that would instantly return you to where you left things five years ago. But even in the pages of your most speculative efforts, it would never quite look like this. You struggle to remember any of those quippy one-offs you thought you’d say. In fact, the breath you draw in, swirling knots of air in your chest, it simply finds no words to speak at all. Upon realizing its uselessness, it falls off your tongue, silent.

After all, you hadn’t talked to her in years. What reason do you have that makes you think you’d start now?

“Yeji, I—” Even her name is a cursed utterance at this point, the way it makes you strain and choke. It takes you a moment, but a dry laugh leads your response upon realizing the absurdity of the question. “Yeji, I live here.”

“You live here?” Her eyes open further in shock. “What? Why?”

“Work.” It wasn’t a lie, but the simplest answer conveniently hid the fact you’d picked up your entire life and settled thousands of kilometers to get away from her.

She furrows her brow and tilts her head inquisitively. “You’re pulling my leg.”

“Well, I’m certainly not on vacation.”

She crosses her arms, thinking for a moment before blurting out the first thing that came to her head as she was so often wont to do. Raking her fingers through her hair, gathering stares of everyone around you, she finally responds, “I’m just—I’m having a hard time—I really had no idea.”

Accusative, “I mean… Yeji. Does that surprise you?”

Her lips narrow and tuck against her teeth. She twists the collar of her sweater between two perfectly manicured fingernails, painted dark with meticulous white detailing. Further and further, she knots it beneath the pale skin of her neck. It’s the same anxious tic she’d always indulge. 

Her voice, tender and choked up, reaches out to you “I’m sorry.”

You hadn’t much to respond to it. Your thoughts were tied and shackled to the fact that you were now suddenly eighteen again, staring down the barrel of the girl who broke your heart. Again, tongue-twisted, you search the look on Yeji’s face—eyebrows knit together, and the corner of her lip pulled back into an unsure smile. It defies logic—and reasonably so—it’s beyond the grave, the relationship you thought you’d buried years ago.

-

“And so when we got off the plane, we were still missing the better half of our passports.” Yeji pulls her shoulders up into a hopeless shrug, her hands still in her pockets. “I guess they’re just going to sit and wait in customs until someone can do something about it.”

“Bleak.”

“Tell me about it.”

“You’re just gonna leave them there?”

Yeji laughs to herself. “Trust me, I need a break from those girls. And now you’re here? Talk about a silver lining.”

The two of you had made a loop around the terminal concourse god knows how many times now. You could feel the strain of walking the circuit start to make your knees ache and your muscles sting, but you weren’t about to complain.

Things felt different, but also not so far off from the way they always were. Both of you were older, more mature, found more interesting things to talk about. Your words carried a certain edge to them, a cleverness that might not have been so present back then, but still—Yeji talked, and you listened. That’s how it always was. And Yeji could talk for hours.

She stops short, finding a railing to lean herself against. And she asks, “What are you doing out here anyway?”

“Well believe it or not, I passed the national service exam—” You pause with your mouth agape, remembering just how badly you wished you could’ve told her while holding a shredded letter in one hand and the results in the other. “And now I’m here.”

“Like in an embassy or something?”

“Yep.”

Her eyes light up. “Really?”

“It’s half as cool as it sounds,” you say, running your fingers through your hair, “I stamp visas for a living.”

“Ugh.” Yeji punches playfully at your shoulder. “I could’ve used you about two hours ago.”

That’s not how any of it worked of course, but you weren’t about to correct her.

She quickly shoves in front of you a more interesting question, “so you’ve gotta live pretty close to here I imagine.”

“I dunno. How close is forty minutes?”

“Close enough.” Nearly jumping, she stands herself up onto her feet. “C’mon. I’m not going to forgive you if you don’t show me your place.”

You study her face for a clue, a hint, a tell—surely she was joking. Though you realize it soon enough: those arching brows above her eyes remain resolute, cheeks refuse to dimple, and her long, dark eyelashes don’t even dare to flutter. Nothing moves an inch.

You swallow hard. “You don’t have anywhere to be?”

“Manager told me to go straight to the room and read a book or something.”

“Then shouldn’t you go to your room and read a book or—”

“Uhh-uh. No way.” A smirk and her eyes sharpen. “I’ve got the rest of my life to follow the rules.”

-

So, now—there you are, your jacket drawn over both your heads, a poor excuse of an umbrella. Holding open the door to the backseat of a cab for the most spectacularly gorgeous woman you’d ever known, the girl who shattered your heart into a million pieces and then some. In your pocket, a text message on your phone, curious about your flight home—the girl you’d been casually seeing for the past couple weeks—waits for a response.

Though truthfully, you haven’t a clue what you’re doing.

The ride to your apartment is mostly quiet, listening close to the sounds of rain against the windows and the occasional turn signal from the driver’s seat. And for the first time you’ve ever recognized, the silence between you makes you feel uneasy. You had a thousand questions burning a hole in the pocket of your heart and you didn’t even know where to begin. Those questions, they weren’t interested in her schedules, the places she’d been, the things she’d seen, her life in the limelight, how she’d eventually introduce herself to all the heroes and idols you’d known as a kid. In fact, it’s the same way a map that has too much information is effectively useless at helping you navigate. You needed to ask her where you were. Where you stood. Where you were going.

It’s been ages since you’d both had a girl in your apartment and the two of you weren’t immediately en route to your bedroom. You struggle to call back to how your parents might host a guest in your home.

“Yeji,” you yell from in front of your refrigerator, “can I get you something to drink? Coffee? Tea?”

“It’s a little late for caffeine don’t you think?” The cushions of your couch groan as Yeji collapses into them. “A beer would hit the spot if you have one though. Especially after today.”

You scan the contents of a mostly empty fridge and find it, raising your eyebrows at the six pack on the shelf in front of you, one beer already missing from its cardboard holder. It was mostly the thing you were hoping to avoid.

“It’s nice,” she says, grabbing the beer out of your hand and taking in the view of your apartment. “Cleaner than I expected too.”

“That’s not really a compliment now is it?”

Her shoulders shrug as she pops the tab of the drink and lifts it to her lips. A refreshed ‘ah’ precedes her. “It does feel a little like I’m sitting in an IKEA showroom though.”

“Yeah. Well, guilty as charged I guess.”

She laughs, head on a swivel, taking note of—silently judging—your furnishings. “I mean you are probably the only person I know—” She stands, wandering through your apartment to the wall between your living room and your kitchen. “With a calendar that has no pictures, words, or anything.” She rifles its pages with her thumb. “It’s just a damn calendar. You don’t even mark it or anything.”

“It’s functional.”

“It’s weird.”

Rain continues to pelt down on your windows, permeating the brief silences between your conversations, but soon you can barely notice it. It becomes so natural the way you wrap yourself up in her stories, and hers in yours. And if the hour hand moving quickly about the face on your clock above the mantle was at all an indicator, neither of you had any deficiency of things to share.

Though still, there remained something noticeably off. You’d spent a lifetime listening to Yeji, and it was always so effortless the way she commanded your attention. But the nature of her speaking, it was although she were a machine struggling with a loose bolt or a stripped screw. See, it was the space between the stories that had your curiosity piqued. She’d start to tell you about subject A and move quickly into subject B and then before you knew it you were in subject C with no real rhyme or reason. You recognized the incongruity immediately, but it took a few beers and hours of listening to pinpoint the cause.

She’d start. Her voice soothing and relaxing. You’d both reminisce. And the moment the story began to find itself concerned with you, with the two of you, she’d swerve around it. Like a car trying to avoid a squirrel that foolishly darts across the highway.

It’s what makes it all the more surprising when she asks a simple question, “So—are you seeing anyone right now?”

You have to clear your throat before you can answer. “Kinda. On and off. You?”

“Yeah; kinda. On and off.” She sinks her gaze into her lap. “She nice?”

“She’s fine.”

“Good.” Her eyes, glistening up at you from under her lashes, find you again. “You deserve a nice girl.”

It had been one of those questions aching to leap off your heart and onto your tongue. And now that it had been asked—and so succinctly answered—you felt robbed of everything it was supposed to give you. A deafening silence fills the room. The clock ticks mercilessly and you listen again to the rain coming down on your windows.

You can feel it. You’d be shocked if she couldn’t feel it. That unceasing tension. Yeji stands, pulling the hem of her sweater around her thighs, selfishly hiding the curves of her hips along with it. “It’s late. I should probably get going.”

And then with hardly any flash or fanfare, she hugs you. Her arms refuse to linger and the purposeful gap between your chests remains obstinate and unmovable. You show her the door and she takes a long step through it. She smiles, her eyes creasing, but her mouth barely moves.

“Till next time,” you say, wondering when that might ever be.

“Till next time—good night.”

You wave. She waves back. And the door closes—the evening along with it.

That was it. Again. Sifting like sand through your fingers. So consistently she could just walk away from you and be done with it. Every time you’d imagined this miracle meeting in your head, it would start like it did. But then ultimately the two of you would always tear each other’s clothes off in frustration. So that two broken souls might ever become whole again.

But you know it now. Yeji was never broken. For as long as you’d ever known her, she was like a rocket, launching onto a journey to the furthest stars in the night sky. Face pointed away. Thoughts elsewhere. She never really looked at you. And because of that you often wept.

So far as you can tell, Yeji never loved you. A wish beyond your reach.

Your head hangs against the wall beside the door and you gaze at your feet, maybe hoping to find some comfort hidden away in the striped pattern on your socks. You consider for a moment simply just standing outside on the balcony, letting the rain soak you completely in your clothes.

A knock at your door holds you accountable for at least a moment longer.

You sigh. It’s unfair really. Cruel even. She stands in front of you again. Only this time her hair slightly damp, raindrop stains on the shoulders of her sweater. You feel the stitch on your heart—a delicate, haphazard patchwork of time—its last suture coming undone. And boy, does that hurt.

“Hey, sorry. I realized I have no idea how to call a taxi. Can you lend me a—”

It can’t be instantaneous. But you don’t quite know how it happens either. Something pushed you to drag her through that opening and your hands held Yeji’s face, backing her against the door, now shut. Her eyes become stuck on you and her lips part. If she says anything, it’s far too hard to hear beyond that dull drum of blood, beating loudly between your ears. A shared breath, slow and purposeful, fills your lungs and hers.

Boldly, without reservation, you leap. Thousands of kilometers apart, reduced to a distance known now only by breaths hot across your cheeks, you find her again.

It’s soft the way you kiss her, as though you hadn’t done it hundreds of times, more of a question than it could ever be an answer. Her lips are soft, cool and wet, unbelievably perfect. A breeze through your hair on a hot summer day. In fact, they’re everything you remember, even competing midst those memories you’d embellished. Your fingers run through the smooth locks of Yeji’s hair that bundle in your hands, cold to the touch. It quickly becomes a handle, a grip, tilting her head up toward you as you pull her tight into your chest.

Her lower lip quivers gently against yours, and in a single shuddering breath, gathers itself enough to kiss you back. Hands grabbing tight around your shoulders, she lets a soft cry sink into your mouth.

You could listen to her talk for hours. And you did. But you needed to hear her say it—the way her lips capture yours, the way she tells you she missed you. It’s not some grand romantic gesture. There is no sunset, or gentle call of the ocean waves, no extraordinary vista, no candlelit room to bathe you in its soft glow. There is only Yeji, and that alone makes it perfect.

Her voice falters against you; the sound it makes whenever she’d need to hold back a tear or two. “Thank god the dumb taxis are so confusing…”

You kiss her again. That’s all you know. The only way to possibly make right of this strange world.

It’s wild. Pressed firmly against your face is hers—the one you couldn’t stop seeing; the one that demanded so selfishly the attention of cameras and eyes around the world; only it had managed to seize your heart so very long ago. The roundness in her cheeks spreads around you and her nose struggles against yours. You hold her lips tight, the ever persistent worry they might disappear from you again forever biting at your thoughts.

Even though it’s not within your means to fall for her any harder than you have, you do. You always do.

“Mnph…” A quiet smack arrives on your lips. Another one. She starts to find an old rhythm, the way she used to kiss you when she was angry, when she was overwhelmed, or whenever she was just plain wound up. You grab a fistful of a sweater and turn her away from the door, stepping slowly into the foyer of your apartment.

The only thing more desperate than the lips pressed against yours becomes Yeji’s fingers, clutching tightly against the fabric of your shirt. Hums and moans pour from her throat to meet yours. She sways and sinks, leaning against the closet door you’d left open in the middle of the hallway. Her mouth tightens and you recognize the shy smile that fills across it.

Her cheeks, rosy now, burn bright against you and her voice rasps. “Don’t you dare go anywhere.”

You had nowhere to be. Hell, you were already home. It’s confusing when you think about it. So you choose not to as best you can. Instead, you tease gently at the backs of her thighs, the roughness of denim meeting your fingertips. It’s Pavlovian perhaps, the way she jumps into your arms at your touch—never forgetting those secret traditions shared between you.

Her arms around your neck and her thighs over your elbows, you grip as timidly as might ever be possible onto the two handfuls of Yeji’s ass filling out between your fingers. Though you realize quick that whatever worries you harbor still are unnecessary, that strange boundary between clearly crossed. A soft moan, and her tongue begins to invade your mouth, marking and claiming the space she determined might just as well belong to her.

There’s this instant familiarity your hands find on Yeji’s body. Her svelte frame beneath that baggy sweater is the same perfect shape you’d held onto god knows how many times. The way she kisses you, pulling and massaging at the swell of your lip, it’s as though you’d never missed a beat, as though it had been Yeji’s kisses alone you found comfort in for the last five years. Though now, the flavor of her lipstick is noticeably different. It’s far more muted than the cheap fruity stuff she used to buy, but you recognize that taste of need and want off her lips still all the same.

Your fingers squeeze at the soft, pliable flesh that stretches all along Yeji’s thighs and rear, still protected by that sturdy pair of jeans—an obstacle now to be overcome. Feet and legs swing behind you as you step your haphazard union down the hallway. With any luck, she won’t knock any of the pictures or posters off your walls.

A light bite at your lip sends a surge of fiery pain down your neck. At that, you push Yeji’s back to the wall, another door behind her rattling in its frame and a soft moan escaping her chest.

She whispers against your cheek, “This your bedroom?”

“No. Not quite. Laundry.”

“Ah. Well, as nice as that sounds; I’ve already got a washer at home—isn’t there some place that’s better for—ya know—the two of us?”

Thoughts stuck on the idea of Yeji sitting atop yours, hers, any washing machine and getting herself off makes your pants tighten. You groan softly, repositioning her weight in your hands and pulling her away from the door. “Bed or sofa?’

"You tell me.”

You consider it for just a moment, unable to remember the state you’d left your room in before your trip. Is your bed made? Are your clothes put away? No idea. So you don’t tell her. You show her. Holding her tight, you navigate a brief waddle into your living room and your hands release her from their grips, sending her into the cushions of the couch beneath you.

“Really? On the leather—”

“Don’t care,” you stop the complaint before it has time to marinate in your head. You knew she was right.

Her voice rattles at a faux concern, “what would IKEA think?”

“They’d be wondering who the two good-looking people on their couch are. Or how they got a free promotion out of you—who knows.”

She stifles a laugh and motions her hands to your shoulders. “Come here, you.”

She fits underneath your weight—your arms around her shoulders, and her legs entwined amidst yours—with such incredible ease. You sink into a kiss against the pale, tender skin that you find beneath her jaw. It’s delicate, easy to bruise, and it begs for a roughness only your lips could ever hope to provide. The more-than-welcome touch coaxes a moan, breathy and sudden, from her chest—a sound you’d only heard in your thoughts for so long.

Her fingers tease at the hem of your shirt, pulling it up along your chest and off over your head. “I missed you.”

“You have no idea.”

“Well—maybe some idea,” she says, a hand quietly brushing against the hardness she finds at the front of your pants.

You trail up along her neck, the ridge of her jaw, until again you find your way back to the swell of Yeji’s soft, plump, ever-so-kissable lips. Your knee between her thighs, pushing her legs around you, legs that wrap and hook onto the backs of yours, knocks on the rise of her jeans. She lets out a quiet whimper, the sound reverberating through your chest.

There’s this thing about the way Yeji kisses you. Her hands run along your scalp, burying themselves in your hair. And she steals kisses off your lips with such an immediate urgency, with a hunger of someone who’d been starved for so long. You’d have chalked it up to the lapse of time you spent apart, years spent finding, failing love in different places, but she has always been like this—needy.

“Ugh,” she sighs, amusing her hands on the shape of your chest, your back, your neck. She’s careful not to let the pointed tips of her fingernails scratch deeply at your skin, lightly caressing her way down to where your pants sit on your waist. Though you admire the thought, you had no intention of letting this woman undress you first.

Defiant, you lift your lips off hers. And a suspicious expression fills in the sharp features of her face. You can feel the skepticism building in those eyes that look you over.

“What’s the matter?” she asks, quietly trying to pull your shoulders back down to where she wanted you.

“I, uh—” You give your throat a good, solid clearing. “I’m going to take your clothes off. Right now.”

Yeji raises an eyebrow, scooting up and resting on an elbow. “Talk about forward.”

“No real use pussyfooting around it now.”

Yeji twists her lip between her teeth and then slowly, she draws a line with her finger from your belly button, along your stomach and up your sternum until it holds your chin, making you look down your nose at her. “Someone teach you how to finally be direct with your words while I was gone?”

Maybe. Maybe not. You’d spent a good deal of time now practically inoculated to the fear of rejection from other girls—considering you’d already seen the worst of it. “Something like that.”

“Then tell me Mr. Straight-shooter. What do you want to take off first?”

“First?” you say, letting a smirk drag at your mouth. “Well—no shoes on the sofa. House rule.”

One thud, and then another as Yeji kicks off her boots onto the floor behind her. She keeps the intensity in her eyes locked on you—smoldering. “What else?”

“The sweater has gotta go.”

“Only if you promise to keep me warm—”

“Easy—deal.”

Yeji squirms out from underneath you while the sound of rain continues beating the side of your apartment. Your hands offer what is probably unnecessary help, grabbing onto the hem of her sweatshirt, scrunching it up along the toned muscles of her stomach. And after a short struggle, off over the top of her head, you reveal her slender, gorgeous figure.

She refuses to lose you in her cat-like eyes still for even a second. Even while she airs the garment out between her hands, neatly folds it, and gently sets it down onto your coffee table.

It ought to be criminal to be as charming and beautiful as Yeji is. She’s got these delicate collarbones, shoulders that round off the tops of her arms and run the distance to the skin on her neck you yourself couldn’t get enough of—there’s a tiny freckle here and there, none of them as prominent as the one that proudly sits on the bridge of her nose—though there’s nothing she has that no one else doesn’t, it’s the way everything manages to come together, like the final piece of a jigsaw puzzle, lightly fitting itself in place—it’s simply perfect.

“You’re staring.”

You blink yourself out of that momentary trance before letting yourself laugh about it. Clearing your throat, you smile and return the jeer, “Yeji—absolutely I am.”

Standing herself from the couch, she smiles at you with her eyes. Her fingers tease under the waistband of her jeans—the biggest challenge of what all was left—and she asks, “I’m guessing you want these too?”

“I mean look—you know how it is. House rules and all.”

“Those pesky rules again, huh.” She laughs quietly to herself. “Whoever it is that came up with them—I’d like to give them a piece of my mind.”

You simply shrug. That nothing I can do about it message clear enough as she begins to unbutton the top of her pants.

The fact that she has to wiggle her hips to peel the tight denim from her waist and down her thighs is a show in itself. Inch by inch, slowly, meticulously, she reveals her legs to you—long and unending, toned and sculpted now in that manner that only the physical regimen of someone like her might yield. A pair of high cut athletic underwear—gray and pilling at its edges—hardly matches the navy nylon bra cupping Yeji’s soft breasts against her chest. But it’s not like you were going to complain about it. After all, she’d been traveling. Not to mind the fact you’d have to be insane to find anything worth complaining over in the visage standing in front of you.

She saunters over to where you now sit on the sofa, each step every bit as deliberate as the last. You can’t help but bring your face against her stomach as Yeji arrives in front of you. With your lips you can feel the goosebumps that rise atop the smooth skin across her abs, your kisses running the edge of her bottom-most ribs.

Her fingers stroke through your hair, and she lets her voice reach down to your ears. “Hey, I’m cold.”

Those soft, ephemeral hairs that stand on end along her stomach, her back and the skin along her thighs corroborated the statement. However between her legs, where the darkened gray fabric hugged tightly against her entrance, where you could make out the shape of her lips imprinted into it, she was anything but cold.

Kissing her stomach again with lips that drag against the taut, velvety skin they find all over it, you place your fingers against that warmth. It’s instant—the quick spasm her diaphragm makes, knocking on your forehead, and Yeji gasps for air.

You follow the long, endless curves of her leg until it arrives on a perfect handful of ass that spills through the gaps in your fingers—fingers that tuck and dive into the back of her underwear, the thin fabric easy to twist and manipulate. Delighted, you listen close to how Yeji pulls fast breaths through her chest as you start to tease her body.

Your voice nearly chokes as you tell her what both of you already so clearly understood.

“Do you have any idea how bad I want you?”

Yeji’s eyes lock with yours, her chin tucked against her chest. “Show me.”

Now, it’s important to mention again that this girl had left you absolutely devastated. In the years since she’d left, you wouldn’t have described yourself as particularly loose or rakish, but you weren’t ever one to turn down an opportunity at finding a momentary comfort in the embrace of another either. And the first chances came fast. Home for winter break along with everyone else, suffocating in nostalgia—a handful of girls you’d gone to school with would only see Yeji’s sudden disappearance as something to celebrate, a long awaited opportunity. It was shocking how fast they pounced on you.

It always felt good—for a second. And it’d wear off fast as they spent more time than you ever cared for snuggling up to you as if the sex was anything to write home about. The worst was when all you wanted to do was turn over in the cheap hotel sheets and they’d start to ask you a million questions: How was university going? Are your grades good? Do you have a girlfriend? What’s your blood type? Do you have a career in mind? How much money do you think you’ll make? Do you think my boobs are too small? Should we get breakfast in the morning? When will I see you again?—it was endless.

You put up with it for the most part. It helped you forget if at least for a moment what a shitty hand of cards you’d been dealt. There was a predictable formula too—you’d meet up for drinks, and before the waiter could take orders for seconds, you and her were making out on the curb, waiting for a cab. The hotel room lights would flip on (or stay off, depending on how horny and desperate you were). And you’d begin that necessary formality of going down on her—so that she might let you use her as you pleased. Always mechanical, robotic, transactional.

But Yeji’s legs resting on your shoulders, your face inches away from the damp fabric covering her hole, you wanted nothing other than to take your time.

It’s not too unlike the way you’d pluck at keys on the piano. Some touches quiet and pleasing to the ear, some loud and heavy and boisterous—you tease your fingers around the ‘V’ of cloth between her thighs, some notes playing soft subtle whimpers and others a lilting moan.

“Mmmph…” Yeji raises her hips gently, the backs of her knees rubbing at your shoulders. Impatient—rightfully so—she lifts the edge of her underwear, pulling it aside and offering you her glistening entrance. She’s wet, sopping and needy, and she’s begging for you.

Your kisses continue along the inside of a thigh, lingering longer and longer against the creamy skin that leads you to her heat. That addictive smell of sweat, lust and excitement fills your nose alongside the long breath you draw through your chest.

The way your palm brushes against her swollen clit makes Yeji shudder and jolt her hips—your finger diving down between the cleft of her bare lips to where she was really just utterly soaked. You trade your mouth across the gap to the other thigh you’d neglected, but Yeji can only reward you with her frustration—"please.“

Maybe it’s because she’s always had this intense look about her—like she could take on the world with one hand behind her back and win—and it’s not like you haven’t noticed the way her company plays it up either. The girl you knew who was always fierce, plucky—lionhearted—the face looking at you now, eyes down her nose over the top of two navy clad breasts, it’s so soft. Even those sharp eyes, so often beguiling, had become tender—filling fast with lust and want and need and desire—like she’s pleading for you to save her, to rescue her, in the ways only your mouth and fingers might ever know how.

"Please—I need it,” she rasps.

“Yeji,” you weave into the sounds of her whines. “Trust—I’m gonna take good care of you.”

Your mouth hovers against her. And just above where your fingers play and tease at her folds, your lips part. It’s not on purpose, and it’d be a little cruel if it were, but a hot, wet breath spills lax from lungs, off your tongue and out of your mouth. It crashes and collides, rolling and tumbling about the aching skin around her hole. It’s not possible to touch someone less if you tried—and it brings Yeji to wit’s end.

She sucks a sudden, whistling bout of air past her teeth. Her fingers thread themselves through your hair and pull you into her. Your nose meets her hip, tickled by the soft patch of neatly trimmed hair she saves for you, and you watch her head roll back on her shoulders. A reveal of the raw, tender skin you’d all but bruised along her neck and her whole body sighs, her body saying, without speaking, finally.

Yeji hums in delight as you take care of her. There’s your tongue, brushing up and down the hoods and folds of delicious skin that struggle to contain the scorching heat that burns fast between them—your hands, one teasing the narrow depths at the tightness just beyond her entrance, the other holding her hip, firm, to keep it from evading you—your unapologetic lips, grasping and sucking around her clit—your tongue again tapping and caressing it.

“Fuck,” she hisses.

A word that is so usually rough and abhorrent and grizzled, and it’s never sounded so elegant. You can only imagine how bottled a profanity like it must be—there’s such oppressive decorum to follow when you’re on television, soundbites repeating like a million broken records across the internet, a voice that speaks for all to hear. And that goes doubly so for someone like her.

You dive into her, hard, and she rewards you with the airy, sing-song moans that fill your apartment, meshing themselves against the unyielding pitter-patter of rain.

“Oh my god—you’ve got some real talent.” A thick, strained laughter leaves her throat and Yeji collapses back into the cushions of the sofa, brown leather now dark and staining with her wetness, a problem for tomorrow. Perhaps unfixable; worst case scenario, you could always get a new couch.

Rain hits hard against your home. It mixes a delightful track to your onslaught and a finger brings Yeji to her knees.

“Please, please, please—keep doing that.”

It doesn’t have to search far, the soft pad of your fingertip finding that familiar stretch of dangerously sensitive skin. You curl at the knuckle—and Yeji becomes an extension of your will—her hips quake, relaxing only when you do. Your finger flexes. You tap, rub and tease. Each time a reaction, more wild and unrestrained than the last.

“F-Fuck. Just right—there,” she squeals.

Her thighs wrap tight against your ears, all those sounds of your apartment quickly mute and muffled. The fruits of your labor pool, run wet, beading into droplets at the bottom of your chin.

“Please do—not—stop,” she begs, breathing fast and heavy. Her eyes find you again, lip twisted mercilessly between those perfect teeth. And at a quiver that shakes and pulls her muscles taut—she closes her eyes and she growls through gritted teeth, “you’re gonna make me fucking cum.”

There were a lot of memories you struggle now to piece together. Like having dropped a stack of papers or a pile of laundry, each time you bend down to pick something up, you’ve lost another in its stead. It’s become its own awful tragedy in a sense. But if there’s anything imprinted so permanently into the deep inner workings of your thoughts—you remember when Yeji cums, she cums hard.

Entirely overwhelmed, Yeji pushes your tongue away from her overstimulated bud. Her fingers grip tight at your hair, and she locks and clenches her body around your fingers. That twisted, unrestrained expression, eyes clenching and lips curling into a beautiful ‘O,’ she finds the release she so desperately needs.

All kinds of sounds, full of watery, anguished breaths, and whimpered moans leak through the seal her thighs make around your ears. You recognize a few words, a lot of them curses and profane mewling—nonsense mostly—but just as readily, your name gets thrown haphazardly into that lustful mix. Perhaps for good measure.

It’s only once she’s let those waves of pleasure dissipate through her entire body, squeezing and gripping you in the vice her legs make around you, that she lets herself relax and releases you to speak.

“Well that was something,” you tease, wiping your mouth and chin with the back of a wrist, “been a while?”

“Oh—come—on,” she says, heavy breaths still laboring to catch up to her, “don’t be cute. It’s not my fault if you’ve been practicing.”

You smirk, lifting yourself up and finally freeing your legs of those stiff pants that were struggling impossibly to keep your cock calm and demure. “So? What now?”

Yeji returns herself to a halfway decent posture, the sweat on her back sticking to the leather as she does so. “What do you think?”

“Hmm.” Shuffling your pants free from your thighs you tap at your chin, playful. “How many guesses are you giving me?”

“Zero. Get those things off. I’m gonna ride the fuck out of you.”

“Yeah?” A bout of laughter forces your smile. “I can’t help but wonder what people might think if they heard ITZY’s fearless leader talking like that.”

Standing, she slides that pair of soaked underwear down off her legs, and in a quick practiced motion, hooks an ankle behind yours. A push and you’re sent tumbling into the couch.

“What? You don’t think they’d be cranking one out to it?”

“The girls or the boys?”

She smirks. “Both. Though I imagine it would be all together kinda frustrating, huh?” She puzzles, straddling your legs. “Never being able to actually fuck me.”

It’s unclear to you if she always preferred being on top because she forced it out of you, or if it’s because you let her—but that’s how it goes. Your cock is already at full attention, standing proud like it wanted Yeji to know it needed her. It twitches noticeably as she rubs her pussy against it.

“What’s the matter? Been a while?”

“Yeah, because it’s so easy to get off on a business trip.”

“Mnh-nh. I don’t want to hear excuses.” She teases the head of your cock between the soaking lips of her pussy, kissing your tip with her heat.

Her lips purse, her eyes shut and she blows a purposeful breath of cool air out of her chest, out the narrow hole her mouth makes—an enticing shape you’ll have trouble getting out of your head—as she begins to take you into her, adjusting to the shape of your cock.

You both groan, two wildly different noises, but the same heavenly feeling communicated. She holds the base of your shaft steady with her fingers as you’re pushed past the muscles clamping around you. It’s warm and it’s wet and it’s fucking unbelievably tight. It’s enough to make you feel dizzy, stars appearing in your eyelids.

“Phew.” Yeji drags her knees toward, sitting back on your cock. “That always feels so fucking good. Don’t worry I’ll go slow.”

“Yeah, sure—but it has been a while, right?”

Leaning forward, she smiles against your cheek. “If that’s what you want me to say, then yeah—sure, it’s been a long while.”

“I’m ignoring that.” You reach your hands up onto her waist, the soft curve of her hips making for two perfect handles. “I’m ignoring you.”

She laughs, the melodic sound again filling your head. “That’s fine—but I’m not going to let you ignore this.”

There’s this moment, her ass suspended high above your hips, the tip of your cock barely held in place by her pussy’s grip. You’ve felt it before on roller coasters mostly, at the peak of the tallest drop—the car hanging in suspense, the strangest knot twisting in your stomach. Of course, the moment doesn’t last long. No, not when Yeji slides herself down along your length in the quickest of motions, the base of your cock kissing those wet lips again.

A sound, not particularly describable or even repeatable punches through your throat, and your eyes widen.

And then she does it again.

Quick, your voices melt into one another, the pleasure that rips through your thoughts—from the entire length of your cock buried deeper into her cunt than either of you can pretend to not notice. It’s immaculate.

But it’s fucking dangerous.

You’d noticed them before—those legs that she’d worked on for years, built and perfected by hours in the gym. See, she lifts herself up on your length again, some crude combination of cum, spit and sweat leaving a sticky trail between your thighs. A soft moan announces the end of the motion and then without remorse or hesitation, she finds herself flush against your hips again. It’s tiring no doubt, but you find Yeji relentless.

She brushes her hair out of her face. And those eyes–smoldering with lust–study the indecent expressions you make as she impales herself repeatedly on your cock. Her hands find a home on the muscles above your breast. And the reasonably flat support gives her everything she needs to lift and roll her hips against you with little resistance.

It’s not the angle, the depth, the tightness, or the technique—and god, does she know exactly what she’s doing—it’s the damn speed. Even when you were both eighteen, cutting classes at the end of your schedules, a pair of horny teenagers aptly described as rabbits, she had never fucked you like this.

“Fucking christ, Yeji.” You grit your teeth and squeeze hard on her hips, bracing for impact on each downward thrust. “So much for slow—you trying to kill me?”

“Well I was thinking about it. And I changed my mind.” Bouncing away still, eagerly taking your length in and out of her tight hole, she sits herself up and reaches her hands behind her back, unclasping the navy bra across her chest. “It might be better if you just cum now, since you’re so pent up—you might actually be able to enjoy yourself on the next one.”

The straps come down over her shoulders and the bra lands somewhere in your room. It sounded like the floor. You don’t really care though, not while Yeji is lifting your hands from her hips and placing them on those two beautifully soft mounds that hang shyly off chest.

Frustrated perhaps with the shyness in your touch, she palms her hands over yours, squeezing and massaging at her own breasts until you find the touch she craves all on your own.

You groan again, loudly enough to make a smug smile stretch across Yeji’s cheeks. “Then tell me—is it a bad time of the month? Where do you want me to cum?”

She leans forward, breath hot against your ear. “Anywhere you want.”

At that, you reach a hand around her, palming the back of her neck and holding her tight against you. The suddenness of it makes her yelp and squirm, but you hold her firm, and she realizes exactly what it is you need as you slide yourself lower on the sofa, a new angle with an entirely unrealized potential waiting for you there.

“That’s it—” she gasps, struggling in the strength of your grip, “make this pussy yours—use me.”

Her body flush against yours, you hear every little gasp, every sultry moan that leaks off her lips. It drives you faster, more wild and feckless on each thrust, burying yourself hard into the heat of her cunt. Your throbbing shaft inside of her—it feels as though she was made with your cock in mind, made for you, designed—a perfect fit, the way she wraps and grasps around you. Without hesitation, you settle your hips into a rhythm that you know beyond a shadow of doubt will send you hurdling into those irreversible triggers of your orgasm.

“Mph…”“ Your thighs slap against hers, that sound of wet skin on wet skin filling your apartment and drowning out the rain. Your cock disappears so neatly between her legs, and your hips move immediately to bury it there again, desperate for her warmth, her tightness. Beads of sweat pool at your back, and every time you should shift your weight, you become stuck to the leather sofa beneath you.

Yeji’s words continue to pour into your ear, though they too seem to be growing disjointed and bewildered at the motion between your hips. Her shoulders collapse against you and her face buries into the cushion aside yours. 

"Yeji—I cant,” you sigh, and your chest shudders in anticipation. “I’m going to fucking—cum in this—”

“No!” her voice cries, muffled into the leather of the couch beside you, “It feels—so deep—I’m close!”

“Yeji,” you groan, “please.”

Don’t you fucking dare,“ she husks, a voice desperate for you, "don’t—You can’t cum, you can’t—fuck!” Writhing again, she lifts herself on her elbows, observing how your face twists and contorts beneath her as if her own wasn’t every bit as wrought and agitated. “Babe! Your cock feels too—fucking amazing!”

She grabs your cheeks with her hand, pulling your attention away from her breasts shaking wildly, jostled about by your thrusts. Those eyes—they hold you deeply, begging you to hold on.

“You’re asking for a fucking lot here, Yeji I swear—”

“No—fuck,” she gasps. Eyebrows twist. Her eyes shut tight. And her lips mouth the words that might release you, I’m cumming again.

It’s always like this.

She leads, you follow.

And it’s far and away too much for you to handle—the gorgeous woman on top of you, straining an expression only meant for you to see—it’s just too much. Plundering the depths of her pussy for pleasure you didn’t even know could wrack you like it does, you follow her into that unthinkable bliss. Her mouth hangs open, her muscles lock again and she quivers and quakes around you.

Your hands slap down hard onto her ass cheeks, searching desperately for a brief reprieve of something other than the warm, tight cunt that’s been rocking your thoughts senseless. You press your fingers into her creamy skin, hard enough that it’s sure to leave a mark, and in a thundering moment of pure, unbridled lust, you let it all out. Honestly, your thoughts are all so crudely whiplashed by everything that you make little notice of how much hot cum your thrusts pump up into the deepest reaches of Yeji’s pussy. It’s already something spectacular as it arrives, erupting unabashedly from your throbbing cock, but then it just keeps going. It fills around you, an unthinkable lubricant against the way her walls clamp and squeeze around you. And then you feel it, dripping and leaking out of her hole and onto your thighs.

A gasp bellows from your chest and your voice, raw and hoarse, punctuates the heavy panting between your crumpled, tired bodies. “Fuck. Me. Yeji.”

-

Prudence would’ve been closing the curtains, turning into your pillow and catching whatever was left of the night to rest before you’d wake for work tomorrow. So, a simple fade to black. But you’d spent years searching and seeking for what is now between your hands—if there was any mistake you’d made, it was that you hadn’t kissed her sooner.

You remember it now, the way your family would host guests: there of course was that initial cup of tea, or whatever could be cooked up quickly in the kettle, but a tour of the house had always followed close in its wake.

And so a tour you two ventured. The rest of living room (though you worry about how thin the walls are you share with your neighbor), the kitchen, the bathroom, the laundry room. Any place with a surface you could either bend her over or sit her on really—until finally you two might enter your bedroom and fuck like a pair of functioning adults.

You lean back, grasping the bed sheets between your fingers. A heavy sigh pulls at your shoulders while Yeji runs her tongue up along the side of your cock. She’s got this wicked touch, her fingers wrapping ever so perfectly around your shaft, knowing just what firmness will send you reeling.

“Shit,” you hiss, watching Yeji’s tongue swirl the head of your cock before her lips swallow it whole.

She’s methodical. Her tongue slips and darts beneath the sensitive skin under your shaft as she takes you in her mouth further and further. And in excruciating increments she nuzzles her nose against your waist, eyes just beginning to water. She’ll hold it—hold you, cock filling the lovely sleeve that is her throat—and then release. Just like that.

“Yeah—I don’t care what you say.” You run your hand along the side of her head, her makeshift ponytail of smooth, silky hair now a perfect grip for your fingers. “You didn’t learn how to do that from those women’s magazines.”

She pulls herself off your shaft, cock popping out of her mouth. Hands stacked, one on top of the other, she abuses you with that slobbery layer of saliva in between her fingers. Her eyes poke out, smiling over the top of it all. “I’m new to this—I promise.”

“Uh-huh.”

“So.” Belly against the mattress, she pulls her knees forward, swaying her ass behind her head where you could see it. It’s a whole spectacle with this girl. She taps and teases at the tip of your cock, amused at the precum that sticks to the pad of her thumb, before again finding you with her eyes.

“So,” you repeat back.

“How do you want to cum?”

You lean your head back on your shoulders, eyes up at the ceiling—a break. “If you’re not careful, it’s going to be down your throat.”

“Well that’d be a waste.”

“Oh yeah? How you figure?”

“When you could do it inside my cunt?” She narrows her eyes and raises an eyebrow, hands gingerly pumping at your shaft. “Yeah. A waste.”

Yeji’s tongue and fingers work and tease in perfect union along your length. And you blow a steady breath through your lungs to rally your thoughts. “Let me think.”

“You’re good, take a breather. I’ve got a nice, beautiful cock here to keep me entertained.” And like that, she simply swallows you again.

Her drool continues to spill unapologetic down your shaft, catching itself between Yeji’s fingers and spreading out everywhere along your sensitive skin. A hand twisting, pumping—she has you so effortlessly figured out.

You help her head along as you puzzle about the many possibilities in front of you. Holding her hair, guiding her slack jaw and perfect lips up and down your throbbing cock feels—and you’re a little ashamed to say it—feels like using a toy. A toy that’s hot and hums and vibrates as you fuck it. And that’s exactly what you want to do.

“Yeah, I think—I want this mouth Yeji.”

Before she can protest, you guide her again down your shaft, the perfect seal of her lips parting around your tip and swallowing your length. She glides and slips up and down you, the tiniest sounds of her throat struggling to accommodate you reaching your ears.

With her hand pulling yours away, Yeji pushes herself off you, your cock again leaving her lips with a pop.

“Well aren’t you selfish.” She pushes gently at your chest with her fingers, “Let me at least take care of you.”

You’d been catching yourself staring at her lips all evening, the way they curve and pull themselves up into that irresistible bowing figure—you’d had them running through your thoughts long before today—and now they’re all over your cock. She kisses you, caresses you, exploring every inch of vulnerable skin she can find all along your shaft.

The brief moment exists each time she swallows you, just the second before her lips part and seal around you. A hot, wet breath, spiraling and barely in control, wraps itself around you as her mouth hovers just over the tip of your aching cock—a blanket of warmth surrounding it. She takes you, all of you—again.

If it’s not the tightness of her throat or the doubled effort of ten slender fingers all fighting over one another to try and to send you to the edge, it’s that wet, smooth tongue. With it, Yeji brings your hips forward, bucking into the air above your sheets. A simple lick and you groan. Flattening it and adding it to the friction you find at the back of her throat? You’ve become putty in her hands.

“Fuck… Yeji, that feels incredible.”

She hums a self-satisfied note, buzzing it all down your shaft, before pulling herself off your cock and finding you with her eyes once more.

“Tell me what you want,” she says, holding your skin taut with her fingers and pumping a tight, squelching fist at the top of your cock.

You laugh, shaking your head. “Yeji—”

“No—tell me.”

It’s the heart beating in your throat, it’s the sloppy noise her fingers make as she tries to pull every last ounce of cum out of your cock, it’s the sound of the god damn fucking rain hitting your windows—you whisper beneath it all, “I want to fucking cum in your mouth Yeji.”

She lifts an eyebrow, cruelly pulling her hands away from your cock. “And then?”

“And then you’re gonna swallow it.”

It all happens so fast. She takes you again into her mouth, fucking you with her throat and tongue—your hands are in her hair, finding the exact contact and warmth you need—and you struggle to do anything beyond holding your breath and closing your eyes tight.

“Mnph.”

Your voice spits, “Fuck—”

“Mnmnph.”

While you cum inside Yeji’s mouth, into the wonderful shape of her throat, she coughs and sputters, struggling to hold you in her grip, fingers splayed wide against your hips. You can see a good amount of your orgasm almost immediately leak from her lips, spilling down her chin and staining the sheets of your bed—again, tomorrow’s problem.

You grab her Kleenex, water, and anything she might really now need (a good hug more than anything).

Nighttime routines, finding her a pair of pajamas—ones that fit loosely on your body already mind you—a trip to the bathroom, and you’re both brushing your teeth, staring at each other’s naked reflection when it really hits you—and together, you just start laughing. Those contagious giggles and bouts of laughter that make you remember just how much you missed the girl who’d forever been your best friend, the girl you loved.

The two of you are quick to find the blankets on your bed, the comfort beneath them. Arms untangle from each other, a quick kiss and a reach for the night stand, Yeji allows a complete darkness into your room.

“Till next time,” she whispers into your ear.

-

The rain had finally stopped, but that doesn’t mean the sun harbored any intention of coming out. It was always kind of stubborn like that.

Rolling out of bed, you’re exhausted, mentally and physically. But you’re not sixteen anymore; you couldn’t fake a cough and tell your mom you were running a fever, take an indulgent day off. So—work it was.

Slacks come on, a dress shirt stuffed hastily into them, and you look over your shoulder to see Yeji’s more or less unidentifiable shape bundled beneath the blankets she’d spent all night stealing from your side of the bed.

“Yeji,” you call out.

A soft groan marks the extent of her response as you watch her hand stretch into the air before falling defeated back against your mattress.

“I don’t know where, but—I’m sure you have somewhere to be.” You draw the curtains open wide to your room, particularly dissatisfied by just how little light it earns you.

You fish from your suitcase a tie and the top half of your suit before finding your way to the bathroom. When you’re brushing your teeth, you again watch Yeji’s reflection stumble across the mirror, rubbing at her eyes. It took her little time to cop one of your sweatshirts. And you begin to wonder how many of yours you’ve seen taken up like this—now only to be never seen again.

“Good morning,” she says, blinking at you.

Even in her least put together state, hair tousled and eyes sleepy, she possesses a certain charm that you struggle to put into any words beyond the obvious ones—she’s cute.

“Man.” She looks at your reflection in the mirror–the marks along your neck. “I really roughed you up good, huh.”

Usually the tie around your neck was enough to cover up those lip-shaped bruises on your Adam’s apple. You pull at the knot, the silky fabric sliding through your fingers. It’s probably optimistic to think another attempt at tying it might yield better results, but you haven’t all that much choice.

“Nope.” Yeji hides her grin with a closed fist, her other hand hanging off your shoulder. “You can still definitely see them.”

“Well, shit.” A heavy sigh leaves your chest as your hands find your hips. “How bad is it?”

You turn from the mirror, searching for any reassurance in those soft, dark eyes. But the muted laugh, that painfully smug smile, those mischievous hands sneaking around your waist—it’s bad.

“Yeji. I can’t—” You grab onto her hips, trying to stem the flow of laughter that pours from her chest. “Yeji.”

Grinning, “gotcha.”

You roll your eyes back to your reflection. “I can’t go to work like this.”

Yeji takes a second to think through her response, which makes the solution that ends up coming off her tongue even less impressive. “Then don’t.”

“Hah. I bet you think you’re clever.”

“I do.” She runs her fingers through her hair, head tilting and eyes looking up at you. You wish she was just a little less dangerous. “What all is a day off going to do to you? You stamp visas for a living. Remember?”

And so for about a week, the two of you would run through a variation of this same conversation every morning. If it were a test in temperance, you failed it every time. It was sex, it was sleeping, it was cheap take out, it was more sex, but it was also just a lot of time to sit and talk. Like you used to.

Yeji wipes the sweat off her brow and lifts herself off your hips, her nude body cuddling up alongside you, her head resting on your chest. That soft voice of hers again lands perfectly in your ears, “You know what’s crazy?”

“That whiskey is made from wheat or rye?”

“Well, no—” Her chin turns on your chest to look you in the eyes. “What?”

You chuckle. “It’s nothing.”

She takes a beat to regather her thoughts. “I was going to say I felt awful for years about it.” A soft sigh moves her whole body, the cool breath landing on your chin. “But I never doubted for a second—I knew I’d find you.”

You puzzle it through your thoughts. “How’d you figure?”

“Well—because I love you.”

Easy, effortless, straightforward—the words spill from her mouth. You wonder for a second if perhaps you were mid-sip a cup of nostalgia instead, burying yourself in memories that never existed. But the soft touch of her hair against your chest, the way her face rises and falls as your chest draws breath, the sweat still lingering and stuck between your bodies—it’s all too real.

Your voice, watery and choked, manages to push a breath through your throat, “I know I can be a cynic—but that’s not really a whole lot to put faith in.”

“Maybe. But you said it too.”

Your eyes widen and your brow furrows. “When?”

“Couple years ago now. By text—because you’re an asshole.”

The memory of it, sorrowful for as long you can remember, comes crashing back to you. “You—you never even opened it.”

“I didn’t need to—not a whole lot else getting said in a text message at three in the morning. On New Year’s no less.”

You sit in a brief silence, confounded by the old wound. The feeling of her fingertips caressing the skin atop your chest provokes a question, “But then why not respond?”

“You think reading it would’ve made it any easier on me?” She reaches again for the night stand, flipping out the lights from your room with the switch. “What was I supposed to tell you? Suffer in silence and wait for me?”

“Yeji. I’d have done it.”

There’s a brief quiet as she moves back into the bed, only the sounds of her shuffling about reaching your ears. You feel her face press against yours in the dark, hot tears streaming down her cheek. “But would you do it still?” a/n—thanks for taking the time to read my work! I’m probably shelving ‘sad OC gets laid’ as a story concept for awhile. Stay tuned for more.

WINTER WEATHER ADVISORY

male reader x jeon heejin

16k words

It’s not even twelve hours apart—the first time you exchange pleasantries, all careless and untroubled, to the moment you’ve got Heejin in the back of a taxi and your hand so far up her skirt that it has you emptying your wallet at the end of the ride and slapping the biggest tip you’ve ever left into the cabbie’s open palm, silence full of disapproval. 

It isn’t planned or anything.

Heejin doesn’t simply wake up one morning with a craving for your cock. It just sorta happens. 

And then It happens again a week later. The third time just a few days after that. 

The fourth time, the two of you barely spend a night apart before Heejin’s back in your apartment, thighs shaking violently as you fuck her into the springs of your mattress.

“I’m trying to figure it out,” you puzzle, holding a coffee mug to your cheek while taking note of how Heejin slips her arms back beneath the black straps of her bra at the foot of your bed. “Why a rabbit?”

She laughs first. Looking back over her shoulder when she responds, “why not? It’s cute.”

“Yeah. Sure. And incredibly provocative.”

“You’re really hung up on it, aren’t you?”

“Um. I just think it’s interesting.”

“Does that mean it’s going to end up in one of your articles?” She asks, tossing her hair back over her shoulders. “Something about it on the front page?”

“Why would you think I’m going to write about rabbits?”

Heejin smiles, bright and cheery and increasingly full of mischief. “About this breeding kink of ours.”

“Ah.”

Her hands reach to her hips like she’s ruminating through all these possibilities, the things she could do to you, the things she has done to you. And as she crawls back onto the bed, your eyes follow hers—all brilliant and huge, self-aware of just how pretty they are.

She lets out this pinchy little laugh, and leans in to kiss your jawline. Bites it for good measure. “Ah, he says, pensively.”

“We went over this,” you start, leaning back into the headboard. “It’s just not a kink. Wanting to cum inside a pretty girl is, literally, basic biology. Like, it’s so foundational, it’s in my DNA.”

“And I get sooo turned on thinking about your DNA,” Heejin snaps back, and she’s got that edge in her voice again: playful, mildly threatening. “Besides, there’s more to it than that.”

“Isn’t there always.”

“It’s the ownership,” she breathes into your neck, “the intimacy, the risk–”

“Risk?” you say, laughing as you jump into the middle of Heejin’s explanation. “What risk? There’s literally no risk when you’re on the pill.”

“Ugh. You’re the worst, you know that? Who’d thought I’d have to explain what fantasy means to a writer.”

Before you can do anything about it, she kisses you three times. Twice on the cheek, once on the lips. And it’s as close as you’ll get to anything like retaliation—you flip her underneath you, drag her panties down her thighs, and fuck her again.

That’s how it goes. Like it’s some sort of cosmic law. It’s been this whole thing.

-

So again, you write—when it all starts, you’re writing.

There’s this story.

Your editor’s the one demanding it from you. Find it, embellish it, fucking outright fabricate it—whatever it takes so long as the article arrives on her desk before she finishes her coffee on Monday morning. 

Between you, there’s always this dynamic: work comes in, you’ll point your finger to the ceiling, saying, “trust in the creative process,” and then she threatens to kill you. Hence it’s her drumbeat; you’re marching to it.

“You know, I think I might know a guy,” you shout over the top of your glass and down the bar, when the topic of LOONA comes up over drinks. You end up phoning a friend of a friend, pulling a string, making a promise you never intend to make good on, and it has you sitting in an unremarkable conference room on the fourth floor of your office a little after lunch the following day.

So, as it starts, there’s this girl sitting across the table from you—Heejin, she says, and it rolls so nicely off her tongue as she does, like the name was simply hers. You notice it immediately, and if you were any younger, the kind of age where you could fall in love with a girl just off the end of a smile, your heart would be rocketing out of your chest.

Now, honest to god– 

(Not that you’re god-fearing or honest or virtuous, it’s just a turn of phrase, and that’s how you earn your keep.)

 –it kicks off innocently enough between you, as most things do. 

Just to put it in perspective, there’s never before been a celebrity profile you’ve written that hasn’t fallen neatly into one of three categories: (1) astonishingly talented, (2) breathtakingly gorgeous, or (3) certifiably insane. So, as you puzzle about that track record now, there should be absolutely no reason at all for you, a professional, to let this girl, another twenty-something-year-old idol who’s too pretty for her own good—with a voice that runs just a little deeper, raspier, perhaps more sultry than you’re used to hearing—ever get the better of you.

“I don’t know, I guess I was expecting someone… different,” Heejin says, somewhere in the middle of things, folding her fingers neatly beneath her chin.

Your eyes flick up from the notepad in your hands and find this look in the deep browns of her eyes, like she’s studying you from across the conference room table, gazing into the contents of a test tube. You lift an eyebrow, and she does the same; there’s a bit more suggestion to it than there probably should be, but you’ve been stoking it, fanning it, from the moment you’d both sat down.

“Expecting?” you ask, if only to point out what had thrown you off-kilter, and you can feel your weight shift in your seat. 

After all, it had been just that morning when you met Heejin for the first time. She was standing perhaps a little out of place beside the door to her dressing room, kicking snow off the bottoms of her boots. You told her you liked the color of her dress, a welcome departure from the grays and browns that usually filled your office. Her hair was curtaining her face and after pulling it back, tucking it neatly behind her ears, she smiled brightly back at you—thanks, it’s vermillion.

You weren’t aware of it then, and it won’t become clear to you until much later, but you do fall for her there, if at least just a little.

“Well, see, it’s my publicist,” Heejin starts to explain. From that alone you’re certain you’ve got the rest puzzled out. She steeples her fingertips together, continuing, “the way she talked you up, she made you out to be, like, totally despicable. Said you were no better than those creeps that sit in the bushes outside my apartment.”

Okay, so unfortunately, part of that’s not entirely unwarranted. To a girl like her—to the scrupulous companies that stand to gain, to lose—all that concerning secrets to hide and hell to pay, you could be absolutely despicable. Afterall, if there’s a labor that goes into making someone like Heejin come across as the kind of perfect that everyone believes her to be, you’d be the first person looking to undo it. 

It’s nothing personal, you reason, and you’re smiling back across the table. “Hey. Low blow. I haven’t sat in a bush in years.”

A quiet smile shadows in the corner of her lip and she fires back at you, “so you’re saying you’re just a little despicable.”

“Oh, ya know,” you reassure her, gesturing your hands to the side, one palm up and the pages on your notepad splaying out in the other. “More or less comes with the mileage.”

“All joking aside, I’ve seen guys…" 

Heejin dips her eyes a moment to laugh out loud. And you’re becoming familiar with the sound, sweet and throaty and genuine. Harmonic. 

"You know, I’ve seen guys climb trees. Really, I’m serious. This was just last summer, around the time Haseul broke up with her boyfriend and moved into our apartment. Don’t write that down. I’m standing at the sink, washing dishes, and I see this guy. He’s just balancing there with his feet hooked around some of the branches, a camera against his face with this massive lens. I bet you he could probably see the bacteria on the window.”

“You wash dishes?” A handbag that costs more than a month’s salary, these dainty fingers that look like they’ve never seen so much as a scratch, and you’re picturing her, or struggling anyway—washing dishes.

“Ugh, it’s been this whole thing,” Heejin says, floating her fingertips to her collarbone. “There was a rumor that the housekeeper had been talking to the press. So our management fired them—and then the dishwasher broke. Company was supposed to buy us a new one, but they haven’t yet—because they’re cheap as shit. Don’t write that down either.”

“Never rains but then it pours, huh?”

“Right. You get it,” she says before letting this simple tight-lipped smile fill out on her face. “To be honest though, I’m curious about something." 

Heejin’s raking her fingers through her hair, and you watch the silver band of her watch fall just a few inches from the sharp edge of her wrist as she holds a messy handful of blonde locks just above her face—the way they bounce against her cheek and spill back onto her shoulder when she lets go.

"How did you—and I’m not saying you’re the same as one of those people—but how does someone even get into entertainment journalism in the first place?”

“Slowly at first,” you answer, eyes returning to your lap to pen out the rest of some scribbled note, “and then all at once.”

When you look back up, Heejin is frowning, brows furrowed, as though she were trying to remember something.

“Slowly at first,” she repeats, “and then all at once.” She blinks a few times as your attempt to avoid the question registers. Thoroughly unimpressed when it does. “No, I’m serious, there had to be something that drew you to all this.”

You finish out the end of a note, lined into the pad, while you land on a chuckle, dry and humorless. “What is all this now?”

“It’s a question.”

Nevermind that it’s in the wrong direction, is your first thought. Careful now, your second. Because maybe you knew that beneath the surface were those stray thoughts that kept you up at night, lurking: 

What kind of journalism career is this? 

You graduated from a good program. With classmates who were now reporting on national legislature, getting shot at to cover a war in Ukraine for The Associated Press—and then here you are, sifting through the transient thoughts of yet another pop star, grasping at straws, struggling to spin them into gold.

“Is this one of those things?” you ask, heeding first to the click of your pen, once in, once out. “What was the word for it… postmodern? Where you turn the tables and you’re the one interviewing me?”

“I don’t think I’d go that far,” she says, lips slanted slightly, “you’re still the one holding the notepad after all.”

“What, the appeal of meeting fascinating people isn’t enough of a sell for you?” Oh, you’ve had your fair share of boring, mundane, or even offensive too, but you’ve not gotten to where you are without learning a little flattery goes a long way.

Heejin scoffs. “Oh, don’t lie. I’ve read your magazine. The profiles? I’ve met those guys and gals—fascinating is being rather generous, wouldn’t you think?”

“Careful,” you say, punctuated by the end of your pen again. Click.

See, it’s the way her eyebrows twist over that coquettish smile. That’s how she gets you—one out of twelve, you’re realizing why the cameras are stuck on her. And everything that comes out of her mouth just brushes effortlessly on the innocent side of frustration, of challenge. It’s hard not to indulge, even if just a little–

“I mean if I’m wrong, go ahead, feel free to correct me.”

“I was real sick of freelance work,” you answer, feeling the conversation start to de-rail. “Was tired of worrying about making rent. And it was just less of a total pain in the ass.”

There was a method. It was delicate, and usually you were quite good at it: you were supposed to be just funny enough to make her laugh, captivating enough to coax out something more than a monosyllable answer where you needed it, get her to like you, and then have her forget about you the moment she walked out the door. Hell might freeze before you could get her publicist to schedule a follow up, all because Heejin had chewed up the clock—had gotten herself interested. 

It’s probably wishful thinking to hope the sigh rolling through your chest doesn’t give too much of all that up. “And just why might you ask?”

Heejin reaches across the table and turns off your tape recorder. It’s here probably: where you should’ve been clued into the pieces, the board, the game in front of you. “Because you don’t seem like most of the others.”

“The others?” you answer, making careful sure not to sneer. “Are you suggesting that I’m–”

“Charming?” Heejin rises from her seat, and her hair swings behind her shoulders as she meanders about the room. “Oh, I’m declaring it. It’s not a subject for debate.”

When she finds a spot to lean against the table beside you, her skirt hikes itself just a few noticeable inches. You’re not trying to stare, but she is right there.

Okay, so you’re fucking staring. When it’s clear that you are, you drop your eyes immediately, starting over at the floor—you’re unsure what to make of it. Her boots jump out immediately, these black knee-high things with just enough of a heel to let her stand a little taller than your shoulders. Beyond them is the dress that’s tinier than she is: vermillion—not red—and hung tight around her frame, gaping perfectly to present her thighs and chest like they ever needed introduction. Follow her collarbones, the delicate skin on her neck, the bold red lipstick she decided would compliment the bow in hair like she’s some present waiting to be unwrapped, and yeah, okay, she’s cute.

You’d have perhaps made a mental note of how unconventional it was for her now to be looking down at you, arms crossed and smile slanting, but, she also just manages to plainly ask if you’re seeing anyone, so there’s little time to dwell on that transgression—and all with the casualness someone might ask how much snow that approaching storm was supposed to bring tonight. In nearly the same breath, she asks if you were holding onto any of those numbers girls handed you when you went out drinking. It’s confounding and it’s your head space and it’s rapidly becoming preoccupied and littered and busy.

“That surprises me,” Heejin tells you upon hearing that it’s complicated. “I figured it’d be rather straightforward. What all with a smile like yours. And an ass like that—”

“You’re flirting with me.”

Doesn’t matter that it’s so obvious you could’ve seen it from space—everything comes to a screeching halt after the words fall out of your mouth. 

You tilt your head, quizzical. 

Heejin’s chin cocks, ready to fire. “And what? Is that some sort of crime?”

It’s honestly hard to believe. She tosses you the question, recklessly unaware that doing that thing she does where she simply exists is almost criminal. Thoroughly disinterested in the fact you were having plenty enough trouble keeping your focus from sinking into the neckline of her dress. You watch her blink slowly while you struggle to get out ahead of this, and it has her discovering that smile again. “Oh. And I wouldn’t write any of this down either. You know, if I were you.”

Your hand must know how deceitful it sounds because it’s covering your mouth, trying to mask the words curling off your tongue:

“Look, I—Here’s the thing… you know it’s completely unprofessional.”

Heejin smirks, pointedly, like she’s recognizing something on your face that confirms each and every one of her suspicions. 

Okay, you were trying to act nonchalant, but all the mistakes keep adding up—have added up—gazing at her gentle, focused features long enough that you might inscribe them in your mind as something to hold onto when you walk out of this meeting.

“Hand me your notepad.” Heejin pushes her hand in front of you, expectantly. “The pen.”

You watch her lashes nearly fall onto her cheeks as her eyes dip into the lined paper, and then it’s just the sound of the pen. Scribbling.

-

If you’re going to consider that the bare minimum requirements of your job probably forbids undressing in a random meeting room in the middle of a workday, it shouldn’t come as a surprise that the rest of the interview unfolds without incident. 

(Albeit woefully precarious.) 

Here’s what you learn:

Heejin’s life isn’t terribly interesting, at least the parts you can write about without fear of starting fires in the streets. The backstory has all these parallels you’ve come to expect. She’s the youngest of three girls, and you figure that’s where all the confidence comes from, if it isn’t the fact that she’s the kind of beautiful that inspires all this admiration and reverence and adoration to the point where it has people tripping over her. 

Her flatmates are apparently storied in their own sort of fucked up ways, and as she described them, you quickly realized that none of it would be able to fit into a publication like yours. Not that you’d stop the train of thought: Yeojin—a hopeless romantic—and Haseul—a total fucking golddigger—who were well on their way to fuck half the city at their current pace (you’re paraphrasing here).

So with that, you’re writing. The doc is completely blank, and you’ve deleted the first sentence god knows how many times, but you’re writing.

Heejin had mentioned she was taking piano lessons and music theory classes, but had piqued more of your interest when she opened up about a novel she was working on: “It’s fiction, and it’s about two lovers slowly growing apart.” She shrugged her shoulders when you asked if it had a happy ending and refused to go any further into it when you brought it up again (twice), but that’s more or less how these things usually go.

You double back to your notes where Heejin’s phone number is written neatly at the top with little hearts trailing off the last digit. Only it does little if any to help inspire the kind of creativity you need to do your job—inspire any thoughts beyond the way her dress tapered in at her tiny waist, how you’re pretty sure you could reach both hands around it and how light she’d be in your arms.

You should call her, springs immediately to the front of your thoughts.

And that’s how you know it’s bad. Something worth some sort of concern.

Oh sure, you’ve had a crush before—when you were the age where hormones were reeling through your body and had you, like a good portion of the world, needing someone to hump like a dog in heat. Fast forward to when you lost your V-card to the girl you’d been pining over for years and it failed to give you superpowers, you figured it was best to put your time and effort into anything else. You can relax, take it slow, get your work done, stop thinking about it.

Monday, you decide. 

She probably has plans this weekend anyway, and that is the rule isn’t it? Three days ought to give you enough suspense and pretense to illustrate that you’re not hopelessly fixed on the idea of pulling Heejin’s dress up around that fucking waist and hoisting her onto your kitchen counter where you could really just give it to her.

You tap your pen against your desk. 

Monday.

-

5:00 p.m. rolls around. 

You call.

The phone rings one too many times, and you’re within inches from just simply hanging up before you hear her speak. You actually jump a little in your seat and your knees smack into the bottom of your desk when you do.

“I thought it was completely unprofessional. You said that.”

“Yeah, well the clock hits 5:00 and maybe I’m having second thoughts.”

There’s some idle chit-chat, nothing special while you both circle around the obvious.

“Know any good Thai places? I’ve been pretty in the mood lately,” Heejin’s voice comes through as the pieces begin falling way too easily into place. 

“I mean there’s plenty to choose from downtown,” you say as you pinch the neck of the lamp on your desk, still bobbing in place after you’d knocked it out of balance, “or one of those pretentious places that keep popping up in the old public market.”

“No, I mean, the editorial shoot ran a little late so I’m still here.”

“At the office?”

“Yeah. Hey—you know the photographer that goes around calling everyone boss? He’s, like, a total flirt by the way.”

“Trust me.” You laugh out loud. “That’s not the first I’ve heard of that. Pretty sure he’s even tried to hit on me a couple times.”

“Ugh,” she says, feigning all this disappointment, and it has you picturing how you’d seen her earlier pull in her shoulders so tightly as if to shrug with maximum effort, “You really know how to make a girl feel special.”

Your phone is cradled between your neck and shoulder as you scour the internet for something in walking distance—someplace that you don’t expect to see half your coworkers drinking away their Friday evenings—when you ask, “You give him your number too?”

There’s a brief silence on Heejin’s end of the line, only slightly unceasing. “I thought about it.”

“Sounds like you’re done thinking about it.”

“Guess I figured you might benefit from the head start.”

“Generous.” It earns something like a chuckle out of both of you, and you’re shaking your head, answering, “I’ll be sure to pay it forward.”

-

Oh, it’s a terrible date.

Neither of you are anywhere so brash to explicitly say that, but look, it just so happens to be your job—splitting out truth from reality. You’ll call it how you see it.

Honestly, it’s a comedy of errors, but the real kicker is that the kitchen forgot to put in your order.

So, you’re trying, failing, to flag down your waiter, and you begin to notice the wine doubling its punches on an empty stomach when Heejin leans in across the table—one finger beside her temple and her other hand drawing circles around the rim of her empty glass.

“You know we could just… get out of here.”

It’s suggestive, but it’s hardly anything like a suggestion, because you’re right there with her.

-

Outside on the sidewalk you find the kind of snow that lands wet and heavy and threatens to soak through your clothes. And aside from a recent tire track or two, there’s a fresh blanket of it now on the asphalt. Every now and then, Heejin will flash her eyes over her shoulder as if to check and see if you’re still there, a footstep behind her. Like the sound of snow squeaking under your boots isn’t proof enough. 

“Okay,” says Heejin, in her unfailingly charming way, and trounces around in the snow in front of you, “so that was, like, the worst thing ever, right?”

“Nonsense. I’ve seen plenty worse. Trust me.”

She spins on her heel and you come close to knocking her over. “Sounds like you’ve got war stories.” “A few,” you start, laughing to yourself, “Here’s one. This girl goes on and on telling me about the guy she just got out of a relationship with—and i’m sitting there thinking wow, this guy sounds a lot like a good buddy of mine.”

“And it was?”

You gesture slowly with your arms, something defeated and existential.

“Oof. That’s gold.” Heejin’s eyes flick to your lips, lingering however long it takes you to notice. She smiles, beaming. “But you know, with a little luck, I think someday you might just get it right.”

-

Heejin finds you somewhere in the harsh light of a streetlamp, fisting a hand into your collar. 

You’re watching snowflakes melt, like they were tears streaming down her cheeks, colliding against the warmth in her pale face—the vibrantly rosy hue now glowing across it.

Her lips aren’t dry or cracked or wind-bitten like you might expect in the middle of December. Your eyes trace them closely, these soft, featherlight things, and you don’t even realize how long you’ve been staring until she passes her tongue through them with an experimental lick.

“Oh,” she says, shockingly casual, “you’re into me.”

You’re laughing as your eyes return to hers. “You sound pretty confident about that.”

“Yeah. Guess I am.”

Heejin’s breath lands warm against your face. You’re simply suspended there for however many moments, the wool of your coats pressed together, watching lights glimmer and fade in her eyes. From this close you can count the odd freckle on her nose, her cheek. It’s probably the most intimate thing you’ve done in months, just standing there, breathing the same air.

Maybe ever.

Heejin doesn’t even say anything else, just looks, her eyes searching for something they might only find in yours.

“Hey,” finally says Heejin, in this choked, rasping voice, “you should kiss me.”

And you do.

-

Where are you two headed? The driver’s voice strains as if he’s been smoking religiously for twenty years. And from the way the cab smells—the stains in the upholstery on the ceiling—it’s as good a guess as any.

Once the door closes behind you and it shuts out all that wintery air, you lean in to where Heejiin is delicately removing the scarf around her shoulders. It’s yours and she’d wrapped it around herself twice, three times, and it made her look tiny. “Where do you want to go? Back to Hapjeong?” Her flat is in Hapjeong.

Heejin shakes her head. “How about we go find somewhere to grab a drink?” you ask.

She looks down, tracing her finger along her lower lip, and then lets her cheek collapse into her shoulder, eyes drifting back to you where you can see that myriad palette of golds and browns in her irises. “We can just keep drinking at your place, no?”

While you square away the details with the driver, Heejin folds her arms and closes her eyes, sinking into the back corner of the seat. Her silver earrings catch the light as the cabbie hits the meter and the taxi pulls away from the curb. Then it’s her dress, all that barely-there vermillion fabric, as if it had been tailor made to match the warmth in the back of the cab. Watching her, you come to a realization: there’s the story you’re writing, then there’s this story you’re living—all in want of a little inspiration. 

And you think maybe you’ve found it.

The taxi sways. Heejin talks. She talks about her life growing up. She talks about one of her sisters who is now in medical school and vomits at the sight of blood, how she was jealous that her siblings had turned out to be such brainy academic types—the kind of thing she imagined her parents were really secretly far prouder of—how she’d grown up fighting her dad tooth and nail to get where she is now—all these intimate details you doubt she’d shared often with anyone. Let alone someone she just met.

You listen—an occasional question every now and again woven into the soothe of Heejin’s lowered voice. And for the first time, you’re not scribbling out notes, building sentences as you do. Simply listen.

“You know,” Heejin starts, lidding her eyes and smirking in your direction. She could send a tremor through your heart, but she’s far less forceful than that. “I think it would be really rude.”

“What would?” you ask, confused. “If you spent the whole ride,” she pauses, and the elegant lines of her face scrunch ever so slightly while she fiddles with one of the featureless rings that rests on her middle finger. “–sitting over there.”

There’s a list of excuses, something to make it logical, but it’s never been quite this simple either.

You drifting across the backseat, until you feel yourself press up against Heejin’s lithe frame, and the rest of the world might as well melt away to nothing beyond than the blur of passing street lights, the hum of ‘Winter Wonderland’ coming out of the radio in crackling bits and pieces, the pink blush still staining Heejin’s cheeks.

Holding her, you kiss her again. 

Near effortless as before. Your lips stuck on hers when you pull yourself away.

“So, remind me to set the record straight with my publicist,” Heejin murmurs in the same hushed voice she’d been speaking for the entire ride, thumb rubbing the back of your knuckles in a manner that could lead you to believe she wasn’t aware she was doing it. Her lips curl at the corners of your mouth where these short, hot breaths fill your proximity. “Just a little despicable.”

With a hand finding purchase in her hair—bundling between your fingers as smooth and satiny as it looked—you pull Heejin into you, seize her lips. Hard. If there had been any restraint, to this point, about the shy touches on your arm when you made her laugh, to the light hand you’d place on the small of her back guiding her through a door—since the moment she sat down across you in that interview—this kiss now threatens to become near tidal in intensity.

Together, those soft lips sliding against yours, it’s irreverent, it’s reckless, it’s cashing in on that chasteness a thousand times over.

Still, you notice this departure from everything about Heejin. Because there’s nothing elegant about the way you have her, your bodies rucking desperately in the backseat—unable to give two fucks about smashed knees or hunched backs. It builds up. It falls apart. A mass of wool struggles to fall to the side, hung and stuck around your shoulders, and effortlessly sliding down hers. As your tongues slip and rub, this tantalizing push-pull that makes even the heat-dry air of the cab feel heavy like you’re wading through the humidity of summer, you doubt the efficacy of it all. But it’s the hand that arrives at the nape of your neck, kneading as though to say good enough so that you might start pressing more of your weight into her; simply sink into her embrace.

Heejin’s voice sneaks out between long, shivery, bone-deep kisses—the sound of your name lilting off her tongue, she whispers, “Hey. I want you to–”

“Yeah,” you pant, knowing exactly what she means. Your fingers twitch at your sides, all this anticipation currenting through your body that makes you feel like an exposed live wire, the electricity forcing your heart beat into something erratic. “Yes. Fuck. Of course.”

It has Heejin guiding you by the wrist. Down her side. The absolute concave flatness of her stomach. To the hem of her dress. And when she finally relinquishes your hand—your fingers—she kisses you harder, claiming the swell of your lip firmly in her possession.

It takes hardly any effort to find her—up that skirt and between her legs, growing hot and wet and needy. When your fingers collide with fabric, prints teasing across her entrance, she lets everything start to slip—a hiccup into your mouth, and shifting her weight gently in your hands.

This intense shudder travels through her entire body when your fingers dip down beneath the elastic hugging her waist. The kiss breaks. From those needy, watery eyes, there is little to lament—the way Heejin strains for air, holding her lip between her teeth as she lets a wet breath billow from her chest. Her lashes flutter, close tight, open again, and she looks at you, concealing the mirth in her smile. “Do you have any idea what I want to do with you?”

“I haven’t the slightest clue,” you answer, flat and unamused, and you’re swirling your fingers against the wet heat between her legs as you continue to play a fool. “Tell me.”

“First I–” Heejin takes a deep breath and steadies herself when you fit the first knuckle of a finger inside her. “I want—fuck—I want you to sweep me off my feet. Literally, pick me up and carry me.”

“Okay, sure,” you say, like you haven’t been entertaining the thought all afternoon—like grabbing her and bending her over the first piece of furniture closest to your front door isn’t now the foremost thought racing through your head, “I’m sure we can make that happen.”

“Then you can take me and put me so tenderly into this big, cozy bed, all comfy and a little tipsy and there’s none of this—fuck. That, that feels really good–”

“Mhmm.” You’re half listening to the curses out of her mouth, how her voice hitches and sputters the moment you tent her underwear with your knuckles—the air she sucks in when you tease the sensitive nub between her lips. Between kisses that drag your lips all along her delicate jaw, the bruisable skin on her neck, you whisper, “I’m listening.”

The look of need and want in Heejin’s irises is a mirror of your own. And, just once, it’s a gentle touch that makes her keen. It’s debauched, it’s something glorious, the sound sneaking past her lips. You hear it. The driver definitely hears it; he’s turning up the radio.

“Fucking–” She laughs into the dark, voice strained and breaking at the pressure against her clit. Her mouth slants at the rhythm now in your fingers—motions that make her optimistic, and her lips part again, continuing:

“I’m not knee deep in snow and it’s warm and you’re there, just cuddled next me–” 

Heejin squirms again, interrupted; you’ve got her pussy creaming and tensing all over your finger.

Windows fogged, bodies digging deeper into the dark corner of the taxi, you study Heejin closely. Think about getting her off right there, about getting your fingers deep inside her and thumbing her clit until she’s shaking against you, about her cumming like that, back arching off the seat and ankles hooking around you.

It’s nearly tangible, the thought; her eyes flare and her chest heaves the more you fuck her slicked cunt with your fingers.

Heejin swallows. “And then—you start to undress me.”

It’s been something akin to a virtue, and oft to your benefit, you’ve always been a good listener, so your fingers make course to slow, consider remorse, and continue on with only those gentle motions that keep Heejin’s eyes half-lidded and breath short. Nothing more.

“I do?”

“Yeah.” Heejin nods—even your vanishing touches driving her crazy, putting all this stress into the simple and composed features on her face. “Little by little. So delicate, like you—fuck.” You drag your finger back, grown wet and sticky. Let her finish the thought. “Like you’re unwrapping a present.”

Chin shooting up, you quip, “What if I’m the kind of person that tears wrapping paper to shreds?” 

“Yeah,” Heejin chokes out, “that’ll work too. But either way, then I’m laying there, kinda spacing out, practically naked and feeling really hot and soft and then I realize what you’re doing, dragging my panties down my thighs. I yell out ‘Wait don’t! I just met you and I’m very sincere about these things, so please stop!’”

“Oh.” 

“But here’s the thing: you don’t stop.”

“I would stop though.”

“I mean sure. Never mind that. It’s just how I’m imagining it.” 

“I see.”

“So then you don’t even hesitate. Just slide your pants down, pull out your cock”—the cabbie clears his throat from the front seat like he’s trying to start a lawnmower, but Heejin powers right through the thought—“and it’s just hanging there, bouncing. And it’s huge. So then I start telling you ‘No, you can’t, I’ve never done anything like this before.’”

“But you have.”

“Look, I just… this is just my fantasy. So then you end up–”

Okay, so it’s not virtue that got you here; your fingers are toying in her cunt. You can’t help it.

“Mnph, yeah - Jesus, okay, that feels good,” she whines, sneaking her hips toward you when you start to slide your slicked thumb all over her clit.

There’s a moment where her lips part, where she doesn’t speak anything at all, before she can steel herself and labor on with her point.

“Y-you end up wearing this really put out face, and I start to feel sorry for you and I’m—stroking your hair—while your head… while your head is in my lap, saying, ‘it’s okay, it’s okay.’”

“And that’s what you want to do with me.”

Heejin shudders as your fingers seek refuge deeper in her cunt. “Right.”

“This is what you want to do right now?”

“Yeah. Well, sorta.” She twists her lip before letting this wide, giggling grin fill out her pretty face. “Right now, what I really want”—you watch her gulp down another heavy swallow—“I really just want to cum on your fingers.”

It’s simple. You’re not far from your apartment, though the car gets stopped at every light, and even when it isn’t, it’s slow going on the fresh layer of sleet now troubling the roads—but it’s not like it at all has you taking your time. Heejin mewls slightly, and then she simply comes undone, gasping. Your whole hand is buried in her underwear, your fingers fucking fast and slick into her cunt, thumb mercilessly brushing around her clit.

“Oh my god,” Heejin whines into the palm of your hand, shutting her eyes tight as she sinks against you, sinks into the corner of the seat.

You’re hitting her basest desires with fingers that are all but destined to make her fall apart; straightforward, effortless, a perfect balance of touches light and heavy and destructive, you bottle lightning. 

“Mmmph,” Heejin whimpers.

Her back arches when she cums. With all these ragged whimpers leaking out from the spaces between your fingers. They’re inaudible, sort of. The radio is blasting. The same damn song even. Stars align, and while Heejin gazes into them—into the blackness that can only be found behind clenched eyelids—it’s simple: you kiss her hard again.

-

The two of you don’t fall into bed immediately. Not in the literal sense.

Heejin first gets her hands on you when you’re both standing in the elevator, quietly and mostly still, boots leaving gray puddling footprints on the floor. She looks like she’d been through a windstorm, and to some extent she had, but it’s mostly a direct result of your hands in her hair, your tongue in her mouth, the fact that you had her panting and sweating in the back of that taxi.

You’d had the quiet pleasure of watching Heejin’s legs wobble from the moment you spilled out onto the curb. Where she rested her face on your shoulder, pulled tight at the lapels of her coat like it might ever keep these gusts of snow-laden wind from freezing the skin around her eyes, and without saying anything at all, managed to demand your arm around her waist.

So, once the elevator doors close, and you’re feeling that temporary frost in your bones begin to thaw the further Heejin melts her weight into your side, it’s only natural: pull her into you, bury her nose into your collar.

You kiss her forehead.

In something close to reciprocity, she reaches a hand over your pants and grabs your cock.

“You’re, like, super hard,” her voice hushes into your chest, really leaning on that low, smoky tone. “You know that?”

“And what? I suppose that’s such a crime?”

“Maybe.” Heejin turns up to meet you, eyes glinting atop this expression—innocence feigned doesn’t even begin to do it justice—and balling up the collar of your shirt in her fingers. Bright eyed, knowing, she nudges into your side. “Just tell me what it is you’re thinking about.”

“Take a guess,” you say, running your hand through your hair. Like the nonchalance might make it less obvious you have this mental image, photographically vivid, of fucking Heejin’s tight body right into the wall of your foyer.

“Oooh.” Her eyebrows arched high, she looks you up and down, nodding while mischief skitters across her angelic features. “How many guesses do I get?”

“Three,” you answer. Then start grinning. “No. Two.”

“Two?” Heejin slides closer, her eyes hot. “That’s hardly anything charitable.”

“I have faith in you,” you say, and you’re reaching into her coat, finding the divot that runs down her back, where you can trace a finger up this zipper that you’re not entirely sure you can refrain from unfastening the moment you feel it’s metal shape between your fingertips.

Against your face, Heejin gives this small puff of amused laughter. “Okay, you’re thinking about…”

While her voice lilts and trails, she taps a finger to her chin like she’s trying to solve some intricate physics problem or ponder the secrets of the universe. Though by this time, the elevator’s doors have stuttered open in the haphazard way they always manage and you’re both surging towards the deserted hallway, laughing quietly and brushing elbows.

“I don’t mean to pressure you or anything, but you’re going to run out of time to guess,” you say, a hand dug into the inside of your coat pocket and searching for your keys. Heejin’s leaning her shoulder into the doorframe when you catch her looking, staring—you only manage to slip out from under that gaze when you come up with your key at last. “Found it.”

Heejin tilts her head, hair falling halfway over her face, and then pulls it back again. “You’re thinking about kissing me.”

“Surprisingly tame,” you say, scoffing as you turn the key in the lock and shoulder into your front door. “But no. Not quite. Oh, and leave your boots in the hall.”

It’s that second guess, neither incorrect nor entirely the truth. When it does arrive off her tongue, you have Heejin pressed against the inside of your door, now shut and finally private, and her tiny body in your hands where it feels soft and slender and unfathomably hot—oh, do you have ideas. Her breath mixes with yours, concocting something that tastes entirely sinful before she leans forward and traces kisses up your throat.

“Still. You are thinking about my lips,” she whispers into your ear, and it’s dripping with confidence, with suggestion, with another humid breath that hits you square on your cheek, “how good they’re going to feel wrapped around your cock.”

She studies the knot that forms in your throat as you swallow, eyes flicking back up to yours, and burning hot when you tell her she’s right. Lying, all on account of you not having the heart to let her know that you’d been harboring this errant thought, that for a greater part of the day, you’d been thinking of how she might fold over the kitchen sink, the living room couch—wherever—and fucking her six ways to sunday. She runs her tongue across her lips, like it might keep back these small bits of breathless laughter. And it has her unzipping your pants, coaxing them clear off your waist.

Right, proper intentions, and she’s smiling like she knows it: you’re both paving a road straight to hell.

“Jesus. You’re so hard,” she says finally, and it’s so blatantly sexual that a foundational shiver in your bones takes hold of you. What are you to do? Her fingers are deep in your underwear, fighting elastic, pulling at the skin of your cock when she gives you a final kiss that sticks to your lips, smacking. And then without any words to accompany her, she pulls the fabric around your thighs and sinks to her knees.

If this were a different kind of story, maybe you would sweep her into your arms, and ride off into the sunset and find a cottage in the hills that overlooks the ocean and live happily ever after and raise a half dozen kids. Because surely, a girl like her—perfect and flawless and near regal in the way she carries herself, like something out of the pages of a fairytale—belongs anywhere but planted into the floor of your foyer, dragging your underwear down to your ankles. 

If Heejin was anywhere but her knees, perhaps you two would fall into bed, where you’d leave her with all these sweet kisses that make her skin swelter and her voice choke at the way you’d press your lips to the hollow of her neck, her shoulders, her collarbones, and you wouldn’t even think of leaving marks or bruises. No, instead she’d whimper softly for you and the two of you could roll over to meet that simple conclusion.

Sure, you can always pretend like you don’t know what’s happening.

But that would make it a different kind of story, one painfully absent of Heejin’s tongue, placing a slow, measured lick right up the slit of your cock. Or fingers claiming your shaft, your balls, and pumping delicately toward your waist. Rising action unlike this pair of soft lips that purse and leave kisses down your length. A climax beyond releasing a load right into the back of that throat—which is only speculative in your thoughts for a second, because Heejin’s tightening her fingers around the base of your cock and dragging a smirk across her pretty face, “you should, like, totally cum in my mouth.”

“Right,” you answer, mouth drying; it’s a labor to even swallow. 

Heejin runs a semicircle over her lower lip with her tongue, flattens it, presses it up against the belly of your cock, and looks up at you—eyes round like the angel she is, pupils dark as three am and every bit as impious. Oh, you’ll struggle enough with this story as it is.

“Fuck,” she says, one time, nearly breathless, and it almost sounds reverent, “I want it.”

Before you can get even a half decent reply forming on your lips, you watch Heejin’s jaw go slack, and sucking in a chestful of air, she seizes you deep in the warmth of her mouth.

There’s then a moment—excruciatingly drawn out—where Heejin sits near motionless, sinking further into the floorboards. Her lips are pressed tight into this seal around you as she takes it slow, a silent effort to become familiar with your taste, your shape.

A flutter of muscle between her cheeks, and the moment passes. Her lips relax, tighten, relax again before you feel her tongue. Sliding. Curling.

“I–” You sink forward against the door, abandoning whatever thought and allowing it to curdle into laughter, into this seedy moan that Heejin rips right out of your chest. Somewhere along the way, you’d figured that since you were more senior, more seasoned, more veteran in an industry full of girls whose looks might leave you for dead—girls who, with a little praise, and just the right amount of attention, would look up at you like you’d hung the stars, the moon and the sky—you figured Heejin would be in your hands, melting.

And then there it is, eager to point out your mistake: Heejin’s tongue, again. It slides delicately over your head, and when she sinks her lips further down your shaft, you can feel it narrow and tease at the base of your cock. Her eyes are closed, but you can see how they crescent, smiling undoubtedly in something like victory as she hums against you, delighted.

“Heejin,” you start, wanton, and you’ve got a fist in her hair, gentle in how you bundle it all between your fingers, experimental the way you push her mouth further into your hips. There are two delicate hands coiled around your slobber-covered cock in response—and then she starts to twist. You nearly fold and collapse and crumple under your own weight, gasping, “you’re killing me.”

Heejin raises her head from where she’s been hollowing her cheeks and covering you in her spit, vicious stick of precum staining her lips. Grins, because she knows.

“I am?”

You’re tipping your head back, sucking in your next breath. Bucking your hips into her fingers—all ten of them lathering spit and gingerly pumping your cock. Impossible to ignore, they brush and tease all the spots that send you reeling as though they were returning to something familiar, had done it a thousand times. You swallow, and Heejin’s eyes trace that quiver through your throat. 

When it becomes clear that you’re not really in a state conducive to banter or ribbing any longer—the clever words out of your mouth now amounting to nothing more than a few four letter ones—Heejin just smiles, sloppy sounds of her fingers twisting around your cock, and she falls back into that deep tone, “you look so hot like that, by the way.”

You sigh, defeated, bunch more of her hair into your fist. And after Heejin pushes a fingertip to your slit, pulling the skin of your cock tight around it, your breath hitches, shuddering at the sight of Heejin playing with your precum between her fingers.

“Can you imagine?” she asks, pressing you to her cheek, “how good this is going to feel inside me?”

“Heejin,” you groan, worrying a lip between your teeth at how her light hands pump up and down your length, the precum weeping from your tip providing her fingers with that much more hazard in their touch. Your voice is stuck to your throat for a moment, grasping, “I want your mouth—on me.”

“Mmm.” She again has her tongue on the underside of your cock, velvety and slippery around your head. “Yeah?”

“Yeah.” You can feel it. Just the hot breath tumbled from her lips onto you alone reduces you to a bundle of nerves and coiled muscle. “I want more.”

“More what?” she asks, mulish, and a smile sneaks into the shadowy corner of her mouth.

“More—you.” It’s hardly even half a whisper.

Heejin has this quirk in her lips that stretches slowly against the tip of your cock, and her hands trace up your thighs, grabbing tight to the back of your ass. She nuzzles against you, and looks up, “then go ahead. Take me.”

Oh, you’ve had a crush before. The kind of thing that had your heart and mind racing; the kind of thing that would swallow up your time for weeks if you let it. So when you’re looking, gazing, watching this masterclass in showmanship: Heejin’s lips parting around you, her eyes smoldering into yours—that’s when the realization hits. 

This is so much worse. You’re truly fucked.

Fingers thread tight into her hair, and you’re guiding Heejin’s mouth—hot and wet and perfect—onto your cock. Slow, measured, her lips slurp and seal. Near five-foot-nothing of pure sinful delight, and tossed locks of hair resting across her face where they shimmer in the darkness of your foyer, you slip your cock inside her. Press between those soft lips. It’s a voyage, enroute to heaven; then with your hips selfish and stealing more of that tight heat, it’ll be straight to hell. Inches, sliding and sinking, Heejin shuts her eyes and relaxes her muscles, jaw gone slack—grabs onto your thighs like you had any intention of being anywhere but the bottom of her throat.

“Fuck,” you hiss, and the next sound that comes out of you is practically a living thing, wild and animal and nothing close to voluntary. 

Heejin’s mouth hangs wide and laxed for you to use, lips paradoxically tight, as you fuck your length over her tongue and deep into her mouth.The very prospect of asking for more is gluttonous, wicked and immoral, but here you are: thrusting your hips into her pretty face, pulling firm on her hair to keep the heat of her throat wrapped up around you.

“Mngh,” Heejin’s throat chokes the further you feed your cock into her—drag it back and bury into her again—strangled and straining, you can see the flush that floods her cheeks, the teardrops on the end of her long dark lashes, the unbelievable smile still in her lips.

All bets are off.

The pretense, the coy teasing, all that skirting about this clear predisposition toward fucking eachother senseless is further pummeled and ground to dust every time the tip of your cockhead punches the back of Heejin’s throat. And even beyond all that, Heejin holds firm to this composure, almost this plussed look of gratitude as you bruise soft muscle and steal the air from her lungs.

“Oh my god, Heejin,” you say, back arching into the space over the top of Heejin’s face, holding her head tight and fucking yourself on her lips. “Your fucking mouth.”

Triumphant, gloating, smugly humming into the spit-drenched skin of your cock, Heejin must realize she has you exactly where she wants you, trapped, fated: that under no circumstance are you going to unsheathe yourself from her throat until you’ve exploded and glazed it proper. She traces her fingertips down your thighs and hovers them about the hem of her dress, this bunched and furled mess of fabric at her thighs, pulls her panties to the side, and you can hear it—her fingers finding purchase in the mess between her legs. 

You slide deep into her throat; she pushes two digits deep into her cunt; you’re both reduced to the basics, chests heaving out these small noises of frustration. It’s a behemoth struggle to even think, let alone coordinate said thoughts into anything resembling coherence—but the first thing that falls out of your mouth is born of sincerity.

“Fuck, Heejin, I… I’m going to cum.”

She nods, as best as she can, the length of your cock slotted deep into her throat. Any kind of concerns you may have harbored—all from fucking her face, and drawing small tears at the corners of her eyes—they evaporate the instant Heejin’s tongue reaches forward past her lips.

Just one lick, between your balls while she has your cock entirely inhaled, and it sends you careening off course, destination hardly unknown.

“I–” your voice fades. Because the tip of her nose is against your waist, her tongue is doing fucking everything—she’s killing you. It’s all coming down, you’re falling apart, breathing in fits and starts, fucking Heejin’s mouth hard enough that if you weren’t holding tight to her hair, you’d have thrown her off you.

“Heejin,” you growl, voice sliced to ribbons.

When you finish between her lips, every burst of cum that spills from your cock sends a tremor, twitching and quivering through Heejin’s lithe body, and then you can feel it in her throat, tightening around you. 

“Mmph.”

“Fuck,” you gasp, uncontrollable.

“Mmmmph.”

Heejin makes this impressive, maybe futile effort to swallow it all down. Laudable, admirable, you’ve got it correct about her: anything less than perfection is tantamount to abject failure. With that, she struggles, her eyelashes flutter, and a strangled sound escapes her throat—choking and sputtering as you keep cumming, more than she can ever hope to take. It floods her mouth and spills from her lips to unveil this shiny streak that rolls down onto her chin.

Even though you’re still gasping and shaking and reeling from your orgasm, you recognize those taps against your hips immediately, how they beg for breath.

“Heejin, oh my god, I’m sorry. I’m so so sorry,” you say, horrified as it all starts to return to you, and when it does, you jump backward, unsheathing your cock from Heejin’s mouth. Gaze drawn to that profane mixture of spit and cum that follows lazily in its wake.

She waves her hand at you wildly, realizes the gesture is probably not the most reassuring thing she could’ve done, and instead holds up a finger as if to say give me a second as she catches her breath.

Coughing a handful times and wiping her mouth with the edge of her wrist, she slumps backward. Hits the door, face flush and eyes sharpened like daggers, pointed, ready to kill. And the moment she’s certain you’re lucid, present in the image in front of you—that you belong to her again—it becomes performative: the way she presents you her tongue, the space beneath it filled and drowned with your cum—how she swallows it, that dry knot traveling dramatically down her throat.

“Jesus, fuck,” she stammers out, the loss of composure only transient and fleeting, “not bad for two guesses.”

-

The first time you fuck your cum into Heejin’s cunt, you don’t anticipate it. If you’d been perhaps a kernel less distracted, a trifle less overwhelmed by the scorching slick between Heeijin’s legs, you might have had the pleasure of calling the shots.

But this is where you’re at, melting beneath it: all her porcelain skin spilling onto you and her hands firmly on your chest, nails like claws, claiming you as her own. 

She’d dragged you toward the sofa in your living room, made a one-off comment about how bad she needed you inside her and then kissed you hard. Of course, when you tumbled down into the cushions—still muddled in a half daze and caught off guard by the sheer pluckiness of it—Heejin had controlled the fall, making sure she was the one who landed on top.

“Look at you,” her voice is low, rasping, pitching when she crashes herself down onto you. Feels her pussy all full and creamed as she fucks herself with your cock. “Just relax, let me fuck you. You don’t have to do a thing.”

She has her ankles locked over your thighs, knees sinking into the cushions, and ardently rolls her hips, fucking your shaft—exceptionally sheened from her slick and every bit as hard—deep into her pussy. Hot, wet, unbelievably tight, it’s near immaculate. And it only grows unrighteous at the end of every frantic bounce from Heejin’s thighs. Because she’s tiny, legs muscled, abs chiseled to perfection—vivacious to the point of peril - and she’s riding you hard and fast and bringing you so near the proverbial edge that your fingerprints threaten to sear into her waist if not for the fabric of her dress twisted and stressing, surrogate in its place.

“Oh my fucking–slow down,” you breathe, fully enveloped by her heat. It has your nerves on fire, something wicked ablaze, begging for release, and with your teeth gnawing your lip, you throw your head back.

“Are you sure?” she says, and runs her hands through her hair. Hoists it off her shoulders, bundling it over head—the visual not particularly favorable to your condition. Her eyes dip across her cheeks and into yours when she decides to salt the wound. “This is slow.” 

“Heejin, I’m serious. You’re going to make me…“ you start, a final warning, and at the sight of you disappearing between her legs, you’re struggling, pleading, “I swear… fucking cum inside you.” 

Ruinous, pushing a callous boundary, she lifts herself up and seals your fate. 

“Fuck.”

This is how she gets you. Seats herself on you again, pussy slicked all over your cock and the tip of her tongue flirting in the shell of your ear, “I know.”

-

To what extent god will believe your account of these events—how much you believe, in relating the story, hot with lust and adrenaline and the hapless self-doubting confusion of a psychotic who knows what they saw and is still able to dismiss it—is not clear.

Because look, it’s not as though you were unaware that the power had gone out.

There was a noticeably loud crack of electrical disaster, and in an instant, the lights of your apartment, the delicate details of Heejin’s naked body in front of you, and even the incessant buzzing of the refrigerator motor—the very thing on which you could always rely to ruin the sanctity of silence—it all vanished.

It’d be pretty difficult to miss. 

Only, as it happened—mid stroke, thrusting deep into Heejin’s cunt and her tight body fucked flat into the cushions of the couch—finding the effort to care was simply a bridge too far.

It’s selfish, metastasizing into something wayward, playing the cards you’re dealt. Hands pushing Heejin’s tiny waist deeper into your furniture, and railing her reckless and abandoning all that teasing, the dirty talk—having finally managed to steal back control. It would take more than a force of nature to wrestle it away from you.

“Harder, please, harder,” Heejin rasps, seconds before you fuck her through her first orgasm. Her face sinks, voice flooded by the reality of your cock owning her tight cunt and vibrating through the cushion. “Yours, tell me—I’m yours.”

Without even thinking you do. Twice, punctuated each time by a sharp thrust of your hips into the perfect round of her ass. 

Mine, you say. And it has her absolutely keening.

Pressing yourself into her, your voice in her ear makes her quiver and whimper, like it was the one thing she needed most to help her cum. Heejin just nods, mouth stuck agape, when you call her a total cumslut—near imperceptible when she does, bathed only in the pale moonlight reflecting off all the snow and into your apartment. It’s not necessarily the limits of what you’ve done, what you’ve seen, what you’ve said, but you can see it from here.

“Is this what you want?” you ask, and you can taste all this pleasure coating each word off your tongue as you rail Heejin harder into the sofa, your cock sweltering in the fucked wet mess between her legs. Each time you bore into her, push her higher and higher, it fills her with ecstasy fit to burst. She moans, this foreign sound of depravity, and raises her hips slightly, shifts the angle—has you stabbing deeper, teasing, “do you want me to fuck you like the little cumslut you are?”

She nods again.

“Do you want me to fucking fill you up over and over again? Do you want to feel my cum in your tummy? You’re crying, practically sobbing, darling. All because you’re finally getting fucked and it’s all for me. Can you cum like this? Is my cock pounding your cunt enough for you? Or do you need me to use my fingers too?”

Heejin whines. Knocked down a peg, the realization hits, and it’s clear as day, leaking out of her mouth all filthy and depraved:

“Daddy, please.”

It’s almost unbelievable that this is how it will come together; you deep in her cunt and the soft, milky skin of her ass stained red from the sheer delight Heejin finds only at the end of an open palm. 

Biting ruthlessly into your cheek, you grip tighter to her waist, your other hand thread through her hair keeping her partially upright and ripping your name, curses, incoherence all from her mouth.  

“Then just be good for me, princess.” Your words are pointed, serrated, seeking to maim, to kill -  near as dangerous as the fingers you reach around her hips on onto her soaked cunt. “I’m going to fuck this cunt, you can cum whenever you like—I don’t care—I’m going to keep using it until I’m finished. Until you beg me to fill it again.”

(Okay, so maybe you’re not abandoning the dirty talk. But here’s how you see it: tables always have a way of turning. You’re not seeking revenge or anything like that, it’s just that when it comes to karma, she always arrives right on time and ever more the unexpected.)

-

It takes a substantial amount of shuffling around in the dark to clean yourselves up. Heejin’s dress is irreparably stained, totally fucked; sweat, saliva, your cum, hers—the kind of shit you’d be afraid to ever see under a blacklight—and you’re standing there, exerting just as considerable restraint to refrain from simply pinning Heejin against your closet door and having another go at her as she’s changing out of it.

So together, you’re settling into the darkness, finding a reprieve from fucking each other within an inch of your lives.

From a pitcher in the refrigerator, you filled two glasses with water, handed one to Heejin.

She gulps it down almost immediately, and when you trade yours for hers, she sips it slowly, watching the boisterous storm outside the window. The silence that follows is warm, comfortable, welcome, sits over you like a heavy blanket. 

Every ten minutes or so, an emergency vehicle making slow progress through accumulated layers of ice and snow will illuminate the inside of your apartment with its bright hazard lights. And it’s only in that brief spill of yellow and orange through the window pane where you can see Heejin clearly. 

Around her shoulders is a flannel shirt pulled off one of your hangers, buttons uneven and misaligned. When she had gotten her fingers to the final button and realized she was two short, she just shrugged and let the clothing drape skewed and diagonal over her tiny frame, sleeves hanging far off the end of her wrists. She managed to tie back this loose ponytail with a binder clip she found in your kitchen and it lets you study all the details of her face—without having to run your hand through her hair and hold it back: features elegant and simple, regal and composed, eyes brilliant and gorgeous. The kind of beauty that righteously demands a team of photographers poised for a perfect shot; she tilts her chin, puts a hint of suggestion in her lips, and they scramble to find the next one, all with the desperate intensity of a starving man gnawing at a bone. 

“God. You’re really pretty,” you say, and only when it hits your ears do you realize it came out of your mouth.  

Heejin just smiles, all genuine and natural. Points at the flashlight in your hand. “I think you’d get more light from a cigarette lighter.”

“Fuck, I know, I don’t have any more batteries.” You slap your flashlight against your palm, optimistic. 

Not much more than a dull, pathetic glow escapes its lens.

“Maybe you can steal them from something else?”

“I was thinking the same thing,” you answer, “but everything just plugs into the wall these days, what all even still uses batteries?”

“If we were at my apartment, I’d just go take them out of Yeojin’s–”

She pauses, raises an eyebrow and twists her mouth cautiously, sinking into the sofa next to you. Finds your arm around her and folds her legs beneath her into something considerably more compact. 

“Flashlight?” you ask, trying not to grin and sneer, “one of those flashlights with three speed settings?”

A single strand of hair falls in front of Heejin’s face. She blows it away and it stubbornly falls back into the exact same spot on her cheek.

“Promise me you won’t write about this. It’s just… I have to tell someone.” 

“My lips are sealed,” you tell her, with the unwavering confidence of someone she could trust—which pragmatically you aren’t, but you’re both looking past all that.

“So this box arrives in the mail one day, right,” Heejin starts, pulling a blanket over herself, “And Yeojin sprints from her room, to the door, back to her room again, so fast that Haseul’s barely finished flipping the page of her book when it all happens. She’s already so small that you blink and you miss her, and in a lot of ways that’s what happened.”

“So she’s back in her room, with the vibrator.”

“Hold on,” Heejin says, tucking her feet into the blanket. “So we’re sitting there in the living room; I’m texting someone, Haseul’s reading something—I can’t remember what, but probably some cheap parlor romance—and that’s when we start to hear it.”

“The vibrator.”

“No,” Heejin says, flicking her eyes back to yours again, “the moaning.”

“Of course.”

“Now, I’m not saying… Look, there’s nothing wrong with masturbation. What’s greater than having sex with the person you love most, right? That’s what I always say.”

“You always say that?”

“It’s a figure of speech, you smartass. Anyway, we’re both sitting there, trying our best to ignore it, but it’s hard because this city’s built on a fault line, and they build these places so cheap so that they can tear them down and start over again without thinking about it, so the walls are, like, paper thin, and then after a while, Yeojin just starts wailing. I’m not kidding, it sounded like someone was trying to kill her.”

“I mean, in a way.”

“Right.” Heejin nods, brows furrowed and letting the memory come back to her, “I look up at Haseul, and she just goes about her business reading on about the adventures of some lovable-probably-clumsy-pretty-but-not-too-pretty-girl meeting the billionaire of her dreams and having all this weird, freaky, earth-shattering sex or something—she doesn’t even say a word.”

“And what exactly is she supposed to say?” you ask, “hey, what’s that noise?”

“That would’ve been better than just sitting in there in silence! Ugh, honestly, the woman’s always got a chip on her shoulder about this kind of stuff. Like, she’ll show up on a Sunday morning, and her knees are bowed and still fucking wobbling (so you know she’s been getting it good. All that irreverent, mind-blowing sex), and she’ll still have the audacity to look at us all judgmental for not going to church or maybe because we’re coming home still wearing last night’s dresses and heels.”

By this point, you notice Heejin has committed fully—with neither shame nor remorse—to stealing your blanket.

“So, I swear to god, I’m going crazy. Haseul’s just sitting there, and I can’t stop listening to Yeojin sobbing and gasping like she’s getting the best fuck of her life, and it’s this thought that grows and grows and grows in my head. I’m getting dizzy just thinking about it. And then, every bit as sudden as it started, it just stops.”

“Good for Yeojin, I suppose.”

“Right,” Heejin says, gesturing with her hand, defeated. “When she finally comes out of her room, her face is so so so red. Like, it looks like the end of a girl’s night out—after we’ve cut her off for the night, and after she’s cried and cried about some cute boy at the bar missing all her patented mixed signals.” Heejin takes a brief look at you, then back out the window, and puffs a small breath out of her chest. “The only thing I can even think at that point is, Jesus, I need to get my hands on that thing.”

“Do you?”

Heejin holds her finger up like she’s scolding your impatience. “So fast forward a few days, I’m digging through Yeojin’s closet when nobody’s home—and let me tell you, it’s like deep space in there, things go in and disappear forever; the other day I heard Sandra Bullock hollering from inside—but eventually, by the grace of god, I find it.”

“The vibrator.”

“The vibrator,” Heejin finally repeats, “This toy is silver, and looks about what you’d expect: like Steve Jobs was tasked with designing a banana. Beyond that, it was so complicated I almost didn’t even use it. Oh, and it wasn’t anything discreet either; there was this light that flashed when you turned it on and it practically lit up the whole room, these O-shaped strobing signals you could use to direct incoming flights at an airport.”

“Maybe we wouldn’t need to steal the batteries,” you suggest, and it makes a smile grow into the corners of Heejin’s mouth. “How’d it go?”

“With the vibrator?” Heejin puts her finger to lip, tracing it in thought. “I mean incredible, game-changing.”

“Better than just now?”

“Different.”

“It’s okay, it’s the twenty-first century, I’m not going to try and compete with a machine here–”

“Different,” Heejin repeats sternly, and you’re willing to drop it. “Come on by sometime when no one’s home and I’ll show you.”

-

“It’s really coming down,” you say once as you gaze into the storm, somewhere in the hours of the night that belong to no one.

Heejin slips further into your shoulder, eyes off the darkness out the window, the snow whipping across its face, looking up at you like you were the most interesting thing in the world. “Wonder how long it’ll take for them to remove all this mess from the rails.”

“I’m no expert,” you answer, “could be days though.”

“Bummer,” Heejin says, lips forming a kiss onto your collarbone.

-

“Are you sure you’ve used this thing before?” Heejin asks, resting on her elbows at the kitchen counter and blinking pensively at the French press in your hands. She looked on skeptically while you’d dug it out from a cupboard beneath the sink.

“Yeah, of course I have,” you tell her, exuding your finest false confidence as you run it back; the thing has been sitting in that cabinet collecting dust since you took it home as a white elephant gift almost a year ago. Shameful too, when you start to consider how much money you’ve spent at the coffee shops near your office and your apartment.

Heejin stares into her mug, her face lit by broken sunlight and still wearing that same perfected look. Only now it’s slightly different: hair tousled—rogue locks falling across her face and into the corner of her mouth where she could chew on it if she wanted—skin pale, the beauty mark on her cheekbone dotting her expressions like punctuation, a lack of sleep just beginning to shyly reveal itself beneath her eyes.

“I can see the coffee grounds in this.”

“You asked if I’ve used it, not that I knew what I was doing.”

Her lips curl back, smile huge, holding down either a laugh or a smirk—there’s no way to know—and finally rest atop the rim of the mug. “It’ll have to do.”

Only it doesn’t. Neither of you manage to make it through an entire cup, burnt, acrid, running on undrinkable.

That taste of bitterness lingers long after you’ve swallowed, and fills your mouth again when you press your lips to Heejin’s. She should be taking a cab to the station, should be boarding a train, should be trying to hide how fucked the bottom of her dress had become, should be looking at her roommates smug and gloating when she walks through the door. 

And you should be writing an article—about the girl you’ve seen wail and moan and sob on the end of your cock—who could just as easily turn it around, fuck you senseless like she has a knife at your throat. But this is borrowed time, an oddity, something like a glitch you figure, and you’re reaching under her thighs, pulling her into you like you’d simply hit an off switch on the responsibilities shadowed in your mind.

(You’re abandoning logic here because it’s the most natural thing in the world.)

There’s this reflexive quality to it, the way Heejin wraps her arms over your shoulders and legs around your waist as you lift her onto the counter. Sneaking into the space between long, soft kisses, she asks, grinning because she knows the answer, “If I’m stuck here, what are we going to do to pass the time?”

“I’m going to kiss you, probably.” Your answer comes before you find the shape of her impossibly narrow waist beneath an ocean of baggy fabric.

“Perfect,” Heejin says, voice carefree and charming and perfectly lilting, “and then what?”

“Then I’m going to get you all hot and wet and needy and you’re going to be begging for my cock.”

“You sound pretty confident about that.”

“Yeah. Guess I am,” you breathe into her neck, and it lands squarely on all this soft skin desperately in need of your lips.

She’s got a hand in your hair firm and grasping at you like she owns you—far less shy than the other at your waist, teasing the elastic of your shorts. “And then what?”

The wrong answer is anything that fails to mention ramming your cock in Heejin’s cunt or your face buried between her thighs and making her cum over and over. You laugh first, and then fail knowingly at the cross examination, “then I gotta get to work on that article, you know.”

Heejin lets out a sigh that could only ever be construed as disapproval. Palms the shape of your cock over your underwear. “Or.”

“Or,” you repeat. It’s her challenge. She can fill the space, continue the thought; you can’t get enough of hearing filth fall from her pretty lips while she looks at you all wide-eyed and perfect and like the princess you want to believe she is.

“You can take this cock of yours; the one I’m begging for right?” she says, fingers running down your underwear, rousing your length and finally cupping your balls. “You’re going to fuck me with it and fill me up with cum.”

“Cumslut.” It’s perplexingly endearing, and you brush your nose against hers, trace your thumb along her jaw, catch the swell of her lower lip on the tip of your finger.

Heejin smiles.

“Daddy,” she says almost cautiously, but immediately starts slipping these quiet little bits of laughter in the silence it creates. She’s yours, your hers, it’s all doomed and fated at this point, especially at this point—scribbled into cosmic law and her eyes holding you like they were made for the very purpose—you’re sure of it. “I’m not letting go of you until you fuck me.”

The heater has been off for hours, so the air in your apartment is frigid; simply getting out of bed was the kind of thing tibetan monks might do—walking across coals, self immolation, venturing out from beneath the warm covers in the morning, that kind of thing. And It has you perfectly content to take that bait in front of you, burying yourself deep in the scorching heat between her legs; turning her around, and doing it again. Making her cum like that and then letting your own orgasm drip out between her thighs.

“I’m not playing around,” Heejin says, having watched you laugh quietly to yourself about the absolute vice she has you in—and beyond the legs pulling you closer.

“One time,” you concede.

“Yeah.” Her hands pump your cock gingerly against your underwear, and Heejin agrees, “One time.”

It doesn’t take long. You turn Heejin into this whimpering mess—her legs and hips suspended above the counter and ankles thrown over your shoulder. She falls apart, moaning still like it isn’t slicing her voice to bits, all rasped and ruined, and you fuck her through her first orgasm. Her thighs shake and quiver while you fuck her through the second, railing into her cunt like it had insulted you.

“Fuck, that’s amazing,” Heejin pants, head rolling onto her shoulder, and her cheeks are so red you have to believe her. “Oh my god.”

She’d gotten only through half the buttons on her shirt before she became too cock-addled to figure out the rest, and it hangs ever so slightly off each of her dainty shoulders—agape enough for you to watch her small breasts jump every time you thrust into her.

Each long thrust into her heat has both your voices flooding, desperate. The way your thighs slap together all wet and raw only adds to the scene—this fucking filthy score of moans, curses, sex. It’s probably always been your instinct to pound like this: reckless, careless, selfish—and here Heejin is, begging for it.

“Go ahead,” she says, eyes lidded, still catching her breath, and it’s the most seductive thing you’ve ever heard, “I need you—fucking use me, fucking take me—need you to breed me.”

(It’s hot, you think. Maybe you’ll ask about it later. Maybe you won’t.)

So yeah, you cum. 

It’s one of those eye-clenching, blood-boiling, ear-ringing, teeth-gnashing orgasms that has you making a groan so inhuman, so broken and unbecoming, that it has Heejin laughing in response. She’s patting your sides, lips planted on your neck, cooing while your cock continues to ache and pump cum into her wet, fucked hole.

“What was that?” you ask, breath hitching and your body sinking into those light arms wrapped around you.

“What was what?” She’s got it so casual, so carefree, still so utterly charming—it makes you feel as though you were the one who’d said something out of place.

“Um. Don’t worry about it.”

-

Oh, it’s probably written in the stars, this mess between you, orbiting, circling, bound and tied: not even a half hour later, she leans over the sofa where you’ve set up with your laptop, kisses you once, and you’re reduced to nearly nothing but the kind of desire that will curdle into lust and threaten to eat you from the inside out should you refuse to yield to it.

“Really. I can’t. Not now.” It’s bravery or something. You’re lionhearted and incredible and you deserve a pat on the back.

Eyebrows knitted, she pouts at you when you explain once again that you have work to do, those pretty pink lips downturned into obvious disappointment, and you almost, very nearly give in.

-

Heejin pulls a book from your bookshelf four times, flips through it and rejects it, before finally settling on an architectural survey of Frank Lloyd Wright’s greatest hits (you’d also received that in a white elephant exchange).

There’s a photograph of Fallingwater on the front, and Heejin licks her fingers each time she turns the page.

She lands on the sofa next to you, lying long ways with her head resting on the padding of its arm, the same one you’d buried her face into less than twelve hours ago, and the two of you do technically manage to fit, only her feet cram into you and stab sharply into your thigh.

“You, uh, a big architecture person?” you ask, sparing a glance from your laptop to the girl nesting into the cushions beside you.

“Not in the slightest,” she answers, “I’m just bored to tears because someone would rather play with their computer than play with me.”

You give her a more pointed look, probably more akin to the attention those beautiful eyes of hers deserve. “I’m telling you: my editor will hang me from the rooftop if I don’t get this thing in her hands by Monday.” “That seems extreme.”

“Hey, that’s why she gets her salary and I get mine. I’m not paid willing to commit a murder money.”

She holds back a laugh, and leans forward, pulling her knees to her chest. “So what you’re saying is you’re a procrastinator, and I’m the one who gets to suffer for it.”

“Yeah, and you’re blameless after all.” You rake your fingers through your hair, running the past twenty-four hours through your head. “It doesn’t help that we’ve been at it like rabbits.”

“Like what?”

“Like rabbits.”

“Like what?” she asks again, this huge toothy grin stretching across her soft lips.

“Keep it up, go ahead,” you answer, shaking your head, “and who knows, you might just get what you’re asking for.”

-

When the power flicks back to life in your apartment, Heejin stands in the doorway to your living room and flips the wall switch off and on a few times. She has her hand on her chin, as though she’s musing and considering what all the value of electricity might bring—near a hundred of years of civilization now at her fingertips—and you have no idea that she’s about to rip you away from your work with four simple words:

“Wanna take a shower?”

You tilt your chin over the screen of your laptop, and logically, you reek of sex and sweat. Every now and again, you’ll scratch your nose or hold your hand over your mouth and you can still smell Heejin’s slick on you, stuck to you, its indomitable linger.

Heejin simply stares at you like she knows your hers.

And if you’re thinking logically, you’re making progress faster than you expected on this article, words hitting the page and flowing freely. Logically, it would be near criminal for Heejin to be in your shower, her petite body all soapy, slippery and glistening, and you not there to see it, touch it, fuck it until she’s cumming and moaning your name and the sound of it echoing off all that tile–

“Yeah,” you say, clam-shelling your laptop and tossing it aside, “sure.”

-

There’s a certain quality about the renewed coyness, this sense of competitive playfulness, perhaps something diffident brewing between you, Heejin, and the four walls of your shower.

Leisurely, you both wash as though you’re not dying to jump one another’s bones, like you’re both not reliving each and every orgasm on some sort of highlight reel played back through your thoughts.

Water falls to the ground in heavy spurts, loudly splashing after it pools and rolls off your bodies. And inside that cloud of steam, wrapped around you both like a blanket, Heejin catches you staring at her perfect figure just one too many times.

“I’m just cleaning,” Heejin says, voice grasping at its highest register, and she wraps her fingers around your cock. “So, you know, don’t get too excited.”

You’ll spin it around, turn on it’s head, get your fingers gliding along her slippery pussy all the same, and you’re right there with her, saying, “Right, just cleaning.”

“Imagine that.” Heejin’s pumping your shaft, perfecting it with this twist at the end that has you roused and ready and aching for more. “You spend all day, playing hard to get, and I just had to touch you?”

“Who says I’m going to fuck you?” you ask, a little too breathless, a little too obvious of a lie. Heejin presses forward and presses her lips to your chest, little kisses trailing across it.

“Fuck it, me, I’ll say it.” She wraps tight around the head of your cock, squeezing tight and making the water between her fingers squelch. “You’re going to fuck me. You’re going to press me up against this glass, and you’re going to fuck me.”

Heejin’s eyes light up when you smile, laugh because it’s true, and pull her up into your lips.

It’s not particularly a great kiss. It’s maybe a little too wet, far too much tongue, a little mean, but it sets the stage: when you’re cock is finally lined up between Heejin’s lips, teasing—relentless you might add—and her tiny body is pressed so hard into the glass that your only lament is that you can’t see how it looks from the other side.

You slowly enter her cunt, so slow it makes Heejin whine and groan, and you flirt your lips against her ear, “ask for it.”

“Fuck. Give it to me,” she spits, and you can feel her open wider for you when she does. “I need you to fuck me, please, please, fuck me. Or I swear–”

You never hear what’s on the end of that threat, because she doesn’t get the chance to tell you that you fucking better, that she’ll kill you if you don’t fill her up and make her cum, that it’s the literal end of the world if your hard cock isn’t buried so deep in her cunt that she sees stars.

She doesn’t get the chance because you’re pushing into her, fast and hard and all at once.

“Fuck, you feel so good,” her voice shakes, curses starting to flow like you’d ruptured a vein. She turns her head, cheek flush with the shower door so that you can see how her eyelashes flutter every time a stroke hits hard against her ass.

It’s intense. It’s calculated. Passionate and uncontrollable. You’ve become so full of contradictions that it has you ready to burst, explosion imminent. You don’t even need to hold onto her hips, because she’s fucking you, jerking her hips back and forth and fucking herself full of your cock—liberating your hands to reach up her sides, gather soap and water and sweat beneath your fingerprints, hold tight to her firm breasts while you bury your face in the soft skin of her neck.

When she collapses to her knees, legs wobbling and pussy quivering off your cock, she doesn’t even say anything. Simply turns and takes you into her mouth, stroking and sucking you until you can’t take it, that fucking tongue reaching all over and spelling out your end–

“Yeah,” you croak, the word some sort of lifeline, a warning, “Heejin, I–”

She pulls you out, lips smacking, and with three words does more damage than you thought she was ever capable: 

“On my face.”

It only takes a few pumps from her hand, her tongue still harassing the belly of your cock, and when she flattens it, opens her mouth wide and ready for a mouthful of cum, she has you simply acting on instinct.

It’s certainly novel, what you’ve just done. It’s in her eyes, it’s on her cheeks, you fucking cum so hard there’s strands of it stuck in her hair and stained to the glass behind her.

“Jesus,” you say, rolling back into the stream of hot water, cleansing your soul of sweat, of cum, of sin, “I just came on your face.”

Heejin smiles, eyes shut like her life depends on it, and puts a hand out expectantly, “yeah, so give me a fucking washcloth.”

-

“I don’t know, I guess I don’t really have any,” you tell Heejin in the breath after she’d asked you what your kinks are.

She leans forward, wipes at the steam covered mirror until you can see her reflection raising an eyebrow at you. “Really,” skeptical.

“I mean, seriously, is that really so hard to believe? I get off to pretty girls. You got me. What a villain I am.”

“Anal,” she says, turning to you and leaning against the vanity counter. Her face is still flushed and you can see the faint outlines of your palms and fingers on her chest, but she seems sincere about it—whatever it is.

“Yeah?”

“What do you think about it?”

“About anal?” You set down your razor, towel off your face. “Sure, why not, but I’m not going to sit here and say it’s my kink.”

Heejin threads her fingers under your chin, along your jaw—admires the fleetingly smooth skin that she might only ever find at the end of a shave, and cocks her head. “Threesomes?”

You laugh at the question, the sheer absurdity of it. “Are you asking or inviting?”

She toys with her fingernail between her teeth before she answers, “asking.”

“Well it depends. Who’s in it?”

“Me,” Heejins says, and she’s got her brows quirked; settles this huge predatory grin into her expression. 

She holds her lips next to yours—never quite kisses them—wraps her arms around your neck, shuffles a little and moves so that she’s straddled between the counter and your waist. She shimmies her hips and you almost groan, because now you recognize it: that’s Heejin’s shimmy. The silly little thing she does whenever she’s asking for sex without having to ever actually say the words.

“It’s a promising start. Who else?”

“You,” she says, flatly a matter of fact.

“Mhmm, okay, maybe I’m in.”

“Honestly, more than anything…” Heejin’s voice trails, and her lips pucker. “I just want to see you buried in Haseul’s ass.”

“Okay then, maybe I’m back out.”

“Sleep on it maybe. Do you wanna know mine?

You recognize the caution filling your throat, and then promptly being neglected when you ask, “Is it breeding?” 

Heejin just smiles, laughs like it isn’t incriminating. Her lips come close to your earlobe, you think she’s going to lick it or bite it or god knows what, but somehow it’s worse:

“I just fucking love your cum.”

-

“Don’t you have somewhere to be–”

You’re not annoyed with her; it’s just that yesterday night was when the trains started moving again, and now it’s almost five o’clock on a Sunday and you’re wondering when this particular journey comes to an end, if it comes to an end. There should be a credit scroll, a fade to black, some sort of keystone to socket in place, you figure, and you’re asking what should be an obvious question.

“–or at least some place you can get yourself a proper pair of pants.”

Leaning over the back of the sofa, eyes scanning your laptop, Heejin ignores the question entirely.

Year of the Rabbit: Heejin, the girl next door, only farther away than next door.

Sometimes she’s blonde but dark at the roots, sometimes she’s tall but only with the help of certain shoes. She’s everything, anything she ever wants to be.

When she first sat down, she wandered into the interview like a second semester-senior, not only at ease with the system, but a little beyond it.

“Hold up, what the hell is this title?” she asks, pointing to the top of your document. “You’re so far up your own ass there’s even a colon right in the middle of it.”

“It’s a work in progress,” you say as you slouch into the sofa, “and besides, the beauty comes out in the edits.”

“I certainly hope so,” she says, worrying the corner of her lip between her teeth, and fixing her eyes back on you. “I was planning on staying for dinner.”

“Of course you were.”

-

You decide, possibly against your better judgment, to walk Heejin back to the train station.

Although the city had resurrected itself, like Lazarus after a party where the guests had run out of wine (you’re not totally sure about this one), and started to put all its miserable pieces back together, the sidewalks are still a total fucking mess. You’re both there trodding along, navigating through the absolute, dreadful shitslop of snow and dirt when Heejin asks, “You’ll call, yeah?”

“Sure,” you answer, like it was in your power to resist the very idea of it.

“Hey. After all, if you don’t, I know where you live.”

You point in the direction of the turnstiles. “Mildly threatening.”

“I could always wait in the bushes.”

You agree, tugging gently on a strand of hair that had come loose from her ponytail. “You absolutely could.”

MANAGE (THIS) TROIS

male reader x jang wonyoung && an yujin

12k words

It’s how your Sundays spend you, if you’re to be honest. It’s a day for rest, for sobriety, for virtue and measure, the Lord’s day if you’re at all particularly reverent (citation probably needed), and why Wonyoung is that much more annoyed when Yujin shows up dressed the way she is.

“Uh.” Wonyoung laughs and it’s recognizably derisive. “Are you kidding?”

As some may or may not know, the three of you have been friends for ages; the spontaneous combustion into laughter, the ribbing, the teasing, the playful banter, it’s how you’ve always got on—the fact now that the sex is toe-curling and irresistible and downright sinful? An entirely separate issue.

Surely it won’t complicate things.

-

Technically, you’re all equally at fault the moment Wonyoung spies you making eyes at Yujin as she struts through the living room. She’s wearing only a tank top and a pair of fluorescent pink sports shorts that barely manage to wrap around her thighs, the seam of which gape perfectly to show you just how long her legs are, to the point your bones nearly start to ache.

The truth that Yujin will later vehemently deny is that things spiral out of control on account of the fact that she simply cannot keep her mouth shut, as is usually the case. You’ve come to assume that rather than possessing a shameless love for her own voice, she does it deliberately—to egg Wonyoung on, because the only thing she enjoys more than getting the younger girl flustered, red in the face, and reduced to an incoherent mess is arriving there before she even lays a finger on her.

However, if Yujin’s plan is to get Wonyoung all bent out of shape and worked up and beside herself to the point that she has no other choice than to take it all out on you, it backfires spectacularly.

Wonyoung’s nose scrunches and all her angelic features sharpen to a point as she watches Yujin crash onto the sofa next to you; sends her hands to her hips when she sees that warm arm wrap around your waist—palm flattening against your stomach a moment before sliding into the waistband of your joggers.

“What in the living fuck do you think you’re doing?”

“The way I see it,” Yujin starts up again, and even though her words are clearly addressed, enveloped and stamped for Wonyoung, you’ve got the sultry color of her voice flirting in your ear, mouth skirting across your neck to find the gentle marks and bruises she’d made a silent promise to return to. “Miss I-give-the-best-head really shouldn’t have a single thing to get jealous over now should she? I mean, you sounded so sure about it.”

“All I said was I have a proven method.”

Yujin scoffs. “It’s not a precise science, sweetheart. Different strokes for different—”

“All sciences are precise,” Wonyoung snaps back, one elegant brow arching skyward and arms crossing, “that’s what science means.”

“Well, I think that’s open to interpretation.”

“How… extraordinary.”

To Wonyoung’s continued annoyance, the genuine throaty sound of your laughter doesn’t inspire confidence. Neither do the fingers you’ve got sinking into the round of Yujin’s perfect ass as she shimmies onto your lap, but it’s kinda the point. Because you know that the way you have Yujin sinking into a kiss, her hips rutting against you, lips sliding wet and easy and smacking across yours like you don’t care who’s listening—

“Oh, okay sure, let’s see…” Wonyoung pulls a fist out and begins to count on her fingers: “it’s my apartment. That’s my couch. And he’s my boyfriend.”

When Yujin pulls herself off from your lips, her fingers continue on raking through your hair, and she just smirks—nearly grinning stupid because she knows how this always ends. Urges you gently as she pulls you by the wrist to grab a second handful of her chest. She’s delightful. And if there’s anything in particular that she flat out refuses to learn from this peculiar arrangement, it’s that you never ever ever try to goad Jang Wonyoung into anything.

“A little possessive, isn’t she?” Yujin asks as her hands, in a near-rehearsed motion, run down across your chest to where she can hook a few fingers into your pants. Gets them just down about the middle of your thighs to pull your cock out far enough to start stroking it.

And when Yujin also says right after—voice lilting into this familiar tone, something Wonyoung should absolutely know better than to walk straight into—that maybe if your girlfriend could take better care of you, that the truth might be: “I dunno, have you considered it could just be, like, personal preference? That he’s dying to bend me over instead? Would rather get my legs folded up into my chest and pump me full of hot cum just like that? I’m sure it’s nothing personal, little dove. I mean look at me: I’m built for it.”

Wonyoung floats her fingers to her face, pinching the bridge of her nose.

(Here’s the thing about Wonyoung: she’s quiet, incredibly pretty, reserved and sugar-sweet, and plays her cards close to her chest. With all that dark wavy hair spilling over her shoulders without fuss or pother, deep brown eyes easy to get lost in, she’s the quintessential angel the devil might spend countless nights in fantasy about plucking right out of the heavens and dragging straight to hell. In fact, so angelic is she that Yujin had begun to grow increasingly concerned that all your hard work had possibly been for naught—that for a long time, all those flashes of wicked lust in her eyes may have perhaps not been what you thought they were, those naughty quips and innuendos that never just landed as something you could quite laugh off were possibly a misread; Yujin had an incredible talent for determining which potential conquests were open to a little conquering—but with this girl, she was at wit’s end, had nearly given up. Wonyoung would blush and simper one moment, pale and avoid her the next. Oh, there’s wicked fun to be had in turning a wholesome and prudish princess to her more kinky side, though only if the princess is willing.

Wonyoung, so it seemed, was an incredibly difficult princess to read.)

“Brat,” Wonyoung spits, shadowing in behind the girl on your lap and lets her voice lower into a dangerous growl, gets close enough so that Yujin practically winces when she feels the moisture in her breath against her temple. You watch as she gathers Yujin’s hair into her fist. It’s enough to tilt her head back until Yujin opens her mouth in surprise—something Wonyoung knows instinctively to kiss and suck and lick at until her lips grow swollen and tender. Whether or not it had always been the case, the truth could never have delighted you both more: the girl’s no angel.

“Mmmnph.” Yujin melts further into your lap at the feeling of the tongue sliding languidly past hers, and you can hear all these little satisfied hums leak out of her chest in droves. When you ball the slippery polyester front of Yujin’s tank top between your fingers, her breasts spill out on either side of the fabric close enough to your face that it takes nary an effort to give one of her small dark nipples a wet kiss—an intense lips-puckering suck to the other.

The moment your mouth gets involved, lapping and licking and caressing her hardening nipples, Yujin starts to squirm. Each flick against her pushes a soft moan straight into Wonyoung’s lips; in many ways, that’s a familiarity the three of you all always manage to return to. Especially now that she’s got her hands wrapped and twisting around your cock, jerking you slowly like she has all the time in the world, like you and your girlfriend aren’t going to fuck her six ways to Sunday and still find her begging for more.

“Aight, listen here,” you say finally with calm command, and both girls nearly startle. “It’s my cock you’re stroking. So I’m either fucking somebody or I’m gonna have to go take care of this myself.”

The two of them get their eyes on you, both pairs of perfectly sculpted eyebrows ever-so-slightly furrowed. And when you unclench your grip on Yujin’s pliable ass, stretching your fingers wide to run it up her back, their gazes are rapt. Interesting. You file that away.

“Nope. You’re not going anywhere,” Wonyoung says, having pulled away from the kiss and let a smug quirk settle into the corners of her mouth—apparently come to grips with the fact that, yes, you are going to fuck Yujin’s body until she’s incomprehensibly stuttering and blabbering, and there’s nothing anyone can do about it.

In tacit agreement, you slap Yujin’s ass through her shorts hard enough that she yelps. She’s not wrong—not that you’ll let her hear you say it—but she is built for it. You nearly snort, saying, “well hurry up and figure it out, who am I fucking first?”

Wonyoung leans in further to get her point across, to get her hands all over the girl in your lap. “What do you think about that, hmm? How does getting that cock inside you sound?”

“Oh, love.” Yujin steadily starts stroking you faster, fingers tightening and loosening in a steady rhythm. Because if there’s anything in the world that turns her on more than Wonyoung abandoning all that about perfection and innocence, it’s feeling your cock grow harder in her hands. “Please please please tell me that it’s me.”

She slumps forward at the touch of your fingers searching about the heat between her legs, arches her chest toward you to feed her breast back into your mouth—oh, of all the ways to die, surely. There’s a wistful sigh she lets on, a similar thought brewing and simmer as each touch from your deft fingers arrives closer to where she wants you, voice shuddering along a pleasant note.

“C’mon,” she whines, “you get to fuck him all the time. No harm, no foul, right?”

From the way her pussy feels beneath the thin material of her shorts, you realize she’s made the decision to not wear any underwear, made the decision long ago that she’d be fucking herself with your cock and nothing else. A quickly drawn breath of air past her teeth clues Wonyoung in that you’ve got your fingers against her clit and she’s that much closer to begging to let her share you, closer to pleading Wonyoung to let her take your cock and ride it until every muscle in her legs are sore and aching.

You spit Yujin’s nipple from between your lips and laugh out loud.

“Yujin, you slut,” you start, “you’re not even wearing anything under here.”

There’s another rise out of the girl when you press your hand up against her pussy, close enough to slide a thumb between her lips, close enough that you can feel her heat, her gentle tremor, the way she begs for the friction of your fingertips, your tongue, your cock—anything thing firm and unyielding and attached to you.

“Didn’t stop you from you looking,” Yujin insists, arching further back to the grip Wonyoung keeps tight in her hair, whimpering again as she gets her lips hovering beside hers. “Bet he’s been thinking all kinds of things, Wonyoung.”

“And I suppose you figure you deserve that much, don’t you,” says Wonyoung callously as she starts kneading her fingers into Yujin’s perky breast, the one you’ve left neglected. “Deserve to have this cock pounding you deep and hard and you probably want him to fuck a load of hot cum into you too.”

Yujin just nods.

“Figure I’ll get my tongue on your clit for you and make you cum that way, huh?”

“Need to get fucked so bad,” Yujin whines at Wonyoung, in the increasingly brief spaces between their loud, lip-pulling kisses—pauses that fill quickly with heated breath and the lust in her unsteadied voice.

Your girlfriend is hardly impressed. She says as much, and then laughs into her ear, pressing a quick kiss to her temple, and chides, “greedy.”

Yujin immediately goes pliant, a little whine escaping her that neither of you bother to soothe. She repeats herself several times, “I’ll be good. Promise.”

“Oh, I know you will.” Wonyoung skates her thumb along her jaw until she finds her fingers threaded beneath her chin, gets her face pointed up so that she can see just how clear and articulate her eyes are, cast down the regal length of her nose and smoldering dangerously into hers. “But I think you’re still entirely way too coherent right now.”

Yujin presses her lips against Wonyoung’s again, gets her fingers up over the head of your cock to lather precum into her thumb and drag it all down your length before pumping you in earnest. Wonyoung’s the one who knows you like the back of her hand, how to get you groaning and gritting your teeth with her fingers, her lips, her cunt, however she chooses, but Yujin’s never been far behind. She just smiles when she brings a touch down to your balls, and purrs: “Then that just means you aren’t distracting me enough.”

Wonyoung flashes you a grin, and, oh, do you know the look, always mirthless and every bit as cunning—the same whenever she feels the urge to taunt you into sparring with her. She gets it exactly right, the perfect severity to an austere tone that makes Yujin’s hair stand on end at the next thing out of her mouth:

“Bedroom. Now.”

It’s almost predictable. Yujin just looks at you with these wide eyes, soft and unassuming like she’s some lost puppy, knowing she’ll want for nothing once she’s in your hands—the way you and Wonyoung always take care of her, how you get her cumming over and over until she’s near hysterical and so overstimulated she has to beg you to stop.

“Best not keep her waiting,” you tell the girl in your lap as you press your thumbs down into the curve of her soft, milky skin and massage a few circles into her thighs, “we both know she can quite be the handful.”

And but so it’s the three of you—that common plurality coming to a head, you peeling your pants from your waist as you go, staggering not even a few feet down the hallway before Yujin says something that tests the limits of Wonyoung’s patience. You don’t quite hear what it is that sneaks out of her mouth, but whatever it is, you know it’s petulant.

Wonyoung pins the older girl to the wall, hands splayed around the bones of her hips, and there’s nothing forceful about it—the kind of authority she exerts a subtle thing. The two of them exchange more kisses, two curtains of dark silky hair cascading into another and only coming apart as Wonyoung lands fingerprints down the rise of Yujin’s shorts. When Wonyoung raises her face again, letting her breath kiss the tender swell of Yujin’s lips, she’s watching the way she throws her head back to the wall, throat exposed and begging to be marked, marred and bruised.

Wonyoung pushes her tongue between her lips, run semi-circles across them to remind Yujin of the big picture. “You’re fucking wet, Yujin.”

“Better do something about it,” Yujin chokes out, gentle features wincing again as Wonyoung’s hand slides lower, dipping and diving between her thighs.

“Strip,” Wonyoung commands abruptly, liking the way it makes her shudder.

Say what you want about Ahn Yujin, no one thinks she’s stupid—Wonyoung might be the one to take the reins, call the shots, press the two of you under her thumb, but at the end of the day, Yujin always, always, gets what she wants. She starts at the top, raising one arm and reaching it behind her back so that her rack is fucking presenting, all while she shimmies her way out of her shorts, the flash of neon puddling into the floorboards at her feet. Yujin’s body is incredible, all angles and curves in the right places, pointed and soft in this juxtaposition that gets your head spinning—it’s a work of art regardless if it’s underneath you, on top of you, squirming into the cushions of the sofa, the springs of the mattress; it’s the angle, the framing, the change in perspective that always manages to guide you to new conclusions and interpretations.

“Good girl,” Wonyoung mutters, and bites off a pitching moan as she seals Yujin’s lips with her own.

The two of them, like this (and in so many other ways), are so aesthetically pleasing. Beyond the way the pair gets their hands on each other’s skin, holds each other, ruts against each other, kisses each other like it’s some overflow of passion ten years in the making, they’re simply breathtaking and stupefying to the point that if you weren’t sinking your teeth into your lower lip while you stroke your own cock at the sight, your jaw would drop. As if the Creator, in their making, that meticulous work, had endeavored to pour as much unbridled, raw appeal to their figures, their forms, and pack an even more ungodly amount of lust into the two of them so that they might wreak havoc on anything they touch.

(And so often is it you, the recipient of all that lust and desire, you poor, poor thing).

But the thing that ultimately gets you behind Wonyoung, hiking her pleated skirt up around her hips and sunk to your knees isn’t so much that you feel left out as much as it is that you can’t let her be the first one to take Yujin apart—before you get your cock in her, get her clinging to your name like a lifeline, muttering it like a prayer, cursing at the top of lungs until she cums all over you and shakes and convulses in your arms. You simply can’t allow it, can’t do anything other than get Wonyoung’s stockings frayed, furled and fucked between her thighs and stick your face straight into her cunt.

“Oh, what’s the matter, little dove?” Yujin asks, eyes smug and content at how you have Wonyoung’s lithe frame curling into her, the choked back whimper you force out of her throat as you tear through the sheer fabric of her leggings. “Maybe… perhaps… you’re dying to get fucked too?”

“Watch it,” Wonyoung growls.

“Or what?” Yujin just laughs, even though Wonyoung’s fingers continue to twist and dive inside her, start to make her cheeks flushed and stained, she’s purring: “Oh I know, you’re going to have to punish us both… like what a total drag.”

She’s not going to be in a state to do much of anything, is how you see it, pressing your lips harsh to Wonyoung’s pussy, drawing out circles with your tongue on the hot, sensitive skin—drawing out a broken gasp that has her shooting up a hand to cover her mouth. But it’s too late. Yujin sees the opportunity for what it is.

Though you suppose there’s only patience enough for the first few buttons from the top of Wonyoung’s collar before Yujin decides to tear the garment from her shoulders, sending buttons flying and rolling across the floor. Wonyoung flinches while trying to retreat from the touches Yujin reaches up her skirt, and she simply backs up further into your face. You’ve got your tongue splitting her lips, tasting her entrance and making her pretty mouth—usually so poised and elegant and polished—start to cuss and swear.

“Baby, baby, baby,” Yujin says, voice trailing, and she starts to preen Wonyoung’s hair out of her face so she can look her straight in the eyes, “You ride this cock every day, and here you are: even more desperate than me.”

“Hey now, that’s not fair,” you say as you surface from between the backs of Wonyoung’s thighs with a scowl, and seemingly without even thinking, pull your grip off her tight cheek to slide two fingers into her. You listen to her keen as you get two, three knuckles deep inside her hot cunt. “She doesn’t always ride.”

“Hmmm.” Yujin wraps her arms around Wonyoung and grabs your hips. “What do you think? The bed? Or fuck her right here?”

You still have your digits curling inside her, so she hardly minds at all when Yujin grabs her firm by the chin and slips her tongue in her mouth—for someone with such a strong resolve, she’s awfully sensitive, shockingly easy to unravel—minds even less when you lean over her shoulder and get your voice in her ear, teasing, “would you like that, princess?”

“Yujin,” and she has it choked up so bad you can’t help but laugh as it nearly gets caught in her throat on the way out. She swallows, gathers her fleeting composure and wrestles herself from the girl’s grip before reaching her hand behind her and onto your waist, putting a stop to you fucking her right then and there. Makes you settle for sliding your cock between her cheeks.

“Yujin, darling,” she starts again, voice again composed and unsheathed and apparently risen from the ashes—fashioned into a sharpened edge and held firm at the girl’s throat—only instead of terrifying her, it merely has Yujin licking her lips, struggling in anticipation. The three of you are only ever right where you’re meant to be. “I thought I told you. Get on the bed.”

-

Wonyoung takes a beat to finagle with the rest of her clothes, removing the stockings you’d ruined and tossing them into the bin before sliding her skirt down around her ankles. Just like anyone else, she steps one foot out of them, and then the other, but the whole motion looks elegant and poised without even trying. She really is incredible like that. You’re always sure to remind her of it. And you can tell she’s rolling her eyes when Yujin makes a comment about not having it all down to a science in what is possibly the least sincere apology to date before dragging her tongue up the length of your cock, a loud kiss punctuating the end of the gesture as she reaches the tip.

Yujin’s on Wonyoung’s bed, again the familiarity something to marvel at, belly down and knees bent with her feet kicking over her frankly immaculate ass as she props herself up onto her elbows to properly lick you. She teases again, fitting her lips around your head and letting spit run down your cock. I hope you don’t mind, she efforts to say with her mouth stuffed, garbled and muffled and almost unintelligible.

Almost.

“At this rate,” Wonyoung pipes up before settling in behind you, arms running around your waist and holding you by the base of your shaft, “both of you’ll be lucky to have much left to mind when I’m through with you.”

Yujin pulls her mouth off you, lips smacking. Laughs out loud at the thought, and you watch her pull a bundle of hair back past her ear, angle her mouth better to meet your cock, and start to tease, “there’s our princess.”

“Want your mouth too, Wonyoung,” you say over your shoulder, and even if you’re pushing your luck, you know that deep down, Wonyoung can’t refuse a chance to show off, another opportunity to put Yujin in her place. “Maybe show her how it’s done.”

She nearly snorts. “You’re spoiled.”

She’s a slut for your cock anyway, you figure is what Yujin tries to say, but it gets lost in translation as you push your way between her soft lips, choking her for a brief moment with your cockhead in her throat. It’s all slippery and shiny with her spit after you pull your hips back, and it’s an invitation Wonyoung shakes her head at, until finally capitulating, “fine.”

This silent competition that they settle into sees you as its sole beneficiary—your cock hardly left untouched, unlicked, uncared for by either of their mouths. They each have that burning desire to be the one that makes you melt, gets you to curse and moan and point your cock at their pretty face while you cum. Given that their goals are hardly aligned, it’s astonishing that they work in such beautiful harmony: Wonyoung licks your shaft, Yujin at your balls; kisses reach where another cannot, and you’re at the complete mercy of all the sinful motions of their tongues and lips—they’ve made you cum like this plenty of times before and they know they can do it again.

“Fuck,” you curse, letting it slip, letting them each know you’re that much closer to being the first one to go. “Feels so fucking good.”

The moment you start to bundle and brush all that dark silky hair from their faces, weave your hands into it at the napes of their necks, the movement and response is so elegant that it appears choreographed, rehearsed, and to some extent, that’s not far off. In tandem, Yujin and Wonyoung’s tongues slide across your shaft; their lips meet, pull apart, drag wet against your cock and kiss once more—these soft, ephemeral touches that leave all three of you yearning. Every now and again, one of them will take you further into the heat of their mouth, but it’s nothing selfish or ambitious, as they’re soon back to giggling and making out like the head of your cock isn’t resting every so reliably between them.

“Should make him paint our faces,” Yujin says, smiling and rolling her fingers through your balls.

Wonyoung scoffs, “don’t get ahead of yourself.”

This how your Sundays spend you, if you’re to be honest. The three of you never do make it to church (Saturday evenings so quickly turn to night to morning in the flash of an eye, and you’re all too sore and aching to get out of bed), but there’s no lack of worship to be had at the edge of Wonyoung’s bed—heads bowed in reverence as these two sets of heavenly lips cushion the length of your cock, tongues lathering and slipping about its sensitive skin. No, it’s not any substitute for a pew: they’re not kneeling or genuflecting or gazing up at you with their big wide eyes, watching for a sign from above—that you might wince and furl your brow; pull your cock back and jerk off until you paint over their angelic faces.

But as you run your fingers through their hair, gently fuck the unholy union where their soft, wet lips meet, the only thing curling off your tongue is an irreverent hiss, “fuck, girls, Jesus, I probably could cum like this.” You reach forward, and plant a hand on Yujin’s ass, watching her soft skin ripple at the impact—she just squeals when you do it again, harder. “Fuck.”

“Don’t,” Wonyoung snaps. “That’d be, like, a total waste.” She gets her fingers on your balls, and tells Yujin, breath hot and kissing the skin of your cock, “now watch me sweetheart. You start first, here, slow at the tip—”

The little kiss that Wonyoung plants at the end of your cock quietly makes it way down and around your shaft, and then it’s her tongue reaching beyond her lips to swirl and twist about your sensitive shaft. Yujin takes a mental note, grinning and teasing her fingernails across your stomach like she’s was watching it all for the first time, whenever Wonyoung makes you groan.

“Well, aren’t you lucky,” Yujin tells you, as she studies the masterclass that is Wonyoung sucking cock. She strokes you every now and again, bringing her own hands into a cadence that matches how Wonyoung fucks you with her lips, even if it’s almost an afterthought.

“Her pussy’s better,” you admit, even if she can easily get you shaking and cumming with only her tongue. Railing your girlfriend’s cunt is a completely different kind of pleasure, but you’re not one to look a gift horse in the mouth or the lips or wherever it is your cock is being serviced—it’s ecstatic perhaps, diffuse, expressive, the way Wonyoung takes you in her mouth. She twists. She laps. Her cheeks hollow and she sucks. In the right hands—and Wonyoung is absolutely on that list—you feel intensely wanted, intensely taken care of and it makes your balls ache, your cock twitch.

“I can feel you throbbing,” Yujin says, eyes beaming up at you and swiveling her hips about, ass waving ever-so-raised in the air above Wonyoung’s bed sheets—that’s an image you’ll tuck away, be sure to return to.

“Yeah,” you manage, and you’re reeling when both girls get their fingers locked around your shaft, pumping you in a perfectly fucked harmony. “It feels, ugh, incredible.”

“If she isn’t every bit as dangerous when she goes down on me.” Yujin laughs, knowing that Wonyoung’s mouth is warm and wet and perfect. Knowing that she’s begging for stern recourse when she fists a handful of her luscious dark hair and pushes your girlfriend’s bobbing head down nearly to the base of your cock, continues to egg her on while making her choke and spit, “oh, good girl, suck that cock, you lovely, pristine, whore—”

The ire in Wonyoung’s face—brow twisting and eyes narrowed—says it all when she pulls herself off you. There’s a visible tear or two forming on the end of her long lashes and a hand pumping your shaft to make sure you’re hard and every bit as unyielding for Yujin’s throat. “Fuck. I suppose you don’t have to learn anything, you brat.”

You catch the devilish glimmer in Wonyoung’s eyes as your eyes meet, and the corners of her mouth twist into this smug smile as she tumbles backward and lands at Yujin’s hips—gets them propped up and her face between her legs.

“Oh fuck,” Yujin says as the realization comes to her, in the breath before you get your hands in her hair and slip her mouth around your shaft. Her tongue flutters beneath the sensitive belly of your cock, nothing controlled or meticulous, but to her credit, you’re also punching straight to the back of her throat, these choked sounds spilling up from her chest each time your cockhead brushes with the hot, wet space you can only reach from her perfectly slacked jaw.

Now you have to pay close attention to something that’s going to seem obvious at first: the two girls are nothing alike. Wonyoung has you mapped out and understood to a dangerous degree, can make you cum and wail and gnash your teeth (the kind of skillful tonguework that now has Yujin humming and moaning onto your cock as it currently arrives between her thighs), but the thing about Yujin—her mouth is simply made for fucking—as if each time you socket your cock away in her throat, she’s gained something for it, simply delighted, finds her calling, her purpose, and it gets her reaching her fingers around you, splayed out into the back of your thighs to reel you into her lips again.

Forced to answer—and goodness, you hope the day never comes—it’s impossible to pass up.

She shuts her eyes tight when you draw your hips back, swirls her tongue over where you ache and throb, and relaxes to let you deep into her again. You grunt, she chokes, you might both be tearing up—the wet sounds from both your crotches totaling to a sum greater than its parts—this is pleasure exquisite, and if you’re considering your vices, your virtues, neither of you can quite figure out what happened to temperance.

“Fuck me, Yujin, your mouth,” you say, sinking your teeth into your lip until it stings, and your moans start to come out in involuntary dribbles. It’s hard not to note how the corners of Yujin’s mouth smirk as it opens wider to take you in between her lips, granting you more warmth and wetness to fuck your length into. There’s a clear irony in the way you brush those stray hairs out of her face, keeping her image elegant and faultless; you’re aware of it, all at odds at the way you grip her hair into a rough pony tail and fuck your length into her—pull your hips back and guide her down onto your shaft again.

“Feels so fucking good,” you repeat, breath heavy at the beck and call of your cock lodged deep in Yujin’s mouth. She coughs again, and you can feel the wet slick of her spit lather you, find you that much easier to take. When you pause, because god knows if you keep at it, you’ll be flooding her throat with a hot load—one that’s been building and aching since the girl pounced on you in the living room and decided to stroke you through your shorts and get you all hard and needy—she simply picks up the slack, gets her hand on your shaft and pumps and twists you until you’re making a promise, “gonna cum, god, keep doing that, wanna cum in your little mouth.”

Only thing is, Wonyoung finds a loose thread and pulls Yujin apart first. It’s clear as anything: that fucking tongue is made for eating cunt. Each lick against Yujin’s aching entrance returns her further and further to the basics—breaks her apart slowly so that Wonyoung might know just exactly how to put her back together and do it again.

And you’re left so very needing when she lifts her face off you, letting these loud, harsh gasps replace the sound of her lips around your cock, the sound of you fucking her face and getting spit and pre-cum all over your waist, her chin—it’s a mess. It’s hot and sinful and you’re biting hard into your lip that you might find some way to resolve the issue of needing a hole to fuck your cum into. A total mess.

You watch her spine arch magnificently, thighs shaking and quivering, head thrown back into the fireworks of it all—Wonyoung doesn’t even surface, she’s not there to bring the girl to her orgasm and then cuddle her after, drift away in the pillow talk and the gentle petting and kissing; she continues licking hard and fast still at the girl’s pussy, fingers gliding through the aftermath of it all while she’s sensitive and aching. Her eyelids are softly shut, peering out just over the beautiful mound that is Yujin’s ass while the girl writhing about has hers clenched tight, the over stimulation become too much to bear.

“Oh god, fuck, fuck, oh fuck,” she whines, collapsing into the sheets, muscles tensing and freezing until her mouth hangs open—the dam within her at a point that cannot do anything other than simply break.

Wonyoung doesn’t even flinch. You can hear her fingers get messy and sloppy as they continue to fuck Yujin’s tight hole while she steadies the girl with another hand on her waist. It’s always been the truth: Yujin loves to be manhandled, yearns for it, even if it’s Wonyoung’s dainty wrists holding her in place—so it’s to her added pleasure when you swing yourself over the bed and tell your girlfriend you’re going to get your cock in Yujin’s cunt too.

“Gonna fuck her,” you spit, pulling Wonyoung up off the quivering, aching mess that is Yujin on the bed. Her body is practically limp, all those muscles she’d spend hours in the gym working to maintain do nothing beyond lie still for you and only jump back to life at the feeling of your cock slapping her ass, labor to voice out a silent cry when you point it towards her sopping, needy cunt.

“Remember,” Wonyoung says with an obvious lethality in her voice—oh, she can kill, do it all with a smile—still wiping Yujin’s slick from her mouth with the back of her wrist, “she asked for this.”

You curl over her rear and the soft skin of her ass presses into your hips, spreads out across your stomach—it’ll be red and aching and she’ll love you for it. A kiss at her temple, and the promises you’re whispering in her ear make her fucking whimper, “Gonna cum in you, babe. Gonna get you all worked up and cumming again and clenching down on me and I’m gonna fuck this load deep into you.”

Yujin worries her lip between her teeth as she nods and mewls like the fucked mess she is. Thoughts sent spiraling at the idea of your hard shaft railing between her legs, the promise of being packed full with your cum—and the kiss your cock makes against her as you align yourself between her wet lips sees her nearly collapse. She just rasps, breath broken and uneasy and you’re not even inside her yet, “Yes, please—need it.”

“Oh my god—” Yujin gasps out loud as you slip inside her. She’s not incoherent yet, but all that’s got to be close; you can feel it.

“Hey, don’t cum right away,” Wonyoung tells you, “I want to see her cream all over that cock of yours, show me how you fucking ruin her.”

It’s a tall order, sinking into the overwhelming tight heat that is Yujin’s soaked cunt. She takes you easily, all worked up and fucked from Wonyoung’s mouth, the expertise of her tongue against her clit—almost too easily. “Fuck, wanna cum,” you breathe, curses and expletives flowing like water.

“Oh, I’m sure you will,” Wonyoung says from behind you, lips pursed at the sharp blade of your shoulder as she massages circles into your hips. “But you know how it is: only good girls get cum in their pussy. Don’t make love to her. Fuck her. Use her.”

It’s almost insane that you listen, that you let this girl who weighs half of what you do sit in the saddle—oh, because how easily you can get Wonyoung underneath you and fucked and falling apart just as fast, get your fingerprints up around her the hollow of her throat until she begs you to make her cum—insane that you’re not starting from where you left off in Yujin’s mouth, pounding and fucking with that selfish, industrious alacrity. That in spite of it all, your hips draw back, and when they dive back in, it’s no more than a slow, methodical, purposeful thrust. Yujin simply fucking keens as you stretch out her cunt, and the sensation overwhelms her, filled so perfectly that all she can do is sink her face into the pillows.

“That’s it, face down, ass up, like a good slut,” Wonyoung croons from over your shoulder, voice growling into something dangerous. “Nice and slow, really make her feel it.”

You’re still cooling down from the moments that had you almost unspooling and unloading ropes of cum into Yujin’s mouth, but the girl you’re fucking is on the other side of all that, turned the page and blissfully quivering and still in the high that had spilled her slick all over your girlfriend’s chin. You adjust her between your hands, gripped firmly onto her waist—noticeably narrow and tiny to the point that says, oh, you can break her, but then there’s the round ass that cushions your thrusts into her cunt, and it reminds you, oh,she can take more. A lovely paradox to ram your cock into.

“It’s so good, so good, just like that,” Yujin keeps repeating, throwing herself back into you and chasing her own high. There’s all this desire, all that neediness, she’s simply incorrigible—and her anticipation begins to consume her. “Yes, yes, yes—oh my god.”

“You’re fucking creaming,” you tell her, like she doesn’t know it, and you slap her perfect ass so hard she yelps. Massage circles into it before getting your hand sunk into the other cheek. All three of you know it: her ass is fucking delightful. You could get lost in those dimples that sit just below where her waist flares into those wide hips (and you most certainly have). All the curves about this canvas of beautiful satin-smooth skin. As you get your voice out to remind her how stunningly beautiful she is, start telling her to cum on your cock, Yujin practically screams.

Sure, sometimes it may appear like you’re being too rough, too risky, that you’re causing harm, doing damage, and you get how it can come to seem that way, given how you’ve got her body writhing beneath you, fucked and mewling, but here’s the thing you have to remember, and Yujin said it herself: she’s built for it.

“You gonna fill me?” Yujin asks, gasping for air like she’s just washed up on shore, “Gonna make me your cumdump, daddy? Go ahead, do it—fucking use me.”

Your thumb is searing its print harsh into her jaw, and you pull her up into your mouth so that your words are clear and painfully articulate, “needy brat.”

Her words come out shaky, punctuated by the way you pound her into the mattress, into nothing less than submission. “You—love—this—needy—brat.”

She knows it, you know it, because it’s all too true. Because you are ramming, bulldozing, ruining her aching hole; every stab into her tight cunt has her curves rippling and her voice shattering into a million pieces. She moans hard when you bottom out inside her.

“Please.” Starts sputtering when you do it again. “I can feel you so fucking deep.”

“There you go,” Wonyoung says, the sultry sound in her voice tickling the shell of your ear, “fuck her like she deserves, look… she needs it so so bad.”

“Hey, I know how to fuck,” you curse, eyes rolling back over your shoulder, and it’s a mistake. Before you can continue the thought, Wonyoung kisses you hard—hungrily licking and pulling at your lips like she needs you more than girl at the end of your cock. She’s got her hands all over your chest, your sides, fingernails scraping light across your skin and relishing the motion of you pounding her mess of a friend, the way you’re slicing her voice to ribbons and flooding her throat with wanton moans and squeals and whimpers. And when you’ve got your shaft so deep in Yujin’s perfect cunt that your lips part briefly to make some foreign noise of your own, Wonyoung seizes the chance for what it is, slides her tongue right between them. Nothing shy or reserved about it.

“Mmnnph.” She can probably feel your heart racing, feel you coming higher and higher, feel the way you shudder when you get Yujin’s hips further elevated in your grip, settling fast into this angle that lets you stab deeper, fuck harder. But with the two of you briefly silenced, it becomes just the soundtrack of your cock boring hard into Yujin—the harsh thrust of your hips against that fucking perfect ass, the way she’s whimpering in delight—that you have to hold onto, keep yourself distracted from the wet and blistering heat you bury into each time you rail into her needy cunt.

“Oh, of course you do,” Wonyoung finally breathes against your lips, a dangerous smile forming on her own, “Why don’t you remind the girl moaning and creaming all over your cock. She’s practically sobbing. Go on, I think she’s earned it.”

The way you have Yujin remember it, the pleasure she can only find at the end of your open palm, arrives quickly and without warning—when you bring a hand down onto her ass cheek, print outlined in white and quickly fading, Yujin’s voice leaks out, shattered: “Oh fuck, please.” She slides her hands forward, back arching into a curve that makes you dizzy, ass still presenting and proffering toward you like it’s her duty. And whether it’s purposeful or not, she clings to the word like it’s her lifeline, no more suitable to moor herself to than the sheets she bundles and pinches between her fingers, “please, please, I just need… please…”

“Look at that, you’re fucking owning her pussy,” Wonyoung purrs, noticing it well before either of you, too distracted in the throes of your own sex to see the signal flares, the warning signs laid out in front of you, Yujin’s knees fucking wobbling and her hips chasing back as you draw your cock out of her cunt. “She’s going to cum again.”

“N-Need more… please… more… harder…”

And at the end of a long, deep thrust into her wet, well-fucked cunt, she absolutely does.

“Cumming,” she pants, twice.

It’s every bit as incredible as ever, her mouth hung open and barely able to form the words she needs. Your hand is flush against her ass again, meeting the rosy pink glow of that growing stain, and this time Yujin doesn’t simply bounce back, elastic, resilient. She starts to babble, curses and names and thoughts all trading meaning and purpose as she crashes her whole body to the bed—clenches tight around your cock to the point that it’s a challenge to keep yourself between her slick thighs and buried deep between her ass cheeks as you fuck relentlessly into her prone form—however the extent to which it slows your effort, if any, is unclear.

“God fuck, I can’t get enough of you, Yujin, your little cunt is just incredible,” you rasp, teeth gritting as your limbs spill over the top of her exhausted body—before a groan, loud and obscene, has the broken edges in your graveling voice striking at a vein laid deep within her, something foundational and base and instinctual:

“Cum, want you to cum, want to feel you—”

“On your back, dear,” Wonyoung says flatly, taking enjoyment in the way she writhes beneath you. “Let him fuck you nice and deep, Yujin.”

Yujin is nothing if not compliant, putting up no fuss as you turn her hips in your hands, get on her back and those long legs onto your shoulders. You fill her to the hilt. Make her blather and gasp, mewling, moaning, collapsing. You’ve got fingers leaving bruises in her thighs like she’s yours and always will be and she fucking loves it.

“Fuck her hard, love,” Wonyoung urges, eager to see her fall further from grace. “Show her how she needs your hard cock. Show her what a slut she really is.”

You can’t help but study the way Yujin holds her mouth agape, frozen in delight, tiny breaths punched out at increasingly short interval on the end of your sharp thrusts—incapable of retaliation, some cute quip or needling retort uncharacteristically absent—Wonyoung makes the same observation, swings her thighs over the girl’s face, gets her pussy resting on her lips and lifts a sweetly challenging eyebrow at your perplexed expression.

“Oh? What is it? No good?” she asks, rubbing her fingers into Yujin’s tits, holding them in place while you pound at her hot cunt. “You going to tell me you want to kiss her while you get off and fill her up?”

“If you don’t mind,” you choke, uncrossing Yujin’s legs from in front of your chest— because yeah, too tight.

“Ugh, how cute and wholesome is that.” Wonyoung slides backward, reaches down to get a kiss in of her own before whispering, “He treats you so good—so open your legs wide for him darling, show him what a good little fuckhole you can be.”

You watch as she closes her eyes, pulls at the sheets. She’s unbelievably pretty, and even hotter when she’s all fucked and bothered—blush burning in her cheeks and sweat building at her brow, lips parting and muttering: “Love that… love it… please, you own me. I belong to you, please just fuck me.”

Yujin’s such a ruined mess and Wonyoung is enamored with the fact that you make her way, legs opening and wide and letting you sink in. The way you’re moaning together—it’s filthy, it’s indulgent, it’s so unbelievably hot.

Invested now in seeing how it all comes apart, Wonyoung’s holding Yujin still as you bring her knees to her shoulders, nearly fold the girl in half and get her bent at an obscene angle—bottoming out into her pussy, fucking her hard into the springs of Wonyoung’s mattress and crossing those familiar boundaries, the precipice of your own undoing. There’s no backing out. You’re going to cum, going to fucking use Yujin like the perfect little cumdump Wonyoung reminds you she is, and there’s no other way you’d have it.

Your girlfriend’s just dragging her fingers through Yujin’s hair, thumb rubbing gently at her cheek, caring and intimate even though her words cut deep, slice straight to the bone, “Hey, do you know why they call it a mating press?"—there’s no time wasted getting her fingers between your balls, knows with a touch here, a touch there, she can get you to fucking explode—"He’s gonna cum so deep in you baby, gonna fill you up, gonna breed you.”

Fuck, you are shaking. Her pussy clenches, grips, and it’s just that good.

“Please, please, I want to feel it. Need to feel you fucking burst.” Yujin’s got her palms flat on your stomach, bracing herself, just whimpers in a half response—too raw to be a grunt, too shaky to be a cry of triumph—sounds effortlessly elated all the same as she makes a series of tiny nods, pleading, do it.

“That’s right, take what’s yours,” Wonyoung says into your ear, clearly holding back a laugh at the sight of your depravity—still too poised and composed for your taste, but it’s a bridge too far to care. “Do it. Cum. Just fucking use her.”

It’s only a handful of pernicious strokes that make it happen. Really, you can count them—one, two… five… six… seven… eleven—Yujin’s breathing in fits and starts at the end of each one. At Wonyoung’s command, that light squeeze from her slender fingers, you’re there: crashing your mouth onto the girl beneath you, kissing Yujin hard and moaning brazen into her lips. They’re soft and cool to the touch even though her breath is heated and hazarded by the way you’re pumping cum into her cunt, fucking it deeper inside her as you continue to thrust and pound and use her like a toy—Yujin barely manages to moan back; she’s yours; you’re hers; the two of you both so absolutely spent, dismantled, fucked.

(Honestly, you spill like it’s the first time in weeks, like Wonyoung hadn’t milked a load out of you and onto her flat tummy with her hands just earlier this morning, and you’ve got hot cum pooling deep in Yujin’s pussy, leaking down her thighs, and making you nearly slip out from between her legs.

Yujin’s hands are soft on your hips, those small movements pulling you somehow closer into her fucked, exhausted, collapsed body; Wonyoung’s fixing your hair, thumb along your spine, to the nape of your neck and rubbing as if to say, you fucked her so good sweetheart.

It’s absolute and total bliss.

The important thing here is not how long you lay there before Wonyoung gets her dangerous fingers back inside Yujin—scoops your cum out from her cunt and slips it between her lips—only that it’s warm and hot and perfect and you wouldn’t mind if you never left.)

-

“Because it’s fucking sensitive,” you tell Wonyoung, and your eyes flick up to the whine in the shower’s pipes coming to a sudden stop, the glass door sliding in its track.

“I don’t care.”

Wonyoung clambers across your legs, reclaiming your attention as she settles her weight onto your thighs with little to no fanfare. You barely have the time to register her touch across your abs before it’s gone again, and there’s no hiding the lethal quirk shadowing in at the corner of her lip when she ruts herself against your hips, glides herself over your shaft and tells you, “You’re going to fuck me.”

Even if it’s the usual fair—you laying there, just under Wonyoung’s weight, all her milky soft skin spilling on top of you—she’s perfect in so many ways. In your arms, in your lap, on your cock, it’s hard to pick a favorite.

“What’s the matter?” she asks, smirking and holding back a laugh (that’s her brand, you’ve come to realize, manifested into something of a trademark; it’s killer), and she slaps your shaft twice against the concave flatness of her stomach. The visual of your stiff cock beneath her navel is absolutely everything: look at how far you’ll fill her, how much you’ll stretch her.

“Oh surely you didn’t think I was going to let you call it quits?” Wonyoung pumps her fingers up and down your length once. Adds a little twist to the end of it when she starts to repeat the motion. “C’mon, now,” she murmurs, half smiling against your temple because what a way to set the scene, “talk to me, wanna hear that pretty voice of yours baby.”

“Haven’t been doing a whole lot of thinking if I’m being honest.”

She laughs out loud. Postures herself, gets her hands raking through her hair, letting it cascade perfectly off her shoulders, her collarbones—makes sure that if you’re going to be fucked, it’ll be underneath the sheer image of perfection. “I’d suggest you keep at it then.”

Both of you watched the girl you’d fucked into a hot mess stammer on about the shower as she made her way off the bed—got your heads pointed on an identical tilt when she strutted into the bathroom, cum still leaking down her thighs and her hips positively swaying. If Yujin had become liquid, malleable, in your hands, you’re about to fucking puddle in Wonyoung’s.

“You should hear how she talks about you,” Wonyoung says, right before taking a beat to adjust, the serene and elegant lines in her face faltering for only a moment when she sits herself on your cock. “The girl just goes on and on about how amazing your cock is, how you make her cum, that heaven-sent look on your face when you’re ravaging her pussy—”

“Fuck,” you hiss out, barely making it through the word’s elegant simplicity. Entering Wonyoung for the first time is always an experience. Wetter, hotter, impossibly tighter, with every inch, and it practically makes you shiver. Though, she hardly makes any notice of it beyond the self-satisfactory hum in her throat, that you’re frozen, dazed, coping with the fact that your world had straightened on its axis.

She lifts her hips up. Drops them back down on you. She’s hot and wet and so fucking incredible, you’re aching. The growl you finally let slip is something feral. Of course, Wonyoung just smiles, a million dollar look, and draws a circle across your chest with a fingertip.

“You know…” Her voice trails. “Sometimes I almost catch myself feeling jealous.”

You swallow back on a drying moan. “Yeah?”

“But then I realize something every time.”

Like there’s nothing to it, her hips sink onto you once more; it’s pain, it’s pleasure, it’s the wind right out of your fucking sails, and you’re so overcome with all of it when that saccharine sweetness in Wonyoung’s voice starts to dance through your thoughts. The very same instant she surrounds you again in her heat. It’s so surreal it’s fucking intoxicating.

“Oh, do tell,” you barely manage to gasp out, reeling at the point of impact: her thighs flush against yours, clenching hard onto your cock. There’s never been a question; Yujin can drain you, but Wonyoung’s pussy is so hot, so silky-smooth-perfect, so criminally tight it finds you speechless. You, with all your charm and wit, silenced like it’s nothing.

“I get to fuck this cock.”

You don’t even manage a strangled moan. Completely mute when she crashes onto you again. Envelops you in that tight, blistering heat.

“Whenever.”

—and again.

“I.”

—and again.

“Want.”

Now it’s not like you should be surprised by any of it. On a scale of one to ten, Wonyoung is an eleven, though you imagine if no one was looking, she’d give herself a twelve. The entitlement isn’t anything new, nor is it all too undeserved.

So, let me take care of you, is how she says it, which is a sort of comedy gold given the context. It makes her out to be some sort of saint, chasing some lofty and altruistic goal that has no care or regard for the knot twisting in her stomach, the fucking absolute neediness of her pussy leaking and creaming all over your waist.

“God—gah—you are so tight, Wonyoung, fuck.”

You shoot your hands forward to get them on her tiny waist, brace yourself against the next bounce from her thighs, the insane grip she has on you. It’s a misstep; and it triggers a riposte. She executes flawlessly—gets your wrists pinned to the bed above your head—reminds you that she’s always in control, and starts to ride you in earnest.

“Let me,” she repeats, twice, and you’re at her mercy, entirely doubtful you’ll receive any. She looks at the way you wince, the way you grovel; she softly sh-sh-sh’s you to silence, rolls her hips on you fast and hard and starts to fuck at a tempo that is for her. Her hand is on your jaw and her thumb drags along your lip when she asks you, quietly, “It’s better, right? You love fucking this pussy… need me so bad, don’t you? Tell me.”

“The best,” you say, voice drier than either of you expect. “So fucking good.”

Even if you are hanging on by a thread, you figure she believes you. Because the smirk on her lips grows in intensity, its smolder just as damaging as the way she finds herself fucking you at that angle, that depth—gets her hands planted firm on your chest and sends your teeth into the raw swell of your lip. She holds you there, captive, and makes only the slightest motions; it’s no different than the way she’d take you in her fingers in the mornings—get you cumming and moaning beneath the sheets with these minute, focused touches.

“Ah, I can feel you. Feel you throbbing, aching. Need you to ride that edge, baby,” Wonyoung rasps, letting nothing slip or falter in the way she moves—this entire litany of precise, meticulous movements her hips drag out along your shaft—and fuck. Okay. Okay.

Her hand cups the back of your neck. Urges you to sit up, and when you do, you’re at her chest, the soft skin mapping out along her collarbones. She leads you to her subtle cleavage, has you splitting with your nose, your lips, taste of salty sweat on your tongue. There’s the familiar lines of her body—the way the curves and edges of her lithe frame weave perfection, how they all come crashing down at once on your cock. That voice in your head telling you bite your cheek, clench your knuckles, because she’s far too much, she’s far too perfect, she’s everything—

“Oh, because of course.” Yujin appears from around the bathroom door post wearing nothing but a towel tucked neatly beneath her arms, the effort at something like modesty a day late and a dollar short. Her hair is still damp, tied up above her shoulders, and she’d wiped all that ruined makeup from her eyes—she’s gorgeous as ever, and clearly a little annoyed that you two started again without her. Smirking, fingernail between her teeth she asks, “did watching your boyfriend fuck me get you all hot and bothered? Oh, I get it. You must be jealous.”

—well, almost everything. It’s the fact that binds you all. Yujin simply cannot keep her mouth shut.

“Sit,” Wonyoung says pointedly, and gestures at the chair beside the bed. “You are going sit and watch.”

“And now you.” Wonyoung holds your chin between her thumb and fingers—her eyes ablaze with an emblematic glimmer, that ever present noblesse oblige, and she’s got her words curling her off tongue, arriving like a dagger to your throat, “show her how you really fuck.”

If you’re not looking closely, it’d be reasonable to assume there’s something present that catalyzes the following series of events: the ease with which you wrestle the reins away from the girl in your lap, some shift or another in the balance of power. It’s nothing like that. Even in those occasions where you’ve got Wonyoung folded beneath your weight, her face smashed into the pillows, or your hand up around her throat, it’s only ever because she invites it. So when you’ve reached around her tiny waist, gotten your fingerprints all over her hips and found the gentle curves of her slender body easy to move, to lift, to fuck, to dominate, to conquer—yes, you’re chipping away at that facade every time you glide upward, deep into Wonyoung’s cunt, forcing her shallow and ragged sighs to grow more frantic, more agitated, more needy. No, it doesn’t take her long to reach the point where her cheeks are flushed and she’s chasing her breath. None of it changes a thing. The way Wonyoung sees it, you belong to her.

“You—are dangerous,” she murmurs against your mouth, lips slanting into a half-smile, and her ankles lock behind your waist.

When you get your hand in her hair, raking your fingers through those dark, smooth locks—gently pull back on it—you are presented with her neck, the gulp that travels through the hollow of her throat when you push your cock deep into her cunt. She’s giving it up to you: all this beautiful porcelain skin simply begging for your lips. Oh, you’ll leave bruises, you’ll make marks, those sinful reminders you’ll later come back to.

“Yeah, yes, fuck,” she gasps, several times. Her eyelashes flutter each time your cock fills her completely—when you pull out and pull her hips down hard on you again.

Something must hit the right spot, because her legs tense up around your waist. The first time she cums, she’s all huffs and sharp draws of air. Unlike Yujin, there’s no herald or warning, but it’s still obvious as day. And it comes in waves: first a little shudder, then another. Her back arches into you, face falling into the nook between your neck and shoulder, and she begins coming perfectly undone. She’s sweating, her cheeks are so red, and she can’t stop digging her nails into your back. Princess, you tease dangerously into her throat, and she’s gone, a total wreck.

You expect something, anything, from Yujin—there’s never been a better chance to goad and spur the girl practically melting to a puddle in your lap. But as you fuck through the torrid collapse of Wonyoung’s orgasm, the only thing you hear is that slight whimper from beside the bed. Even though her knees are closed, towel stuck between them, you see the hand she has playing between her thighs.

“Look at that,” you start, still moving and gliding into the fucked mess of a lapful that is your girlfriend. “Yujin’s touching herself. You look so good getting fucked—look so fucking pretty on my cock, sweetheart, it’s driving her crazy. She can’t help herself.”

Wonyoung just sighs, gets arms over your shoulders and her body even tighter against you.

“Do you think she’d like watching me fuck you from behind? Get your perfect mouth on that needy cunt of hers—what do you think of that princess? I bet she’d fucking lose it.”

“And have her… watch you… fuck my ass,” Wonyoung pants, and the sharp gasp that suddenly fills the room is priceless. The three of you might be inseparable, but there’s no lack of secrets to hide, stories to tell.

Though it’s a thread to follow for another time, because when you swing your legs off the bed, lift Wonyoung’s slender frame into your arms, get your hands under her thighs and her ass spilling through your fingers, and start fucking her—truly fucking her—she nearly cums again. There’s less distance to fall, certainly less composure to break, and as she starts to clench and tremor around your cock, she finds her voice rasping, begging, “please, I want it—make me cum again, please make me cum again.”

It’s Wonyoung’s long legs wrapped perfectly around you. It’s the way she loses control of her breath, gasping as you fuck your length into the mind-numbing intensity of her little, sopping cunt. You wouldn’t trade it for anything, the fact that she’s practically royalty and she’s a fucking mess and she’s cumming all over your cock.

“Jesus,” Yujin mutters, “You’re making her cream so fucking bad. She’s so close, fuck her harder, fuck our little princess like she deserves—pound her like she needs.”

Wonyoung raises her face, eyes cast in yours, these beautiful pools of earthy gray, to a long silence; a real silence, without even the hint of a muttered curse or blather about your name—she seems completely overcome, overwhelmed, overindulged. There’s a tiny tug at a smile in her lips, and a volcanic rush of heat to her face. You recognize that look: the first you’d ever seen it was when she’d had first had your cock and simply could not believe it could ever feel that good, the way it could get her stomach smoldering and thoughts spinning. It’s half surprise. It’s half unadulterated lust. It’s all this want and need and it says without saying, fill me.

“That’s right,” Yujin teases, “make her cum on your cock—”

“Yujin, why don’t you get on your knees for me, and have a taste,” you offer, but you’re not really asking, hoisting Wonyoung’s exhausted, still-aching cunt off you enough for Yujin to obediently kneel in front of your cock and get her mouth all over you, licking and kissing Wonyoung’s slick right off your shaft.

As you draw yourself out of Wonyoung’s cunt—slip in seamlessly between Yujin’s lips—the girl suspended in your arms whines: that prospect of you not filling her so perfectly a reality too difficult to bear. She gasps. She shudders. And a sudden relief pours deluge-like through her ethereal visage when you knead fingers harshly into her ass, spread her legs wider over your elbows and place her back on your cock again. She’s so fucked and wet and needy that filling completely in one harsh motion barely even elicits more than wanton groan from her chest.

“Where are you—fuck, I,” Wonyoung curses, drawing harsh breath and clenching down on you, onto the absence of your shape when you get your cock again into Yujin’s mouth. Her voice is still ragged and wrecked, but she holds tighter to you, asking, “Want you to—where are you going to—?”

In the back of Yujin’s throat if she’s not careful, is your first thought given the way her tongue flicks and flutters and teases the sensitive underbelly of your aching shaft. Deep in this cunt, follows logically right after that, gliding yourself back inside Wonyoung. If there was ever a lesson to be had in gluttony, in indulgence, this is probably it—and considering the third thought that grows quietly in the corner of your thoughts, you’re probably missing the mark.

“On your knees,” you whisper against Wonyoung’s cheek, and she laughs silently to herself. Laughs because she knows exactly what you want. Because it’s hardly anything new, novel, or unique.

(For a brief moment, you consider the current circumstances; should probably consider donating to charity. Who could be so lucky? How often have you fucked both these girls, been the only man with the full pair? That you’re gripping a fist around your cock, stroking and pointing it at two open mouths, those wanting tongues—all doe-eyed and docile and they’re so fucking pretty and they’ll look pristine painted with your cum.)

Good lord, it’s a heavy handful: cum splattering all over Wonyoung’s face.

Never have you been one to play favorites; god only knows it’s a dangerous game, but that’s just how the ropes fly—into the valley of Wonyoung’s tongue, across a cheek, the bridge of her nose, she flinches as you get cum on her brow. Oh, she’s perfect, always has been, and you’ve got her marked and marred, debauched and debased with hot, creamy white like she’s never known another purpose.

“Fuck,” you sputter, because you need to catch your breath.

There’s this heavy silence; you’re positively mesmerized. Yujin doesn’t even complain, just captures Wonyoung’s cum-covered face in her hands and brings her mouth to hers. Pulls at her lips with this hungry, consuming kiss until finally, lips smacking, she drags herself away—skates a finger across her cheek and slips more cum past Wonyoung’s lips.

“Did you say in your ass?” Yujin asks, brow twisting inquisitively over a glance that flicks up to you, and Wonyoung lets out this genuine laughter as she allows that kernel of shame to grow ever-so-slightly inside her.

“Yep.”

Yujin laughs out loud, toothy grin come to bear. “You slut.”

-

You are dozing, curled on your side, and your mind is supplying to you the loveliest dream—or perhaps a memory? It’s hard to tell, but it’s awfully vivid. Someone’s mouth on your own, warm… urgent; the feeling of arms wrapping around your neck, legs brushing about your waist, a familiar hand on your face. Some of it is fuzzy, unclear, as though the experience is coming to you through the fog of a rain-stained window, but then some of the details of the dream solidify, take shape, and you’re—

Is that lavender?

You blink, inhale sleepily, go to stretch, and that’s when everything starts to elucidate.

All around you is the pleasant smell of Wonyoung and Yujin; the feel of an arm around your waist; Yujin’s wavy curls tickling your nose; she’s got one leg hooked around yours and a thigh in your crotch in a way that feels awesome, feels too real to not be a dream, and—oh, wait a minute, that’s because it’s actually happening. Like, right now.

You’re snuggled up with the blankets on Wonyoung’s bed. With the two perfect forms on either side of you.

“Hey,” says Yujin, half-sleepy, at half-volume to not wake up the sleeping beauty nuzzled up to your back. She grins because, lord, you are rock hard between your legs—something like an occupational hazard you promise—and she blinks her eyes slowly a few times as she gets her hand wrapped around you. It’s just one pump, it’s experimental, and she has a finger on her lips, whispering, “Shh, gotta be quiet.”

The sun’s not quite trickling in through the blinds; you’ve probably all napped past dinner. As always, there’s a week ahead of you, and now you’re aching, sore, exhausted and you can’t refuse her even a bit. It’s a tale as old as well, not that old, but you figure that’s how your Sundays spend you.

SERENDIPITY

male reader x kwon eunbi

18k words

Before the attraction ferments, Eunbi says, kiss me properly and pull me apart. or, Where all your little tragedies begin.

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If you want to start getting technical, you’re Minju’s plus one to the gala, and that’s already a lot, a lot, a lot to unpack.

She’d gotten whipped into a bad mood that evening before you even had your shoes on, all on account of your apparent inability to distinguish cobalt from azure, and now should anyone have the wherewithal to examine the fabric of her dress, your tie, maybe with a forensic kit, they’d discover the two are not actually matching. If there was any part of you at all inclined toward keeping up appearances, you probably wouldn’t be content with a career in radio broadcast. But here you are, surrounded by actors, actresses, idols, and everyone who thinks the cut of their jaw is just a little better than everyone else’s - the kind of people who feel entitled to time in front of a camera. Networking, is how Minju ends up pitching it to you, and now it makes the whole thing seem a lot like work and it’s actually kind of exhausting.

It’s not even an open bar either, as she had originally advertised.

You pay - get this - you pay twenty-three dollars for a vodka tonic and it comes with so much ice you’re not totally unconvinced you could build an igloo. So when everything starts to go to shit, nearing the end of drink number one, you’re not even slurring your words. Tipsy, perhaps; just slightly. To the point you can feel it in your fingers. But nothing like a good excuse.

It’s about then that Eunbi navigates her way around the bar - unnerving, enough to make the sweat grow cold.

On account of her being fucking gorgeous, you end up watching her closely: notice first that she’s carrying a pair of heels in her hand, completely barefoot, and you have no idea what that’s about, but you end up more fixated on the fact that she slides herself into the barstool on your left - which comes across as something of an omen, given that the rest are completely unoccupied. It’s only thirty, forty minutes into the event and people are still plenty busy with that thing where they fake smiles at each other until they feel like they fit in, showing, with bare minimal effort, that they too can mingle with entertainment’s elite.

Now, you don’t actually recognize her, not right away that is. The last you’d seen her, she had her hair cut right above her shoulders and its shade was a serious degree blonder than the current iteration - now curtaining her face as she studies the drink menu and flips it over several times in her dainty hands.

After a long minute, she looks up, interrupts the bartender from polishing a piece of glassware, and orders an old fashioned, substitute brandy, leave out the orange peel, with sugar on the rim. If it’s not the usual amendments that give her away, it’s the saccharine-sweet flavor of her voice, lilting in a manner that’s instantly unmistakable.

Eunbi, you’re guessing aloud, a little apprehensive, and immediately you retreat behind the liquor in your glass. She turns to you, slowly, knuckles masking the subtle quirk in her lips at first, before letting her chin rest on the heel of her palm to reveal a flash of her signature hundred-kilowatt smile.

“Oh,” she says, and she’s blinking with clear amusement that you remember her name - as if you could ever forget it, as if these run-ins were somehow infrequent; you’d only both been plotting orbits around the same star that was Minju for the past couple years. Her head tilts, lips parting to ask, “your date ditch you already?”

She’s half-right.

“You break a heel?” you ask her, nodding toward the pair of black t-strap heels she’d tossed onto the bar counter with a defeated sigh.

“Maybe.” Eunbi drags a dark lock of hair back behind her ear. It falls almost immediately back in front of her face and it ends up staying there until the bartender places her drink in front of her. “But my question first.”

For the record, there’s nothing here particularly novel worth dwelling on. It’s always some provocation or another with Eunbi, you remember now, as she holds you with a stare, eyes wide and brilliant; she sails through life all with the confidence of someone very aware of how pretty she is - knows precisely what she can get away with, right down to the letter of the law. The dress hugging tight to her isthmus of a waist is evidence of exactly that - tighter each time you look - so if you’re waiting for her to get it wrong, don’t hold your breath. “Minju’s having a moment,” you tell her, “it’s not like she doesn’t know where to find me.”

“Hm.” She pauses to take a careful sip of her drink, running her tongue over her bottom lip as she places the glass onto a square napkin. Folds her hands in her lap and asks, “can you explain something to me?”

“If I say no, are you going to ask anyway?”

Eunbi nods to herself, dry laugh telling you it was as rhetorical as you thought. “Seriously, how is it you two are always fighting?”

We’re not always fighting, you want to say, before Eunbi makes a face. She has this uncanny effect on you - raising an eyebrow and tilting her chin as though she were disappointed; the sharp edge to her smile, half challenge, half something far less kind. It could rip truth from the most reluctantly tight-lipped of privacies. “We’re working on it,” you tell her. “Oh?” she asks, leaning in. 

“God, you don’t have to say it like that.” The ice clinks in your glass as you toss it back, finding it lamentably empty. “You make me feel like I have to repeat myself a thousand times - we are,” you add, “we’re working on it.”

“There’s something that keeps you together, clearly,” Eunbi says, pressing her finger to her lips before fixing you with dark eyes and an easy, charming grin. 

She has you figured out, to some extent: knows how you’ll slip up for a girl with a pretty smile, prettier eyes, all the sorts of errors you’ll start to allow when you start cataloging the curves of her body, inventorying how they taper impossibly at her waist, flaring again at her hips, her fucking chest, the way they all look under the tight fit of that damn dress-

“The make-up sex really that good, huh?”

You almost, almost choke on the ice cube you’d been sucking to keep yourself entertained.

“Optimistic to think there is any,” you admit, regretting it right away - like think about it: there’s absolutely nothing good that could possibly come of that. “That’s just how it goes.”

Eunbi looks downright triumphant. More than usual. “Oh, sweetie.”

She waves over the bartender and asks him for another whatever it was you were drinking, because she’d hate to see you go dry, and as he’s turning around she shouts over his shoulder, go ahead and make it two, actually. You don’t realize it, but you’re beginning to study her, paying really close attention to all these little details - the sparkle of the bracelet on her slender arm, how it falls a few inches off the corner of her wrist as she gets her hand back in front of her face, raking her nails through all that thick, glossy hair, black as night - you don’t know what the feeling is that rears its head as you watch her, but it’s not completely unwelcome.

“What?” she asks as her eyes flick up to yours to catch you looking at her, closely, not that you’re gawking, but she lets you off the hook like you are - just gestures to the pitiful looking heel on the counter and shrugs. “It’s not like I have anywhere to be.”

To be honest, it’s not that you lack basic foresight. In fact it’s shockingly easy to predict where this is going. Because here’s a quick behind the scenes tour on how these interactions usually play out: you’ve got your excuses, your trepidations, justifiably - the reality that you’re kind of already in a pretty high profile relationship key among them. And like clockwork, Eunbi readily finds you game for some flustering. Eunbi, who lays it on thick, comments seeped in innuendo and suggestion, whose glances linger perhaps a little long to be a fascinating coincidence. Eunbi, innocence and arrogance entwined, in the filthiest of minds. Eunbi, always with her fingers twirling her hair and wearing something just modest enough that makes it feel like it’s your fault for noticing that her figure is impeccable. You’ve not actually gathered much from your brief conversations other than that she likes to flirt with you, likes it even more when you’ve got your foot in your mouth, and instead of putting you out of your misery, keeps you suspended there, egging you on - this all beyond the fact that you’ve only really managed to learn the many different ways you want to undress Kwon Eunbi.

You want her pressed up against the wall of your apartment, among other places, one of those pleated skirts crumpling to a pile around her knees as she keens for you, and your hand busy sliding up between her thighs.

You want to listen to her sighs as you unfasten each of the white buttons on one of those collared shirts that stretches and aches to keep her chest concealed, how she’d hum in delight as you trail kisses down each new inch of soft pale skin that all would unveil. 

You want her in your lap when you fiddle with the latch of her bra until her tits spill out of its lacy fabric (it’s always lacy in your head), and she’s got you gasping for air, smothered, asphyxiated, dying, ascending, it’s all so, so great in theory.

It’s just that - some way or another - Eunbi looks at you like she knows all of that. You’ve been skirting around the issue for months.

“Tell me,” she starts, and suddenly, without warning, she has you under the microscope, reeling you further into the conversation, pulling at loose threads - where is Minju right now, are you still living together, does she help with chores, can you trust her, does she trust you - she grabs a handful of pretzels and watches you intently as you try and remain unruffled, diplomatic - are you generally happy with how things are going, when was the last time you had sex - you’re blindsided by that last one, or something, but that’s out there now, in the open.

“Uh.” Eunbi purses her lips. “You’re kidding.”

You just shrug.

“How long has it been now between you two? Like officially.“

“I’m surprised you don’t already know.”

“Alright.” Eunbi clicks her tongue. “Don’t flatter yourself.”

“My fourth year of university, her first,” you explain. Though never before have you felt as crooked about admitting that as you do at this moment. Others had often appreciated something about the impudence of it, but you’re doubting Eunbi’s going to be one of those people.

“Young,” Eunbi states, matter-of-factly. The look on her face says she’s thinking.

“Not that young.”

“You’re twenty-seven.”

“Twenty-five.”

“You’re-” Eunbi’s eyebrow’s knit together like she’s trying to remember something. “Wait, really?”

“Does that bother you?”

“Why would that bother me?”

You’re realizing that she’d gotten closer to you, only now pulling her stool along the floor to catch up with her, and she’d started whispering into the waning space between you as though there was anyone else in the bar you’d need to shield the contents of this conversation from. “It just seems like not a lot of time to get to know yourself. If I were you, I’d be relieved.”

You can’t fucking stop looking at her mouth, glossed pink lips, cupid’s bow and all that between her dimples; your voice comes out oddly thick. “You’re not me.”

“No,” Eunbi says, shaking her head, “I’m not. Here you are, in some miserable relationship to score good karma - I’m having way more fun.”

“Easy,” you warn her, and it comes across just antagonistic enough to let Eunbi know she’s pushing the right buttons, digging in the right place; god only knows what she’ll find. “Really.” Her fingers start skimming the bottom of your tie, like it’s nothing at all. Like she doesn’t know what might happen if she starts touching you. “Let me guess,” she continues, “A real break-up is too  inconvenient or something right now, Minju doesn’t want the bad press, not when her career is still this fragile, because let’s face it-”

“It’s complicated.”

Eunbi smirks, not bothering to hold it back this time. The way she sees it, your usual excuses are losing their efficacy, quickly: you might not be single, but that doesn’t mean you aren’t thinking about how good she looks in that tiny fucking excuse of a dress, how you’re hoping she might need to run off to the restroom later so you can see how her ass fills out the back of it, how it might look even better on the floor next to your bed - that you’re only a breath away, looking for pretext, perhaps just a little encouragement -

She rests her elbow on the counter, leans a cheek onto her fist, and angles herself against the bar so that the intoxicatingly low dip of her neckline is staring you right in the face, soft cleavage out on full fucking display. It’s not subtle. You never thought too hard about why Minju never invited Eunbi over. You’ll never need to.

“But - but I mean, I guess that’s the gist of it,” you feel inclined to add, stumbling a bit, figuring that if you steal away into the safety of your one true talent - talking - you might just resist the very present urge to reach forward and press your lips to hers. 

“You’re an accessory,” says Eunbi, unbothered, and her eyes take a lazy sweep from your face down to your waist. It’s a leer. “Though,” she murmurs, “can’t really say I can blame the girl.”

“First off, rude.” You’ve got a finger pointed to the ceiling when you say it. “Secondly-”

“Too nice for your own good, you know that?” Eunbi takes a sip from her glass, and after fixing a dark, stubborn strand of hair back behind her ear, she finds herself again in that anxious distance inches away from your nose. “Why don’t you have some fun with it?”

“Fun with what?”

“Just because you figure you’re going to go crawling back to her doesn’t mean you can’t take advantage of your-” she stops, eyes fixing to your lips before continuing, “situation.”

“Can I mention something to you?” You swallow once, twice. Now you’re both looking at each other’s mouths, breathing the same air. “You have a pretty fucked up perspective on interpersonal relationships.”

“What’s something you’ve always wanted to do?” she asks, completely ignoring the assessment. Her fingernails skate along the counter until she’s pinching at the cuff of your sleeve, and her hair falls back in front of her face again, though this time she looks into your eyes like she’s waiting for you to move it out of the way.

“What are we doing right now?” you ask, agitation just beginning to rear its head. “What are you asking me?”

“I’m bored, and you’re the only other person here.”

“There’s, like, a million people here.” “I mean right here,” she says, nodding to the broken heel on the counter and gesturing between your chests. “Besides, I like you.”

You really could surge up and kiss her, you realize. Her lips are so close, right there in front of you, and there’s not any sort of question of whether she’d let you. The part that scares you is you haven’t a fucking clue what you’d say when the moment comes to finally pull your mouth off hers, and that’s not something you’re usually trying to sort out. Nor are you really in a blathering mood, and now you’re imagining it: Eunbi’s expression all smug and haughty, something that could inspire a good blather - uh, did you just kiss me?

“Forgive me, but I feel like I need to point out,” Eunbi adds, mildly entertained, “most guys wouldn’t be asking this many questions.”

“I’m not most guys.”

“Uh, I am fully aware,” Eunbi says, running a fingertip along the length of her collarbone, slowly, and her voice dips out if its usual airy register into something less musical, more serious: “Do you even have a clue what I’d do for a guy like you?”

“Eunbi,” you say, harshly, not that it matters; she’s going to tell you.

“For starters,” she says, and her hand is around your tie, tugging like you won’t tell her to stop, like she knows she’s gorgeous in all the most disarming ways. “I’d take good care of him, like I don’t think I could keep my hands off him. I’d be blowing him all the time - until my jaw hurt, then i’d just tell him to pick a hole and fuck a big, hot load of cum into it - hell, I’d probably let him do anything to me.”

“Tactful.”

“I’m not the one having a hard time reading between the lines.”

“That’s not - I’m not-”

“Into me?” Eunbi laughs, leaning forward, your last vestiges of personal space vanishing like a passing thought, and now she’s touching you - a hand on your thigh, higher, higher. “You want to fuck me so bad.”

The fucked up thing, beyond Eunbi being absolutely right, is that you’d rather die than try and lie through your teeth, than succumb in such austere fashion. This thing, this desire, this want, you understand it so intimately you could probably name it like you were christening it in a church. You grab a hold of her wrist, before her precocious fingers can discover how obviously right she is under the seam of your pants, and the suddenness of the challenge wipes the mirth from her face - pulls a small little sound out of her chest, leaves her eyes wide and uncharacteristically docile.

“Are you sure?” you ask, collected and calm, after you’ve both realized how small her wrist fits in your hand. “Is this really the game you want to play?” 

Eunbi’s head tips onto this angle, expression perfectly cavalier. “Oh,” she says, uncorking an impious grin, “why don’t you and I go figure that out.”

-

It’s hard to focus. You’ve got it all wrong, or whatever, practically right from the jump. Your first mistake was veering toward the restrooms tucked behind the bar, where Eunbi pulled at the corner of your sleeve to shoot you a skeptical look - are you fucking nuts, there’s single occupant washrooms upstairs - her explanation was sound, probably, she lost you quickly at: “would prefer no one hear me cum all over your cock.”

The second transgression is the kiss itself, a fucking honest mess. 

Eunbi’s perched on the sink, precariously, and as much as you’d rather be smoothing your hands up her curves, you’ve got one preoccupied at her hips, steadying her, the other pulling at your own clothes, slinging your jacket to the floor. It’s this sort of callow tangle of limbs, exchange of spit, imprecise groping - fuck, it actually hurts when your teeth bump together, or when Eunbi pulls a little too hard at your bottom lip - over and over, and your mouths keep missing each other, straying off to cheeks and chins. 

You expected there to be a touch more polish to her, for her to be the kind of girl above hooking up barefoot in a public restroom, maybe even preserve any of that infamous intrigue. But those open-mouthed kisses she has leaving marks on your jaw, making welts on your neck do little to help you shrug off the impropriety here, hanging like a sorry cloud. Because you’re barreling toward something desperate and clumsy and hot and needy - so utterly raunchy in all the right ways.

“C’mere,” Eunbi says, smile stretching soft and devastatingly sweet, hardly fussing when you slip your hand beneath her jaw - it takes a moment, a touch of experimentation, until you’re together working toward a common goal. She twists the end of your tie over her wrist once, twice, anchors herself against you, and her legs open wider, a heel hooking around your thigh. The embers in her half-lidded eyes tell a story, tell you you to firm up your grip, clutch her, get rough with her, toss her around - she can take it, she can take more. 

Her chin gets set on the angle opposite yours as she starts to pull you in close, the heat in her breath coming closer, and she furrows a perfectly sculpted brow the moment she realizes it’s not reciprocal - that you’re not leaning into her, not pressing your tongue past her lips and grabbing her hair by the fistful - she squints, glowering. It’s actually not a bad look on her.

“Tell me something,” you say, skating your fingertips up her leg until they’re so close to the apex of her thigh you can feel her heat, radiating. “What were you expecting?”

“I try to never expect anything,” Eunbi tells you, and starts once more for your lips, only vexed again when you stiffen up, maintain the distance between you - stop her short at the limit of tantalizingly close.

“Eunbi,” you say, wry with dry laughter and peeking over her shoulder to the reflection in the mirror - backless; you can see the ridge of her spine from her ass all the way up to her neck when you slide her hair to the side. “This is not a dress you wear out with colleagues and friends. This is a take me home and have your wicked way with me kind of dress.”

Eunbi swallows; that’s how you know you caught her. “If the insinuation here is that I’m a slut, I’m not having any of it.”

“Why? Is that supposed to be some sort of secret?”

Her expression falls onto something rather unamused, a glib reply waiting for release at the tip of her tongue, until finally she says, “do you get off on being withholding or some other bull-”

The word vanishes in a sharp inhale the moment you press your hand up between her legs. 

“Oh god.” Eunbi’s entire body shudders, nerves bundled and tight and ready to fire at the slightest excitation. Honestly, you’re not even doing anything; you’re pushing fabric into her cunt, and fuck, Eunbi’s already this trigger-happy. The demanding, quick-tempered vixen with something to prove, and she’s already melting over the slightest touch. 

Hell, just listen in on those little stuttering breaths falling off her lips when you begin to circle your fingers, slowly, when you reach down further to where she’s so hot, so wet-

You press down and she hiccups.

“Ah, I think I get it now,” you start, watching Eunbi’s lip wobble as the heel of your palm spreads flatter and flatter over her clit, pressure indiscriminate and nowhere close to absolving. “You want me to believe that somehow, you’re a total romantic.” Eunbi’s mouth slacks slightly as she sighs. “Aren’t we all entitled to a little fantasy?” “Has the part where I fuck you senseless in a public restroom always worked into that?” you ask, digging deeper, drenching her underwear in her own slick. “Or is that a new development?”

“You’re really testing the limits of your charm here.”

“I dunno. I think the fact that you’re dripping down your thighs means I’m doing all right,” you say, holding onto a smirk that you’re half-sure she’s contemplating slapping off your face.

“What do you want?” she asks, shimmying her hips against you, voice softening into delicate capitulation. “Want me to tell you that I’ve been dreaming about it? Want to know that I think about you when I’m alone - when I’ve got my fingers inside me and I’m sobbing into a pillow - that I’m picturing you fucking railing Minju - picturing how your hands would feel at my waist, on my tits, around my neck - imagining just how good you’d fuck me?”

You nearly snort in amusement. “Oh, want a lot more than that.” 

“Then hurry up,” she says - before the attraction ferments. And she sighs musingly when you press your fingers past elastic, find a touch where she needs you, the unmistakable shiver of real contact. “Kiss me properly and pull me apart.”

You tilt Eunbi’s chin up and place your mouth on hers. Kissing her once, twice, until she realizes it’s not even close to enough, drawing in to kiss you back that much harder, all unknowing and candid - like she never once cared for subtlety in her methods of seduction.

Almost absentmindedly, your fingers had already danced over her entrance, rubbed and touched and felt and begun to push. And god, she’s so incredibly wet - not that the push isn’t slow, so unhurried you can feel Eunbi wanting to cry out in frustration as you get deeper, feel her squeeze onto you, just a knuckle inside her, then a second. She barely manages to hush out a complaint into your lips when you drag them back, returning the perfect roughness in your fingers to her clit and applying all this agonizingly-too-gentle pressure. Do anything, she said - said she’d let you; could’ve said, fuck me, ruin me; should’ve told you, no idea what I really want other than for you fuck my brains out, so please take off your clothes and help me figure it out -

It’s actually kind of adorable, that she has to break her lips away from yours to ask for more.

But only a loud, smacking kiss and the length of a heavy exhale later, Eunbi’s tongue slides into your mouth, slipping gently against yours, and flicks up at your teeth as you press the curl of your index finger back inside her. She cries gently, this pitchy little feminine sound, just when you fuck her open with another. You could take all the time you want, you reckon, just pretend Eunbi’s not already all wound up and needy - pussy soaked and hot and begging beneath loose fabric - pretend she isn’t wrapping her slender fingers around your wrist to hold you firm, keep your fingertips present and reliable: something she can buck her hips into, something she can fuck until she’s gasping for you to stop.

“Fuck.” Her moan hums right into your mouth, thin, stretching out on a broken breath as the pad of your thumb skates over her clit, again, again, lighter, barely a touch this time, gentle and tender, and, well, conflicting - because look, everything about this is such a fucking awful idea - you’re going to walk out into a sea of judgement with kiss-swollen lips, hair disheveled and bothered like you’d trekked through a windstorm, with Eunbi hanging on your waist, knees wobbling and perfectly complicit to the crime. 

You’ve given the thought barely a moment’s attention when Eunbi’s grip on your wrist goes white-knuckle tight, like she can taste the apprehension on your lips. She tugs on your tie, hard - don’t stop, come, closer - like she’d literally die if you stop fucking her with your fingers.

“Fuck, you’re so wet for me,” you say in the spaces between these stinging, deep kisses into her cheek, her jaw, letting her body slump forward when you let go of her waist and start sliding your hand up her flat stomach, scrunching and furling the material of her dress up around her hips. She totters a moment, feet barely reaching the floor how you have her balanced on the lip of the sink, but you can’t help it: you need to get a hand up, higher, over her ribs, onto her chest -

Eunbi gasps the moment your fingers sink in, loudly, and you’re not even going to try and give her an explanation - fucking christ, her tits are incredible.

“How messy,” you tell her, enjoying how it makes her cheeks start to burn red, and with just that, you’re sure, with fingers becoming fast and frenzied. It’s audible, the slick on your hand, working through the thick of her heat, the tension in her clench. “So fucking messy, I bet you’re close baby, so close - close to cumming on my fingers.”

She purses her lips, chin tucked into where her collarbones meet, and closes her eyes. You think she’s readying some riposte, some quip to needle, something she’d lid her eyes and smirk first to tell you with poison laced in her voice, seethed in sarcasm, in spite. 

“I mean, Eunbi, look at you,” you drawl huskily, an effort to lure the words out of her, “and I haven’t even gotten my mouth on you yet.”

Her whole body sighs, a concerted effort; she’s panting, sinking her teeth into her lip, and it happens so suddenly, near all at once - those elegant lines in her face starting to twist, betraying that usual sculpted visage of perfection - at the end of a squalling stretch for air, she starts to beg. 

“Please,” she mewls, escaping her lips pliant and meek.

And fuck if that’s anything like the bite you’ve come to expect, the serrated edge of the girl who was amusing herself just moments ago with how you rattled and ruffled from behind a glass of liquor - Eunbi, all cunning and guile - jesus, it’s not even close:

“Oh, god, do it, do it, use my pussy however you want, fuck, want it so bad-” Her hair is falling into her face. Skin getting hot and dewy with sweat. She told you earlier that she’d kill you if you ripped her dress, said you had the look of a dress ripper about you - and now she’s looking at you like she might kill you if you don’t. “-anything, I’ll do anything, gods, please just let me cum.”

“Baby,” you murmur against her neck, a pet name you’re slipping into a little too easily. The possession, the way you say mine, you promise it’s all instinct. “Who could’ve ever guessed you’d be this needy?” The pale column of skin beneath her jaw reveals more of itself to you the faster you drag your fingers through her cunt. She’s recovering from a curl of your digits against that spot that might just be able to get her screaming, and then it’s your thumb: each circle around her swollen clit reducing her to little more than ragged breathing and that causeway of a word, pleading, please, please, please.

You’d spent more time fantasizing about this than you care to admit, though when you tug the neckline of her dress down, free her breast from beneath the tight fabric, roll your thumb over her nipple, and pinch, it’s clear this is nothing like you imagined. It’s so much fucking more: her face winding into a look of equal parts pain, pleasure, eyes scrunching, lips hanging open - she can’t even say anything when you pull harder on the dress, pull her other tit up to your mouth and start to suck, hard - a heavy moan, whining; she doesn’t tell you to stop.

“Do it,” she demands, gulping for her next breath. “I’m so close.”

You haven’t written it off yet, but you also haven’t the slightest idea how she’ll come back from this one, flirting with the boundary at desperate and pathetic, responding to your touch, your fingers, your mouth like you’d spent a lifetime studying what makes her tick. This might be the only time between you that you’ve ever stumbled this close to anything like an upperhand, you recognize, and you’re not going to pass up an opportunity like it, milking it for all it’s worth:

“You ever have someone do this to you, Eunbi?” you ask her when your lips break all that cruel suction around her nipple - it’s red, swollen, aching, and it’s a great start. The throb between her legs isn’t growing any less urgent either, pulsing vigorously onto your fingertips and leaking all over your hand, her thighs, it’s so fucking sloppy and hot and that perfectly submissive expression on her face just looks so, so good on her. (You’re really leaning into it.) “Fuck you with one of your dresses bunched up over your hips? Take you into a bathroom and get you moaning and panting until you admit you’re a total slut? Fuck, I could do this until you can’t remember your own name, pull your underwear back up your legs all soaking and messy-”

“No,” Eunbi says, exasperated, and she chokes on her voice when your thumb digs harder into the puffy lips of her cunt, pushes this exact pressure on her tender clit. You don’t think her eyes could get any clearer, needier, until she starts shaking her head, saying, “you - you’d be the first.”

She practically blue-screens after that, words getting lost somewhere in the pangs of her own agitated pleasure. And like putty, sinking backward into the counter, you spread her legs open wider. Press a kiss into her forehead, skin all hot and sweaty. She almost loses it right then and there when you start reminding her she’s gorgeous, how good her name sounds on your lips, so pretty when she cums like this and then- 

Oh.

There she goes. 

“Fuck, you’re - god, fuck, I’m - fuck.” Eunbi hisses out your name, panting for air, and her brittle words fall straight to the floor, smash against the tile, and shatter into a million pieces. Cumming, she adds, two or three times for good measure, and you hold her firm, hold her still. Keep her from sliding off the sink so you might even kiss her hard. Feel her come undone.

Maybe it’s the praise; more likely the tempo of your thumb tapping against her swollen bud, again, again. The only thing you know is that the sound of it alone - over the squelch of your fingers fucking her through it, slow and tender like you have all the time in the world - see, that’s a masterpiece in and of itself. 

Eunbi’s chest rolls and twitches as you draw your fingers out of her pussy, soaked, clenching at nothing, and drag them up along her waist so she can feel just how much damage you’ve caused, that for all her sloppiness, it’s because of you.

“Here,” you say to her, with two sticky fingers at her jaw, “I know you want to taste yourself.”

Beyond the visual in front of you, you’re kind of stuck on how impetuous, impulsive, how utterly lewd it all is - opening her mouth and fitting your fingertips between her teeth. You scissor your fingers, let her lick her own slick off your you, and when you press her tongue down behind her teeth she starts to suck. It’s delightful, you think, she’s so gorgeous and somehow, flushed and fucked and sweaty, she looks perfect. Never been so stunning.

“Such a good girl,” you tell her, almost maliciously.

And it’s instant - Eunbi sinking further into the counter, her shoulders slumped to the cold mirror, knuckles knocking the bowl of the sink. There’s a hum coming up from her throat when you say it again, getting stuck on your fingers until she spits them out and looks at you with wide, tear-filled eyes, all glassy and brilliant, like you know the answers to all the riddles of the universe. Okay, so maybe it really is the praise, you realize, a weakness, a loose thread, you might never be able to stop yourself from pulling at it. You’d never want to.

“Been so patient, haven’t you? Your pussy is fucking creaming for me Eunbi, so fucking messy, you poor thing.” You’re lifting her panties to the side, assuring her in half sentences and leaving the rest to the sound of your zipper coming undone. “Gonna fuck you now, get my cock in this pretty little pussy of yours, don’t worry, I’ll take good care of you baby, just be still and hold on for me-”

“God.” Eunbi startles at the touch of your cock running over her slick, and she starts blinking back into reality, legs bracketing around your hips. Do it - she’s gathering an angry fistful of shirt, pulling at your tie, clamoring for you, all desperation, no composure, as if your mistakes were made for her - do it, do it, and she breathes your name against your mouth, lips trembling, “please.”

Days, weeks, months maybe, the conclusion’s long foregone, inevitable: your cock sinks straight into her cunt.

Jesus. Fuck. Where to start? Eunbi’s eyebrows twist, lips part - with just a wicked, sharp breath of air, she immediately comes undone. So, that might be as good a place as any.

You know by the way she melts, the way her body is coiling tighter around you, clinging to you like you might be able to hold it all together - like you’re not fucking her open, pressing deeper inside her, hotter around you with every passing inch.  

“I cannot believe,” Eunbi starts, voice shredded, and the rest of it is so incoherent, so blathering and baleful, that you’re altogether unsure if it’s in protest of you ruining her cunt, or if you’re not ruining it enough. Even though she’s so unbelievably wet, she’s every bit as tight, and you end up prompting this unattractive groan from her throat when you motion your hips forward, just a fraction, before pulling back again. “Oh my-”

You’re trying not to laugh but it’s slipping out quietly, and Eunbi just glares at you, the vibrations from your diaphragm going straight between her legs, where she’s still throbbing and unduly sensitive. A few disheveled strands of her hair end up in your mouth as she fidgets about in your grip. A few more as you ease in further - until your balls are flush against her ass and Eunbi has both ankles hooked around your thighs. Beyond the sweltering heat of Eunbi’s cunt, you’ve got thoughts, photographically vivid, racing through your head: you lifting her small body up, getting your hands under her thighs and pounding her without remorse - turning her over and bending her over her sink, watching her tits bounce in the mirror, face wracked as she cums like that, and you’ll get there - just that right now, seating yourself in her pussy and nuzzling your face into the crook of her neck is more than plenty to hone in on.

“Fuck, your cock, it’s-” Eunbi sputters, and it takes a beat to even realize you’re completely inside her, right to the hilt.

And you aren’t making any more sense of how she trembles than of the fusillade of curses tossed in your general direction. Her legs remain locked behind you, holding you motionless - making it difficult to not laugh at her inanity on display, squirming graceless beneath you. Incredible, is the conclusion you both come to, you think, as her cheeks flood again with color, and you start circling your hips into her, moving as much as the confines of her legs - the inelegant entrapment - might allow.

It’s almost cruel: Eunbi gasps when you end up brushing against her tender clit, and you pause, thinking- 

(Like this, half naked, dress bundled around her waist, you can take whatever you want. Every now and again you look up and see your reflection, see yourself towering over Eunbi’s lithe frame - oh, the options - they’re nearly endless.)

-she simply growls at you when you inch her hips forward from where they’re perched and do it again.

“I can’t fuck you unless you let go,” you tell her, ducking down and finding her breast with your mouth. 

“If I let go,” Eunbi starts, and her voice is jagged with strain, breath steadying, “are you actually going to fuck me, or are you just going to keep teasing?”

“Oh, Eunbi, believe me.” You’re kissing up her chest, her collarbones, pressing your lips sweetly to the hollow of her throat. “I’m going to fuck you until you’re screaming, promise.”

Eunbi holds her gaze to yours, tips up her chin, and says, half daring, “I’m holding you to that,” and as her bind loosens, she tugs your face towards hers by the bottom of your tie. Hard - it’s hardly even a murmur as she leans in, pressing your brow to hers - harder. A rhythm emerges in your hips against hers, though it only complicates the demands: more, please, need it, don’t stop.

But the drag of it is amazing, your cock gliding through the wet heat of her cunt - squeezed tight onto you and fitting you like a glove. So tight, as if she’d been made for you, incomparably coiled around you, and it’s even more perfect as you start to truly fuck into her. Fast and deep and assuring you’d stay true to your word, that you’d get her fucking screaming with it. Each time you pull back and slam into her again, hard enough that she shifts half an inch toward the mirror, you’re listening to that wounded noise, keening out of her chest, punctuated by the way she shudders, bracing against you.

“God,” you rasp through gritted teeth, stealing a delighted moan as she spreads her legs wider for you, stealing several more. “This pussy, fuck, is incredible, Eunbi” - she’s so wet and turned on that you just fucking rail her, that she lets you, that she loves it, to the point where you’re reminding yourself to breathe - “what a good little cocksleeve you are, you’re so fucking wet.”

“Better?” Eunbi is struggling to stay upright, jaw slacked and slumping against the mirror like a puppet cut from its strings. “Better than her, right?” “Hm,” you say, and the hesitation alone is enough for the corner of her mouth to pull up into a tiny smile. Something she knows she can hook into, something she can work with. “We’ll just have to see.”

There are tears visible at the end , and her words are quickly becoming slurred and mixed up as your fingers turn threats into reality, bruises at her waist, her thighs, her tits, her neck - you’re marking her like she’s yours, like it isn’t dangerous, like it doesn’t spell trouble for both of you. So when she musters the strength to perk up, look you straight on while you pound her cunt recklessly, and meekly say, “be honest,” it’s far too impossible to deny her anything.

“The best, Eunbi,” you start. She doesn’t know where the lip service starts, where it ends, but just hearing you mutter out her name is enough to get her swooning.

It’s not that you don’t understand the irony, that Minju is downstairs somewhere telling a hundred people she doesn’t know where you are, looking pretty and put together, and you’re saving your honesty for this girl, breaking her further to pieces with each thrust her into tight, sweaty body, each stroke into her sloppy, aching hole. You do understand it, and when Eunbi starts whining, sobbing, moaning, you just can’t be bothered to care. “So perfect on my cock, baby, now be good for me - show me how perfect this pretty little cunt is, want you to cum again for me, want to see what a mess you can be, Eunbi.”

You end up with a hand underneath her, the other in the lose waves of hair behind her head, fingers splaying out against the base of her skull, and - fuck, the new angle you settle into when you pull her tiny body up onto your cock, not to mention the depth - it’s wanton, lustful, it’s thoughtless: you’re fucking her so hard and fast that all she can do is throw is her arms around your shoulders and weave curses into her ragged breathing, thinning, threadbare, “oh fuck, oh, jesus, fuck yes, there, your fucking cock, just like that, fucking christ.”

She barely even has one foot on the ground, toes dangling onto the tile, you realize after you finish chastising her dirty mouth. Completely at your beck and call.

Not that it was ever going to make a difference. You fuck her harder, until she’s shaking with it, until she’s crying out, embarrassment long forgotten. She’s so fucked, breathy moans turning to screams, to whimpers, seams cracking into fissures - you’re not hurting her, but fuck if that isn’t the boundary you’re daring to cross. You bottom out in her pussy, over and over; you’re destroying it, ruining it, and she’s clinging to you like wet clothes, like it might soothe her, like her life depends on it.

Eunbi moans when you draw your hips back and nearly leave the perfect heat of her cunt. And when you bury yourself back into her, she writhes.

You look up from the shadowy spot where your cock is disappearing between her legs, and her eyes are flaring again, teeth sinking into her lip as you seek out her chest and start playing with her tits. There, she wants to say, eyelids hooded and voice purring, that’s more like it. But your thumb flicks at her nipple, pert and pointy, coaxing out a quieter reaction - quiet beneath the haggard recoil her body makes in order to sheathe your cock, the gentle tremor at the end of each thrust, stomach muscles contracting under your hand. It’s too much. She only closes her mouth. Lets it fall open again. Sighs.

“You’re going to cum again, aren’t you?” you ask, breath landing hot against her face, agitating the flush in her cheekbones. “You’re going to cum all over this cock.” It’s in those eyes; she’s so incredibly close, but Eunbi holds fast to what shred of dignity hasn’t since vanished out of sight, throat working hard to swallow, and she shakes her head, I can’t, I can’t, I can’t.

In fact, she’s murmuring nonsensically at you, and for a moment you see a hand on her neck, thumbprint searing into her throat, but the image fades as she moans again, hips jumping, palm slapping the sink. It’s the want, the need, for everything you have to give her, want for you inside her, maybe forever more - and want and want for anything that might release her pleasured agony. It’s fucking filthy. Bend, you tell her, don’t break. (You’ve never fucked anyone like this either, you think, not Minju, not anyone - fingers skating up the ridge of her back, face buried in the hair falling over her shoulder, taking careful note of how you’re taking Eunbi apart. 

How you might ever put her back together.)

“Shit,” she cries out sharply, spine arched and straining against you as - fucking finally - her orgasm rips through her. You’re watching carefully as you fuck into her quivering pussy, listening mostly, once the pressure starts to build behind your eyes. There’s your name torn from her lips (oh god), and how she starts to tremble (oh god), trying to draw you (oh god) deeper inside her while she (oh my fucking god) lets it flood through her.  

It’s a lot to take in. Near impossible to focus on any one thing. For fuck’s sake, even the smell of it is divine, of perfume and sex and vanilla and sin.

You’re grabbing Eunbi’s waist again, so hard she yelps, lips parting, struggling for breath every time you fuck her tight little pussy onto you, but she can’t quite say anything. Not yet. Your cock is still too hard, throbbing madly inside her, and she’s near the point of simply collapsing. 

You touch her mouth, tip it gently closed. And the docile way she looks up at you is a reminder that you had readied a quip, something about the mess between her legs, that she’s flustering and incoherent and sobbing and how it’s so unlike her. But it’s gone now. Lost to the lust and need crackling in your own brain, you figure. You’d been daydreaming a mile a minute about fucking Eunbi on a good day, and now you’re seeing her here, like this. It takes the velvety drag through her cunt, once, twice, you’re pounding her so fast, not even trying to hold on, shortening your breath, biting your cheek, counting out the strokes - three, four, five -“Come on,” Eunbi manages in the spaces between her soft, bitten back moans, “do it, wanna feel that big cock fuck a creampie deep inside me, wanna feel your hot cum leak out of me.”

You really could. Because she feels fucking unbelievable, and now you’re imagining it: getting reckless and stupid and filling her perfect little pussy with all your cum; risk it, get her pregnant, you tell yourself, fuck it deep enough inside her to make it a certainty - the mental image alone is enough to send you over the edge. You’re sure of that. It has before. “Eunbi,” you stammer, “this pussy feels… I’m gonna-” “I know,” she murmurs, “I know.” Her eyes are glassy, mouth cocked back, half-smiling. “Do whatever you want.” Five foot nothing of immaculate pulchritude and irresistible peril, she looks pristine on the end of your cock, tits in your hands, brow sweating, mouth opening, telling you to cum, to do it, want you to cum, just fucking use her.

“Fuck,” you spit, slipping your cock out of her at the last moment - fucking into your fist - cumming. Messily. Explosively. Eunbi still choking for air in fits and starts, your other hand still wringing her waist.

Though it can’t be more than a few seconds, the difference between you releasing that load inside her and the way it instead winds up everywhere else: in her panties, against the swollen lips of her pussy, the crease of her thigh - how some leaks and spills down her leg, onto the floor beneath the sink. There’s a dress ruiner in you after all. “God,” you add, fighting exhaustion, and Eunbi simply crumples against you, kissing you like you’ve never been kissed before - a long, smooth slide of her lips that leaves you both gasping in its wake.

“So.” Eunbi’s hand is between her legs, assessing the damages, accounting the cum all over her and soaking through the fabric of her underwear. She just raises an eyebrow at you, charming, challenging. “You came all over me.”

“What, you really think I’d cum in you?”

Her eyes squint, and her nose scrunches. It’s winsome, in a way. 

Sure, she’s kind of a disaster - the once-carefully-styled waves of her hair are in tatters, makeup running in every direction, tits hanging out of her bra and spilling over the top of her dress, still barefoot and completely unfazed by it. Dismantled is a good look for her, even if she doesn’t appreciate it: reaching into her purse, this emergency kit of wipes, a mascara brush, lipstick. Raring to do a little triage. “Yeah,” you insist, “you’re out of your mind.”

The droll laugh she gives you when you finally let her go is not antagonistic either, but as with a lot of those things Eunbi does, the click of her tongue, the haughty expressions, the mannerisms, they were all becoming less threatening and more fetching - possibly more now that you’ve seen the face she makes when she cums.

“I think it’s just force of habit.” Having slid from the sink and onto the floor, Eunbi pitches up on her feet to kiss you again, and you don’t try to fight it any more than if she had beaten you in some sporting game and extended her hand to shake yours. When she pulls her lips off you, she adds, “which, you know, serendipitous and all that.”

“Thanks for the ten-dollar-word.”

“Lucky,” she reiterates. “I know what it means.” “If I had to guess… Minju doesn’t let you, does she?” And it becomes immediately apparent to you what Eunbi’s playing at. She’s got her teeth sinking into the long game, anticipating that you’ll cross your arms, tell her never again: that thing at the gala, the kissing - we can’t.

“Can you stop.”

“Does she?”

“Um,” you say, considering carefully for a moment which half-truths you want to tell, which ones you already have. “No, she does.”

Eunbi shifts her body a little, toward you, but not quite close enough to touch you - she’s bending slightly at the waist to scoop her tits back into her bra, her dress. The corner of her lip quirks further, and she asks, completely unrepentant, “does she let you cum in her ass?”

Your throat clicks, swallowing - you can’t even imagine it well enough to begin to know how to lie about it; bashful, everything obvious and on display - so, yeah, you are kind of fucked.

-

“Your shirt isn’t buttoned right by the way.”

“Here,” you say, still stuffing fabric back into your pants, “stand in front of me in case someone we know happens to come around.”

Eunbi crowds you to the wall, almost too aggressively, and she watches a staff member of the venue walk by carrying a platter full of shrimp tails and used napkins. “You’ve got cum on your pants too.”

“One crisis at a time, okay.”

“What are you going to tell Minju?” “Nothing.” “I mean… what is your approach, like when we get over there and-” Eunbi takes a step forward, fitting so perfectly beneath your chin, looking up like she’d discovered something worth marveling at. “Oh my god.” She laughs out loud. “How did I get a hickey under there?” With just one finger returning to her waist, far gentler than the last time it’d been there, you push her back ever so slightly. “I’m just going to be myself.” “Hm, bad idea.” “Oh, alright then.” Eunbi clutches a hand over her chest like she’d been wounded. “I just mean you’re kind of a nervous wreck.”

“I’ll be fine,” you tell her, now properly buttoned, and sliding out from her small-yet-surprisingly-overbearing presence. “And I told you, I bruise easy.”    

“Yeah, no kidding.”

-

History, is the word you’re looking for. Minju and Eunbi have history.

It always starts the same way:

A kiss to one cheek, the other, and the two are immediately falling back on placid smiles and the kind of laughter that seems at a glance to be genuine and real. Almost theatrical, the performance. 

Though Eunbi’s always had that chip on her shoulder - says she knows what it’s like to be young and pretty and famous - and when they’re together Minju always manages to draw from this near-infinite supply of bashful and modest. Actually, that’s more or less her whole thing. 

The mistake you figure, if anyone were to ask you, which no one has one yet - the mistake is in thinking you’re the only one that knows Minju can’t stand Eunbi. Even though she does a great job of hiding it, you might be singular in regards to who gets to hear Minju go off in the privacy of your apartment - arrogant, vain, conceited bitch - but you’re not alone here. No, no.

Because Eunbi - who is perfectly aware just how much disdain Minju has for her - catches your stare. And instead of being content with how you’ve found the ideal spot to stand off to the side to avoid this whole minefield of a situation, she waves you over. Way too enthusiastically.

That has always set her apart. She would invite mischief, if she thought that it would set the scene.

-

It’s not more than a week before your paths cross again. Perhaps you’re tangling with fate. Perhaps it’s out of your control. Perhaps, you consider carefully, that’s more convenient. You see her first: waiting for a cab at the taxi stand outside the broadcast studio, cardigan sliding down around her shoulders, verily bedraggled in the wind.

The ends of her hair are in the corners of her mouth, and those long shadows cast from the evening sun dance across her face to paint those features baroque, build an image serene and stately - statuesque.

(She’s stunning as ever.) That Eunbi is even here of all places is a coincidence, but her dimples deepen when her eyes meet yours, like she’s finally found something she was long looking for. “How serendipitous,” she says to you again, smiling. “Right.” You grimace back, self-effacing. “Lucky.”

“You know,” she says after a moment, “our apartments really aren’t that-” “Far,” you say, seeing the conclusion that she’s leaping at, and the next to make things become extremely complicated is Eunbi, which is so her that it makes your fists clench in your jacket pockets without realizing it.

“It’d be cheaper, I’m just saying, if we split a cab.”

“What if I told you,” you say, after a long while, “I get reimbursed for the commute either way.” “Do you?”

“No,” you end up saying, bluntly.

“So, purely a hypothetical,” she suggests, leaning into your personal space, and your eyes drop immediately, past her bare shoulders, past the neckline of a matching top, pointedly to her knees beneath a pair of denim shorts. Her whole outfit is simple, but with a figure like hers, clearly intended to provoke a reaction, one that you’re not going to give her. You’re above that. 

“Yeah.” You tilt your head. “Sure.”

Her finger’s tapping at her chin, and it’s sort of cute the way she does it, making the gesture seem about half as patronizing as it should be. “Then just for good company’s sake?

“You-” It comes out uneven enough to get you chuckling to yourself, kind of nervously. Her eyes light up as you swallow back on your drying mouth - a beacon, lighthouse in a storm, safe harbor, siren’s call and all. Your gut is trying to tell you, danger, and then suggests you dive in headfirst. “You might be giving yourself too much credit.” “Just entertain the thought for me.” “Like a hypothetical, you mean.”

She laughs, and it has her eyes crinkling at the corners. Likable, you think immediately. Beautiful, right after that, and coincidence, as it were, ends there - just as abruptly.

You’ve made many selfish decisions in your life, but climbing into the back of that cab might be the most out of all of them - Eunbi just smiles when you arrive next to her. You never stood a chance against that, probably. It’s the Orpheus thing. The monkey’s paw thing. It’s not possible to lean out of a moving vehicle enroute toward collision, stop the wheels from spinning when they’re already spun, and unmake the wish. 

The blur of passing street lights streak across Eunbi’s face and present it to you in broken images, cycling like phases of the moon, until finally, an overpass sees everything go dark, and you feel her small body slide across the backseat, the heat in her chest as she presses into you.  

Her lips are featherlight upon yours, gentle and trepid. For the first time, she seems unsure, as if she didn’t think this would happen. Then once more, with a taste of desperation and sinking into the dark corner of the leather seat, she kisses you like she knows you, pulling tight onto the collar of your shirt like she knows you’ll kiss her back - like she knows that all you’ve been doing, at the end of the day, is delaying the inevitable.

-

Eunbi’s apartment, actually, is rather modest. More different, and less however you expected.

The walls are painted alabaster, not white, which is only a color you recognize because Minju had waffled between that and eggshell for weeks before tasking you to paint three of the four walls of your living room - only later to realize she wanted something darker as you were priming the fourth. There’s a small powder room by the door, a tiny closet overflowing with jackets and coats and all sorts of outfits you’ve probably stripped off Eunbi in your head a thousand times over - and what the space lacks in size, more than makes up for in the massive set of south facing windows, benefit of an open layout, daylight warm and diffuse. Well, at least that’s how you imagine it. The sun set while you weren’t paying attention, your thoughts, hands, lips, all preoccupied in the back of the cab, so you’re left with only the recessed lighting, dimmed down to dreamlike allure.

Not that you’ve ever been one with an eye for detail. No, Minju will happily corroborate the fact. Your talents start at your wit, end at your charm. But it’s just where you’re at - head tipped over the back of the sofa - you’ve got your eyes anywhere besides where Eunbi’s kneeling in front of you, head bobbing up and down between your thighs. 

In spite of your plans to fold her over any surface sturdy and horizontal, you ended up like this, jeans not even half way down around your thighs. On instinct, you’re threading your fingers through her silky hair, though you can feel the glare she shoots up as you tighten your grip and start to pull. It’s not that Eunbi takes issue with you fucking her face inherently. It’s nothing like that at all.

“That’s it, pretty girl,” you murmur softly, voice wrecked. “You take my cock so well. Your smart little mouth was made for this, wasn’t it?” Between messy kisses in the cab, the lobby, the elevator, while fumbling for her keys, she’d detailed to you all the things she wanted you to do to her, how she wanted you to fuck her, how she was going to make you cum. See, her mouth is gorgeous, even more vulgar, and she wasn’t going to let the opportunity slip: you’d understand exactly what that mouth could do. 

Because there’s the angle you’re now both familiar with, that you can fuck her apart, get her flushed, faltering and fucked into perfect submission until you steal your own release - that you’ve been running the memory back all damn week - but she figures you ought to know that she can make you cum without you ever needing to lift a finger. And given how sure she is running her tongue all over you, sucking your cock, mouth hot, unashamedly sloppy, fingers curled around your shaft in strokes of genius-

Fuck, she probably will.

Not that you’re one for understatement, mouth falling open as you sigh backward into the upholstery - feels amazing, you’re explaining to her when you’re not chewing your lip, so good at that, a little more, your mouth baby, fuck, it’s incredible. Like she doesn’t already know. 

Eunbi just slides her lips down your shaft so perfectly in response. All that wet suction near fatal. But it’s not what gets you to swear audibly, a low rumble from your chest that says she’s on the right track. It’s the look on her face: pouty pink lips cushioning your cockhead, parted around your shaft, sinking further now, back at the top again, spit drooling from the corners of her mouth. Her eyebrows are upturned, and when she hollows her cheeks some - lifts her eyelids and fixes that gaze on you - her irises are gleaming in juxtaposition, this doe-eyed girl blinking up at you, innocently, like she’s not taking your cock further into her mouth, fucking you until she chokes. 

Those eyes half-lidded, unknowing, and staring straight into you- 

She’ll make you cum, they read, blinking, deep in her throat. Her lashes flutter. She coughs. You’ll cum more.

Though for your part, it’s not like you’re aren’t handing yourself over to the sensation either, indulging in everything Eunbi’s mouth has to offer, what more you’re sure still to take. It’s hot and wet and her tongue is even better licking around the tip of your cock than it was pressed flat underneath it - you’re settling into it, just starting to rock your hips up to meet the softness at the back of her throat, and she nods her head down twice more, bathing more of you in her spit each time, sputtering. You’re not the easiest to take, but she’s almost casually contented, or something more smug, the uppish look of a girl who’s never backed away from a challenge - who will happily go for more - and without fuss, she takes your entire length between her lips. 

“Oh, fuck me-” you mutter, going speechless the moment she starts to suck.

And with her nose to your belly, Eunbi is straining, fighting for breath. It’s not an accident that she’s making a total fucking mess, drool and precum dripping down your shaft. She’d take more of you, wet on her chin, on her fingers, she’d pull you further into her little mouth, like she’d have it no other way. Still, her tongue licks nonchalantly past the seal of her lips, laps at your balls, and you think you’re going to lose it when she realizes it’ll get you to shiver, how you won’t ask for more, but she can just keep doing it again, again.

You bury your face in your hands as you suck in your next breath. You’re leaking cum actually, only a little, and Eunbi just keeps blowing you like you aren’t. Fantasies will never work again, not after this, because for all the times you’ve imagined Eunbi’s lips around you, you’ve never come up with anything remotely close. It’s not even clear if this talent of hers is natural, god-given, or if behind each of her coy expressions and holier-than-thou moments of proud eminence she’s secretly an insatiable cockslut, but man, the girl is really good at sucking cock.  

Maybe the tricky part about this, if you even want to begin to get into it (you do not) - allowing yourself a small taste of intimacy has sparked this want for so much more. Even when things were good, Minju wasn’t getting her mouth on you like this. You can’t put your finger on it, the last time you’ve had anything as satisfying as the press of Eunbi’s lips around you, this mess of dark slippery hair bobbing up and down in your lap lazily and unbothered, mouth making all these wet noises like she’s yours and nothing more - like she never will be - and fuck, it’s irresistable. Her tongue curls around you again, and she makes her jaw go slack until more spit drools down the length of your cock, lathering in her fingers and twisting around your shaft - it scratches at itches you didn’t even know you had; nascent itches, silent ones, itches cloaked as something else.

Your breath stutters, stumbling into an embarrassing little moan after Eunbi pops her mouth off your cock, and a fleeting trick of a grin rushes across her face. She picks up on where you’re at instantly: “Aren’t you, like, kinda quiet?” “There’s a lot going through my head right now,” you tell her, and that’s something she knows she can play along with, reveling in how you swallow at nothing when she hooks her hand behind her back and frees her bra from her shoulders. Her tits settling perfectly into place. “Just to be clear,” you sigh, “I’m going to cum in your mouth if you keep doing it like that.”

She tugs your jeans all the way down to your ankles. Arches an eyebrow. “And?” “It’s called being decent, just something I’m working on.”

“Oh,” Eunbi says, returning her grip around your cock. Her hands are tiny, stacked one on top of the other, and she pumps them slowly, knowing that the abundance of spit and precum in her fingers makes it feel amazing. Every little flick of her wrists every bit as unbearable. “Now you care about decency; the guy who’s cheating on his-”

“Watch it,” you say, rough, “I could go without the reminder.” Eunbi’s grin flickers a little wider. “Still the guilty conscious, huh?”

You think on it, a moment too long probably, because on one hand, she’s right. On the other - “I’m not going to say it’s guiltless.”

“Okay simple,” Eunbi shrugs, and pulls herself away from you, suggesting, “just touch yourself.” 

That’s one way to go about it. You wonder if this is the logic her brain operates on daily. It’d explain a lot.

“That’s like getting away with it on a technicality.”

“It’s an orgasm,” Eunbi tuts, “you’re not robbing a bank.” There’s a brief silence while she brings her palm up over her eyes, peeking through her fingers. “Here, see, I’m not even looking.” 

“I’m going to go ahead and just point out that you’re suggesting I jerk off in your living room.”

Eunbi’s hands drop to her sides, before tracking up her ribs and holding her breasts together into a cleavage that is way too inviting for anyone’s sake. You’re enchanted. Beguiled, maybe.

“Or.” Her gaze tapers in on something. God only knows what exactly your tell is; the quirk in your brow, the slightly-more-than-usual-avoidant gaze, something about your lips, the way you’re biting them - that’s where she seems to have honed in. And she’s smoking you out, completely. “I could probably just fuck you with my tits.”

That’s true. She could. And when that developed thought eventually coheres, you sigh profoundly.

She tips her head, interpreting the silence, and the small, wanting groan you make as she starts smashing her breasts closer together between her hands is definitely audible. Here, she’s telling you, with your cock, I know you want to. Even her lips are slanted into a subtle, knowing shape, steeped in all her femme-fatality, before finding the other smile she wears that pretends like it doesn’t know what she’s doing to you. “Is that what you want? You want your cock between my tits?”

“How exactly are those two things interchangeable?” you start, which isn’t anything even in the neighborhood of a no, so Eunbi simply leans forward, raising her chest between your thighs and teasing the sensitive part of your cock with just a brush of her nipple. Grazing down you, it’s hardly any contact at all, but the way you twitch suggests to her you’ll probably never recover from this. 

“Well.” Eunbi’s expression is lit aflame with revelation. “I’m just working in the space, thinking about things someone else could never do for you - things I could do for you.” 

For one thing - of which there are many - it’s a hell of a departure from the Eunbi who was sobbing against the bathroom mirror begging you to cum inside her. You can hear it. Her voice has the quality of a type of: victory. 

(Like she’s just come up with the most brilliant idea in the world. Which - maybe.)

“It’s perfectly normal you know,” she adds, almost as an aside, while trapping your cock between her breasts. “Literally everyone asks me to do this.”

You’re disarmed more than you realized, only able to nod along. Eunbi laces her fingers together, straightens herself, and right after passing her tongue under her top teeth to shoot you a smile, starts moving up and down against you. The way it feels, filthy hot and suffocatingly amazing, fuck, you’re letting out a sound that’s the bastardchild of a laugh and a whimper. You’re stunned. And the way it looks - your cockhead escaping her tits, disappearing again - is almost, almost the best part. 

“You’re, like, so hard right now,” she says, deservedly confident, and sliding her tits up around your cock again, she tilts her chin, trying to goad it out of you. “Should I let you cum all over these tits? Like, you’re already throbbing, honey.” Let you cum, she says. If you weren’t struggling to cope with everything - every pass of soft skin smothered around your shaft sending you further to wit’s end and threatening to abandon you there - you’d recognize the writing on the wall: you’re in the palms of her hands, figuratively, literally. You’re in trouble. “Oh, is that it?” she asks again. “Should I?”

“Fuck.” Without even thinking, you’re spreading your knees wider, inching toward the edge of the sofa, aching to get deeper between her cleavage. “Fine, yes, fuck-”

“Unh-uh,” says Eunbi flippantly. 

See, she’s enjoying this - eyes hot and radiant with authority - she’s enjoying this more than you. Her fingers relax, letting her tits fall around down onto your thighs. The pressure she was letting you enjoy, wrapping around your cock and making you speechless, starts to dwindle to something less brain-numbing. It’s unexpected: the lipstick around her mouth is smeared slightly, mascara under her smoky eyes still in disarray from how you’d had your cock in her throat, and now she’s the one taunting you.

“No, I’m serious,” she adds, “I want to hear you say it.” Her brow furls immediately when you open your mouth, like she’s already very aware of what you’re going to say, and equally unimpressed. “Say you want me to make you cum with my tits.”

“Eunbi.” Your voice comes out dry, damaged. “Please.”

“Hm?”

This wasn’t quite how you had pictured it when you’d seen Eunbi leaving the studio, looking like an angel, smiling like the devil; when she batted her lashes at you outside the taxi stand; when she clung to you and kissed you in the backseat of the cab; when that escalated the moment you walked through her foyer; when she dropped to her knees and started at your belt, your zipper, all without missing a beat. This is different. This is you, being desperate. 

“Please, with your tits Eunbi, fuck me with your tits.” 

Jesus. Now you know how that sounds. And the words are clear enough given the circumstances, but she’s staring at you expectantly, waiting for more. Waiting for you to concede. Waiting like you have no choice - “please, Eunbi, please make me cum, fuck, I need it so bad.”

“Oh.” Eunbi gathers herself again around your cock. Tighter. Triumphant. She laughs dryly and says, aloof, “good boy.”

-

(Here’s how it goes:

Eunbi has your cock vanished into her cleavage, again, and every soft slide of her breasts coaxes a reaction out of you - some quiet, others louder - coaxes more precum from where your cock is aching, leaking. She adjusts her fingers, moves her palms in further, makes her movements more precise, faster, tighter- 

It’s probably not a good sign of mental hygiene that you’re wilting so fast, that you’ve given her so much power so quickly, but the way she has her tits around you is fucking staggering. “Aw, don’t worry, I’ll make you cum so fucking hard.” Eunbi moves her tits up your shaft. Lets them fall again. “Just relax for me.”

Her dark hair is falling slightly out of place over her ears as she looks down and presses her out tongue out, licking gently at where you’re appearing over and over from her soft breasts. Oh, she knows exactly what she’s doing, you think, even though there’s not an ounce of culpability in her face. You’re so unused to seeing Eunbi appear so guileless that you nearly don’t recognize her. 

But once you feel the smooth skin of her chest become so wet and slippery with her spit, your precum  - once she’s settled into a reliable motion to fuck you with - her eyes lift their focus from what’s just beneath her chin. Get themselves fixed right on you. 

“It feels so good doesn’t it?” The smirk that finds her mouth is lethal. “C’mon. I know you want to cum.”

You can only nod, breath panting. “Cum on these perfect tits, baby. Cum for me.” Her brow is cocked, voice lilting straight into seduction. “Cum-”

Eunbi’s name sticks to the roof of your mouth as you shoot a rope of cum past her collarbone. You send more all over her chest, hot and sticky and shimmering in pale white, and as soon as she slowly slides her chest up again, you drain your balls into the warm wrap of her tits. A truly satisfying mess. 

You stare for a moment, wondering, if she’ll open her mouth and swallow you again - all given the way she’s looking at your cock, hungry. But she simply tilts her chin and lets your cum splash onto her neck.

She has her hands pumping you lazily against her clavicle, cooing while she gently fuck out the final, tired vestiges of your orgasm with little flicks of her wrist: “oh, there, look at all that, and it’s all for me.”

Once your knees stop shaking and your breath starts to level - once Eunbi releases you from her warm, wet cleavage - she draws a shiver out of you with her tongue, run up the length of your sensitive cock, and she’s left kneeling there, covered in your cum, with her palms upturned like she’s waiting for someone to give her a towel. It’s you, and it’s her, and there’s something about the image of your cum splattered all over her chest, shining and slippery between her perfect tits. You get your hands on her waist immediately, pulling her up into your lap, her slick, sticky chest sliding against yours, and you devour her mouth greedily, licking hungrily past her lips.

“You are something else,” you say finally, now sunk back into the couch to fully take Eunbi in. “All sorts of party tricks.”

Eunbi preens, utterly satisfied with herself, and she reaches down behind her to your cock, aching in pained pleasure, aching for more. You flirt with the heat that radiates from behind her underwear, grinding against where she’s become hot and wet and needy. She laughs, and the sound turns to a pretty little sigh after she pulls aside her panties and seats herself onto your cock. 

“Oh, you have no idea,” she says, and she starts to move.)

-

It’s never supposed to become a habit. It’s never supposed to be anything at all. At first? Once a month, and it’s unprompted; then it’s biweekly, then it’s once a week, then it ends up biweekly again in the opposite direction; there are these little text messages back and forth that you’re learning to decipher - hey, they usually start, you up? or you wanna help me move some furniture? or this is crazy, but i cooked way too much ramen? or been horny all day, so like, come over and fuck me? 

Some of them, you puzzle out, are easier to decipher than others. And falling comfortably into that category are the nudes she sends you in the middle of a fucking workday: 

Eunbi’s standing with the backside of her unfathomable figure facing the bathroom mirror, denim cut offs slipping down past her thighs-

(Fuck. Shit. You drop your phone and it lands face down in a way that makes you scared to check for damages. Luckily, it is unscathed. Mostly.)

-denim cut offs slipped down past the cheeks of her ass. Her torso is twisted in profile, a white linen shirt draped up over her shoulders for ceremonial purposes, gaping open at the front in an effort to cover nothing at all. Underneath that is a plaid swimsuit top for god knows what reason - a pair of large silver hoop earrings, perfectly done eyelashes, and hair far too styled to be gearing up for a swim - then it’s her thumb, hooked under the string that looks to barely be holding the tiny thing together. The picture is taken at nearly the precise moment: she’s pulling up on the bikini top, to the point that her tits look ready to fall out and let gravity return them whence they came. 

How she managed it, you’ll never know, but it’s got fantasies come to life immediately. Eunbi whimpering and coming apart, Eunbi stretched out in that bikini top, Eunbi stretched out without it - you nearly drop the phone again.

The text that follows is shameless, complete with a winking emoji and extra letters in all the right places: maybe tell minju you’ll be home late for dinner.

All of this, and suddenly you’re feeling less oblivious about it. You and Minju are at that point. These are your death throes, a swan song, performative; you’re that kind of couple.

-

You realize there’s this thing that Minju always says. 

You’ll often catch her in passing, between your hectic schedules or in her spot between the cushions of the sofa curled up in a blanket and reading another romance novel. She’ll ask you how your day was, or what it’s going to be, and you’ll tell her what you always tell her. “Nothing,” she responds as you press a dutiful kiss to her forehead, “I’m just thinking.”

-

But what else is there to say?

There’s Eunbi’s apartment, the usual scene of the crime. There’s the backseat of your car, sometimes the front seat of hers. There’s no lack for nooks and crannies in the production studio. You fuck Eunbi. Eunbi fucks you. All of it rabid and increasingly frequent and most of the time it gets seriously freudian.

“Inside me,” Eunbi gasps, twice. Her chest is flushed, stained again with your cum, sticky strands of it bridging between her tits as they wobble and shake beneath you. It’s all routine, and none of it anything you could ever tire of. The way you’re fucking her, every deliberate thrust something you can hang on to forever - buried inside her hot, tight velvety cunt - it should be aspirational. And you’ve got her here so frequently, so selfishly, so perfectly. With her knees folded up to her shoulders as you ride the motions of the bed springs. 

Maybe it’s curiosity at play, to see how far either of you will go. You’re crushing her in more ways than one. It’s hot and filthy and she’s loving every moment of it. You’re pounding her sopping cunt into a swollen, cummed-in mess - more and more as you fuck her further into the matress. “Do it, baby,” she cries, unashamed, “want you to fill this pretty little cunt again, need you to fuck me, use me, need you to breed me - use this pussy however you want, it’s yours, so cum in me over and over until i’m just your little cumdump and nothing more-”

God, you want to give her everything she wants, all of the time. Your hips ride into her again, deep and making her features skip past all the usual coy expressions. And god, she is so fucking tight - maybe you will.

“Just like that, don’t stop.” Eunbi is panting, nails digging into your shoulder blades, and she holds your face to the crook of her shoulder. Her voice comes out in airy gasps, shaking and quivering as you rock her entire body beneath you. You pound away at her pussy, and you fuck her, and you rail her so reckless she starts to cry out, until she’s begging, pleading for you to fill her pretty little cunt.

Even though you should at least hesitate, you don’t. You can’t. You shouldn’t.

Hips grinding against hers, cunt clenched and dripping onto your cock, you do.

You need her.

-

But what else is there to say? It’s not that you don’t do your fair share of thinking either. Though none of it productive, admittedly. You’ve got all these images, photographically vivid, of Eunbi running through your head. The things you’ve done to her, the things you want to do to her, the things you will do to her. 

It starts to get in the way of your work.

“I’m sorry,” you say, caught daydreaming one day. “Could you repeat that for me?”

Sitting across the table from you is Jo Yuri, a mutual friend. She knows everyone, and she’s on your radio show, talking about relationships. “What I’m saying is this: I’m not sure what it is about men that make them think women are so unsolvable, like we’re constantly changing the rules.” “They’re not simple,” you offer in contention.

Yuri turns her head onto her hand, adjusting her headphones, and leans into the mic. “They’re not complex either.”

But, they are complex, you think to yourself as Yuri continues on her with her point. They’re complex in the way they want you to touch them, the way they want you to hold them, to kiss them; some of them complex in the way they want you to choke them, slap them, get your mouth on them and make them cum over and over-

“If it’s less subtle than a brick to the face,” Yuri says, gauging your lack of a reaction, “it’s probably for your own good. That’s what I think.”

-

Neither of you cry when Minju breaks up with you on a Friday. You know, like officially. Neither of you shout or throw things or do anything that you could put in a tell-all book in your later years.

So that’s that, is the last thing she says to you. Whatever the opposite of cathartic is - that’s the vibe.

Her publicist finally sends a letter to Dispatch. Apparently the time is right. Or she’s stopped caring. You don’t know. The article that ultimately arrives doesn’t drag you through the mud, but you don’t come out looking all that great either. And as it turns out, surprisingly, the most tragic part about being dumped on a Friday, aside from the fact that every fool that is doom scrolling twitter knows about it, is it’s impossible to get new furniture delivered until the following Monday.

“Jesus,” Eunbi says, sliding past you and into your near empty apartment. “This place is super depressing.” “You shouldn’t be here,” you say, tepid. “There’s been photographers watching the door to the lobby for hours.” “I was just passing by. Saw the lights were on.” “Yeah, well, I mean I’m here.”

“I see that.” Eunbi smiles simply. “Was all the furniture hers?”

“We replaced a lot of stuff as time went on. Didn’t match her decor.” You lean against the door frame. “Or so I’m told.”

Eunbi does a spin in your living room, finger to her chin. “Looks like she left you a coffee table.” 

“The movers said it didn’t fit in the truck.”

“Ah.” Eunbi crosses her arms, and the quiet smile on her face grows just an inch. “Serendipitous, ain’t it?”

-

“Hey,” Eunbi says, from the passenger seat of your car. “Would you say… are you feeling anger?” “No.”

She taps away at her phone in a few more moments of silence. The turn signal’s click click click punctuating each one, semi-dramatically.

“Hey,” she says again, turning toward you.

“What?”

“How about this, are you feeling depression.”

You pause before you answer. “No.”

Her mouth finds a subtle twist, almost like she’s pouting. “Are you feeling, I dunno, bargaining?” “I’m not in grief, Eunbi, if that’s what you’re working toward.”

She sinks into her seat, disappointed somehow.

“Oh, that’s the first step by the way: denial.” Eunbi unclicks her seatbelt, and leans over the console as you pull up in front of a hotel. “This article says that soon the emotions you’ve been hiding will begin to rise. You’ll be confronted with a lot of-” “Stop.” “Stop what?” she asks, blinking deceptively in an almost comically innocent way. “Psychoanalyzing.” You shut the car door a little too dramatically to be of any help hammering home your point. “I told you, I’m fine.”

“Fine?” Eunbi murmurs, just low enough for you to catch, “you’re living out of a hotel. And denial is not just a river in Egypt.”

“Why don’t we analyze how you’ve got a real talent for getting under my skin.”

“Oh.” She laughs, eyes bright, cheery. “So we are angry.”

“You might want to be more careful.” You’re wandering into familiar territory here. This thing, the needling, the goading, is it on purpose? Your intuition suggests yes, perhaps. A wealth of experience tells you absolutely.

“Is that so?” she asks, interested and daring and dangerously pretty in the shadows of the parking lot.

“Who knows, maybe I end up getting a little rough with you.”

“Oh darling,” she says, and part of you isn’t too keen on her getting so intimate with you. There’s another part of you that is. “I’m hoping you get a lot rough with me.”

-

The way Eunbi perches inelegantly at the edge of the bed says a lot. Her legs are wide open and she’s grasping backward at a set of pristine hotel sheets, cumming over and over on your fingers, maybe a little too easily. She’s even giving you those eyes, watery and irresistable. Of course you’re past all that, well familiar with the act, how deceitful it is of her to act so innocent.

So you bring your mouth onto her pussy and make her do it again. Telling yourself it’s what she deserves.

In fact, when the barrage of oh god’s and moaning and panting finally subsides, she ends up laughing, bubbly cute, in exactly the way you’ve grown fond of. It’s almost strange, you think, to be so used to the sound. But when Eunbi finally uncovers her face from her hands, her expression is pointedly not amused, all need and lust and want - she’s not playing around - simply the way your name comes off her tongue could make you melt. “How do you want me?” she asks, “you can’t just leave me like this.”

Fuck, how don’t you want her? It might have been careless, giving someone like you creative liberty - you’re imaging everything. You want her on her knees, you want her ass in your hands, you want her riding you, beneath you; there’s a million and one things you’re thinking about her tits alone. Then there’s the other liberty. That you’re not checking over your shoulder, worrying, anxious, that kernel of shame hidden away somewhere inside you no longer growing as you get your cock inside her. You’ll make her scream your name, beg you to cum. She’s yours, and you’ll remind her who she belongs to. You’ll take all the time you need. 

“Stand up,” you end up telling her, and after one of those liquid thoughts finally coalesces into something more rigid, “over by the window.”

“Yes sir,” Eunbi says, huffing a smug laugh. Though whatever faux confidence she thought she discovered vanishes without a trace considering her knees are already wobbling, barely able to support her. Some part of her must be able to sense it: you’re worked up, feeling something. She likes you that way. Likes what it makes you do to her. The fact is, to be truly content - being held down and pounded into, filled so full and fucked apart - it’ll take just a press of her thumb on the scale. 

See, Eunbi knows you’ve been holding back. Knows you’ve been flirting with the boundaries she’s dared you to cross. With a little encouragement, she knows you will. 

You saw this coming. And to be frank, you’re going to ruin her.  

“Take your shirt off,” you say, slipping seamlessly into instruction, “socks, underwear, strip.”

It is breathtaking, the way Eunbi ultimately turns her figure around against the pane, hands running up the glass and stretching above her head, ass poked out and shimmying her hips. She’s right there, waiting for you to grab hold of her, to press kisses into her shoulders, her spine, to pump your cock into her, to cum in her deeper and deeper-

And with much less to say, she finds that shimmy again, the round of her ass proffering. Her patience waning.

“You fucking better,” she says, and her elbow’s bent, finger’s pulling at her ass cheek. Look, this pussy, it’s yours, no one else’s and you made it so, so wet. You almost can’t believe that she’s even real - all curves and sharp angles in the right places, a face like that - you should be at her feet, worshiping her, and you will, in a way: you’ll grip her wrists tightly into your fist and sink your fingers into her waist until you’ve got her bruising and breaking. And that’s just a scratch at the surface. Eunbi’s pupils are blown, mouthing into her shoulder, “I need you to fuck me.”

The tension in the room hardly stretches more than a few moments, you’ve got your cock out, you’re slipping into Eunbi’s soaked cunt, pushing deep, thrusting deeper, bottoming out - “you perfect fucking slut, Eunbi, so needy aren’t you? Begging me to breed you over and over-” You’ve spent the last god knows how many many months hiding away and stealing at something you weren’t supposed to have. Spent even longer pining for something you’ve never had at all. Your hips snap again, harsh contact against her ass, skin milky white and soft, unblemished and delicate - and when you settle into this harsh tempo, railing Eunbi up against the window, you figure you’ll address all that. 

See, you’ve got no ticking clock in front of you. Consider how time starts to slip when you’re inside her, seconds to minutes, minutes to hours, you’ll take as much you can: time to bring her her home, keep your cock in her for a day, two days, three days, keep cumming in all her holes-

“Fuck,” Eunbi sputters, arching her back further, tension building in her spine, in her cunt. The reflection in the window shows her bottom lip start to tremble, and she opens her mouth, repeating it, like it’s all she can remember how to say. “Fuck, fuck, fuck-”

You slap her ass, hard. Handprint vibrantly pink and staring back at you. You kiss her shoulders, you pound her little cunt into consummate submission. I want other people to know, Eunbi’s entirely incapable of telling you right now, drool cornering in her lips. Want everyone to know how good you fuck me, how you own me, how I’m your personal cumdump and forever will be.

You mark her up, like she is yours, hand at her neck, in her hair - you start to pull.

“Yes?” How you’re holding her, how you’re fucking her - it’s physically imposing. You’re towering over the woman, face bent upward and reaching further as the grip you’ve stolen of her silky hair only ever tightens. You can kiss her forehead, but you don’t. You tease her instead. “Aw, you’ve got a look on your face like you have something you want to tell me, Eunbi.”

All too simple, your thumb lands on the pucker of her asshole. And she cums, just like that.

It’s unholy. The overstimulation has tears welling in her eyes, gorgeous, wide, glassy and brilliant. She’s not meant to take this kind of treatment. Reverence, adoration, that’s her usual faire. And she can hardly believe when you bring your hand down her ass again - can hardly believe that you’re fucking her within and inch of her life and wrecking her like you are.

Each thrust sends her voice higher and the lines of her body rippling faster, bending further. Its beauty in resonance, profundity in motion: the soft skin of her ass shaking against your hips, tits swinging against the window. Your hand snakes across her flat stomach, feels her panting for breath, traces her ribs and up towards her chest. Those little whines make it out to be something selfish. Mewling gasps for air make it seem like you aren’t giving her exactly what she asked for. As if you’d ever give her anything less. 

Fuck. She’s a hot, moaning mess of a woman. She doesn’t even roll her hips back onto you or fuck herself on your cock; she doesn’t need to. You’re destroying that little pussy, and once you start palming the heavy shape of her breast, you’re letting your fingers sink into all that profundity. 

“Please,” finally slips out of her, though she’s unable to add anything in that thin, wilting voice. There’s plea in it, the sound steeped in protest, in penury, in poverty; you’re fucking her and you’re fucking her apart - cock buried deep in her cunt - you never expected to have to piece her together this early.

“Tell me,” you demand, callous, right at her ear, “please what? Please pound this perfect little pussy of yours until I cum? Please fill you with a hot load of cum because what, you deserve it? Is that you want, Eunbi?”

“Please, cum-” Her words vanish like a hot breath against the glass. She’s blathering, eyes falling half-lidded in this amazingly sexy way that almost feels intentional. “Want to feel you cum. Fill me up with cum, please, please, please-”

“Oh, Eunbi,” you drawl, right into the crook of her neck. It makes her shiver. She’s not a princess, curses woven into her breath, but she’s selfish like one. “I’m not going to cum in this perfect little pussy-”

It all happens so fast: you drag your cock out of her cunt, and if you weren’t pressing your fingers into her waist, holding her tighter, you think she might collapse. Maybe you were closer than you realized, moments from draining your balls in her pussy, because when you lay cushioned between the cheeks of her ass, your cock just starts to spill - hot cum weeping from the tip and making a mess of her soft, creamy skin, over her the puffy lips of her pussy, across the tight little rim of her asshole.

“Good girls get bred, Eunbi,” you say, voice drying, sensitive, and so far from where you started. “You told me to be rough with you baby. I’m thinking I might cum in this perfect fucking ass. Should I?”

Eunbi’s face is flush against the glass, hands reaching back in response, spreading herself for you. Some part of her knows what you want, and she knows how bad she wants it too. “Please,” she begs, swallowing down on these hoarse uneven breaths, hiccupping between them - “need it.”

You can feel your tip tease her rim, where she’s still impossibly closed and waiting. The cum leaking from your cock is wet and slick and slippery, and with a fist curled around your shaft, realigned, angled down, you slip in.

There aren’t even words for it, how it all comes together. How she comes apart.

“Fuck,” you breathe out, recognizing Eunbi’s weight shift around you. “I’m going to fucking own this little asshole, Eunbi.”

Eunbi’s responsive mmm runs ragged. Face in profile against the window, tits smashed against the glass, you watch her eyes screw shut and her eyebrows draw together - you think for a moment, as you so often do, that you’re hurting her, blazing past safewords and pressing your cock too deep, too fast into her tight ass. “Go,” she tells you, and without even flinching, gets her fingers underneath where you’re splitting her in two, gets them wet with the slick of her cunt and in between your balls, gently. “Want you, please, this big cock.”

Your eyes water, and you start to thrust.

“Baby,” you whisper into the lobe of her ear. For once it’s all slow, sloppy and soft. It’s sin at your waist, fucking her open slowly, pumping into her ass again and again until it’s all so slick she can take you further. But you’ve got your fingers in her hair, preening loose strands back behind her hair. She’s so pretty all the time, and with her face twisted in unbearable pleasure, she’s outright gorgeous. “So good for me, Eunbi, such a good little cumslut aren’t you?”

Eunbi’s voice crackles into broken whimpers, like her lungs are waterlogged and flooded. She steals a hand away between her thighs, and starts ghosting her fingers over her clit. Anything more than that and she’d probably go up in smoke. (If it’s anything like you, cock pulsing with blood and hot as flame, you are about to lose it.)

“Fuck,” she says, grinding out the consonants in your name like she’s crushing them under a boot, “I can’t believe how good you feel, I can’t, I can’t-”

You knew, had always known, that you had - however subconsciously - enticed fate by letting yourself get to this point. Maybe it’s a perfect slowburn, this history, dotting commas and periods in your memoirs, and here you are, pounding at Eunbi’s asshole so fast that she’s stuttering.

“I can’t, fuck - thank you - fuck - feel you throbbing in my fucking ass - love being your cocksleeve,” she hisses, and her body has practically all but given up, knees buckled out, arm dangling at her side, tears streaming down her cheeks. It’s just that she never expected it either, that you’d be pleasing her by fucking her like a toy, so unrepentant she’s a sobbing messy, all sloppy and pleading, more, please, harder, faster.

“You like this cock tearing your ass open, Eunbi?” you ask, pushing the hand she has hidden at her cunt out of the way, “you like being such a perfect slut for my cock, don’t you? You weren’t kidding, you’d let me do anything to you.”

“Please, don’t, you’re gonna make me - again,” she squeals, lip wobbling, mouth hung open. You push her hard against the glass, until she straightens out, and your finger is gliding through the slick of her cunt, knuckles knocking the window and honing in on her swollen clit - you’ll make her scream. “Oh god, fuck, oh god, fuck, fuck, fuck-”

Serendipity is about chance meetings, convenient covers. Life has a way of dropping the world in your lap without you having to do anything. It’s Eunbi’s picture-perfect face, wrecked and twisting as she cums all over your thighs, rolling her hips and fucking her ass onto you - it’s that when she cums with her puckered entrance stuffed full of cock, she squirts everywhere. Lucky, is the watchword you’re sitting on, and of all places, of all people, you’ve been dealt the perfect hand, deck stacked in your favor.

There’s wet splattered all over the window. Stains streaking in the carpet. Dark spots that’ll never fade.  

“Keep fucking me,” Eunbi says, head of jet black hair titled back onto your shoulders, hips twisting slow as she grinds down against your waist, moving enough to make your cock throb and pulse. “Keep fucking me, please, until you fill my ass up all the way. I’m yours.”

Yours, yours, yours, she stammers on, failed and wrecked on your cock. Malleable and pliant. Ruined. 

“This tight little ass of yours, Eunbi,” you mutter, drawing sharp breath after sharp breath, “is fucking unbelievable.”

It’s yours.

Her body twists, torso turns into you, and you get your mouth on hers, moaning and mewling on the same hot, damp air.

“Good girl,” you whisper against her lips, and with a final kiss to her temple, you fuck into her hard - hands snuck up to hold her breasts and keep her still, hips snapping fast, faster, faster-

When you finally explode up into Eunbi’s ass, she makes a noise fucked and faltering even further than you. It’s desperate and debauched and only staunched by the fingers you slip past her lips. She bites down, but you’re too far pitched into the reality of pumping cum past Eunbi’s tight entrance that you can’t be bothered to care.

“Fuck, Eunbi.” Your voice is sneaking through gritted teeth. She’s tiny against you, body slender and hot  and milking your cock. A flash of muscle, a quiver, a pucker and she’s got you reeling. You think about getting your hand around her throat - fucking her again - but the look her face is so pristine and contented. You have her like putty in your hands, like you could bend her, mold her, break her, and when you instead bring her face to yours in this lazy, clumsy kiss, lips sliding and her tongue licking into your mouth, you know you’d never need to.

See, she’s so dismantled, completely stuffed with cock, and still, with it leaking everywhere you can feel it run hot and sticky, it’s perfect. 

The hotel room isn’t big, and until this exact moment, had been so filled with sex that the the sounds of it echoing back and forth make this sudden quiet into a silence puzzlingly calm. Her features relax, into something a little more befitting her reputation. She’s sweaty and wet and you did your part, you fucked her and fucked her up, you realize, she’ll return you the favor later. 

You hold your breath, watching the beauty mark on her cheek raise and lower with every panted-out breath, mesmerized-

And with just the slightest shift, Eunbi’s mouth closes into this tiny, satisfied smile.

“You came inside my ass,” she says out loud. She tries not to laugh, and then she does anyway when you slide your cock out of her. “You just came - in my ass. Look.”

It’s almost unfathomable, that you just fucked her until she was sobbing, pushed your cock into her ass and had her uncoil like she did, the window, the carpet. Like a fucking disaster. It’s almost unfathomable that she’s got her hands spreading her cheeks open toward you and presenting the mess you’d made like it was something to be proud of, and after all that the mood of the moment shifts a little more intimate, a little more sentimental.

“You’re trouble,” you tell her, tilting her chin up under your fingers.

“Right back at you,” she says, and she pitches onto her feet until you kiss her again.

-

(It happens.

Time passes. You work on a new show. You move into a smaller apartment. It reeks of passed time. Maybe it’s the humidity of early sobriety, hanging and palpable. You can hear ticking in clockless rooms here.

It’s been years since Minju dropped the bombshell on the media. You recovered, mostly. Years too since you’ve seen Eunbi.

Sometimes the people you wanted as part of your story are only meant to be a chapter. You could probably stitch that into a frame and sell it to the kind of crowd who’d buy words in a frame.

You don’t.

Instead, you end up a little older, not in any meaningful way. You’re not wiser or any shit like that. Just older.)

-

You interrupt the producer of your current gig, a pretty middling radio show in a pretty mundane time slot. “What do you mean by new cohost? Like I’ll be working with another human being?” He nods. “Like every week?”

Nods again. “Does he have a name?” “She,” he corrects, writing judiciously at the clipboard permanently in his hands. Scowl on his face, pencil in his ear, clipboard in his hands, that’s how you know he’s in charge. It’s a whole look. He untucks a blank envelope from the disarray of papers in his hands, saying, “she dropped this off for you too.”

You turn it in your hands twice, until you see the cursive penned into the top right corner. Memories, stinging trifling things rush back to you, all at once: you see her face, her eyes are closed, she’s smiling, she’s a thought you’d tucked away for good, and now you’re wading through it like you hadn’t. 

Serendipitous.

PART & PARCEL

male reader x sana && tzuyu

18k words

“Is it too late?” Sana asks, and here’s how it always starts with her.

Nevermind that it’s not a question in search of an answer. A normal person could, should, text you. Hey, what’s up? or something equally inconspicuous before turning up the dial, are you busy? can I, like, come over? 

Instead, she’s at your doorstep again, twirling a bundle of honey-blonde between her fingertips as if she doesn’t know what all that does to people. Some people say, incorrectly, that these are the hours of the night shared with ghosts. And to that you say: No, these hours belong to Sana, clearly, and apparently nobody fucking else. 

Now in a way, you do get it. It’d be easier to turn back over in your bed and ignore the elegant simplicity of a text message, or one step beyond that, do the unthinkable and finally tell her no, but when she’s standing there - there with that face, like a thousand different excuses or a million little reasons why she needs something from you, right now - and all she has to do is push her lips together, eyebrows going high - 

It is a bit like magic, after all, this feeling when she comes around. 

Everything that happened before - her visits, the first one and then the next - no matter how impossible, gets washed away, and suddenly all you have is her. Her voice, her hair, and a sneaking suspicion that the time apart really isn’t such a bad thing, because you don’t always have a guess as to what comes next.

Of course, you were always going to let her in.

“I saw the lights were on,” she adds, starting to shrug off her coat like she knows you will.

“I mean, I’m here,” you say, non-committal.

“Yeah. I can see that.”

The door’s half open and the only substantial hesitation you have is when you peer over her shoulder. There’s another girl, propping herself up against the doorframe, with a pretty head of glossy, sable hair falling gracefully down her shoulders, and she looks at least a few years younger than Sana. You smile cautiously at her before giving Sana another, much longer glance. In response, you receive a wink that’s as subtle as a brick through a glass window (which only raises more questions). You ask the one that seems most important.

What else would Sana, of all people, possibly want to bring you if not some plaything or another. You’ve seen it all: girls who liked her money, girls who liked her body, girls who just flat-out liked girls, whatever. The dynamic always seemed to be, as long as everyone is having a good time, nothing to get hung up about - because at the end of the night, everyone comes around to Sana again.

And she comes around to you. 

Why question it.

“This is a little… irregular,” you say with a nod of your chin, as you step back from the door. “Who’s the plus one?”

Sana motions the girl in with a sweep of her hand and throws you another disarmingly flirtatious smile - the same one that’d first left you utterly hooked by this strange person, who had, when you first met, walked into your life for five minutes, then fucked your lights out the way she wanted. She goes further with this, of course, teasing a warm smile and slanting an eyebrow.

“I figured I’d bring you a gift,” she coos, in this sultry, dusky sing-song of a voice that really needs no followup whatsoever, other than maybe take my clothes off right now, as she makes a show of how she’s pushing her shoulders back, like there’s an audience to be impressed with the curve of her bust. “Since we were celebrating.”

“Uh-huh. What’s the occasion?”

“Whatever the hell you’d like,” Sana chirps.

With that, she takes you by the collar. And even though the girl she brought is in the middle of, like, peering around curiously in your foyer, Sana leans up on the balls of her feet and kisses you hard. It’s a real kiss - no preamble - which is sort of funny, given you would have been more than okay with some. So, naturally, you’re caught entirely off-guard. It takes a full ten, fifteen seconds of feeling her hot little mouth pressed insistently up against yours, your mind gone blank with the suddenness of the moment. Your body taking it for granted.

Meanwhile, the other girl blinks - long, dark lashes batting the curve of her cheekbones slowly until Sana has moved to stand in front of her with the full, earnest intention to cup her jaw, tilt her head down a smidge, and kiss her too (very thoroughly, also, in her own way).

Sana lets the girl go with a sharp draw of air and a peck. Then she looks at you, just this side of playful. The way her teeth flash over her bottom lip suggests how she’s enjoying, to her bones, this state of affairs: a dalliance with control, with desire, where she can flaunt it.

She tells you to relax, unwind, which you suppose is code for taking another of Sana’s friends and bending her over every horizontal surface in your flat and fucking someone the way you’ve wanted for the last however-long it’s been since Sana dropped back into your life. You’ve done as much. Some rotating cast of characters: Mina, Chaeyoung, Nayeon, the raven haired girl with the perfect tits; some names and faces starting to run together the more Sana pops up at your place with a girl under one arm, usually looking half bored and half shy - or at least putting up some pretense that might justify Sana telling them to strip down while she’s already eyeing you with this look like she’s wondering which article of clothing you’ll be ripping off her first.

“Does she have a name?” you ask, with a nod vaguely in her direction. Of course it’s a loaded question. What’s her name doesn’t matter. You don’t know most of their names.

But when you do a double-take, remembering to steal a good look, you’re not sure you’ve ever seen anyone pull off that perfect little white dress quite the way she does - the kind that goes right up the back, tucked under the neck, sleeves coming to a neat point across her fingers. Sana may or may not have a thing for pretty girls in cute dresses, but this is, without question, the most obvious bribe you’ve ever witnessed in your life.

Sana’s still smirking - so much for being considerate, you think for a second, until you’ve got a dainty hand stretched into yours like you’re brushing up with royalty. And well, maybe you’re getting a better look now that she isn’t bathed in the calm, assured wickedness that two A.M. might only ever know - the dark curling like wind around her fingers and down the lines of her spine, cajoling.

She is gorgeous.

And she says - 

“Chou Tzuyu,” in this charming little voice that’s even more mesmerizing than you anticipated, this taut thread winding itself up between the two of you. She says her name with a gentle sigh, a light in her eyes that you know, intimately, not to trust, but you get the sense that she’d rather you make an exception for her - or at least for the night. “Everyone calls me Tzuyu.”

You feel a squeeze at your fingers, an anxious reminder from Sana’s thumb, as if she feels the reverie in which you’ve lapsed. It draws you back, just slightly so.

“Tzuyu,” you say, taking mental note of the faint smile that shadows in at the corner of her mouth when you do. “How much do you know?”

She twists in Sana’s direction, and oh, look how eager and innocent and coquettish Tzuyu’s making herself in front of her, smiling. What do I say, the gesture is asking. You can see her effort to hold back a giggle or two as she bites her lip, trying, as all the pretty girls who come through these doors often try, to come up with something cute and modest and small that’ll allow you and Sana to picture exactly the right thing. You can tell when a person is not used to having an audience.

“I know Sana…” Tzuyu’s voice trails as she gives Sana a furtive glance. “She talks about you a lot. And I figured, you know.”

“What? That we were good friends?”

“Sure,” Tzuyu laughs to herself lightly again. “Whatever makes it easier.”

Sana has her fingers threaded beneath Tzuyu’s chin, studying her like she’s an artifact that belongs behind glass. Expensive. One of a kind. And oh-so-excessively fragile.

The way Sana touches her, she may be trying to prove the point, guiding her body’s angles and edges towards whatever form she sees fit, with just fingertips and the slightest tug, showing you exactly how malleable the girl can be. The look on Tzuyu’s face is hardly discomfited when her dress slides past the dips of her shoulders or the slope of her waist, when the fabric gets crumpled in Sana’s hand like the most expensive balled-up tissues in the universe. You can’t decide what animal comes to mind: perhaps a deer, some cute, unknowingly doomed elk.

“No underwear,” you note, watching.

Sana draws herself a little closer to Tzuyu with an appreciative gaze, lips gently landing at her shoulders, neck.

“Why bother?” Tzuyu muses. “What were we going to use them for?”

A pull here, a tug there, and the dress puddles around Tzuyu’s feet, silk shimmering like the inky dark of a starless sky. And just shy of a pedestal and perhaps a fucking moonbeam, she’s the spitting image of perfection: porcelain skin stretching out over a masterwork of curves and bone and muscle. A sculpture, a study in the form that so frequently leaves people just absolutely dumbstruck and thirsty in their wake.

Sana trails her hand around the width of her hip - drawing your eye along the skin of her leg, up and around the perfectly curved thigh - stopping to splay her fingers just so at the base of her spine, as if in demonstration of ownership. Like this: mine.

“Don’t get it confused,” Sana tells you. “The whole naive innocence thing is a total fucking misdirection.”

“Tzuyu,” you say again, this time noticing the way it feels in your mouth, syllables sweet and sticking to its roof like honey - maybe something more of an excuse to move forward and touch her yourself, palm her face, brush your thumb over her bottom lip. A taste, something subtle but intense, spreads to the back of your throat, the moment her teeth graze gently over its pad. “Is that true?”

“Are you asking me what kind of girl I am?”

“I didn’t put it exactly like that.”

“Just answer, sweetheart,” Sana says, brow quirked in a faux-display of nonchalance, fingers still pressed, spreading gently at her neck. She’s enjoying this a little too much. Though, you’re enjoying this too. It doesn’t have to be an either-or kind of scenario.

“It’s better if you say it,” she adds after a second of consideration, and even though it’s obvious by now she’s only prodding and that this is a foregone conclusion, Tzuyu puts an emphatic twitch in her lips - red, wet, a vision in crimson - like the thought is deeply troubling and will likely require lots and lots of thorough explanation later.

“Fine, okay, in that case,” Tzuyu starts with a weary sigh, and then with a blink-and-you’ve-missed-it flash of a smirk, there’s no way anyone’s buying any of this, “I’ll say: I’m whatever kind of girl you want me to be.”

Sana was right, and she didn’t even need to go so far as to say it. It’s clear - you want her.

But it’s half as easy to pinpoint where it all starts: there’s the way Tzuyu melts, sinking just that much further when you guide your hands around the curve of her ribs, fingers following the flow of her soft edges, the slopes and valleys of her breasts, and she parts her lips even before yours touch the seam of her mouth, her breath warm, heavy, the kind of anticipation that sends jolts down her neck, her spine, the body electric - a real live wire.

Or, it’s because of the way she likes it - like, really likes it. There’s something exceptional in a girl who will wrap her legs around your waist and suck your tongue and whimper just by a feather’s touch around her hips or between her thighs, where it’s damp and hot and holy shit, this is unreal in a very tactile, visceral way. There’s no mistaking the noise for anything but genuine pleasure when Tzuyu’s trying, unsuccessfully, to bite down the whine sneaking up her throat and into your mouth - where you’re kissing her, still - the kind that presses heavy at the bottom of your stomach.

Or, there’s Sana yet, pulling her clothes off, and instead of leaving a trail in her wake, folds each piece neatly until she’s bared down to this fine little number of lace and cream-colored silk that’d make your head spin if you weren’t, y'know, pretty busy, mouth occupied by Tzuyu’s pliant moans, both of your tongues colliding.

“God,” Tzuyu groans out quietly as you pin her to the wall, and again after another string of kisses, sucking your lip. 

There are fleeting moments that slip through like sunlight that have you thinking: Right, this was a good idea, nothing other than a sweet girl like this all messed up and squirming with the shallow dig of your nails. But only close to perfect.

Sana will explain it.

“Mm. Not god.” Sana is grinning when she leans up for the same kiss, but she takes her time with it: mouth slotted tight against Tzuyu’s as her long fingers tangle in the hair at the nape of Tzuyu’s neck, working her grip up slowly so that the strain gets more noticeable until the girl is a gasp on a choke of breath. The curve of her back is drawn out by that same hand and her ribs pressed, pert and rosy, into the cool air.

“Sir, and please,” Sana then instructs, voice just harsh enough for Tzuyu to understand. 

You might imagine she’s also drawing in with her nails, teeth, a full-body drag up her exposed front, like some kind of prize, marking and tasting and fucking every inch. There’s a whimper, desperate sound of, yes, right, fuck, please, and sir slipping like a sigh off the edge of Tzuyu’s tongue. 

“Or better yet,” Sana adds, with another searing press into the junction of her collarbone, “say daddy, please,” then follows through on the plea with another slow-pull.

You try not to roll your eyes. It’s Sana’s kink, not yours. It’s a whole thing. And with Sana, like most things, you find it best when you simply play along.

More than that, you indulge her. You both do.

“Okay, daddy.” Tzuyu’s teeth catch the corner of her mouth in a self-amused bite. Twisting and twisting the swell of her lip further until it snaps forward. “I want you to tell me something,” she says, which, for the way this typically goes, is a little more self-assured and pressing than the usual fare. Even Mina, who was perhaps less than enthusiastic about the - uh - title in question, came around eventually when she had Sana’s fingers, your cock, all sunk so deep inside her she forgot what any fucking words were anyway.

So maybe Sana does know what she’s doing with this one. Maybe you oughta thank her.

Tzuyu just lifts her chin, says, “this isn’t what I expected when I showed up here.”

“Obviously, it’s not,” Sana says.

“What I mean is, this is all good fun, of course,” Tzuyu explains. A charming indignance that slips past, like the fingers down her belly. She swallows hard, muscles clenching as your palm runs slow over a hip, squeezing. “Though I guessed when we left Sana’s, I would’ve been bouncing on his cock five minutes ago.”

Sana’s lithe little frame ends up closer - nearly naked in lace and wholly difficult to miss. She’s a half head shorter than the girl in front of you, but with a tilt of her chin and a beckon of her hand, it’s a powerful look about the lines of her face: eyes slightly hooded, mouth curved and devastating. It’s as if, at every hour of the night, the simplest glance will have the fabric of someone’s clothing coming undone, regardless.

Tzuyu is just slowly trading looks between the two of you. So curious. “So what then, do I have to do,” her words curl like smoke up her throat, “to get fucked by both of you, hm? In, like, the next five or ten more minutes, preferably.”

“He’s not going to fuck your brains out simply because you ask.” Which by the way, is the first real lie Sana tells tonight.

Tzuyu is unimpressed, or maybe she’s a stoic. “Clearly,” she deadpans.

Whatever the expression is that is fluttering those gorgeous lashes, eyebrows pulled down, adds a faint mark of distrust across her brow. The prettiest scoffs you’ve ever heard. “Isn’t the point to get me spread out on your sheets so you can use me like a little fucktoy?”

A sigh from Sana: heavy, calculated. She does not reply in any obvious way to that, no flimsy assurances that it would be whatever the hell Tzuyu likes (though you think maybe Sana might want to take this whole fucking opportunity, all this thinly veiled begging for it, for the first taste of what will probably be the main thing that’ll hold her over the edge of an orgasm or two). 

So, instinctually, Tzuyu pushes it, just enough - she tilts her head, and the motion is followed by a wide sashay of her hips as she gently presses a fingertip to your chest, encouraging a step back to better your balance, like the pull between you has a little more gravity.

“Don’t go quiet on me.” Another sultry note pulls from her mouth when she guides you another foot - or however many, until the foyer opens up into your living room. The chair, the sofa, a table, you watch her eyes wander like she’s mapping the territory. And then finally she drops her hands from your shoulders, reaching instead for Sana, taking her waist in her palms.

Holding her. Kissing her.

There’s a delicateness about both of them, clearly, and not only how Tzuyu angles their lips, as if she doesn’t fully intend for the two to merge but instead taste the line, test the edges, or something; but Sana doesn’t fight this. In fact, when Sana’s being drawn gently, but confidently into a deeper, harder press, a very eager give, her eyes slip closed. There’s a war, and Sana - though she’d be the last to admit it - is losing.

Tzuyu, at the end of a particularly sharp draw of air, simply turns to you, eyes peeking over the tousle of copper hair atop Sana’s head, and asks: “How does daddy want to play with his toys?”

It clicks in your head immediately: she’s a natural, could be an actress, maybe a pro - you have no idea where Sana found her - even if that doesn’t exactly match with the diction; daddy, and sir, and the baby-girl pout. There are the things she does to Sana, this slipstream of control passed back and forth and back and forth again - a fevered tugging, the give of one or the other. An entirely different dance. Beautiful, fluid, intense.

Eventually, it lands in your lap. Literally and metaphorically. Tzuyu looks up from where she’s kneeling between your legs and with a little pinch of your hips, tells you with that intoxicately sweet, melodic voice of hers, that you seem like the sort who wants someone who just takes initiative.

And she’s right.

“May I?” she asks, breathlessly, fingers at the zip.

“Of course,” Sana answers for you, settling into her side like you both belong to her. Like she’s about to enjoy this just as much as you are.

What does the room sound like, the darkness giving away? Everything. The hum of the appliances, the purr of the heat, something in the walls is settling into its final position for the night as the floorboards sigh. Breathing. Listening.

What you don’t hear:

Chou Tzuyu moving - whether she shifts onto her knees, or adjusts how her slender fingers fall from the waist of your pants, doesn’t matter - no crunch, no shuffle. She doesn’t swipe away the hair from her eyes or drag the pad of a thumb over her swollen, bottom lip. All she does is pull, just a bit, and the zipper breaks the silence, comes apart down the way.

Sana clears her throat gently, hoping, possibly, that Tzuyu might be the kind of girl who just loses herself to the moment, caught in the headlights. The way every delicate, doe-eyed girl is supposed to do. Sana likes them a little helpless like that - makes her feel big.

It’s too bad really, because Tzuyu doesn’t appear like she’s awash with anything in particular. Or at the very least, she’s done a fairly convincing imitation of not being the slightest bit off-put, completely disarmed or whatever Sana had been looking to see.

She does look up though. Long, pretty face still managing a bit of devastation from this angle. Those full lips slightly pouted and slick in red: such an inviting color against her pale skin.

"Sana,” she coos, eyes wide and brilliant - innocent, yet taunting all at once - and she’s deliberate in what she says next, flitting her tongue across her canines to punctuate every sound: “Isn’t daddy going to use me now?”

“Oh.” Sana leans in, eyes flicking up at you, Tzuyu’s hands, her body, and starts slowly, like she’s exacting a punishment, “Tzuyu, baby,” her own anticipation beaming off the surface of her thousand-kilowatt grin, “you’re going to take that perfect cock,” the words dripping off Sana’s tongue, heavy, sweet, “you’re going to take it, get your pretty little lips all over it sweetie, you’re going to show him just how good you can use that filthy fucking hole of a mouth for him. You’re going to take him until he cums in your throat, and then you’re going to beg him for more. And if you can do that, well. Then we’ll fuck you exactly how you wanted.”

Tzuyu blinks - doting and innocent like the angel everyone probably thinks she is.

But then what you’ve learned about the angels that Sana brings you: they’re devils in disguise, well familiar with the sin and lust that resides in these places; sunk into the cushions of the couch, pressed against the cold pane glass of a window, wound tight in the springs of a mattress. You had long thought - and think, you do, particularly when doing the unthinkable - it’s easier that way, to leave aside thoughts of right and wrong and ask: Just how far can an angel fall?

“Ah. Perfect,” Tzuyu says, sounding like an answer, and her eyes widen as she peels past that band of elastic.

Your cock springs forward and bumps into the pad of her finger, which traces the length of it like it’s hers to own, to pleasure.

“God,” she hums with satisfaction, and even without looking up, or even before you say a damn word, she draws her tongue up along the underside in one swift, wet lick. “Sana you weren’t exaggerating: daddy’s cock is fucking gorgeous.”

There is that tiny whine, or more precisely a tiny, oh fuck when Tzuyu curls her hand around your shaft. Sana gives her a push. “Say it, Tzuyu,” she all but growls at her.

“Daddy,” she says, always pausing on the word. Testing it further. “Please.”

“Please,” Sana mimics in faux-sweetness, repeating it again once you start to nod.

Not that it changes much - the stare that Tzuyu fixes you is charmingly determined, like a challenge. Then, she inhales.

Deep.

That slide into her mouth is smoother than anything, hot and slippery and oh, right - you remember faintly with a shudder: those pretty teeth hidden away behind a perfectly lascivious mouth, so much that a couple sharp, expert brushes are enough to send lightning dancing along your spine. Sana moves her hands across your hips, to the buttons on your night shirt, working her way up until the fabric has fallen to the side and she can open your chest up to the air, let Tzuyu swallow the rest.

This, Tzuyu likes. “Ah,” she gasps around you, or she tries to, your cock propped up on her soft little tongue.

She likes the way that feels. The way you fit in her hands, her mouth. And it shows. Her posture curls deliciously, under the satisfaction of her lips wrapping finally having something to wrap around tight, tight, tighter - under Sana’s roaming touches, the skirting of her nails down Tzuyu’s chest, reaching with slow deliberation across her stomach until there’s a whisper of skin across sensitive flesh.

“She’s so fucking wet,” Sana tells you, smiling at Tzuyu from above and fitting a fingernail between her teeth. “Good fucking girl, aren’t you Tzuyu?”

The moan that leaks out around the weight of your cock is pure. Pure lust, pure pleasure. Pure perfection. Her tongue flattens beneath you and finds you surging even deeper, a firmer slide of Tzuyu’s wet lips that brings you right into the roof of her mouth - as she twists her face around you, a soft scrape against the inside of her cheek.

You sigh.

And Sana sighs back.

“Of course. Always such a hidden talent,” she notes, as Tzuyu’s perfect mouth moves and plucks and teases your nerves, twirling her tongue around your tip. Again as she swallows you down, slow, savoring.

“Tell me,” you say, because the heat of Tzuyu’s mouth is starting to remind you of a daydream, “how exactly do you know each other?”

“Work,” Sana answers, flatly.

“Like-”

“Yup.”

“She sings?”

“She does - rather, she will.” Sana glances sidelong with a bit of a grin. “You have no idea what that tongue can do to people when it’s got some good backing tracks, when it knows a goddamn fucking thing about rhythm. Speaking of,” Sana looks down at where Tzuyu has her silky brown head of hair bobbing between your legs.

And then it’s clear what she means, Tzuyu humming and rolling your shaft through the flat of her tongue. It’s all slick, soaking heat and the tension building and building in your balls, aching, just absolutely desperate for more friction, to be taken and used and stuffed in her throat - or just more of this.

“Here,” Sana’s fingers are hooked in your pants, helping them off your legs, your ankles, pulling you further to the edge of the sofa. Let me, she’s telling Tzuyu, this slight murmur of want she just can’t wait on.

“Wait, I’m -” Tzuyu attempts, pulling her lips off the curve of your cock, to where pre-cum is weeping out of its tip, and she kisses it so very tenderly, going back for round two. Round three. She floats her fingers up over her eyebrows, into her fringe, all to tuck some dark, wispy hair gently behind her ear when she starts to hollow her cheeks and again suck your cock in earnest.

Until -

“Tzuyu,” Sana reprimands her, “don’t play, daddy’s got his work cut out for him tonight. So be a good girl, and let me show you what he likes.”

It takes a second, maybe three. It might take longer if Sana didn’t have her fingernails digging into her thighs, sliding further to grab hold of Tzuyu by the hair and pull her lips off your shaft. There’s a thin trail of spit coming off her mouth and stringing across you. Sana closes her fist in the back of Tzuyu’s hair and doesn’t so much as blink while studying the look on her face: lips glistening, just absolutely needy, like she can’t help the whimper in her throat.

“Hm?” Sana cocks her head to the side.

“But… sir.”

“You are his toy,” Sana explains, flashing her eyebrows because apparently it needs to be said, “not the other way around.”

And it may be the first time you’ve seen it happen since Sana walked in with Tzuyu and declared her intentions: the fluster, the pink spread across Tzuyu’s features like some scarlet-lettered stain. Defenses dropped like a draw-bridge. She’s not quite every bit as cool and composed as she wants the two of you to think she is. (They never are.)

But the fact that Tzuyu’s coy little smile returns into her lips - how she’s wiping the spit off her mouth with the sharp edge of her hand and pointing your cock in Sana’s direction with a delicate, arched brow, how she then moves on, untangling herself from Sana’s grasp, eyes heavy, but on her - is a marvel in and of itself.

It’s an amusing surprise, a welcome one, for the simple reason that Tzuyu keeps showing both of you that she can have anything she wants exactly like this: wrapped around a slender fingertip, flushed and helpless, and without breaking a sweat. 

“Have you considered daddy wants both our mouths on his cock and maybe a few less words?” Tzuyu scoffs. And even though Sana does scoff right back in retort, that’s exactly how it plays out.

(And you may, upon occasion, reflect: you’re a real lucky bastard.)

Sana always puts on this act. One that you’ve learned to see right through. 

Like she isn’t too eager to follow the momentum, that she hadn’t just been just as impatient to touch you - to be on her knees with Tzuyu, all aside this beautiful girl who gives you a pretty smile when her tongue finds the base of your cock. Who likes being bossed around but can just as easily turn her face towards yours - in what seems almost like a taunt - as if saying: You know what else I like? to be challenged, and sometimes when the mood’s right, pushed and punished. 

But Sana doesn’t let you see what kind of resolve she has until she’s gone another minute, licking, lapping her tongue around your cock - this is her idea, after all. The little white dress in a heap, the adoration and worship that comes with fucking girls she knows are the prettiest things to see ruined.

Listen - even if Sana’s veneer is as blatantly obvious as it is shatterably thin, she’s no less dangerous. 

When she first pushes the very head of your cock inside her mouth, and just that - because why rush it, she’s so fucking perfect with those pretty lips - the rest of your brain is shouting something to the tune of fuck me sideways because she knows you better than anyone, knows what really gets your blood burning. 

A few slow brushes, one kiss, this lick that goes bottom to top and over and around. It’s like she’s testing the surface, dragging her lips across your aching cock as she settles on a rhythm, a tempo that starts to mirror the movements of Tzuyu’s hand.

Tzuyu lets you see: this slow twist, this slide of skin up and down the length of your shaft, her soft fingers rubbing tight circles up and down the path of her palm until it meets Sana’s mouth. And like it’s the most simple thing in the world, she dips down, finds a place at the base of your cock, where Sana’s lips can’t quite reach, and drops a hot, messy kiss right across the spot.

Fuck.

She kisses you everywhere.

“Sana,” you start to say, and she looks up through the strands of blonde fallen slightly in front of her face. Her lips sink further down the length of your cock - until she hears your breath catch in the bottom of your throat. Until she’s pulling you up and out, again, just barely past her teeth.

Fuck.

“Mm.” She hums it right into your skin, and her eyes are hooded, dipping right down with another pull of spit, and then another, before her lips are at the tip once more, flicking across the slit with her tongue - wet and rough.

“Sana,” you try again, biting into your lip as you reach a hand into the gold locks of hair framing her deceptive, pretty little face, and tug, a warning, a reminder. You need. It’s too early for you to be repeating yourself, and Sana knows that.

A pop, the release of her mouth slipping off the top of your cock, and Tzuyu moves - wrapping her lips tight and silken around the sides, the rest. It all happens in an instant. You’re being taken with the sudden, harsh suction of one mouth, the other, fluid and slipping back and forth again and again.

Sana’s nodding along, impressed, as she watches Tzuyu take you - completely, nose to your hip - and has a glint of pure hunger shining through her eyes when you hiss, when she kisses along the lines of Tzuyu’s stretched lips. There’s another flick of a tongue, and you can feel Tzuyu moan something muffled and choked, a frantic pulse at the base of your spine - pressure gathering like a fucking flood.

“Just how you like it, hmm?” Sana says, her breath warm on your balls as she seals her own mouth right over the base of your shaft. And you swear there’s something about this: the drag and suck of both their lips as your hips stutter forward, the feeling of them pressed together in a perfect line, heads tilted and mouths fucking dripping with saliva and sin - your hands, resting on the backs of their heads as they’re returning you these greedy little moans that vibrate off the top of your cock and nearly kill you in the process.

“Tell me,” Sana adds, dragging a hot, hazy kiss over the sensitive skin up your shaft. “How’s daddy feeling? Hmm? Feels nice and perfect, doesn’t it. Feels like you could just let go and release, a hot, sticky load of cum, right down her fucking throat. I know she’ll swallow every drop.”

“Fucking hell, Sana-”

Sana doesn’t exactly answer to your begging, only hikes Tzuyu a fraction higher over your body to gain better control of the rhythm, and a better view: the hollowed out cheeks, her watery, half-shut eyes, tears welling in her lashes - because the prettiest girls always come apart in the most perfect ways.

You grip into all that silky brown hair, thumb running gently up and over the soft skin behind her ear as she finds an exacting little movement with her lips that will have your spine twitching uncontrollably as you fuck deeper down the perfect arch of her throat, Sana keeping rhythm, guiding you all the way in - a searing heat, and then a new rush of saliva dripping off Tzuyu’s chin and back down into the tangle of tongues, fingers, throats, mouths.

Fuck, fuck, fuck.

The pair of them. The things they’re doing.

“Or maybe,” Sana muses, tilting her head on an angle that suggests she’s weighing her options, and then, massaging a quick, firm twist into the very base of your cock she finally lets spill: “You could make a mess of that perfect face,” Tzuyu’s faint whimper hardly slips out unnoticed, “I’d hold her hair for you while you cum all over her - how about that baby, should we make a big mess of your pretty face?”

The whimper grows louder - Tzuyu moans long and low, right up against the tightening tension gathering between your hips, right as your balls pull, that familiar coil about to break - and, god, if there’s some part of you committed to holding the moment, waiting and wanting to stay in the vision of these two perfect mouths pressed together, it’s a fleeting and useless notion - but, as usual, Sana already knows.

The way they’re blowing you in perfect tandem, their mouths locked together, kissing around your shaft as they continue to pleasure you, filthy and open - a little more, the thought percolates, a little longer, to let the pressure swell.

“Sir,” Tzuyu says, swallowing her next breath, and that’s the first you’ve heard her sound like that: whining, pleading.

She slaps your cock against her lips, her tongue - it’s all so wet with spit and precum and slick that her chin is coated, her fingers. A demonstration of what you should have already known: Sana’s girls aren’t just straight down the line. They want the messy, roughness that comes with the sin; the split in the seam, the wail, the raw, uncut want.

You watch Tzuyu’s lips curl, this quiet smile pressed against your cock, and after a slow draw of air, they fall open again. Asking, “aren’t you going to fuck your toy’s slutty little mouth?”

The silence of the night swallows up the sounds of Sana’s low chuckle and the responding squelch of her fingers tearing free, her hand trailing after. Here’s three bodies in the otherwise ordinary emptiness of your living room, on the edges of the leather sofa, so completely drenched in anticipation and hunger.

There’s a flash across Sana’s rounded cheeks, hot, like she’s just this small space shy of smirking, or giving into something, you don’t know. Tzuyu, however, you’ve got a fairly clear view of - how her eyes glaze, pupils going wide and dark, staring up at you as she places the shape of your cock so acutely up the length of her perfect features: chin supporting its base, the cute, button-like tip of her nose teasing the soft underbelly of skin pulled taut - a fucked up preamble to whatever the hell it is going to feel like, once she’s ready for more.

“Say please, sweetie,” Sana says, fluttering her fingers over Tzuyu’s neck. And then to you, as an aside: “If there isn’t a better way to break in a toy.”

When Tzuyu doesn’t immediately reply, Sana leans over her, with a fingertip under her chin, guiding her hot, wet lips to the edge of your cock.

“Ask daddy to fuck his filthy little whore.”

“Ah,” Tzuyu lets out an awkward exhale. “Daddy?” she pauses to swallow, licking her lips, then, with just the slightest inflection, this tight line, right at the border, somehow managing to hit both notes of I’m going to make you beg for it and is it okay for me to be begging you for more: “Please, daddy. Fuck my face.”

But then the way she fucking looks - petulant, needy, like if you don’t shove your cock down her throat in seconds it could kill her - that’s the realest thing you’ve seen from her since she shuffled through your front door wearing a dress that belongs in someone’s heaving, pent up fantasy and left it in a careless pile in the middle of your foyer, tits bouncing on her way into the living room. And somehow, that’s a lot to take in: to think this whole debacle has led up to her, this girl you’re probably never gonna see again, pressing the pucker of her perfect, pretty lips to the underside of your cock, and -

“Open,” Sana cuts in, “your fucking mouth.”

Tzuyu gulps thickly and stretches her jaw, blinking expectantly as her pink, slender tongue sticks out the faintest, most insinuating inch.

You lift your hips with one good thrust, the plushness of her mouth becoming soft and velvet as she opens wider, and wider still, and you’re balls deep, hilt hitting her lips as she opens her eyes, taking you down her throat, slick and slow.

“Good girl,” Sana grins, watching Tzuyu swallow around you. 

You may be buried into her throat but the sound of Sana’s encouragement has Tzuyu keening, this wrench in her brow like she wants to focus so fucking badly. Only made worse when Sana bundles a handful of Tzuyu’s long, glossy hair into a fist and gets her voice into the shell of her ear. 

“I know you love it, Tzuyu, how he’s fucking taking you, huh? That’s it. Show daddy how good of a toy you can be.”

And oh, the reaction - the very clear one, no less. Tzuyu grips onto the cushion of the couch, a full set of fingers curling around Sana’s forearm, any part of you - the one closest and she’s digging her sharp nails into your skin and whimpering for Sana to keep talking like her life depends on it.

“Let me see if you can be as good as you think you are,” Sana murmurs, and you shift forward again, bucking your hips just barely but getting there, and then there’s more, fuck - getting closer to a good steady pace. Slow, forceful. Hitting the very back of her throat, the bottom of her lips.

Tzuyu can only respond by taking you impossibly deep.

“Remember what you told me?” Sana’s biting her lip, finding as much satisfaction out of the mere display.

“Mnnph,” Tzuyu chokes out before slipping off your cock, only long enough to gasp for another breath, “I said, I said - all the things I would let him do to me.” Her voice sounds so wrecked. Broken. Desperate. Filthy, the kind that needs to be fucked. “Please, please,” she says again.

“Tzuyu.” Sana’s fist tightens in Tzuyu’s hair, and down Tzuyu goes. “You sounded so sure, baby - when you said you’d making him fucking cum so easy, how you’d make him bust over and over with this mouth, so -”

You’re getting too close. It’s really not your fault, it’s the two of them. Every wince on your face a result of Tzuyu’s swollen, shiny lips wrapped tightly around your cock, cheeks flush and hollow with every move of her mouth. She keeps doing this little flick of her tongue as her lips slide around you - even while Sana lifts her jaw up, down, up down, fucking her mouth onto your aching cock with a sort of callous disregard for how it’s fucking her up - how it’s fucking you up.

“-the prettiest girls make the best fucking cumrags, you know. Really - makes your toes curl,” Sana finishes, giving one particularly pointed tilt of her head at the sight of how bad your knees are shaking.

And then, out the corner of her mouth, teeth locked over her lip, because you’re so caught up in how good it feels fucking your length through the vice of Tzuyu’s mouth, sliding across her wet tongue - “she’s not lying baby, is she? Fuck, I bet she feels so fucking good on you doesn’t she” - her voice hoarse and desperate, a hint of something caught at the back of her throat like she can almost taste what it’s like. What it must feel like.

Sana pushes, and even she can probably feel you pulsing at the way Tzuyu chokes when the tip meets the drain of her throat.

It gets… it ends up too much, too fast. Borderline abusive - and not just the speed, or the sheer roughness - Nayeon was here on her knees, like this, in the middle of the night not too long ago, and deepthroating you is far from the unusual or accomplished, at this point. But, fuck if that isn’t something you build up to.

The slight curve of Tzuyu’s arms, rising as they tremble with the effort, the little tears that slip down her cheeks, and those lovely sounds she makes. It’s not at all intentional - and you’re so stupidly certain Sana didn’t think you’d be this riled so quickly, like there’s not an ounce of willpower in the world that could save you at this point.

And while that’s not too surprising on its own - Sana knows you well, this is what she agreed to - Tzuyu must have understood (it was part of the plan, in fact) what she was walking into, what she was signing up for. But fuck it: she was still pretty new, an amateur. And an amateur just wouldn’t be capable of doing the things she does, and looking the way she looks, not to the same extent as this.

“Can you cum from nothing but the feeling of daddy’s dick hitting your throat? I’ll have him sit back and relax while we work,” Sana tells her.

It’d make two of you.

“Would you like that?” she’s asking you, tilting her head when you’ve gathered yourself long enough. “No touching, just take my orders while we pleasure you. How does that sound, daddy?”

“Sana, easy,” you practically growl, biting down on the inside of your cheek because the twitch in Tzuyu’s pulse has you coming far too undone, her chest hitching and lungs heaving and face wet with spit and tears and cum as it’s spilling down her chin. You’re seconds from telling Sana to dial it back when a low, guttural sound, sputtering, leaves Tzuyu’s throat.

The grip in Tzuyu’s hair goes loose enough that she pulls herself up, swallowing up as much air as she can. 

And fuck, look at the damage: that swollen mess of her red, glistening mouth; the dark runs of mascara and drying tracks that make a ruin of her face, her neck; a heart-stopping shine of white drool. She blinks the tears off her lashes in a moment.

Sana’s eyeing her over the same way a surgeon might approach a task with a scalpel and a careful hand, or perhaps a fisherman surveying the quality of a catch - before tossing it to the back of a truck to be hauled back home. Like the kind of sight she gets just a little too much satisfaction at. And it’s the eyebrow she shoots up into her mess of toffee-blonde hair that asks, quietly, too much?

Fuck. Maybe.

But Tzuyu’s eyes shift toward Sana’s, and without even an ounce of hesitation - without anything more than a heavy exhale - she opens her mouth again so you can see her tongue run across her top teeth, incensed in her lust. More, fuck me, have me, use me she’s saying, telling with you the slight indignance in her eyes that Sana finds perfectly irresistible.

Then, as if unbothered by how far your cock had been slotted in her throat, she swallows. Says, “is that all, sir?”

And the sound that follows it, that shuddering sigh - breaking, cracking, shattering into the calm quiet of your apartment - Tzuyu takes you like it’s more than enough. She’s swallowing it all back down again.

“Fuck, Tzuyu, you’re-” you try, only to have her moan loud, so loud, when she drags her tongue down your cock and swallows around the whole thing in a way that has you gasping. Your hands end up wound tightly in her hair, weaving through the smooth waves, knuckles straining when it really sinks in. Just how deep down her throat you go, so perfectly deep, the stretch of her lips holding on the side of a grimace because she needs it that way. She can’t have it any other.

“Go on,” Sana murmurs into the side of your face, drawing closer so she’s got her nails curled down into your thighs, leaning in to place a wet, hot kiss into your cheek. “C'mon baby, she’d told me she’d let you do anything - said she’d swallow everything, like the fucking cockslut she is.”

Sana’s chin digs against the bone in your shoulder, eyes unwavering on where you disappear over and over inside Tzuyu’s throat. And it’s not just that - Tzuyu’s hair clenched tight in Sana’s one hand, the other curled hard into a fist around the base of your cock, her harsh breaths washing over the bare skin of your neck. It’s fucking indecent, how needy she’s gotten. How needy she always gets. You can feel her greedy little lips finding your ear and biting just shy of savage enough to break skin, and licking - flicking across the vein beating down in your throat, and then -

“That’s right,” Sana says with a low growl when you look at her. “Cum.”

An impoverished sound rips right through your chest. Spreads through you like wildfire.

And just like that, you’re spilling inside her, thrusts growing unsteady and lost in the wet, searing heat of Tzuyu’s perfect, wet lips, slapping and sliding into her throat, spilling on her tongue with every surge of pleasure drumming in your blood.

Tzuyu sinks down further. So deep that the brush of the back of her throat feels like a hand on the hilt of a knife, tearing into the ends of your nerves, where they’ve come alight and been set ablaze.

Sana picks up again whispering into the cuff of your ear. It makes your head feel like it might explode. And you’re almost entirely certain that’s what will actually happen, when the combined pressure between your ears and that of your cock becoming so desperately spent builds and builds and doesn’t stop, as though waiting. 

Biding time for some perfect snap.

Only, a tickle at the back of Tzuyu’s throat has her choking out. The same uncontrolled way your hips start to falter - shaky, jerky motions instead of any precision or rhythm - and you’re tilting and winding your head in circles, jaw tensed, squeezing her scalp and oh, oh fuck. Tzuyu’s mouth slides itself all the way off you in one hurried gasp, then two and three, just barely giving her a chance to steady herself, all while you’re still leaking thick, white cum all over the slick swell of her bottom lip, up over the ridges of her elegant features, the curves of her cheeks, the high arches of her brows.

Look - you’re cumming all over Tzuyu’s face. You’re cumming all over her pretty face and she just takes it.

She’s, fuck - she’s so, so good. And not just because her mouth is fucking perfection, or her eyes are all at once bleary but wide open, watching you twitch, her own cheeks flushing as she stares up at you - trying desperately to breathe, taking a quick lick off the end of your cock, flitting her tongue between her knuckles, because apparently another taste can’t hurt.

“Ugh,” Sana hushes, right into your neck, “would you just fucking look, see that - god, Tzuyu, how does it feel, does he taste as good as you hoped he would?”

There’s a subtle, unmistakable bob in Tzuyu’s throat as she’s swallowing everything down, the evidence, and a small flash of her tongue. “Good, mmn-” and you can see how she struggles in her restraint to simply say so, to let her hand drift to the ‘V’ between her thighs and sate that ache.

But even if her body seems ready for more, Sana’s finger finds its way underneath Tzuyu’s chin to prompt, with one, simple command, “let’s get you cleaned up before we give you what you came for. Go on, get our little girl up to the shower, won’t you daddy?”

-

It’s a minor miracle the three of you make it upstairs and down the hall without so much as a trip or stumble, the girls with their fingers woven together and hips swaying as you all stagger up. It’s a minor miracle you don’t pin either of them against drywall or up against a doorway or do any of the number of filthy things on the mind of a man just fucked, still coming down, with two gorgeous, perfect faces - two perfectly sculpted asses - all in arms’ reach.

The bath mat is still bunched at the back of your bathroom door. Still damp from the last shower - Sana’s last morning here - which you have to pry apart just a little so the two of them can file in.

And well - it does happen. Eventually.

At the sink.

Just inside the en suite of your bedroom.

With Sana, being the way she is.

While the faucet in the shower starts up a shallow stream of water - tap running warm, steaming the length of the mirror and condensing the glass that Sana will soon have Tzuyu’s face up against if she has any say in the matter.

“Tzu,” Sana says, carding a hand through her hair and bringing a damp washcloth up to the bend of her jaw. There’s a slow trace of fingertips across the lines of her neck. “Keep your eyes right on his while I clean you up, ok?”

And then there’s the mirror in the center. The three of you arranged - a sort of hierarchy - with Sana stepping forward and adjusting her stance in order to survey, and clean the mess she’s made. (What you’ve made.)

In profile, you can’t exactly make out a distinct detail about Tzuyu’s face in the reflective surface, only the silvery blur that is the curve of her neck, and the silhouette of the small frame that her long, slim legs form against the cabinet. But the idea’s always the same - she’s being used like a perfect canvas. Like an empty, ready-to-use doll that you can twist and turn in the ways you want until all your control breaks and you’re just fucking into her, or having her lick and suck all over Sana’s gorgeous fucking tits while she’s bouncing in your lap.

Whichever happens to come first.

“You missed a spot,” Tzuyu tells Sana, as though she hadn’t missed several - her head tilts in your direction, eyes wide still, endless in depth. Her mouth gives away what’s already burning its way through her blood. “Maybe another pair of hands will help?”

“Mine are a little rough around the edges,” you explain, coming in close. The bathroom is this tight, congested space, but at the right angle there’s plenty of room, even if your hips knock slightly into Sana’s body. Tzuyu’s delicate body already has her back flush against the sink basin. “You want to feel them?”

She shakes her head, and even though the hunger on her tongue hasn’t been satisfied, even after having a good fill, there’s something else she’d rather have now.

“I think,” she starts, her words cut off by a hitch of breath when Sana’s lips travel to the very tips of her hair and work their way up to the soft skin behind her ear. “Rough is good, when… when I’m being,” Tzuyu’s closing her eyes - partly so that she doesn’t fall off the edge so easily, partly to lean into the sensations of two warm bodies, all attention placed solely on her.

“When you’re being worked over?” Sana offers.

“Ngh,” she responds - with an attempt, as best as she can, at a smile. And then there’s one, light, teasing stroke across her jaw, her mouth. Sana’s thumb pressed gently into the crease. “When the fucking gets…” and you’ll have to fill the gap - finishing her thought with your hands slotting themselves onto the gentle arch of her hips, pressing a kiss that doesn’t even come close to satisfaction on the supple dip of collarbone.

She lets out this pretty sound at the feel of your lips, Sana’s, all ghosting down her throat.

“Hard and deep?” you say. Sana smirks at this - continues the effort, “A little fucking nasty, huh, sweetheart?”

“Mhm.” Tzuyu is, above all else, a little helpless. “Because - you know me so well.”

But make no mistake: Tzuyu is exactly where she wants to be. With the heat radiating off her bare body, she leans into it all, only flinching when your teeth catch her nipple - when Sana’s tongue laps a rough circle over the other. The scene, the feelings, all of it orchestrated precisely - these are the things she likes, maybe loves even.

And after the soft sounds slip through her lips, a moan and another hum, she finds her words and voice, “hard and deep and, rough and, ff-”

“And?”

The quick brush of your tongue flickers across the hard tip. The sensation draws from Tzuyu this very faint cry and the exhale of a word: “Fast.”

“Naughty little thing,” Sana presses into her jaw, pulling back to regard you both. To lift a finger, wet the pad with her tongue - and reach down, down, down until her fingertips brush the very line of her thigh, into the slick between her legs. “I love it when girls get all messy.”

“Please,” is all Tzuyu has to say, barely anything but, as Sana’s finger drags slowly inside her folds.

“Patience baby,” she murmurs into Tzuyu’s open mouth. The exchange is swift but thorough; you watch, all tongue and spit, and your fingers twitch with a sense of loss. “Why don’t you remind me how this went last time?”

“Mm, listen here,” Tzuyu says in an astute breath, the sound of it like tables turning. There’s a firm pull on your wrist - the grip on it guiding you, encouraging you, just where she wants them, into the band of lace around Sana’s impossibly narrow waist. You feel Sana sigh in relief, shiver at the touch of a warm palm up against her thighs, and into a pulse-wet cunt, as though the slightest touch will kill her. “I think you might be remembering wrong, Sana.”

“And why might that be?”

“Weren’t you the one begging me? When I had two fingers up your cunt in your apartment,” Tzuyu presses forward, voice lilt and darkening like ink, and Sana whines and crumbles in her palms, knees buckling when there’s one sudden and rough slide of fingers right on the base of her spine.

“Yeah?” Sana asks with a rising blush, already knowing the answer - it’s her fatal flaw: she’s all sharp edges and pointed teeth, right up to the point there’s a finger at her own throat, a cock in her hands and a girl working at her clit until she’s drooling. “Are you suggesting I’m easy? Is that where you’re heading with this?”

Tzuyu’s leaned up against the counter, turning Sana’s slender frame around in her hands, until she has her fingers up on the over the wire of Sana’s bra, palms hot beneath the thin cups, feeling for her nipples, and the change in dynamic is as palpable as the steam rising in the room.

“Let’s not put words in my mouth,” she responds simply, dropping another kiss into the back of Sana’s hair. There’s another one laid along the sweep of her neck, like a careful bite, and with a lift of a brow, a look that tells you what you’ve always known, “but if you’re asking, then sure, the sluttiest of all sluts. Easy,” she pulls the cups down Sana’s chest, “as fuck.”

It gets to her, clearly, as if that moan falling out of Sana’s parted lips could mean anything else.

“Daddy?” Tzuyu asks, because apparently she’s enjoying the bit, easing into all parts of the character. She can’t seem to contain her grin.

“What is it, sweetheart?” you ask, dipping your finger down into Sana’s cunt, and fuck - the girl is so, so slick for it. She needs to be taken and torn, that much is clear. Her whimpers don’t get softer as your hips drive into her stomach, pinning her between the two of you.

“Is she always this much of a bratty tease? Or is that just how she gets when she gets all worked up over your perfect cock. I know she’s aching to feel it stretch out that tight little cunt of hers-

"It’s never been all that clear,” you answer, before Tzuyu can start to say anything further. A moment of composure, in case Sana wants you to step in.

Except that, she doesn’t exactly interrupt the play you and Tzuyu are setting up: “So,” Tzuyu remarks instead. “Just for me then.”

“It’s possible.”

The room suddenly feels very full, very small.

“Right. Okay. Well then,” you say - watching carefully, when Tzuyu gives you an appraising glance. Sana squirms again beneath the pressure of all these fingers printing over her sensitive skin - she’d love to fuck this. Or be fucked.

“That means you’ll have to take good care of your needy little princess, won’t you daddy?”

It’s surprisingly fitting.

-

Though it hasn’t been that long, all things considered.

Not since Sana effortlessly waltzed her way into your life. And slightly less-than-that, the time it took her thereafter to find herself bouncing in your lap and tugging at your hair while you struggled for breath between her tits. This perfect storm, caught somewhere between laughing and choking and definitely, definitely falling.

It’s been a year, maybe. If that. But that’s plenty to know.

Know every tilt of her mouth, every sly grin. The different moans that shake loose from the curve of her lips.

Know what it means when Sana’s palms hit the tiles of the shower wall, fingers splaying as she goes quiet and submissive, letting out the barest noise of frustration as Tzuyu spreads her tongue over the pucker of her ass - know that the knuckle you curl up in her cunt has her that much closer to unraveling in a stream of whimpers, needy fucking pants and a hoarse sound of gratitude.

Ostensibly for getting her so perfectly, perfectly raw.

“Fuck, yes, that,” Sana barely manages, between the messy swipe Tzuyu’s tongue makes over her hole. Just this thorough lick, drawing tight, swirling circles around her, lapping at the wetness before making a hot and steady pass over the sensitive stretch of skin, drenching it in spit until Sana’s scrambling against the hard surface.

She’s not close to going quiet: her cheeks look rounder, like she can hardly keep her noises under control as Tzuyu eases a single fingertip inside the tense muscle of her rim and uses the stretch and warmth of the water raining down her spine, to slip in deeper. Sana’s sighing as Tzuyu eats her like an act, an invitation.

You push your fingers deep, deeper, slick, pulling, rubbing, coaxing Sana’s mouth apart even as your lips press wet into her cheek. She groans louder, needier, with your hand flexing up a three-finger graze over that bundle of nerves. The kind that makes her back fucking arch.

“You,” Sana sputters open like a struck match, burning bright in the steam-cloaked shower, “you, you, you,” and it’s not really clear who she’s cursing, “going to - you’re going to - you’re going to make me-”

“Oh no,” Tzuyu sings, starting to straighten herself out - until she’s reminding Sana that she’s the smallest of the three of you and in a possible sort of danger.

She reaches an open palm into the stream of water and splashes off the slick running down her mouth, her chin, her neck - gaze anchored to Sana’s trembling figure. It’s just one, heavy exhale into the hot, hazy air: “You’ve got it all wrong.”

Sana twists her head around, face still so wildly attractive amidst the look of worry and that flush of pink taking over from the bottom half. The tiny, imperceptible dip in her brows.

But before she can give voice to a complaint, Tzuyu has her spun by a rough grip around her waist, pinning her back to the tile - water beating down the rise of her breasts and the tops of her shoulders.

"If you’re going to cum baby, it’ll be all over his thick cock, getting your whole cunt so stretched and stuffed full it’ll feel like he’s cumming up inside your guts.”

You and Sana share this wistful groan of a sigh after Tzuyu wraps her long fingers around your cock, aims you true, and brings you close. Closer. Until you can feel Sana’s pulse at her cunt, lips wet and slippery and dripping, just a few inches from where the tip of your cockhead nudges the insides of her thighs. Sana’s stomach is seizing in a fluttering of heat and -

“Do you like hearing her beg? That’s good. Because this girl’s gonna do everything she can to make sure you fuck her raw before you even let her come,” Tzuyu’s voice lowers, a deep register. “How long can you last, Sana?”

Sana gives you this look, all anticipation and pleasure, holding it for longer than is strictly necessary - and then, her pert little mouth falls open, keening, hissing out a shallow, almost painful, “fuck” the moment you bend at the knees and slip inside.

The feeling that washes over you is a beautiful elixir of relief, an indomitable kind of want, tinged with something heavier, and with just the tiniest hint of longing in the sense that this is not enough, nowhere near enough. It never is.

“God, Sana,” is all you manage. All you want to.

Sana doesn’t wait around any longer before giving you an impatient shimmy of her hips, fucking herself further down the length of your cock, like she wants to choke on it. And the feeling of it, well, she does it well - the tight warmth swallowing you to the base, her cunt squeezing you all at once, slick and smothering. Fuck, it’s all in her eyes. How badly she wants to be held down, split apart. How tightly your fist finds itself locked around Sana’s long, wet strands of golden hair as Tzuyu closes any semblance of distance - brushing her lips over where she can tease Sana’s open and slack mouth, licking down inside, panting.

“Baby, you are so close, I can feel you trembling,” Tzuyu teases, running her fingers up Sana’s stomach, cupping steady the breast she can fit in her palm. She drops another messy kiss on Sana’s throat and hums: “Go ahead, cum. I’m sure he doesn’t mind.” 

"You’re such a prissy fucking- nnh-” Sana’s words skirt right over Tzuyu’s fingertips before they’re shoved roughly across the swell of her lower lip and into the back of her mouth. If Tzuyu’s intent was to prove a point, she’s about as successful as can be - Sana can only gag quietly around her digits, working her jaw over them.

“Sana, shh-shh-shh, baby, don’t fight it; just cum around around his cock, don’t put yourself in a corner and try to play games - he’ll fuck you right, until you scream, I promise, and-”

It hardly ever takes much. That’s something you’ve come to appreciate: Sana can’t ever help it. With the way it actually feels, you pressing right up against where the rest of her cinches so impossibly tight. She was practically teetering on the edge, on the very cliff and within reach of falling right off of it the instant you fit the very hilt of your cock up the molten-hot stretch of her perfect cunt, sliding, fucking into her while water sprays all over her quivering body, so soft beneath the wash of rain.

One of Sana’s long legs gets wrapped around your waist and you can feel her nails start to dig through the muscles in your shoulders.

Tzuyu smirks right into Sana’s temple, biting at the slickness of her skin, running the curve of her thumb around the length of Sana’s jugular, and sucking with her teeth when Sana cries out. “How does our girl feel wrapped around you? Wet, huh? Needy?”

“Unbelievable,” you answer honestly - and maybe that’s the point; Sana’s pussy is incredible. Hot and silky and absolutely unreal. There’s no question, whether she’s a work of art, or if she’ll fuck you up, but you love that part.

“Ruin her for me, won’t you?” Tzuyu prompts, with that twinkle of mischief you’re rapidly becoming accustomed to. “She looks even prettier when she’s fucked out. I know you know that.”

She does, she does, she does.

Your hips snap, up, fuck in - Sana mewling around the shape of Tzuyu’s first two fingers - then back, drawing the motion slow, long, full - until you’re crashing forward and sinking up into that warmth you know is spreading across every inch of Sana’s body, swallowing her up inside-out as her legs start to shake and give and her tongue laps recklessly along the outline of Tzuyu’s knuckles. 

Sana knows she likes to play at coy and control, but this is never part of the act - your cock fucking her submissive pussy apart - it’s hard to argue she doesn’t love how you can come to own her: hot and fast and filthy, leaving her breathless and desperate, every thrust into her tight cunt punctuated with some pretty whimper. And here, she just… there isn’t the luxury, there’s nowhere to hide.

Nowhere to run or shy or look away.

Tzuyu curses when finally Sana bites down, part of a long sequence of reflexes that bloom from the depth you fuck up into her cunt. And with her voice back in her throat (Tzuyu’s fingers shaking out the sharp pain) she fucking whines into it, unable to stop the steady line of nonsense tumbling past her lips, incoherent except for the single-minded purpose of her own release.

“Fuck, daddy, fuck,” Sana repeats in the same way she always does, getting fucked, the letters collapsing into each other. “I’m cumming, fuck, fuck, so fucking wet. God, you’re, fuck, right there, oh - I’m cumming, daddy, I’m fucking cumming,” is the all further she gets, muddied with the sound of your slicked-up thighs moving in quick rhythm with the beat of your heart, slapping loudly against her skin - loud enough so that the neighbors can probably listen in through paper thin walls.

Then she goes silent, face painted with it all. She isn’t crying, the tears won’t come, but she’s gone this quiet sort of wide-eyed that matches the way she’s mouthing, cumming, over and over, you’re pulling me a-fucking-part.

And you believe her. You have to.

Just look at the way her legs are doing all the wrong things. Thighs tensing taut, muscles giving out - she’s slipping down the tiles, back bending and flexing and going limp all at once. Tzuyu’s already moving, scooping her up like it’s something rehearsed, before you even have to ask, “Tzu, help me hold her up, won’t you?”

“Tzu, huh?”

It’s not much, but it is worth noting: how Tzuyu, her fingers curling and interlacing between Sana’s, holds the girl like she’s breakable. Tenderly, cradling Sana’s small body against her chest.

“Do you slip into pet names and all that with every girl Sana brings around? Or am I,” and when Tzuyu tilts her head, her smile has this very palpable bite, “the exception?”

“Every pretty girl thinks they’re special, sweetheart.”

Tzuyu just glimpses one downward look into Sana, shivering, riding her orgasm down into nothing, and drops a kiss into her hair. A gentle chuckle: “And when have I ever given you a reason to doubt it?”

“Shameless,” is all Sana offers up, beyond exhausted, trying and failing to take more than a passing, somewhat disgruntled interest in the scene unfolding around her, while she clings to the strength Tzuyu and the tile and your hands are putting into her body.

Meanwhile Tzuyu, this devil of a daydream - this tall, skinny thing of long hair and smirking lips and cheekbones as sharp as her wit, has her gaze locked. Still curious, and all but relentless - there’s more she’s dying to say. It seems almost impracticable that such a lovely woman would really be this way, weapons concealed under all that good-girl charm. And in its most uncomplicated form, that’s what it is: an open invitation.

You’ve only managed the vaguest outlines, after all. “Do you mind?” you ask again.

The next movements feel more elegant than they probably are. Cradling Sana’s limp body between you, finding a steady hold.

There’s a slight shuffle to discover a proper balance, a hand slapping the glass of the shower door, and yeah, Sana’s fucked out. Slurring out sounds that might resemble the shape of words if she had the presence of mind. The rest are whines and whimpers, obscene in all ways.

“Baby,” Tzuyu tells Sana in a growling kiss to the back of her ear. “Keep your fucking legs up.”

(That’s a cue if you were looking for one, to get your arms fastened around Sana’s small waist as she leans heavy into your chest.)

“More,” The girl in your arms starts to complain, when you truly start fucking her.

“Hurt - hnn, please, more - fuck - harder,” and all those sharp edges, that arrogance and conceit, it’s all gone. Her pupils are blown out, an animal-like-desire set in its place - these are your invitations to wreck her, you realize, pushing so deep into her well-fucked cunt that she arches, and that her head knocks against Tzuyu’s, that the small room is entirely empty save for these movements under the metal cloud of shower water, falling like rain.

This is all there is. 

Tzuyu, smirking like she herself might get off on this. 

Sana, begging.

And when Tzuyu buries a hot smile at her throat, nibbling at the skin - urging her, urging you, this sharp, “now give her the fucking dicking of a lifetime, will you?”

When Sana’s reduced down to her pleas of, please, harder daddy, and deeper, god, I can feel you so deep -

Well,

You’re all instinct. You sink your fingers into the firm skin of her ass, grab at the soft, slippery flesh around her hips. You sink your cock into her hole again and again.

The stretch is obvious and absolutely devastating, making Sana cry out and muffle her face in your shoulder. She makes a weak sort of sound around your neck - it could be anything, maybe please don’t stop, or maybe please do - it doesn’t matter.

“You look incredible like this baby, does he fuck you well?” Tzuyu croons, curling around her so her head rests on her shoulder - eyes watching Sana, meeting yours. “Oh, come on, aren’t you always telling me about how it makes you feel - all this, full and hot and better than anyone? Now’s your chance, no hiding from him. Or me.”

“It’s so, god it’s - I -”

“Come on,” Tzuyu squeezes out one long, eager moan with her hand dropped onto Sana’s breasts, pulling and kneading like she owns it. “Tell him to cum in you baby, like the good fucktoy you are, let him cum up into that creaming pussy until you’re all sticky and leaking cum all over, just the biggest fucking mess.”

There is measurable irony, you suppose, in how Sana brings these friends of hers back with the clear expectation to be fucked and torn apart, how they each want the same, all wanting to get her unraveling and her knees buckling. Only Tzuyu manages, more efficiently than anyone you’ve ever seen, to leave her all wanton and squirming against your hard, relentless thrusts into her needy cunt.

It’s easy: this isn’t difficult, there is nothing hard about falling for each and every promise her face has to offer - knowing her body’s secrets and drawing the story out, line by line, so you can fall in love with it over and over, all while Sana starts to go helpless at the shape of your cock filling up that tiny, wanting cunt.

So you cum. Inside her. In one final push, filling her completely.

Sana opens her mouth like she’s trying to say something - say yes - say daddy, say fuck yes daddy.

“That’s it,” Tzuyu strokes down Sana’s belly. “I knew it - now keep your pretty thighs shut. Can’t let even a drop out, understand?”

“Yes, fuck. It’s - fuck - good, he feels,” Sana finally sobs, chest heaving as you grind the last little bits of cum deep, so far and hot as it can get. All the way in. Where it’s hot and wet and throbbing and slick.

Where it should stay, because you never pull out. You savor the last bit of your pulse, sporadic and lethargic. Because in truth - your mind is made and your mouth won’t say it because you don’t need to.

Tzuyu’s wringing the water out of Sana’s hair, picking the strands into careful folds. “Alright then,” and her grin is positively lecherous.

There’s a bench in the corner of the shower where you eventually arrive, panting now that you realize it, and Sana makes herself at home right in your lap, face buried in your shoulder. Grinding her hips down in this almost imperceptible circle, circling back and feeling. Holding you inside and murmuring into your collarbone.

(Fucked, Sana is simply and unfairly beautiful.)

It’s all in that exhale of a moment, when Tzuyu catches water in cupped palms from the shower-head, wiping away what stray tracks of soapiness left on Sana’s shoulder-blades and breasts and thighs. Her hands all up and down her body, sudsing the crease between leg and torso, down lower still, around her sensitive pussy and her folds.

You wonder if she can hear you swallow.

“Maybe we should actually wash up before we go again?”

-

The first thing Sana’s free hand goes for when she stumbles through the threshold of your bedroom is a hair band you didn’t know she was storing in the top drawer of your dresser. She fidgets around keeping her towel wrapped tightly around her chest as though modesty were an option at this point.

“What?” she asks, fixing you with a slightly-irritated, slightly-teasing smirk. “You look like you have something you want to say.”

“Nothing.” You laugh out loud. “It’s nothing. I’m just waiting.”

She makes this face at you, guilty - so sorry about the contraband - as she twists her wrists and pulls the hair band round her middle-finger, wrapping her palms around her knot of wet blonde and bundling it into a half-assembled ponytail. It leaves the length of her nape exposed and vulnerable, neck flushed pink-from-showering in all the most wonderful of places.

“Waiting,” is what she hones in on.

Tzuyu is pulling out of the bathroom. Her hands, washed clean and dried off with a fluffy, off-white towel. When she sets it down, she steps back, leaning on the frame. “He’s waiting, for what I wonder?”

She’s made of all things smooth-and-sharply-cut. Even from here, even through the sleep-haze fog, the silhouette of her nude figure gives itself to a small sense of anticipation. The long and smooth sweep of her chest, from breast, up and out, and then tapering along down to where her hips flare. She takes a step and then another and lets her fingers ride her side, from the very top of the shallow indentation in the dip of her waist, up. Then the tautness of her abdomen and further still, running slow and over the breast, coming to cup its full weight, pushing the bottom of the curve outwards.

“Waiting to,” and she wets her lips in something akin to expectation. “Pound me into the fucking bed?”

You’re smiling when you explain, “I was going to say a request…”

Tzuyu’s dimples deepen. “You mean, like, we can tell you what to do?”

You sit on the bed, which is actually more of a proposition than you realize. "I suppose.”

“Sana, sweetie, is there something I should be doing for him,” Tzuyu looks up, wearing that trademark kind of playful expression that is definitely deliberate and not at all a tell. “Or maybe I’ve got this all wrong and you know exactly what you want.”

“Well,” you manage in reply, sounding surprisingly sane. “Don’t both start coming forward with any ideas you have no intention of following through.”

“And what if I have no ideas at all? What would you tell me then,” is the challenge you find hanging around the slender outline of Tzuyu’s wrists, and then at the back of her fingers, as she cards her hands through her hair and pulls it prettily over rise-and-falls of her collarbones, until it’s barely curtaining her breasts. 

(Barely.)

She crosses over to the bed - to you and Sana - and without much other movement than that, finds a knee on either side of you to let a lone fingertip skirt the tops of your hips. Flirting with the towel around your waist.

“For the record,” Tzuyu says, flicking a glance at Sana and leaning down into your jawline. The palm she slides over your thigh is so warm, so promising of its heat and pressure you’d swear you can almost taste the touch of her. “I never, ever go back on my word.”

“Try me,” you tell her.

“I do have some, ideas.” Every time her fingernail ends up between her teeth, it’s another drop in a well that runs god knows how deep. “Though very few of them involve this towel.”

“And about the ones that do?”

“Well,” Tzuyu starts to purr - reaching a hand down and spreading the flat of her palm on your chest, “I figured if I ever wanted something to bite down on, well, you know.”

It’s just a subtle little rock - and the perfect view: she starts like this, her hair all tucked behind one shoulder, the arch of her back lifting. Slow at first, Tzuyu only pausing after every other short breath to lick and kiss your lips with hers, and the edges of her teeth, all soft and insistent. You are sure - that with a subtle twitch, a minor jerk of the knee or hip - she is almost right over the perfect place, and when her hips grind in these micro-friction little motions that have her sighing and pushing herself flush, it’s clear that all she’s looking to do is rub her cunt down all over the erection you’ve been holding in since the last time your towel was hanging somewhere above your waist.

“Hold, please,” Sana interrupts, when she leans over and plucks something out of the messy contents of the nightstand - a few hair clips, and, more importantly, a condom. She swears aloud when the package tears the wrong way, but she’s quick to apply a lip balm-slick finger-tip on the inside of the ring, and hands the thing to Tzuyu by way of a passing roll, “so, I assume you’ve got this under control.”

“Give me that.”

“Mm. Have at it.”

There is an intrusive thought that finds its place, wedged somewhere at the base of your skull when Tzuyu starts the careful act of lowering herself down your shaft - like this, it has an inevitability - a forward momentum, the familiar sense of excitement building a force in your heartstrings. Sana must have a similar sensation, as she scoots her ass and slides one hand over the same place you feel that force thrumming, her palm reaching right for Tzuyu’s ass, while Tzuyu hisses out a tiny sound at the added stretch.

“Careful,” Sana says, fingers drawn back from the cleft of Tzuyu’s beautiful ass with a string of slick that’s unmistakably arousal. “You try going back after having his cock. And trust me, there’s nothing to go back to. Like, ever.”

“That must be why you’re always like this,” is Tzuyu’s cock-sure comeback, finding herself flush with your hips.

You’re biting down. You’re holding back. You’re probably digging nails into your palms hard enough to break skin, because you could be double, triple wrapped, latex running up your length like a goddamn balloon and you’d still feel the hot, melting perfection of Tzuyu’s pussy swallowing your cock in one, slick, seamless motion. There isn’t any sound either more pleasing than that hitch-groan-slip you hear as Sana helps guide Tzuyu’s hips back, forth, back again and to a steady beginning of this proper pace: smooth and full.

You both need a second, because, fuck - and she’s biting into a grin. Eyes already half lidded as the speed builds. As Tzuyu starts really enjoying the drag of it, the feeling. The god-damn-fucking-stretch.

“Oh? Like what?” Sana asks, smirk filling out her lips to bridge the silence you’re both groaning into. “Like what?”

“Greedy,” Tzuyu says. The only part that really needs to get filled in. “Because he fucks the self-control right out of you.”

Now Sana lets that settle, and it’s not like she doesn’t know. Or doesn’t understand. And still, “Mm. That does sound like me, doesn’t it, daddy?”

(Yeah, well- you- )

Tzuyu watches you watch what happens next: Sana peeling out the cotton slip of her bath towel - sizing up just how good Sana looks. Fuck-me-raw.

And then she laughs, deep and gorgeous. “Didn’t he just do a number on you - hn, god. Can you hear him all up inside me? Fucking, splitting me apart.”

It’s true.

All of it.

The way Tzuyu rides your cock. Faster, faster, rolling her body and drawing her hands together behind the length of her hair and neck until the point of her chin is upturned, showing off the hollow of her throat. A tension that glitters with sweat.

The tightening in the space between the bottom of her ass and your cock - all of it is heaven. This slow-and-rough, rough-and-fast. Tzuyu picks the tempo of it to fuck out a particular pleasure that has you catching her and pulling her closer to your body, holding her through the upward grind, where your cock meets the heat of her cunt - pressing her closer.

That’s it.

Possessive. That’s what both girls have the good grace to read.

Sana’s hands come up Tzuyu’s ribs, fingertips skirting the muscle-taut-surface of her stomach, the bumps and grooves of her ribs, and up further still, riding the path of her breasts as they’re bobbing-jostled and going full-on heavy - her thumbs go at her nipples. Rolling around the hardened tips - the faintest tug at them, enough to start to pull - then just teasing them between thumb and forefinger and loving the sight of you wincing. Loving that you love that.

“She’s pretty, isn’t she?” Sana laughs.

“It’s a real show,” you bite the compliment out. The very least you can get to.

(You’ll be fucked if you can hide how much you want to stay buried in this girl and cum a fucking waterfall between those perfect, creamy thighs. Oh, she knows. The dirty little smile, the filthy laugh, you’re holding tight - even if the act is useless.)

“Like how she clamps down,” she hums. “That’s the part I’ve always loved, you know. She just does everything so slow, so fucking good, so… deliberate.”

There’s a fist in Tzuyu’s hair and no trace of sympathy or self restraint in her friend when Sana tells her, “Baby, ride him slow for me, can you do that?”

When Tzuyu sucks a hiss through her teeth, mouth caught around the sharp intake, Sana just licks a slow line along the curve of her lower lip - as though saying, baby, like the slut you are, remember who asked nicely? 

And it turns out: slow is worse. You can feel every tiny tremor of friction, every little shift of Tzuyu’s cunt squeezing you. Clinging tightly. Your fingers wrap around her rib cage and hold her right as her ass hits your lap, while her head rolls back into her own hair. It is enough, finally, to draw an out-of-breath little pant out of her, making a beautiful blush crawl and spread across her cheeks - there.

(Oh, fuck, your brain echoes. So, you want slow, that’s what the noise from your throat says as she eases back, rising up. So slow, you-can-feel-all-of-me. She makes the effort so flawlessly, it’s fucking you both over, because she’s looking at Sana with this flutter-beat look, eyes wide, wet and round and pleading.)

It gets that much worse the minute Sana pushes her down by the shoulders. Giving her some resistance. Showing you both she can take you inch by slow goddamned inch.

“Harder. Deeper, sweetie.”

Tzuyu does everything Sana says she’ll do, loving her fingers in her hair, pulling tight. Control given as easily as that. Because she looks just how she feels: utterly surrendered. A helpless kind of want, like there’s something broken in her chest when the head of your cock pushes her deep, deep. To the point she feels something more than an ache.

“Want it,” Tzuyu whispers out against Sana’s smile. “From the back, like you promised,” she says, and takes the shudder out of your breathing.

Sana cups her jaw, laughing. She puts one arm around Tzuyu’s throat and bites at her chin, at her ear. “I bet he’d do just about anything to give you what you want, baby.”

Tzuyu’s hips snap down onto yours again. Melting your cock in this thick, molten heat.

And again, faster. Needier.

The kind of movements across your lap that make everything louder - a beautiful chorus of small-sounds. Slaps and squelching. Wet and gasping and begging and skin-on-skin. You’d never, ever considered the act a competition before, not with Sana. But when Tzuyu seems to be seeing who can pull the most erotic of noises out from underneath your ribcage - or the highest pitched sigh - the wetter and louder it all gets -

“Sana.”

“Tzu.”

Tzuyu rides the pressure and finds her voice, head thrown back, jaw slack. “Sana - tell him to, I’m gonna, soon. Tell him what to do.”

“Beg for him,” and Sana gives her the fakest-of-all-pouts when she slips her hand along Tzuyu’s inner thigh, nearing her where the two of you meet, then slowing her pace, bringing you both to an immediate stand-still, while her fingertips continue, ghosting across the shape of your stomach. “He doesn’t need anything less than the truth.”

Tzuyu’s face. It’s the most gorgeous thing you’ve seen. Her hips are winding slow against you when you hit a spot you’re not entirely sure either of you can recreate at your own whim: deep inside. Her eyes as wide as they can be. All of her sharp edges now just these subtle things - the very shape of the shadow beneath her clavicle, the tensing of her thighs at your sides, the gentle lines that curl up from the wide bottoms of her hips when your fingers thread up her belly, palm open flat.

“I want,” is where Tzuyu starts, not hiding it any part. “I want you to bend me over the bed." 

And in a breathless voice: 

"Please, please let me have what I want. Just bend me over the bed, shove my legs apart and take me. Hold me down. Fuck me and fill me and don’t let me move or say a thing. Until we’re both fucking finished.”

You swallow. Hard.

Because here’s what Sana’s brought you: this tall brunette with an impossibly beautiful ass and thighs to die for, a sin-full mouth. The curves in her waist and back and tits a distraction, that you might try to map out until you’re so lost you forget how to leave, how to ever take your cock out of this tight cunt.

“Is that a thing you can do?” Tzuyu practically purrs in one long tone, pushing herself up your waist, until your cock falls out and hangs there. Until you can only see all of this clear, gorgeous skin in front of you and hear her pretty little moan. “God, please, daddy, I’m begging you.”

(She says this last part in a way that lets you know this isn’t something either of you will get over easily, the kind of pleasure, the feeling and the flash. She’s unreadable - almost, not quite- just too honest, there’s nothing else for you to believe. Maybe that’s where the shiver comes from, or your palms itching, or the sounds of your bedding ruffling as you spin her onto her back, her tummy - pull up on her hips until they’re sky high and you can palm her breasts, let her press her knees up and apart on the duvet. Until you get that first look down the column of her spine and the sudden, stunning shape of her ass in a view you never want to say goodbye to.)

Tzuyu slides her hands across your sheets, all this stretch. A flex of muscle. When she opens her hips and you push two fingers deep, inside, easy - then back out -

“How much of that,” Tzuyu interrupts, blushing furiously, “do I have left to beg with? Please.”

- because she’s been soaked and aching all day just thinking about it. Just begging for a good fucking - or so she told Sana, who now giggles and leaves small kisses up the ridge of her spine, crawls alongside the dip-line of the mattress, and after curling her fingers around the column of Tzuyu’s throat - smooths a single fingernail up and down and presses, tracing, the groove of her jaw as you nudge your cock against her.

It’s not on purpose, this needlessly drawn-out moment - simple brush of latex against her slick, dripping folds, the tightening in her core and how it matches the tension in Sana’s wrist and the coarseness of the bed-linens and the hardness of you - but everything eventually folds, into her.

And you’re not helping, the way you’re fastened to the narrow point of her waist like it’s a handle. Your thumbs riding the arch of her hips, taking every opportunity to sink your fingers hard into the flesh, grip tighter and push, pulling Tzuyu, if only to really work that friction between your hips.

“Fuck, it’s all in. Finally.” Sana gasps like she’s the one being bent, arched, fucked from behind, then lays herself down against the length of Tzuyu’s shoulder, chin bumping her cheek. Watching Tzuyu. Taking it all in.

You have a hard time making it out, but Tzuyu starts this half-whimpered litany about how she needs to be fucked (that is, roughly - deep and long, or maybe rough and short and deep, or whatever, as long as it makes her lose composure), followed with some shoddy mix of cursing and your name and Sana’s - the things all three of you might consider for another chance meeting.

And as you’re following up the suggestion with a low groan, that’s exactly how you notice that grind in her hips - a jerk back, a twist, bucking against you. She feels so, so incredibly tight when she writhes onto you, squeezes. Like she wants to tear her heart out her chest, she’s so overwhelmed. So thoroughly and totally taken by this fuck. By you. “Harder,” is all she says.

This one line does it, then two more. All in-and-out thrusts from behind, fuller the second time, then the third.

Only when you find Tzuyu peering back over her shoulder with a pair of eyes that say, please, pretty-please, all liquid and warm and wanting. “Fucking ruin that cunt, I want - god. Do you have the slightest idea how much,” and that is where the words disappear into a slow and sticky whine.

“Yeah baby,” Sana whispers.

She knows what it is. Tzuyu wants so much more, so you give it. Give her the just-this-side-of-ruthless fucking and the slow-pace grind you know can push her right over the edge. Give her more, all of you, and get her hands twisting in the pillow and grabbing fistfuls of sheets, burying her face into the space above her wrists and nearly choking on her hair with how she moans and yelps - loud.

Her whole body jolts forward the next time. The arch to her back deepening. Body drawing in on a flawless line.

Tzuyu does cum. Eventually.

She keens and rolls and begs you not to pull out or slow, just stay put and fill her with your cum - keep fucking going, please. The only thing keeping her from landing flat on your mattress as she practically unravels around your cock are fingers you have under her hips, tightening. Bruising.

“Fuck, fuck, fuck me, you’re,” you’re railing out of her lungs, where the words hang on sex-stale air.

First with Sana whispering promises into her ears and letting Tzuyu swallow, and suck around the length of her index, then two, fingers. Then licking a kiss into her mouth, tongue tangling up hers and finishing up the act with, “cum for us, Tzu, like the sweet girl you are - you take him so well.”

Then, with your hand held over her ass-

(She could cry from it. From how everything pulls you in, like a riptide, and, really, with no regard for things like safety or drowning.)

-the utterance off her lips has your stomach twisting into knots:

“Keep,” you hear her ask Sana. Barely getting the words out as you ride, fast. “Please, keep, telling him that I - god.”

It gets worse before it gets better.

“I can’t - I need; fuck, I can’t, with the rubber, I want him,” and Sana smirks like she knew all along. “Sana, please-”

“You want the real thing, sweetie. Isn’t that right, baby? Hm. Of course it’s okay,” and Sana soothes a hand through her friend’s fringe, pushes it away from her eyes and over her ears, making something that sounds like an adoring laugh slip out. “You want him to fuck his cum so deep in that pussy, I know you do, don’t worry.”

When you slow down the grinding, wipe the sweat from your face, Sana gets your attention and nods to the very place your cock is disappearing between the cheeks of Tzuyu’s ass, “go ahead. If you want the mess-up, sweetie - let’s make sure that’s exactly what he’ll give you.”

Who exactly wants what most is hard to say. Sana’s the one pulling off the condom, the rubber stretching to an obscene limit that has you fearing for your life should it snap back before it breaks. Tzuyu is already a sort of gaping mess with it all, her own fingers snuck under to rub harsh circles in the absence of cock and something firm and heavy to fill her. To feel full.

And there’s you, asking, or maybe, double-checking: “Tzuyu, you’re saying you want me to-”

“She doesn’t care,” is what you’re interrupted with, courtesy of Sana. “Fuck a baby into her cunt, that’s what she wants.”

(Like you wouldn’t fucking love it too. Or have the frame of mind to even begin to unpack all of that.)

It’s a lot, admittedly.

And not just because Tzuyu has never looked better: on all fours, pressed, and presented. Legs all the way apart and ass and thighs in your grip, with that smile all pointedly certain and wild-eyed, like, she knows, that you know exactly what to give her - what she really wants - filling her so full and marking your claim by fucking your cum right to her very core.

Tzuyu drags her head back, so she can peek over her shoulder and meet your eyes.

She does things. Like sighing this small sound and laughing and - she has this thing for noises, for things breaking under the strain, where she won’t say a word, except to murmur some part of your name into your jawline, a raggedness in her breathing. Sheer hunger.

“I want - want you to, fuck me.”

You will. Or you are. Or you’re going to, only - Sana’s lips are fast around your cock, fingers fluttering delicately between your thighs and drawing these stuttering sounds in your breath, “I will. I will. I’m - I will.”

Sana just hums, copper hair bobbing in place. Her hot mouth and wet fingers pulling and sliding and pulling and sliding. Tongue moving in all the ways she knows you like.

Which, here’s a fact: Sana can be mean. No one would believe it.

But sometimes this is the price of admission. You have to be honest about what it takes, how, exactly, you intend to break this beautiful brunette whose ass is swaying back and forth in this mesmerizing little waggle of the hips. It’s hard not to marvel, not to ask questions and not wonder at what a pair of friends so similar and so opposite do to each other and other people and to themselves in those small, private hours and space no one else shares, that has you panting and burning and her clasping the hollow of your neck and asking with her body if this is okay, because sometimes, in moments of absolute need, just a glance can mean your end.

So, there’s no tease; Sana is well aware of what it feels like when you’re throbbing and ready to burst - she’s working you up and over and right to that point of no return-

“Can I? Fucking-”

“Fine,” she replies, maybe having now considered every other way you might spill a hot load out and make a mess of the sheets. “Have at her,” and a flick of tongue catches around the tip of your cock - the final tease, the best punishment.

And the promise of how Tzuyu makes that perfect whimpering cry. Something entirely wounded. Because as soon as it begins - your cock in the shallow depth of her creaming cunt - you’re both made aware how she’s wetter than she was an hour ago and clenching at nothing, hands balling themselves in frustration, palms bunched white-knuckled up in fists. She needs something, anything. Something for her to squeeze against. For her to bear down on and bounce her cunt off-

The sound all three of you make when you grit your teeth and bury yourself deep into her pussy is a guttural, aching thing, with you biting a lip and gasping. Tzuyu half-growling-half-sobbing into the sheets.

It doesn’t matter that she lets Sana cover her open and slack mouth in an attempt to quiet it.

It doesn’t matter because in a blink, the exact point in which you sink completely inside - where it’s the first, the best, feeling of Tzuyu’s hot pussy taking your cock.

(Mind-numbing, is the word that doesn’t come to you.)

Under you, Tzuyu is writhing and hot and tight into the mattress - and so desperate.

“Please,” is about all that gets away from her. Which is just too cute to ignore: she’s been dying to be fucked, ever since stepped into your foyer and was introduced by the softest, most deliberate of gestures that wound up being all-too intimate. “Please- I need - harder, fucking-”

Sana takes to touching you, her own little form of enjoyment that ends with her fingertips mapping the shape of your jaw. Pupils blown, “Isn’t she amazing?” Sana laughs into your neck.

“Fucking,” is what your first real stroke back into Tzuyu pulls out,  “unreal.“

The friction has you both grinding your bodies together at the base, and she arches, this throaty moan, before looking back up at you and letting her mouth fall open - this wordless sentence of plea, over and over again. She’s shaking. Body-full. It’s almost something painful to see, that she’s so undone - and what if you were the only person who’d ever fucked her like this: into ruin.

Tzuyu clenches around the next thrust - begging, so-sore-and-begging to cum.

The demand is practically written in her muscles, and all you want is for her to let go for the second, third, last time - until she loses track of the count. To get there before you have the time to register that she is actually doing it. She’s already half-way gone and at your mercy - her only choices now, being: cum, or let you chase the orgasm you’re currently rubbing all around the curve of her cunt.

Sana swallows her scream when the first little cry comes, that you’ve edged out of her. And it gets worse and better the second time her ass meets your thighs, where she’s making a real mess on your hips and all but yelling out her orgasm in her state of such incoherent stutter and disarray. The arch to her back is this thing out of your best imagination, which has you - pounding out all her noises - gripping and curving over the plane of her stomach. Until Tzuyu’s beginning to make these different cries, somewhere new, somewhere you’re finding a whole lot deeper.

"Hold her ass up and fuck her 'til she’s full of cum,” is the advice you get from Sana in the end, as you fuck her and fuck her through the tumultuous rise and fall of orgasm after orgasm, “oh baby, does it hurt so good? Do you feel that heat spreading down your thighs and getting you all slick? You always knew the best toys are the ones that get bred, sweetheart.”

And from her, barely, “fuck, yes.”

That’s what does it: the desperation just that tangible in all your voices.

Sana manages to get her lips on yours. A kiss that could knock the wind out of your sails under normal circumstances, one that curls a fist and tugs around a familiar part of you. But Tzuyu’s eyes roll and drop low, fluttering shut, while your hips crash in quickening succession:

“Fuck-you’re so-perfect, cum in me again, daddy - make me,” and, “please, so fucking full, just give me more. Want more of you, until it’s-”

Tzuyu gets you. Just there. Just the way you needed it. Just like that.

There’s something addictive in how her muscles clench and grab around the head of your cock - drawing everything you’d been holding back to a painful front, and - Sana’s taste in your mouth still so sweet, mixed with salt and sweat, while you fuck and pound, with absolutely zero respite. Cum buried deeper and deeper until it’s spilling and Tzuyu whines for the filthy feeling. Until you’re fucked through, emptying every single drop into her open cunt. Until your legs feel sore, a slight shake all through the muscle and the tension in your neck and shoulders, and you’re growling this thing that might be her name, and “Tzu, my god, baby, you feel, so amazing,” in between thrusts.

It earns you an appreciative whimper.

Something breathy and not-at-all restrained. She doubles down on it when your cock slides out of her swollen, well-fucked cunt.

At first, she only hums a sleepy smile and turns her face in toward the touch, eyes closed and unresponsive. A long exhale. Even like this - especially, perhaps - Tzuyu is lovely.

Either out of exhaustion or overbearing satisfaction, you collapse into her - bodies folding up like that old-cliche about a stack of cards or dominoes - with your cheek to her back and your arms wrapping around her chest, tight, trying to squeeze. Like you’re hugging someone from behind. Which isn’t too far off. Because for the next five or ten or fifteen minutes or a half-hour, you lie there, pressing your face in against the side of her neck, smelling her hair - how sweet the strands are - then down along her shoulders, and under, listening to the soft way Tzuyu falls into her breaths. 

In, out. In, out.

Sana follows all the while with, “should we not have let her ride, first?”

To which, Tzuyu says, “fuck off.”

Sana brushes it off, crawls around your shoulders and slips two, three, five kisses into your forehead. That’s when you know to shuffle over, dragging and tugging limbs and muscles and bone in the same direction - careful not to let the sticky sensation linger anywhere it shouldn’t. Not even for an instant.

The three of you are laying in a total fucking mess. But it’s your mess, and that’s beautiful in a sort of thought-provoking poetic way.

You turn your head. Tzuyu’s there, still, blinking slowly.

“Hello again, hi,” you say and the smile comes up all sorts of natural. “Okay?”

Her gaze shifts into something vague, so much quieter, but she nods. So it must be. Okay.

-

“Is it too early?” Tzuyu asks two weeks later, and nothing has ever, ever started like that.

She’s at your doorstep, a little too dressed up for the middle of the afternoon, hair pulled away from her face in two loose braids, bright eyes, lip-gloss that shimmers just enough. Something innocent in the whole way she looks and stands and smiles. Nothing, on the surface, that gives the truth away.

You lift an eyebrow, skeptical. Always. “I wasn’t expecting company.”

“Yes you were,” and she dangles a set of keys.

“I’m sorry, did you steal those?”

The laughter from her chest is as surprising as it is gorgeous, rich and thick like molasses, rolling over the shape of her tongue. It hits you hard that two weeks - really, any amount of time - it’s not nearly long enough.

And before Tzuyu can admit as much out loud, Sana chirps from her spot aside the door, knee bent and grinning, “maybe I did.”

“Well,” you say, hands on your hips, “this is all a little…”

“Irregular, I know.” Sana’s giving her best impression of you: so exasperated.

“Which is, honestly,” she continues to explain, pushing away from her perch and approaching in these small, gentle steps. “We need, that thing you promised you’d do,” she trails a finger up the buttons of your shirt, under your jaw. You’re already drowning. “Whenever” - is her very worst torture - “we called.”

(Might just be a little bit of trouble, is the one honest answer, to whatever you were trying to start when you saw their faces and recognized their bodies and said: yes, come inside and meet me and fuck my brains out, all that.

What a way to begin. What a story it’ll be.)

a/n: these two are fucking adorable.

PASCAL

male reader x karina & irene

part 1 of two roses, by every other name

28k words

It goes without saying that Karina’s reputation is flawless. 

Irene’s is remarkably not.

You’re not even staunchly a romantic or anything. You just can’t be assed to manage the distinction between desire and distance. So when the dust settles, the best case scenario is the three of you going around telling people, “all of this is actually a true story by the way.”

-

You don’t need the extra helping of moody and foreboding, but the wind picks up enough to chill you to the spot.

It blows some of the longer, darker strands of Irene’s hair into her eyes and she shivers, too, against the cold as she tucks it behind her ears. You’ve got both hands balled into your coat pockets, watching her pretend like she isn’t about to say something you absolutely do not want to hear. Then, a sigh - the length of which is probably unwarranted. You can feel the frost on the air burning through your teeth as you face back out toward the taxi stand. 

It’s gotten late and you’re still waiting on an empty cab - you’re realizing there was never a conversation to be had in the first place.

“For what it’s worth,” Irene says, and there’s an indecent proposal just in the way she glances at you. “I had my eyes on her first.”

It’s all on account of some sort of moral quandary, or whatever nonsense Irene pretends to believe every time it comes up. A gross power imbalance; an issue of innocence and entitlement; a threat of abuse. Something, another thing, patriarchal expectations, blah, blah - she fudges around the details, but never ever cares who gets hurt. Not really.

And it’s doubtful Irene believes what she says, not to mention she’s skeptical anyone is even capable of zipping their way down Karina’s denim, working a pair of hands up the contour of her long legs, and making her pant and gasp hard enough that she forgets to breathe.

Well, supposedly - that is anyone, save the two of you. Nevermind the fact she’s always, always been off-limits.

The bottom line is she’s a whole decade younger than either of you. This just for starters - only legal for alcohol by some narrow margin. Because between you and your fiancée there are all these rules: no coworkers, no labelmates, no close mutual friends, no personal assistants, no jealous ex-lovers, and absolutely none of her juniors. It’s in poor taste, among other things.

Also, just as straightforward: crossing any number of those lines has its own kind of appeal.

“Okay,” you say, “then maybe you should be the one to tell her we’re taking her home.”

Irene’s arching her eyebrows at you like a silent rebuttal. She smiles after a laugh, quick and easy, because it’s what she’s good at. It’s what she knows. “Like you weren’t hoping she’d be here, too.“

The ash Irene taps off the end of her cigarette falls to the ground like snow. Hitting the pavement as if it might punctuate the thought. That’s a rare first mistake from someone like you, and then a second one from her: she thinks she’ll need to defend herself with an explanation, like she’d ever need to justify anything to you.

“Besides, she’s not waiting for me to ask.” There’s a curl to her mouth - and then, she adds, for your benefit, "she’d follow you anywhere.”

The twisted irony is that the two of you could pick up any woman, anyone at all.

“I think it’s a discussion for another day,” you tell her, serious. She laughs out loud.

“Which one? Who Karina wants, or that you’re aching every bit as much as I am to spread her out on our bed and fuck her? Because I’m pretty sure we can both agree that at this point-”

Your palm curls around the nape of her neck with a touch of on-your-feet-thinking: one of these moments that lets Irene sit with the knowledge of how small she really is against you, her head against the collar of your coat, chin angled just so to look up at your face. And there’s only a beat that passes between your fingers in her hair, tugging gently as her hand releases to your waist, her teeth clipping against the press of your lips, before a cab pulls up right next to you. You kiss her hard. It probably looks cinematic.

If for nothing other than to give Karina one less thing to overhear when she comes back outside to join you.

“Really not the time,” you whisper right into the subtle twist of her grin. Her cigarette’s gone out in the snowy mess, but Irene smirks deeper in response before throwing it onto the wet concrete. She grinds it beneath her boot like a reminder, her hand still firm on your hip.

“What, you don’t think it’d make her day? Don’t think she’d want to hear all those kinds of thoughts running together through our heads?”

You pull Irene in closer. “She’s not you.”

-

For context - only so you’re aware how it all starts - it wasn’t actually New Year’s Eve, even though everyone had been drinking like it were.

Also for context, it’s not something you were strictly invited to either. Irene’s company holds this holiday party at the end of every year where all of their employees show up (read: idols; Irene likes to argue about work sometimes - to which you have never contested the value of her labor - but your brain tends to fuzz out in the middle, and instead you mostly just watch her pretty mouth in motion). All of the high-up executives and department heads bring their uptight wives and girlfriends to some restaurant ballroom for a cocktail reception that only really functions for name dropping, or influencing the media, or placing side bets on who is sleeping with the CFO - or whose mistress might show up unexpectedly and meet someone’s wife face-to-face for the very first time.

It happens to someone Irene knows, once. You pray every year it will happen again.

Be that as it may, there are a plethora of other terrible ways to spend an evening and a half, but it’s all laid bare in Irene’s contract - attendance being mandatory; enjoyment excessively optional.

And sure, it’s taken time, but you have gotten used to it: the industry, all of its excess, the inevitable display, the million and one things required of Irene that you, on the other hand, will simply never be able to relate to.

The machine’s so fine-tuned and tightly wound, like clockwork.

“Yeah, whatever,” she had said, leaning her hip against your bathroom sink earlier in the day. Her dress laid out neatly across your bed, already pressed, set with her heels and jewelry, everything set on schedule to the point of absurdity.

And so it goes.

You can hear her brushing her teeth through the open door - and see her profile through the hand-swiped-fog on the mirror. She drags the toothbrush to the corner of her mouth: “And before you even ask, yes, you have to come. That’s the deal. That’s always been the deal - bored, or busy, or trapped talking to some social climbing board member who’s realized the liquor flows fast and free - I don’t wanna hear about it. You’ll be there.”

“Uh-huh,” you say, eyes fixed on her reflection in the mirror.

“Look, I hate to be the bearer of bad news,” she adds, spits, and lets the faucet run, “but this one’s shaping up to be a really long night.” 

You watch the meticulous effort to pull her dark hair back into a low, neat bun as she turns and comes back into the bedroom, tossing her hair clip onto the bed to reclaim later. 

“So I guess, pace yourself or something.”

"Ever the salesman, Irene,” you say, facetious.

“Um, saleswoman, thank you.” Her words are slightly muffled by a silk tank top pulled on over her head, then down the flat length of her body until it hits the tops of her thighs. 

It’s not a matter of opinion that she’ll look gorgeous in the stilettos, the dress - those earrings that catch light wherever it dares touch her. She’ll smile her practiced grin. It’ll probably taste sour after the hundredth person asks how long it’s been and she tells them she can’t remember. But then look - Irene here, still perfectly disheveled: her damp-darkened hair sticking to the porcelain skin of her neck, skin washed free of makeup. She’s beautiful. In a plain and simple way, simple-but-good. Even with the tight little scowl she shoots your direction. It’s a look she has to know could launch a thousand ships; could start a real, actual war; though you’re far too charming to know how to fight - you’ve never seen the appeal.

Irene’s teeth tug at the corner of her lip like she knows you’d probably end up dying in it. She puts forward this unassuming, nonchalant, “hey.”

She muses it right into a laugh. Covers her genuine smile with her fingers.

“Hey,” is how you answer, always.

You’re noticing, now, the strap of her top has fallen just down the petite slope of her shoulder. You want to get your fingers beneath it. Maybe get her back in the shower. You’re never too picky.

And here: an unspoken demand, the thing that always gets you about her - while Irene stands in front of you, her finger looped between the top buttons of your shirt to draw you close. The bow of her lip perked ever-so-slightly, this soft pucker - all pretty in pink. “Before I slip into this dress, you’re going to push me against something sturdy and kiss me until I’m dizzy,” she instructs, calm and methodical.

“A lot,” you continue for her. You nod seriously, for a moment. “Dizzying.”

She closes her eyes and leans in, and you lean into her, too. “Yeah, exactly,” she ends up murmuring under a hot breath. “So, get to it.”

And so it goes, and so it goes.

-

"Have a drink,” someone keeps saying.

As a matter of fact, they all do: four shots together - or one old-fashioned, or two vodka seltzers, or three of these mystery concoctions that come in a tall-stemmed glass you didn’t actually catch the name of, and jesus, it fucking reeks of prosecco. You pace yourself, within reason. You really do.

Irene gets elusive under the surface, which is to say, she doesn’t change at all - not even at the edges.

And though everyone is here to be seen, only a few actually do any of the talking. Irene has it covered - you do your time.

Happy New Year, sorta. You wait it out.

-

She tastes like everything sweet, strong on her heels and sharper on her tongue - and sometimes, it’s not the best mix, given all you can manage is the touch and scent of Irene without actually getting at the insides of her thighs or that tempting stretch of skin under her ear, her neck, down to her chest.

This much, and she has no complaint - hardly seems surprised or inconvenienced - to you stepping her into the wall like it’s a matter of instinct.

She just sighs, a short huff. “Don’t miss these kinds of parties,” she then confesses, right into your mouth, her warm exhale filling you whole. The sounds of people laughing and champagne glasses clicking nearby, a new song starting up, it’s all an unnecessary backdrop, and Irene isn’t distracted by a single bit of it.

Character, setting, scene; it’s all rather textbook, no? 

You know what the sounds mean, the soft hums, the lingering touches, the firm press of your palm into the dip of her waist or the slender line of her back. She knows where all the cameras are because she knows everything that anyone could possibly ever want to know, such as the fact that this empty stairwell is a perfect place to start, that there isn’t a real plan as to where this might go - or when it should end.

And you should know where not to press - or bite or grab or leave a mark - not in some liminal space, nor some vacant practice-room, not beneath a desk, not behind a curtain. No, not here, cloaked in shadow and secrecy, another scandal in the making. Not that the knowledge stops you from testing out the lines, from drawing little patterns up Irene’s waist, slipping one hand along the barest skin where her dress has hitched up along her thigh. To a boundary, the low pitch of her voice, some suggestion like, “not here, are you serious?” mumbled across your lips like it really doesn’t matter what gets said or does not.

She’s pinned so properly, so precisely, that the discord between her gentle coaxing, and your hard, bruising edge - that sheer incongruity between what you should do and what you should not - can make the adrenaline spike.

She kisses you harder - and harder, and harder. She catches the small sigh you let out. She kisses you breathless.

You can’t shake the feeling that you’re wasting an opportunity, given that you’re both dressed to the nines and are usually more homebody than anything else. Isn’t that the irony of fame? You sign up for an escape, and spend your life running away.

Irene eventually sinks back into the soles of her heels, wiping her mouth with the back of her wrist, and she smiles so easy. She tugs at the cuffs of your jacket, sets your collar flat and proper.

“I’m thinking,” you hear her say, taking stock for herself, the flush high in her cheeks, the tousled sort-of-curls now bared, “in half an hour, if you feel like leaving early, we could, oh, I don’t know - escape?”

Escape to a bed with a door that locks, you assume she means. Irene wants; you deliver - however she’d like.

“Sounds tempting,” you tell her. She laughs against your shoulder. “Are you waiting on someone else to sweep you off your feet, maybe? Another offer?”

“Uh, always,” she scoffs. It’s the little things, confidence, and certainty, the honest-in-practice; how her palms sit soft and secure, cupping the angle of your jaw, one hand, now, toying with the knot of your tie like she’s contemplating just how it might fall off of you later. Irene shrugs, leaning her weight back against the wall.

She taps a finger to her lips. Ends up saying, very solemn: “Thirty minutes.”

As if you had any intention of absconding without her.

-

Irene holds true to her word - she catches you on the second to last pass around the banquet room. Some executive with a slack mouth is just launching into what sounds to be a spiel about a merger - it’s unimportant, not well-versed, so Irene sidles up to you, and immediately steals your attention. It doesn’t bother you in the least. She curls her finger into the cuff of your jacket sleeve, and without really being prompted or asked - and only, probably, due to the clear discomfort she has being there with anyone else - she begins dragging you out of the room; you, her ticket out of hell.

“I’m so sorry,” Irene dons the industry smile and is probably charming. It’s difficult for you to tell. You follow her blindly. “So sorry,” she tells someone else as you exit, just before you both disappear entirely, “We’re leaving. But, we’ll see you next year, promise!”

A real celebrity.

The two of you suddenly a duo - and for everyone’s safety, the way it should probably always ought to be - here’s how it’s all supposed to go:

You, standing almost amidst a bank of snow gathered at the curb, your coat fanned out around Irene, shivers racking up her slight frame. All hidden just enough that if anyone were to notice where your hand ends up arriving at the narrow of her waist, they might think: ‘it’s not really any of my business,’ and look away.

Her, curled beneath your touch - even the single press of your fingers over the small of her back as a stranger pulls a car up to the curb; or, the pull of you that ensures the driver can’t actually see what you’re both up to, what you’re hiding; the little reach she makes into your pocket for a lighter, smiling appreciatively as she presses her cold face to the crook of your arm, your jaw, the juncture of your neck; a safe space.

“So.” Irene will look up at you, pale moonlight gathered in her lashes. She’ll make another face: this thousand kilowatt grin or her brow raising - sharp, quick, there-then-gone. She’ll turn the lighter over in her hand once, twice, and say, “how long has it been since we’ve done anything social?”

You’ll know it’s not what she means, but you’ll offer her the out anyway: “could go downtown - there’s a place you’ve probably never been to. Might even play your style of music, if you’re really lucky.”

Irene will arch her eyebrow as she raises the cigarette to her mouth, lit up before you know it.

“Is that right?” she’ll say, dismissive, a smoky tendril curling up over city neon and catching starlight.

You’re no stranger to what’s actually being suggested - an unspoken sort of arrangement. All because Irene sees herself as being above, hiding her intentions in euphemism, tact; in long, slow drags; in lilting lashes - while she’s fully and shamelessly aware there’s nothing virtuous about it.

Who the hell else could make it sound dignified, pretty even: ménage à trois.

Then, you’ll do your part. You’ll help interpret: another girl, gorgeous and probably unclothed, another bad decision, or two, the three of you finding yourselves back in your apartment where Irene will not hesitate to run her tongue up the side of a sweat-glistened neck, to tilt her head and whisper out a mantra of, honey, sweetie, anybody ever tell you how good you look between a woman’s legs? Or, fuck, let’s get you out of those jeans, let me take you all in, how the fuck have we not gotten our hands on you before?

Which means the question you really ought to be asking sounds more like, “maybe we can invite someone over?”

You’ll meet her eyes as they flick up - a lazy expression, easy to read. “Bingo,” she’ll say, blowing smoke and even more caution to the wind.

Almost to a fault, everything she does draws attention. Every fool with a blog and a camera posted outside of an event will have her labeled on-sight. You can already see the headline - because the only thing worse than everyone thinking you’re the antagonist is looking the part. The imagery, red carpet, sexy evening dress, sultry, regal. The caption, Bae Joohyun - they use her government name like they really know her - sulking in smoke, or thirty flirty and thriving? below a thumbnail of her holding the cigarette, with your suit jacket draped over her shoulders. She’s a total tabloid darling. Irene the temptress, or Irene, ice in her veins, or Irene - “How does she look so fucking gorgeous without makeup?!” or “Do I wanna hate her, or wanna be her? @RedFlavor_ROYAL,” or “In every shot I feel like Irene has me staring into her soul.”

Add that to the fact the girl’s utterly shrouded in myth.

Everyone running amuck with speculation; she’s the girl-next-door, she’s the fantasy-in-real-life, she’s someone everyone could see themselves fucking - she’s the heroine they say, the villain, the perfect wife, the one-that-got-away. They never do decide.

Though there’s only one opinion she’ll concern herself with, and only on occasion: yours.

Her fingers will come in the dark to trail feather-light from your collarbone, between the rise and fall of your shirt buttons, before pressing open palmed to your chest to still right there, and she’s such a pretty thing in the plain black dress, all yours and very much in the mood - which you’ll already have reason to know, in part from having felt your way around her no more than a hour prior, but also just the way Irene’s been looking at you from beneath her dark lashes all evening, that subtle predatory gleam in her eyes.

You’ll hold her close. Irene will have the audacity to comment, “love you,” in this delicate little whisper, quiet like it could go either way - affection or gratitude. Maybe a touch of both.

A car will shortly arrive, pulling up to the curb with snow melting under its tires, headlights in your eyes, and then finally, in no particular order, your heart hammering: the click of the lighter, the falling ash, the sweet easy laugh, the crunch of ice under foot as she steps down beside you, the soft sweep of your arm.

You have no complaints about the proposal. A lack of argument or dispute is basically the same thing as consent, isn’t it? For all intents and purposes, as a whole, it’s really kind of a win-win:

Irene needs variety, which you’re well aware of. It’s only natural for someone who can have anything they want. And, sure, you happen to be a willing participant when it comes to satisfying the occasional whim.

So - the conversation will follow you right into the backseat of the cab, simply to iron out the details. 

“Tall. Beautiful. Soft, soft, soft - like cashmere, a luxury brand,“ Irene will have one heel off and her knee braced up into the back seat while the other leg extends across your thighs, fingers running along your coat collar to make idle circles against the exposed skin there. "Or, at the very least, someone with a little more bend to their character - you know how those prim and proper types always get a bit lost in you.”

"And wouldn’t you know.”

It’ll sound smooth, probably. Irene will roll her eyes.

“So, okay,” you’ll return to her, right after instructing the cabbie how to get to Irene’s place. None of the implications here are lost on you. “You have anyone particular in mind?”

“Hm, I’m thinking.”

You can picture it, roughly: Irene’s whole body sunk into the dark corner of the seat - one leg idling over the other. Her foot bouncing at your thigh. She has her heels in one hand, earrings in the other.

She’ll look wistfully out the window; the intermittent flashes of city lights casting her face in different hues. The curve of her jaw; the stately line of her nose; her thick black lashes - composition and subject. It’s this kind of attention to detail that the cameras scramble to pick up. It’d be better if they got it for the right reasons.

You’ll pull out your phone. Start the usual scroll from the top of your contacts. The girls you know, the girls you don’t, the ones who might be awake or who definitely are, regardless of time of day or night.

Irene will finally perk up, gleaming.

Someone cute, she might say, only because she’d rather not admit, someone like me. There’s limits to her vanity insofar as her taste - in all sorts of things.

But she does like the idea of it. Someone young and pretty and impressionable; someone naive, or tiny and helpless; it’s never difficult to find the girl who will fawn over her - all wide-eyed and doe-faced the instant Irene floats her fingers across her collarbone, smirking - when she starts at the zipper at the back of her neckline and says, “we’re going to see how wet I can get you,” without missing a beat. Someone who will eventually say please when Irene gets a little stern and tells her, “ask me what I’m gonna do to you,” in a rasp so smoky that it would make the cigarette seem blasé.

But that, you suppose, is the nature of Irene. A touch domineering. A little more than just a pretty face.

She always takes, but she takes gently - a push here, a pull there, she knows people will give her anything.

It will be more obvious when there’s a small voice trembling between the two of you, twisted up in your sheets and simpering with the gentle sort of affection that Irene deals so expertly: two fingers sliding up, pressing down. Curling, beckoning. Slow and tender, without giving up that she’s looking for any soft spot; a weak point. Some vulnerability to exploit.

It’ll be right after whichever plaything of the hour pulls her lips off yours, off the length of your fingers - or when she unfastens her mouth from the hard shape of your cock with an obnoxiously loud pop: “do you guys do this kind of thing often?”

And Irene, without even an ounce of hesitation, will rip right into the sheer of her stockings, letting out an aggressively casual laugh. She’ll plant a kiss somewhere deep. Say, “oh, honey,” as she nuzzles into the crease of her thigh. “We’re pretty new to this too.”

Everyone, just - believes her. For the same reason you suppose they believe she’s perfect. She’s good, really good at all this.

In the taxi, Irene’s foot will continue to tap against your leg, until you’re stopping her by covering her knee with your hand. As for now, the evening will remain all but written in stone. You’ll run a hand through your hair, you’ll lean an elbow against the window - the whole while, ignoring the sudden itch between your shoulder blades at the thought of something else. At the thought of all the other girls who’ll take an instant liking to her. Who wouldn’t. 

The light will change. The intersection will empty. The radio will turn to static.

You’ll eventually offer up a name like, “Jennie Kim,” among others. Moving alphabetically down your contacts list. Taking you a long while to make it through the 'K’s.

“Hm.” Irene’s soft hum of disapproval, non-committal. “Are you asking, or telling?”

The difference won’t matter. “I’m suggesting,” you’ll say.

You’ll watch how Irene turns the name over in her mouth a few times before smiling - how she knows, there’s the smallest part of you that has her held in a certain light. “Maybe,” she’ll say, tapping her phone against her cheek in the contemplation of whether or not this is a tentative no or a provisional yes - when really what she’ll avoid an answer with is, “aren’t we a little tired of Jen?”

Tough to say.

Good, sweet, and just naive enough to get twisted up between you, in her case. Oh, Jennie’s the type of girl - you’ll stuff your cock in her pretty little cunt while leaning into her, taking her arms and pinning them to the base of her spine, so she can’t reach and can’t claw and can’t make an utter fucking wreck of herself. The two of you have known Jennie for too long, is what will strike you then. And a moment later, the idea of sinking into her ass from behind with your palm flat and warm against her hip and your voice husky and deep in the way she likes, and saying, god, fuck, Jen, you’d let me do anything wouldn’t you, you’d let me cum in here too.

And - she would, really.

She wouldn’t even complain. Her face would be pressed so firmly against Irene’s thighs, and she would whimper, not beg. Even though you know it’s what Irene might prefer; how it makes her look real cute - cheeks stained crimson as the syllables roll around her tongue before being forced out into the open.

“I think she’s great,” you might say out loud, lowkey.

And in a voice that is louder than strictly necessary, Irene will cut in: “she lets you finish in her ass, and then not even three minutes later she’ll say it was the best lay of her life, of course you do.”

It’ll make the cab driver clear his throat.

“What you’re saying is ‘no.’”

Irene will frown, thoughtful, but not conceding anything - perhaps she means hold onto that thought for now. If nothing else sounds particularly enticing, we’ll call it a maybe. “I’m saying: Jennie is. I don’t know.”

You can hear the end of her sentence: not quite good enough. Not this time around, but someday, sure, someday soon.

“And for the record,” Irene will follow, casual, with a dismissive hand wave. “Just because you got to her first doesn’t mean she’s ever liked you more.”

The few that fall afterwards will never make the cut. Irene will turn them all down. Jisoo - no, sorry, look, she’s so, so pretty, Irene will be trying to explain, gesturing in a way that’s hard to interpret. “But a little too stuck up for my tastes.”

You’ve been speaking in code for years. She means: way, way, way too straight.

“The blonde though,” Irene will try right after that. “Daisy, or Lily, oh god something or another, what was her name-”

“Um, do you mean Rosé?”

“Yeah.” Irene will sink back into the leather, sipping down a memory or two and shifting her skirt up the top of her thighs.

You’ll consider the angle. Your options: Rosé on her knees right inside the foyer of your apartment, Irene’s hands wrapped tightly in her hair, controlling the rhythm. The way she gets her fingers spread under Irene’s knees and draws her forward, pushing up with her eager, prying mouth - licks and licks, nosing against the heat of Irene’s pussy until she’s gasping and locking her hands around the younger girl’s head to steady the jerk of her hips.

Then, you’ll laugh out loud. Because you know, Rosie isn’t anywhere close to straight enough. 

And the back-and-forth of what-ifs and could-bes will follow. An endless string, a laundry list. Where Irene makes a face for every name, every suggestion: too messy, or too innocent, or too sweet, or too boring, or not nearly shy or gullible enough, or whatever other bizarre caveat she finds to slot between all of her impassioned criticisms. The cabbie will be shaking his head at some point too, because the question hangs over the taxi at large: 

What exact criteria could possibly be good enough for the distinguished tastes and sensibilities of Bae Irene?

-

(The truth is: it doesn’t go like that at all.)

-

Enter then, Yu Jimin.

The run-in starts there, downstairs, out standing in a pool of warm, yellow light. The snow flurrying about in the glow of a street lamp - melting into where her smoothed curtain of jet-black hair spills over her shoulder and trickles down her sleeve. She looks a little cold, but not noticeably shivering. There’s a red flush to the exposed length of her legs, between a pair of knee-high boots and the short hem of the coat itself. The stockings underneath offer little in the way of wintery protection - nor do the little bows that rest at the the bands of elastic around her soft, pale thighs - though it’s obvious to anyone who’s looking why she’d choose to wear them.

An assay into form over function. She’s never cared for pragmatism.

But the lines around her are pristine, a clean-cut of shadow and substance; you take a step onto the curb, feeling yourself fall right into the foreground.

Look: you know Karina. You both do. Enough to recognize where it’s calmest before a storm.

Irene eventually calls out her name into the silence, and there is a split-second where her fingers reflexively wrap around the crook of your elbow. Almost possessive.

A car rushes by. Karina turns with her ungloved hand holding her cellphone to her ear and she’s fucking gorgeous as can be, always pinning you with these big, unapologetic eyes - strikingly and somewhat deceptively innocent beneath her sharp brows. A breathy huff in response; she’s otherwise unaffected.

Her shoulders shrug in easy dismissal; a quirk of the corners of her mouth. She slips her phone back in the pocket of her pea-coat. "Oh, how we all doing?”

Not for long, the question lingers.

“Fine,” Irene finally replies, though her voice doesn’t rise above a disinterested murmur.

“Easier, right? To fight for breath down here than it is up there,” she says, pointing her gaze up high into the rafters of the building, and in a lot of ways, you realize, she’s just like Irene - sweet, charming, this uncanny ability to make you think she’s close, when she isn’t actually looking to share anything. When she hasn’t exactly decided that she likes you or anything at all.

You squint slightly. Take in where her silhouette appears darker against the backdrop of city lights, blending with the velvety black, bleeding into the ink-smudged night sky.

“There’s certainly something to be said for flying under the radar at these things,” she continues, taking one step closer towards you as if for comfort. Or privacy - to guard against anyone who might walk by.

“You’ve still got it easy,” Irene says, “that, and everyone thinks you’re too pretty to go after. No one even seems to consider the idea, it’s insufferable.”

“Jealous?” Her tone is playful. There’s a smirk she’s suppressing - until she can’t hold it in: an unexpected, stunning smile, dimple and all. This incongruously kind face.

Oh, and listen, no one gets it better than Irene.

“No,” Irene exhales, hot. “Not at all.” You can see where the thin plume of her breath hangs over her like a cloud for a moment, thinking, before dissipating against the harshness of a frigid December breeze.

“Really.” She smiles at you again. Makes a sound that could be a laugh, you don’t know, the wind takes it, far away.

“Are you out here waiting for someone?” you have to ask. 

“Loaded question.” Karina purses her lips for a moment. Her long eyelashes blink once, twice. “Because, I dunno, aren’t we all?”

“Some of us more than others.” Irene speaks quietly, moreso to herself than anyone else - but somehow her voice carries.

“Cheeky,” Karina says, and this time she does laugh. “No. I’m waiting for a cab. I’ve had one hell of a night, and no interest in spending the rest of it in some rising socialite’s bed, doubters excluded, because - look, I’m happy for you guys, I guess? You’re gonna get married,” she claps slowly, slow and mocking, slow enough that Irene rolls her eyes, “-or, the two of you will make a statement saying that you are - either way it sounds fucking exhausting - congratulations to you both. But seriously, congrats.”

This is sorta how you’ve always known her. 

Faintly-hinted secrets, flirty half-truths. Her love life is an utter wreck, but that’s not something you’re supposed to know. So that’s all she gives, which is more or less how everyone knows her. It’s the only way to survive, probably, in a world of glitter and glamour, when everyone’s vying to look, to feel, to take, and take, and take. Irene knows how suffocating it can be - she doesn’t lie about it, not to you, which is the only reason you’re so well-versed.

Point being, no one wants to admit to any cracks in the fantasy; the gold too shiny, the surface too slick, the mirror too smooth for that illusion to slip.

“So go grab a guy with a half-decent smile and get him to buy you a drink about it,” Irene suggests, derisive, “arch your back, push your tits out, get creative. I doubt it’ll be much trouble at all.”

Karina looks down, back up - with a slight chew of her lip, saying, “you just have me beat in all the important ways, I suppose. You got it in the bag, no real competition.”

Irene is smiling, but her expression is unimpressed; it doesn’t mean much, really, to be her friend, her colleague, or worse, her opponent. Irene is calm like an evening in July, a low, cool, languid feeling. “I don’t mean to be a prick, but, aren’t you a little young to be so jaded?”

“Gosh,” Karina’s grin doesn’t change, but does turn a touch wicked, like she’s biting back. “I’d hate to be around when you do mean to be a prick, but maybe we’ll find out - you know, down the line, someday.”

Irene tuts softly. It sounds patronizing. "Please, you’ll have to forgive me - for mistaking you for someone more aware of how the rest of us work.”

“You’re one to talk, Irene.“

“Careful,” Irene warns.

"What, you gonna set me straight?”

“Right.” The way the word rolls off Irene’s tongue, slow, thick, bitter, like molasses; like the coffee she has when she’s tired, like the cigarette she swears left and right she’s cutting out and the vodka she needs you to reach for in the upper cabinets, like the person she is after midnight when you’ve let her keep drinking to find the limits to her inhibition. You understand Irene too well. And no matter what anyone says, you will not have the facts wrong.

There’s no kindness to the way she laughs. None.

She tilts her head to you, grinning: an honest grin, her favorite thing - inimitable, unique, and hers alone; her version of cruelty is what will always have them doubting. You hold her gaze as she adds, “of all things, right now - wouldn’t you just love to set her straight?”

-

Depending on who you ask, you’ll get different results.

Irene insists you kissed Karina first, probably out there in the snow - god knows how cliche would that be.

She also insists that it was you who suggested that “there’s a lot more sense in splitting a cab,” and then minutes later, “please, it’d be no trouble, just let us pay. Our place is five blocks that way,“ and Irene - being Irene - mentioning it’s actually quite a bit further, but hey, it isn’t worth splitting hairs over. And it’s not worth explaining - she shuts you up with another kiss, pressing her weight hard up against you, the arm she slings around your neck.

Then in a sort of mythologized version of the timeline, it’s you who makes the proposition - invites Karina upstairs, with the charm that Irene knows is usually reserved for her benefit alone: that slight tick of the brow, the delicate slant of your mouth, the confidence you seem to have in thinking no one will ever say no, no matter how brusque the invitation-

"You two are unbelievable. Is this really your standard procedure?” Karina asks, once you’re through the door, or maybe during a bout of smalltalk in the kitchen. Something flirtatious; and suggestive, and maybe a little offhand. A pointed glance downwards, back up. All it really will take. “You get some girl into your home and they’re just so overwhelmed and dazzled and in love, they can’t even make eye contact for longer than a second? Because that’s quite a line,” a soft huff, the exhale that seems to carry the faintest note of a sigh. You could call it wistful. Just this side of romantic; very attractive.

“That’s more or less the gist of it,” you offer.

“You’d be surprised.” Irene is lingering on it, back against the counter beside you, laughing. “Some people are more than happy to be swept off their feet.”

“Imagine that. If that’s how this is meant to go, then tell me,” and Karina lifts her chin, a breath drawn slow and deliberate, “what exactly do prince and princess charming do next?”

Consider that Karina’s interpretation of events is closer to reality: no pretense. She is not drunk, and in this story, she never will be.

But it’s the slow-burn thing, the rivals-to-lovers thing, the sexual-tension-through-conflict thing, the white-hot-blistering-rage matter gone awry. Not a series of happy accidents, but a result of intentional circumstance - this slow arc of descent. She knows exactly how Irene is tightly wound, and which thread to pull to make everything start to unravel. She’d flirt with you right under her nose - say things in this obnoxiously girlish tone, pout a lot, lean into so much innuendo it becomes impossible to miss the meaning, or the sincerity behind it.

If you had to guess - Karina’s been pining since forever, since Irene accidentally etched her DNA into the girl upon saying, carelessly, that she’d always seen some part of herself in Karina. Probably around the time Irene wrapped a palm over an expanse of bare thigh, just beneath the hem of her skirt, telling her, you’re getting way too pretty for your own good.

Doesn’t matter who you are, that’ll fuck you up for real.

And it’s not just how she looks at Irene when she thinks no one is watching either; swings and roundabouts, Karina probably can’t keep the thought of you sprawled out over Irene’s petite little frame, or Irene kissing you hard while wrapped around you tight. Your hand, her hand, intertwined and picturesque, sliding down Irene’s stomach. Together - and so very without her - fingertips stroking lightly over Irene’s clit, gently dipping inside her.

Irene is not stupid. She picks up on everything, and there’s a lot to unpack:

“Can you believe it? Minjeong just asked me if I’ve ever kissed a girl before,” Karina had said to you once, ages ago, between a workout or dance practice, something or another - she was wearing a loose-fit tank top and very intent on showing off. She seemed then to be taking mental note of the face Irene put on, the look of someone trying to hold in an aneurysm.

“Well,” you played along, because you’re not really without blame here either. “Have you?”

“Oh my god.” Karina knew what she awas doing, the playful slap to the chest, the lingering touches she’d have on you every chance she could get - total fucking coquette - anything to get a rise out of you, your fiancée. She hushed her voice down to this strategic whisper that Irene could just overhear: “of course not.”

You better believe Irene broke her composure not soon afterwards, after Karina made her exit. 

“Do not fuck her,” she demanded, firm, “I don’t care how good you think she might be in bed, or what she would probably let you get away with.”

You remember the knit of her brow.

“Do not.”

You’re sighing, profoundly. The memory - not to mention its shocking clarity - has put a smug sort of satisfaction into your bones, indulging. The nip to Karina’s jaw, a hot, open-mouthed kiss to her shoulder. A hand tracing down the curve of her hips, under the guise of helping her settle between the cushions of the couch. You feel like you catch the color flooding her cheeks. Then, Irene, her pretty little shadow: the steady presence over her other shoulder.

“What.” Karina sounds defensive when Irene pulls her lips away, but the hand she has buried in Irene’s hair doesn’t appear to be going anywhere. “Are we going to pretend for a minute I don’t see the way you’re both looking at me right now?”

“Don’t be stupid, darling, of course not.” Irene leans up close again. Kisses up her neck, behind her ear, and coos, “the two of us, you just seemed like you were needing someone, that’s all,” and then whispers the words, barely audible: “I mean look, who wouldn’t want the three of us right now?”

Karina hums. “Ah, so - you think I deserve to have a little fun.”

“Maybe,” she draws it out a little longer.

Your hands dip below her knees, running over the silk-slick surface, tugging at the frills lining her thighs - feeling up over the outline of where her body curves under her dress. Over the dark pattern printed across the front.

Karina swallows visibly, her head dropping back against the armrest, the couch cushion; by the way she shudders slightly and starts breathing, you realize that it’s probably been a while since she’s had much experience being in a position this helpless. You draw your fingers lightly across the bareness of her skin, right as Irene finds that sensitive spot just where her neck slopes to her collarbone. You trace along the fabric until you have her squirming beneath you both.

She sucks in a breath as Irene drags a touch right over the obvious seam, across the expanse of her hip, and despite your fiancée being a tad forward -

“Both of you should know I’m not that type of girl. Who puts out so easily-”

“Likewise,” Irene practically sneers, not missing a beat and threading her fingers beneath her jaw, feeling her pulse against the pad of her thumb.

“Yeah, well. If this isn’t a setup, then, what-”

“A setup.” Irene breathes the word out, contemptuous, which is almost as if she says yes, you figured it out, and she starts to lean in closer - the distance between the two of them now negligible as her mouth tightens with her derision. “That is awfully conceited of you.”

“Ha.”

You choose right there to run your palm between her thighs and cup at the front of her pussy through the skirt of her dress, squeezing tightly. There has to be an element of good cop, bad cop to this whole routine, and you’d be remiss not to participate in the former. Irene’s glare is starting to become pretty intimidating.

“The way I see it,” you begin, and it’s so gentle. Easy to slip through, but easy enough to grip - no threat, or indication that she should stop rocking forward to the motion of your fingers, toying idly. “There’s no catch. Only: Irene calls the shots. If you end up with a crush, or worse, think you’re in love,” a light squeeze to illustrate the point, the dig of nails, not too rough, but definitely drawing attention. “You’ve gotta walk it off.”

Karina just runs her tongue across her lips, sighing.

“No strings attached, no special treatment. Or anything.”

“Oh.” Karina is looking straight at you, dazed - as your fingers work harder, picking up where her hips started rolling a second before. She licks her lips. “You’re telling me that I’m going to get fucked so thoroughly here, that it’s gonna be a problem.”

“Actually,” you pull away, pushing her dress up so you can touch up ever higher this time. Rooting between her soft thighs. “I can’t make any guarantees. You’ll need to convince us first.”

There’s a laugh, from a spot inside her diaphragm - and yeah, there’s no denying the reality here. She’s nervous; or excited; or nervous-excited. Karina just lets it pass, an exaggerated sound in her throat, before gasping on an exhale of breath: “convince you to fuck me?”

“Between us, we’ve kissed our fair share of pretty girls in the heat of the moment,” Irene supplies.

Karina laughs. Starts saying, “in that case, can I start by confessing that this whole exchange has left me pretty fucking wet-" 

You slip one finger down the rise of her panties, this lacy little number she probably picked out with sordid fantasy in mind. 

"Oh god,” she says, voice drowned in her throat, husky, and sultry - it’s really hard not to appreciate the girl, like this - and then she closes her eyes, saying it again, “oh, yeah, like - like that. Okay, thank you.”

Irene puts a hot kiss into her lips, and a subjugating silence stills over the living room, softening around her small voice, her breathing. Everything comes together so seamlessly, so effortlessly: 

The click of Irene’s heels against hardwood, these soft sounds of wet tongues twisting and bodies grinding, Karina’s face, buried somewhere under Irene’s chin, letting out the cutest moan. Irene’s helping the rest of the dress up over Karina’s ass, then up past her waist, pulling down the scalloped elastic of her stockings. She grabs hold of her hips, feeling the draw of her curves there - you watch how your other half does the thing she does best, the thing where she strips a girl down to nothing like she’s doing them a favor.

“Pretty,” Irene appraises her naked body - not her face, not her mind, not her ambition or the strength of her determination, or god forbid, something banal like her personality, but, “fuck, look at you, look at this figure,” her palm skates along the plane of her stomach, “so pretty.”

It could be the insinuation: Irene is ready to reduce the girl down to a heap of jumbled nerves; to tears, probably - given half the chance. Like she’s telling her a body as flawless and well-manicured and sweetly receptive to being toyed with as hers needs to get absolutely wrecked, among other things.

(Fucked so deeply, and to the point of utter exhaustion - the point is that she forgets her own name.) 

Irene knows just by looking, her eyes tracing down each and every one of Karina’s curves like they’re taking inventory. It could be as simple as a handprint seared into her ass, a stinging red stain etched into her soft, creamy white skin, marking the insides of her thighs, her beautiful fucking tits - oh, the things the two of you could do.

“How do you want it, exactly?” Irene’s eyes are dancing around her face, in her stare, darting down, then back up. “How, baby.”

Karina smiles against Irene’s lips like she knows the answer, the perfect one. She must already have the script prepared. It’s no stretch of the imagination: “anything, as long as it means you both keep looking at me.”

Because maybe it’s down to the pure physicality of it all. Something Karina’s been waiting to feel, desperate to have, for some time - as you set into action, dismantling any pretense that you weren’t about to devour the heat of her aching cunt, from running touches all over her slick pussy. It’s a strong theory, you figure, from the visceral response you get when you get start to fuck her, when you slide a finger inside: tight and snug, and so unbelievably wet. 

“Oh,” she breathes out, and it sounds sated and needy all at once.

You make sure to glance at her face before pressing another into her. All the way past the knuckles. She looks lost to the feeling, the pleasure; her expression gone hazy-eyed as you start fucking into her with a few steady pumps of your wrist - slow and then faster, then faster again - fucking into her with increasing urgency.

Just to keep her gasping, panting.

Like a woman starved for it.

“God,” Irene kisses softly into her mouth. Her hand tangled in Karina’s hair, twisting strands between her fingers and tugging just shy of something painful, “you’re really sensitive, aren’t you?”

Karina nods, slightly. It’s all she can manage.

You have a soft spot for girls who will spread themselves open like they can’t wait, but still end up flustered over how your lips ghost across aching flesh. Who can’t even form the words - asking for this, and that, and a million little things; and look at Karina - blushing, her eyes fluttering closed, and digging her nails into the couch the moment you finally put your hot mouth on her. Her entire body is drawn taut like a live wire.

“Relax,” you coax, speaking more to the muscle - her legs tensed, and knees pulled tightly together. You know just where to place your lips to make her go to pieces, but it’s worth suspending pleasure - your own, and Irene’s, who won’t admit that this sorta turns her on too - so Karina’s face might open up, so the tilt of her brow can slack, and the twist of her expression can soften. Like it’s the only chance she’ll ever get.

When you place your palm across Karina’s stomach to steady her and look up, Irene has started peeling off her own clothes, down to nothing but the little panties underneath. That garter-belt thing that makes her ass look like she was sculpted straight out of clay - a reminder she’s always worth your time, no matter what mood she’s in, or whether or not she’ll eventually let you take the lead. She’s lifting herself on the couch to throw off the little slip of a dress, the high heels. “Baby,“ she purrs, teasing, maybe to distract from how she’s gone from dragging circles with her fingernails across Karina’s collarbones to kneading roughly at her tits. And she might even insert something she’s never actually had a chance to confess out loud, or even consider much, like: she’s been dying to know what Karina’s face will scrunch up into, or what her eyes will look like, tears stained across her lashes while you fuck her within an inch of her life. The image you’ll find when you find all those spots that drive a girl wild.

Your mouth drags over the slick, her lips, her clit, and down again - as if to illustrate the point.

"That feels - so,” she starts, and bites off the rest of the words.

Irene grabs hold of Karina’s hands. Presses their mouths back together, and bites Karina’s bottom lip. Kissing the words out of her, the sentences that start in half measures and stifled gasps:

“- so, good, oh. Do - ah, fuck. Oh, god-”

-and vanish somewhere in Irene’s mouth.

“-oh, do that again. Oh my god. There. Just - lick- please, keep fucking, exactly that-”

And pay close attention, because here now is how she slips: from the image she maintains for the cameras, the audiences, her admirers, her competition, her detractors, the ones who mean it, the ones who don’t mean a damn thing; the girl who shies away from anything overtly sexual, or sensual, or remotely hedonistic; and doesn’t act as though she too, just as much as anyone else, needs someone to fuck her stupid - as if it’s an eventuality of her own humanity, instead of a concept she’s learned to scorn.

Irene picks up on the distinction, all too familiar with the look filling out across Karina’s angelic features.

She ghosts her thumbnail across Karina’s nipple. Tries out: “why don’t you make her cum, baby, right here, on the couch.” A look at you, a quick tilt of the chin. Then, her tongue peeking from behind her teeth, and her voice dropping, "just so you can tell Minjeong, or whoever ends up asking - 'you have no idea how good they fuck.’”

And just like that - with Karina’s body laid out beneath Irene’s hands, your mouth - you simply fucking ruin her. 

You both do. 

Until it’s only a mess of whines and shuddering limbs and that lovely look: pure agony. So helpless. So utterly exposed.

Karina hiccups something incoherent - you’re doubling down. You’re working your touches through the torrid mess between her legs. Her pussy is shimmering wet and hot and every bit as pretty as she is. Then, the motion of your tongue, the slow, heavy flick back and forth, relentless and constant - dragging back and forth, keeping her right up, riding the wave. Back and forth, back and forth. 

“Oh my fucking god.” Karina can only gasp, jaw-slacked open. 

Overwhelmed and blissed-out and suddenly awash in this searing and wondrous sensation that the only real way she’s able to make sense of is by twisting her hands in your hair and pulling you flush against her cunt while she cums on your lips.

“Ah - you’re fucking kidding me. Please, don’t stop, please don’t-” Karina has her head turned. Voice pitched right into Irene’s shoulder. You fuck her on two fingers until she’s got the heel of her palm pressed firm into her forehead, and she’s starting to jerk her hips into your face. Stutter her breathing, her words: “I, I, I- fucking - what the fuck, you’re making me - jesus fucking christ.“

Like some delicate and intricate piece of her had just been irreparably snapped. Broken. You hear her expletive-laden screams - and think, better her, than either of you.

And all the way through every last part of it, cresting, waning, quivering, the tremble of her thighs snapped shut against your ears, the grind of her teeth, and each little choked out gasp-

“I'm… fucking cumming.”

Karina spends the entirety of her first orgasm between the two of you, heaving.

The look on her face alone, just from what parts you can see, has your lower gut clenched - it goes from anguished pleasure, mouth pulled wide and brows wound high and tight, all the way to calm and cathartic, the pretty bow of her lips settling into something manic. Eyes softening with a luster, half-closed. A mask, the afterglow: blissed-out and smiling dreamily.

How anyone could say no to a picture like this, you’re unsure. Though not particularly willing to test the theory, naturally.

"That was mean,” Karina finally huffs, letting a moment pass to even out her breaths. “Both of you, so mean.”

“You said to,” is all Irene says, amused. 

Karina looks down; lifts her head just slightly - as you bring your own mouth off her, catching her glance. Not even your palm and your fingers covered with the evidence - it’s her lips that give her away, the swollen, pouting, bright pink lips of her pussy, still radiant with her climax.

She breathes, “god. Irene.”

It sounds an awful lot like she’s begging for mercy.

Irene hums softly. Leans in for a kiss, with her slender hands cupping Karina’s face. Manages to say: “you just look so fucking hot when you’re struggling. Can’t fault us for that.” She reaches down, and digs her fingernail into the line of Karina’s cheek - near the center, just short of the outer curve where her dimple naturally settles. She works her lips to a very soft, “ow.”

“Listen,” Irene says, “is there anywhere else you’ve been considering going? Because in the event you’re looking to stay for the night-”

Karina replies, “only everywhere I still haven’t gone.”

Her smile looks honest. Her cunt seeping and slick - there’s abundant honesty there, too. And you manage to catch the wicked glint in Irene’s eye, like she’s a bit obsessed with all that glisten, and what it means - that Karina hasn’t felt a real, good dicking in ages. Maybe, probably, never. That she’s slept with everyone and filled her quota of playing pretend: of someone just going through the motions, dragging their mouth or tongue or cunt along the most obvious, conventional routes.

It’s written all over her face: the girl between you needs to be touched everywhere, and by someone who knows how. Needs it deeper, more. Has to feel the pressure everywhere all over.

Irene asks her, plainly, “how might we get you moaning like that again, hm? We’re both dying to know.“

She puts her hand under Karina’s chin, tilts her face towards hers, and kisses her long and deep. Until the both of them are having trouble catching any breath. Until they have to break, only so one can take another in: inhale, exhale, and back in her mouth.

"Maybe.” Karina lets go of Irene’s lower lip. She sounds almost bashful, “you’ll need to let me get my hands on that cock of his. Let me get it inside, want it real fucking deep inside. Tell you if I’m just, you know. Really fucking horny. Or maybe I have some hangups about sex I’ve never told anyone - and we have to work past that,” she takes Irene’s mouth into her own again.

It’s the short consideration of sure, mm, why not? until the next suggestion is: “he should be on his knees, in bed, those hands around my waist, behind the small of my back and pulling me into every stroke.”

“Oh,” Irene agrees, “I love that. Should I play with myself while I watch him fuck you senseless? So hard and rough - you’ll start seeing stars. I wanna see him completely railing into your dripping pussy from behind, fucking you so goddamn well until you’re screaming so loud it’ll wake the neighbors.“

Karina sighs. “Well I’d hate to get all the way here and half-ass it.”

You barely catch it, but there’s a lovely note in Karina’s voice. It’s saying, and don’t you dare treat me like glass, like I’m fragile.

All in all, a filthy, filthy way for a girl with virtually no ill-reputation or ill-gotten gains - no record whatsoever - to describe how she wants you to fuck her, until she’s biting down on the consonants in your name, moaning loud and unmistakably clear, and-

“-sorry, whose cock?” Irene has no intention of letting her off easy.

You draw away from the meat of her thigh, licking your lips clean, and insert mid-conversation with a husky-voiced, "hmm?”

Karina just shoots you a sharp-eyed look. “You heard.”

“Only,” you play dumb. You run a hand between her legs, using your palm as you go, so you can pull more sound out of her throat; the pleased sighs, a hum. Another. “The part where you want it 'real fucking deep inside,’ I think I heard.”

“I mean, wouldn’t you?” Karina looks satisfied with that. Lets out an easy laugh and turns to Irene. “Besides, I need to know if it’s more than just pretty eyes and a handsome smile that you’ve gotten yourself so hung up on.”

The tilt of your fiancée’s brow above her is noticeable and apparent. Not a twinge of surprise; more like recognition. It’s Irene looking haughty - beyond the usual - wrapped up in the afterglow. It’s the confidence, and not at all humbled by the reality that she is no stranger to fucking a girl this downright gorgeous, knowing the danger inherent in allowing that kind of damage, but if Irene has you figured - she’s figured Karina even better: someone willing to push through the burn. Someone, she’s betting, with the capacity to handle pain like it’s an artform.

“Karina,” Irene says, and she’s really leaning into it, “you really ought to be more careful with that smart-mouth of yours.”

It’s the absolute worst way to proposition someone; maybe second only to what Irene whispers straight into her ear:

"If I had to guess, it’s your sweet, pretty face that has everyone bending over backward just to let you fuck them, hmm?” 

You’d anticipated this much. You watch how your beautiful wife-to-be eases forward and leaves a slow kiss into Karina’s throat, before adding the worst, most awful thing she can manage, “they’re eating up this adorable, innocent facade of yours just as soon as you let it slip - letting you straddle their waist, and slide right on, and chase some clout out of oh, she must have this tight little cunt, or how good it would fucking feel to ruin a load just slamming these perfect tits, or. The best of the best, when it comes to pretty things with brains and mouths on 'em: 'fuck, I bet Karina has a face like an angel, she’s the kind of girl who probably really, really loves taking it raw - filled and fucked as deep as she can manage’.”

“She’s insinuating you’re a slut,” you offer on the next beat, down from between Karina’s knees. “Or something.”

“I put that much together.” Karina has that teasingly pragmatic tone in her voice, matching Irene’s level. “Your point?”

The joke is that even Irene - after she has the chance to drag her thumb across Karina’s lips - looks mildly impressed.

“Sweetheart,” the corner of Irene’s mouth quips, as if the reason is so, so very obvious, “let’s say you’re just like me, total hypothetical. You’re going to have to let us know which part feels better: the praise, or the degradation. I know it’s what makes you tick: all the attention. I know you need it. The same way I know that I could eat this perfect pussy out for hours just to get it slick, and wet, and wanting, and the thing I’m still not sure you’d be ready to learn,” she tells her, a light in her stare that flicks upwards, eyes going from Karina’s cunt and back to her eyes, her own mouth, and then hers, “the really good sex? Isn’t always pretty.”

There isn’t room for misunderstanding, let alone any mercy in it. Irene’s face is dark; dangerous. Like, seriously. Karina knows better. Everyone does. You know exactly what she’s doing. You know what comes next, but this time, you can’t shake the feeling like-

Like Karina wants you to look.

She has her fingers on her cunt, spread, presenting - and a small shrug; her response is so fucking coy: “I guess I can’t really help it. Besides, it’s common knowledge, isn’t it? The brattiest girls always turn out to be the best fucks. Honest, I get so wet sometimes, you know and then god, I can’t think straight.” 

She laughs at the premise. 

“I dunno, what’s a girl to do?”

You can feel the room starting to tighten up, just barely: Karina’s breath still heavy, her chest heaving, the way Irene holds her still, how her arm curls across her stomach, palm flat under her tits; that pose in particular, the power to entice.

And maybe it’s the fact Irene is still making eyes at you from Karina’s shoulder, the cruel bite to her upper-lip, showing how she’s working at the soft skin of her neck - a smirk, before pressing into another kiss there. Your insides are running hot, a shudder racing up your spine. There’s no mistaking what she’s getting off on, not just some pretty-as-paint newcomer. There’s your Irene, your fiancée - and her beautiful, adorable, awful little shadow.

-

So what if, by some pure hypothetical, this all spirals out of control?

You don’t know the consequences of taking home what amounts to a coworker and screwing her with a certain reckless abandon. There’s power harassment, a toxic workplace environment, boundary issues, sexual-fraternization. So on, so forth. It’s all relative, but watching Irene and Karina make their way up the stairs and admiring the things that only a woman’s hips can do, swaying this way, and that - and, following the path from one tight little ass, the other, all the way up their spines - there are no such qualms to contend with, because there’s absolutely zero chance that’s the thing that’ll be keeping you up all night.

Irene laments and hopes in the same breath. 

She has two pairs of panties in one hand, Karina’s fingers laced into the other, explaining with a quick squeeze, “don’t tell me, baby, I already know,” a wink, a laugh. She’s such a sweetheart when she means to be; charming, wooing, the coy girl Karina seems to have gotten so drunk off the idea of getting mixed up with. And yeah, when she drops them on the floor, and pushes Karina gently against the wall. Traces her finger up her jaw, then her cheek, and leans into the crook of her neck, into that same spot from earlier; yes, Karina can count herself lucky, or whatever.

“So, don’t stop now, baby-” Karina’s huffing - the line of her throat so taut and exposed. “You should really fucking try harder if you want me to beg.”

“Honey,” is how Irene responds, leisurely.

There will come a point in their intimacy, in all things considered, where this act no longer plays itself: Irene, the seductress, and Karina, a deft and innocent prey; of course you, the hammer to a nail, pushed and pulled in one direction, the next. The moments in which her lips leave the crescent of Karina’s mouth - hot, hazy, and half-wet with their own spit, their tongues twisting, the muted click, and the telltale wet drag of a body pushing and straining up against her own-

Maybe in her bones, she is begging for it. Maybe, Irene hopes, she’ll have to: eyes turned up, watering, tears coming hot, streaming down her flushed cheeks as she cries it from her lungs.

“I wouldn’t have you beg for anything.”

It’s true that Irene is ninety-nine percent grace, one percent child-like wonder; she’s easy to read when the mood hits her. The lines of their bodies tousling, twisting and tangling in moon-lit-darkness. There’s some irony to it, only a few steps away from the bedroom. At the base of the staircase. In front of the tall windows covered with frost that serve, now, primarily to remind Karina that she’s in a part of town she could never afford, in an ostentatious apartment she could only dream of; but most importantly, that the woman in front of her - with her fingers dipping down between her thighs and up again, tracing over her navel and the rise of her hip and her cleavage - can have anyone she likes, without limitation.

Karina can’t deny it’s everything she wants.

“Karina, I’m curious.” You’re easing into that spot, where the two of them have coiled themselves up - you’ve got your cock in your hand and you’re stepping out of your pants - in the hallway, the frame of the door, a heavy, long shadow cast: Karina has Irene pinned now, a wrist over her head, against the other side of the wall where the white paintwork is starting to run thin. “Didn’t you say something before about how hard you wanted it? Raw, deep, I believe was how you put it.”

Irene smirks. It’s just the slightest sneer, until she has her hands reaching over the curves of Karina’s hips and pulling her fingers into her soft ass. Spreading her cheeks. Touching up, then down, back in the same groove, this slow rhythm that builds - like they were both expecting this exact sequence of events.

You watch Irene whisper something into the girl’s ear, and - fuck - the light catches her expression at just the right moment, head lolled to the side.

“Hey,” Karina drawls. She lets it come out breathy - on the note, the middle and upper registers of her voice, hitting something near a perfect alto. “How about instead of having some heart-to-heart, and making me out to be some naive-ass kid, you stop asking questions and get to fucking the life out of my little pussy.”

She ends it so charming.

“Oh,” you tell her, feeling how fucking drenched she is right at the end of your cock - sliding her slick up and down the length of her cunt, and knowing the feeling will likely stick to your skin and drip to the floor, all of it - “well. If that’s all.”

Your hand arrives on the lithe stretch of muscle between her waist, right along the ridge of her hip bone, your cock pressing onto the heat of her cunt. Karina turns her head over her shoulder so you can see it all in profile: that pout. That look. That everything.

“There you have it.” Irene squeezes the flesh she’s got cupped in her palms, drawing circles. “If only everyone else got to hear that sweet, sharp edge you’ve got underneath, hm?”

Karina opens her mouth with some clear quip to needle, but stops herself, a catch in the center of her throat, her brows shooting up. The pull of her voice is somewhere out and over.

“God, fuck-” she can just manage to sputter. “You’re- ah, ah - your fucking cock-”

Oh, it has you cursing too. You’re pushing so far into her tight little cunt - the soft airy moan, that pretty sound, riding back on every last stroke until you’ve filled her right to the hilt.

“I know, I know - that feels so good, right?” Irene coos.

You just pull her all the way back onto your cock, thrusting deep. Base to tip. So goddamn fucking deep.

Karina probably doesn’t even mean to whimper, but the press of your hips, slowly snapping in and in, has her lungs constricted, as the pressure slides through every hot, slippery inch inside of her - this glide of agonizing intensity.

“I bet you want to just cream all over that cock,” Irene says, fine eyebrows knitting into something like contentment. “All filled up and feeling full, and just fucking letting it go - he’ll take such good care of you. He’ll fuck you so good you won’t ever get that warm, hazy, blissed-out feeling out of your veins ever, ever again, if he has his way-”

All while the head of your cock works over every fucking sensitive part of her, dragging out to thrust all the way into her soft cunt, the round of her ass bouncing back to meet each stroke. Again, and again, until you’ve worked through that wet stretch of muscle. And the motion isn’t exactly elegant. Karina’s mouth hangs wide open, catching short breaths that curl inwards when you reach the line of her waist.

“It’s so fucking good,” Karina’s sighing out. She’s all fluster, no bite.

There’s no lack for juxtaposition in the way Irene dotes on her either - these small beguiling bits of praise like, baby, you’re doing so good, these tits of yours are just, you are - just gorgeous. Mouth quirked into a tight grin as her fingers pull and twist around her nipple. The sharp yelp that comes after. The fact that she’s kissing the words into her mouth on the very next whimper: “a girl like you needs the time, and patience, and opportunity to have her insides completely, totally, catastrophically ruined.”

Irene had it exactly right on the first read. She’ll say, “I told you so,” when Karina’s washing the cum off her chest or out of her eyelashes in the shower. It’s the praise; it’s the degradation; it’s you leaning down, your hands finding her hair, curling in, and getting her right up against your lips to say it quiet, low, intimate - like a lover, like she hasn’t already heard it before, “such a good little slut for me.”

And the girl absolutely fucking keens.

You grip onto her hips. You pull her hair tight. Her throat bobs under your thumb and you can feel the anxiety start to throb, her pulse hot and heavy in her cunt. How it soaks the base of your cock. Jesus, you’ll fuck a load right into her. So easily. Her pussy is so snug, so unbelievably wet. Perfect enough to know if you fuck into her any faster, any harder - it’ll be just that: you’ll paint right up to her cervix; you’ll fill her to the fucking brim.

“Fuck, Karina, this pussy is such a fucking dream,” is what you’re making sure she knows, and at that, Karina just finds that bend. Arches more of herself to you, until her ass is slotted into the plane of your stomach, the head of your cock prodding, testing the limit where her cunt is hottest and wettest. “God, this has to feel incredible. Your ass bouncing on my cock” - Karina goes slack on the force, leaning forward - “as I rail your tight little cunt.”

If anything, Irene is there to catch Karina’s tearful, thankful gaze when she finally starts fucking crying, a litany of yes, fuck yes, yes-yes-right-there, please fuck, and a wet, dazed little “you’re goddamn - you’re ruining, fucking - fucking, ruining me,” every other syllable broken by her shuddering breaths.

“Aw, you’re going to cum again, huh? Baby-” Irene’s got her head at an angle - their gazes locked, watching - and maybe Irene really gets it: how much of a big, bad crush this gorgeous fucking woman’s had on the pair of you all this whole time, with all that faux-romance, and lust, and envy wrapped up inside her - but if she wasn’t so obsessed with the shape of Irene’s mouth, the contour of her jaw, the lean and sleek lines of her frame and the soft, round swell of her ass - she’d still be left with the shape of your cock, where it’s pounding her apart. Fucking her and fucking her up.

It’s more than worth the breath to remind Karina what she came here for. Irene’s fingertips brush the line of her lips, part them just so. 

“All over him, baby, let him make a mess of you. Just a total fucking mess. We’ll fill you up, and fill you up, until your poor, aching pussy is full of cum,“ and it’s probably as well: Karina does what comes most natural to her - with you three, the whole number. Her eyes flutter and go dreamy. There’s not even a moment of hesitation:

”-until it’s leaking down these fucking thighs-“

"You’re doing so good, babe,” is your supporting role in all this, murmuring encouragement straight into her ear as you fuck her to pieces. Your breath fans out against her cheek. And then, your hands make a grip under her thighs, holding her steady, making her mouth fall open - this keen, wobbly, vulnerable thing that exposes the naked girl she is, behind all the makeup, and the heels, and her seductive and all-consuming appeal, everything.

“Just so you know: it’s the best fucking part, Karina. I mean, the look on his face.” Irene laughs with her whole body, until the rich, raspy sound of it fills the hall. “The way he bites his lip when he’s close, his eyes clenched - and god, I fucking love when he finally cums. It’s so good, watching him. Letting him have his way. Feeling his cock throb and spill into you - hot, and still, and just pumping inside you - just so, so good.”

“Fuck, ah-” the little gasp is like she’s starting to hyperventilate. 

“Because baby,” is the final nail in the coffin, hammering home, “he’s fucking you just like he’d fuck me.”

"Fucking, please, god-.”

Irene’s hands have her breasts in their grasp and are playing at where she’s sensitive, then pushing into the soft, delicate space beneath, thumbing the indents. “He’s so fucking good, isn’t he? Are you going to cream and cream all over his hard fucking cock?”

Then - and because it comes so instinctually to her. Because, actually, your Irene has a slight propensity for evil:

She slaps Karina, right across her tits. “Fucking cum on it.”

One.

Tugs hard on a nipple. “I swear, every single bit of you is so goddamn beautiful-”

Two.

“That body is built, perfect. So easy to ruin. And god - what a perfect little pussy you’ve got-”

Three.

Karina struggles to breathe. Her voice is torn, frayed. She barely manages to utter out a very shaky, very desperate, “harder, fuck- you’re fucking making me so- you can, harder-”

Four.

The cruel contact of Irene’s palm pulls this deliciously hedonistic sound in Karina’s throat, a loud moan; like she just hit the sweet spot inside that’s all her nerves coming alight. Irene plants a quick peck in Karina’s hair. Her temples, the ridge of her brows. Slides her thumb across her eyelashes, brushing them clean from whatever tears had sprung free. You don’t even want to try, not at that moment, to try and endure the quiver of slippery muscle all over your cock as she shudders into her orgasm. It’s simply too fucking much. She’s too fucking tight.

“Aw, shh shh, shh,” and then Irene’s soft hushes are coming down from the other side of her head. Irene kisses her full, straight on her mouth. Karina is shaking, convulsing and caught and fucked from head to toe - and what she needed was someone like the two of you - to watch her cunt swallow your cock like some magnificent and unbelievable sight, taking the whole damn thing. Irene is telling her, “it’s okay. You can let it go.”

The silhouettes alone. From the end of the hall, and where the afterimage lingers: the smoke-frosted windows, the dim lights, their bare, beautiful forms - this picture that will stick in the center of your head, will probably haunt you-

“God, I can’t, just- ah.”

“Breathe,” Irene says.

"I’ll cum again, it’s too- I’m so-” Karina can only plead and sigh.

Irene shushes her one more time. “It’s a lot. It’s alright, baby. He’s going to keep fucking you until he’s ready to pull out, until he has a whole mess just painted onto your ass, and thighs, and I’m going to make sure that little pussy gets so wrecked, fucked, stretched on every last inch- until the thought of sex hurts, and then we’re going to make you cum again, and again- over, and over-”

You’re leaning over her, nose buried into the waves of Irene’s hair, the curve of Karina’s back, and the flush of skin in contrast. That’s when you feel the coil in your chest come loose - unspooling, and bursting - when Karina’s lids roll into the back of her head and her lips fall open with a pleasured gasp and a stammer, “y-you’re, ah, both, you’re so, both- oh god.”

You’re about to just pull her down and absolutely cream her, stuff her full - a mess.

And she wants you to-

“That feels so fucking good,” she lets slip out on the cusp of a shiver, just as her inner muscles are spasming, milking your cock with the pressure from one pulse through the next, squeezing.

She’s right. It does. Her, coming undone. You, at wit’s end. 

Another breath, and Karina is managing out between these small hiccups - not as much out of breath, just dumbstruck - simply muttering, “I’m cumming, I- oh my god." 

You barely manage it; you unbury your cock from her cunt; you’re cumming all over her ass. 

A shot of white that streaks right down to her bare-slicked skin, before it gets painted down into the crease of her pussy, all swollen - wrecked and raw.

Just the way it feels on her skin is enough to earn another hushed moan from her, this sweet little whimper as she can hardly stand up straight. She lets her knees buckle, but Irene is right there, to catch. Her eyes are closed, eyelids clenching, as Irene tilts Karina’s face her way, to lay one, two, three soft, adoring kisses on her mouth, the angle all wrong. 

“Mmm.” The smack of her lips. The pull of whatever breath she still has to give - right out of her heaving chest. "Sore, that, ahhh- um, thank you.”

You fiancée wraps a slender hand right around Karina’s wrist, and starts whispering to her, unbridled, “just had to. Had to see how you look-”

It’s wicked, for one thing. More than that, it’s seamless:

While Irene still has the girl’s voice caught in her throat, she reaches around the curve of Karina’s hips and drags two fingertips through the puddle of warm cum that sits right at the base of her spine, glistening all over her ass cheeks and inner thighs, slipping and rolling off her cunt, down the center, running in rivulets. Your cum between her fingers is so filthy, so obscene - dripping hot - right off her reddened skin, and Irene can’t possibly help it; not after a display as indulgent as that. The trembling that remains in Karina’s thighs does nothing to hide how her legs now jitter and shake under Irene’s touch.

“That’s my good girl,” she whispers as her fingertips hover across the apex of her puffy lips. Over and over again, with more force, and more, until you’re almost positive it’s Karina that leans in a moment later, kissing the rest of her soft assurances right off her tongue.

Listen to her: this incoherent string of words pouring from her mouth, like they can’t move fast enough, tripping over each consonant, “are you, oh, oh - oh, fuck.”

No one else could make that kind of overstimulation feel so heavenly, you figure, the way she just properly melts. You take a step back, just to let Irene work. Just to watch. To appreciate the craft.

You absolutely get it. 

How to touch, how to tease. Firsthand experience has you know she’ll ride your cock until you’re throbbing and spilling cum and she’ll just shh-shh, let you have it - it’s okay, sweetie, just let go - until she’s rolling her hips just right, or reaching a hand back to massage your balls, or stroking your inner thigh in that exact kind of spot; some method that keeps her all the way on the end of your cock, but not quite off the edge, and your cum leaking down your shaft, spent.

She’ll bite into her smirk. She’ll tie up her hair. She’ll get that serious look on her face because she knows: you’re all hers for the taking.

So she’ll sink onto it, again and again, until she’s fucking you with the slippery friction only your own spill might provide. “Just a little more,” she’ll tell you, which is absolutely a lie, “come on, just a bit harder, I’m so close.” Irene does this thing - she’s had years to refine and perfect - and her voice gets a husky edge to it as her teeth graze the shell of your ear; she makes a small, pained groan into the curl of your hair and breathily hums it: 'I’m almost there.’

Who stands any chance to resist?

And she’s always asking you - the same way she’s coaxing and promising Karina the world with just the movement of her fingers, this delectable in and out, in and out, pushing that filth up into the red-soaked lips of her pussy - “now, what did I ever do to deserve someone like you?”

Karina blinks, once - a sleepy-lidded draw that leaves her lashes, lush and long, and fanning her flushed cheeks. 

The sound between her legs is wet, squelching with your cum, with hers, the barest hint of slapping her tender skin. The beat of Irene’s wrist against her thighs - like that’s where she needs it most - a deep, primal rhythm, like the last thing she wants is to take a breath. It’s fucking hot; her head is tilted, her jaw clenched, and Irene has the tips of her fingers twisted between Karina’s legs, swirling your cum right back around in her slick cunt - those plump pussy lips that you’ve watched stretch out on the first press, the first and the second and the third, as Karina finds what gets her there fast, fast-fast-fastest-

“You can cum for me too, baby.”

It’s not a suggestion. There’s nothing but expectation in Irene’s voice. 

“Just cum.”

You watch it knock the architecture right out of Karina’s legs.

-

Indulgent, just isn’t quite the right word for it. Careless, reckless, clumsy even-

Look - the tumultuous tangle you three make is all over the fucking place.

One moment, you’re at an angle, moreover twisted-limbed with Irene bent over her dresser, then propped up on top of yours the next, your forehead landing against hers, feeling the soft cradle of her shoulders, her legs around you. She has her hands wrapped in Karina’s, in that muddled in between: it’s a collision of sorts.

There’s the chair in the corner of your bedroom that really has only ever known one purpose, a plush rug, all these surfaces, horizontal and vertical for you to take the two most breathtakingly beautiful people in the world on and let your bodies settle into the shape they’ve needed to ever since your fingertips met Irene’s in the cab, ever since she blinked her heavy lashes at you with Karina in-tow, just shy of smiling.

And boy, do you learn that Karina likes to watch herself get fucked in front a mirror. Specifically, the tall one beside Irene’s closet. It’s hard to blame her. When you hold her hips tight, and really, truly fuck her, you can’t keep your eyes off how her face twists with the pleasure; or, when you drill the length of your cock into her sopping wet cunt: the wide, glossy rim of her pretty lips pulling back into a wince - and your eyes dropping past the reflection of her shoulders, her collarbones, down to her perfect tits.

The back and forth, the up and down, the way they fucking wobble in their beautifully buxom blur.

Though the eventuality remains unchanged, spread out across your bed. Karina takes a moment, hand pressed to the mattress experimentally like it’s all running through her head - this is where Irene gets all that fairy-tale-inspired romance from, really - a quick pause where your future-bride is up on her elbows and staring, watching - your finger sinks in slowly, between where she’s soft and warm and wet. She’s thinking, you can just read it off her face, 'oh. So that’s what you’d do, huh?’

Just for demonstration’s sake, you fingerfuck her in all kinds of ways - show-off and performance and dirty and mind-blowing. Because even better than the whiny, gut-wrenching moan it gets out of Irene, Karina can’t get enough of how it’s all presented.

“Ugh,” she slides up next to you at the foot of the bed, helping you turn Irene on her side, “why does she have to be so pretty, it’s annoying, she’s- she’s like, made it so fucking far by playing the girl everyone wants to wife, huh?” She’s talking directly to you, even while Irene rolls her neck to press her head against the pillow. “Inspirational.”

You’re drawing circles into her clit. Thumbing the dip, circling in the opposite direction. Karina has her nails biting right into the crease where your knees touch. In tandem, you’ll help your fiancée reach the top of that first wave. 

Karina presses, all cheek - a very dry, “cute.”

It’s so simple: you eat Irene’s cunt. You hold her down. And Karina slides her tongue lazily against the tight pucker of her ass.

The three of you know she deserves nothing less.

“Oh, christ, you have no idea,” Irene is murmuring into the pillowcase, head tilted at an awkward angle, looking at the wall, almost distant; but her legs are split wide and her hands are reaching forward to rub a circle into your cheek, “you know how sensitive-? Yeah. Like, really, super. Super, super fucking sensitive, okay? So - if you’d keep doing, uh, oh- oh…”

Simultaneous, then slow, and easy - kisses landing right onto Irene’s clit. So much so, you can’t help but turn a little, smiling right up at your girl as she digs her toes into the duvet and threads a hand into Karina’s hair.

The thing is, with Irene: facades fade fast.

Karina gets to measure that fact up close - where the details of Irene’s composure are not only sharp, but also readily and openly and emphatically pound to dust by the time the last loose curl of Irene’s hair falls over her collarbone; she ends up on all fours, spread out over Karina - pressed along the length of her stomach, spread over your duvet and fitted sheets, your hand at the base of Irene’s waist and tightening into the divots. She’s so small beneath you that when you bury your dick inside her- 

“Fuck.” Her cunt is so wet. Her breath uneven - and her words are starting to slur. There’s the gooseflesh on her back that lets you know it’s all already over for her. “Okay,” she tries to steady the ache in her stomach, “okay, okay, just- right there.” 

The drag through her pussy is fucking extraordinary. It knocks the wind out of both of you; so soft to the touch, like velvet - she’s unbelievably tight. You pull her hips into you and it opens her right up. Then when you end up balls deep inside your girl a second, third, fourth time:

She simply shudders apart.

Even though you fuck her so slow, so easy - her cunt clenches and squeezes on you like Irene detests the very idea of letting you go. You don’t even need to rail her lithe body to complete and utter ruin just to feel the familiar pent-up tremor starting to build in her muscles, how she rolls her hips back just so-so. How your hands fit that round and pert little ass of hers so well, and when your fingers finally sink in, you’re pulling it all apart to get a good look where your cock shimmers with her slick before disappearing right into her tiny cunt.

Karina mutters something in her ear. It pulls on some thread, somewhere - you feel her wind like a spring, further, and further; your cock edging her so close. The smirk Karina saves for you over your fiancée’s shoulder makes you think she’s figured her out- 

“Irene, look-” 

Well, at least she’s tuning in on all the right frequencies.

"Aren’t we all about being thorough?” Karina raises a perfectly trimmed brow. She drapes her arm across Irene’s neck, their lips sliding together again, and that kiss is drawn-out and languid, albeit needy. “So, say,” it gets muffled against the seam of their lips, and comes up, and comes out like a slurry, “are we gonna use everything else too? Your mouth, your perfectly tight ass?”

Irene can hardly muster out, “fuck- fuck- yes, fucking, god,” as she takes it, so deep. There’s enough there to make both of you cum, you’re sure.

“Who could’ve guessed - like there’s ever been a more perfect cocktease than bae-fucking-Irene,“ Karina coos, all lips. She plants a row of kisses along Irene’s exposed throat. The tilt of her hips, as she pushes closer - as you press the head of your cock as deep as it can go. "Go on. Cum, baby. Be a good girl, a good hole to fuck, just do it. All over his big fucking cock. Let him fucking have you.”

Which is probably about the same time you realize that you, Irene and Karina are all well enroute - becoming this one mind, a single unit. This plurality you know there’s no coming back from.

You look down, with a little more focus, and Irene is being pulled apart in every which way - your cock stretching her out, over and over - Karina’s fingers right under her clit, every circle making her whimper. She’s all sharp edges and delicate angles, but manages to be soft for you in just the right places.

“God, you’re so fucking tight,” you tell her, shifting your hips; pulling her ass flush and filling her completely. Your grip tightens on her waist and she doesn’t flinch a bit. “It’s so goddamn easy to cum in this needy little pussy of yours. All wet and slick, and, hah- just pulsing-”

Irene lets out this wanton sound, desperate.

“Oh, right there, huh?” Karina asks. It’s not quite mean, but it’s getting there, fast. “Is that how he’s going to make you cum?”

You thrust on the same angle again, the same depth - you’re hitting all her nerve endings, all her sensitive spots. There isn’t even room, now, for some imaginary head-to-head, some verbal volley, the banter; what comes forward is her tiny, broken moan.

How many times had Irene done the exact same, after all. Fucked you without holding back? Fucked you over? The flood of sweet-nothings as you started to approach: honey, you’re so perfect, we can go slow, you just have to ask, and if you feel uncomfortable at any point, if you want me to stop-

“Just say please, doll,” Karina tells her.

If Irene told you a quarter of what made it out of the side of Karina’s mouth, you’d have never believed it. “I can’t wait to feel what that arrogant mouth of yours will do when he cums inside this cute ass-”

You watch Karina spank her. Hard. There’s a red stain in the round of Irene’s cheek, and her skin is so pale that the imprint of all five fingertips looks stark, glaring.

“Just,” Karina presses the rest of herself against Irene’s skin and steals a quick glance at you - this half-coy smile pulling on one corner of her lips, “thought I’d do that in the name of-”

“Mmph,” Irene’s groan is long, loud, “yes. Fuck, yes- please-”

Karina immediately looks away. An effort to hide the smug satisfaction. She fiddles with the auburn locks behind Irene’s shoulder.

You’ll finish the sentiment: “-being thorough,” and drive your cock to the hilt. Irene collapses forward onto Karina’s lap.

The sound she makes you swear is a sob. See - for Irene, it’s only about getting control in so far as it is about getting off; she’ll take whatever comes her way so long as it’s directly to her benefit - the theatrics of being pinned, the willingness for surrender, for subjugation, for the sake of telling you, yes, push my knees, spread me apart, hold me there; look at the things you do to me - it’s the Irene everyone imagines, when they see the dresses, the gltiz, the glamour, just the brief flash of her grin, or the way she holds her fingernail between her teeth. Everyone wants to put her on her heel and feel a bit powerful. To have you watch the supple arc of her neckline bend, to hear the humility slip off her lips: the notion goes beyond simple kink-

It steps out into pure necessity.

She really, really needs it, and it’s written into every muscle and tendon - it’s on her breath as it shudders through her whole body. The beautiful, harrowing sound. “I love the way you two fuck me,” she murmurs, head buried into the crook of Karina’s neck. It’s the sort of line, coming from someone like her, you know could raise a few blushes - if either of you was still in the business of such things.

“Honey,” her voice wavers. Then, it falters: “please.”

The desperation is thick, husky, almost. Karina seems like she’s breathing her in, nose tucked against Irene’s forehead.

You watch how she runs her nails up Irene’s sides, a hot whisper sliding over her skin. You feel it, and so does Irene, this white hot pleasure singing up from the tip of her clit and spreading throughout the soft curves, the sensual lines of her body, this tangible current, a hum, a whine. You see her strain the lean stretch of muscle connecting her neck to her shoulder.

Until her face is tucked under Karina’s jaw, with a hand reaching back and hooked around your wrist and keeping you fucking, filling her, your hips drawn tight against hers, like a second home.

In and in and in.

Fucked-out and outright to the extent she goes completely silent. Almost completely still. The moment she cums all over your waist. Mouth hung open, like she’s in pure disbelief.

It doesn’t really matter, how often or how precisely Karina has imagined the whole thing. It’s still a fucking revelation the first time she gets to watch Irene cum.

“No way,” she’s almost laughing, holding Irene’s jaw with both hands. “No fucking way. All the times you- what? No. Nuh-uh. You better fucking explain why this face, you- it’s not fair, the perfect face- I swear, even mid-fucking-orgasm, you are such a fucking doll-“

There’s the sheer intimacy - Karina holding Irene’s lips open, dragging her thumb down along the center. Quiet and sordid curses slipping from her mouth. And the obvious, her free hand already running down the curve of Irene’s spine, her ass: all this sensitive-touching, admiring, appreciating-

"Hey,” Karina says, voice raspy and drunk on the sex, the premise, “do me a favor, and tell me this feels as amazing as it looks. Or maybe, for once - just for the sake of fucking argument, is it actually better for the both of us, hm?

Her eyes are half-lidded, heavy, sultry. She’s arching up into Irene’s warmth - until her palms are spread out against her chest, thumb sliding right over everything sensitive, and she leans right to pull the other breast to her lips, and start all over again. It’s clear what she means, spreading her legs as far as she can, pinned beneath the orgasm you’re still fucking into Irene. As much as her petite frame will allow.

And in case you missed the point:

"So. What are we waiting for,” is what she says a breath later, matter-of-fact, not at all expecting denial. “Or am I not as fuckable as our princess here?“

There’s so much wet spill around the base of your cock, and the sound Irene’s pussy makes when you finally draw free - all her creamy slick mixed into your mess just fucking leaking around your shaft. Karina holds herself open for you like that, spread wide. All your attention to her pink, raw cunt; you slip right inside. 

Karina lets her arms go slack on the mattress, her chest shivering, lips locked around Irene’s panting breath.

And so it goes, and so it goes, and so it goes.

-

(To anyone taking notes - chemistry, by definition, is the sum total of a certain process; where and when energy becomes matter becomes another.

More relevantly perhaps, it is that race and rise you feel inside your chest. 

Nothing about the sensation, it seems, is too exclusive either - Irene, and now Karina, the pair of them equally devastating, all over and again. It has you in communication with a different kind of contentment: to fall apart inside their embrace in particular, and kiss them with enough breath and time to waste until the morning.)

-

“Jesus,” Karina laughs out loud, “you really believe that? You corrupting me?” she makes another scoff, both hands buried somewhere in the pockets of the sweatshirt you’ve lent her. “At least do me a favor and cut it out with the solemn tone.”

You’re leaning over your apartment’s balcony, watching an emergency plow make the slowest grind of progress up the road. It’s late. And cold. Or actually - it’s early. The sky is the kind of dark midnight navy you see after all the snow and stars have run through the horizon. Time ticks on, and Irene’s inside sound asleep. A woman that small has no right to snore like heavy machinery.

So,

You and Karina happen to be two things at once: very tired, and very awake.

“What I mean is: I’m sure your manager, or your parents - fuck, someone - would fly off the handle,” you say, pulling a cigarette from the pack and offer it begrudgingly. She takes the end and slips it between her lips, a little unsure. You then draw a lighter and offer it, too, and Karina puffs with all her strength. She’s no expert, but it looks like the end catches and turns bright. 

A bit of color.

“My parents?” Karina flouts, sucking at it, pulling deeply from her chest - smoke pours from her nose.

She finishes with a cough. And says again:

“Um. Your girlfriend had her fingers in my ass - your cock down my throat - and we’re worrying what my parents might think?”

Well. She’s got you on that count.

“Not to mention: who the fuck thinks they’re so virtuous-” a small chuckle as she passes it back. The cigarette is lit, bright. You take a drag. Watch her tap her feet on the snow. “That they need to do that to begin with. It’s more trouble, telling me what to think and feel, as if that hasn’t just the opposite effect.”

“Irene’s protective, albeit in her own sorta peculiar way. So, you know, by extension, she worries-“ you pull, and exhale, the smoke blowing past Karina. It gets caught in her fringe, in the wisps. You offer it back when you see her shiver. "That some shit happens, after.”

“Your concern is heartwarming, truly - if you want to let me think on it, I might go and write a nice little diary entry tonight. It’ll have sparkles and glitter - if you’re that worried." 

Karina reaches in. Lets her fingers graze yours. Her skin is cool. 

“Besides, I don’t need a lesson in image from Irene of all people. She’s her; I’m me.”

She holds onto the cigarette between two long acrylic fingernails, tapping the end so the ash flits out onto the ice. You’re caught staring, probably - the dark hair framing her face, all messy and soft, falling about her cheekbones. How that pretty pink blush in her skin seems to never go away.

Your eyes drop to where her mouth is red, a bit swollen - well-kissed; it is snowing again, after all. And it’s easy to be kind of transfixed.

"You’re not, I dunno, say embarrassed?” you ask, after a beat.

“Nope.” Karina swallows. Brings the cigarette to the pucker of her lips again. You watch how she holds the inhale, holds her wrist up and slacked, head tilted back a little. This exaggerated fashion-model exhale follows, all smooth.

“Because I’m not the type.”

The heavy stream of smoke then blown right into your face.

“Really, I think - sorry, I have always wanted to do that. It felt like a movie. Look,” she coughs on the next breath. “I get your dilemma. But also, um-”

There are some quiet moments too, here and there: the heat between your thighs, her pressed up close. She smells like Irene’s shampoo and bodywash and that just confuses your head some.

“Who’s to say I’m not just looking out for you,” you offer. Every good lie is rooted somewhere in the truth.

“Don’t bother,” her words hit you square on. “It’s about getting off right? You invite me to your bed; I’m so starstruck and enchanted by the very concept of it - Irene and her charming, intoxicating husband. Fuck, I dunno - the way the two of you kiss, look, feel: the experience that you will let me be a part of,” she stops and makes another face of amusement, so fucking confident, “you let me play, too, just once, and we’re all just a little happier. My version.”

“We’re not married,” you correct.

“That’s the part you’re hung up on?” Karina leans over, her upper half across the balcony, staring right up at the sky. “Same difference.”

The moon finds her smile bright like nothing else. It’s something infectious. Immediately, it reminds you: of Irene.

“Trust me,” she goes on to say. The cigarette slips back into the space where you are connected - the lines of her fingers, her knuckles. “I had a wonderful time, but the sun will rise here, and I’m not gonna stick around to blow you while Irene burns three omelets and finds a spot for me in her fucked up game of house or whatever.”

She makes you laugh, free and easy, like a gust of cold air. Something genuine and natural. And as the laugh shakes, Karina makes it impossible not to crumble farther. Not to fucking simper there like an idiot.

“I really thought she was going to make me call her mommy or something, I swear-”

“Hey, I’m sure if you had asked.” A spark catches you. The flash of her canine, and those eyelashes. “She’d have done you the favor.”

“Oh, shush.” The touch of Karina’s fingertip against your hand is delicate, careful - unassuming. But, god, everything with her is just the right amount of heat - it melts you; and when it stops, her touch: that feeling is so cold that you just chase her out of impulse.

“What about New Year’s?” you ask. There are still boundaries you really shouldn’t be crossing, but here you are, straddling yet one more.

Karina’s grin cracks like an old fault line. “You’re not allowed to ask me out like that,” she insists, batting you away - trying her hardest not to lead with the obvious. You look out on the view, watching a guy in a parka trudge over to a garbage can, a handful of newspaper bundles, then a glance back-

The slightest flush has bloomed up Karina’s face, right underneath where the makeup’s been rubbed bare. It’s utterly irresistible. “Go wake up your fiancée and ask what her New Year’s Eve looks like. Doubt it involves me and my dumb friends.”

She’s probably right.

“Karina,” you start, watching her push open the balcony door with her foot and walk slowly, lazily, back into the apartment. The window rattles, and she looks back over her shoulder. The bob of her ponytail, the sweeping lashes, that perfect slow-burn smile. That’s how you end up with a title as ridiculous and reductive as ‘original visual’ or ‘the human cg’.

“You’re really going to let them in on what we all got up to?”

“Oh,” she makes this low, delighted hum - it sounds so dreamy, how her voice gets the richest sort of rasp, “every last detail.”

-

On Monday: the holidays are officially over.

There’s a bunch of stuff on the to-do pile. A lot of loose ends you have to clean up, a ton to catch up on. Irene is judiciously ignoring all of it. She’s wearing her glasses - the ones with the big round frames that should look entirely obnoxious - which means she’s already decided she’s not leaving the apartment; Karina’s still wrapping the world at large around her finger and has everyone convinced that she’s all femme, no fatale; and you - well, you’re back to thinking about how to climb the ladder and maybe how to stay there.

You head downtown with a cup of coffee in one hand and a musing mood in the other.

On your phone, some more choice text messages arrive in the late AM: had a great time by the way, stay out of trouble, this sweatshirt is actually just mine now, duh. 

The selfie alongside it is pretty suggestive, but just vague enough to flirt with indecency.

She sends one more at lunch where she’s gotten out of the shower, or a hot pool, or maybe a long workout - her breasts squeezed between a towel and an arm - she has the camera all zoomed in and framed tight, almost full body. If her intention is to mess with you, that’s what she gets. The texts: ah, fuck off and did you have a nice date with your left hand then, thanks for reminding me, the hotel wifi is shit lmao.

The messages just keep on coming and there’s really no better descriptor.

And Irene, later, in a way that’s neither diplomatic nor nuanced: jesus, don’t let her catch you by yourself. For simplicity’s sake. She interprets being alone with a handsome boy as carte blanche to do absolutely whatever she wants and she’s vapid that way.

There’s a chance it fizzles out into nothing. An even greater chance it all goes sideways. You’ll have to see what becomes of you three.

-

Okay, right - new year, new you. The resolution for the past couple remains unchanged, and unfulfilled - less takeaways and eating out; more meal prep, less calories, healthier decisions.

Irene has this cute little apron over her sweater that is fixed extra tight, the belt trailing down the tops of her jeans to accentuate her nice round hips and slim waist. She knows the nature of her charm, her sex appeal. How it occurs, almost, as if by accident.

You say something that will get right under her skin like, “looking real domestic, Joohyun,” as she slides a chopped onion from a cutting board to a bowl.

She presses her hips out just a smidge, just enough. Turns a bit as she opens up the fridge, and the smirk she has for you, that sidelong glance-

“Don’t you Joohyun me,” is her lightest rebuke. 

She twists her way onto her tiptoes to fetch at the highest shelf. The crochet corner of her sweater rides up a couple of inches, flashing a hint of the fair, bare curve of her lower back. “You can help me by grating the parmesan, hm? Into that,” she gestures back at the table, pointing with the bottle of olive oil.

And so you’re ten, fifteen minutes into helping with dishes, with the grunt work - with the realization that Irene is going to chop her fucking fingers off if you leave her to it unchecked.

“Actually, here,” you say, “can I?”

She tilts her head, skeptical - still, a quick nod of permission - and her slender fingers surrender the knife and wooden chopping board to you. She’s tapping away at her phone, finding the playlist you’re both always secretly listening to.

“Wow,” Irene says, low, as you start dicing mushrooms, a stalk of celery. “So brave. There’s no way I could do that. Is it safe? Are we, like, in nuptial bliss now, do you think? I fancy you, I fancy you-”

It’s always this sorta-delicate dance with her: how much should you step up; how much should you put out of hand; how much she accepts versus how she pushes you aside and gets through you all the same. You’re too proud, really - both of you - but fuck. She’s adorable; the apron adds insult to injury; and it makes the switch in your head simple.

“I always forget how much I love this song,” she’s saying; the rolling pin she’s grabbed is a reasonable surrogate for a mic. When she’s through singing a verse, she shoves it in your face. You don’t know any of the lyrics. 

She doesn’t really care.

You have to laugh at everyone who’s ever wasted the effort to theorycraft who she is behind the smoky lashes, the lowered chin, the downturned glance. All the characters and archetypes she’ll wear and cast off as she needs.

“Here.” She sidles up and tucks her hair behind her ear, the side of her hip grinding into your thigh until she’s pressed firm into the line of your leg. Because she needs to tell you that’s way too much garlic, and she’s not going to kiss you if your breath is trying to kill her first. She uses the word “pungent” a number of times, just for good measure. Go on - she’s murmuring - taste; right off her finger. If anyone caught this you’d be embarrassed for weeks

“I think, definitely, should open a bottle of wine-”

That’s how you earn all the responsibility for getting the both of you fed; she gets distracted looking through the recipe book.

But there’s the way she looks up at you from the opposite of the kitchen island, face held up between her hands, fingers folded underneath her chin. “What?” she asks. 

She’s totally caught you staring.

The truth is: Irene only looks this gorgeous when it’s just her. When she forgets that she’s supposed to stick to a script.

You tell her as much when you end up fucking her right there on the counter.

It’s so slow, atleast at the onset. Her panties pushed aside, jeans spilling off an ankle - the fucking apron managed to make it to the floor but her sweater got kinda stuck on the way up. So you’re reaching through some overpriced fabric blend to pull down the wire of her bra and get your palm where she most prefers it.

“Say it again,” Irene sighs into your neck, clutching to the back of your shirt - white-knuckled at the seam. “Come on, you can be so charming when you want something.”

“I wouldn’t push your luck,” is all you choose to tell her. 

You’re hitting all the spots she wants you to hit anyway: her pretty pink cunt, slick, all wet for you already. Everything clenching as she arches her back, until she’s hanging off the edge of the marble. You find it’s just enough leverage to fill her completely with your cock - stretching her out and open until her thighs bracket around your waist at the perfect angle.

“Or what?” Irene is out of breath, but hardly at a loss for words. “I know. You’ll have to remind me how much smaller I am than you, right? So easy to keep pinned.”

Well, if you really wanted: “Hah, ah - right.” You get right next to her ear, muttering the words as deep as your chest can go - then take hold of her waist to put her in a spot she can’t escape. And, by Irene’s usual logic, once that happens, that’s as much a victory for her as it is for you. You’re being compliant, aren’t you? The in and out: fucking her, filling her up, pulling your messy cock out of her pussy and slapping her clit just so she can hear how fucking soaked you make her, merely as a reminder-

“I wonder if she was even half as desperate,” she moans against your jaw. “Her heart probably stopped the second you, ah - told her, what? About all of this?”

You stop fucking her, halfway.

“I’m sure you wouldn’t be referring to Karina, right?” is where you glance at her. “I remember us both agreeing to chalk that up as a total absolute mistake. That was that.”

Irene just swallows, looks off somewhere over your shoulder. No one wears a blush better than her.

But she won’t say it. Her honesty is such a privilege. The prodigy-type. Or at least, that’s the word Irene chose. Then again, there’s you and your uncanny ability to turn a blind eye. 

To the vice, the virtue, and everything in-between.

“So, can I ask,” you press your lips together, finding the point of her chin with a gentle tap - you have her looking you straight back at you. The moment could let you drive back inside and fuck her brains right out, right there, like that - right through, instead: you watch her try not to squirm. 

The tension in her upper chest, the rising heat that settles between her thighs, her weight struggling where you spread her knees, as far open as her body can allow. “How long exactly,“ you choose your words, careful and pointed, "are we going to pretend that she isn’t texting both of us?”

You bury the question deep where she’s practically molten - hot and wet and so incredibly needy.

You do, again, and again. You pull her against you, watching that pretty brow scrunch and un-scrunch as your cock bathes in that soak. And hell, Karina had sent her a selfie today, is what she’s explaining when you slow down enough - a bit of red, on her cheeks and her lips, and a lot of black, all the rest - the part about a midnight flight that’s on hold until tomorrow morning. And then another, an hour later. To you both: her tits, the lace lingerie - so heavy, and soft, and easy to see yourself getting lost in-

Irene gasps at how fast you find all her favorite spots, then repeats - twice and again - hey, Karina said you’re “such a cutie,” and she sees her as the perfect mistress-material, don’t you think? Wouldn’t it be ideal? The perfect fantasy? The perfect toy-

Obviously, that is morally bankrupt, even for the two of you. And you’re making sure she hears about it.

You ask her, point-blank: “are you really so selfish? So callous.” It’s ground out, slowly, against her hip, into her cunt. You’ve got Irene dripping wet, she’s running everywhere, and you’re telling her, “and this is your roundabout way of asking me to validate your twisted little ego?”

Don’t get it too confused: Irene lives for this shit; that sharp, hard-hitting tone - it drives her up the fucking wall. 

“Duh. Tell me - just a guess,” she presses her hands further back, arching into each push. The slim curves of her chest are bouncing, just under her sweater. “You like to feel so guilty and morose but I bet-” she chokes off mid-sentence, you know exactly how, the exact motion that has her wanting. She gets a leg over your shoulder with no effort at all, and your fingers find their place, digging into her hips as she locks into your thrusts. 

Like fucking her is the only thing the two of you ever do.

Your whole body buzzes, it hums in resonance with where her gasps conflagrate to moans - you’re pulling her slender frame down into every sloppy thrust and she takes you so fucking well.

“I bet it all sounds like, ah, the prettiest fucking music - in your head-”

“Fucking god, Irene-”

“Mhmm?” she fucking coos.

Because the things she wants to hear never actually leave your lips - your girl, fucking relentless.

Because the line between you fucking her and her fucking you becomes less distinct every time she rocks back and takes you deeper. Or when her mouth catches your next kiss a bit lazily. She takes over to swivel and slide her cunt up and around your length. So good that you have to keep her there. Hand locked onto her throat, digging a bruise or two in her collarbones, fucking her senseless against the countertop-

“Irene, fuck.” Your voice comes out thick, like gravel, and practically as an aside, “you’re going to make me-.”

Irene cuts you off, nodding, shh-shh’ing you into silence. “I know, baby. I know.” This total sigh of agreement - a hushed yes, or maybe uttering something she knows will sink right into your core, two words that sound a lot like “good boy.”

What, is that tacit approval? Probably. It’s hard to think straight.

So you bury yourself inside her, instinctually. Irene tips her chin up when she feels you paint her fucking womb. Every throb - with a fistful of her ass and your face pressed against her chest, sucking and biting and marking her anywhere, everywhere - right through her sweater. Fucking her so full that your mess is dribbling out all over the fucking floor, drip, drip, drip, and-

"Hey, I want you to know that I” - she sounds so amused as she cards through your hair, pressing a kiss to your forehead - “really couldn’t ever ask anyone except you.”

(All is fair in love and war, is an adage Irene takes to its logical extreme, tangled in your sheets or with a dress puddled at her ankles. A silk stocking rolling down her leg, the crochet thrown into some dark corner.

You never say yes. You never really have to.)

This all before setting her down, off the edge, back onto her feet and taking another half-step forward and having the awareness not to completely flatten her under the full weight of your body, so she can run a hand down between the two of you and her fingertips can start gathering up all the cum you’ve pumped inside her. Irene tells you in her sweetest lilt to pay attention as she leans back up against the counter and gathers as much into her mouth as it will allow-

The sight alone.

When her head tips back, tongue passing over her knuckles, and she swallows-

“You are so,” you sigh into her temple. Her cheek. You’ve settled the rest to the space in between. “Absolutely unbelievable.“

She reaches out and trails the tips of her fingers lightly along the rise of your cock - her softness up against your hard lines. Her eyes flash when you twitch on the fucking spot. It’s so tender all coming from her.

And there, a moment or two more. You can see it in the way she has her lips tilting, dreamy. You’ve always known what you were signing up for - how she’s thumbing the nape of your neck - what her ideal outcome was, is. There’s nothing and no one in front of either of you to bar the way.

You’ll make your vows like any other.

"Well, hey,” she finally says, slow and husky and curling toward you with a smug self-satisfaction.

You push her hair behind her ears, the dark brown locks. Some part of you understands, unequivocally, that she is the absolute limit of how far you would go for any other person on the planet. No questions. In a heartbeat, without hesitation.

The kiss to the corner of your jaw is unironically chaste - before she’s telling you, “shouldn’t we get a move on it, chef? There’s food to eat, recipes to ignore; aren’t you fucking famished?”

-

The bolognese reduces down to a scorch in the cast iron. Too much heat, or too long, you got too preoccupied, who knows - there’s a moral lesson to ignore here if you’re so inclined. So it ends up being over a tray of sushi delivery that Irene explains to you her working theory like it’s high-stakes political intrigue.

“Listen,” she’s got her chopsticks pointed at you, “for one, Karina, to her core, is a total seductress; and she’s told me already, more or less to my face - she gets off on the chase, and hates the other shit. To be involved, or invested.”

“Okay then why all the go-around; the wait-and-see; what’s her endgame?”

“What’s anyone’s endgame?” Irene shrugs. “Validation.“ She slips a tuna roll into her mouth.

"I think you might be projecting.”

“Or, I’m simply an extremely empathetic person,” her sarcasm hits harder through chewing - she almost gets you, and finishes swallowing to say, “look, she’s like us if we were pretending to care, okay? Just more, like - explicit about her lack of intention. So. Doesn’t matter if it’s to piss her manager off. Or it’s like a revenge-slash-extortion-thing against someone she either had or is having an affair with.”

“An affair,” you repeat, skeptical.

“It’s not like it’s an unheard-of workplace hazard, come on,” and then the final confirmation: “she’s just into it because it sounds dirty and sexy, okay, like everything else-”

“And you figure we should be the ones to dole it out.”

“What I figure,” Irene says, doing that same mental calculus she did the first time: how, where, why - it’s clear. A dozen different kinds of naked are an old, tired song by now. “I want us to fuck her. However she likes, whenever she likes, for however long she likes. Let her think she’s won something, or think she has you totally fucking hooked - I don’t really care. Because it would be so much more satisfying to hear you tell me about it - because the idea of you two being like that for me. It’s,” her words pitch up a touch. 

“That’s the fantasy.”

And Irene dives into the details. She explains what it could look like, all the more raunchy and ridiculous. This very specific arrangement. It makes no real sense, the conversation alone, and that, you decide - what can’t be rationalized - is how she’ll take it: by fucking both of you. That’s the objective fact. That’s the demand.

You listen until it feels less and less like the decisions have already been made.

“Okay, babe,” she’s presenting her case. “Hear me out.”

And she keeps going until you both can see it materialize: “if Karina thinks she can handle both of us, then both of us it’ll be.” It’s how her fingers end up buried in your boxers and around the throb of your cock. You hear the gentlest laugh Irene has as you start fucking softly into her grip, and she runs her thumb over your weeping slit until she finds you that much more malleable to the suggestion. Effortless almost, she lures the primal part of you from its confines and teases and prods at its wants and desires. Which is also how some charged vocabulary gets thrown in for good measure. Because no, no, no - she’s murmuring into your mouth, tipped back, plush lips right above yours - it’s not a cuckquean situation, or an open relationship, or anything like freeuse or whatever else might justify the concern. It’s not even cheating, Irene’s explaining, strictly speaking, because who said you and I wouldn’t be doing it together?

(Lying by omission is the story you both live - and the difference: she’s pathological. You’re just now getting the hang of it.)

“Fuck,” is what you exhale out as she opens her fingers, offering. Her thumb glides across the expanse of your head, a trail of pre-cum drawn underneath a nail. And you know all the things her nails can do - can rip your heartstrings. “I mean. God damn. There has to be, like, terms.”

There’s still sushi sitting on the coffee table, and Irene is placing these kisses into the slope of your shoulder, your sternum, making a show of the movement, how she’s traveling down, downward - to her knees. Where she finds the seat between your thighs and tugs your shorts, the fabric gathered down your leg-

“Let me handle it,” she tells you, and there goes the cut of your t-shirt, shoved up to your chest. Her grip runs flat, down from the rise of your hip, fingers wrapping around, touching - the flat of her tongue laving across the tip of your cock until she decides to lower her jaw.

“Just think right now. How I want to fuck her and how I’d want you to fuck her, too-" 

Right in her warm, wet little mouth.

Jesus, her tongue too-

She has it gliding up, around and against the swell of the underside. Rolling to where you need it, the places she knows you’ve died before. Lapping up the mess she’s already gotten out of you-

Like this, Irene’s looking at the way that the idea strikes: you and you and you; the only person in the whole goddamn world that can handle her; you fucking know it too - it’s the most perfect, hopeless kind of thing. Like the feeling that catches at the apex of your lungs. It burns in your stomach and grips in your gut. She’s gone and cut out the nerves - there’s the crown of your cock caught in a velvet grip between those pretty pink lips and her fingers twisting at the bottom. 

She breathes deep. Sinks her lips so slowly to the base. Anything, everything you want: to put your hands to the side of her head, to weave your fingers through her hair, and coax her, fuck her mouth like it belongs to you, all slow and hard and measured.

To hear all those wet sounds she makes as she chokes on the end of it. The gags as you force your cock into the back of her throat, holding her head tight, her hair pulled up into a fist, to have that mouth hanging around the length of you, tongue stuck to the bottom of her chin as you move her, your fiancée, your toy. To be looking her in the eye and watching her look the fuck back while she revels in every filthy second of it, not a single damn drop of hesitation or doubt.

"Really think,” Irene urges, and she’s all innocent when she tips her head to kiss her way up your cock.

She’s trying for some grace or finesse, or both - trying, you think, to make a point; instead, you end up watching her gulp and spit into her palm, just to obscure the sensual curl of her tongue with the sloppy-hard rhythmic stroke of her fist. “How hot it would be if you watched us both choke on your cum. Her face fucked stupid - the perfect little fuckdoll, is that not an image for the ages-”

You get a glimmer of that catlike grin - the one you would kill for a picture of. Something for the wallpaper, or the wallet; you’ve never met a boundary she hasn’t challenged. The most depraved ideas in her head are just, as she is, a masterpiece. And so the answer has never changed - there has never been anything she’s not been allowed-

“Trust me baby,” she presses her cheek against your shaft. You feel her turn and run that mouth all over. The tip of her nose. Her eyelashes. The wet heat of her breath as she nuzzles the length. “Karina’s all ours to share.”

Her pout, right there, waiting.

You can’t stop yourself from grabbing her face, the crook of her jaw, her neck and the tips of her shoulders. Until it all comes with a good, hard pull. The sound of her mouth on your cock, the blowjob she’s been perfecting for years. It’s starting to fill up the room, her lips wrapping your shaft - the sound of her being so obedient, the most receptive, sweet, pretty thing: letting you guide her pace until she has a steady motion going. Taking the thick base in her hands and working it over between her fingers. There’s only enough room for that before you’re all the way inside her, in and out, again: the tip of your cock brushing over the softest curve of her throat.

When you take her at face value, it’s fucking wild: your fiancée kneeling before you. Her chin and neck wet with her effort, lips wrapped so pretty, stuffed, used-

There are no questions. This is simply Irene, doing what she loves.

She pushes a hand between her legs and holds herself together as your hips tilt forward, meeting her halfway-

Just letting you get yourself off in her mouth like it’s no big deal. It’s her throat - it’s her goddamn cunt and ass, and whatever else - because you fucking asked, right? Because you gave her the permission, the choice, the agency.

“Hey, where should I?” you’re muttering as you push the hair out of her face, already half-drunk on her slick lips and realistically only a few seconds away from doing some real damage.

There isn’t a need; but you want her to tell you, to use her words. In her mouth, on her face, in her palm, you’ll go without thinking. You’ll cum straight onto your own stomach if it’s what Irene says. Even if she’s acting like you already have.

“Make sure you give her,” is what she garbles out around the hard line of your cock, and it’d be impossible to understand if you didn’t know every nuance to her, if you didn’t - you know - fucking love her. To have and to hold - to hold on tight and for better or worse, and this is pretty much as bad as it gets. 

The syllables come in-between hollow breaths, all wet and sticky. When Irene wrenches the fuck out of it, the base of your cock- “hm, that same sort of courtesy when, agh, I’m not around-”

Because the image alone is what matters. There, getting your cock sucked like you’ve earned the privilege - it doesn’t have to be real, it just has to look like it’s a new truth to believe in. The little motions in her wrist are just - hah, fucking unreal - and the way she sinks down lower on her knees for each stroke, from base to tip - lips pressing over the knuckles she has wet, and squelching, and twisting up and down and up-

She places a hand under your balls, the gentlest cradle, and something of your restraint finally breaks - it snaps - her insistence is ruthless.

“Yeah, god, okay- I’m just gonna go ahead-" 

There are these images in your head, of Irene: the upturned brows, the hollowed cheeks, and that slutty-as-shit smirk - and then of Karina: doing the exact same thing. Fuck, your cock is heavy, absolutely leaking cum: you can feel yourself leaking into the press of her mouth. It fills up her cheeks as she blushes into the fuck. Her lips become flush and go soft against the ridge of your shaft - her jaw slack in anticipation. 

"Your fucking mouth, Irene” you breathe out, “I’m going to cum-” 

Just at half the sentence, you’re there, sunk into your fiancée’s throat. Fingers across her ears and into her hair and watching her own hands pulling you, guiding you-

It’s all flexed in your back. Every muscle. Every fiber.

Irene hums onto a simple, satiated note. She always does, when she tastes it. When you dump a hot load of cum all over her tongue and straight into her throat.

(And yes, some might claim this is the death knell for all kinds of reasoning, but you’ll go ahead and admit it’s so, so worth it.)

“How thoughtful,” she says, low and slow, once she’s through swallowing the entire fucking thing.

The corner of her mouth tilts up. Because you’re finished: two steps left in the brain from falling out of consciousness, a mess on the couch. You get to watch as she pulls you into sorts and slots each piece back to where it’s meant to sit. The underwear, your pants. It’s with such careful attention. Your soft cock gets cleaned with a tissue and wiped dry. A tiny parting kiss for the tip, her mouth full-on puckered, like she’s kissing out anything you have left.

Though it’s a pleasant daze. She prefers you soft like this, really.

All you have left to say is: “fuck me, baby.” It sounds sloppy and open-ended as hell. “I guess I’ll leave everything to you.”

If that’s a cue or sign for the evening, the only right thing: it isn’t exactly misinterpreted.

-

The actual logistics don’t arrive for a handful more weeks. You find it surprising they ever happen at all.

// Karina 10:41 pm > i’m bored.

// Karina 10:42 pm > suggestions?

// 10:49 pm > have you tried looking into an incognito tab?

// Karina 10:58 pm > lol, and what is it i’m supposed to be finding?

// Karina 10:58 pm > help a girl out here.

“Send her a picture of your cock,” Irene says, like it isn’t a joke. She looks up from the smutty-dash-of-romance-porn novel she’s got herself wrapped in, with her best faux-serious expression. The pair of readers that usually are in her top desk drawer have made a new home perched low on her nose. “God knows she hasn’t stopped leering since she found out what I’m marrying into.”

“Please,” you tell her, because she’s full of shit. “I’m not sending her a dick pic.”

Your laptop is warm on your thighs as you huddle on your side of the bed. That’s the point of balance where it feels like Irene isn’t trying to look. Though she clearly is. You flick up through a couple tabs just to drive the point home.

// 11:01 pm > sorry. i’m not in the business of just handing out freebies

// Karina 11:07 pm > really

// Karina 11:07 pm > thought we were making progress here

// 11:11 pm > you’re funny

“Ask her if anyone’s home with her.” Irene dogears the page she’s reading and sets her book down. “Or ask if she’s, like, tied up or something. Something edgy.”

“Something edgy,” you deadpan.

“Do you want me to put the readers away,” Irene offers. She’s wearing the sort-of smirk you always need to be wary of.

“No,” you say. “God, no.”

“Ask her where she keeps her lingerie. Tell her she should be thinking about what it’d look like: all naked except a thong. With the straps digging into her. Tied up all nice and pretty-like.”

// 11:13 pm > u alone right now?

“What the fuck?” Irene slugs a pillow at you. “That is the creepiest way you could’ve sent-”

// Karina 11:13 pm > yeah. i am :/

You and Irene are both struck a little dumb by that. 

“Sheesh, she must have had her finger hovering over the reply button.”

“Yeah,” you say, eloquent. “Who could blame her, though.”

“Uh-huh.” Irene exhales, staring a bit pointedly.

// 11:16 pm > cool if I come over?

// Karina 11:17 pm > and… do what?

Irene nudges you with her heel, a questioning glance: the window has just been left there wide open and hanging. She whispers like Karina can somehow hear her through the phone, “you are terrible at sexting.”

“Can you fucking leave it-”

Irene rolls her eyes.

// 11:18 pm > do you need ideas

// Karina 11:19 pm > got a couple. i wouldn’t be against hearing something that lets my imagination fill in the gaps though

“Text her that you’re into her throat and want her to show you her tits,” and Irene actually cracks a laugh as she has the audacity to make the request. She’s in good form this evening; in nothing but her favorite silk camisole - the navy blue one, which pairs great with all 5’2” of the rest of her. Like the soft curves she wears and everything else isn’t bad for your heart. “Seriously, I want you to-”

“How am I supposed to end it?” You ask. The tone is purely sardonic. “Babe. Baby. My future wife. Tell me. You do realize you’re basically asking me to bait her, right?”

Someone will eventually put their cards on the table, and Karina, Irene, and ostensibly you will realize you’re all currently having a mental break from reality. Or something along those lines. “I mean. Could that really be a negative,” she wonders with an eyebrow quirked and another gesture of her arm like she wants to showcase the night sky beyond the bedroom windows.

“How, what - babe.”

“You could promise to let her sit on it.”

“Is the cockslut routine an act? Like,” you lower your volume, “do you really have a playbook, here?”

“So mean.” Irene reaches a hand over. She has her head propped on an elbow, the rest of her sprawled and comfortably positioned on the bed. And you wonder why the fuck you feel compelled to argue a point that so obviously has already been lost. “Just go fuck her already, god damn, I dunno.”

Right. So. This was the part that was kind of inevitable - and Irene’s impatience aside, you probably were about to win a lottery when you showed up at her door - that golden little interaction: “hey it’s me, your rival at work’s future ex-husband, I guess - I’m so horny and I think you’re so beautiful and wouldn’t it be so crazy if we, like, boned, haha, what?”

“Just- have sex. Tell me about it after.”

The novel beckons Irene back toward it. She makes herself the picture of someone perfectly comfortable with you walking right into the next most uncomfortable predicament.

The sigh. That long, heavy thing. A leadup you do so often.

The simple idea of sending Karina that sort of message sends heat, low - just under the band of your sweatpants, and right where you’ve got yourself in the palm of your hand and you’re already wondering how this is the result, why your cock is coming to a rise already - god damn - why every thought of Karina’s face, and Karina’s ass, and Karina’s everything, every moment her lip is caught in between those teeth is becoming impossible not to touch. “Okay,” you huff, “fine. I’m getting up, I’m going now- I mean it, right now, just give me a minute, I am putting my clothes on.”

“Wait,” and she’s saying, “wait. Wait.”

And when you turn around, Irene has this cat-that-ate-the-canary grin all stretched on the canvas of her face. She takes off her readers - her elbows thrown into her lap as she goes to the very edge of the mattress, pulling your shoulders for balance. “Babe-”

“Mm.”

Irene likes to get you at a low simmer. The way she runs her thumb pad along your bottom lip. And all those questions - a look into her eyes - it’s hard not to fold or break - when she’s holding onto that sort of expression, unwavering; no matter how her mouth seems to get soft and curious.

Her lips move onto yours, asking - a push. And your eyes - a brush against a shoulder and you’ve already gone a whole mile from anywhere decent. There’s the touch of her tongue between your parted mouths.

“You’ll be good right?”

“I mean, sure,” is what you manage, watching her lips close.

“You’ll fucking wreck her, and do it exactly how she needs it done.” And her brow, knit. She can tell your brain is busy jumping ahead to a hundred different scenarios. “Stop worrying.”

There’s a brief nod of reassurance. Her fingertips dust down your chest and the rest of the way. You hear Irene tell you to-

“And give her an extra hello from me.”

“Okay, I love you, but also you’re insane, like certifiable.”

“Shush, I know you,” and Irene gives your hair a little tousle before pushing you out the door.

-

You’re standing there at the front door of Karina’s apartment a little after midnight, bathed in dim, orange wicked fluorescence. Like it knows your sins - past, present and future. There’s no obvious answer when you go knocking, and for a half-moment, you’re thinking, okay, it’s alright, this is how I let someone down easy-

Until she answers and leans out, pulling open the door. It takes you by surprise-

“Well, I’d normally let you in,” you hear Karina say, and a smug smile starts to cross her face, “but…”

It’s about the degree to which she looks hot and a little off kilter in this tight t-shirt - a snug pair of panties around the sway of her hips - that almost sends you spinning. There’s not an ounce of self-consciousness; it’s like a punch to the gut.

“Aeri’s date went south and she’s drunk. She’s passed out on her bed, like, right now, I don’t think-”

There’s no bra. It’s hard not to get fixated on every detail. Like her nipples, practically standing out. You have an irrational desire for her to take a step back, further into the room, further out of your vision’s reach-

“Uhh,” you croak. And you do have the mental faculties for, uh. For telling her. “Maybe, you know, later, could be better, yeah, maybe call me.”

Though, unfortunately, the suggestion falls short on delivery.

“No, no.” Karina has her hands searching up and underneath your sweater. Her fingers dance flat up, right over your stomach - teasing as she hikes you back inside. Right past the threshold. Your mouth is half-caught and stupid under her, the gentle hum and pressure on her lips. “It means we need to be quiet.”

She drags you another step forward, with just the hot flash of her gaze. 

“Shut the door behind you?”

“Locking it too,” you tell her.

The laugh she makes into it, this one little scoff - it’s an acknowledgment: an agreement. It’s one of the worst fucking sounds, and the whole damn thing gets to you. Like her ass wasn’t the perfect fit for the palm of your hands- like you don’t want to trace your fingers under the elastic of her panties.

As if it wasn’t fucking clear enough. It’s the tongue in your mouth and the hands in her hair. She’s kissing you soft, she’s kissing you deep; her weight rests and pulls back with each swell of your ribs, pushing her fingertips down until they’re skating, slow, low into the grooves of your spine. Like she’s getting familiar with you again.

“Okay,” you breathe. She laughs on your lips and presses forward - pulls you back, farther- “uhh. Okay.”

She must see the confliction you’re in-

“Hey.” Karina keeps going until you’ve got her backed against a wall, until your thigh has pressed into the crux of hers and your hand is in her shirt. You don’t miss how she lets her head tilt back when her eyes shut. It’s her. There’s no disputing the reality. “Whatever you want to do to me. That is all I’ve been thinking about. Do it.”

“I- don’t really-”

She makes a decent show of crossing her wrists and tugging her shirt right over her head. Tosses it someplace safe enough. “So are you just gonna leave me in suspense, or do you need my explicit, enthusiastic permission?”

Your lips draw themselves a blank on anything useful, while your heart rate accelerates.

“Here try this: you’re going to fuck me until I beg you to stop. Then you’re going to fuck me some more. Or whatever- then we can go somewhere, I don’t care,” she offers with a half-whisper. In all her goddamned glory - barefoot, almost bare chested - it’s not like it could be any other thing.

-

You’re not exactly supposed to end up on your knees for this.

This isn’t quite how you pictured-

Okay, fuck, Karina’s making the prettiest noises where her spine is curling up against the wall; those sounds you couldn’t even make up. How it feels like the easiest damn thing, because there isn’t a question to why. Every inch of you is pressed to every inch of her. You know what you’ll taste on your tongue, which of these breasts belongs in your palm and the fingerprints in the dips of her waist - her lips on the curve of your jaw - every mark and bruise on her skin, every hint of it is real; it’s fucking you up because you’re kissing the woman that Irene picked, the woman you met - it’s how you pull yourself away-

Karina, for the longest few seconds, is shocked into stillness.

Because you could, of course, decide to give this one last shot, your head between her thighs and eat her out until she was so fucking wet your cock wouldn’t even enter the equation. This is not actually a new idea; the possibility has run through her mind enough times already.

“Yeah. That would work.”

Like it’s no big deal-

“Do you need instructions? I can get a bit graphic.”

“Actually, you know what?” you choke a little, and - “trust me.”

You stand straight up for a moment, a second, an extra fraction. You slip your cock inside her hot cunt, and, yeah. She collapses right into you. You’re holding up her just enough to fuck into - she’s starting to breathe deeper, harder; you’ve got her pinned like that - a hand on her neck, fingers sinking into everywhere she’s softest: her tits, her ass, her waist, her throat, and there is nothing that isn’t some version of fucking glorious about Karina’s weight grinding, heavy onto the tip and onto the ridge and down the thickest length of you-

And her face, jesus christ, her fine brows upturned, the tears heavy in her dark lashes, the little gasping-sobbing sounds that spill across her wobbling lips - this is the both the easiest and the hardest part: seeing her get absolutely fucking ruined-

(You know, god help you.)

-

Irene doesn’t even have to ask. There are hickies and bruises shadowing in on your neck, your chest - these marks you never remember Karina giving you, and a ton of scratches all up your back.

“You know I was going to offer to make you breakfast,” Irene says, smug, “but I’m wondering if Karina got to you first.”

“What the hell do you think?” you say, dumb.

There are eggs burning on a skillet that are never going to be salvageable, no matter what Irene says. She has no respect for the process. And her voice is full of that infuriating smile: “was it everything you hoped?”

“God,” you mutter, trying to mask the embarrassed laughter in your words. You can hardly move an inch on her behalf.

“At least tell me something fun, you insufferable tease,” she presses her nose into your hair and tickles the spot on your side, just to be a pest.

You lay it all out for her. Everything she wants to hear.

-

Surprisingly, there’s still plenty to learn about each other; days to weeks to months. The first real thaw of the year comes, and you’re quick to fall into this odd rhythm.

Karina won’t actually join Irene on set or production very often - too much heat. It shouldn’t have taken so long to figure out the two don’t belong in the same room together, and if they’d asked you, they’d know - but no one ever really does ask you. However she does spend more and more time around the apartment. In and out of your personal spaces. And maybe a bit in between, or a little underneath too: how she seems to slot herself right into every possible fold whenever Irene’s away.

Always traveling for this reason or that.

And god, the perfect powder keg Karina is - ticking, short-fused, all ready to explode. It’s ironic, you think, she’s drawn to scandal the way Irene will do anything to avoid it, and here, she’s found her ultimate indulgence.

The quick lay, the time and place you know you can be patient in pulling her apart, the everything in between. 

In fact, you’ve taken to calling her “babe” just so she doesn’t think twice when she gets your cum pooling deep in her cunt, all hot and sopping. Looking like the picture-perfect centerfold. The fucked-dumb face - all twisted in your grip, flushed-red; and the musky scent of sex; the noises and her presence alone. You fuck her, and fuck her, and fuck her, rubbing a thumb across where the mascara runs thick.

To be the gorgeous girl, cock-drunk and fucked-out in your lap - so simple - so natural: Karina finds her way over more often than not.

After your shower, after your nap; your work, the bar - Karina’s never more than a text away. And you’ll keep a hand around her waist as she stands around in the kitchen, stealing Irene’s leftovers out of the fridge. Karina ends up straddling your thigh right there at the breakfast table, holding onto the wood for support as she cums all over you.

The long and short of it is: 

She’s fucking you. She’s fucking your fiancée. She sees no problem in having her cake and eating it too. The only caveat is: Karina thinks neither of you know what’s actually going on.

“You gonna say hi to Irene for me?“ she’s teasing one day, snapping her bra back into place. The t-shirt pulled over all that glossy-dark hair, the shimmy of her hips just to get back into the world’s tightest jeans. She presses a fleeting kiss to the corner of your mouth. It’s such a stark, clinical goodbye - ending with a flick of a thumb across a screen. "And oh, let her know if she ever wants me to teach her a trick or two. Anytime.”

“Yeah, I’m sure she’d love that.”

Karina does the most insipid thing. She fucking winks. “I’m sure she would.”

-

“Uh, are you kidding me?” you ask Irene. 

It’s late one night, and Irene is standing in the kitchen in her pajamas with a welt the shape of Karina’s lips kissed right into her jaw. A couple drinks in your system have given you both a false sense of clarity, and also an ill-timed desire to solve all your goddamn problems. You lower your voice. “In her ass?”

Irene has that all-triumphant and dopey grin that makes your heart ache for her. There’s a soft curl of her hair loose, thrown across a shoulder. “I’m serious, pull her hair right, hold her wrists until her back has to be arched. Pin her to the bed,” she continues to illustrate, “it’s all in the finer points of how much. Tell her to count, even. I’m not joking-”

She takes another spoonful of yogurt between her lips.

“-she’ll let you do anything, promise.”

“That’s fucked up.”

“I know.” Irene wags the spoon at you. “It’s great.”

-

It’s not only the hypothetical-homewrecking that gets Karina so torridly wet for the whole affair; when she’s pinned beneath you with her legs spread and her toes pointed skyward, or perhaps later - the same day even - riding Irene’s face in a locked dressing room and crying out - “ah, hah, jesus, please-”

In her head, she has you both at her beck and call. Forget semantics - Karina is a fool to her own illusion. Because in her head, not only has she managed to go toe to toe with the industry’s reigning monarch, she’s managed to win.

-

You don’t exactly know how Karina ever intends to keep it casual. Because things are damn near constant:

It’s a weeknight, and the moon is high above the windows, casting a crisp rectangle onto the hardwood; it doesn’t actually matter, as far as Karina is concerned.

Irene’s on television again, the sequin in her dress clinging tight, and she’s found the gaze that never breaks for the cameras. Found the flash of her most practiced smile - that little chime of laughter she has that sounds like striking pure gold.

Then Karina: sitting cross-legged at the very end of the sofa. One leg thrown over your thigh, she’s got these nylons on her feet and she’s poking a toe into your ribs. “Isn’t she stunning,” you hear her muttering, “honestly. Doesn’t it, like, turn you the fuck on?”

Her foot grazes your lap, all casual at first; the impossibly soft-curved heel of her sole. There are so many ways she’d prefer to pass the time and they almost all involve getting under your skin, if not just outright getting into your pants.

“Elaborate.”

“I mean listen, in your case, just knowing your fiancée is up there looking like a total angel and at the same time, thinking about you; how she’s got to be considering every which way she’ll unwind just after the showcase - at least, that’s what I’d be doing.” She licks her lips, teeth. “Hell, I’m only imagining how pretty her eyes are when she can barely keep them open, and that’s enough to ruin my panties.”

“Are you really.”

She shifts her weight. Puts that ankle to good use. Rubbing it into the crease between your legs. “Tell me,” her lips curl. She’s looking at you dead-on. “How does she usually prefer it, hm?”

Like a wildcat, you suppose, your Irene - a pretty, little predator. You could tell Karina everything, but you don’t. Instead you let her wander into the lair of her own making. Her eyes: light and curious; it’s written in the lines of her face how she’s picturing it all so plainly.

“I’d guess she lets you go slow. Or hard. Or maybe a little rough and then you make her cum, and then maybe, just maybe, after the teasing; after the edging, I guess, that’s when she comes in hot. I would hope.”

Karina twists her foot around, swings her weight onto your lap, and sucks in a sharp breath when you reach out and grip the lean lines of her hips. It’s as easy to hold her still as it’d be to drag her across the couch and under the rest of your body, fuck the goddamn tension until there was no longer any room left for the pretty smirk in her lips. And her gasp would probably sound a hell of a lot better - than all the needling quips - a much louder and much less-pretend whine when you could throw those thighs open and really pound her wet, aching little cunt-

“Easy,” she chides when you end up taking two handfuls of her chest. “Shouldn’t you be more supportive? For god’s sake, it’s your fiancée’s moment in the spotlight, you know-”

There’s nothing stopping you from popping off the buttons of her dress, one by one by one - and kiss right there, into the swell. Your voice feels all the rougher when you respond, “and what a moment.”

Her fingertips skim over the places she’s been kissing you, where she’s been marking and claiming and trying to, at least, to stamp you like her personal property - when the look is that serious. All cold-burn. Right through to the bone.

“So.”

You can feel her touching into your pants. The heat in her soft, silky thighs; she sits above you, keeping a leg on each side. A part of you feels trapped; another is confused why you aren’t turning the tables right now - flip her and ride out her cunt on the couch. Some passing thought, or just a fraction, the only one that matters in that particular instant, wonders what Irene would do, will do - has done - in your situation. How her hips would roll. How Karina’s moan might sound when she dug a nail right into a sweet spot.

You push Karina’s skirt a little farther up her body and try to gauge the moment she’s finally decided she doesn’t mind.

“How about you keep your eyes on her, and I’ll suck your cock while you do,“ ends up being the short and not-so-sweet of it all. “-or maybe you can get off between my tits.”

She wraps those fingers around your base and pulls gently. It’s not a decision, but merely a continuation, a culmination: a gesture made entirely to pull the response: the hitch to the throat. Her nails skim that ridgeline as her eyes track across the cut of your features. It makes you groan into her next kiss, to say, "if you wanted it so bad, babe, you could’ve just said. Would save us a lot time-”

“Are you complaining?” she husks, pulling your pants down your thighs. Your cock is in her hands and she smiles like a cat - licks her teeth when it twitches at just the slightest touch. “Yeah, I didn’t think so,” is how the breathless laugh leaves her lips.

You catch the quirk of her brows, her tone: straight-up, like nothing. You’re almost buying into that until she’s got your shirt on the floor, those lips of hers in the divot of your collarbone, and her tits wrapped around the base of your cock, and, well, fuck-

She actually wastes no time - none at all. A couple feet away, Irene covers her laugh with one hand. There’s a brass award in her other. And the television casts this soft, pale glow.

Karina tips her head, and a curtain of her dark, silken hair spills across the ridge of her breast. She runs those big eyes over you, all wide and round and vaguely-deviant. There’s the perfect amount of motion, of squeeze, just a light-bit of pressure, and she’s got a face smug-arrogant in an instant, knowing. Fuck, her hands on either side start pushing into the line of her cleavage as she bounces and rocks and draws every inch of your cock up through her soft tits and back down again.

“Fuck,” is the harshest exhale she’s ever dragged out from you.

She hums a low sound, all self-satisfied when it’s her own namesake: your body wants her, like you know the full weight of her needs, your touch, how badly she’s fucking craving to get off and still not admitting to anyone it might be more than sex. Like it’s really as easy as her next breath, the flutter of her lashes: Karina wants your eyes, the weight of your attention and she’s not going to beg for a fucking thing. The feeling, you think, is mutual.

“Irene,” she says, her smile as open as it could ever get. “She’s just so gorgeous, right?”

On one hand, she’s speaking between the lines. A perfect tincture of deceit - the bawdiness-by-nature: watch me, look at me - is what she might as well say - look what I can fucking do, the whole lewd display. And, god, how she knows every way to make a guy want it, like she wants you to remember it.

Because on the other, the movement is so, so direct. 

Karina twists herself in an upward tilt, just an easy, practiced thing; she lets her tits spill around your cock and through her fingers, full and soft - and her lips part, mouth slacking alongside yours, matching the sounds out your chest with her own. Like she knows exactly which slide of slippery friction will make you moan, or which pull and drag will send your teeth straight into your lip.

“Isn’t it crazy,” she lolls her head a little, letting her own saliva drip down the center, onto your weeping slit. “How much I want your cum filling my cunt, even knowing she’s the one you’d rather put the ring on,” the drag and drag and drag - her tits are fucking incredible, and she knows it. She pushes up with her fingers and gives you a long draw right through the press, right where the nerve endings run electric, right where she keeps moving, up and down, and up and down- 

“-it must be hard, I mean, jesus christ. Here I am, needy and hot. Begging you to wreck me and my only sin, hm - the sin of being second best, right-“

"Holy fuck, you’re-”

“Obsessed,” she says, and drops her tits against your waist again. “I know, I know. How could I not be?”

You’re left muttering into the titfuck alone, watching her rub your precum up between their soft shape, feeling the slight give, how her skin goes warm. The act itself: such a simple-thing-bordering-on-the-absurd that you notice how you coil and flex beneath her curves, how she feels so soft and warm. The slight pucker of her lips every time your cock escapes her cleavage does little to help. It’s probably the fault of the brain-fuck but the wet of her mouth is practically everywhere you look. You could eat her alive right here, spread her legs on the coffee table and finish with a bit of screaming, groaning and tearing, and no one would ever stop you.

But instead,

“-it’s a good color on her, really; but then every color is a good color on her, isn’t it so unfair?” She’s taking your cock into her tits, deeper on every rock forward and back, holding them close - a gentle lock of those long manicured fingers keeping it all together. “Even wearing no color at all; you must just love how all the freckles are so easy to see,” she murmurs, squeezing tight. The sound is wet, messy. A filthy chorus between her dirty words and the dirtier action, and just that glimpse of friction when she strokes down again is maddening. You’re all slippery. So sticky-slick, so tight.

Of course there’s not a fucking inch of a reaction out of her; you want to get off so bad-

“You could close your eyes,” she tells you. “She would still be there. The sound of her laughter. The image. In that dress or not,” and her mouth furls into a half-smile before she pauses. Reaches down, pulls her tits around you impossibly tight. “Just so damn pretty-”

You cum just like that: 

“Babe,” is what you let her have. The soft, undercurrent hiss. “Fuck.”

You shoot clean up, all thick, hot splatter.

Well, mostly up - along the expanse of her neck and throat, coating where her breasts sit so pretty against the lines of your thighs. Across her sternum and the hollow of her neck - her body’s covered in your shared mess: slick-filthy-hot, all strewn across her perfect tits.

“Jesus, Karina, baby you’re-”

“Completely covered in you.” She’s still smiling. That deep-cut and perfectly symmetrical curl of her lips. The gorgeous fucking shade, and her chin, how her cheeks flush, just a little - they’ve always turned pink in the most specific places when she gets fucking cum-soaked. “I know, just look.”

And her hands slide across her chest, trailing a path through the thick of your release, spreading the glaze all down her front. Making it messy, making the exact look a guy sees once and is driven to the ends of his sanity - just to spill his load out onto her. To get her all used, and trussed up: just how she likes.

(Sanity is being generous, considering.)

You can’t do anything other than what’s expected: take her up in a kiss, breathe into the mess you’ve made on her skin. The gasp is full, surprised - just enough, maybe, to count as genuine.

Such a mess - she murmurs - um, come on then, you can do a girl a favor. Bath bomb, bath towel, bath robe - and really it doesn’t have to be a suggestion.

You’ll pin her down and fuck her right over the lip of the tub if that’s what she really wants. Just being in her company is indulgent and excessive and begging you to make a terrible habit of it. Have some self–restraint, she has this tone in her voice sounding more and more like a dare. There’s just enough there in her hands: one reaching for you and the other reaching into the porcelain, swirling up the lather - and that look on her face, as if to say, can’t believe you have me waiting, like some desperate, depraved pervert - only it’s more explicit than that. Only it feels worse - and her mouth is moving again, speaking into the air that already feels stifling hot, words cutting through the steam: you’re not very nice, I mean really, it should come as no surprise how she turns out, having this jerk for a fucking boyfriend- 

Nevermind. Not a dare, it’s a challenge. She was right the first day you undressed her, the brattiest girls always have the worst kinds of fantasies, the darkest little tendrils of self-destruction. How she’s laying there, asking and telling, pushing and pulling; and how she thinks she’s so clever too.

Though that is no reason, she laughs, for you to think she won’t love having her pretty cunt cockwarmed and spoiled for an evening or more. - And so it goes, and so it goes, and so it goes, and so it goes.

-

(Really, to Irene’s credit, she had Karina pegged right from the jump. A character study in, well, herself.

She’s seen as an ingénue by the press, and an outright savant to the executives. They know her as the obvious successor. They give her the runway, they watch the leggy-girl-turn, the model-posture, chin held high and aloof, looking down at the gathered throngs of photographers.

The protégé, the goddamn heir-apparent:  

But her favorite game - that bit of innocence served on a platter, ingenuous when it comes to spinning a flaw to gold, and the deception too - Karina loves and loathes every second she spends upstage from Irene’s own, hectic, international production. Because if anyone asks her, that girl would claim it’s never been a competition in the first place. 

So you see, if you and yours have both decided to ruin her-

It is a disaster-in-the-making, isn’t it.)

PARITY

male reader x sana & miyeon

21k words

Within some reasonable tolerance, the two are carbon copies. Six of one, half a dozen of the other.

Doppelganger, twin, deadringer - they always tell you, they don’t see it.

But when they stand together it always comes across like two shadows stitched into one silhouette; the slope of their noses, their mouths; the way their hair cascades down past their shoulders.

You’ve learned to recognize the twitch at the corner of their lips before a laugh - how they speak in the same inflection and pitch and tempo, the same cadence coloring all their syllables. Even in their figures there is something uncannily familiar: that petite stature, that grace; they both have perfect posture, an ingrained elegance, like something handed down generation to generation. And of course - the height. The hair. The eyes. The same-damned-smirk.

Here’s a hypothetical: if Sana’s DNA, then Miyeon’s RNA. They’re both two separate ways of reading the same thing, and they both have it in them to transcribe the same hot load of proteins over all their pretty faces.

“Oh, that’s like a sex joke,” Miyeon says to Sana, frowning slightly, “right?”

“I don’t know.” Sana hums. “Protein… like sperm?”

You sigh, rub your thumb at your temple. This is why, normally, you wouldn’t take ditzy to bed, but there’s all this history between you and Sana that proves otherwise. The dirty truth is: you’ve been taking ditzy to bed for years. And Miyeon’s right there. She’s all bright eyes, blonde hair, tiny little waist, the perfect height to get two fingers in her cunt and the rest of her in your lap without you even needing to shift your arm into something more uncomfortable. God forbid.

She pulls back the curtain of silk-glossed-hair spilling over her cheek and tucks it neatly behind her ear. Okay, fine. So maybe you really do have a type.

“Yeah,” Miyeon decides. “I think that’s a good pun. Cute.”

She glances sideways at Sana; something flashes between them, imperceptible. They’ve been doing this sorta thing for a long time - long before they ended up in their current living arrangement. This machine of synchronized, unvoiced communication.

“Cute,” echoes Sana, delighted, and she lets her eyes flick back to yours. “Baby, are you, like, gonna give us lots of protein?”

“First of all, we’re fast approaching the point of diminishing returns on the whole protein spermaestria,” you muse, wryly. Sana beams. “And again, the point I’m trying to make, Sana: you two are identical.”

“Not in spirit,” says Miyeon, automatically. “Or intellect. Or appearance, either.”

“You can’t just claim that,” says Sana, matter of fact. “He means physically. I have bigger tits and a better ass.”

There’s no argument from your end. And not only because the cab driver hits a speed bump or a pothole or perhaps a small child way too quickly that sends you all lurching together into the seatbelts.

Miyeon finds a good hold in the handle over the door - it saves her - and you wind up steadying Sana. For a split second, it’s both their shoulders leaning on yours: Sana, then Miyeon, then Sana. Back and forth. Back and forth. The three of you still end up sprawled halfway out of the seats and onto each other in the cramped cab, tangled all together.

"Please, explain it then,” implores Sana, hushed slightly. “Go ahead, I’m sure Miyeon’s dying to hear it.”

“Look, it’s not a perfect one to one mapping,” you say, running your hand through your hair and putting on your patient professor-in-front-of-the-class face. “For example: Miyeon’s cuter-”

“Thank you,” chirps Miyeon, sweetly sardonic, before you can even append anything else to the statement. Sana’s already there with a noise of mild protest.

“I mean, I’m a full inch and a half taller than you.”

“So?”

“That’s an unfair advantage. You’ve gotta be the dumbest person I know.”

“Funny,” chides Miyeon, swiveling her gaze onto Sana. “You could barely talk when we were fucking your brains out on your birthday. He’s dating you, not me, remember? If anything, you’re the one sporting an unfair advantage.”

“Okay, well,” Sana counters, reasonably, “when you can barely get a sentence out from choking on my boyfriend’s cock, who the hell is supposed to call it?”

You ignore that. Miyeon is having more difficulty; her face has flushed cherry red and her hand’s white-knuckle-gripping the side of the cab’s passenger door. 

“For what it’s worth,” you cut in, placidly, “I don’t think there’s any clear answer.”

“Nonsense,” they both reply, simultaneously and satisfied - like wind up toys. And that’s the way the conversation tends to go when you get them alone like this. Identical, you pause to think again after spilling out from the back of the car and onto the curb outside the girls’ apartment.

All the things they say are word-for-word - they walk the same, eat the same, smile the same, tilt their heads the same. In those moments where you don’t speak, it feels like watching some two-headed monster, an entity constructed from equal parts of both. And it isn’t just the physicality at play. They’ve got that eerie ability to read each other, speak for each other. It’s strange: their habits, the way their eyebrows arch, the set of their shoulders. It all syncs right up, matches seamlessly.

It’s really fucking uncanny.

“Um.” Sana twists one slim wrist back and forth until the key turns in the lock. “So, is it, like, wrong of me that I kinda just wanna skip the dinner part of this and watch my roommate get wrecked in the middle of our living room?”

“Depends,” you answer, before you can let yourself dwell too much.

“Just a complete and utter carpet dive,” Sana says, shouldering the door open and flipping on the lights. “It’d serve her right. She’s being annoying.”

Miyeon scoffs, sticks out a bare, pale leg - it ends in a nail polished fire engine red, the strap of a stiletto sandal - and blocks your way inside. “Hey,” she protests, lightly. You are not the only object in the equation - you are merely an item to be held against them; it’s not about you, not in its most abstract shape. Miyeon and Sana are competing - vaguely for your affection, but more so just for affection in general. It’s an ego thing, if nothing else.

“I’m an angel. I’m precious.”

“Get your pretty feet out of his face,” warns Sana.

“Ugh,” says Miyeon. And then, “so short-tempered when you’re not getting away with everything.”

“Whatever, princess.” Sana gestures, airy and flippant. “In any case: fuck off, or go get fucked.”

This has become some kind of weird custom, admittedly. Miyeon does exactly as her best friend requests. She floats down the hallway and toward her room.

“Can’t get good service around here anymore anyway,” is what she tosses over her shoulder. Her fingers run up the door frame to her room and hang there, briefly, before she glances sideways back. You and Sana, now giving her your deservedly undivided attention. There is no split focus, no point of overlap. Her hair falls loose past her shoulders; her shirt clings a little to the muscles of her arms, her ribs. The point of contact between her skirt and her upper thighs. Those impossibly big eyes. She’s gorgeous. You rarely ever let yourself forget that. There’s something devastating about the set of her face, about how her body is absolutely fucking perfect, all curving lines and smooth planes - tits that fit right in your palm, the dip of her stomach, the pretty shape of her ass - she’s tiny, and in a way, that means you can do anything to her and manage to get away with it. She’ll let you. She’ll ask you to do it all again. 

“You two are more than welcome to follow along, if you feel so inclined,” Miyeon adds before she opens the door to her room, steps through, and lets it shut behind her.

"Yeah.” Sana runs her tongue over her top lip, staring you straight in the eye. Her smile is slightly predatory, all sharp teeth. “If you’re so inclined.”

-

(For anyone wondering about things like premise or backstory, here’s a useful memory:

Sana has a new roommate. They’ve been living together for two, three months. She’s still not over the fact you didn’t ask her to move in, and you’re still not ready for it. Your answer hasn’t changed. You like your apartment the way it is; the two of you need space; it’s what the kids call cohabital parity and no, the ring’s not in your wallet and it’s not even bought yet; stop nagging me. It’ll happen when it happens. 

Anyway,

It’s one of those plainly beautiful evenings in early July or August - a weekend probably: the living room is bathed in the sort of low, radiant sunset that can go on forever, all of summer stretched out, leisure and sunshine. Sana had talked her way into getting you to take her somewhere highbrow and a little out of your budget. She can talk her way into just about anything; that’s her brand, her bad habit, her good fortune.

“We’re not going to be able to get our tickets,” you’re explaining into the loud blare of a hair dryer. And to paraphrase, “what the fuck is the point of making reservations if we’re going to be so reprehensively late?”

Sana’s juggling the curling iron while fumbling with an eyelash curler and applying mascara and rearranging earrings all at the same time, and you think about reminding her, again, that it doesn’t matter what she looks like if you never actually, you know, leave - but then the hair dryer switches off.

“Hey.” Sana ignores the concern and swivels to ask which earrings match which necklace - two pairs are laid across the countertop; they look exactly the same; you love her, desperately, but for the record, you’ve never been any good at telling jewelry apart. Neither the knowledge-set nor the motivation; she looks fucking gorgeous in everything regardless-

The front door clicks then, and Miyeon bursts through with the force of an entire hurricane - and promptly stops, dead. You forget what the hell she said, but the story was: she’d just gotten back from the worst date in her life. She’s in tears, sobbing. It’s a mess. She’s a mess. You can’t leave.

She falls right into Sana’s arms. Then Sana throws a pointed, triumphant grin your way, and says to Miyeon - and you remember this, word for word, verbatim - “Aw, baby. Don’t worry. Let us take care of you. We’ll make you forget all about him, okay?”

This is the long and short of it: Miyeon arrives, in tears. You never make it to dinner and a show. And the night ends more or less how it started - with Miyeon still pretty much crying, but only because you two won’t stop. With your fingers, your mouths. Sana knows what her tongue’s doing; Miyeon is loud - and responsive. She’s gorgeous too. She’s so into it. She needs someone who is genuinely in love with her, who isn’t going to try and push her around. You slip your cock into her and that’s pretty much it, a different kind of curtain call; Miyeon gets Sana’s thumb rolling at her clit and, yeah - she’s fucking gone. She cums on your cock like she’s dying, like you’re killing her. It’s as simple as that.

Now, there are several instances of which this is the case, in chronological order:

a.) The first time, in Sana’s bed.

b.) The second time is in the back of Miyeon’s hatchback. Tight fit for three people. It’s a do-not-recommend.

c.) The third time, when they want to try blindfolding Miyeon while she rides your cock in the living room. The girl can’t see shit, you break some IKEA furniture you can’t pronounce the name of, and the condom comes off during the whole process. There’s this unsettling, world-rocking possibility in which you get Miyeon fucking legitimately pregnant via oopsie-daisy. So, you and Sana wind up spooned up with Miyeon between you two and discuss the eventuality, should it arise - what you will all do in the future, the consequences, what Miyeon and Sana will say to Miyeon’s and Sana’s families - what the fuck you’ll tell the rest of your friends, let alone the press - and then, deciding together: hey, well maybe this is actually a really bad idea.

d.) The fourth, fifth, sixth and every time after that where you realize that you’re just gonna roll it all back and pretend like this is completely normal. Two’s company, three’s kind of a fever dream - but this is the platonic ideal of groupthink. It works. It just does; you know how to fit the pieces together now. How to read her body language: the one-two-one rhythm, Sana and Miyeon and then Miyeon-and-Sana; where their hands are, where they’re moving; Miyeon’s choked little sobs and the breathless gasps when your cock is deep inside her; all the unintelligible murmurs passing between the two of them that you can’t understand - but none of them ever really matter. The important thing is that she’s put her two front teeth in your left collarbone while you fuck into her slow and deliberate, in a way she can really feel. You cover Sana’s mouth with your palm, your fingers pressed against the pulsing heat in her pussy, and you make them both cum over and over until they’re eyes are screwed shut and they’re counting stars.

That’s about it. That’s all the things.)

-

“I call it being spoiled for choice,” Sana says, pausing only momentarily to decide in the mirror of Miyeon’s makeup vanity whether or not to take off the bracelet on her wrist. 

The glint that strikes off the metal is gold in the bedroom lights, all warm yellow and sparkling silver. Sana narrows her fingers, pulls it off, on - like you’ve caught her trying on clothes, the latest fashion in a store front window. A stylistic consideration. It matches the rings on her third and fourth fingers. She decides that it suits her. 

“Lo and behold,” Sana continues, “we have a real situation on our hands. In your hands. Whatever, you get my drift.”

“Your cock,” adds Miyeon, smiling like sunshine. She’s tracing you over your pants with her thumb, and she’s got her doe-eyed grin on, the one that promises something sugar-sweet, kneeling between your thighs at the edge of her bed - the slightest dishevel of her hair, kiss-swollen lips. God, what a picture. Her pupils flare when her fingers reach the top button of your pants. “And what’s worse? I’m going to die if I can’t have at least, you know. A couple minutes alone with it.”

“You’d figure out a way to die either way,” Sana muses. She leans backwards in Miyeon’s desk chair, tugging idly at the hem of her skirt.

They’re not usually dressed alike, and that’s the weirdest part - Sana’s never had Miyeon’s particular taste for the tiny gauche dresses and white converse shoes and glossy nails, not unless it’s some matching outfit that she’s being bullied into. Today’s no different: the soft fabric of Miyeon’s slip of dress barely stretches down to the line of her thigh. The hem starts just below the boundary of innocuous and everything else. She’d been hiking it up all evening. And the straps lay so thin across her shoulders that one little tug in the wrong spot would probably send it skidding all the way down to the floor.

That’s the main thing on your mind when you get one in between your fingers.

Miyeon simply shoulders the other, rolling it down to hang loose, leaving the dress hanging off the gentle slope of her chest.

“Pretty,” you say out loud.

“I know,” she says, holding the grin.

She can make the world smile, it’s infectious - and your gaze follows the path: from the blonde-shiny hair spilling over a collarbone, to the peeking line of her bra, to the flutter of the bottom of her dress at her hip. You catch the subtle lace trim, the little patterns embroidered into the waist, and decide her body’s a gift - and wrapping it is something divine, something meant to be ripped right to shreds. If no one else is willing to volunteer, then it’ll fall on you. Sure, sure, sure. You can be thanked later.

“Lose it,” you request, quietly.

“Mr. Impatient,” is what Sana sniffs out, scoffing. She’s lounged back on the other side of Miyeon’s makeup counter. Her heel taps away at empty air, bouncing off the end of her foot, that hot little fucking rhythm she’s had going since her partner in crime got in your lap and kissed you right down into oblivion. “You want to get her naked and get inside of her, huh?”

“Is that not why you dragged me here?” you counter.

“Oh, don’t put this on me.” Her expression slides right into the mischievous smirk you’re familiar with. Miyeon’s often sporting the same one.

“He wants to bend you over, princess,” she tells Miyeon, and you hear the wistful sigh through her parted lips come out like permission. “Not that I can say I’d blame him. When’s the last time you’ve taken cock again?”

“With him last week.” She throws the response to Sana. They look, more than anyone, to be in sync in their one-upmanship.

“Hmm,” says Sana, and she’s looking right at you. “Check how tight that dress fits over her hips, don’t you just want to tear it right off of her?”

“He’s not doing that,” says Miyeon, but there’s the lilting tease in her voice that signals precisely the opposite. She wants it: wants it like sugar and soda, salt water taffy; wants to be stripped like skin, bared to the bone. Her knees spread, just a little. “Not yet, anyway. Right now,” she adds, hand fluttering towards the inside of her thigh, supplying touches right over the lace, “I want to suck his cock.”

“Such a slut,” Sana teases, tilting her head.

“You’ll get yours,” Miyeon insists, before pulling your cock out of your boxers with a small smile, curling her fingers around it, leaning forward. “God, this thing.” She has the head under the palm of her other hand, and a wet-tipped promise on her lower lip.

You thread your hand into the hair aside Miyeon’s temple, gentle and what will seem in a moment: paradoxically-tender. 

“Imagine what it’ll do to your mascara when I fuck your mouth.”

Miyeon licks her lips. You reckon she’s completely aware how it comes across - the wicked fantasy she is.

“I’m imagining what it’ll do to you when she chokes,” Sana retorts. 

“When he fills up my throat,” Miyeon says, hungry.

Sana sighs, sounding utterly wistful, and she fixes the same unrepentant look on you. “Poor Miyeon is just starved for cum tonight. Aww,” she remarks, sweetly, “The poor thing. Do me a favor won’t you? Fuck my pretty little friend in the face.”

“Well,” is all you get out before you look up at Sana. “Yours too, honey.”

“Hardly, the same,” Miyeon cuts in primly, glancing sideways at Sana. There is some snobbishness implied; there are ways Sana and Miyeon have always found to subtly measure themselves against one another, to best each other - all of these ridiculous acts and anecdotes. Like their voices aren’t replicas of one another - and in constant disagreement over whoever is currently claiming to be the original.

Miyeon prissily tilts her jaw up. “Your ego might actually be the worst part about you, Sana. That and your tits.”

“Guess he just loves all the worst parts,” Sana quips, rolling her eyes, “and every time you call it into question I fall in love with him a little more.”

She’s got one foot up now on the seat of the chair and she’s running her fingers, delicate and teasing, around the press of her panties. It’s not a voyeuristic thing, she’s told you, it’s less about watching Miyeon get fucked than it is about knowing exactly what it looks like when she herself gets spread out beneath you. She watches you and Miyeon, she watches her best friend and you, and she touches herself and it’s perfect. There’s a few seconds, long and warm, before she lifts her fingers away, then sucks them into her mouth with a grin. Just the slightest taste.

“But seriously,” she says to Miyeon. “If you’re gonna do something - then do it. Don’t be a tease. We both know the answer, anyway.”

Miyeon swallows. You hear her. You watch her lips wrap around the head of your cock and pop off, wet and shining, and her head rests in the curve of your palm.

“I’m working on it,” Miyeon allows, lowly - she pumps her fist again around you, careful with the motion; this little twisting tug. “Fuck, it’s not even the fact that it’s fucking huge, or. Like, it’s not because I’m dying to get stuffed by this, or because I’m sitting here thinking: oh my fuck, I’m gonna feel so full with this thing inside me.”

You have her hand under her chin, thumb stroking gently against her cheek. Her eyes return to yours when you put a little more pressure in your grip. She’s fantastically pretty, and the gleam of lust and want in her irises has you probably too eager to play along. 

“So then, what could it possibly be?”

“It’s-” Her cheeks darken pink beneath her blush, stumbling through a mouthful of ums and uhs as her eyes make tiny departures back to your waist until she finally gives up and just stares again.

Sana sits up a little in her chair.

“Look, this is the prettiest cock I’ve ever seen.” 

You and Sana almost snort in unison.

“I’m serious.” Miyeon rubs a semi-circle over the head with her thumb, glancing up at you beneath her mascara, and then to the base, back up. It jerks, almost like reflex, in her grasp; she huffs in delight. "It’s, like, perfect in every way. And, god, everytime- I’d just about do anything to feel it inside me.”

“You’d beg?” Sana asks, eyebrow raised.

“I’m about to get down on my knees and grovel, honey.”

“Should’ve just said,” Sana laughs - Miyeon chews her lip, half-exasperated, and drops a kiss to the tip that makes Sana’s expression simper - “you’re halfway there. Want him to cum in that sweet mouth?”

“Want him to tell me what he’s going to do,” says Miyeon, frilly. “Every last detail.”

Lips stretching open, fingers splaying, curling around the weight - she dips her head to rest her cheek on your thigh and kisses the underside of your shaft. She’s practically like liquid. Flowing and easy and gorgeous, always gorgeous, too far gone to form a full thought. That much is obvious. And why shouldn’t it be - your hand’s already snagged up, your thumb’s already wiping the hair out of her eyes. She turns to let it sit against the edge of her cheekbone. “You really need an incentive? Want you to fill me up so I can-”

“Swallow,” you supply, simply. “Swallow everything.”

“Yeah,” Miyeon presses into the curve of your cock. She doesn’t wink, not really; she doesn’t need to. “I like you. You always know exactly what to say.”

Her hair brushes a feather-light caress up the skin of your thigh, mouth a vision of sin and pretty red lipstick. “Open,” you command, quietly, and she follows your orders exactly - mouth dropping, head tilting, eyes drifting closed - her lips glisten with saliva and you could shove your cock into that mouth, easy. Just push in and wreck the inside of her - spit on her chin, feel her throat clench up as she gags and struggles around your cock. God, if that isn’t a thought that can do a number on the base of your spine.

“Easy,” Sana supplies, like she can read your mind. That wouldn’t really surprise you. “Leave some of her make-up for me.”

There’s the quick hiss of an inhale, Miyeon’s mouth stretching open. Her jaw going slack. You feel the long, wet suck of skin and spit, and her eyelids flutter as she settles in. She slides her tongue and adjusts, makes soft, raspy, throaty noises while her lips slide down the first few inches of your cock. It’s funny - Sana had made the same sound earlier in the day - and it’s really not like it’s an awful comparison. They both let on gorgeous little noises when they’re sucking cock and it makes sense because it’s the same cock. Same skin. Same person.

You’re not, however, about to do something so pedestrian as compare notes. Not on them. Not in the fucking slightest.

And Sana, god - Sana doesn’t just watch. She knows better. She’s not even the one taking your cock in her mouth but there’s the insistent presence of her: a fingertip diving down past the crotch of her skirt, a quiet moan, her wrist jolting in a repetition of short, sharp strokes, the kind she likes to use on herself: precise. Deliberate.

“Miyeon,” you whisper. “God, just - it’s your fucking mouth, you-”

The hand on her face strokes the side of her head - a push-pull. A chance to break off - she doesn’t - so she ends up with a rougher grip tangling through her hair and you guiding her head further down the length of your shaft.

Miyeon loves the pressure on her throat. You know that. And, yeah, she fucking hates choking on it but somehow in her mind, they’re different. Opposites. Because with the way she’s going, a little cough will burst free in a few seconds time. That’s your signal, you’ve learned, that she’ll let you slide yourself to the hilt. Just keep the wet tip lodged there until she starts gasping around it. It’d only take a minute.

Two tops.

And well, that’s the compromise: your patience for a throat fuck is infinite. She’s staring up at you with upturned brows and that pretty-please pout on her slick-wet lips. She’s making her best effort but, christ. Fuck.

Her eyelids flicker once.

Then close.

“There,” you breathe down to her, your knuckles finding her cheek, smoothing over the sharp curve of bone there. Your cock is slotted right in her hot little mouth and you’re starting to feel like maybe you really did hang the moon and stars in the sky after all. Her lips press around you. Sink, up, down. “Such a good girl, sucking my cock, looking up at me- god, all dolled up, it’s not even fair, Miyeon.”

Miyeon can be many things, and presently among them: a filthy, obedient angel.

She pulls up. “I try,” Miyeon breathes right at the tip. Her tongue darts out. She swirls, and swirls, until it’s back under the tip of your cock again, soft.

You’re too predictable, or you’re too forthcoming, or here’s the thing about a woman’s intuition; Miyeon wants to tell you something more, she wants to let you know how fucking unbelievably hard you are in her hands right now; she wants to laugh at you for getting caught up and dumb but she’s not letting your cock slide free. This suckle of her lips, right at the crest where you’re most sensitive and leaking precum right into her mouth - this press and pull is as close to conversation as she can get. So what. You love it. She loves it: the reward is in the ricochet. You look at her and her cheeks hollow and the flash of her pink tongue gets wet and warm under your head, the slit of her mouth stretching to take every ‘totally fucking perfect’ inch of your cock.

And then her lips tighten and she just-

“Christ, Miyeon-” You whimper it right down to her, your voice lost in the shiver of her throat, all tight and wet around your cock. It’s like your vocal cords have been stolen right along with the air in your lungs and everything feels floaty, warped and red and blanketing you with Miyeon’s hard-worked rhythm:

The scissoring flick of her tongue as she strokes the base with a firm fist. The other hand resting on your hip, feeling your hips jerk. She wants this, the part where you let go and stop thinking. The part where she opens her throat, lets her saliva flood to pool against her palm, and wet the tip of your cockhead before letting it slide right back in her throat. Your shaft flexing into her heat, the sound of those gags.

She just-

She just goes on like that, sucking your cock while the flat of her palm skates a little tighter. Up, up, down - up-

“Miyeon,” Sana says, now on her feet and shadowing in closer, leaning. And that’s it. Sana knows too. She kneels down next to her, gets a finger under her chin, and delivers in a uniquely cold tone: “hands behind your back, sweetheart. I want him to cum in your gorgeous little mouth.”

You nearly choke, ironically. You’re already grabbing so much of her hair: all those smooth silky strands threaded through your fingers.

You thrust and pull. She gags. She fucking chokes.

Spit collects, rolls down the corners of her mouth and gathers on her chin. You can see the mascara threaten to run tracks along her pretty cheeks, the way the makeup smudges so dangerously close to her bottom lid. “Yeah?” you say, so softly, but you can’t - can’t seem to look anywhere else, or take anything back - so, what, her jaw’s just gonna go on being that perfect little shape, and she’s gonna be a brat for it. Okay. That works. She looks good choking. You can see the slick glint of her pink mouth stretching taut on your cock, your cock jerking and bobbing on the pad of her tongue; it’s not real - no, this is completely real. The ball of your foot slips along the floor.

It’s instinct. You can’t help yourself; a groan spills out of you, half-sighed

Sana’s whispering right in her ear; not that you can make anything out of it over the noises from her mouth, her fist all wet, pumping. The tick-tock bob of her hair. Sana’s hand is on the back of her head and then - pushing the last inch down, and down, her nose buries right into your skin.

“Mnnph.” Miyeon, gurgling: your cock pressed all the way down the line.

“Fuck,” you spit, holding her jaw in place. “Fuck, Miyeon-”

She looks up at you, her eyebrows cinched, the graceful lines in her picture-perfect-face pulling around you - blissed out. She stutters in place while you dump a hot load of cum into her mouth.

And she adds a cough as you pump everything directly onto her fucking tongue. It’s more than she anticipated, judging by the leak. How your cum rolls down from the corner of her mouth.

Sana drops a kiss onto her temple as she takes you in and out of her mouth again, until she presses her lips firm and hollows her cheeks. Miyeon’s fingers caress your balls like there’s some part of you that isn’t giving her fucking everything already.

“Come on, princess,” says Sana, kissing her way along Miyeon’s neck, the tops of her shoulders. There is not an angle to Miyeon’s elegant features that she could take that could possibly be anything short of priceless. “Show him how you swallow.”

The image is obscene, for one thing. The utter filth in that satiated hum; there’s another. 

It’s your white-hot cum dribbling past her swollen, fucked mouth. Miyeon swallows like the good girl she is - takes a breath, stares, and then finishes, a gulp, an extra breath, her whole face now a shade more flushed. Sana kisses her on the cheek and suddenly it’s perfect: they’re both staring right at you. Your throat has to unclench, reboot and the air in the room just tastes so good and your chest is heaving; you just- fuck, you can’t breathe-

“Shit,” you exhale. It comes out like a small explosion. “Uh-”

The side of Sana’s mouth slants and then Miyeon grins: it’s her cheek, dimple; that crescent moon thing and oh, this is the point. Sana slides a hand over the gentle curve of her stomach, then sets her open mouth over Miyeon’s still-lips, slipping in close and - kissing. Their mouths melt together like it’s the most practiced thing, tongues a second later, and Sana is stroking your cock in her fingers; the expectations clear in every little coaxing flick of her slim wrist.

“Do you have any idea,” Sana sighs against her lips. The two of them, blinking up at you, like good little things - sweet enough. “How fucking wet you both have me?”

And Miyeon, shameless as she is disastrously pretty, reads right between the lines. “Where do you want it?” Her mouth tilts up to the side. A wicked smile. “He can cum all over us, no? And I have this skirt with an awfully short, pretty lace. We don’t even have to take our clothes off, really, I can just-”

Sana gets an eyeful - Miyeon - before cutting her off, silencing with the wet press of her mouth, and suddenly their kiss goes frantic and quick. They’re rolling apart: hands tearing up their clothes. Off. Off. Off.

Your cock stirs. It throbs. Fuck. Sana’s barely intelligible in the space between their tongues. “I could lay flat,” she’s saying, “with my legs open, and-”

“-with him on top of you, pressing inside you - so he could hold me down, and then pull all the way back out, to leave a thick load on your clit-”

“-and when he has to pull out-”

“-probably cum all over you too, the best view-”

“-or all over the rest of me, while I touch myself-”

“-maybe-”

“-and you just have to imagine how good that’ll feel, while my thighs shake and we ride it out, you and I-”

Their faces - both flushed and dampened with the strain, both breathtaking. Their eyes are hooded, lashes a-flutter. They’d made their own decision, didn’t even bother with yours. A mutual vote of two-to-one: you’re going to fuck them in turns. You’re going to fuck them together. You’re going to edge yourself in one cunt and fill the other. They’re both going to take it, and wear it, and then use each other to make you cum again. Good. Okay, any questions - and they want it rough? 

The answer’s a two-part chorus. Yes.

-

Not even an hour later, Miyeon is playing, of all fucking things, Candy Crush, legs draped lazily across Sana’s lap, both of them kicked back on the couch, dressed again like the best girls you’ve ever seen. “The amount of money they make on this app-” Miyeon complains, waving a lazy hand. A long strand of blonde brushes against the corner of her mouth before she swipes it away again with an irritated sigh. She’s just sitting there, knees folded, blithely bitching about a game of match three on her phone. “And they send these fucking blocks just to mess with me,” - another swipe. Her hair sticks against the fresh gloss coating her lips. “It’s literally just a waste of human-fucking-potential.”

“It’s a game for children,” you offer.

“Then why is it marketed at adults, hm?” She’s absolutely serious. “Sana plays it too.”

“Mhmm,” Sana agrees, not really agreeing at all. Her eyes are closed; you’re sitting next to her, and she’s taken up your leg as a makeshift pillow, lying down with her arm resting on her forehead, so casually disinterested in anything other than the quiet thrumming of your presence by her side.

It’s insane that they’re like this: like they’re not constantly checking their phones for texts, like you don’t all have lives. You’re almost - dare you think - having a semi-regular conversation. Now If for a moment you could ignore how they both look like the human embodiment of sin-

“Miyeonie,” Sana says.

“Sana,” Miyeon returns, flat.

There’s not even a movie playing on the living room TV - just the netflix menu; it’s volume is at a sort of white noise. A subtle buzz clicks on in the air conditioner.

“You know how you’re supposed to go out with that guy next weekend.”

“You mean the date you set me up with.” Miyeon pauses, tongue caught between her teeth. “Where I have to put on a pretty little dress. And smile. And laugh at all his jokes.”

“You know the one.”

Miyeon jumps on Sana’s train of thought. “You want me to send you some pictures when it’s over.”

Sana turns it over in her head a few times. “Maybe,” she says, finally.

A genuine exchange perhaps. No fighting, no bullshit, no riptide of pure unbridled sexual frustration.

“Or,” Sana adds, simply, “you skip the part where you sabotage the small talk and come back to our apartment.” She blinks. “End up getting us both.”

“You’re suggesting I’ve been ruining dates on purpose?” Miyeon, incredulous, runs her fingers through the hair at the top of her head, gentle, almost like an admission of guilt. “You’re out of your mind. Why would I do that?”

The fragile peace never does last long. Sana looks at you again. Holds onto the eye roll. “Why, indeed.”

“I don’t follow,” Miyeon says; something, a tic, a tell, causes the muscle in her brow to stutter.

“She’s suggesting that you’d rather be in bed between us than on a date with some guy whose face we’ve only seen once,” you cut in. Sana looks over. “It’s come up a few times.”

“Okay, so what?” Miyeon takes a breath. Her mouth a rictus twist. “You’re trying to get me to admit it out loud? That I like to get fucked by my gorgeous bestfriend and her pinterest-board-of-a-boyfriend more than I’d like going to a mediocre concert downtown with some dipshit who just wants to see if I’ll stick out this ‘goddess’ routine for a month or two and then bounce for someone else. Wow. Sherlock and Watson, coming through for the killshot. Take me straight to jail.”

“We never got around to those cuffs,” is what you make mention of. It’s not particularly helpful.

“Don’t pretend,” Sana says instead, “you don’t like to play both sides. Or that the trad-wife fantasy of yours is somehow subtle.”

“There’s nothing shameful about knowing exactly who you are, or wanting something,“ Miyeon insists. She tilts her head towards the two of you. A different angle. Her words come out sharp and hot: "some of us have the decency to let our friends know exactly what they want.”

“Okay.” You laugh out loud, half out of nervous habit. “Well obviously there’s some sort of rhythm here - I’m just not dumb enough to think I can put a finger on the pulse.”

“Then this is, what, some sort of elaborate plot for my heart?” Miyeon’s chuckling to herself, but in the space of a blink her voice is more tender. Her arms folding in close. “Is that the plan, finally catching me-”

“Next week.” Sana sits up. “There’s a trip coming up, something kind of international.” She picks at the hem of her sweater, and looks at you.

“What the hell, exactly” - you card your hand through Sana’s hair - “does ‘kind of’ international entail?”

“Ms. Prada has a modeling campaign to attend,” Miyeon intones. “She also needs someone to take care of the jetlag, is what I assume this is about.”

Sana waves her hand in the air. “I’m saying we book you an extra ticket. Rent a room at a nice hotel. No work. No phones. Just us three, and the best sex you’ve ever had.”

“I wasn’t even aware I was going to that,” you say - almost as an aside.

“You weren’t.” Sana leans more of herself into you. “You are now.”

“Is this how you’re going to woo me? The grand design?” Miyeon’s hands are fiddling in her lap. Sana’s pressing in. Closer. “All the sex and leisure I could ever ask for?”

“It sounds ridiculous when you say out loud,” Sana answers, curling into her. “But, yeah, that’s pretty much it.”

Miyeon laughs like it’s a lost cause. Genuine, throaty - like music.

“Simplicity doesn’t have to be a bad thing, Miyeon.” Sana kisses her, slow. Quietly, “you could even pack a swimsuit,” and there’s this beat, the rise and fall of Miyeon’s breathing that might lead anywhere: “though I doubt we touch the beach at all.”

“You’re pulling on all my heartstrings, Sana.”

And there you are - etching your names onto the calendar. Reservations and bookings and promises of everything and anything and exactly where you all want to be.

It’s Miyeon that finally admits, “you know part of me can’t resist the idea.”

“Then, this weekend.” Sana’s fingertips trace circles on your hip, the tensing pull of muscle. You’re aching and exhausted and content: drifting in the tide, a catch of the day, some soft, dreamy wave of consciousness, nothing specific, just the moment passing through all three of you.

But you do get it. There’s this obvious snag in your heartbeat, too.

Because Sana is grinning; her fingertips, tapping. Your stomach’s fluttering too. A little ghostly clutch of hope in your chest and it’s such an embarrassing notion. You’re getting swept away - pulled under - and it’s Miyeon, splaying out beside Sana, her hand reaching out to you with her palm turned up. It’s a promise, and the force of her can - and has - moved mountains.

“I pick the hotel,” Miyeon’s voice is deeply firm and sure. She’s got a fistful of Sana’s pajamas. “You two can sort out the lingerie.”

Sana’s mouth curves a perfect grin. She’s kissing her again: wet. Heavy. It’s not a no, if she was ever expecting one.

-

So that’s your reality: what used to be two dalliances - separate but not distinct - now share one headspace, and there’s enough rapport just in the group chat alone. You’ve all been messaging back-and-forth for weeks; Miyeon playing the game where she’s the steady one in your life, the knot you’re going to tie down when you can finally afford it (and in every way she can imagine). You find it entertaining. Sana seems mildly amused. And Miyeon will call you on the phone, sometimes. A chat-off. About nothing and everything. What you should bring on the trip. Where she’s going to eat dinner before you meet her at the airport. Et cetera. Et cetera.

// Miyeon 1:21 AM > hey. I’m all finished packing. how’s the bedroom looking?

// 1:26 AM > absolutely wrecked. no survivors

// Sana 1:27 AM > It’s fine. We stripped the sheets, got the box from the closet. Have the video you wanted as well. Call the laundry service in the morning and get the floor washed too. You know. So, nothing comes out of the security deposit.

// Miyeon 1:29 AM > a threesome that destroyed an apartment? say it isn’t so

// Sana 1:34 AM > didn’t hear you complain during.

// 1:38 AM > strict instructions, right?

And then sometimes, during those conversations, Miyeon will send an aside just for you:

// Miyeon 1:40 AM > strict? please. do whatever. I’m like so good at following instructions

That’s Miyeon. The paradox of being submissive - you never, ever treat her gently. She never really wants you to. Sana’s mid-reach over your chest to turn off the lights when she glances down at Miyeon’s text, then promptly scoffs. The two of them don’t always have the most conventional dialogue.

“She’s one hundred percent serious by the way.” Sana rolls on her side, away, but the nightlight beside the bed just manages to illuminate the slope of her ass - curved in the silk nightie she’d thrown on before bed. You want to crawl between the fabric.

“I never really doubted that. She’s got a very specific… demeanor.”

“You’ve noticed.”

“Um,” you say. Sana’s turned over her shoulder to blink at you. “Kind of a dark streak. Like something in her is craving-”

“To be broken to pieces? Oh, it’s fucking bliss for her when she’s vulnerable and the tension cracks." 

“I was going to phrase it a little more indirectly than that, but yes, I suppose that’s the gist of it.”

Sana shrugs. 

"The girl lives to be chased is what it is.

It’s just Sana and her perfect legs and smooth, creamy thighs right there, ready for you to touch, ready for you to fall apart over. They brush your calf, your thigh - so you are kind of distracted. 

“And she feels most wanted when she’s choking, getting used, right at the point she can’t decide if another inch is gonna kill her or drive her up the wall. No air in her lungs, nothing under her own control.” Sana flops, presses against your side, one leg tossed on top, arms curled around your neck. “Pretty obvious, all things considered.”

“Sounds a bit familiar, no?” you tease, and reach back to draw her against the front of your body. 

She curves, twists into your embrace. Her hair is half up, half down - wide eyed like a fantasy made manifest. You’re always gonna give in, even when Sana doesn’t deserve it. 

“You get me. It’s the best. Please, go nuts with the idea.”

“Huh, birds of a feather.”

“Sure, whatever,” Sana brushes a kiss against your cheek, presses back into your hips to feel your hard length strain between your boxers and her ass, softening only because, god, she’s a real human fucking treasure, “so maybe Miyeon and I have a certain… similar temperment to us, maybe that’s true.”

“Yeah,” you breathe. Your arms wrap around her, the heat in her core now evident from the outside. “That’s what I’ve been saying.”

Sana doesn’t respond to that, not directly; her palms drag, smooth, over your fingers. “Fuck me to sleep,” she suggests instead. “We’ve got an early flight.”

And so you do. You’d pulled your cock from your shorts the second she pressed her ass into your waist and claimed her place as your other half, the little spoon. There’s a few beats, a few breaths, where you’d rocked against her clumsily, lining yourself up, and she’d braced the two of you:

She’d arched her back, got an arm over her head to tangle a hand into your hair and keep you right where you were - your lips against her neck. Until it’s just this soft-rhythm, all easy thrusts; one arm underneath her, the other around her hip, finding and spreading and - easily - gliding into her cunt.

Sana sighs a lovely sound right next to your ear: your name, some hushed curse. Her hand is wrenched back into whatever group of muscles she can find. And you listen to the gorgeous little tritone of oh shit, oh god, oh fuck when you make her cum. The displays of indulgent affection in her throat, then the ruddy mess of you working her to a wreck of pleasured exhaustion until she collapses into a hot-faced, sleepy daze. All cozy between the sheets, the duvet - you’d fucked her from the outside in; made her relieved and relaxed, all loose and calm. Sana curls into you with her moans still staining the cool side of her pillow and the snugness of her cunt wrapped around your cock.

You drift off just like that, snug inside her. Sana is, as always, impossibly warm.

-

On your phone, there are some choice text messages:

// Miyeon 2:18 AM > jesus

// Miyeon 2:18 AM > can you guys like please

// Miyeon 2:18 AM > PLEASE

// Miyeon 2:18 AM > fuck any quieter

Okay, so it’s not perfect. But you’re about ninety-percent sure Miyeon had used every fiber of her willpower not to float across the hall and take her spot between the both of you. And it’s probably for the best. You feel pretty rough when the alarm starts blaring as it is.

-

The room Miyeon picks out isn’t exactly small, nor was she minding the purse strings. There’s a wide expanse of living area, a massive bed in the back; the ensuite and bath beyond that has a walk-in shower large enough for all three of you and room left over. On the walls is gentrification-colored paint, a gray laminate flooring to match; there is not one speck of dust. It feels every bit the palace it is on the outside - the gables and mansard roofs and the Juliette balconies - gothic, or neoclassical. Something vaguely European, with all its rich furnishings and pristine fixtures to boot.

Sana and Miyeon step into the space with all the familiarity of royalty.

“Warm in here,” says Sana, appraising; her black chiffon, nearly translucent, fans about her hips with each tiny sway. In her white pumps, she’s already a perfect tease and she hasn’t even touched herself yet. “Smells good, though.”

Miyeon’s heels echo behind her like gunshots against the floor, and it’s really not ever fair the way a skirt wears her. “The listing said something about a hospitality kit, and essential oils - there should be a basket of things. Do you want me to start the water?”

“Let’s settle in a little first,” Sana suggests, and without any fanfare, the first thing she does is draw the gauzy curtain closed.

There’s an itinerary; it’s an ongoing event. Technically it all started in the airport terminal when Sana slung her arm around Miyeon’s waist and her hand went straight down to her ass. She just gave it a little squeeze. In the moment, nothing terribly remarkable, but then again, Miyeon didn’t tell her not to. They walked through security like that and picked out drinks together from a terminal cafe before doing a circuit, fingers linked. The way Sana looks at her now - Miyeon sees - is how she’s always looked at her. That is maybe, the whole point.

“Come here.”

Sana’s tone is smooth as silk, her mouth an inviting pucker, gloss-dewy and delicious. The bow is even tied at the back: Sana’s collar is fitted snug. It sits tight at the base of her neck with the silvery cord loose across her shoulder, knotted down near the apex of her spine. It’s simple, classic. All soft fabric and no frill, with an absence that invites eyes and wandering fingertips: she hasn’t worn a bra. No strap lines. Her body has the sweetest outline and the warmest curves and god, the skin she’s not showing is as good as what she is.

“So,” you say out loud. It hits you: there’s no cameras, no urgency. No obligations. “We came all the way here just so Sana could have sex, huh.”

It’s really always about the two of them.

“Good sex,” Sana corrects. The table next to her catches the flat of her palm as she settles herself against the surface, one leg crossing in front. The slit in her dress rises in the movement: enough of a hint at the soft thigh underneath. You see her do this every once in a while and her body doesn’t lie; this is an implicit act of seduction. But when she looks back up, her smile goes shy and her voice follows suit: “I promised our princess that we’d spoil her a little.”

You say, “she’s right there,” at the same time Sana adds- “which is kind of impossible when she’s still wearing her clothes.”

Miyeon makes a big, showy production of crossing her arms in a huff. You could do anything; flip a switch; knock her flat against the wall, and Sana would hold her down with a hand at her throat and a kiss her like fire and gasoline on her tongue and no one would have a single word to say to complain.

You could have. Would have. But Miyeon finds her fingertips on the ridge of her clavicle, the barest swipe. She pulls at the top button of her shirt and the seam unlatches: a single reveal, a gradual, fluid movement in the dip and fall of a one inch gap. Just enough skin to make you and Sana swallow.

“Oh?” Miyeon grins. She stares at you with that coy smirk, biting her lip; an invitation for a kiss. For a fuck. You cross the gap, with every intention of making good on it; only, Sana slips in behind her - stops her midway in undoing the next button - and places a hand on the nape of Miyeon’s neck, cool.

“She really can be a brat, can’t she.”

“Only because she gets rewarded for it,” you admit, and as soon as Sana touches her, Miyeon is looking up with that same face she gives you when she gets on her knees, ready to be just your little pet, your desperate, whimpering thing.

Sana leans into her ear: “maybe because she knows she can’t stop thinking about you bending her over, every chance she gets. Isn’t that right, pretty girl?”

They’ve always been like this, you think. Growing up with money and cars and ski vacations in the Alps: that sort of thing. It’s been a long, slow, build-up and this was always the payoff. It is, without a doubt, just the slightest taste of luxury. Sana pushes, and Miyeon turns up to her mouth with a slow, dangerous whisper. “Isn’t it kinder to say it as it is, instead of dancing around it for weeks-”

“For months,” corrects Sana, and then sliding into a far more generous tone, “mouths, fingers- or his cock?”

“Maybe,” Miyeon lifts her chin like she’s readying to kiss, “all three.”

Her voice drips - purses her lips, and you’re there again: at that fateful exchange. Everything about Miyeon has the power to sink its claws deep. Those heels on her dainty little feet, the stockings climbing along her thighs. Everything.

“Miyeon.” That comes out harsher than you’d have thought.

“What can I say? I’m not a patient person.” She’s got that wild, starry-eyed look to her. You could tame her. You could dominate her - your throat is so dry. The room has the faint scent of citrus, like lemon rind and verbena - a kind of lightheadedness settling over you all. “So, why don’t you…” She’s blushing, holding her arm up as she skims a finger down this slow path along your torso, finally hooking it into the top of your pants. And now, it’s very, very clear she isn’t wearing a bra either. “Make things a bit easier.”

There’s an entire lexicon of everything you’d like to do, so it’s best, maybe, that you settle for: “Sana, be a doll.”

“Anything,” she says; she doesn’t hesitate. You like the easy give.

And it’s kind of amazing. All three of you together and, sure, the way her fingertips tighten, sliding under the curve of Miyeon’s chin and then pulling the linen shirt down from the backs of her shoulders - this is a choice you can all agree on. One that pulls on the elastic band hugging the cut of Miyeon’s waist, makes the material drag and ride up the front of her legs. Her belly. Sana has the gift of being able to kiss so perfectly on the back of someone’s neck that you could easily forget she can get a little mean, too.

“What is it, baby.” Sana asks; a challenge, not a question. “Come on, love. You know it’s true. Why don’t you let me show him how sweetly you moan with just a pair of fingers in your cunt.”

“Please do.”

“You’re practically wet just saying it. You want it that much.” Her voice goes thin, then deep again: a stark contrast. “Show him the mess you’ve made.”

Miyeon’s hand is in all the way in your pants; you feel hot. Like the room’s air conditioning should’ve kicked on a lifetime ago - you’re trying not to think too much on the way her slender fingers start to wrap themselves around the shape of your cock and your mouth falls open, because she can just - fuck - do that-

They turn to each other like mirror images over the slope of Miyeon’s shoulder, exchanging some secretive wordlessness in the privacy of their smiles and soft, muted laughter. Miyeon’s on the toes of those pretty pumps to lean in, closer, further, and Sana lets her.

Which is exactly how it happens: Miyeon kissing you. And she really kisses you, sweet, delicate - and somehow all-consuming. It sets off this chain reaction, a wildfire of unbridled desire: that thread in Sana that can be almost violent, and one that Miyeon always manages to bring to the surface of her skin. Because now Miyeon’s gripped and pinned, and Sana, bless her, pulls the fabric of her own dress up over her head until she’s naked alongside her. Working towards a common goal. Here’s two hands. Here’s two more. They’re helping you out of your shirt. It’s pretty easy from there. You’re all unraveling together, just falling apart - Sana and you, working in tandem to unclasp the pearl snap buttons trailing up and down the sides of Miyeon’s sinfully short skirt, peeling back the cotton. Miyeon holds the swell of your cock tight in one hand, pumping, while Sana rakes her nails over Miyeon’s breasts; both girls taking off the final scraps until every article of clothing is tossed to the floor.

And Miyeon here is simply unbelievable. Your hands are all over her. Her razor-fine waist, her thighs. Her lips. Those soft tits, and that cute mole above her nipple. Because even her imperfections deserve the same lavish attention.

You kiss her, and kiss her, and you can’t help thinking how filthy it feels. This wet mouth and tongue, everything you could want in the slide of her mouth - just, messy-perfect and a bit sloppy; how her whimpers leak out in soft, a tight inhale. You cup the side of her jaw as your hips grind into her and a low, uneven sound escapes you. Sana’s small fingers wrap her ribs to grip a breast, knead the supple curve and supply her thumb to the indent. It’s really, so soft, and warm, and then wet: your precum dribbling over her knuckles, rolling down. Miyeon has her head tilted to let her jaw lean into your palm - she smiles, and laughs like it’s nothing - like you’re not there, towering over her lithe little frame. Like the head of your cock isn’t brushing into her bottom rib under all the twists and jerks of her wrist.

“Your cock is so hard,” Miyeon threads into a sigh, in that throaty, almost melodic voice. And then she laughs because she knows exactly what it’ll fucking do to her. “And fucking heavy. I thought I was going to get a real good look earlier in the airport,” she confesses.

“Let me guess.” Sana presses a kiss to her temple from behind; a lull in the scene. You fuck yourself gently into the curl of her fist. “You’ve been thinking about it this whole time. About getting him inside you. With that naughty little mind of yours running at a million miles an hour. God, that must’ve been such a tease, getting stuck with just the thought while we sat through lunch, and the flight-”

“Don’t forget right now-” Miyeon presses in. Her breath is hot against your neck. “While we’re talking.”

“Princess,” Sana says into her ear, and it makes her tip her head - until she’s revealing the pale skin of her neck. God, yeah; maybe she really is nobility. “I’d be hard-pressed to leave you wanting. Your body’s all wound up for us.”

“She’s fucking soaked,” you confirm, like you aren’t pointing out the most obvious thing in the room.

Miyeon bites her lip; you’re gripping your shaft, urging her wrist to go faster. “This is the part where you turn me inside-out, no?” Miyeon is a walking fucking cliche and she knows it, smiling all slyly with her teeth. She says it so damn casually: “so why isn’t my pussy getting any attention, really. I wonder, I wonder-”

“Trust me, neither of us are interested in teasing,” Sana assures her. “We’re going to fuck you until you can’t remember your own name. And then we’ll fuck you some more.”

You push down hard on her collarbone, and in that same instant Sana drops her free hand below and runs the flats of her fingertips along the plane of Miyeon’s tummy - until Miyeon tilts her hips - everything else still, almost lazy. Her feet leave the floor and then come back down again. The momentum of the fall ends up being enough to jostle the three of you towards the nearest wall where Sana’s back is kissing the cold drywall. And you’re already there - pressed into both: Miyeon’s palms flat against your chest as you haul her thighs around your waist.

Hoisted, lifted, cradled between you and your girlfriend - who by the way is inching two fingertips under the top of a lacy-banded thong, slipping beneath the white trim, to finally (oh, god) pull her hand away and slip it into Miyeon’s parted mouth. “Look at you.” A hum in her chest. “The most beautiful, perfect-”

(You push your cock into her, and hand to god, you swear Miyeon’s voice breaks like a bottle over pavement.)

“And all for us- your slutty little pussy is already so wet- Miyeonie, we’ve barely even started.”

Just think. The code word system you’ve been employing for months - "We were actually thinking… if you’re not doing anything else… what’s the harm in the two of us getting more familiar with you.” - has proved exceptionally reliable in getting Miyeon out of her clothes and into your lap, but here’s where it all vanishes into thin air. Sana’s mouth is hovering over Miyeon’s shoulder; her body, caught between the two of you. And she’s trading in on the implied permission to tell you more directly:

“She needs to cum all over that cock, babe. Fuck her pussy until she’s creaming, won’t you.”

“Right.” You groan in tacit approval, hands holding firm onto the firm swell of her hips - that round little ass, the dimples you can feel the dip of, just under your thumbs. She’s already thrown her arms up around the back of your neck when your cock slips inside her, to tug you in; this wordless begging: need, need, need.

It’s not even a totally new sensation. Nor is it even the first you’ve ever been inside her, but god - Miyeon takes one deep breath, and on the second inhale, you sink another thick inch of your cock into her slippery slit: she’s completely, gloriously bare, just this slick heat that only opens more and more and more. You draw back, thrust in, and there’s this sopping sound, all wet press, into the soft muscle - you don’t even remember pulling her panties to the side. But they’re bunched into the crease of her thigh and that’s rather convenient.

Her breath hitches as she slots down onto your shaft, again - in rhythm - like a total dream. “Fuck, that’s so tight,” she grates, her voice rough and gutted; something like, 'I cannot believe you feel this good.’

-and they groan in unison when you pick up speed. All of it. Together.

Because it’s not just Miyeon’s perfect cunt wrapping you up tight, squeezing and pulsing, even better on the backstroke - but it’s the way Sana is catching your lips in the space over Miyeon’s shoulder. That you three can play each other with the promise that every last moan or gasp or the single, resounding thrill of pleasure will find a perfect partner: one for your mouth and one for Sana’s fingers at Miyeon’s collar bone, a tickle along her hip, pressing an insistent fingertip around and around in small circles, dipping into the give.

Her body’s shaking so much through every push and pull. Fuck. She’s so small - and you’re the one filling her. Fucking her. Breaking her. Pressing two girls into the wall like you’ve earned the right. You’re splitting Miyeon apart so that Sana can fill the spaces you leave empty and vice versa: and she’s so, so desperate, the little noises she’s making, “Please,” like it hurts. “Fuck,” like it’s the best feeling. “Keep going, please, fuck- don’t stop.”

“See, baby? It feels better when you just give up, doesn’t it?” Sana’s got her fingers down further between Miyeon’s thighs; you can see her swipe upwards. Hear the wet sound. She says, “there,” into her ear. “Nice and slow, while he fucks that cunt, and I rub you like this, we want to keep making you feel good. So take what you need, hm. I don’t hear you-”

“Oh my god,” Miyeon moans. And she means it - feels herself dripping all over you. “I need it. I need it, I-”

“Come on, darling,” Sana chuckles, soft and low in her ear.

“N-need,” Miyeon chokes.

And what kind of idiot wouldn’t take their palm off her breast, or undig their fingers from the round of her ass for even a second. It’s having her in the palm of your hand. With one foot dangling against your thigh and the other tangled up above you, the stretch in Miyeon’s body is entirely for the convenience of letting you fuck her to pieces.

“There it is,” Sana is murmuring into your mouth again, and that’s a reward of its own, her wet, full kiss at the junction between Miyeon’s neck and shoulder as her thumb digs deeper into the curve of the girl’s thigh. You listen to Miyeon moan your own name, uttered like it was written by god and meant to form on her lips as it tumbles down through the ragged mess of pants and gasps.

“Fuck, baby-” You press harder. “Your pussy feels incredible- how you suck me right up like you’re the good girl you love to pretend you are- like a perfect toy,“ you breathe, ”-all nice and hot. Licking, swallowing around my cock, getting dicked out for my enjoyment-“

"Yeah, yes,” she pants out, the total capitulation. “It feels so fucking good.”

You feel the mindless, blissful roll. A rhythm in the give of her thighs as you slide home again and again. There’s a clink from the bracelets on her wrists; her hair falling into her eyes; there’s the sheer ecstasy written all over her pretty face when Sana reaches one hand to start drawing slow circles on her clit. 

“You’re just fucking me so god-damn-good.” She’s breathless; you’re taking everything from her. The poise, the finesse, the dignity.

“Of course we are,” Sana supplies, and it’s fitting. You’re both holding her up. You’ll be the ones tearing her down.

Miyeon’s arms tighten around the back of your head, arching, squeezing, and there’s that feeling that always accompanies Miyeon: like she’s completely melting you to her core and turning your brains into fucking mush. Everything from her tight little pussy to her breathtakingly pretty eyes to the way her spine flexes to meet the pitch of her voice - it’s fucking ridiculous, that she’s even real in the first place - let alone that your cock is buried so deep in her cunt you think you can hear her sob. Or that all five-foot-two of her is making these tiny desperate noises as you use the width of her hips to bounce her harder onto your cock. 

Sana’s long fingers slip and press - they’re not touching anything except the swell of her pussy, just this ghostly brush of a light, almost chaste graze. It’s enough: a touch like that, and fuck, another-

Miyeon cries out.

“I’m going to cum-“

"Say it again,” Sana’s whispering, “tell us what you need,” and in a sort of coup-de-grace-style-of-climax, she bites at the skin over the top of Miyeon’s jaw and slips a fingertip right onto her aching clit. Presses down. “You’re such a fucking slut, Miyeon, such a gorgeous cocksleeve-”

“I-”

She’s actually whimpering, the poor thing. Eyes squeezed shut, toes clenching; everything is trembling, tense with release. You’re fucking her into a puddle of a person, and she’s holding her lip between her teeth like it might do a goddamn thing. It makes sense; the tightness, and wet and heat is what she knows.

“Go on,” Sana answers her, and it’s like her words slice the voice in Miyeon’s throat to shreds, “cum all over his cock. So. Fucking. Good, baby,” a hard push through every syllable as her teeth snag into the shell of her ear. She rides the boundary of degradation and downright debasement because she knows that’s how Miyeon will absolutely cum for her. For you, for both of you. “Do what you’re fucking made for, and just take it, pretty, lovely, you can’t live a second without having his fat cock and my fingers in you, can you? You look like a filthy little angel like this, I swear.”

You’re both on the same page, telling her over and over - shh, shh, you take that cock so well, feel that cock fuck you apart, baby, and all you have to do is cum - only, you’re paying homage to the title: you call her princess. Sana takes the opposite approach. Tells her, “you want everyone to know, don’t you, what a goddamn fucking slut you are. You filthy, dirty little thing-”

It works. They both work, and so does everything else.

Your blood has gone totally hot. Like molten lava. Boiling over and about to spill.

The last thing Miyeon says: “Oh god - I’ll be good, I’ll do anything, I’ll be your slut - Sana - anything-”

And it’s one of the best lines to ever leave her mouth.

“-for this beautiful cock and these fucking perfect fingers, shit - fuck! Right there, right there, right-fucking-there-”

You fuck deeper, harder. The orgasm ripping through her muscles lets you leave marks and bruises you’ll be coming back to all weekend. Miyeon’s face falls against the crook of your neck, mouth pressed there - you can feel every gasping inhale, the open-mouthed warmth of her body. It’s you that whispers a shudder, half-voweled - “Miyeon,” and she’s already there, so ready - it’s kind of crazy how everything about this girl works so intricately and precise, like her very design was to take you to the hilt and melt all over your cock, because Miyeon’s response comes as a mind-blanking:

“You can,” a muffled whine in her throat. “Do it. Cum inside me. I want to-”

Sana’s eyes flare like she can feel that cable snapping, too. How your mind is all white noise. The torque of blood rushing through your head. You’re thrusting deep into her well-fucked cunt with all the strength you can muster, your hips stuttering in the follow-through. When you catch the smile in her lips - the curl in her lips like she knows you’re about to spill everything, like the perfect siren’s call- you hear Sana over her shoulder: “fuck her. Use her. I think she wants to feel it in her fucking stomach - you know, the whole reason we’re here-”

You cum inside her - there’s no question - filling her tight hole up. Shit. You actually cum all over her too.

In fact, you manage to drag yourself all the way out from Miyeon, the wet quivers and hot aftershocks, all so Sana can get a good visual of how you’re fucking ruining her: the loose rope of white that streaks up her tummy, splaying out beneath her breasts. The absolute debauchery; it’s even more pornographic when your fist pumps another splatter of cum right onto the swollen lips of her pussy. Miyeon moaning on impact.

Sana supplies her own soft gasp, scraping the air past her teeth, tension hanging in the silence - and then you bury the rest of your load back inside her cunt.

And here’s a feeling that’s going to stick with you for a while. Beyond the fireworks in your pulse - the shake-ripple that leaves you with nothing, no muscles, no brain matter - you slide your cock through her cunt again, and again - just to feel how your cum pushes back out. And she’s watching, she’s letting you watch: how messy she’s become. Her tits. Her sweat-dewed thighs. How every second seems to bring its own unique ache. 

Really, you’re left only with a near mental blank. “God, Miyeon-”

You have just the barest capacity to consider the way Miyeon’s trembling frame clings hard - pulling her ass cheeks down flush against your hips - your thick cock completely seated, stuffing her fucking cunt as she goes weak and submissive. You hold her there, suspended as your orgasm softens inside her and Sana hums along your lips, the soft coos spilling into Miyeon’s ear: “what a messy, nasty girl. Princess needs to be full and leaking everywhere, doesn’t she. How many creampies do you think you’re going to ask for?” Sana laughs. “How many will ever be enough? I hope he gave you something worth begging for.”

It’s not really surprising how a feeling can hook its teeth into you when you’re cumming like that. Subjugating the deepest reach of her sopping cunt to fulfill your own filthy fantasy. 

And look: Miyeon is soaked - soaked and wrecked and pliant. You kiss her and kiss her, and Sana kisses you, kisses her too, all of it muddled up - and your mouths are a mess. Your hands go into her hair, onto her ass; there’s cum down her thighs and all over the floor. The smell of you three: her slicked arousal and your sweat and Sana’s expensive perfume. 

Here, come come - Sana is a flurry of activity; she’s helping Miyeon out of her second heel after you’d fucked the first one off her foot without bothering to get the strap unhooked. There’s her careful proclamation of, “thank god the walls aren’t paper,” as you practically carry Miyeon to the edge of the sofa, this dreamy vision of messy hair and a royally-befit-blush. In the whole world, not once has Miyeon looked like anything less than nobility.

And now’s no different, really.

You sink down onto the plush, tufted fabric - a chair whose shape might confuse you if Sana hadn’t told you earlier it was explicitly built for fucking, or whatever it is you’re doing. She’s smiling at you, settling her face right onto your shoulder and peering up.

“Sana,” she says wistfully, but looks right at you. “My legs are still a noodly-mess. Could you turn on the jets in the tub?”

“And leave the two of you unsupervised?” She jokes. “Never.”

Miyeon sticks out her lip. Pouts, almost: “it’d just be a second.”

“She’s only asking for a minute,” you add in.

Sana rolls her eyes. “And since you’ve suddenly turned into two hopeless idiots, it can’t be trusted. If I’m drawing a bath,” a flick of the gaze, “the least you can do is join me. A chance to recover if nothing else.”

Miyeon, being Miyeon, has already dropped her face down to your lap, curling up with your cock at her lips. When she gets her first, tantalizing, almost chaste little swipe at the tip, she smiles all impressed with herself. With those big brown eyes, her fingertips skating delicately along your stomach, and her dark lashes beating slow - all of Miyeon, right now, is on purpose, calculated. Precise. 

Her voice is even worse: “she wants her own go first, don’t you think?”

Sana watches where your fingers thread into the ends of Miyeon’s silky hair, just the gentlest twist and tug. How you have her mouth ready and open, waiting; how Miyeon glances over for approval.

“Well,” Sana turns a cheek, “he’s already so worked up.” Her dark eyes look towards you - a mock frown. “I don’t know if we can convince him otherwise.”

Miyeon’s throat clicks - she’s not choking yet, but left to her own devices, she will be. Her expression melts into an almost-gasp as your cock fills the empty space in her mouth. There’s that plush little gag as she opens, lips wet. You rock your hips, and then you get to watch her nose kiss the trail leading up the smooth plane of your belly.

“I could go for a soak,” you admit, with Miyeon drooling on your cock.

Because Sana’s doing that thing where she turns around, has the smug look over her shoulder. Makes a slow, teasing movement that leads your eyes from her pretty face all the way down the cut of her back, until finally she’s pushing the soft waves of her hair into one hand so that her ass is perfectly presented-

And jesus, sure: the sloping hips, the inviting lines - the sharp points and soft edges, where she is and isn’t; her cupped fingers come up to her own chest, just to show off the heft of her tits, hanging heavy. Everything is sensually posed. You’re only a little bit mesmerized. Her figure has always had the cut of a pinup model. Curves like a siren. Her waist to hip ratio is - oh-fucking-kay, maybe you could do it right now - bend her in half - get her fucking sobbing until you kiss her quiet and cum so deep in her cunt it’s all she can think about for days-

You realize then you’re pulling too hard on Miyeon’s hair.

Not meaning to, or maybe too eager.

Hey, you have a pretty girl sucking life back into your cock and one more giving you bedroom eyes from across the room all ready to sit on it; you never said you weren’t trying your best.

“Careful, honey. I’m getting impatient.” Sana’s hand traces the wallpaper trim in the hall, a sweeping path; a vague reminder as she disappears down and around the corner. You hear the squeak of the faucet and then the sound of her light footsteps. And then it’s just an echoey and unapologetic, “one day I might not let you have all the fun,” followed by, “my goodness-”

Sana, appraising her reflection in all likelihood. All bright smiles

You turn back to find a second set of eyes staring back, full of hunger, as a wet, messy heat wraps around the base of your shaft and follows to the top with the flutter of her tongue - and then all the way to the back of that tempting throat. Miyeon’s moving at the tempo you’d put her at. You appreciate that. But you lift her jaw and hold the side of her face so she’s looking straight at you - and as soon as you pop yourself out from between her lips, you say, “you’ll let me taste Sana, too, won’t you, baby?”

(Miyeon’s never been good at saying no - to anything. That doesn’t change here in the slightest.)

The way you laugh is easy and sweet. You kiss the space over her temple. “We’ve always been in this together, Miyeon,” a soft tease. “Go ask her nicely, and I bet she lets you clean me up,” before adding, “maybe, after you lick all the cum out of my girlfriend’s tight ass.”

And Miyeon simply grins. The promise of that sloppy fucking mess. She’s ruined herself time and time again over far less.

“Oh,” she says, “you know how good I look with cum dripping down my chin.”

It’s kind of impressive how shameless she can be. So fucking blase - what are friends for, anyway.

“Shall we?”

You scoop Miyeon right up into your arms and, upon standing, swing her little body around in front of you. And she knows that’s the sort of thing she shouldn’t enjoy: being manhandled, told what to do, having someone lift the choice off her shoulders like that - but that doesn’t stop her from tangling herself up around your neck and tilting her hips back into you in that playful-fake, overly innocent-cute mien - where she says in this tiny whisper, “are we, you think?”

Your mouth lands on her ear, nips the softness there, “behave yourself, sweetheart.”

And then a low, breathless laugh escapes her: “when’s the last time that was even an option.”

-

(For the record, the answer is never, and you’re probably actually so fucked - it’s kind of hilarious to look back at it, and think, because how could any two people who have spent as many weeks (months) as you, putting all the right pieces into the right places, get all the stars align at once? The idea that the three of you are hooking up and nobody’s getting hurt, murdered or hung out to dry is statistically improbable; and the likelihood that anyone in this presidential suite will survive the weekend without breaking at least four limbs in various places is rapidly dropping with each passing hour. You’ve been taking the old adage and clutching it against your chest - 

It can’t be a sin, if it makes you happy.)

-

Past the door, the first thing you notice is that Sana’s hair is all pinned up. Always pretty like that.

However it doesn’t change the picture a whole lot. A few inches more bare skin isn’t exactly a big difference when there’s the whole, naked, porcelain expanse that spans the soft length of her shoulders, along her hips and waist, and runs to her feet. It’s still kind of incredible. The hourglass shaped silhouette. All the natural curves finding relief in the right places. Model-esque, that sort of thing. And, yes: her tits, the absolute heaven-sent frame of her ass and those amazing legs.

It goes without saying.

She’s there with her back arched, an arm perched on the granite of the counter. So relaxed. An elegance only afforded to the very lucky or the very rich. She lets her head fall back, the fine curve of her chin canting above a neck that you would’ve been biting kisses into just moments ago if she hadn’t put herself in full profile to take your breath away.

“Show off,” Miyeon mumbles, and then whispers to you, “sorry. My body can’t do that, like-” she indicates - with a weird wobbly hand gesture, about the height of Sana’s pelvis. “Whatever that is.”

Sana tilts her head forward and meets the glance you give her reflection.

“Hmm,” is her eloquent contribution to the airy room, woven into the pitter-patter of bathwater, lapping at the surface. “Now why am I left to wonder why there’s no one making good on my requests, huh.”

You cross the space; get close. And Miyeon stays curled up against you, doesn’t let you slip away as you walk over, doesn’t let go. She kisses the front of your shoulder, hums softly.

“My bad,” You say. It’s very believable. You sound a bit winded; kind of a wreck, but your sincerity shines through in that sort of 'I’ll fuck it better’ kind of way.

“Excuses, excuses.” A dismissive shrug. “The water’s perfect. But if you insist,” and the sultry drop of Sana’s eyelashes is deliberate, an invitation. Her breath is caught as your mouth finds the space between her neck and shoulder blade - the place where she’s gone all pink, “I’d hardly pass up the chance for you both to eat my pussy first.”

And look: it’s not a lie, per se, but the natural instinct for Miyeon-logic is just to provide the justification, “the faster we get you a cumming, squirming, desperate mess-” her hand slips to cup the junction of her jaw and the crook of her throat. “-the sooner it’ll be 'til he fucks me senseless again.”

“We have a long way to go to get even, sweetie,” argues Sana. “Last time, you were both pretty self-absorbed.”

“We’d never ignore you on purpose,” you whisper into the crook of her neck, and Sana turns to let you follow that deep, velvety mouth as the kiss flows across her lips. “You’re absolutely necessary.”

“Only by accident, then. That’s a little bit worse,” snarks Sana. The reprimand dies down into something soft as Miyeon lets her tongue trail flat over a nipple. She shudders.

“If I keep going, maybe you can forgive us?” You watch her eyelids flutter open, a haze of ecstasy passing behind her eyes. You keep an arm at her hip, wrap around and press flat until her whole flat tummy is pinned against your cock.

“Mmm,” Sana hums. It’s that sultry note she likes to let trail from the very end of her throat. “Ask me again after you get me off. But slowly: I want to savor every detail.”

Miyeon traces kisses across Sana’s rib until your girlfriend presses two wet fingers to her mouth. Easy.

“Then you should probably do something about her,” you say, and - as if in agreement - Sana twists her hand into the cascades of her Miyeon’s hair. You lean into her shoulder. She sighs; exhales, deeply, while her back is shimmying further backwards into the countertop.

“And you should help her make it up to me,” Sana chimes, her voice clear and melodic, every inflection playing right at home in her vocal cords. “Two mouths are better than one, and I have so many other places you should be kissing.”

Sana has a verifiable gravitas, for one, and when she’s not hiding in plain sight behind the bubbly-bright act she likes to put on, it’s nearly impossible not to fall in line behind her. This isn’t to say you couldn’t win her over either; it’s a pretty small crowd here. But you choose one direction and watch her skin pink up and turn to red; you grab a wrist and it goes cold and white. Every last part of her is so damn expressive. The point is that she doesn’t need you to make a fool out of yourself to know you’re into her - or vice versa.

(Or. You’re such a goddamn sucker, as Miyeon likes to remind you with a scoff, a little eye-roll, and then her hands on your belt. At least, before everything else: the knowing smirk, the dangerous suggestion).

You let your fingers find the backs of Sana’s thighs as she spreads her knees apart, and there, you’re reminded of the one thing. That of all the ways these two girls are identical, you’ve never found a comparison that really works. Not by any useful measure.

Miyeon has all the softer features: a bit dainty, the doe eyes and the lone dimple, like a doll with an aw-so-cute factor, whereas Sana is all sharp, clean angles; the sculpted muscle in her calves and thighs, the firmness and muscle underneath - which, yeah, definitely not the worst trade off. Don’t get it confused, both girls crave your approval; both prefer when things get rough and sloppy. Describing either as anything but the most submissive holy-shit-take-me-now-I-need-you type, when put under the slightest pressure is laughable.

Not when Miyeon lets you use her like a toy. Or when Sana tells you exactly what you need to do to fuck a baby into her (hypothetically speaking; she gets a little silly and dumb around the edges whenever she’s about to cum and her brain starts tripping over her tongue). Neither will hesitate when given the option of having your hand on the side of their throat, pinning their wrists to the headboard or the shower wall, fucking them until they go liquid and collapse in your arms, shivering, whimpering and begging, their pussies pulsing around your cock. In fact, there’s really no hard or fast rule at all. But here, you recognize, is a great point of difference -

“Baby,” you murmur into the inside of Sana’s thigh. You leave a mark with your lips that you’ll come back to. “So. Fucking. Gorgeous-” right as Miyeon starts pressing her mouth against her cunt. “Aren’t you, baby? The most beautiful girl. And all of this is just mine?”

Listen - the praise kink your girl has is actually pretty textbook: Sana wants to be called sweet, she wants to be complimented, rewarded, and all that good stuff; she wants you to talk to her the way everyone who sees a flash of her skin or a sway of her hips wants to - the best parts of adulation, arousal, love, without any of the side-eye of it being totally obscured in a crowded venue.

Direct.

To the point. 

She wants to hear each and every you’re sexy, you look hot, your ass drives me crazy. She wants it on the gruff in your voice, how it gets a little rough at the edges. Tell me you’re mine. You make me so hard. This is just the very essence of who Sana is, and you have learned that you need to give as well as take: feed her a tiny ego boosting here and there, and she will completely throw herself at you in return.

Miyeon watches you run your tongue over her cunt like she’s taking notes, and it’s clear you’re more than prepared to give it all up to her. There’s always been this veneration, this reverence for every inch of her, a pull towards her - her eyes, her mouth, her wrists, her long beautiful legs, the place where the skin of her thighs meets - you’ve always had this insane fascination with Sana, this need to know what she’d taste like or sound like. At any given moment.

“Oh,” Sana pushes Miyeon closer, moaning. “Yours. So yours, baby.”

The moment you both have your tongues working at her - tasting, the sweetness of her dripping down onto both of your faces, making you lick your lips and kiss each other so Sana gets to watch - Miyeon hums approvingly. Lets out this very performative, “isn’t she just the best?”

And it isn’t that you can’t find the right word - divine, wonderful, heaven, incredible, without any flaw - there just isn’t much room to read into the fact that you and Miyeon are both sunk to your knees on the bathmat, kneeling in worship, in adoration - sucking on Sana’s clit. The imagery sells itself.

“We’d never forget the important things,” Miyeon continues, dreamily.

She’s trading with you the folds of Sana’s dripping pussy and the outline of her lips for her thigh. You pick up where she leaves off, and that earns you Sana’s hand raking through the back of your hair, pressing you so close you can hear her heartbeat in her pulse; her blood burning through the very spot.

“That’s how you make me feel, baby: so fucking good. Amazing.“ You taste it. You chase it. There is nothing like her cum filling your mouth. "Pretty. Mine. All mine.”

“Yeah, okay - sure - that feels really fucking good.” 

Sana’s orgasms always start slow; a slight adjustment of her hips, the rub of one calf against the other, she’s never been the quiet type but there’s not quite the screaming or yelling just yet. Her jaw is set.

“You’re, uh-,” she adds, failing at anything else.

Miyeon tries for it. That edge of danger; not in pain or frustration, but, “there you go, sweetie: you sound so fucking pretty when you’re worked up. Just tell us - the words, we need the words to make it good, baby.”

“Fine,” says Sana, tilting her head down, breathing deeply, and she makes a sound that’s neither a whimper nor a laugh, but a crossroads of both. “Right there, oh my god, you are so fucking dangerous, holy shit. Oh, please. Please. You two- just, please, don’t you dare- just a little bit - mmm. Why do you have to be so good at that?”

“Right?” Miyeon laughs out loud - like you’re the one missing a vital point, like it’s your fault your face is buried in her folds. “I used to think guys just didn’t like doing it. And then, well-“

And you drag your tongue flat and up over her pussy, right through that whole slicked up slit, your fingers still pumping in and out, and then you flick it just hard enough to-

”-yeah,“ she huffs, panting.

Miyeon presses her thumb into the mess of Sana’s cunt, and it causes Sana’s whole body to shudder apart - you lift your face to breathe, or to promise, "we can go for hours if you want, taking turns making you cum,” before pressing into her again, and Sana’s only got so much patience and stamina when you’re two steps ahead of the curve, because her legs are practically going to wobble off her body.

“Poor, pretty baby,” Miyeon murmurs against her, and she’s talking like she’s taken all the control now. Operating in that cycle of push and pull.

And to her point: Sana is whining, gasping - every bit as hot and bothered and needy. She’s whispering please and not giving up her requests.

“Fuck. Okay, sorry-” she apologizes. For some reason.

Your nose keeps getting bumped, her cunt is grinding down into your chin. That is fine. If it keeps on like this, your whole face will be soaking wet.

"I’m going to just- going to go ahead and cum, I think- so fucking. Yeah, keep on going just like, shit, please: my pussy is fucking throbbing.”

This is the easy part, if you’ve read the rest right. If the hours and the minutes, and all the passing days: you know which direction the pieces are about to fall.

Sana arches her spine, rolls her hips into your face, and when you swirl your tongue all over the wet heat at her core, the sound she makes is music: low, throaty and delicate. Your mouth is attached to her clit still when you look up over the hand you have steadying each tremble in her diaphragm. And possibly as a sort of vengeful maneuver, Miyeon is shoving two fingers under your jaw and far enough into Sana’s pussy that each curl of a knuckle is all that’s left to find Sana cumming right onto your mouth, your chin. 

She wants to scream, to cry out, but her mouth joins her face, in that frozen expression of anguish, of an absolute that perfect pleasure.

“Shh, shh, it’s okay,” Miyeon consoles, standing up, leaning in - close, really, impossibly close; she presses their foreheads together, murmuring against Sana’s ear, whispering what-do-you-need, there you go. Baby, that was perfect. They each know the song and dance. They can shamelessly recite each other’s lines. Miyeon slides an arm to the small of Sana’s back, one across her shoulders, and Sana leans against her with this gorgeous look of a perfect, mind-numbing orgasm on her face, her eyes bright, her lashes fluttering - a sheen of sweat across her forehead; your stomach falls and bottoms out; you can’t not be fucking attracted to these two. Miyeon smooths down her hair, reassuring her. Her hand reaches lower, wraps around her, pulls.

The bath is well filled at this point, water near overflowing, and Sana is equally fucking soaked. This storm of wet and hot beneath your lips. You clean her off with the broad stroke of your tongue and don’t spill a drop, because the noise she’s making - it sounds like rapture, ecstasy. She’s half-delirious, panting, with her hands gripping the sides of your head.

“Where,” she gasps, trying her damnedest. You have the best girls in the world, you really fucking do. Miyeon rubs the heel of her palm against the soaked, red hood of her cunt. Sana lets out a sound halfway between a gasp and a groan; the arch of her hips chasing Miyeon’s touch; “you, are you two - god damn, if I hadn’t already-”

“Shhh. My poor girl. You’re not thinking about his cock just yet,” and those are Miyeon’s slender fingers coaxing your jaw free from Sana’s cunt, prying her free from you so she can sit alone at her throne. “They always keep lube in these kind of places,” Miyeon reaches into a drawer, fumbling about. It takes a moment for it to register that she’s actually talking to you. “It usually looks like some body oil, you know the nice massage kind, in these tiny bottles. Help me look, will you?”

It does not take long - hotel management understands what these rooms are for. The scandal and the romance and everything in between. Because Miyeon finds what she’s looking for in the next drawer down: a sample-sized container of massage oil, something slippery and organic. It smells vaguely of lavender.

“Look at me,” Miyeon tells you, and Sana is absolutely listening along too. It’s all very seamless: Sana and then Miyeon. All the synchronized parts. Their signals have some sort of feedback even if you’re not always actively aware of the things they pass back and forth.

Miyeon guides Sana onto her shaky legs, turns her toward you - So you swallow, hard, and run your thumbs into the crease of her ass - you’re kneeling, still, still totally naked and wet all around the jaw. “Eat her ass, and I’ll keep her cumming until she can’t feel anything else.”

You shift your weight and run a kiss along the tender skin at the back of Sana’s thigh. The contact has her bracing a hand on the counter for support.

“And then-” Miyeon says, with a gleam in her eyes like she knows what the fuck she wants. She slides back down to the floor until Sana is pinned between a rock and a hard place. Her two favorite people in the world: namely, your hands gripping Sana’s hips, and Miyeon’s tongue all over the aching little clit you’d just had your mouth wrapped around moments ago.

“And then?” you provide, hovering a kiss onto the beautiful round of Sana’s ass. Her fucking cheek. You have to slap it. Just a little. And when you watch it ripple back and forth with your handprint there, a spot of pink already blooming, well, she has to be giving you a sultry look that demands to know when it is exactly that you are going to stick your cock inside of her, and it is absolutely just impossible to look anywhere else.

“And then,” Miyeon supplies, “we’re going get that beautiful cock in her ass so you can fuck her brains to mush.”

“Thanks I guess, for the explicit permission,” you scoff, and here you drop your lips, trail them into the crack of Sana’s ass, up and down, teasing the taut stretch of her hole with the tip of your tongue.

“Someone has to take responsibility for-,” she pulls on Sana’s leg and stretches it forward, repositions her ever so slightly. She sucks Sana’s clit into her mouth with an exaggerated sort of satisfaction.

You wait for Miyeon to continue, and then realize with the unshakeable notion: she isn’t going to, because it’s too damn much trouble. There is no reason to pull apart the premise and not the girl straddled between your faces. The only option is to follow her lead, and to worship Sana. To trace every crevice of her, lick between her ass and the sensitive, clenching heat of her pussy.

“Can we, like, take a timeout-” Sana’s mouth is slurring into the skin of her forearm. Her upper thighs are quaking, quivering as you sink your teeth in. Her head’s gone all heavy as a slutty little moan rings out and straight down her lungs.

And maybe the realization is setting in. You and Miyeon are going to fuck her until you all can’t think - until you’re nothing but primal urges, nothing but bodies with beating, pounding hearts; and every thought in Sana’s head will be to the two of you; to Miyeon, whose hand finds the front of Sana’s stomach and guides her pelvis into rolling forward and grinding into her mouth, to you, with your tongue lathering and lapping at her asshole, and running your hands around her hips until her whole body’s shaking, “oh fuck, my god-" 

(The writing is on the wall. You and Miyeon are going to fuck her until none of you know where you end, where the other begins.)

Sana tries again, and the question ends in a deep, rumbling, "don’t you want, Miyeon, wouldn’t you rather just really, fucking love, having his thick cock stretch you apart,” - she swallows - and when she glances behind her back and finds you watching her, there is just pure, unadulterated arousal burning through her eyelashes, over the flare of her ass.

You catch the fucking bow of her lower lip wobbling as she adds, a little more pointed and a lot more determined, “when you’re, fuck, begging and screaming for his load? To be his cumdump, his little bitch,” it’s like she’s got her heart set, and her mouth can’t stop moving fast enough, and “to do whatever he wants just because it makes you look and feel so damn hot?”

You can hear Miyeon’s mouth smacking with the way it works, the way she is swallowing, gasping. You can hear the sound she makes when her mouth goes loose, and says, agreeing, “you’re going to love it Sana, every god-damn-inch, you always do” and Sana is falling apart again into your grip, moaning, and then “it’s so much better. All the stretch, that tightness. But she needs your fingers first.

You can hear Sana gasping too, dripping a mess into the place where her pussy and ass meet. Miyeon licks a wide strip from her core all the way up and kisses it. Lick. Kiss, lick - her hands pulling Sana closer by the hip - kiss, kiss, lick - pulling her mouth around your girl’s clit. So close to the place in Sana’s bubbly cheeks, where your mouth supplies long sucks and soft kisses - so close you can practically taste the scented flavor in Miyeon’s lip gloss.

"I can’t- shit. Hold on, guys,” Sana whispers. It’s her nails scraping against the granite. “You need to-” and then the loud, dull thwap of her knee knocking into the cabinet. 

She’s cumming again - this time, loud and guttural, but another really beautiful sound - her cunt pulsing hard into nothing while the air hangs in limbo, Miyeon’s tongue circling her clit, your palms around Sana’s beautiful, round ass. You’re half convinced they’d be fine with being locked away in some tower. Forget the world and its obligations. Or, rather: let the world stop spinning; leave only this.

There is not much talking from then on. 

Mostly whining, whimpers and pleas to: not stop, yes, there, yes, please, fuck, and Miyeon wraps her fingers around you - almost the same thing she did when you were pumping your cum into her quivering cunt earlier, asking, please, may I-?

Sana bends herself over the counter, like something instinctual. The perfect bend and arch in her spine, the bow of her knees and the press of her thighs. Inviting, pleading. You can feel the tingle, the stiff tension in the muscles, when you reach out and lift her ass; it gives so easily to your touch. Your palm, her cheeks. There’s a beautiful flush as the pink starts to run, fade, and reappear along her back, and - fuck, okay, seriously-

Miyeon’s there, kneeling next to you: stroking her fingers up your length. She’s kissing you too. It’s hard to think.

But the sound of the cap coming off the bottle comes like an alarm clock, pulling you out of a dream.

Miyeon sits on her heels, smiling into the press of your lips as the bottle she procured tips out. Clear, viscous and smooth into her palm. When it becomes a lot of dripping; she swirls it against your cock - her knuckles wrapped around you, running and twisting into every curve, sliding her whole grip with long, calculated strokes.

“I don’t think she’s in any condition to keep a tally,” Miyeon announces, “so, why don’t you decide?”

“Meaning?” you’re panting; your brain keeps working to formulate complete thoughts.

“Meaning,” she slips her tongue against yours, slides her teeth and draws into your lower lip, “you should totally pound her gorgeously tight little ass” - another kiss, mostly on your lower lip; almost a bite - “and then you should dump that massive load of yours” - a shudder rolls through her shoulder and leaves a whisper in her wake - “right inside mine.”

There are about eight thousand words in the English language but what you say is, “fuck.”

Because she’s right: Sana is blathering the moment you stand up and let your hands reach around, grab hold of her full, rounded hips. She’s not in any state to protest or complain about matters of equality or correspondence. Her lips and tongue are barely even fit to say anything but yes-yes-please-anything, oh god.

Which, okay, whatever: of course, whatever the fuck she needs - whatever they need - you pull at her hips until it’s there, your cock sandwiched between those full, warm ass-cheeks, the perfect amount of pressure to get you so fucking hot, and Sana’s not shy about rolling her hips to keep you pressed to the surface, rocking into your balls until her cunt’s making slick, wet, hungry noises and she’s just one endless, groaning moan.

“Love feeling your cock,” Sana mutters; and there is a, “please, fuck me, baby- please?” thrown in for good measure.

“Please do, you’re like - you’re like ridiculously gifted,” Miyeon adds, always the right touch of caustic.

“-please.”

Sana’s eloquence is short lived, because the second you give her ass a squeeze and Miyeon presses her thumb against Sana’s cunt, her voice catches on her throat.

She sounds perfectly winded, completely out of breath, a tiny, sexed-up growl running through the notes as she speaks to her reflection in the mirror. Miyeon laughs. She can hardly get her own shit together when you lean up and grab a breast in hand, or start leaving slow-but-steady bite marks along the back of her shoulder blades; like it’s all-too funny when you pin Sana to the counter until she starts to beg in that please, please, please tone: when every syllable and gasp is hitched and short.

“She doesn’t want gentle,” Miyeon tuts, finding her place next to Sana, holding her chin in her hands and catching the expression on her face. She presses a thumb into Sana’s mouth for no reason other than: they’re so soft. Wet. Pink and full, parted around her fingertip. “Isn’t that right, baby?”

Your gaze follows their hips, swaying. And from this angle: identical. The hair, the jawline, the arch of the throat and shoulders, the elegant twist and fold of their limbs, the eyes, the blush, the smile, and the legs. They don’t have to look exactly the same: their presence is near identical - Miyeon’s the cuter one, sure. It’s been established, but fuck, the look on Sana’s face as you spread her asshole with just a finger is fucking dangerous. You’re going to lose your mind. Both the flat tummies and the beautiful breasts and their matching hard nipples - and the fucking two best asses the world has ever seen. A line up over the counter: Miyeon and Sana, side by side; their reflections looking at you in tandem, wearing these same expressions. The eyes begging, asking and insisting, the pouting lower-lip and the glassy sheen of their eyelashes.

You tell them: “how am I supposed to” - you run the thick-glistening head of your cock along the pucker of Sana’s tight ass, grind your hips into the friction - “focus when you two look at me like that?”

"Um, just give up,” says Miyeon, grinning; and then, when your jaw snaps closed and there’s the obvious shift of your hips as your length strains through your body’s need and pulls you closer to that incredible, tight, dark hole: “god, there you go. That is so fucking hot.”

So, it’s just like this:

They watch each other. The mirror is right there; every want, every motion. 

And then, yeah, a low and throaty, “is that it?” - Sana nods into Miyeon’s hand and smiles, with just the slightest hint of something that could resemble a blush - “why we always come back to him? Because, really-”

“Mmm.” Sana hums agreement, dazed and drunk in her words, the slow breath of air you push out of her chest as your cock starts to sink in; the deeper the intrusion, the lower your names become - just murmurs and sighs and sounds: “god, yes, god-”

Her pussy starts to drip onto the tiles, her slick collecting at Miyeon’s knees as Sana takes you all the way: and you hold, once you’re all the way in; once that gorgeous little puckered rim has stretched around your entire width; there’s just the smell of the room; lavender and rose and citrus - Sana’s endless arousal - and you hold, and hold on tight - and your muscles shiver as Sana draws the first rocking motion of her hips.

The smallest, lightest grind.

“Jesus fucking christ,” you curse, because the heat around your cock is excruciatingly tight. A slow-burning, tingling-aching pleasure as the flesh inside Sana’s ass moves up and down the length, drawing out inch by inch of skin - until your entire cock is nearly pulled out.

You’re the one that drives all the way back in.

Sana gasps. She runs her hand through her hair. She tries her damndest to remember what words are, clearly coming up empty.

“Baby.” Miyeon is kissing her forehead, her nose, her lips, and coos praises in her ear. She sinks her fingers into the curve of Sana’s immaculate ass, pulling on the soft cheek, showing-

You are speechless. It’s just: that next stroke. And another. Your cock slipping in and out with each pass, so easy once Sana sighs, licks her lips and leans into your rhythm, there, all at once and then faster. And she looks in the mirror, because of course; of course she watches Miyeon run her hand all over her front, the perfect tits and a pretty stomach - your thrusting keeps up until every thrust has her hips rolling forward and snapping back, chasing her own momentum; chasing that thick, hard, stretch of cock and that beautiful pleasure-pain as the force and pace rocks her, pounds her so her entire body has to curl against Miyeon’s chest for support, so that she’s going a little weak in the knees.

“How is he?” Miyeon’s tone gets wicked in these situations, a lot less innocent. She gets excited, giddy. “Pretty, handsome, stupidly attractive,” her voice picks up a playful lilt, and she gets you grinning - it’s only the start. “And he’s all yours. But how’s the cock, huh? He’s gaping your ass so pretty. Your hole is so fucking open around him. It looks incredible, doesn’t it?”

Sana reaches for the side of her ass, presses her fingertips to her skin: pulls and splits a fingernail into the tender flesh where her ass and thigh meet - right above her cunt. You snap your hips into hers and watch your cock disappear. Every motion gives, slurps and sucks until you’re hilted inside her.

“Feels, mmmm - fuck.” Her chest is fluttering, every part of her so fucking flushed, her blood running beneath the surface so every single inch of her skin is saturated with her own need, her want.

“Feels so good,” you growl, your vision gone dark around the edges. Miyeon’s there, vaguely, smirking into Sana’s jaw, licking at the sweat, scraping her teeth along the skin to bite down, pull- “she’s so fucking tight. Gripping the hell out of my cock. Like, it feels unbelievable, you know.”

“Babe,” she cries, though you give her no respite - you use that little sliver of slack and pull out far enough that she’ll know it when your cock is hammering into her ass, a little more aggressive, and you start with quick, hard pumps that echo throughout the room - not for your pleasure or hers: just to hear it, listen, you’re driving up so far into that perfect, gorgeous ass that it sends her tits rocking and rolling with every bounce of her chest; her moans, her babbling incoherence, are, again - it’s like a drug - and Miyeon’s smiling. And also, getting herself off.

“So pretty,” Miyeon says into her temple, “with his cock fucking open your ass.” And she has her fingers swirling, swirling, in little patterns around her cunt, grazing over a wet clit, like the way you’re pounding Sana’s ass and dismantling her whole consciousness is absolutely the most arousing thing ever, like Miyeon could stay and watch forever, like Sana’s the most beautiful person in the world, and Miyeon would be right here with her every second - whispering praise in her ears - “god, babe, if I could, I would never pull his cock out. You take him so well, don’t you? You’re just made for it. He could stretch you out over and over and we could, you know - be fucked silly - no thinking - for, like, forever. All day long.”

Sana’s fingers claw, gripping at the bowl of the sink, while Miyeon has her hand glued to her clit, playing herself.

Miyeon doesn’t wait - but she asks anyway - and of course: she’s leaning up, in, nuzzling Sana and saying: “yes?”

“So,” is all Sana gets out before gasping, because the sight, it’s too much to not let yourself feel a little power drunk, and there is a sudden thrust that practically turns the poor girl’s voice into a croak. “Yes. Fuck - fuck-”

You don’t really have any clue where this is coming from but: “Miyeon, here, take this cock. Come get what’s yours you fucking cocktease,” and, whatever - who needs thoughts? Your girlfriend’s already bent over the bathroom counter, your fingers holding the smooth curves of her ass apart, her beautiful body opened all up and pink.

Miyeon ruffles her hair as she finds the perfect angle, knees knocked up against the drawers, and she’s got more oil spread onto her own puckered rim.

You know your girls: Sana is desperate for your cock, Miyeon lives to be used.

“I love how fucking cock-drunk she gets,” Miyeon laughs, and then - the moment you’ve shifted from one gorgeous hole to the other - her mouth slackens, her eyelashes flutter: “shit. Holy - didn’t really realize- oh wow.”

“Kinda distracting?” you tease, knowing full well you’re just going to lose your own words; watching a gorgeous ass swallow your cock; being told to keep giving and take, just as much: the warmth in your own core, your cunt, clenching hard - an aching pulse - the excitement coursing through your veins and this, this whole sensation of being connected: your bodies, all-encompassing and present, three whole units, joining at the hips, being forced back together-

“-you feel fucking, so tight. That’s how the fucking joke goes, right?” Miyeon manages: to talk, still, even with a cock in her ass and your teeth and tongue painting pretty marks up the ridges of her spine.

Sana is catching her breath, brushing her fingers through her hair staring wistfully.

“Gives you two so much to talk about.”

“Now don’t even start- I really like it, alright.”

Sana gives her ass the worst slap but your balls hit her cunt on the following thrust. Miyeon’s so fucking tight you can barely breath. And her laughter tinkers off into a very pretty string of obscene moans from the way your cock spears into her, all at once: the flat, wet, throbbing sounds of a tight ass taking a thick cock without stopping, stretching and sliding with an increasing ease the longer it goes on for, until you’re snapping your hips so far forward they’re slapping Miyeon’s ass and gripping, squeezing the round shape of her waist; until the movements are just you, the heavy weight of your balls against the hot wet skin between her legs.

And god damn it, she’s got to start with:

“Forgot how much you stretch me, Jesus - baby, it is a really gorgeous cock you’ve got,” - and that is when it hits, and her hands fist up, trying to grab at something, anything: “oh my god.”

“You are such a whore,” Sana laughs, but not unkind, because Miyeon can only grin in response, with your cock pounding out into the red-hot, clenched walls of her asshole. And then: a nice, hearty sigh.

You find yourself asking, almost by impulse, “isn’t she, uh, tight. God.”

And, fuck: you were thinking how insane it is you two ever managed without the third party. How now, not fucking Sana and Miyeon’s glorious, matching asses side-by-side would drive you fucking crazy, and maybe that’s why it’s really the best news. How when your cock slips out of one ass, and slowly nuzzles into the other - how when you all three watch the pretty faces in the mirror twist and turn into a look of such pure fucking bliss - you just sort of-

“Oh.”

That’s Sana: with Miyeon pressed chest-first over the marble counter, Miyeon’s cheek and nose flush against her face, their arms twisted, bodies crossed at the wrist and wrist - their skin shiny-red with exertion. They’re the closest possible position: mirror images of the other, and - with the slightest push -

And it’s pretty. It’s fucking, you know.

“Perfect,” you groan. “This is it. Look at you, the both of you - god - it’s like. It’s not normal to be as beautiful as the two of you are. Right. So, you know-”

“Hey,” Sana is a little faster on the uptake when you’re fucking Miyeon and her ass within an inch of dying, “your face. You look like you’re close, are you close baby?”

The blood’s starting to sing in your ears. Miyeon’s forehead keeps bouncing into Sana’s - their sweat, mixing, her skin peppered and blotchy pink from where she’s gotten a little bit lost in her own head, her hips moving of their own accord, her body tensing, relaxing. You can read all of her movements, recognize her signals: the way she moans louder than usual, the way her cunt trembles against you, the way her ass squeezes, holds, lets go-

You pull out. Just to keep yourself from blowing, just to pull on your balls, to look and watch the perfect view. And Sana reaches back - a warm hand wrapped around you.

You feel her palm wrap around your cock, coaxing another serving of oil - like she knows just how rough it’s going to be to start again.

“Just,” she pants, leaning into Miyeon so you have to rut around to find your way back, “until the end.”

There’s something so pleasantly mind-numbing about the moment when you ease your cock into the sweet-soft ring of muscles again and she’s just stretching and pulsing and grabbing all around you. The way you keep going: she’s holding herself, giving her asshole a squeeze, a stretch - her lips kiss a sound onto the side of Miyeon’s shoulder and she nods, gasps, breathes out heavy and pained, like the rest: a total fucking rush.

You watch Miyeon lean further, a beautiful shift of balance between the two. Her hands clamp around the sides of Sana’s thighs for support, and the longer you pound into her, the deeper your cock sinks, the closer the pressure becomes as their heads turn in, looking to the same place, their foreheads knocking, and-

“Knees,” you growl. You’re holding your cock in your first - demanding: “Get on your fucking knees.”

Sana smiles first. Then Miyeon. And when the lipstick smears against their cheeks, you don’t have it in you anymore to think clearly. The line between your imagination and your fantasy is so blurred: you want their mouths moaning into eachother. You want Miyeon to clean the taste from Sana’s lips. You want those cunts grinding, their clits making contact, and for one of them - fuck-

So: “I need the both of you.”

And it’s your name falling off of Sana’s tongue when the tops of her shins hit the tile floor - she’s kneeling, she’s pulling Miyeon by her waist until the three of you have converged into this beautiful, glistening, open-mouthed trio. Sana kisses Miyeon hard while you cum all over the image: the contrast of their soft, wet, hot tongues against one another while your harsh grip pumps along your slick, throbbing length. It feels like a knot unraveling, a tension snapping loose, your cum landing on their cheekbones, their temples, between their lips - It’s a long, slow roll through the valley of your abs - Miyeon licking into Sana’s panting mouth and swiping through the streak of white you just pumped out into her fucking hair; the messy collision of lips, swallows, tongues; the faint, slow sounds, the slickness-

“Look,” she breathes. You can hear the way their words hitch when their fingers hook eachother, guiding through the mess across their skin, dipping through the sticky cum, circling the plush pout of their bottom lips; and it’s Sana that grabs Miyeon by the wrist, bringing her hand forward; sucking, running her mouth in a lazy path all across the width, “that’s all, fuck, I need to. Wanna taste all of it.”

You just groan.

Miyeon is slumped into the lacework of Sana’s limbs, swapping the tastes between her tongue and the space of their breath; while her own thumb caresses the raw, stretched opening of her ass. Sana whispers things, incoherencies, into Miyeon’s hair: kisses at her temple, strokes the muscles of Miyeon’s back. Feeling how they shiver, they heave, they fall - exhausted and flushed in the heat of one-another’s embrace. She licks the words across Miyeon’s cheek and follows with her nose trailing Miyeon’s jaw, and your cum’s smearing a streak onto Miyeon’s bottom lip, before their tongues have tangled themselves into another messy, well-fucked kind of collision.

“Good girls,” you mumble, kissing Miyeon’s knuckles, and helping Sana to her feet.

Your legs are a lot less shaky than either the two of theirs, but it’s okay, you pick Miyeon up and set her on the sink; and then turn on the tap for the both of them, since they’d need a wash and some salve.

“Now, what?” says Sana. She’s smiling; a washcloth at the ready; some dribble of soap from the bottle.

Miyeon gives her a smirk from over her shoulder, turning away just enough to flip her hair; the ends brush across her jaw. It’s a cute little quirk of the eyebrow; the upward twinge to the corner of the lip; it’s a motion that knows every muscle, every detail.

“Depends,” says Miyeon, sharpening up her tone just the littlest bit, “the bath looks like a tight fit for all three of us but,” and there it is - the mischievous glint; the curve in her hips, her mouth, and, of course - you notice the way her eyes drop to the stiffness of your cock. The way her voice purrs, all light, but a lot more intent: “Did you see the shower? It’s absolutely gigantic.”

“I saw the detachable head,” Sana throws out. A teasing little comment, one you remember - that sends a pretty deep shudder down your stomach and thighs. Your cock twitches, hard and - okay, good thing Miyeon booked the room for a week and then some. The view is pretty great: watching your cock get rock-solid in under five seconds. Watching them kiss the same knowing look, sharing the private joke. Watching their hips swing, watching them slide the glass door: Miyeon in front and Sana from behind.

It’s in unison that they both turn over their shoulder and ask, “won’t you help us test it out?”

“Yeah, yeah. I’ll be right there.” You shake your head, “so thirsty,” even though, you know you’re equally to blame.

-

It’s that tiny whisper of “don’t look at me like you don’t have cum in weird places either, hm?” that Sana gives you, while Miyeon is washing her hair, rubbing and sliding along the locks. “I’ll help you with the spots that are hard to reach, come here.”

It’s that little, meaningful, mischievous curl in Miyeon’s lip when the water’s pouring, and your breath falls across her skin. The way her hands reach out for you, even when Sana takes her chin and plants a firm, messy kiss across her mouth. It’s the same gesture Miyeon’s making, using Sana’s forearm for support. How she runs the palm of her other hand along the back of Sana’s thighs, slipping and pressing forward to guide, nudge. She pulls Sana onto her toes, aligning their bodies. It’s in the little laughs they share, the wet smacks of lips, the soft little hums they make when tongues slip over, into the open.

It’s here too, that you first ever get them confused, just a momentary slip up of “Sana, could you grab the towel-” or some equivalent, when you glance away at the perfect wrong moment and you’re left just a little puzzled, still mostly entranced by the sight of the steam on the glass and their fingertips drawing patterns into it as they lean in for another kiss, or a moan-

“Oh,” Miyeon says, delighted, “I’m supposed to be her, right?”

They’re fucking-

Sana is less enthused. “Stop. I do not. Am not.”

- identical.

“Look, I didn’t mean-”

Miyeon laughs to cut you off and skips the argument. She winks, and somehow that makes it worse.

It’s there too, the look of regret when your fingertips curl into the skin of her breast, your thumbs a tease against the rigid nubs of her nipples and the texture of her pretty stomach. They don’t realize how much you really love their matching expressions. So, they don’t mind the mixup, and besides: you just follow Sana’s guiding hands and let your lips ghost-kiss, so gently across Miyeon’s thigh. It’s impossible to imagine a version that isn’t one and the other, the two of them, here, with you: sharing kisses, offering the gentlest, slowest exploration, teasing and tugging a gasp of a response.

“Hey,” Miyeon muses, “does that mean you’ll keep your cock warm in me once we go to bed and feed me a steady stream of ice cubes between all the sessions, mm?”

Sana raises her head in faux offense and drops back into the comfort of Miyeon’s thighs. “Jeez-us christ,” Sana huffs; “one day with him and she thinks she’s me. Have mercy.”

“She isn’t?” you ask.

Sana sighs. “Um. Not even close.”

Miyeon beams at the both of you. She even runs her fingers through Sana’s hair, doting - affectionate. “She’ll come around to the idea eventually, don’t worry. Until then I’m more than happy to take on the role. It can’t be that hard, yeah? Just to be all - naughty-sexy-sweet-oh, look, a surprise, i’m actually ready to get fucked six ways to sunday-”

-you get an eyeful of whatever they are doing, this time just, fucking-

Sana only says, “it’ll have to take an exceptional amount of patience on both your parts.”

-gorgeous, lewd, completely fucking filthy.

“I got a lot, babe.”

The second Sana opens her mouth, it’s followed with: “pfffht.”

It’s just, who wouldn’t give them whatever they want? Whatever they ask? There’s a list out there: no doubt the both of them, gagging. Throat-deep. In their little skirts. Panties. Naked and straddled, just, across their hands. One, maybe. Or both all the same, or still a different preference. One behind the other and taking turns. Something - and this is important, here:

“Look,” they say, eyes wide up at you and blinking - on the same fucking beat no less, “you can trust us, okay?”

(Gentleman and distinguished scholars: the list, by the way, only ever gets longer.)

PROXIMITY

male reader x chou tzuyu

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You’re not a bad person. And you know how that sounds apropos of nothing - defensive, unscrupulous - but it’s true. You’re like anybody else: full of mistakes, but good, mostly. 

You are also aware of the way she looks at you. None of that has changed.

The slight quirk at the corner of her lips. A flicker, a smirk. A game, all doe-eyed and deep dimpled - she’s playing the seduction one. It isn’t subtle, and you’re losing by proxy. So you’re backtracking, drawing your conclusions; you’re reading into the line of her jaw, the fall of her hair. Measuring the weight behind each blink.

“You were wrong by the way,” Tzuyu starts, indifferent. Through some act of divine retribution, she laughs. “Because to tell you the truth, I used to have, like, the biggest crush on you.”

She’s young, and - well, she’s a lot of things. A terrible idea. Incredibly off-limits. She is anathema, red tape, an original sin. You shake your head at her, smile fading - which for anyone keeping score, is an admonishment, however faint.

Because Chou Tzuyu, you recognize, is categorically, unequivocally: never supposed to happen.

-

If you want a read on your current dilemma, then this is how it pans out:

You’re walking headfirst into one of the multiple terrible, terrible scenarios you’ve probably had an anxiety dream about. It’s an ambush, really.

There’s the text from Mina, explaining all the ins and outs of her winter hideaway, the logistical whereabouts, and the pinched photo from the outside, the endless winding driveway, the clearing in the woods. The remote location, the unfussed snow, the towering trees. There are no neighbors to speak of, just seclusion and isolation and that makes you, among the seven billion or whatever, the only one who will know precisely how fucked you are.

The door to the cabin swings open on its hinges. You kick the snow off your boots, and the air smells indistinctly of peppermint tea.

It’s a cozy place, you think. A slightly rustic aesthetic. There’s a pair of skis decommissioned over the mantle. Mina, as usual, has good taste. You peek around: the foyer, the open living space, the wood finishes, the sunken fireplace. You almost make out a bathroom, through a half-opened doorway - and the kitchen, maybe, is nestled around the far corner.

You settle in, find your bearings, and start taking these leisurely steps down the hall.

That’s when you see her. Wearing a sweater that’s a size too big, draped over her frame - sleeves tucked, exposing the barest hint of skin on her wrists, her delicate fingertips. You blink once, twice. That’s a dangerous flare. The rest of her, this canvas of pale skin and soft, endless legs, the hollowed stretch of inner thigh-

Actually, you know what, you are going to delete that out of your mind; as far as you’re concerned, Tzuyu absolutely does not have her long, satin-like mahogany hair spilling over her shoulder, her bare legs poking out from under that bulky cotton blend, and she definitely, very absolutely has not given you a complete lack of boundaries, so it’s more than plausible for her to slide onto a stool near the countertop with her painted-toes peeking out from beneath the folded press of her thigh (the pedicure, really, now?) and look over at you like you aren’t perfectly familiar with that goddamn face. Those eyes, that jaw.

And her collarbone is out too. Ouch.

Tzuyu rests her chin in one of her perfectly manicured hands, and tilts her head: she’s very blatantly checking you out.

The problem is, you’ve recognized her immediately.

Which - god, the bottom-lines, the blurred borders. It’s been years. She’s twenty-three, twenty-four now, and as it turns out, she’s taller than you remember. She’s thinner, taller, actually a bit filled out too-

Right, okay, no. Just. Delete that image from the internal memory.

“Oh,” you breathe, because there’s not a single thing you’re sure you’re supposed to do. It takes a split second too long to put the brakes on everything in your brain and say, “Tzuyu.” It takes even more control not to tack an unthinkingly fond ‘miss’ to the front of her name - you’re a god-honest lost hope - but at the last minute, you settle for, “hi.”

It’s unnatural. She’s actually somehow prettier than you remember, and the tousled brown curls flowing down her shoulder make it worse. She smiles, gently; this soft-spoken, “hey.”

She’s at the kitchen island, holding a bowl of cereal and looking at you like she’s taking inventory. The strap of her bra is black, loose around the curve of her left shoulder; she’s barefoot. Any other context, and it’s your favorite kind of combination, basically: casual and messy and haphazard. Perfect. She’s so tall, christ.

“We’ve met a few times,” and she’s not even phrasing it as a question - because she knows for a fact that you know her - and now, well, you can see how that’s a problem.

“Yeah.” You drop your bags. “Nobody said anything about anyone being here, so, I’m just a little-”

“Relieved?” Tzuyu tries, and if it sounds conceited, you’ve imagined it.

“Surprised,” you amend, quickly. There is a massive amount of distance currently between the both of you - several feet and an island counter to top it off. That’s good, you think.

Tzuyu runs her hands over the top of her hair, a half-effort at putting it up into some sort of a ponytail, or maybe a bun. You see now that her nails are bare. “I’d heard from Mina,” she starts, “that Sana was coming here-”

And you watch, absentmindedly, as Tzuyu slides down off her chair. You watch her too carefully almost, for a beat. You want to follow the length of her legs with the same ease and shamelessness - like it’s instinct or just expected; it’s ridiculous and wrong to think, but-

“-with, uh, someone. She left it purposefully vague.” Tzuyu finishes, then pauses. Her gaze slides across you. If the awkward stretch of silence is weird, she doesn’t comment on it. “Then I heard the flight got delayed because of all the snow.“

"Just Sana’s,” you correct, and that’s not information you should be simply giving away. She just stands there, blinking up at you.

“Huh,” she says, eyebrow lifted - slower than is explicitly necessary, “so you’re like. All alone until she gets here.” She simply eats a spoonful of cereal, chews for a moment, and adds, “bummer.”

It’s true, in some sense. You sigh, rake a hand back through your hair, and your jacket falls further down on one of your shoulders; she drops her gaze down, almost imperceptibly, following the motion.

There is definitely a point where you could take notice of a lot of things, and they include, but are certainly not limited to: the fucking languor with which she is licking the yogurt off the back of her spoon, her stupidly long eyelashes fanning on the tops of her cheeks when she glances down, the frankly risque neckline of her sweater. Those kinds of things. Those kinds of details. Really, you wouldn’t dare.

“It sounds like she’ll be getting in tomorrow evening,” you decide to inform her, though she didn’t ask, and now she nods, focusing still on the yogurt and granola at the bottom of her bowl.

You walk into the kitchen. Rap your knuckles on the countertop. Tzuyu’s right there, and your mind is filling up with images you could really do without. That’s the unfortunate, traitorous nature of all this: in any universe, Chou Tzuyu fawns over you. And she will, on accident or purpose, test you. And as for your hesitation - that’s an instinct that gets activated every time you so much as meet Tzuyu in person, this invasive little impulse. 

“Well,” Tzuyu says, way too casually. “It’s just us then.”

“Yeah.” you agree, stilted. “Just us.”

“There’s wine,” she decides, tilts her head. Then, matter of factly, “and coffee, hot cocoa. Mina’s more or less stocked on everything.”

Her voice hits the room all nice, sweet, syrupy - god, fuck, maybe there’s a window or a door here somewhere that you’re supposed to open to clear the air, but when you look, there’s frost on the glass; it’s the subalpine frigidity. Tzuyu flashes you this other sort of glance - her teeth scrape the rounded spoon’s tip before her lips fully fix around it. The drowsy, delirious feeling is almost involuntary at this point.

“I should unpack my things, is what I should do, probably,” and now you are saying things for the sake of saying them, as an escape. “Hey, seriously. Sorry for the inconvenience.”

“Don’t be,” she tells you. “The weather isn’t anybody’s fault.”

(Here, a premonition. You look at Tzuyu, who raises an eyebrow back.)

The next logical move is: leave. Tzuyu folds her long limbs back up onto the stool, and you’re - trying not to look. You’re also trying not to do it consciously, actively - you’re not, and not. You fail, like you did a few years ago, too - the eyes have a bad habit of wandering. She’s made of porcelain, all thin wrists, thin neck, soft curves and delicate lines. She’s made out of glass - she’s at her most dangerous when you’ve gone and broken her.

It’s possible, you think, she could break you too.

-

Look, contextually - it’s Murphy’s law, or maybe your own very specific curse. A lot of stuff happens, so here’s a rough draft, your best effort at an approximation, a smudged-pencil sketch:

Tzuyu has been on vacation in the Alps from the start of the week, or maybe the week prior - she’s alone in this stupidly big cabin you’re supposed to be meeting Sana in for two weeks and change of pure unadulterated, hedonistic fun. Skiing, lounging, stargazing, drinking, screwing, consummating a situationship. You know the drill.

However there ends up being an actual, literal avalanche - with snow and rocks and ice and whatever the fuck - the power goes out, and you can only assume the whole mountain’s gone dark. It’s like a classic, a cautionary tale: hey, dude, you’re on vacation with this drop-dead gorgeous girl who will let you do whatever you want to her - in the name of love and lust and a loosely legal liability. She says she’ll be yours forever, except you also heard her say that the universe is entitled to laugh at you, a bit - so you do something you’ll regret (which, okay, you’ve done countless things you’ll regret) and now you’re getting punished for it, and so is the stunning temptress currently shivering in the bed next to you. Seriously, whatever you do, do not fuck her, don’t let her get too attached, because oh, man - Tzuyu really likes to make herself comfortable, huh? To nestle herself into your arms, let her hand stroke circles in the dark fabric of your t-shirt, warm her cold nose into your chest, and cuddle the night away. She’s so easy to give in to, isn’t she? This walking, talking paradox of everything she’s not supposed to be and everything she’ll willingly do anyway - there’s her expression, placid and rapturous in equal measures, the sleepy mumbles against your skin that sound like prayers, her damp breaths.

You should know better. You should know that this is the universe, laughing its ass off at you.

And just for the record, there is sound reason for everyone to feel, in some sense, extremely concerned by the narrative that your life has slowly, unceremoniously devolved itself into.

The first time you meet Chou Tzuyu is years ago. She’s dramatically, devastatingly, problematically, young.

It was all happening before you could really clock it, and it was morally reprehensible, and it was, in fact, probably all your own doing.

And it’s even more obvious in retrospect: how she would react to the way you reach back and ruffle your hair when you laugh, the casual appeal of your smile, the depths of your tone, how you cut it as close as you can get it. A girl will trip all over herself to let you look after her; that’s the basic blueprint, that’s the default. See, you’re in your twenties, an adult - not having figured out much, but having certainly figured out this - and it’s very much not lost on you that the girl should not be flirting with you - but she does, and the very worst of it is: you let her.

“Are you out of your mind?” Jihyo had said at the time, and, in fairness, yeah. That more or less sums it up.

So you end up making a point of never getting to know her, to always keep the conversation nonexistent. Or in the worst case scenario, brief - on surface level topics. The weather. Your job. Food. If you like her sunglasses. (They look protective, you’d told her, very practical. Very safe.) It’s the essentials, a light, professional rapport - never once crossing the border from casual conversation to candid disclosure. 

She’s infatuated, of course. You’re not mincing words here. It’s actually rather unfortunate, how gone she is for you. You could’ve probably stood to dial it back; you, and your charm. Your smiles.

Because Chou Tzuyu was however many years young, very much off-limits - and like a lot of people it seems, totally hooked on your whole deal.

-

(Theoretically, that’s how it all starts. Which is why, pragmatically, you will never, ever lay a finger on her.)

-

So, the plan to get through this was simple and to the point and as follows:

* Avoid unnecessary physical contact

* Maintain social distance, in fact - something covid-esque sounds great, about six feet

* Do not offer opinions/advice unless specifically asked

* Minimize speaking, just to be safe

* Do not exchange gifts, especially personal ones

* Be wary of the temptation to take a voluntarily-tipsy Tzuyu to bed, because you’ll want to - and god knows Tzuyu will make it extremely clear that you could; this is exactly how shit turns south-

* Adjust and reframe

* Reinforce

* Remind yourself

* To just fucking think about literally anything else

It was working fine, so far - really fine, especially if you consider how early into the stay you’re sitting there, telling yourself off in the bathroom mirror, get it together, you dumbass. What is wrong with you, don’t you know better by now - before an unapologetic knock on the door snaps you out of it, and the click of the door opening a moment later forces a heavy inhale from your chest: you just need a fucking second, thanks - not a half-decent excuse or a rearrangement, not a careful restructure, just a split second in your own head; that’s not even the sort of thing you’re prone to needing, because it’s you, but with Chou fucking Tzuyu-

A soft breathy laugh, “are you okay in here?”

Tzuyu pokes her head into the room, her hair a wavy curtain that tumbles down past the middle of her back. You have this vague, fleeting impulse to run your fingers through it.

“Well,” and there goes all the shit you’d managed not to think about, or contemplate, or dwell upon for that one glorious, naive, misinformed second. “Sort of,” you say, offering her a quick glance.

“Really?” Tzuyu says, not catching onto the whole existential crisis thing. “Is there anything else you need? I mean,” and then your eyes fall upon her; she’s put a sweater on, pants, which all things considered, is a huge victory, a total rout - her baggy sweater drapes on her, practically brushing her thigh where the material stops, the hem. “I guess not, just. Um,” her teeth catch her bottom lip for a quick moment, and this time she glances back towards the hall, the granite-finish tiles. “Wanna make s'mores?”

“What,” you ask, because honestly, what the actual fuck-

“I went into town to get fresh groceries earlier this week. Everything just kinda landed in my cart,” she says, the beginning of an explanation - the backstory, if you will. “And there’s a fireplace. Momo always says the calories don’t count if it’s social eating, so.” She makes a small shrug.

“Oh,” you say, like you understand. Your throat feels tight. “She’s totally right.”

She offers you a small nod. Tucks her hair behind her ear. You wonder if she knows how suggestive even the smallest of gestures she makes are; and more so, if she does it knowingly, or simply without thought - if it’s a facet of her own effortlessness.

"Um,” you say, for no particular reason other than that Tzuyu is fucking distracting. “Okay.”

The edges of her mouth tick upwards at that. “We could put something on the tv,” she suggests. “For the vibe.”

“Oh yeah, for the ambience.”

“For the ambience,” she nods.

(And fuck her, seriously. You might be a goner already.)

-

“A winter weather advisory,” Tzuyu reads, squinting slightly at the tv. A minute later: “Just stay home,” followed by another pause, and a frown: “hail and ice too. Yeah, no kidding.”

She’s reading the weather report. You’re pretending you have any idea how to work the fireplace while she sets her eyes on the news, hands running over the blankets she has huddled around herself - legs folded, tucked into the edge of her chest. She’d gotten as far as logging into her Netflix account before the suggestion of cuddling was so obviously implied, her hands patting the cushioned space beside her that you were required by moral law to flip through the cable options until you found the least sexy, least rom-com-y option you could find: a newscaster reporting on the ongoing inclement weather, a forecaster saying 'near zero chance of improving, so travel is heavily discouraged, we strongly advise against-’

“Wonder if Sana’s even going to make it,” Tzuyu breaks the relative silence, and you are acutely aware of how casual she has been referring to Sana, the complete and utter lack of jealousy or any emotion related - or you guess, inspired. She’s not even the slightest bit irked. “If the airport opens, maybe,“ she adds, and, after a beat, "let’s hope.”

-

It gets colder. You can barely see three feet past the front door. The forecast only gets worse, the storm intensifies and swells, it snows and snows - and this isn’t a cottage somewhere on the lake, you’re a couple miles down a single-track, woodsy road, far, far away from society.

-

If only these walls could talk, honestly. You’re like, caught in a moment. With Tzuyu and marshmallows and these tiny, sticky wooden skewers. This is a story you will tell nobody, ever.

“I don’t mean to say I told you so,” she says, but it comes out with a mouthful of chocolate and graham cracker, and marshmallow, which sort of takes the bite out of it. “But the movie is a little more entertaining.”

You pretend like you weren’t staring at her mouth a beat prior. “Right, a cinematic masterpiece." 

Tzuyu tugs a marshmallow off the stick, and looks over at you again. Smiles around the impromptu pastry. She’s just such a bright, wholesome thing - soft-hearted, selfless, so innocuous and so pleasant. It’s absolutely sick. You have a fucking pavlovian response to Tzuyu simply existing.

And you’re pretending like the white, tacky remains on her mouth haven’t permanently solidified that look into memory: the melted chocolate, the whipped sugar, the dimple. You could really do without this specific feeling - for however much longer it’ll last, should the storm linger.

"You don’t ever have stuff like this, just for a quiet, carefree time?” Tzuyu licks it off her skin, and the question kind of drags your attention elsewhere.

You breathe in, slow.

Maybe she can feel it too, you think. Because Tzuyu drags the pad of her thumb against her bottom lip, and a question she doesn’t ask flickers to life in her gaze: if you’ll break or not, if there is an absolute limit.

But it’s impossible to read her. Tzuyu takes up this real easy-going disposition, all quiet and stoic, sort of, and maybe that’s the dangerous part of her - the stillness. Other moments, she has this uncanny knack for conversation. She’s charming in that way, you have always thought, a bright face. She has a keen understanding of things too - maybe sometimes too much; maybe a little bit beyond her years, really, a little too knowledgeable.

“When the gang does,” you answer, diplomatically. “Sure, I suppose.”

There’s another smile at that, which is how you know that the back and forth, this coolly cool, somewhat-stiff exchange is sort of becoming a game. A bet on who cracks, who turns. She won’t tell you it’s you, and you’ll never in your right mind acknowledge her. It’s some version of honesty. A bit like Russian roulette.

“I used to think we were friends, you know,” she muses, like it’s some great mystery - all very deliberately cryptic. Like it’s funny.

“Hey, you were like, a teenager,” you’re grasping at straws. You’re spinning the bullet round the conversational chamber. “And I have this thing-”

“You have a thing?” Her eyebrow is raised again - sweetly challenging.

“-like, a principle, a standard - if there’s nothing there, and let’s face it: there’s really not something here-”

“Aw,” Tzuyu fakes pouting, which is simultaneously very mean and also like, painfully hot, and she makes this pitiful coo, “you really have nothing to say at all, do you.”

Which. Fuck, she’s right. The 'thing’ here is the no touching, the no messing, the no making anything resembling a move. She’s sitting over there with her mouth covered in sugar, batting her goddamn eyelashes. Which you ignore, thank god for impulse control, or the instinct of it, and Tzuyu pushes a graham cracker past her lips to placate her own expression.

And so it goes. She keeps looking at you and looking and looking and you stare, transfixed, back at her. The edges of her jaw, the rise of her nose, the jutting curve of her collarbone; you say something dumb or clever and you’re making her laugh, and every time she does, her teeth catch on her bottom lip and you could really do with a distraction right now, but it’s impossible not to flirt. 

It’s just the way the universe has constructed you - this starvation, a twisted desire. There’s cruelty in the design.

-

(Things take a turn for the worse, of course. You don’t know how, but she gets to you agree that you two should’ve gotten closer in all that time-

“Well, I’m sure you were just so busy,” you’d shrugged, indifferent, and she’d pressed the sleeve of her sweater to her mouth, just to hide how bright the smile was.

-which, honestly, fuck you - given all the context. Because now she’s right here in the cabin; she’s an arm’s length away, and all this time, you’ve meant to stay the fuck out of reach.) 

-

Tzuyu does the worst thing. She returns from the kitchen, hands full, with two squat tumblers and a bottle of dark brandy. She sets one down next to you and asks if you want some.

You look. You mean, what are you even supposed to do? It’s a catch twenty-two, it’s a joke - what can a girl be thinking, standing there. Bending the right way, hair framing a face like hers.

Yeah, sure - it’s the voice of someone who’s slipping, who’s gonna say the same thing three more times. “Hm, why not.”

The ice clinks against the glass. Then, the pour. Toast to good health, a clean conscience, safe passage; you’ll take whatever you can get. 

You watch Tzuyu knock back an impressive amount and make an impressive face. There’s maturity there, you cope. Because you want to touch her jaw, thumb over her cheekbone, breathe baby, it’s too strong, slow down on her lips, watch her mouth open slightly-

The fire pops.

She leans toward you. “Are you going to keep stealing stories from me, or are you going to supply anything good to the discussion?“

"About me, personally?” you say, purposefully pedantic.

Tzuyu’s smirk is half-present, half-playful. She sets down her tumbler on a coaster - Mina would be appreciative - and hums at you. “What do you think I mean?”

“I was really hoping the inflection would help clarify.”

She levels a gaze with you. You fight back for a hot second - this slow-burning heat under the skin, your resolve threatening to buckle, shatter, spill itself everywhere - and in the end, she is the one that looks away, softly laughing, a pfft under her breath. You’re left the opportunity to just - look. See where the glow from the wood-burning fire has cast this gorgeous gold over her face, all her defined curves, her delicate features.

“I don’t care, it could be anything,” she poses, settling back into the pillows. Smiling. “Please. Entertain me.”

Her cheeks are rosy. You realize, quite suddenly, you are not totally sober either. This is exactly how Sana talked you into something however many moons ago, then however many moons later, surgically unattached all the strings. Sana’s good at talking. At convincing. And you don’t do shots like her, or apparently like Tzuyu does - but hell, it’s that maddening, pretty little dimple of hers - the one that’s always there when she does her mischievous smirk - a deeply devastating look, a devil-may-care demeanor, and you’re dead-drunk on it, honestly.

“Want me to talk about Sana?” you offer, “seems like an obvious choice.”

“I think you’re projecting,” Tzuyu teases. “You just miss her, I’m sure.”

“Mhm. Sure.”

Tzuyu makes a noise halfway between a chuckle and a snort, and draws the blankets more tightly around her. “What,” she says, nonplussed, “who doesn’t want to hear some gossip about their friends?”

You’re fucking up, right? Fucking up the same way you did years ago when you caught the wrong kind of feeling for an entirely, altogether inappropriate woman. But you’ll blame the drinks. And the mood. And the ambience, the fucking fire that’s almost suffocating, the closeness of her body next to you-

“Hey,” you say, and it’s such a mistake. You’re pointing to a spot on your chin. You’re making it worse. “You got a little, uh-”

You watch as she lifts her hand, glides it through the air - brushes her own cheek with her fingertips, smoothing out an imagined blemish.

“Did I get it?”

“Uh, well, sorta-” and she knows you’re lying.

Tzuyu tries again. Comes up short, and when her hair falls in front of her face, she’s looking at you like maybe you’ll help take care of that too. She’s a total fucking coquette - though maybe she hasn’t even done it on purpose, maybe she’s just that unaware, innocent. Not the second one, you figure. You’re leaning, tilting closer and closer to her - in any other scenario, there’d be the shortest possible time between her touching herself and you, cupping her jaw with one of your hands.

But your mouth feels like it’s moving of its own accord. “No, wait, let me help you,” you continue, before you know it. 

Isn’t it disastrous; all ice and hazard, this is the advisory in effect; a napoleon-goes-to-russia caliber calamity, a colossal write off, a write in. You could have, should have stopped, except you didn’t and now you’re reaching, gently, until your palm cups the side of her face - until you press, until you hold her steady. Her head tilts. She lets you, blinking up. Her eyes are this hazy, intoxicated coffee-brown, honeyed and burnt and fucking beautiful.

You swipe your thumb along her bottom lip. The gesture is slow, languid, intentional; you think, through some cosmic error, that might just be the end of it.

“There,” you say, smiling, naive.

“Yeah,” Tzuyu breathes out, and she winds her fist into the fabric of your shirt. “Thanks.”

You lean, or she does; you go down, or she pulls you; there’s no difference, really.

She is kissing you, this soft little press. A tug in every direction. You hadn’t kissed her, at the very start, but when her fingers thread through your hair, gripping hard, bringing you closer until you groan, parting your lips slightly, and - and her tongue flits past yours - your brain does this wild mental leap that you ought to be questioning later.

But everything starts to sink. 

One of your hands lands on her waist, thumb slipping under the hem of her sweater and pressing against bare skin, and her knee nudges between both of your legs - until Tzuyu hums this low, pretty sound in her throat. There is something fervent here, all-consuming, devouring; her mouth moves like it’s frantic for air, for oxygen and fuel, and her whole body melts under yours like she’s completely falling apart.

Fuck, you think. There is a deep, smouldering heat in the pit of your stomach.

Because she’s perfect. You always knew that, didn’t you. She is firelight and perfume and muted gold; everything else falls into shadow, fades into the background. Her lips are velvet-soft, and they open again and again with these heavy exhales of hot air - so much so that you have to shift the hand you’d set on her waist lower, a little, her hip bone under your palm, a touch ghosting towards the dip and the swell.

Somehow you have this knowledge: at the end of everything, it’ll be her name falling helplessly off your tongue.

“You were wrong by the way,” she stops to say. 

"About-” You press another kiss into her jaw, and her mouth parts around the same slow sigh. “Wait.” You lean back enough to look at her again.

“Whatever you said earlier.“ Tzuyu’s eyes go half-lidded as she starts petting your hair back into place, thumb stroking your jawline. "I’d have made time.”

Oh, christ-

“Because to tell you the truth,” her tongue wets her lip, shiny, wet, “I’ve never really forgotten. Like I just thought, that whole thing was so… fleeting, you know, like the last time, when you let me text you - god, I was crushing so hard.”

You breathe, shaking your head. 

“Don’t,” is what comes out of your mouth after, quick, sharpened. 

“Don’t what?” Tzuyu taunts, pushing another inch further. That small grin on her face, her long, nimble fingers combing through your hair. 

You are trying to think, and there was an apology, right? You’d had this one in you. The one that began as a guilty soliloquy, a rueful acknowledgement; something that should have been directed toward Tzuyu, told her, at one point, or another: look. Sorry it’s like this.

But there is a hand tracing the collar of your shirt - a sensation that follows all the way to the base of your throat; you lean further into her touch, almost involuntarily - a simple motion, and yet. “You shouldn’t. You shouldn’t say things like that to me,” and you mean: these things you already know. “It’s not good.”

“Doesn’t feel that bad,” she tells you, a breezy sort of whisper, warm. “I think I’m getting the opposite impression.”

“Maybe for the wrong reasons,” you remind her. And to remind yourself, actually. “Probably for the wrong reasons - trust me, it is.”

"Trust you,” and it’s the slightest bit ridiculing, a tease - Tzuyu drops her smile, pulls you in by the hair, whispers low. “Sure,” the syllable soft, pressed against your throat, “I trust you not to hurt me,” and the 'not’ gets hung on for an impossibly long moment, stretched out thin. 

She’s sinister; she has to be, or some amalgamation of the most potent version of every word she’s ever said. A dream girl, the definition and essence of a temptress, this shameless attraction - an insistent siren begging for your attention; the incepting mind-game; the entity that stalks the halls in the deepest trenches of the night, whispering your worst fears right into your ear. You fall further into Tzuyu, the prettiest of nightmares.

(Oh, it’s the dimple that does you in, really: if there’s any possible way that Chou Tzuyu has unintentionally ruined your life, she’s done it with that innocent little smile.)

“You can kiss me again,” Tzuyu says, permissive.

And you do. You kiss her, and kiss her like you’ve no choice - like you’ve decided, at least in this very moment, if Tzuyu can own a piece of your soul, you can take something too.

-

(The thing about a cautionary tale: sometimes it is really just a story. Sometimes it happens and the world is left unscathed. There were a lot of warning signs, yes. But this could be a coda, a moralistic adage, a story to turn the page on and laugh and be embarrassed by and say, oh, no, I’d definitely do better; a blip. We’d never do anything like that. It’s all history, honestly.)

-

It’s not romantic, and it’s less gentle than you’d have expected: Tzuyu bites your lip at one point, and you grab her hip so hard she yelps. The pause in the after is filled with a provocation, a stare, a tilt of your head, and her saying, “hey, easy now.” You cup her face in your hands, and run your thumb over lips. The calm is pretty short-lived. She gets her hands working frantically to tear your shirt off over your head. Then it’s a haphazard stumble into the doorframe of the bedroom, with her pulling you in too-hard by the waist, bumping your nose against hers in this rough meeting - until your lips fit together. 

“Mm,” Tzuyu’s mouth pushes insistently into yours and your tongue immediately laves at its underside, coaxes it to slide against yours and soon she’s sliding forward on purpose - on her own initiative, pressing the steady line of your cock against the seam of your pants, the pressure sudden.

“Watch it,” you murmur, breaking away a little to glare at her, which just makes her smile, like she likes pissing you off or something, likes watching you get mad at her, or whatever - if she says it’s true, then it is, probably - she’s honest.

Her small hand darts up, gripping the sides of your jaw tightly and moving in, kissing like it’s easy; like she knows what the fuck she’s doing. Her head tilts and she does it again, except it’s a few times in a row, making out in the doorway. 

“And if I say no?” She grins, hand at your dick again, just palming through the fabric and getting off on your soundless reactions to it all. “Like, is that really enough? I feel like you’d have to like - tie me up. Something - you know?”

“That sounds like a you problem.”

A mischievous smile steals across her lips and you feel yourself doing the same. “Yeah, you’re right,” she responds, dragging her thumb and forefinger from the zipper of your jeans to the hard line of your cock, pinching gently along the shape. “It is my problem.”

She feels pliant, more than willing, but it’s a calculated type of softness. Still, you get a hint, a vague message and you figure, the way this girl’s smirking in her lips: she likes being held down, held fast and steady, so you pin her wrists above her head - her eyes stay on you, don’t drop; you pin her, and her expression becomes that shade more dark, more teasing. Oh, you’ll go slowly, you think, until Tzuyu gives. You’ll climb a hand further under her sweater, let it skim over her ribs. You’ll kiss her again, open-mouthed, and slow, until she can’t breathe.

Her head knocks into the wall, she bites and smiles like a promise, and all her muscle flexes under your grip. “Oh, seriously,” Tzuyu whispers into your mouth. “Y'know, this is like a fantasy of mine.”

And that’s kind of it: she has that look. In the morning, you can see yourself chasing her down into sheets - just pinning her with the weight of your whole body, feeling each tensed curve of her against you. She pulls you closer, into her; she seems the type.

"I’d really rather not hear that, Tzu.”

"And I want to hear you say please, more than anything,” Tzuyu laughs at herself, something hard in it, “but I think you want to fuck me so bad, it’ll come naturally. Like, the second you have your fingers inside me. And that’s what you want, right? Tell me.”

“I’m thinking about your legs,” you tell her, running your palm around the curve of her thigh. Fuck, she’s perfect. “Think they’d fit around my waist.”

“And hook my ankles? I’d love that.” Her eyes crinkle. “Is that it, though?”

“Maybe I’d keep my hand on your throat and fuck you like that, too. That’s on the table.”

Tzuyu laughs: a real, actual sound, but not at you. “It is. You’re smart.”

“To be completely transparent,” you mutter. “I don’t plan on asking you very nicely at all.”

The lines in Tzuyu’s face go a little blissful, contented, like she’s so, so pleased with this, like she approves, and she kisses you again, the length of your bodies pressed together, except where her hips cant up and meet the space between your thighs. You drag a hand roughly along her waist, kneading muscle there, down to the rise of her jeans - which, fuck, you need to help her shimmy out of and find the pull of the sweater, whatever - and she grinds out some noise, something caught between her throat and her teeth, but mostly in the place where your hand’s dragged under the material, tugging gently at the wire of a bra, and you’d actually kind of forgotten it was a thing.

It’s when you hear her own rasp, when she slips the side of your zipper open with a few quick strokes, shoving her fingers inside to hold the base of your cock, that you finally decide:

She’s yours and you’ll prove it. You’ll make sure she knows: the evidence, the fingerprints,  the bruises blooming the size of your thumbs and she’ll be the one showing them off with pride. She’ll let you do whatever you like, which’ll be a lot. She’ll appeal to all the worst parts of you; she’ll say thank you; she’ll whimper while you’re pulling her bra off and simply letting it flutter to the ground; she’ll be crying within the first half an hour of you touching her. You can read it right off her gorgeous face. She’ll be so damn breathtakingly-pretty, bouncing on your cock, folded under your weight - it’ll be incredible. She’ll be yours.

“Come on,” Tzuyu breathes. “Yes. Please,” she adds, as though it’s an afterthought, her free hand tangling in your hair, pulling. “Hurry, or something - I fucking love this but we need to- I’m literally going to, like, die if you don’t touch me right now.”

“Yeah,” is what you get out. Her jeans finally fall to her ankles and she kicks, to get them to puddle onto the floor. “Yeah. Alright, maybe.”

You won’t even need to hear her begging, you already know how she sounds: a little annoyed and very turned on, rolling her eyes at herself. This part - she’s playing at resistance, but she’s giving in. A kiss back, hotter than you were expecting, as you slip a hand up the back of her bare thigh and the edge of her underwear, a thin strip, like it’s done on purpose.

When you tuck a finger inside the waistband, feeling a little guilty about the way her whole body reacts - the flex, the pull, the weight of all her muscle straining against how her legs fall open - Tzuyu manages, her face in the hollow of your cheek: “you’ve waited long enough, right?”

God, she knows where the wounds are still fresh. Which bruises will hurt most when she puts a finger right into one - a reminder you couldn’t possibly ignore. She’s playing this whole thing a little bit sadistically; she wants this to be your fault, you can tell.

And your mind isn’t unbending. You push a finger into her cunt and the girl absolutely shakes apart, body jerking like you’ve severed a lifeline. She’s so wet, and so pretty, so sensitive. Maybe you really have.

“Tzu,” you tell her. The hand in your hair tightens, a warning, as you let two, then three, fingers shove inside her. She’s breathless; the slow, rough motions, her entire body riding the heel of your palm. “Do you want me to tell you how good you are for me, right now? Is that it?”

“Yeah - do. Please, fuck - please say it.”

“I was right,” is what you manage, biting your tongue.

“Right?” She asks, her fingers locked, urging your thrusting to turn punishing. “Please.”

“Do you want me to make this a nice, pretty little memory? Suck the bitterness out and - have something sweet to go back to, the next time someone hurts you.”

“I can take it.” She snaps, not even responding to your comment. “Tell me you need me and you’re leaving me no choice.”

You smile into her hair, because she’s a dream. Your thumb pushes into her clit and you can feel her seize up with a pathetic whine.

“Pretty,” you mutter, as she slumps her chest to yours. You kiss it right into her hair. “I need you, Tzu.”

And the idea’s seductive: keep her pinned and fuck her right into the wall. See her wrecked by the end; the swell of her thumb bloody from how she was biting into it, how she’s wrenching at your wrist. Your lips land over her collarbone - no, hers do, to the side of your head - she’d be bent in half if it wasn’t for the wood at her back. Her leg crossed in the small of your back. A proper, all-consuming kind of wrecking, with your name on it.

“Yes.” Tzuyu nods into your temple, “just- that.” 

You’re kissing the crook of her neck; your fingertips sliding right against the end of her, your fingers pressing into her and stretching the girl to her limits, making her tremble in her own skin, making her insides melt for the next round, and the next round, and the next; the best, and worst, and longest-lasting kind of high. Your fingertips push together, flutter apart, and Tzuyu’s eyes open all of a sudden, locking onto yours.

“Please,” she gasps, this one thing. She has tears in her eyes: her face falls into your hands like water, a long drip, and she’s all but unraveling.

“I’m going to make you cum, okay?” you tell her, and it sounds so sincere that she simply nods. She trusts you. Implicitly. You see how something in her relaxes, muscles unwinding as though for one last moment. Then you lean down, to her ear, to murmur: “say you’re mine.”

Her teeth are gritting. You can feel every last point.

“Just yours,” she mutters, and it’s barely even audible, but she’ll say it: over and over, as her orgasm builds, before her mouth goes slack. “Always been. From the very beginning, please-”

“Fuck,” you bite down, and she looks like she’s won.

“So long, y’know?” she manages, in her halting voice, as if you haven’t got two fingers up her sweet, perfect cunt, which is, currently, gripping the shit out of your hand, the hungry slutty muscle spasms, a slippery fist; it’s not too hard getting Tzuyu to talk dirty and vulgar like a total degenerate - all it takes is the circle of your thumb and she’s perfect and pliant and absolutely out of her mind. “Since like, forever-”

You need her to stop. Need her to be quiet. Your palm lands over the shape of her mouth. She’s murmuring something else, but it’s muffled - and that’s perfect, really. You’re not going to hell; all the devils are already here, getting off on the impropriety-

On the fucking drag of your fingertips. If it isn’t mean, it’s definitely cynical. Each curl of a knuckle unwinding her, a little more, a little further. The gush of her slick that’s collected on the webbing between your fingers is getting unruly, and you’re pressing her mouth flat against your hand, muffling the sheer appreciation.

“Shh,” you tell her, and she seems to calm - insofar you find a spot inside her that makes her eyes roll back and her chest shudder. “Don’t. Hold still for me, I want to watch you cum, Tzu.”

The only thing you can hear beyond the stilted breathing against your hand is her wet cunt getting stretched and fucked on your fingers. It’s so simple. So straightforward. The front of her orgasm makes her jolt against your hips and you pin her again, just to see those gorgeous eyes opening and shutting in sync.

It’s this beautiful thing, watching her cum; her flushed cheeks, her pupils blown.

“Good girl,” is the only thing you manage in response. “Such a good - such a good little-”

She moans into your hand and finally the muscles of her core tighten, tipping over the precipice as she tips back from the edge. “Ah, you - oh, it feels so-”

You tell her not to talk, and thumb her sensitive clit until the girl’s screaming.

Her cries cut through the hallway: the friction, your movements - she’s grinding desperate to ride her own orgasm. The absolute highs wracking her silent. She doesn’t seem capable of getting off her tiptoes, or opening her eyes properly. Her mouth’s still gaping beneath your palm with a whimper, her lungs heaving, and her cunt practically burning-hot - or, she just is, she’s overheating, and everything else is burning around her.

"I’m going to fuck your pretty little cunt, Tzu,” you tell her as her hips jump and her eyes open. You drop her leg, which buckles instantly. “You’re going to be good for me, won’t you?”

“Yes, sir,” Tzuyu promises you - it makes you wince - like she’d say anything else, with her hips pushing into your hand like she can’t remember how not to. 

Even with her brain turning to mush, Tzuyu finds it within her to tease, to pull, to coax - as her slick slides down the seam between your fingers, like she’s gushing, a wet ribbon coating the backs of your knuckles. There’s a fantasy in it, you think - and it’s always the unapologetic type, like, they never admit it: they want the dirt, the debasing. There’s always a blueprint to it; they want to hear how terrible it is and then have some fun playing into it, playing a part.

Only Tzuyu’s lip is wobbling; she’s looking at you like you’re going to fuck her apart and she’ll thank you for it. There’s no play. Tzuyu wants your cum and she’s so open-legged about it you can’t pretend it’s not exactly that simple.

She’s going to fall apart if you don’t shove your cock in her tight cunt. You need to pin her there - fuck her until she’s shaking. You can already see the face she’ll make when you shock yourself inside her-

“What is it, baby?” you ask her, and a beat later, you draw your zipper down with a steady hand, the other working in her mouth, pressing down the tip of her tongue - not exactly holding, not exactly pulling out of her.

Tzuyu sighs, heavy on her eyelids and slow. Very pretty.

“I want-” Her head is lolling. She’s in a daze, now, you can tell: her mouth wet and trembling, her legs kicking weakly, a full-bodied tremor overcoming her. Everything wraps around you as your cock slides inside her: the pale-soft underside of her legs, her slender arms. All those lovely, endless tensed lines, her strong abs. She can hold you like this, with only her abdomen tightening, the rest of her almost liquid. Her head knocks into yours. “Fu-fuck my cunt, fill it, please.”

You use the angle, the approach. Her pussy’s practically spasming on the thick tip, milking the hardness there - but the deeper, more confident strokes, you feel it in every one of her shaky breaths. The only thing you can see is Tzuyu’s dumb little doe eyes, the one-to-two second interval, fluttering in between slow, heavy blinks. The walls of her pussy are all at once so gentle and smooth, her cunt a plush, warm vice on your cock; she’s clinging, and hot, and you’re so buried inside you could probably pick her apart with a few words alone:

"Please,” she’s muttering to herself, and every single cry gets stuck in her mouth and vibrates between the both of you.

Your fingertips hook into the curve of her waist, until your nails are sinking into the flesh, pinching gently, and watching her expression twist, you grip her hips with all the bruising-strength in your hands, yank her back onto your cock. Her spine goes rigid as a line of curses fall like rain from her mouth. A shuddering gasp - you have to steady her against you, where her knees lock tight around your waist as though she’s worried you’re leaving, like she’s scared you won’t stay-

“Baby,” you grit out, like you’d beg too, “Oh- fuck, my baby, you’re - you’re all mine, okay.”

You bury yourself balls-deep - and there’s no pretense, it’s just you and her, the pace making Tzuyu’s little repeating “ah” go choppy with your thrusting, her eyes clamping shut, her limbs locking around you.

“Too deep,” she groans. “Jesus, it’s-”

“Uh uh,” you mutter against the bend of her chin, and press in, still, maybe just to spite her. “Fight me. If it’s too deep.”

There’s tears in her lashes, she’s sobbing; you’re fucking her so properly you think she wants to kill you. It might even be written into that glossy expression: death, your demise. But her pretty eyes glint with mischief and her lips split into a grin.

“Try me,” and this laugh, coming up from your chest - low, amused. “Go ahead. Put my neck in your hand, if you want-”

There’s only ever a couple of moves. Like in chess, the combinations repeat, patterns emerge. Tzuyu pulls into your kiss; her wrist pinned to the wall behind her with one of your hands, the other knocking her thighs apart. Her ankles hook into your hips, just as you knew they would. There are so few options for a person; the only solution’s the natural one - the urge to match each other’s needs; to lose yourself in the easy push and the easy pull.

It doesn’t take long before she opens up beneath you: until there’s nothing between the hard pound of your hips and her tender, creaming cunt. Then there’s that final gasp, this violent pulse as she takes her hands back from you to cup around your ears and press her lips to the line of your cheekbones and nose and mouth, with her tear-slick skin and saliva and, god - she’s a whimperer, you now know, but Tzuyu holds her body still enough to not sway. The picture-perfect example of a good little girl -

That’s how you push your mouth to hers: the steady-languid thrust of your cock between the hot clamp of her legs. “Oh, god, you’re gonna make me cum again, christ,” her cries go, all muffled, right into your lips. She’s a little lost. Fucked-out. Blissful.

It’s not right, though; just pinning the girl against a wall - no, she deserves better. You don’t let her fall as you drag her into the bedroom. Not until a tumble into the sheets. She doesn’t try to control the fall, you land on top of her, and Tzuyu laughs a little, but it dies into the hard breaths you can feel bouncing back against your mouth. Her soft thighs pressed beneath your weight, quivering still.

“Fuck your cum into me,” She huffs out, softly, more air than noise. You’re practically crushing her. And then the tilt of her head, almost inviting, like a question. “Please. I want it.”

In hindsight, the real memory of this moment will be a soft and lovely thing - fabricated mostly: her tiny frame shaking, trembling in its effort to take you in, her voice giving out around a cry as she cums again - there’s something sacred there, surely, a holiness that isn’t altogether safe, considering what this girl is.

You’ll try not to remember how you fucked her and buried your face between her tits, though she did look up at you through her tears and made it sound sweet, said your name just so, or even the fact that she watched her whole body get filled and only smiled with contentment. That part won’t survive - nor the fact you’ll hold the girl down later and cum inside her three times. Until she’s leaking. Details to be confined to Mina’s cabin-secrecy - or at least, to whatever depth of oblivion, past your will to suppress it, her mind reaches when you bury your hand in her hair and pull her head back to really make sure you’ve hit every corner of her and left your cum there, marking her insides, turning her warm.

And look, Tzuyu doesn’t balk. Instead she lets you pull her in close, her nails raking into the nape of your neck, the muscles under your skin. She drags scratches down your back as you sink into her cunt, hot, willing - she’s so fucking wet you’re bottoming out in each sloppy thrust.

“Tzu,” you can’t stop yourself from muttering, almost reverent. You were right, on all accounts. The girl is a problem.

One that is currently collapsing under you. You push her knees up to her elbows, and all her weight melts under your hands, limp and helpless.

“Fuck, your pussy is unbelievable.” You shouldn’t be fucking her this hard, but, well, you are - “Tzuyu, baby,” and when your hand comes up to her jaw, she palms it. Takes your thumb into her mouth and sucks. Fuck, it’s all slipping, consuming, you need to cum in her, need to bury your cock deep in her cunt and cum right into that wet sopping mess. Fill her up where she’s molten hot and her walls are gripping you so hard they’re practically begging-

"Yeah,” she repeats around the digit, flitting her tongue against your fingertip. “Yeah. Cum for me.”

That’s how she likes it. She’ll scream, if you let her. If you give her the deepest fill. She’ll apologize and she won’t know for what. You already know how her expression will shift as soon as it hits. Head falling back. Her hands fisting in your hair, the bedding - her knees nearly get drawn up, and you push them apart by your fingertips. She whimpers, and whimpers, and you can’t stop from fucking the pretty noises right out of her lungs until she’s dripping - soaking you, all over the sheets. You want her to feel it when you leave. Your presence. It’s only fair - she should remember some part of you, in exchange for what she’s traded and stolen away - ideally forever.

You thumb at the tear tracks and lift her by a fistful of that pretty dark hair. And for her, you can be kind, you let your lips graze hers. As tenderly as you can manage, which isn’t much, but then the angle settles lower, your cock hits deeper, all the right spots - and god, Tzuyu is so easy to fuck. She slips a little, and you’re catching her, pushing deeper, harder - she’s easy to pound too, to hold down and smother and grind deep, to have under you, all boneless, insensible-

“So pretty for me, Tzu,” you growl into the shell of her ear, because you can, and another stroke, another velvety drag has you cumming in her hot, little cunt.

Each throb brings more, pumping her full of your cum, and she likes it. Keeps muttering baby, baby please in your ear, and fuck, you almost slip a hand down and make her fall apart too - but - her fingers wrap around your wrist before they get there, so tight.

“Can feel it. So deep,” she whispers, when your eyelids screw shut and the mess floods out of her - gets fucked right back in: your hot cum and her thick slick, the creamy mess leaking from her cunt. You pull your cock out halfway, and she does sob - that sounds just like you’d imagine, too. “Please. Oh, my god- sir. That’s it. That’s it, let it out, sir. Sir, all your cum feels so good in me - please. Please- just give it to me, sir, yes-”

She’s not even taunting or mocking on that ‘sir,’ you think, not the way she sounds now, the halfway-slur. It’s all torn up and tired. It makes you press closer, making the head of your cock swell between the thin walls of her pussy. It hurts - the squeeze. And then the soft, pleading sound she makes.

“Anything for you, sweetheart,” you groan, a last attempt at a condescending tone. But she’s so raw, so broken down by now that nothing is quite right.

“Fuck,” she mutters against your mouth, “fuck, thank you,” and your palm drags down the length of her sternum, following the angle of her jaw, slipping your palm onto her tits, thumbing at the indent. It’s soft, pliant skin, and you pinch: not anywhere sharp or cruel, not especially sensitive, just in a line below the ridge of her rib cage, and it’s too pretty a picture not to smile at her, when her entire chest jolts at the contact, the intake of breath. “Sir. Fuck.”

“I’m still fucking you later,” you assure her, as if her breathing could’ve convinced you otherwise. “But I wanna hear your voice some more. Hum a little. Give me a yes, sweetheart. Can you do that?”

The noise is barely audible, almost nonexistent, except it is: she hums her assent as you dip two fingertips back into her swollen, well-fucked cunt, scooping out some of the mess. Your fingers hook into her cheek and her mouth opens, because she’s so obedient, because that’s why it has to be like this.

You rub her bottom lip. Her eyes open into yours; a wet mouth. It’s impossible not to see what’s right there. It’s easy, really, to press through and in, and give her that taste, that warm, velvety brush, like she’s been sucking your cock, and maybe - oh, yeah, you’ll remind her about it tomorrow, how she’s a needy little slut for it, can’t get enough - how you could’ve fucked her face until she was drooling and out-of-her mind - but the way her eyelashes flutter against your touch; the look-

You’ll take your time. You know what she wants: more than anything. It’s the thing you can read. Maybe the hot, sticky mess, the flush in her cheeks. A touch to her face. Your thumb in her mouth, too, stretching, prying, holding. More cum falling beneath her tongue, dripping in those gaping, half-open red lips.

She’s licking your load from your knuckles, your Tzuyu. You can’t believe it.

“Swallow,” you tell her.

“Mmm,” and it’s there: this gorgeous expression on her features, her eyelids dropping, the shimmer, the shine. You’d do anything to keep it there.

You let your thumb leave the corner of her mouth and it stays open, just the tip of her tongue darting out to taste what little she can. The rest of her lulls back with a satisfied murmur, eyes half-closed, clearly the type of content-afterglow of wanting the man who’d just ruined her. A gratitude, or a simple, silly thing, if he would just pick her up in his arms: “thank you, sir.”

Her panties end up back around her hips, and a new shirt’s thrown haphazardly on, a soft, gray cotton which rides down, slipping past one pale shoulder. And then she turns over, to the side, her back curling into the heat of your chest. There’s no attempt at leaving or any plans either. The arm you’ve loosely wrapped around her waist simply tugs. It’s not subtle or even nice: your hand rucks up the fabric and snaps the waistband, and the soft cotton doesn’t stop it from being painful.

“Fuck me again.” Tzuyu shakes off with a shrug. She’s wiggling her ass, practically. She’s not wrong, you suppose - your cock hardens easily, more of a reaction. “Are you just going to - keep teasing?”

“Such a brat,” you say, and that makes her whole body tense; she makes the most beautiful sounds for you, but words, praise, humiliation - those always hit harder. You know your girl.

“Your brat,” says Tzuyu, easily. “You can do whatever you want." 

Your grip on her hip is brutal. Of course you know. That doesn’t mean you can’t look for loopholes, anyway, right? You don’t move, but the threat’s there.

The look she shoots over her shoulder is smug. "I like it rough, or something. Doesn’t it make you mad that someone could’ve had me before?”

“Should I be?” You’re swiping your cockhead through her folds before you have a chance to say, “Should I care that some guy’s had my little cocksleeve before? Should I be angry that someone used my pretty toy before I got to?” You thumb at the tightness, and Tzuyu gives up the front immediately and jerks her hips backward. “If I wasn’t the first?”

“Not exactly,” comes Tzuyu’s mild answer, “not if I was always thinking of you. Plus, they didn’t make me feel like that.” She tips her head up, to nip at your jaw. She’s smiling so fucking coy when she adds: “please, don’t hurt me too bad.”

You wrap your hands around her. Press a kiss into her shoulder.

“Or do, maybe. Whatever feels natural, you know,“ she bites down.

"The hickeys are going to be difficult,” you agree. “People are gonna see them and they’ll picture themselves, probably, with you spread out, huffing, gasping - fucking you out of a brain.”

“As they should,” she says, and then hums this low, heartfelt note into the mattress. “So how hard can you do this, hm?” She’s moaning into the pillow as you slip back into her cunt, but it’s a challenge, the tilt in her voice. “Like, if I ask, real nicely.”

Who’d have ever guessed she was so filthy. All hidden behind the pristine, the perfection. The prim girls are always the worst: all that beauty means more to them wrecked than revered - it means they’ve won, again.

Well, that works just fine. She’s won you over.

You lean into her shoulder, murmuring, “you’re pushing your luck here, Tzu.”

“Am I?” Her head tilts back until it finds the curve of your jaw. Those deep brown eyes flashing. She knows what’s coming, her pussy tightening prettily. “I’m sorry, sir. I’ll clean up my act.”

And the little smile. The fucking dimple, proudly stitched into her cheek - right as you pull her back onto you again, your length working its way slowly into her cunt. The way her ass fits in your hips lets you know you’re no match for this girl: how unbelievably good it feels to be inside her. Hot, tight, wanting. Pressed tight between her gorgeous thighs.

“Guess I never noticed,” she says, before falling quiet with the soft punch of breath as you drag her backwards, against your body and the rocking press of your hips. Her eyelashes tremble while your cock nudges its way fully inside her pussy. The rest, as it seems, is silent: only the crash of skin, the sound of your breathing.

You’re already gathering her hair into your fist when you tug her back to your waist, mouth hovering right at the shell of her ear: “fuck, you take my dick like you’re made for it. Do you even know how good your pussy feels? I’ll ruin you if you let me. We can find out together,” you tell her, pulling her back onto your cock. A wordless, pained, perfect whimper.

Tzuyu lets herself go slack against your chest.

She’s taking you like a dream and that’s it, that’s enough, all you’ve got to say, and Tzuyu, jesus-fucking-christ, she does it with a laugh: this awful, melodic, bright, sweet, airy fucking thing: “don’t fucking test me, Tzuyu -” you repeat, a warning.

Tzuyu bats those long lashes, like it’ll mean anything, like this isn’t all the proof you need. 

“Okay. Don’t tease, then.” Her hand reaches up to the nape of your neck, finds your body close and hot. She sighs. “I want to feel it, sir. So much that I can’t walk after. That I’ll still have you in me. I want it all to hurt. Is that too much?”

All she does is try to hide her smiles, and she’s terrible at it. There’s a gasp buried underneath her giggling, one that Tzuyu loses every time she moves her body with yours. There are only two conclusions now: either she’s that perfect of a fuck or she’s as full of shit as you are. Either way, the dimple’s giving her away - her smile, her lips, the full, syrupy brown of her gaze.

Tzuyu wraps that leg up and back around you and the angle is devastating.

“Baby, I want you- I want your cock deeper - yes, baby. Deeper - as deep as it’ll go. I want you to fuck me until I can’t think, until there’s nothing I can do. Seriously. Fuck me." 

Her hand dives over the shirt; there’s no question when your gaze follows the trail she takes over her tensing body, over the curve of her breasts and down to where she’s dragging at her pussy, where she’s exposed herself. She finds the space and lets the fingertips flutter down, onto her needy, swollen clit; the place where your bodies join and separate; the throbbing pulse of her pussy.

"And then fuck me some more,” she adds, like that’ll help. Her pussy fits you like a glove - it’s not fair. It’s not right.

But she’s so beautiful up close, eyes fluttering in pure, concentrated rapture as she loses the tension in her face - one more thing that the facets, angles, and shades of Tzuyu become, something you tuck away in a vault somewhere safe; a secret just between the two of you.

Her hand runs up your thigh, fastens back on your hip. “You owe it to me, to use my body a little bit, don’t you think?”

There’s no sense fighting it, not anymore - maybe there never was - and when you grip Tzuyu’s upper thigh, tilt her leg upwards, she gives you an anticipatory hum. This light sound. An ankle lands over your hip, and what follows is a tight, enveloping slide, your cock buried in her wet pussy. So close together that she can’t move much at all except to take it - the hard thrust, the one that forces its way up to the hilt. She’s impossibly, overwhelmingly soft, a pleasure unlike any other. The absolute worst kind.

She knows exactly the danger of getting involved with you, and when she cums, once, again, and once more - her eyes water, her voice flooded - you think, so do you.

-

It’s in the hours of the morning that’re not quite today, nor quite tomorrow when Tzuyu leans on the end of the bed as she stretches. A loose t-shirt is draped over her petite body - you glance over at her as the bottom of the fabric lifts, exposing more skin across her legs. No matter the circumstances, the space she inhabits will always feel charged. She could wear a potato sack and have the same effect, you suppose, because that’s just how she is: Tzuyu is magnetizing.

"That is definitely not yours,” you say, finally.

The girl has a lovely arch to her back, a golden glow of perfection that you can’t find elsewhere. That’s when Tzuyu laughs and spins around. “Is that a question?”

You only have yourself to blame. Of course it’s not hers. The shirt’s oversized and could fit all five feet, eight inches of her like a tent. It doesn’t belong to her, but her heart-shaped lips make you feel stupid, so you’re giving her a second chance. You really need that shirt back. You packed light, it’s your favorite tee, it’s a family heirloom, or something - whatever makes her get it off, you guess. You sit up against the bed, and watch her fingers hook into the hem as it slowly peels off from her frame.

And that is - a vision.

You already knew - but it’s worth repeating, or forgetting your name and every last bit of your existence for; the sharp collarbone, the striking red lines beneath them, the palest, sweetest chest. Her breasts, a bit smaller, a bit rounder than normal (not that you would know), sit heavy in her hands, soft and full - oh, the hickeys, the perfect peaks and the bruised nipples - she’s an aphrodisiac.

“I want one later,” she tells you, and runs a hand over her breast, pressing against the angry red marks that color the pale skin.

“A shirt?”

She turns back toward the mirror, an image reflected tenfold - a beautiful flush on her high cheekbones. It’s only a small win to think that those rosy cheeks are there because of you. Only a little one, if at all. “One of yours, sure.”

You laugh, but she looks taken aback. “What, you mean like a keepsake?”

“Hey, if it smells good.” Tzuyu brings up the neckline to her nose, eyes fluttering shut for a brief second before they snap closed. “Yes. Like a keepsake, is that so unnatural?”

“Has anyone ever told you that you are, like, really forward.” You thought you knew, but there’s this part of you that wonders. Why the sudden revelation. “Not that it isn’t obvious. I meant…with the rest. Just to clarify.”

“With sex, you mean?” Her smile turns a little sheepish. “I can tone it down a little. I don’t even notice sometimes, I just talk.”

You walk forward and wrap your arms around her waist. You fit easily around her. “Don’t,” you say, quietly, against the back of her neck. “It’s nice, in a way.”

She cranes her head to trade the reflection of your eyes for the real thing. Her body is soft, warm. “You like to talk too.”

“Right.”

“Your favorite past-time.”

“Point taken.” Your thumb runs down the middle of her breast and traces her nipple. It’s tender, you note. You can’t really keep your hands off her waist, or stop touching her tits - because who would ever let something so delightful pass them by? Not you. No way. “Want to hear a story?”

“If it’s coming from you,” she whispers, a little smile, a lot of entendre, “I’ll listen to anything.”

“Do you see the wall over there?” You nod to the window. She follows it with her gaze, her chin jutting towards your shoulder, her long neck arching. It’s hard not to kiss it. There’s a clear stretch of drywall beside her desk. She nods. “When I came here with Sana and Mina last,” and your nose presses into her hair, inhaling her, the way she smells like something tropical: vanilla and citrus. Something far from here. “I put up a few paintings. I’m handy sometimes, a hammer seeking a nail sorta thing.”

Tzuyu almost snorts, and sways a bit in your grasp. You tighten your hold, not wanting to drop her. “Oh?” she teases out, suggestive. “Show me.”

-

(You shouldn’t. You can’t stop, frankly. Fucking Tzuyu is in its own category: the luxury, the treasure, the extravagance; feeling between your fingers the finest silk, the richest cashmere.

Her palms slide higher up the wall, fingers splayed. The curve of her back, the pull of her hair. Tzuyu kissing you like the world will end and the moon will be the first to know, her fists curling into your back, a furious, frantic urgency - Tzuyu fucking you. Well. Tzuyu always, always kissing you; it’s the universe resetting, it’s a timeline rewritten, it’s trading everything sweet for salt, giving you teeth and tongue, the insides of her lip rubbed raw - she tastes like 80 Proof, a sticky, melting liquor, and it goes down too easy. “Why are you making this hard for me.” It’s not a question, her face in your neck - then she says, like there’s a hundred other things, a hundred thousand ways you can ask:

“What makes you think I want to make this easy?”)

-

The power goes out early in the morning.

Which means you’re in the dark. But, it’s alright. You consider for a moment the omen-like timing, if such an idea is ludicrous in the first place. This could be a metaphor. After all, what is Tzuyu if not a classic trope? It isn’t fair to judge anyone based off their flaws. For starters, you have more than you can count. You consider a moment longer, that the timing isn’t metaphor-worthy. After all, if this was a punitive force, you’re certain that it would’ve been more apparent, more explicit, if the electric panel had burst into flames or the cable box was shot-out; something bigger, flashier, less like something that you’d play up for theatrics. And it probably would’ve been when you had the girl on all on fours, your handprints seared into the round of her ass-

Or, when she got on her knees. The snap of darkness setting in as you slipped your cock out of her lips and spilled a rope of hot cum on her face, in her hair. The way she just relaxed into it, a reverence to her being baptized, kneeling. “Oh, Tzu,” you said, with a fist around a cock, and jerked the rest right out on her tongue. You probably would have heard her sniffle after, still recovering from her choking a bit.

Or, when you had half a mind to kneel down between her legs in the shower, suck her clit until she was dripping, fucking her open with your tongue; you could taste her sweat, her slick, and imagine how hard it must be to put up that front: biting into a washcloth, trying not to fall apart.

(Karma arrives late, or it doesn’t arrive at all. Or, something. Who knows. It doesn’t matter. The outcome would have remained the same.)

Tzuyu opens the sliding glass door to the balcony.

You watch her from behind - there’s a small pile of snow at the edge. The whole mountain has gone into complete darkness. No moon, no lights, no light poles, or blinking bulbs or strobe signs or house lights - just night. How eerily romantic, that. And if there was an excess amount of snow before, it only got heavier, thicker, now weighing on the steel bars of the railing.

Tzuyu rests her hands there, leaning her hips a bit forward, so far that her knees lock. Her back bends. “It’s so weird,” she breathes out, and you can see your exhales, both of yours. “I feel like you and I are the only ones here right now. Everyone else is probably taking shelter. Maybe the power went out for everybody.”

“Maybe.”

“It’s all a bit spooky. Or creepy. But, exciting too, yeah?” She turns, just enough. Her fingertips run along the side of her face. “In the mountains, yes.” She doesn’t even need to say the rest, doesn’t need to ask: does that appeal to you? All this isolation? I could scream and scream and nobody would ever hear it. I’m yours to fuck, to have, to own, to do anything to-

“It’ll probably be fixed in the morning,” you tell her. “Who would turn it back on tonight. To this place. They’ll start at the closest areas to town and go out from there.”

“Mina has a generator,” Tzuyu supplies helpfully. “No living clue where.”

“Want to look for it?”

She lets her head tilt, as if to follow the expanse of trees leading up into the rocky ground. “Would it kill us to wait for tomorrow?” Her bare toes curl into the floorboards. The blanket stays wrapped tightly around her shoulders, and a single line of her wrist can be seen when she tilts her arm a certain way. “We won’t die or anything.”

You wouldn’t die, not before being smitten with a different death, falling headfirst and in love; and that’s what you’ve felt since the start, since the beginning: you’ve always wanted more. It was always inevitable, her letting her weight fall backwards, in the living room - all your filthy secrets falling out. It felt like the sky had dropped. All over the bedroom floor.

“Then let’s get some sleep,” you say, but still step closer, as you do with anyone, to brush aside the strand of hair over her ear.

-

It feels like the temperature must have dropped dramatically. Not that it bothers either of you very much, you note, when you move under the blankets together. Some might feel embarrassed by the necessity, but then, most aren’t half the people that you both are.

Tzuyu presses her fingers under her thigh to keep her legs shut. To avoid the cold, she claims, but you can hear the slippery noises that her cunt makes as her body shakes with each thrust of her fingers. You almost suggest that you heat her up in an entirely different fashion, but the smile, her smile, gets the best of you. Instead, you let yourself touch and trace, and feel her wherever it may land. There’s no sense in pretending either, so you tangle yourself into her: a finger between her legs. Another in her palm, resting against her hip. When you press your thumb against her cunt, she begins to smile, too, as if to show you exactly what kind of person she is. That is to say, completely insatiable.

You let your free hand slip under her chin. Tilting her head up, exposing the faint pulse-points. You wonder if she’s imagining the things you’d do if the snow never cleared: toying with her hair, petting the top of her head, speaking pretty and dirty and pressing kisses against her bare back, in a rhythm, as you fuck her without care - something close and tight like the little noises she makes and how they die off, finally, when you push your cock deeper, still.

There are no words between you anymore, maybe - but she’s not laughing, and you’re not angry, and it’s only one second before your mouth is on her neck, kissing the column of her throat. It’s easy to sleep with her - so, so simple, if not anything else.

“I don’t have anything in the morning,” you murmur to the top of her shoulder, barely moving as not to break the moment. To tell her it’s fine to leave her body or keep it forever. Either way. Both, if it’s an option.

She smiles. Her eyes are still closed. “It’d be weird if you did.”

She can be a tease - a complete brat - sometimes. Like now. But then again, who would you be if not the person who falls for exactly that.

And that is a weakness: you have a very specific kind of hunger, that won’t fade, that can only be sated. She knows it, and yet her coy grin remains. It’s a habit, not a mistake. “Yeah, well,” you lean up onto your forearm, pressing the knuckles of your right hand against her soft cheek. “This is the most inconvenient of all places, but- don’t worry about it.”

“Meaning?”

“I don’t think they sell birth control or morning after pills or anything up here,” you explain, lightly. Your gaze passes from her eyes to the pink of her bottom lip and back, again.

“Do I look like I’d care?” Tzuyu sighs and takes your wrist, pulling your arm over her body. “I know what I’m doing,” she adds, which might actually be a lie. “Obviously. You don’t need to pretend you’re like, responsible, or whatever.”

Yes, obviously. As if it was all as easy as pulling strings, deciding exactly which points to tease, to stress. You should know. You just kissed and held down and fucked and fucked your cum into this one: you know how to move her strings better than any.

-

You flip the switch in the kitchen. Up, down, up, down: except, nothing. The electricity is still decidedly off by mid-morning, and you and Tzuyu end up having actual, quality, conversation. 

You sit her on the kitchen counter - though it’s not fated to last long, because her legs loop around your waist, and she tugs your sweats down as you try to fix the two of you lunch - Tzuyu gets what Tzuyu wants, of course - so you’re standing there fucking her while her head leans back on the cool marble, her silky dark hair tumbling off the end of the counter.

She ends up propped up on one elbow. Eyes hazy and half-lidded, fixed on the glide of you into her creamy folds, spreading her wider, wider.

Tzuyu asks questions - all innocuous, at least to the ear. About your past. Who you were before all this. Whether you want kids, when, whether you were religious, once. She gets personal before you have her cumming and incoherent: how you sleep, in what positions. How often you jerk yourself off. What you’re thinking of when you do. How you’d use her - not the lewd version, the spitting, filthy iteration, just the you and her and her being yours part. And she gets specific about that. She’ll slide up to you and bury her nose in your throat, wrap her arms around your shoulders, mumble about wanting you closer - you feel her, maybe more than you should - but every few seconds you’re sliding home into that pussy and her chest heaves out a deep breath-

“I want what’s in here,” she finally says, her delicate palm cupping your balls. She’s pulling you into her on each stroke like the fucking sun’s gone out and this is her last chance - she’s magnetism, gravity, a blackhole you’d give up the rest of the universe to. She’s got one fist on your shirt, and the other hand on your sack, and her pussy’s fluttering around you, and she’s watching you watching her, and it’s infinity:

“The idea of you.” Tzuyu smiles at the way your eyes narrow, the way the word turns itself over and over on your mind, her. She tilts her face to look at your expression. “Like, in here. All your cum. There’s so much. Can I please have it-”

You swear.

“Pretty please, baby,” Tzuyu’s asking if you’ll fill her up, if you’ll make her your cumdump, keep fucking her even with all your cum inside her, asking what the worst of your fantasies are - you fuck harder, deeper, and she nods eagerly, tightens that fist in your shirt. “Can you give it to me? Please, it’s the only thing I need, and we both know I always need something, please.”

“Jesus fucking christ,” you tell her, helpless, and it’s never felt better: her cockwarming on your lap, her teasing and teasing until your self-control’s paper thin - won’t you? won’t you? fucking breed this slutty little cunt? won’t you cum until I’m so full it’s spilling out-

The snap. Like falling, it’s something you notice right away, but only ever understand a long ways down. 

“Yours,” moans Tzuyu, half in an accusatory fashion - fuck - she’s almost gasping: “fuck - just use me, use your cumdump, 'cause you’ll never have a tighter cunt than this.”

God. Damn. Her. You cum so hard it aches, and there’s no hesitation:

“My cocksleeve, my good girl, shit-”

“You could leave a baby in me, even, just like that. Couldn’t you. Isn’t that hot. And nobody could do a fucking thing.” Tzuyu’s tits are spilling out the sides of her camisole and she looks like pure porn, in person. Your cum is dripping out of her and you watch as it spills on the marble.

“Is that what my girl wants? 

She smiles, again, so prettily.

“You wanna be full of cum, is that it?” You grab Tzuyu’s hair; pull just enough to get the point across. “Is that it? You’re a perfect cumslut who needs all that fucking cum, huh? Wants it pumped deep? You like being full of it, right Tzu? This needy little cunt loves the thought of getting bred? Knocked up? Goddamn, Tzu.”

“That’s me,” agrees Tzuyu, in the afterglow. Dimple dug deep. “Yeah. Your personal cumslut, sir.”

She just grins when you reach between her thighs, pressing your fingers into the cum you’ve fucked into her, before you decide that the wet warmth is yours and you’re going to fuck her even further into delirium.

Her hips come up off the granite, desperately.

“Uh-huh,” she mumbles, already drifting - you put her off her balance, for real. “God, yes, please,” she’s whispers, as if all the ways you’d ruin her were prayers, like she wants to start a new religion all her own: you’re a god, and it’s all about Tzuyu - just you, and her, asking, again, the questions piling on top of other ones, the sweet drawl, the sinful want, the curiosity-

Fuck. She wants everything about you, your dirty secrets and your nice manners - the stories behind your scars, your funny little quirk of raising just one eyebrow at a time-

You turn her around. She’s made for this, intelligently designed: her tiptoes just touching the floor, the delicious curve of her lower back, your cock sliding effortlessly into her and hitting a spot she arches into like it’s divine intervention and that pussy making its first church of your name. The cum you’d already left in her cunt is making everything wetter, making those obscene sounds echo in the space around the two of you. It’s rapturous; you let her feel it slow, and deep, and it’s bliss.

“Tighter,” you growl into her ear, and her cunt clenches like you own it.

The girl’s figure is pristine, an ass that belongs under spotlights, on camera; those thick lips, the curtain of her hair when she tips her chin down. It’s all been in magazines, billboards, it’s been idolized - she is the icon and you’re the follower, but, this weekend, here and now-

“So. Fucking. Good-” she gasping, falling apart. She’s collapsing and it’s not even noon.

“Oh, the world knows.” You pull her up, hold her body in yours and snap into her cunt. Her skin’s hot, feverish, the light that filters through the blinds and the snow slows outside.

It all happens without a moment’s notice - Tzuyu reaches behind and clutches your thigh, as if she could ever pull you deeper, like it wouldn’t tear her in half. But you find yourself in a position to grab the edge of the counter; your phone buzzes. It’s Sana, probably asking what’s up. You want to ignore it and keep fucking Tzuyu from behind. You want to hold her hips, be mindful of the marks, the bruises, sink your fingers into her hair, her tits - you end up murmuring things like please and fucking perfect and if we were a little more religious then you’d be a sin to remember-

Fuck, you’re cumming again. The writing’s on the wall as soon as your cock makes her breath draw short and her eyelids snap shut. She’s exquisite, a masterwork - you’re painting in broad strokes, all over the beautiful curves of her ass - not only because you’ve needed to see it cast in hot streaks of white, all debased with your cum, but simply to prove a point; to say that you can. You cum on her cheeks, her cunt, you pump your fist around your shaft and cum in the crotch of her panties too.

“That’s it, Tzu,” you croon, “look at that,” your spent cock twitching against her plush thighs, her dripping pussy lips, and she’s sagged forward, onto the counter, your thumb running through a particularly thick rivulet. Her face dips down, pressed to the cold surface, and the words coming out aren’t coherent, are just filthy and true; but they’re there: she’s taken you and kept you, all for herself.

(Thank you, she says, for making me into your little cockwarmer, your toy, for breaking my fucking cunt, baby - thank you, please, thank you-

You could end your career tomorrow, it wouldn’t matter. Just saying, man. This girl, fuck.)

There’s a beat, the strained breathing, the panting, the disbelief. She ends up kissing your chin after sliding back to her feet, a saccharine imitation of chaste. Pulls up her shorts without a second’s consideration. Her panties, still sticky with your spend - well. She puts those back, too, grinning dreamily. 

Oh, how is a woman like Tzuyu even real, huh? You really do need to find out, somehow.

“Your imagination is…” you say, your tone flat. “I swear.” But you don’t deny that the sex isn’t. You don’t think of her that way. She doesn’t ask you for your hopes or your dreams or the full gambit of life, as some people might. She asks about what you think about at three am when she’s got one hand on her tits and one on her clit and one finger in her mouth:

“Anything we can think of,” she corrects, her long limbs squeezing her tighter to your front. Her grin bright, so perfect she’s beyond believable, and how can such a dissonance exist in something, someone, you’re holding on to? “I mean, we can if you want.”

-

“Maybe we’ll talk about that - how you can handle me,” is what Tzuyu rasps, softly, tying her hair up afterwards: and you realize this is her post-coital. For her, sex makes her nice. Sweet.

You’ve already fixed her lunch; Tzuyu comes to sit down at the table with you. “Like, for future reference.” You’re raising an eyebrow. She grins at that, kicks her feet. Her hips don’t do the same, though - no doubt still a little sore, like her lips. She’s worn out, finally. She won’t try to slice off and claim any more of your aching soul.

“You have no business thinking about babies.”

“Tell that to my ovaries.”

“You have a breeding kink, is what it is, really. I’m being completely serious.”

“Well, am I pregnant yet?” Tzuyu flutters those lashes, puts those big pretty eyes on full display. “No? Then I’m getting off on something else, clearly, isn’t it obvious, like maybe there’s something about being on the other end of someone so big. Have you considered how wet you make me when you-”

“Tzuyu, cut it out,” you chide her. The little brat’s giggling. You aren’t going to let her know how pretty the noise is.

“Fine.” She reaches across the table, puts her small hand on your larger one. “Like I said - how to handle me.” Her tone is placating, the sharp edge to her personality blunted. It’s different with Tzuyu - after sex, she gets like this: playful, easy, fond. The mess you’ve just made, the cunt you’ve stuffed full, that’s another Tzuyu altogether. “For your… benefit.”

“My benefit, really?”

“Aside from getting my brains fucked out,” she explains, “is what I meant.”

“Not making this easier, babe.”

Her mouth curves a slow smile. She likes when you call her names, cute shit like that.

“I need to call Sana back,” you explain, finally.

Tzuyu nods.

“In a bit,” you add. “Also,” you’re saying, leaning forward. Her head tilts toward yours.

She’s receptive, her whole body pliant and lazy, after that, well, marathon - she’ll roll with whatever you’re suggesting. This has always been a dream to her, she’s mentioned. (Who has dreams like that? Someone so young, that innocent - well, yeah.)

But you kiss her temple, lightly. “Gimme a minute.”

Tzuyu blinks, in that catlike way she has of staring, intent. Her mouth slightly pouty.

“Then you get your turn,” you offer.

“Deal,” she nods.

And that makes her beam - your beautiful, very good, very perfect, little toy.

-

“You’re going to have to slow down,” you tell Sana over the phone. “I have zero reception up here, sorry.”

“The highway is shut down, I literally can’t get to the other side of town,” she yells over the sound of tires rolling on snow. Sana does not sound in the best spirits. If anything, she sounds slightly desperate. “Part of the mountain collapsed on a cliff somewhere. Fuck’s sake. The weather is still terrible and they’re shutting everything down. Literally shuttering every road off the base of the mountain.”

“You sound good,” you deadpan, and when Sana grumbles, say, “try the next exit, head around and take a back road-”

“Yeah, except it’s snowing like nobody’s fucking business right now - I’m not going to risk exposure to try to get there on my own.”

“What should I do?” you try, a bit helpless. “Stay here?”

“Why are you even asking,” Sana scoffs, “yes, stay there, stupid. Tell Tzuyu you can’t drive in snow, that she can’t possibly expect me to deal with any of you leaving a safe situation.” There’s another brief pause. “Ah, seriously, there is not a single living human being near here that can be helpful - and they’re supposed to bring us new tires? Here? No, fuck’s sake.”

“Oh,” is all you say.

“Don’t worry about me.” Sana’s voice goes up a notch. “Just be there, alright? Stay warm, okay?” A crackle, more radio waves or distance.

“Text me,” you urge. “Tell me you’re getting in safe.”

“Of course, of course,” and that’s when you get the click, the abrupt disconnection. You stare at the device in your hand and consider the possibilities, and the outcomes, and how to stay sane while alone with temptation incarnate for a couple nights.

Maybe this really is hell. Or it’s a trial. There’s the storm, and there’s your angel, contextually out of place. You’re incapable of controlling yourself, clearly.

You sigh, let your gaze slide. The lights are still out, and in their absence, Tzuyu has dragged every available blanket or bed sheet within her reach into the living space, spread a dozen pillows across the sofa and is now occupying one of the corners: there’s a book, opened onto her lap, as her nails run circles down the blanket draped over her lower back.

“Tzu, what exactly did Mina mention to you about the generator,” is the first thing you blurt, upon entry, and Tzuyu smiles, holding up the page against the fading daylight - which is currently hardly much. “Better question: how are you able to read in the dark?”

“Takes a lot to shake me off, honestly,” she says, which you already know to be true. “Also my eyes aren’t old like yours, so.”

“Wow.”

“What?” Tzuyu grins, tilts her chin. “Do you want me to say that you’re ageless? Thirty, flirty and thriving. So impressive, your youthful vigor, that sort of deal? How attracted I am to your experience,” the insinuation, this sudden intimacy. She laughs. “Seriously. Let me read.”

“Apparently we’re going to be stranded for a few days.”

“That’s cute.” She pauses. “Sucks for Sana.”

“You don’t know what sucks for Sana.”

She peeks over the corner of the page, then, grinning, the teeth of a joke. “What’s on the menu, then? Hm? So far, the best part was waking up beside you,” and you almost grin, at how honest she manages to be without seeming conceited. How shameless Tzuyu has become in the ways of liking you, and maybe a bit of who she thinks you are. And why that’s dangerous, really, and it makes the guilt burrow down beneath your ribs a bit: “my ass hurts,” she’s complaining now, which is only going to encourage the teasing-

“As it should,” you comment, then watch her eyes sharpen, glint with mischief. “Oh,” you realize, with a shrug, “do we get to cuddle again.”

(Let’s hope, for a moment, this isn’t really karma. Because really, it’d just be an uncalled-for injustice: Chou Tzuyu delivered down on all fours, head tucked into your thighs as a fist grabs a handful of her hair, a slow push and pull - your cock sinking into the velvet warmth between her lips, again, again, and again until she’s ruined and crying and still swallowing you whole - as she, not the universe, forces a massive dose of her own medicine down your throat. You see how that might not be quite fair.)

“But I’ll have to leave again,” you’re protesting - no heat, no vitriol. “There’s, like. Stuff I gotta grab.”

“Then grab me,” she sighs, pats her lap, “read over my shoulder. Make out with me. Just keep me warm. That’d be very helpful, and I would be so grateful.”

Well, fuck. You’re not one for inflating egos - at least not anybody else’s - especially when, unchecked, that tends to do the exact opposite of keeping them grounded.

“Fine,” you’re muttering, and you clearly have a habit for capitulation wherever Tzuyu is concerned, the quirk in her lips, the quiet pride in her dimple, the cadence in her speech - which she’s already smug about.

“Wonderful.” She taps the back of her fingernail against a book page, waits, just a few more seconds, her grin spreading as you begin to fumble around. “Please,” she says, flicks her gaze back down, a tease, “take all the time you need.”

-

The thing about mountain air is it has a way of clearing your head, cooling down the frenetic thoughts of indecision and uncertainty and moral conflict.

Well, maybe that’s a slight overreach, the mountains also have a way of getting you killed, but the intention was to look upon the white caps and ponder. It didn’t work.

-

You eventually find the generator. You hear the clicks of metal and electrical wiring, the roar of the motor kicking on, a steady hum. Then, Tzuyu pokes her head out from behind the shed, her cheeks tinted a warm pink; her eyebrows rise up a beat.

“Yes?” you prompt.

“Is it working?”

“Does it look like it’s working, miss?”

“Looks a-okay to me,” and she presses the heel of her mitten into her teeth, tries to bite it back down her wrist; she stumbles, a moment, slightly clumsy in the snow. You instinctively reach out. Your hands brush the outer seam of her pajamas, the heavy fabric of her coat - “oh,” you can feel the instant the shivers start, “fuck, I’m cold.”

“We’re both probably pretty due for a hot shower,” you say.

"Yeah, you came in my hair. Er, sorry, I meant, we both need a hot shower.”

“It was really adorable when you were rutting back on my dick like some horny animal,” you snort. “Admit it.”

“No comment.”

“So shy.”

Her smile cracks open, and her breath is a white plume. “Fuck you.”

“Sure, babe,” you’re agreeing, the tone almost saccharine. “If you insist.”

She blinks back in mild surprise, the blatant answer - and god, her fucking eyes: soft, dark, her eyelids barely lift up. Even when they should’ve narrowed. That was another thing to learn. (Maybe, god - who knows, maybe she’s still learning how not to care.)

She runs a hand through her hair. The scarf around her neck is fluffing up. There’s white clumps settling on the fibers, slowly dissolving into a damp mess.

“Listen,” Tzuyu murmurs, wraps an arm around yours to help herself up. 

Your palm settles on the round of her thigh. She shifts, her hand dropping lower - tugs at your arm until she has an elbow in hers. The backs of her knuckles settle against your hip bone, her fingertips sliding across the waistband: you walk backwards through your snowprints, gently - the side door to the cabin is unlocked - Tzuyu’s stumbling toward it.

“Going to the shower, we’re turning the water on,” she explains. You grin, feel your own arm, a slow drag around her lower waist; she tilts into it, steps closer. Presses a finger to your chest: “dinner’s gonna be in half an hour,” she announces, “and before you ask, I’ve been craving those boxes of instant mac & cheese in Mina’s pantry.”

“I haven’t had one of those in ages.”

“Me neither,” and with her heel, she kicks the side door shut; Tzuyu yanks on a cord, pulls the blinds closed. It’s pitch black. You’re chuckling low, turning around - one of Tzuyu’s hands smacks over a nearby light switch, illuminating the room just a shade lighter than it was prior. She presses a hand to your chest, a single-minded goal to your front.

You put your hands on her hips.

“It’s the kinda thing that makes me feel like a kid again,” you hear her say, just slightly; that, and how the white fabric of her sweater twists, pulled to a single point.

“Happens,” is the best explanation you can give. She slaps the lightswitch again. Kisses you. You shove a leg forward. She whines. “Be good,” you’re chiding, though you both stumble until her back is pressed against the wall. “You were just complaining that you’re still sore.”

“Maybe I can’t help it, maybe that’s all on you,” the end of the sentence fades. Her nails slide up the sleeve of your arm. There’s the soft hitch of a moan. “It’s just you. So unfair.” She rubs up. Swallows like it’s instinct, at the slightest hint of friction. You curl your hand, your thumb grazes the waistband of her underwear; her fingertips tighten, her blunt nails sink deeper - press like she means something else, wants something more.

It’ll be a few days, at least, more likely a week; and by then, this girl will have you right where she needs you. She’s proven, time after time - you can never just say no.

-

The days bleed together after the snow.

You fuck her, but slower; sometimes softer, a little less raw, the hurt. Not that you’d ever try to take too much: the thought is unthinkable, un-imagined. Infinitely impossible. You’ll pull out and empty everything you have, paint her skin, make her ache, fuck until you know exactly where the bruises are and how to touch them, how to breathe the hurt down from her ribs.

But some mornings: she rolls over onto her side, opens her eyes and smiles. Brilliant like the sun, something that would warm your heart even without trying. Some afternoons, you put the fire on; read something aloud from Mina’s bookshelves, and watch the red-orange flames turn Tzuyu’s cheeks and neck pink and honey. Evenings, especially the colder ones, you’re wrapping her up, blankets, sweatshirts, pulling her close: into bed with the lights turned off. She wants the touch, she craves it, she’ll almost whimper when you get near her - and it’s you, whispering words against her ear; tracing fingertips lightly against her temple, down the nape of her neck, her lower lip-

“How come you don’t kiss me, hm?” She sounds sleepy. “Baby. Don’t pretend you’re a stone. Like, an unfeeling brute.”

“I have my limits, princess.”

“Like not kissing someone you’re fucking.” Her face drops from your sight, and Tzuyu turns over: she curls into her comforter, and her legs nudge the back of yours. “That’s so fucking cruel,” her voice a little whiny. “But okay, okay - tell me the reasons. Just so we can keep going.”

“Keep going, huh. Even though I’m mean.”

“Well, yeah, I’ve done much, much worse,” the worst, if you think about it; and it’s almost true. Maybe her morality was on the rocks long before yours. “Obviously.”

You drop a kiss into her hair. “We both know what that mouth of yours is capable of.”

She grins into your skin. Presses her lips, like a sign, and stays.

-

A girl like her inspires the worst in a man, and that’s just about it: you think a man would burn the world down for her, with her, and maybe that would be how all things end, someway, somehow - not because of him or her, the full spectrum of his intentions, all the intricacies and subtleties, and hers too. You’re both complicated creatures, sure; both very capable and wanting. Of big feelings, deep attachments: the overflow of your good hearts, perhaps; or, rather: the deficits.

She appeals to your worst impulses, in the plainest terms.

“Jesus Christ,” you hiss, hands firm on her lower back; your voice breaking; Tzuyu has shed the bedsheets and climbed into your lap, one leg bent at the knee, digging the other into your ribs - her shirt hitches up and over the curve of her spine and then pools at her neck.

“Tell me that’s good,” she murmurs, hips gyrating, rocking her pussy along your cock. “Like that - right?”

“Fuck- yes,” your cock slides into her, your entire length, the rest of the world fogged out: even the fire is quiet. “God, tzu. Feels amazing.”

Tzuyu rolls her body forward, rides you with ease, and puts one small hand against your mouth. Her shirt hitches up and over the curve of her spine and then pools at her neck.

“I want to make you cum,” she says, all quiet determination and wily confidence, “only you.” She rolls her hips in your lap and then finds it: the steady, rhythmic grind down, down. Her ass crashes into your balls; the first telltale sign of that wonderful orgasm to come. “Is it wrong to want this? Like, you and I? Fuck. It feels like your cock was made for me.”

“Yeah,” you grit, “fucking you feels - like it’s meant to be, huh?”

“Sir,” she says with an unhealthy smirk. She’s loving this more than you are, and you can’t really blame her for it: there’s no other sound quite like the slick, wet noise that her pussy makes as her body drops to yours, your cock filling her completely. It’s music to your ears.

You grab at her ass, her hip, and pull her closer. She smiles, tilts her face down to you.

“Me too, you know, me too,” she murmurs, kissing you softly; when you cup her breasts her breath hitches. “God- fuck- just-”

When she does cum, it’s with the faintest little groan; a small, intense quiver in her thighs. You kiss her to swallow down the sound; and feel yourself tip over, and when she fucks you through your orgasm - her smile is dark, wicked, totally satisfied.

-

And everything else follows, because you’re weak: because she makes you want to say no, even while simultaneously being your very favorite yes. You warm your cock inside her with some slow, gentle rhythm, her nipples hard against your shirt, her cries as sweet and earnest as all the best promises; a slow grind down, her fingers scrabbling for the headboard, you lean and lick her breasts, roll her nipples on your tongue - she gasps, tenses, digs her nails hard into your nape.

You’ll have her again in the morning, she’s adamant.

Her hands find your back, her legs circle your hips. The taste of her sweat. The taste of her nipples; her chest flushed, hair disheveled, pupils blown.

“Not letting me go.” She whispers. Her cheeks are a lovely pink. “Even after this?”

You kiss the corner of her mouth, inhaling, wondering what to say.

“Good,” Tzuyu tells you, tilting her jaw: “that’s really-” She catches her lips with her teeth. “That’s so fucking good.”

-

(Her pussy grips your cock like it’s the home she’s always missed, her lifeline, her safe harbor. And it’s dizzying, it’s heaven, hell; and, in the morning - when everything is sepia-warm and sleepy - you fuck her again.

A promise, a hope, a plea. It’s what makes a girl fall for a guy, in theory.

It’s what makes her heart beat. )

-

“My phone’s charging,” Tzuyu sniffs the next morning: you’re brushing out her hair. The sheets are warm.

You continue combing.

“Sana told me she would be texting, or trying to call.”

“Well, that’s nice,” is all you can manage.

“Babe-” she leans back a bit: turns her gaze to the ceiling, exhaling sharply, “what if she got caught in a whole different avalanche, or fell from the top of a mountain, or something-”

You let go, letting her rest her weight against your thigh. “Honestly? Would serve her right. A little cold, a little damp-”

“If you don’t take that back-”

“Alright. Alright. I’ll send an apology prayer when I get around to it.”

“No you won’t.” She curls in further, and you stroke her neck, shoulder blade; down the ridges of her spine, across the width of her back.

Tzuyu shudders slightly under your touch.

“Haven’t I earned enough good faith, or a clean conscience?”

“Sir, don’t pretend.”

“Let’s pray for Sana, then,” you mutter. “Wherever the fuck she is.”

“With respect,” Tzuyu pipes up, eager: “bitch ain’t found.”

“Jesus.” You laugh out loud. “At least your brain isn’t fully turned to mush, yeah?”

“Give yourself some credit. I can hardly fucking walk. You really pounded the feeling in my legs away.”

“Too bad.”

“Sorry.” And she noses at your collarbone, tugging the waistband of your boxers; “feel free,” the drawl of an old, forgotten song, “to make me repent. Baby. Do your thing.”

“Right, I forgot that I could convince you to do anything by sliding my dick in your throat. Yikes.”

“Baby, just, uh- do whatever.” Tzuyu grabs hold of your cock through the thin fabric: one light tap of a finger, “my lips are numb,” the suggestion. You really could be her everything: and maybe if you said, stop, please, you won’t. She’d pause; look at you like you’re insane and maybe spit out what the actual fuck is wrong with you. Like the reality:

This doesn’t have to end, no?

“Sorry about your phone battery,” you tell her, brushing out the knot at the base of her skull. She exhales, goes soft; lets you tug lightly. “We’ll figure things out when Sana can actually text you, okay?”

“Dumbass. When it’s warmer and you drive down to meet her.”

“You’re not jealous,” you tell her. You’ve decided for her.

Tzuyu rolls, leans down on her back, smiling prettily-

“Nope,” she agrees, pulling your cock out: already hard, ready to cum down her throat. Her fingers pump soft, slow, the anticipation- “just not done.”

“Crazy.”

She shrugs and lets the silence calm the world around the two of you; at least for a little while. “Takes a certain kind,” she agrees.

“Permissiveness. Like what I’m seeing. Your brand or whatever.”

“It’s straight from the heart.” She shoots up, making a face you want to kiss. “Honestly.”

“Absolutely sincere,” you deadpan, and she ignores the jab.

“Tie a bow with my hair,” she chuckles, the laughter light, and your fingers graze her temple. “Come on. I’ll make you so proud. So pleased. Sir. Let me, let me-”

“Only if I can finish down your throat,” you retort - half-joking, but, her eyes grow warm, molten, the lust is immediate - you tip her head, lower it gently - she bites down onto her lip, nods a bit.

-

You don’t take her right away. Not at first. You’re trying to show some restraint, trying not to think about how Tzuyu wears clothes like a vice. She’s that kind of girl. Like an accident waiting to happen. She’s moving around the kitchen later, poking about the cabinets. She’s slid into some jeans that fit her a little too well, and one of those obscenely thin t-shirts.

You watch her back muscles work, how the cotton bunches as she leans, arms extending. Her chest’s flat against the counter to grab whatever item’s out of her reach. You catch the ribbon in her hair bob slightly back into place when she stands back up. The hairline on the nape of her neck catches a long highlight of a morning, the thin strands a brilliant brown, a spark of warmth in the midst of a muted winter morning - and it’s honestly amazing to look at.

(Her ass hangs out in the open like an invitation. Your eyes are running down every curve of denim like they can’t help but search.)

“Tzu,” is the warning, and she flashes a grin; turns, the expression shifting, wide. “I can literally see everything you have.”

“Hm.” The front of her shirt lowers, too - her black bralette, barely a scrap of lace and string, visible through the thin fabric. “If I’d known you’d like that so much, you could’ve told me earlier.”

“It’s not your job to figure me out.”

“Well, I’m not sorry.” The words are sugar sweet, with an almost fake concern: her feet pivot, her ass filling your vision- Tzuyu spreads her hands down her outer thighs.

“Be nice,” you reiterate. “C'mere.”

Her legs snap to you quick.

-

You are careful, tentative and slow. You leave the ribbon in place and everything; just your mouth, like you have a right to lick down her breasts, her stomach, her clit - like you deserve the faint marks where your hands pressed down onto her waist.

The slow licks, the soft kisses; you could eat her out until the sun sets and Tzuyu was left sobbing through the overstimulation. Her fingers rake your hair like it’s exactly what she’s hoping you’ll do.

When Tzuyu does let go: she doesn’t drop. There is no shame, nor shameful whimpers. Instead, she fucking screams, so high and clear it doesn’t seem possible: a singer’s wail.

“Sir!” she’s crying, you can feel it through every tremble. “Oh my god, please-”

You get her to climax twice before the tears fall, your fingers tracing her spine, pressing deeper, a knuckle, then two-

She looks at you in abject reverence, “God, you don’t know,” is the gasp, “how perfect you are,” and you’re sure. You’ll never get it right again: at least, not without her.

She cums a third time, shivering, collapsing: her eyes wide, glossy, breath shallow, limbs giving in. The sweat clings to her like a lover, a life she doesn’t know how to leave.

So, you ask:

“What now, doll?”

Her tongue sweeps the corner of her mouth, a tiny wrinkle.

“Whatever,” Tzuyu exhales. “Fuck, whatever, seriously, that was like- amazing- but my throat is actually going to murder me.”

“Was the screaming really that necessary.”

“Not sure- about anything,” is the groggy admission, “like, honestly. Too horny to care, but.” She pauses for a second. “You,” she finally decides.

“I,” is the immediate reply.

“I’ll let you do - anything, but I- can I, like, get a breather? For a minute. Can you wait, like, just.”

Her arms open: you settle against her side, and a shaky hand starts combing through your hair. Her other palm lifts to rest against your cheek, cupping it. The nails tap gently along your hairline. 

“Been waiting so long, Tzu, honey,” and it doesn’t sound as cruel or glib as the slip up should be construed - doesn’t even bother to count on forgiveness, either. Maybe you’re beyond all of that, honestly, and more or less in love, as a result. It’s kind of fucked. What’s a minute more?

She laughs softly, a cough catching up and sounding pained. She’s lost her voice, the poor thing, she’s cummed herself hoarse and ragged and you’re proud of your handiwork.

“Honey,” you hear her say, and she shakes, pulls herself closer, kisses you back: like the old, gentle motion can ever fully cure the fever of desire that grips the two of you. It’s a pipedream, and you’re kissing her. It’s a pipedream, and you know it.

-

The calls start coming in after the sun sets and the cabin grows cool with the dark: you feel, faintly, that it’s inevitable. That the snow would clear and time would start marching on, a predetermined cycle. (That, maybe, something in the universe - at this stage, almost a hundred years of weather, tectonic plates, astronomical phenomena, interconnected - knew the two of you needed that bit of seclusion.)

“I dunno, just some bog-standard hotel, holiday suites or something. The point is: the roads don’t open until tomorrow and I’ve been holed up for a while.” Sana sighs into the phone. The static pops. “Oh my god, I’m bored out of my mind. I’ve had like, three full bags of crisps in one sitting, which is just plain wrong.”

“You’re basically living off carbs.” You say this from in front of the fireplace. Tzuyu is sitting on the opposite side of the couch paging through a stack of magazines, wearing a big jumper and sweats and socks pulled up to her knees. Her hair is falling around her shoulders in soft waves, and it makes her look small and domestic and a bit docile - she’d re-tied the ribbon in her hair after you’d fucked it off her, and that more or less completes the look.

“Yes, I have gone off the deep end. A tragic, awful spiral. Because you’re not here. Fuck, you have no idea.”

“Ah- Sana.” You stop. Take a deep breath.

“Do you have any idea? The state of me right now? seriously. I packed so many fucking condoms and the idea of bringing them back home is more defeating than anything else.” She lowers her tone a little, then adds, “because, not to be weird, I was kinda sorta hoping we might use them when I got up there.”

You blink. Tzuyu isn’t even pretending to look anywhere else. Her whole face is shifting into a satisfied expression, and when she catches you looking, she winks.

“Right. Now this might sound like a surprise,” Sana is continuing, her voice full of amusement, “but when I get stuck somewhere, alone and thinking about the weather- I’m often in need of a fuck. Please be prepared to service, because god damn, I’ve got nothing and it’s gonna have to be the battery.”

“Is that Sana?” Tzuyu interrupts, the tone hushed, but lofty.

You make a face, like: who the fuck else - but that makes her smirk; Sana sighs, then laughs.

“So if you like, you know. If you feel like the vibe is there. I’d appreciate the hand out.”

Tzuyu walks over: sets herself down between your feet and kisses your knee. Just to fuck with you. Because she wants to. She holds the kiss, the bow in her hair, done up tight and shiny, visible. You want to tug the stupid thing until it unravels; all your fingertips, her lips, and she sighs-

“Oi,” Sana’s saying on the line. You can hear her crash onto her bed. “You still there?" 

"I’m sorry,” you say, “are you uh, asking for phone sex - or did I totally read that all wrong.”

“Nope. Pretty direct.” Sana laughs, and the sound should make it easy to close your eyes, picturing it: a silver smile, the low slung skirt and a stretch of stockinged leg, the twinkle of a drink as the ice hits her mouth. It’d be easy, y'know, if your gaze wasn’t pinned on the girl who’s settled at your feet.

“Oh, jesus, okay,” you manage to breathe. Tzuyu hums a little: reaches for your fly. “Is there anything, anything that you want me to do?”

Sana’s laughter drops to a murmur: the air goes heady as Tzuyu parts the zipper and rolls down the waist of your pants- “ask me what I’m wearing, duh.”

“Boring,” Tzuyu breathes into the air. Because apparently Sana’s defining trait is being loud. The kiss to your clothed cock is hot, teasing - her eyes never lift away, “always, always start with, 'darling, sweetheart,’ or something stupid, sweet.” Her tone is pure syrup: you can feel the warm, the wet; a fucking tease, all the way to her core.

“What are you wearing, darling?” you ask, dryly. Tzuyu rolls her eyes.

Sana’s grin widens and you swear it’s audible, “oh, just these boring pajamas.” She draws it out slow and sexy and completely aware. “It’s all loose cotton, and it doesn’t hang off me, just folds.”

“Is it the type that comes down to the mid-thigh? The white kind, where you can see through to the skin?”

“That’s a little presumptive, don’t you think? A bit on the nose? Yeah, fine, I’m wearing the kind, if you absolutely insist. These legs, bare. Maybe you’d want to bite. Y'know. Mark 'em’. Whatever.”

Tzuyu is kissing the outline of your shaft. Pulling your hard-on out from its confines - all gentle and tentative. Her pretty brown eyes dart upward, gauging: okay, just do your thing - you shrug - but it’d be so helpful if you could scoot to the end of the cushion for me, can you-

“Yeah,” you’re agreeing into the phone, somewhat vague - to no one in particular. You don’t give Tzuyu just an inch; instead, you lift your thighs toward her. Sliding, Tzuyu pulls your pants down: enough. There’s a delicate pressure applied at the bottom of your cock, right at the base, right where Tzuyu drags her nails. “Let’s have that show off a little,” your breath comes shallow, “then. Strip, real slow. We can try for something sexy I guess.”

“You,” Tzuyu kisses the base and shuffles up the rest of your shaft, “just love bossing people around,” then her lips part: the slightest graze, then warmth, the faint suction. “Don’t you?”

“Uh-huh,” says Sana, and then the rustle of cloth: and you could imagine her, really, lifting the shirt up, off, sliding it along the inside of her ribs, over the tips of her breasts - she’d cup them, lean into the contact. Sana’s hands are always on her tits, or the spread of her hips - she likes the shape of her body more than anyone else. “Sometimes, that’s the best way,” she tells you. Her breath is hot, full of sex. “Being told what to do. Isn’t that true, hm?”

Tzuyu tilts forward, lets your cock drop over her bottom lip. It leaves a smear of spit in its wake, the sensation electric. Her head falls, swallows the whole of the tip: her tongue immediately swirls. A hot little pulse. Her cheeks hollow.

“Yeah. Some could probably argue,” your breath catches, the weight of the sensation, the fullness, your hips arch, your spine straightens. The electricity goes through your stomach and down your spine; you can feel the wave rolling along. Tzuyu giggling into the stiff line of your cock-

“Telling us both?” Tzuyu smiles again, running her lips slowly up and down the sides, teasing with her breath and her fingers running down the ridges. “What you want.” She hums low, into the hot air.

You press your phone to your neck. “Can you, like-

Tzuyu pulls her mouth off your cock. Just sits there blinking. “Hm?” she asks, tugging a strand of her hair from the corner of her mouth.

“Just please stay quiet, or something- this is already harder than I thought it would be,” the joke is as unsubtle as they come, “jesus, okay-” and put the phone back to your ear, “shit, Sana- can you, like-”

Her fucking mouth. The seal, the press - the tongue swirling around your head. Fuck.

“Yeah, babe? What do you want to know?”

The words aren’t coming and a very obvious swallow is, Tzuyu leaning closer, and her fingers tangle with yours - guiding you closer, guiding your hand to the ends of her hair.

“Explain,” is somehow where you land, shaky. You stick the landing just enough that Sana might buy it. “What are you doing now?”

“Slow circles. On my nipples, pinching,” her voice strains, then settles,“yeah, the tip’s so sensitive. Jihyo was laughing that guys always obsess over her tits. Always wanna suck, or nibble and I’m like, girl, what the hell are you complaining for?” - Tzuyu inhales a huge breath, and then another: her lips, those eyes - open and glossy, every movement steady like she knows just how to make the wait worth it - “or, or maybe I’m just weird, because the first time I felt someone’s teeth and their tongue. Fuck, like, I almost screamed. Or, cried. Literally.”

“Hah,” and Tzuyu brings her lips lower. Moves her hair gently out of the way to take the rest of you into her mouth: bobbing up, her lips puckering in some rhythm, and her tongue darts, swirls the edge of the cock. Tongue at the slit. The pressure. Fuck, your head falls back. Every breath sounds heavy, loud. “Fingers,” you huff, “are good too I’m sure. I’d be paying close attention. Making you feel good.”

“Mhm.” Sana agrees. “The little pinches, ugh, I could die happy if you did just that, it’s that fucking amazing.”

“Baby,” you half-moan. You’re struggling. The mouth stops, then sinks: down, all the way. Fucking amazing. Fucking hell.

“Oh?” Sana laughs airly, “are you touching yourself, hm? No fair, are you going to leave me all lonely here-”

You can see that smirk. The fuckery that would come: Sana’s version.

“Sir,” Tzuyu mumbles, sounding muffled. Her mouth is a tight vise of warmth, and your hand threads through her hair again. You hold, tighten the ribbon a bit, and Tzuyu stares at you through half-lidded eyes: you don’t think she’ll blink until you make her cry, and by then-

“Fuck,” Sana says, totally flat, “I’m actually pretty wet,” the emphasis, “so I’d like some real advice, y'know-”

You see her legs. The tops. The bottom, all the way down- and you inhale sharply, too much and too hard.

Tzuyu has her fist at the base of your cock and her palm is sliding down the slick flesh and, a moment later, up, meeting her mouth at the top of its stroke - and, without a goddamn care, she hollows her cheeks - puckers her lips along the surface.

You were right. “This is hell.”

Sana hums a laugh. “Need me that bad, huh? We’re missing each other by just a couple days.”

You stroke the top of Tzuyu’s hair, her bow bobbing in a nice little bounce. Sana would know better than to wear her hair up. To even go near this, her throat - you hold her jaw steady, maybe a second, the moment of recovery to make Tzuyu slow and careful: her tongue does a pass at the sensitive, rigid underside of the crown, the sudden movement - before she speeds up.

“Picturing your hand.” She tells you in a languid tone.

“God,” you half-say, half-moan, and Tzuyu is good. So fucking good, and the mouth is too damn eager and it’s difficult to think.

You barely get your hand free to switch to speaker, then let it clatter to the side. Tzuyu grinning, her lips flushed red and wet and dragging over your cock, sliding down, her tongue doing another pass, swirling at the center, the flare-

“Thinking about you, actually, fuck,” Sana has a hitch to her breath that wasn’t quite there before. “Doing those things, that mouth all over, Jesus Christ - ah- my legs, my breasts, fuck- are you jerking off right now? You sound, well, pretty uh, yeah.”

“Just saying,” you breathe, as the shock and the sensations rise and fall; Tzuyu’s edging you in her mouth, her own head starting to shake, her chin bobbing up and down the full, long line of your dick - she’s never done anything by halves. “It’s getting- I’m thinking about you, Sana, of course, and your- pretty cunt, god, of course, so- ah, close- you said you were wet?”

“Huh? Of course, dripping. Imagining you - your thick, your cock,” Sana sorta giggles, out of it then-

Tzuyu moans. Her body is pliant and her shoulders roll; she sucks, her cheeks dip, her back arches, and all of the noises hit the air thick, all while Sana’s voice sharpens - both girls, two. You’re slipping off the cushion, and probably out of your mind. The ache builds and burns and yearns for some sort of release- 

“-how wet and tight I would feel, after so fucking long. Please, fuck, fuck-” you hear Sana, “would you, fuck, c'mon, how I would look, on top of you? Could feel- the stretch, your cock deep inside. The, fuck- friction.”

There’s this beat, where it’s just Sana’s stiff breathing; you can picture her wrist between her thighs, the pump, the twist as her fingers run over and over again through the sound of her slick. You’re left wondering if she can hear too, the mouth trailing kisses along your balls, tongue gliding back up and swallowing your length whole.

“Mnph.” Tzu chokes down a little.

And you look down, you have to eventually - to see the steady stare. Tzuyu’s brows pinched and her eyelashes fanning out over the hollowed curve of her cheekbones. Pretty, fuck. Beautiful. So sexy: she looks up, swallows you back, like a fucking slut. Her mouth, wet, messy, hot, and her body-

“Third finger, by the way,” Sana strains, “'cause- fuck, my pussy - my tight little hole would be swallowing your cock so damn good.”

“Mmm, fuck.” You’re reduced to your base instincts, pulling Tzuyu’s hair, dragging her wet, velvety mouth onto your shaft - she follows willingly, no question of her pace slowing, but - more, and more, and you could probably cum in her mouth if her hands weren’t clasped firmly over your thighs and you weren’t brushing away the tears pricking the ends of Tzuyu’s lashes- you won’t tell. Not with your fingers. Fuck. Her nails bite at the skin of your bare legs. She looks angry, insistent. Choking.

Sana sounds just as out of sorts, out of breath, “you would feel so fucking good. Look so good. Let me have it- whatever I need, yeah?” And you think she’s close: it’s that keen edge, a faint, broken whine. She’s never going to finish any way except- “would you, inside me? Y'know- make me cum, real full. God- are you close? Would you make a mess out of me? Of my pretty pussy?”

“Okay, holy fuck-“ and the question barely even hits you. 

Tzuyu is glaring now, shaking: she wants you to lose it, and she looks furious, holding her fingertips, her thumb on the base of your cock: a new pressure, a new feeling, a new pulse, a new high- she wants you to forget about Sana, maybe. What she sounds like, how she looks. Her legs wide, her bare, slicked skin on display. For you, yes. Fucking her until she- "uh, baby,” and this time, your voice makes her smile, and her teeth drag. You wince. Her pupils are blown out, and there’s a flush building in her chest. “Where are you?”

“Laying down. Flat- god. Where I’m always-” and you imagine a plane of soft, tanned, toned legs, her wide hips, “I’d, yeah, in a second. Pressure at my back- it would feel so fucking good, y’know, if you were here.”

You have no doubt in your mind: Sana would be gorgeous. Even from the back, she’ll be hotter, fuck, she always is, especially like that - and the movement of Tzuyu’s fingers tightens against the straining, needy ache, and- 

“Please, fuck, fuck- need to-”

“Would cum- a lot, that’s it- over my back. Oh, yes, all over my back. My ass. Messy. fuck that’s actually so good, jesus christ-” and then Sana lets out another soft keen and a shout - and it’s so sweet and high-pitched and familiar, almost musical; she’s cumming, hard. You’re only a second, a third behind and-

Your balls draw tight and a coil in your stomach unfurls-

Tzuyu sees you, grins, your eyes trained on the pink of her mouth and her perfect, wet lips and the deep brown eyes - her dimpled cheek is the softest fucking thing - but the rest, her mouth, her wet heat: it’s pure sensation. The tight vise of a throat swallowing, the taste on the flat of her tongue. You’ve got your cock shoved deep in her mouth, and you’re not easy to take. Fucking Tzuyu’s face, thrusting and the throbs of your cock pumping out a hot, heavy spill. More and more: sticky, filling, spreading out from the corners of her lips. Tzuyu gurgles, struggling - fuck, finally letting go with a weak pop, falling back, and the white mess runs hot over her mouth. Your release smeared across her lips, dripping off her jaw - fucking christ - her tongue, her eyelashes - a wild mess of fluid. It splatters against her pale skin - runs down the hollow of her throat to the edges of her chest. She has her fingers working fast still, a squelching tight fist: you cum all over the stupid, cutesy bow too. It’s all you see, the only thing-

“Fuck,” Sana says, oblivious. “That’s good.”

-before your eyelids shutter close, a ringing in your ears and your heart racing; and, not far, another sigh, followed by the slide of your phone down the couch.

“Aw, you done already?” Sana says. Lazily. You can see the look on her face, probably rubbing her pussy and thinking about more - if there’s any two ways the girls compare, it’s this allergic reaction to anything like temperance or moderation. You need new friends, new lovers; this can’t last.

“Uh-huh.” The back of your head digs into the couch cushions. Fuck. Sana. Phone. On speaker. Oh. Right. Shit. “But I was- mnph. Uhh.” Your brain has lost a lot of blood. It’s doing nothing. Nothing but losing blood. You wish it’d stop. “I’m here, Sana, talk to me.”

Sana giggles at that, delighted, “don’t tell me you’re in such bad shape I need to save you-”

“The uh,” your voice slurs. Then you’re pulling the phone to you, closer. Fuck. Yeah. You’re an idiot. Your breath is heavy: “I could go for more, yeah, how’re you feeling?”

“So fucking tired.” Her breathing sounds less ragged. A full breath. A pout: a poor me.

“Hmm.” Tzuyu crawls onto you. Slides the fabric of your shirt between her palms, up and down your ribs. She pushes the sweater and tee away. Bares your stomach- then kisses there. Lower, and then rises, looking through her lashes. It’s clear: a demand. She’ll be insisting, pressing down on you, kissing, running her teeth along the edges of your shoulders, your neck. She’ll kiss you right now if you let her - until she sinks into a promise at the center of your body. Your back is arching off the leather from the sensitivity, and Tzuyu has her lips all over you - smiling when your hands tangle with the long strands of her hair.

She pauses. You drop a hand to Tzuyu’s waist. Pinch.

“Ow-” she says, coming across slightly betrayed. 

And, satisfied with the expression her face, the phone cradled between your chin, her lips warm over your ribs, her head tickling the edges of your jaw, you keep laughing, or you want to, but Tzuyu takes you between her thighs, lifts a little on your cock - her eyes widen: she’s testing your flexibility. Trying to drag this out, trying for teasing. She’s good at that (a verifiable truth), but you’re you - you see right through it: she likes how it feels, the thickness and size of you. Tzuyu keeps sliding slowly down the full length, letting you fill her inch by inch - her slick heat feels unbearable.

“God,” she mutters, and she’s making the dreamiest expression - the blush in her cheeks, the eyelids hung low, the mouth slightly agape - she lifts up, then slams all the way to the base, flush. You grab anything you can to hold onto. Her legs. Her ass. Her thighs. Her jaw. That perfect little fucking waist.

She’s sublime. Your cock is bathing in her slick, the wet heat, the throbbing pulses - she’s gasping in your lap, like she can’t believe how good you feel filling her cunt.

“Sana,” you grit, “there’s- nothing else in the world I’d rather do right now than shove my cock-” 

“Ugh,” Sana sighs in agreement, in imaginary bliss. “In my little fucking pussy- you’re making me miss you, or something, jesus-”

You squeeze her thigh and her lips quirk, just barely, a challenge.

"Want put a nice thick load” - the hand on Tzuyu’s hip brings her down in your lap, fucking up hard as her chest racks with breath - “in your slutty little cunt” - you fuck her faster, the sounds of flesh against flesh obscene - “fill up your pussy, princess. Would cum in it until” - and the last inch of your cock, filling Tzuyu’s cunt, you’ve no control - “you’re a mess, you’re dripping in it-”

Tzuyu’s movements still. A pause. Her hips. Your own, and all the rest, every nerve in your body is on fire. 

She moves with the most graceful slide, her wet lips gliding - gripping - up your cock. Then, down. The quiet. The lull. The pause before she does it again. She has cum all over her face, and she’ll kill you. You’ll let her.

“God. We’ll have to get around to it,” Sana finally tells you, dryly, “when this fucking snow clears. Say hi to Tzuyu for me won’t you?”

-

You’re not a bad person. 

(The reassurance that you aren’t - or don’t want to be? - is probably still not super convincing. There’s some line drawn there, blurred, crossed, and thoroughly annihilated by your actions, you think, vaguely, but maybe it’s better if no one sees, hears, finds out. The finer details matter a lot less at that point.)

You’re like anybody else: you get desperate to hold onto something, somebody, even for just a moment. Sometimes you don’t even need a reason at all.

Tzuyu is stepping out of the shower, her head bobbing: it takes everything in you not to drag her back in there. She’d let you. She wouldn’t even complain.

You can hear the catch and the slide of a bath towel, the wisp of water hitting the bottoms of her feet and trailing, an exaggerated moan - a gesture, meant to entice, a suggestion: fuck her right back in the shower until her hair is plastered to her cheeks, and she’s panting. Or the steam lifts her breasts in a gentle, humid press. That mouth on the tiles - sobbing.

“Tzu,” you call out, and she just continues humming some indifferent tune. 

You pull a thick sweater over your head: it’s gray wool, and it’s all clean and good and new. When she wraps her arms around you, a deep inhale: a grin, then a shiver. She’s naked and dripping everywhere, wet hair leaving a trail in its wake. She burrows her face in the folds of fabric at your spine - and if you turned, the slightest movement, the smooth line of her torso would be exposed, and your fingers could trace down her belly button, the tips dipping between her legs-

The window is fogging at the bottom, the steam slipping out in tendrils - but the heat can’t compete against the girl all wet and dripping, and it does nothing but give way to the cold, seeping in.

“I still think it’s funny,” she says, all matter of fact. “It’s weird that this isn’t awkward.”

“What’s that?”

She’s at the doorway.

“Us. Being here.”

You turn, and Tzuyu pulls at your sweater: looking for attention, always seeking out the easy praise. Her hand automatically slides beneath the cloth of your collar, drawing your jaw up for a short, hard kiss.

“Okay,” and there’s a small nod, the line of her throat pulsing as she breathes, “yeah,” her chest rising and falling.

“Look at you,” you tell her. “All dry and tidy. Cute. ”

A dumb comment earns you the tiniest smile, then she’s leaning back, taking her hands to her hair and wringing out the water, pulling and tugging at the tangles - the towel wraps around her waist again and again, and she looks good, clean: it makes you think of what comes later. Not having to give a fuck - at least not for a little while.

“Jeez,” she’s shivering, still, and rubbing the tops of her arms, “and Sana is gonna be, like, all over you once she gets the chance. Wants a nice lay too, from the sound of it. Was being honest about that. Seems pretty pent up.”

“Maybe you can help,” you offer, a bit flippant. She smiles - but in all seriousness, it’s a resounding: no.

There’s something else, too, as she runs her fingertips, absently, through her hair - it falls flat on her neck and around her bare shoulders, dark against the lightness of her skin, but somehow you get the impression that she’s not entirely preoccupied. “Y'know, I had a really good time and all, but I’m not the homewrecker type, yeah - it’s not worth the stress,” a slight shrug, like she isn’t certain, her mind a little more tangled than usual, and for good reason, too, “probably won’t hook up ever again.”

“Gloomy,” you tease.

“Don’t act like you’re not going to miss it,” she says, conspiratorial - and Tzuyu plants herself where you can feel her in your space - but she doesn’t press. “Even when you’re keeping busy, you’ll have the smallest reminder, like - aha, Tzuyu would’ve really liked this, or that - when, y'know - you’re stuck somewhere, thinking about the weather,” and her cheeks are heating with color as her tongue forms the syllables - and the meaning is clear now as it always was.

“Even if you’re like, totally smitten, or whatever with her,” she adds, smirking.

“Sana will be back to her usual antics in no time. Being annoying and forward and whatever,” you reply. “Won’t miss much.”

The girl’s expression flickers a little - a slight twitch - but otherwise, a flat look.

She fixes the lay of her towel across her wide hips. You reach for her arm: pull at it, pulling her toward.

“I mean- Sana and I have a few things in common, anyway. Something in common. Can both be a spoilsport. Dull. Can be a bit, uh, territorial, if you you know-”

The rest is cut off, the words running into a kiss, deep and desperate; there’s no place like her mouth: soft, eager, hot.

“And our usual antics?” she asks.

She leans into you, the chill starting to set, a fire burning nearby: something clandestine that maybe shouldn’t last as long as it does. A log settling against the others, another plume of heat, and you say, a touch solemn,

“Dunno if we’ve ever been in common about anything, babe.”

“Jeez. You don’t have to spell it out like that, do you?” Tzuyu laughs lightly, holding the bath towel at her hips - her breasts are bare. They fall without support, her nipples, the slope of her ribs, everything. “I mean, how cruel.”

(It isn’t really. Because, here’s the thing. In the grand scheme of things, Chou Tzuyu was never really supposed to happen at all.)

-

The snow clears, like all things you suppose, slowly and with a sigh: with the change in winds and a promise for a gradual spring. Tzuyu steals a shirt. Doesn’t seem inclined to return it, says she’s good at letting her imagination do half the work in lieu of the actual sex. (The nip is like a sting: it’ll last longer, apparently. The bruising at the edges of her waist is more abstract.)

You’re in the driveway. Tzuyu’s leaning back on her luggage.

She kisses you like she wants to make you lose something: her lipstick, her mind, her heart or soul. And when her arms slide, her mouth parting - her tongue darting and sweeping, taking - Tzuyu knows a good many things about herself. She knows you, too. What makes her wet, what gets her off. What part of you will always come back to her. But her hair falls heavy: so much silk. She’s laughing - a grin and she’s licking the pink right off her teeth and she’s beautiful and you think you’ll want this always:

A girl like her, kissing so eager for you-

“You can totally say it first,” she tells you, that mouth at the edge of your ear.

“Um,” you say, and she settles down a little further, her wrists locked behind your neck. “You are so: clingy.”

The look she gives you is adorable. All dimple, no worry. “Yeah, so?”

“How is that fair?”

“I don’t really care if it is or isn’t. We’d be good together - and that’s a fact. So say something good, or I’m getting in that cab right now.”

So you do. You do. The first word, the syllable, the way you ask her, the sound that is something like: mine, and the way it dries the edge of your throat; you kiss it away and she giggles because maybe this means, after a while, you really are as terrible as she always hoped.

She’ll give you everything. She says, yours, and it would always be you; she halts a bit, and says it like she’s thawing a revelation, one that’s been there since the start - says she loves you and she always has. You laugh and she says it again: always.

-

Sana ends up standing in the cabin a day later. The same place you stood, watching Tzuyu lick yogurt off her spoon. Her coat looks expensive. There’s her purse. The boots. That red-painted mouth. Her eyes are fixed, and she sees nothing out of the ordinary. Which is probably, you think, ideal.

“That’s funny,” her face betrays nothing.

The cabin smells a little like burning wood, vaguely: peppermint tea. An electric kind of heat and the warmth of the sun. It had smelled like evidence prior, the way a girl gets with her underwear missing, hair a tangled mess, body sore and aching, a wet bed. You’d looked like a pair of kids caught in a terrible storm, a lovers’ quarrel in a small space - or, just: well-fucked.

“What’s funny?” is how you finally manage.

“I just mean,” she starts again, “she used to have like. The craziest crush on you. It would’ve been cute if it wasn’t sorta sad. Did you know? You couldn’t, I guess.” She shrugs: a heavy lift of her shoulders, a release. The tension is leaking everywhere. “Must’ve been torture for her to get stuck here with you.”

“Huh,” you say, like you were missing something, which is exactly the wrong tone and definitely the wrong sentiment. “Oh, the crush. That. Sure.” You’re suppressing a smile. “Torture, yeah. Hey. Don’t worry about it. I’m sure we’ll be fine.“

-

(You can’t stop running it back through your head, her long dark hair disappearing into the cab. She loves you and you love her, and it’s got this beautiful caveat of being something simple-complex. Like, who would ever believe any of this? Like, who else even matters? 

You say, you belong to me, and she agrees without even thinking. 

“You always knew, though. From the start, you always did. I was never going to be anyone else’s,” and then she pouts. “Wouldn’t hurt telling me, from time to time.”

And the mountains have a way of feeling like the end, sounding like the closing score, the credits - you look out at the white caps and reflect: maybe you shouldn’t have let her go. Maybe you should chase after her. Maybe you could still make it work. Maybe you should consider that a promise.

You look up at the sky, the pale blue - and maybe you can afford to let her go. 

You know you’ll only find your way back.)

PRAXIS

male reader x irene

23k words

"A girl could walk in and mistake this for an affair," you remark, and Irene smiles up at that.

The sound of city traffic underneath your open window makes for an uncertain backdrop - though the browns of her eyes glimmer caramel in the dying light. Something sweet, the beginnings of an addiction if you'll let her.

"A girl could walk in," Irene says, "but, she never does."

It was not a good idea, of course, to keep doing this where the whole world could see, where your shadows and silhouettes make lurid shapes against the blinds, but your office is small and the lighting is soft and Irene keeps pushing up onto her tiptoes, pressing you flat against your desk, trying to kiss you, and you won't be able to stop her - or want to, not when she's already leaning into you with her arms loose around your hips, her eyelashes heavy, her mouth a pink line of want against her smile.

It's inevitable, maybe.

Here's what they might catch in the exact moment, in a not-so-distant memory:

Your heartbeat, quiet and slow and distant, like there's too much blood for it in your veins, your skin electric-pulsing underneath Irene's, the feel of her leg hitched up your waist, your hand wound tightly in her ponytail. The tiny sigh of a smile at the corner of Irene's lips, like you're tickling her somehow - you'll stop if she really wants you to, but - she doesn't. She never does.

Why wouldn't we want to be mistaken for something? is what you're supposed to hear; she's too haughty, too proud. Someone could catch you. She'll never come out and admit, just what would anyone do, if they did?

So yeah. It's complicated.

You give a little, Irene pulls back. You do your damndest not to push. You hate how goddamn easy it is to convince yourself of anything, everything - whatever the lie. Irene isn't ignoring you. She doesn't ignore the texts you send her. You don't need to make plans more than two hours in advance. Mixed signals are such a misunderstood phenomenon: she can just be shy, sometimes. Maybe she doesn't want to intrude. She was nervous, but she felt really fucking good on top of you - maybe next time, the guilt will be a bit less for both of you.

It's just sex, she says once to you after; there's no strings attached. How could it get ever more perfect than that?

-

(And she's right. You know she's right, or at least you very well should.

See, you've been talking for hours about how you shouldn't be talking for hours on end. Kissing her after a conversation you'd had around the fact you'd both be better off as friends.

So how's that gonna sound, anyway? Here, go on, try saying it:

Bae Irene? Yeah, met her on the subway - that's the story, the reason you know her; you got on a train one day and she was the prettiest person there. You were both headed to the same place. You're just not sure when that's gonna change.

And well, the way you see it: you'd feel so much lighter, like a feather, with her off your mind.)

-

To be candid, you can't really pin down how any of this started. The logistical details, sure. However the suggestion, the sex, the seclusion - these things, not so much.

Somedays, if you squint, it plays out rather predictably. You'll be going about your business, a particularly average day everything considered, or - well, mostly. Today, there are just the two minor caveats:

First off, your key grinds in the lock when you jam it in. That part is pretty normal, but to your surprise, the door is already very much open.

So, that's odd, you think. That's very odd. You slide inside, cautious, and as you call out an even more cautious "hello?" you realize all the lights are on - so either you've been robbed or are currently in the state of being robbed by someone with suboptimal visual acuity. A disability-washed-burglar. Not to minimize crime, of course, but that'd be interesting, you think, or representative perhaps? Maybe.

Alternatively,

Irene's let herself into your apartment again. It's quite plausible.

She's not great at the whole 'asking permission' thing, though she swears every time it'll never happen again. You peek around your foyer: there's her coat, her heels, her shirt, a handbag - all strewn about the hall like she'd been raptured and left a delicate trail of destruction, which does sound a lot like the Bae Irene you've known forever.

(Okay, six, seven months isn't forever - but you get the gist; the general principle still applies.)

Now another, horrifying option is that both theories are true, simultaneously. A home invader has in fact gotten to Irene. In the middle of robbing the place. How terrible, how awful, how genuinely macabre, what a genuinely-

"Yeah, hey," you hear, followed by a heavy, sloshing thunk. "Welcome home or something."

Sure enough, as you enter the kitchen you spy your truly awful vision being confirmed. One of them, anyway. There is your incredibly hot (this is in reference to Irene), extremely fashionable (same boat as before, honestly), dangerously intelligent (yes) and notorious rulebreaker of an (it really bears emphasis on how hot and fashionable and stylish said rulebreaking often is) acquaintance as per her standard. Irene. A roguish and impossibly captivating conglomerate of trouble with a mild attitude and perfect posture; as a collection, she's a collection you want, a package you intend to keep, an accessory you'd die for. That, and a kettle on the stove apparently, so she can make you tea while you languish on the floor, and you could live like that forever, or so the dream goes.

Also right, the second caveat: there's the robbery. She's stolen a button-up out of your closet.

And look - she's actually so much prettier than she has any business being. Hair up in a messy bun, lips painted light. Nail polish starting to fade. She's still in her nylons and a tight little pencil skirt and you can't really complain. You'd need to be legally dead.

"Hi," Irene says, and the burner sputters to life. "Where'd you go?"

"The bank. And then I had to return books," you say, shucking off your jacket. "You know, I wasn't aware anyone else was living here."

"Excuse you," Irene replies. She turns, leans her forearms on the counter; the shirt buttons are misaligned, but she makes it look like a stylistic consideration - how the sleeves are pushed past her elbows and the neckline has already slipped down one of her dainty shoulders.

She has your clothes. She has an irritatingly winsome half-smirk. The clock above the stove says it's barely even 9 PM.

"Do you get your mail forwarded here, too?" You shuck off your jacket. "To further clarify, why not call first? Maybe text? Hell, smoke signals could do."

"Because it's a hell of a lot easier to ask you for forgiveness," Irene tells you, knowing, "asking for permission gets me nowhere," and then grabs a mug from the cupboards. She seems to know where everything is already. "I don't know why you get so bothered about it, honestly, what should I do? Call you and say, wow, babe, I am planning on letting myself into your apartment, sorry, yeah, I was thinking we could - ah fuck - you know what, I am irreparably, incomprehensibly horny."

"Nice vocab."

"Thanks," Irene says, beaming, and even tips up her chin to show it.

You notice that you actually match right now, since it is, technically, your shirt. Sure, your collar's a little stiff - and she's barely able to keep the fabric from folding and spilling over her lithe frame, but that hardly matters. It's so ungodly hot. She could wear anything - or, probably, nothing, if you're being honest.

And you are, mostly.

So you pad into the space right behind her to tell her some truths, the things you think - but she spins on her heel before you get the chance to grab her, which is a pity; you'd love to do that, maybe just push her flat to the wall. You know, if she'd let you. She would. Probably. You'd ask, definitely, but you're thinking you wouldn't even have to.

Irene crosses her arms. The collar keeps slipping. You see her collarbone, smooth. She is flawless, no fucking wonder. You are almost terrified of her at times.

"How do you know I'd have said no?" you ask, and it sounds a little sweet - then there's you noticing an old bruise along her throat, where her shoulder dips down; that was probably your doing, probably from this week, last Saturday maybe? Her skin seems softer somehow, looks like her makeup was fresh at the beginning of the day and the end of the night, that kind of evening smudging. She's smiling with her nose crinkling up.

She doesn't react when you press in closer.

"Really." You're waiting for her. Probably waiting for her to kiss you, to reach up on her toes and latch her wrists behind your neck, to reach her mouth to yours - though, she doesn't. Her breathing picks up, so it's almost like she doesn't have to, she's smiling at you so sharply. It's a rare win for restraint as far as your apartment is concerned.

"So then where lies the issue?" she asks, and then she simply waits on this smoldering sort of glance.

You can't help the laugh that follows. "I mean it's the principle of the thing."

Irene hums at that. She glances to the side. Toward the windows, back to you, and then all over your face.

"Then, allow me a principle," she finally says, staring straight at your mouth, real subtle-like. "Yes, I'm going to keep coming here. Probably a lot. I mean, unless you have an actual issue you'd be hardly one to talk: Mr. Keeps Do Not Disturb Active At All Fucking Times. I bet you're the last person to go through their voicemails, too."

"Guilty, but look - I hit critical mass, like, a thousand unheard messages ago. It's untenable and unreasonable. You should be offering me pity."

"You are ungovernable." Irene sinks back a bit against the countertop, slow, smooth and sinuous. "You're basically a hermit." She smiles at her own assessment, the grin growing with its truth. Her eyes sparkle in the low-light and her teeth bite at the bottom of her lip. The tea kettle starts to rattle.

"I think we're supposed to be discussing the breaking and entering here," you correct, dryly, and step a bit closer, "also just for the record, hermits are implied loners. And yet."

"And yet," Irene echoes, letting her voice trail away.

There's an uptick in the corner of her mouth, and she glances at you, quick, momentarily mirthless. You wait for the punchline, the verbal parry, the expertly timed jab-

"What?" asks Irene, and her face instead is all soft edges, light pink lips, and clear, uncomplicated eyes. She grabs for the end of her sleeve and folds it one more time down the slender length of her forearm. The watch on her wrist catches the light. "It's a decent theory."

This almost feels normal, you think, like a routine, something domestic - Irene leaving her things all over your apartment, Irene occupying your bathroom cabinets and the space on your shower rack that used to belong to a singular bar of soap. This is a tale of a typical hookup arrangement gone absolutely off the rails: sex for a night here, a dinner together there, a break from the monotony. You shouldn't even know Irene that well, you think, or nowhere near as well as you do - and somehow that didn't stop you from giving her a spare key to your apartment - or it didn't stop her from wanting the damn thing.

You try not to read too far into that last one, since you're probably the only idiot that hasn't noticed how smitten Irene has been from day fucking one. It's your fault, it's hers; there's a case to be made for either.

"You can see how a girl might walk in and jump to the wrong conclusions," you remark.

Irene laughs at that, "Oh yeah?" and her eyebrows raise, her lips pursing in an immediate half-smile - this hot little line that'll get kissed right off her mouth if she's not careful. She doesn't even pretend to react otherwise: that same brand of pleased, almost flirtatious - a bit unyielding. Pragmatic, maybe. Not fully on board, still keeping a distance, just an inch outside of what it could be. She never stops fucking with you. She's never anything but beautiful.

It's very unfair, if anyone's keeping track.

"You mean like an affair?" She laughs out loud. The mark at her temple dots the expression like an exclamation point. "Like me, as your mistress. That's fucking crazy."

"Satisfy my ego. Pretend that wasn't, in any conceivable world, the worst possible phrasing, but yeah. More or less," you say, "one which would, mind you, seem very poorly planned on both our parts, all things considered."

There's a pause where she scrutinizes your face; you stare evenly back. It's kind of a bluff. You are sort of a self-centered prick, on occasion, but you are not lying to this woman; you have no reason to. Maybe it's a gamble: to hope she understands you better than she ought to, or to wish she'd accept you in spite of that. To want her, in your home, at your leisure, a friend or something more.

Trying to materialize words for the immaterial is largely the dilemma.

"An affair, huh" Irene repeats slowly, tasting the word carefully, like she's trying it on for size - and she cants her hips towards yours. Her fingers had wrapped around the bottom of your tie at some point. "My goodness, that's like, so, so romantic of us."

"Also jesus, please, 'mistress' is horribly gauche," you say, and Irene tugs a little too hard and you step forward. The smug look on her face suggests, not entirely unpretentiously: how else, then, shall we call it?

"But look at me. I am in your kitchen, I'm wearing your clothes," she reminds you, with another tiny pull, which draws you so much nearer. You can feel your neck prickle. "That makes us quite close, wouldn't you agree, darling?"

"Dial it back," you tell her, because Irene's the only person in the world that can put so much stress on a single fucking word and get away with it.

But she's watching you, watching you still, intently. She looks good, smells somehow even better, You inhale her. There's this cloud of shampoo, fragrance, whatever she's decided to wear - citrus today, light. God, she's so fucking gorgeous.

"I'm still trying to scold you," you end up adding, because it won't go without saying.

"And I'm waiting for you to."

It's not the right answer, though your annoyance dissipates almost as quickly as it rises: Irene could probably charm her way out of anything if she really tried, maybe, and still make the entire world like her even better - so instead of responding, you just sigh, and sink further into her. She wraps your tie once around her knuckles, and tugs again, harder and pointedly, but it's not so hard that it hurts; you know she could manage that if she wanted. Irene just grins up at you, rosy in the face and pretty: no pain, just fun.

"Are you mad?" She tilts her head in and places her exhale right over yours. You could count her lashes if they'd stop fluttering. "Are you going to tell me you'll send me packing now? Just order me right the hell out of here and change the locks, do you mean it?"

"I would, definitely," you say, without so much as a beat missed. "If I weren't so busy being inconvenienced by the fact you're so goddamn pretty."

"Mhmm." Irene fits her lips to yours, murmuring, "exactly."

Her body presses and pushes up against you, and you're thinking again about Door A, Door B. Thinking about your future, her future: it doesn't mean anything. Who needs to dream, when Bae Irene's already such a walking daydream? Hypothetically - a wicked little fantasy if nothing else. She still can't fucking resist pulling away after just a second, just a touch too soon, and laughing right against your lips - even though, when you open your eyes again, her eyes are softly closed and she's leaning in for more.

The reality is: the two of you, inextricably, are bound in each other's pull. A binary star of (1) extremely talented, (2) equally charming colleagues that only accidentally get lost inside the same room: (3) office, (4) storage closet, (5) bedroom, (6) living room, (7) kitchen, (8) the little-used laundry nook. Your list keeps growing. It is exhausting, but maybe not the worst: not, actually, so bad-

Your hands flatten against the cool material of her skirt.

"I could," you mutter, trying so hard, "you know, stop this. Maybe."

"I actually happen to believe you," Irene's saying. Her teeth graze your chin. "But maybe you can try," she offers, not so helpfully, "just this once?"

The hem of her shirt slips up the long stretch of her leg. It doesn't move far before the bend of her knee has her pinned, skirt pressed flat to her thighs. You aren't exactly a gentleman, so you pull it to her waist as you press even closer. The nylon feels wonderful against her legs.

So you let it boil down to the instinctual, the obvious. To physicality: her hip against your own, her soft sigh as the kiss grows in strength. You wrap an arm around her middle; her hands cradle the sides of your jaw - the tip of her tongue brushing yours - then her fingers find their home on the nape of your neck. When you touch the inside of her thigh, across the smooth fabric, ghosting over the center - where the tension is tightest - her lips part a little. She shivers. You try not to smile about it.

"Slow?" you ask her, and the amusement feels unfair to her, even if it is your best attempt to appear thoughtful. She sinks her nails into your skin and her eyelids open slightly. They gleam. "Told me to try," you point out.

You touch her, feel the heat as she says, a little strained, "I did." She swallows. "I'm allowed to change my mind later, though."

"Fine," you relent, "then so am I."

She considers this briefly. Her lashes lower and raise. She nods.

And the teasing has to go somewhere. "Well," you murmur, and kiss the hinge of her jaw. "Mistress it is. Guess there isn't much left to work with, huh." And in any other context, these are the things that earn you another patented-glare, a toss of a pillow over the bedspread, a hard swat on the chest, an indignant 'well fuck you, I can't believe we're having sex!', an abject departure, a million things all at once - at its most dramatic and emotional: a maelstrom of verbal riposte.

Here, though-

She hikes her leg even higher around your hip. Her fingernails clench even sharper. Your tie falls down a button, to the crook between her neck and shoulder, and her hair comes free of its messy ponytail. The line of it skims over her breast, just so.

Irene sighs louder, and does that thing, a deepening in the middle of the noise that lets you know exactly how badly she wants you - this, you're getting familiar with, or the start of it at least, that fine-tuned way Irene wants someone when she doesn't even hesitate to show it. It was odd, and at first almost embarrassing to see. That might've even been part of the charm, you think: Irene could want to devour you. You were you - slightly interesting, and in her eyes, probably the most intriguing fuck - but whatever her reasons, it all clicked for Irene. She had a system to evaluate and adjust and execute. There wasn't room for wasted effort.

"Hey," she hums, low in her throat.

"Yeah," you say, lifting her right up onto the counter.

And see - there are these gestures, reminders, not always in good faith, where you make her feel small: Irene's wrists are suddenly so narrow, one right at the surface of the counter, fingertips cool at your collar, and her nail polish chipping a little at the edges. Your palm is larger, enveloping the high, broad arch of her hip, the sharp line of bone to muscle to sinew. She feels fragile, is what it is, a fine-boned little bird, a thin silhouette under her loose, borrowed shirt - it's almost poetic, a regular old fuckbuddy - a physical habit, and you know her, know how many inches, and you can find your favorite parts of her in the dark, but-

"Want your mouth," Irene's saying now. Her lips glistening, eyes liquid; you want to tell her that that's an indisputable victory, just objectively, even before the clothes fall.

"Tell me where to put it," you offer back, and watch the corner of her lips twitch up.

She runs her hand through the back of your hair, mussing it, the lazy drag of her nails, her heel right to your lower back. The light from the stove is doing her wonders, gold catching off the paleness of her skin. "Make yourself useful, I think, like on your knees."

You raise an eyebrow at her.

"Don't give me that look" - and Irene shrugs her shoulders back - the shirt falling more, the flat plane of her stomach - this jut of bone, the pretty contour of her ribcage, the stark outline of her body just under a few too many buttons.

"It just comes off a bit greedy," you say, letting the words twist, playing with the hem of her skirt between your fingers.

"Maybe because you reward that kind of behavior," Irene retorts immediately.

"You're spoiled," you laugh. "That's all. Just spoiled. Life must be great for you, do nothing and let someone else do everything."

It's another one of those, 'you fucking like it', and Irene smirks like the shape of her mouth here is foreplay enough alone. She might be onto something. Like the easy back-and-forth - how she's sharp as razor wire underneath you - a double-edged sword if the weapon knew the sheath.

You lean in. She places her palm flush to your heart, like she can measure exactly how long you're drawing this out with its steady thud. You know she'll repay it in turn: she thinks it's hot to jerk around with your emotions before she fucks you, like playing roulette with her orgasm, yours - a slow crawl, a nice burn. Her fingers curl.

"And here you said I was ungovernable."

Irene huffs, slightly. "You are still fucking talking."

"If I shut up, will you scream for me, sweetheart?"

You run a hand up her waist. There's this whiny intake of air. Then Irene says, soft and slow: "earn it."

(Maybe you shouldn't keep enabling her. Therein lies the problem. Okay, so maybe you like this particular problem.)

But she's tugging your tie out of the way before the words leave her lips. The distance you have between is scant, which seems to be fine, with the way she leans in as the last syllable drops off her tongue, kissing the corner of your mouth, impatient.

It takes approximately zero convincing to drop to your knees; that much has not changed. You glance up at her. Your hands curve to her waist, sliding up. It's funny - how your fingertips just brush under the billowy fabric, how the taut skin over her ribcage fills the length of your palms, and then a touch further. Perfect proportions, as Irene usually is; you're on your knees and that's by design.

Your thumb rolls over the outline of her nipple and it peaks, draws into a quick, rosy point beneath the flimsy cotton, like an open invitation.

Irene smiles lazily, gorgeous - and sinks back again against the countertop. Her feet land on your shoulders. The nylon in the bend of her ankle slides soft at your throat, gentle. "Waiting." She sighs a little. "Still, waiting."

You press a kiss over the nylon, the fabric underneath, teeth barred and tongue pushing. "You said slow," and the rest of you might as well catch on fire, just for borrowing a moment's composure. You can see yourself bringing her down to the floor, the kitchen tiles, spreading her legs and fucking her into the linoleum, scratching them up, making her cum as many times as she asked. But there's this heavy drag down your back, the nerves blooming. "So let me. I won't get distracted," you murmur - or don't, really - into the softness between her hip and waist, along her navel, the tight planes of her tummy. "I promise, I'll get there, baby."

She hesitates. The breath she holds back is a telltale pause.

And the first thing that really sinks into Irene's skin, besides yourself, is this: every last shred of hesitation she was waiting on, the self-control? Now gone. You've done nothing but serve its loss. She seems to sense her power; and in one blink, the act is apex. In a beat her nerves are recovered, and the nerves are fuel. A natural killer, an organic toxin, that same smile curving her lips, a pointed glint to her eyes.

"Baby, your mouth," Irene insists, her knees falling to the sides, "open. And yes," and a pause, or maybe an addendum, a double meaning in the downtime, "to be perfectly frank: free for me to use. To come and go as I please."

"Haven't left my fucking mind for a minute, sweetheart," you offer up right back, not bothering with restraint.

Irene clicks her tongue. "But yet, you don't ever do exactly as you're told-"

She hiccups, or something close to it - because you grab her ass, bring her hips closer, until you can sink your nails into the firm give of flesh.

Irene looks down at you, eyes just wide, and - ah.

She sighs. Sighs because she knows - you can find god in everything; that's the goal, that's the creed - and maybe Irene wasn't your original way, maybe you were always meant for a different sort of holy figure, but the words you choose are doctrine in the end; that first prayer you got down on your knees and said to her was no less truthful for its betrayal. There are rules to it: this is faith, the religion. This is her. You belong to Irene, and she belongs to you.

"Um. Did you just tear my stockings?" she asks, like a sudden realization, her mouth still dropping.

You nod, because, well, yeah, and pull her panties to the side. "Permission, forgiveness, et cetera."

In lieu of a reprimand or a rebuke, she lets a shockingly pretty little moan when her pussy gets stretched by a finger, two - and they're wet, slippery, easier than the lace had ever expected, and she's already so plush, red and rosy. Irene has always gotten wet quickly, with your fingers, your cock, your mouth on her - and her head falls back in one languorous stretch. The tightness around your finger is dizzying. You'll never grow tired of watching her: a sudden shift, the spine so pretty when arched, the pulse of blood under her thighs, the fluttering of her cunt as it comes to the very precipice of letting you in.

"Do you understand me, baby?" she's asking you, and her breath seems to pick up and the muscle flutters again.

You waggle your eyebrows and lean in, and whisper against her skin, "better than anything."

Your mouth attaches to her clit and never lets go. You fuck her, all sweet, on two fingers. Down to the last knuckle. You curl your fingertips, and she's gasping. The scent of her drives you fucking crazy; this is what paradise has always tasted like, and heaven's the press of her thighs - your name spilling from Irene's mouth. She gets wetter, and wetter - you lap as it floods out of her, down her thighs. You lick it, taste the salt and her bitterness and her arousal, how her pussy grows slick in an instant, swollen under your touch, wanting, aching. Her heels press over your shoulders and dig in, tight.

When you look up over the tight spasms in her diaphragm, you realize she's got the shirt unbuttoned, finally. Fabric spilling down to the granite, skin and bra and sheen; you wrap your arms around the perfect curves of her thighs, the nylon shifting soft on your hands and bringing her closer, hitching up to your shoulders. This is only part one of what you owe Irene - the easy part, actually: you can see her clench in the same breath that she's straining - the need and want to fill her up a sin, the wet smack as her folds are pried apart by the flick of your tongue, the sounds of your hands, the desperation. She'll want, and you'll get, until she can barely handle it. Until the tremors overwhelm her, until it is too much and it never will be, ever enough - until she's left so gorgeous like that, shivering.

The kettle's got the pitch to its scream now, and the volume. The sound makes you grind your teeth. Lick harder, suck longer, kiss a bit deeper - her clit, the pink tip of your tongue pushing in past the folds, between the ring, deep and heavy. Fingers moving slow, almost absent-minded, flitting across her breasts, pinching a nipple - Irene groans. The metal rattles louder, louder.

The shirt's rumpled, tangled, bunched up between Irene's elbows. You lean your teeth to the crease of her hips. You lick, the smell filling your nostrils, her fingers threaded in your hair - holding you where she wants you to be:

"And fuck, ah, do you, oh god- fucking do you- have an," she sighs, trembling as the movement of your jaw sends her shuddering, as your mouth runs and your hands open her legs. She pants. "Oh, darling. Have an honest-" she laughs and the sound pitches too, "-idea, I mean-"

Irene has started grinding against you. Your heart is thundering.

"-of what I'm-"

A moan finally breaks from her lips, so disarmingly beautiful. Irene grabs for the edge of the granite counter; she can hardly seem to make out what she wants. Her orgasm is cresting higher, each flick of your tongue and soft sound of you bringing her there, near. You like that she needs you, like that the word 'insatiable' becomes an insufficient assessment. You push, you move - her hands tug you. You taste her: a warmth, the depth, the pulsing.

"-what you're" - a gulp, a gulping swallow - the fridge keeps beeping, the front door sticks, and it'd be so perfectly quiet if not for the fucking tea kettle. It keeps boiling and boiling and you are drinking your fill, drowning. Her skin smells fucking delicious. You can feel her heat pooling. "Fucking, o-oh, fuck- fucking doing-"

You smile into it. Against her messy, quivering cunt. You are: unashamedly smug.

And fuck. She's gone, swept away, carried off, the pressure of your lips sending her crashing back down with a moan - the kitchen still buzzing and the steam a bit of a haze, and you haven't even finished bringing her through the dying breaths of her orgasm before she's gasping, pulling you back up on your feet:

"I need you, I- right now. Up here-"

Irene tries to grab for your neck again. She doesn't seem to mind her own lack of strength, though. In any other circumstance you'd think she'd look a bit pathetic: her shoulders curved, chin resting in a hand, a absent, pleasantly confused grin, legs and hair a complete unmitigated mess - and here: her lipstick wiped, mostly smudged, her wet, glistening thighs-

"Tell me," you say, and a thousand possibilities are imagined. To get inside of her, feel her nails dragging across your chest, her teeth at your throat, her moan as you slide into the very heat of her - fuck, you cannot stop. She's got you spinning and you'll gladly lose this particular battle; a typical Bae Irene ending. "Please, tell me."

The water boiling over has begun to crack; and the first tendrils of steam begin curling into the air.

"God," says Irene, shaking with her body so desperate, her hand still grasping you back. The look in her eyes seems so beautifully wrecked, but in no hurry to show it. She smiles, because she wants that over anything. "Don't you fucking listen?"

She grins.

"Ah." Irene shakes her head, pulls your head back, staring, but does not rise to a sit, just slides herself out. One leg kicks, one, then two, from the corner of your eyes: her nylons shredding down their long seams. You're on your feet; you're not really standing, but then you have no real bearings to start with. Your cock is throbbing.

She just scoots on out, and shuts off the stove, and sets the kettle a step back.

"Maybe," you say, pressing your thumb to the seam of your pants. You could probably die of lust right now and have no regrets. "Maybe not. I think I need more convincing."

It would probably also help if your thoughts could stop racing.

"Huh."

She turns - though not with the skirt. The hem has fallen to the floor. A puddle at her ankles. She's only slightly out of breath; the wet between her legs gleams. The slick, smooth fabric of her lingerie sticks to the swollen outline of her pussy. Her fingers dip down, playfully, so she's leaning over the counter. She tugs, and it presses and plays and sticks at her center. You're obsessed, half-crazy from it. Her expression twists; it's fucking bliss. She smiles, one breath, then two - the house settles. You cannot stop staring; you can't. Your mouth feels hot and dry and sticky, wet from her cum, and your pants, you can't quite breathe and the view's only getting better: Irene naked, against the counter, the jostle of her breasts as she strums herself, as her breathing catches and rises, and those nails digging deep into her clit as her eyes drift shut-

She's biting her lower lip - but she looks at you and - stops, her toes pressed to the linoleum.

The moment is suspended, and suddenly the words do not fit anywhere in your throat.

"Want it?"

"Fuck," you exhale, and maybe she isn't just asking that out loud, she's the embodiment of the fucking question: the need between her legs so vivid. She laughs again, licks the taste of herself off her fingertip, sucks at the curve of her nails - she touches the tip of her tongue to the very edge of her upper lip. Her smile, in its sharpness and precision, remains unswayed.

"Bend me over?"

And then, very quietly, and without so much as a scoff in disappointment-

"Fucking christ," you mutter, and nearly fall in a heap towards her.

-

It's borderline unhealthy, that this happens as often as it does: sex that leaves you breathless, sex that shivers across every inch of your fucking skin, sex that aches afterward, that drives your lungs to strain, a moan trapped forever just behind her teeth. Her hips were either made for your rough palms, or you've worn them down to your grip. Softened all the edges. Her thighs open to you like you own her. The ridge down the center of her back, your mouth trailing down every vertebrae - her pussy. The inside, the depth - and everything she doesn't mean to let out: all these little notes she's learning with each thrust of your cock into her, and you think you should just say yes, give in.

Let it go, and just trust.

Sex as routine? A repetition of desire. What is routine is that, with Irene:

There's always a new discovery. She has you when she's bent over and you're pounding her knees into the cabinets. She has you on the floor with her. She has you when she's bent over and you're eating her out again, then on top, and on your couch, and with her legs kicked high on the shower wall, and - you fuck her, you find room for her on the bathroom sink. You cum all over her stomach and she just smiles dreamily. You fuck her until she's almost sobbing, and then you're saying her name like she has your life and your attention, for everything and nothing at all. And after an hour of letting her have your patience, and your dick, your face pressed against her throat, and her nails deep in your back - you tell her she needs to stay.

It's a hell of an admission, apropos of nothing.

"Oh? Say that one more time for me," and she's half-covered, the comforter pulled up over her the gentle slope of her breasts, the bedsheet tucked around her waist. "Again," and you have no real use left, you're certain. The most recent orgasms have nearly shattered you both in half: Irene can barely focus on your mouth, where your hips had slammed hers into the bed and - you are pretty certain - definitely did crack her skull right off the headboard.

"Yeah," you mutter face down into the duvet, "you should stay."

"Then it's decided," Irene says out loud, rather victorious, and drops a hand down the span of your back. She's there still, fingering her own cum from inside her pussy. The look in her eyes, sly. The message in them could not be any clearer: what an excellent suggestion, since you both know she'll have no shortage of reasons to keep coming back, anyway.

-

It all feels rather satisfying, pretending not to like the girl. It feels good not caring where she is at night.

As she had said, like an affirmation, a real statement: "this thing, between us, is so uncomplicated. It's so easy."

And she's right:

She fucks, and you cum. She looks pretty. That's what she wants to show off, she does and does it well, and as long as you don't pay attention and pretend like it doesn't matter to you, it's an absolute fucking win-win. That's it: that's exactly why, when she calls, when she comes around and asks about dinner, you ask how far you're expected to go for her. What'll earn you her gratitude? Her pleasure's a quick hit, and it's free - if she asks nicely, if you're up for it, if it isn't the same bullshit, same scene - and the night's never a big deal to waste. That's her script; there's your line:

"What's your endgame here," is a thing you're always asking.

She tips her head, her hair falling off her shoulder, that old cliché, those large brown eyes, batting and fluttering. Just curious, but also to draw attention; what a killer pair she has, they're gorgeous. Your eyebrows raise, and your mouth falls open as her fingers dance over your chest, playing with the collar of the button-up that you aren't entirely convinced doesn't belong to her.

"Who says I have to have my mind made up right this second?" is Irene's usual comeback - a favorite - followed by another favor, then an expectation. Then, as your hands fall to the small of her back: "for you, the point is probably the chase," she reminds you, a low little murmur.

Your heart thrums with the little spike of anger. Then again, your cock's feeling the yearn ahead of everything else already; it's a bad habit, and not getting anything you need. Or, there's a tumble, a mutual surrender in this somewhere.

"Sure, says you."

You kiss her so easily. Run your fingers through her hair and drink down her sighs, pull away and pretend. Pretend to dislike how pretty she looks when you do things like this. Pretend like you haven't missed her, that there is no desire, not to run your touches down the back of her knees, or sink your hands into her perfect little ass.

"Didn't need me to," she points out, the lick into your mouth. And her finger curls right under your chin, nails a pretty, perfect oval shape, manicured and soft at your throat, that way she loves - the angle intimate. "And yet. Not stopping me, are you?"

Which you're not. Neither of you is fool enough. You don't hate yourself, she doesn't hate the truth. So, whatever, sometimes you give in to it - if you could call this a 'means to an end', you suppose that might just about cover the ground, because her plans, her reasons don't matter to you, and vice-fucking versa: just to find an answer, or to find a few dozen, and that's enough.

You're no good at love; she says she's not looking for it either, no heartfelt romantic shit to get a tear out of you, she'd tell you at the start:

"Let's just play it by ear, how about that? I could surprise you. You could surprise yourself."

-

(But fuck: Irene's surprisingly full of surprises.

Take when she texts a few days later.

Hey, a blip on the screen, an innocuous string of numbers you refuse to mark a contact. There's too much power, and leverage. She isn't asking.

It's been too long.

A winky emoji.

I think you're able to do me a big favor.

A period. It is imperative. She would tell you, with an authority she certainly isn't trying to front or to prove: she likes her punctuation.

I could really, really do with that same favor that you gave me back when we went to that housewarming party, you remember. It'd really be the best thing you've done with your evening if you could help me out. Call it the nice thing to do.

Is your vibrator out of batteries? you text back.

You are a genius.

Thanks.

Let's go somewhere.

Just this once. But dinner's on you.

A selfie. Slippery fingers, glued to her pussy, running through the glisten-

Oh. Actually, it'll probably be twice.)

-

So. 'Surprise yourself' was, naturally, the key.

It's difficult to have a notion as to how exactly you might surprise yourself - but here you are a little later; she's dressed and in heels, and that's a relief, or rather a delight: this woman looks devastating with her hair down. But still, like this: the hem to her slacks that draws her thighs down to an elegant peak, the nice blouse she's got her buttons done to the top, and one less: this cleavage isn't wholly visible but the shadow is still a tease, her thin jacket only pinning in how her waist is cut into such a deep arc. Irene had asked if this looked too formal, and the second response in your brain was to ask why: her normal wardrobe's worse - less clothing, more fucking exposed. Then again, you might not mind watching Irene work so hard if it meant your hands get full quicker-

"That is absolutely no way to put it," she admonishes.

"Come again, Mistress?"

"Ass," she mutters. It's not even a reprimand so much as an agreement, you can see where the smile is trying not to crack open. "No," she corrects, and smiles anyway. She pushes a lock of her hair behind her ear, "I just mean- fuck you and your terrible metaphors. Anyway, we should go. You drive, my car is a total mess."

-

You take her out. There's dinner. There's drinks. It's something like a date, because that's what she wants. The hostess smiles politely. The waiter raises a suggestive eyebrow at your fingertips grazing Irene's leg underneath the table, and you both ignore the interest. You pass him her credit card without comment when you go to settle up. When you stroll about, the sun is going down and the dying light paints her skin orange, yellow, and red. She tells a story about work. You manage to get a few of your own. Your fingers loop through hers and the action makes her do this lovely smile.

So the gist of it is: you have a fling, her name is Irene, there's some vague cohabitation occurring, and - oh, she's an absolutely fantastic lay.

It's the sort of thing that on the surface level sounds like a total and complete win, even for all its contradictions, flaws, and pitfalls. She fucks, and you're willing. She looks pretty. You keep her content. That's enough, as a friend-with-benefits; more of the benefits than anything else, she always reminds you. And every now and then, when Irene starts making demands of your time, of your availability - making plans, making reservations, making the expectation known that the two of you have a standing obligation, 'benefits' penciled into your schedules every Tuesday and every weekend (and Thursday, too, if neither of you is booked) - she suddenly becomes more complicated than she should have any rights or reason being. There's a kind of security you take away from it.

Irene's holding her clutch in the parking lot, posture perfect. The sky's on fire and the setting sun is burning down the horizon all around her.

"Can we do it in your car?" she's asking, totally nonchalant.

"What?" "Sex," Irene repeats, like you didn't understand the question. Her expression is bright, seamless. She holds her wrist behind her back, and twists a little on one heel. "I want to get you off."

This is a case study; you're walking, breathing empirical data. You've gone from wondering to knowing about what they say in regards to women of a certain age. The appetite. The inexplicable desperation. It used to be a joke. Maybe it's because men in their 30s are unusually relaxed with their dating life, or all of their friends are talking about wedding rings, kids, a white picket fence - with life a non-event to handle with finesse and a delicate grip. Or: maybe Irene simply isn't complicated in the ways people seem to expect her to be. She's needier for sex than usual, for starters. "Are you expecting some urgent business meeting, or an important call - any sort of personal news, maybe - like, in the next half hour?"

"Are you serious," you manage. Fuck her, actually.

"I don't know why, I just feel like you might appreciate the cramped quarters. We can make out while you cum and stuff."

You almost snort, but - her hips have that sway. The door's unlocked. You stare. The purse settles on the passenger's seat. This girl is so stupidly pretty.

"You, uh, wanna get on top?" you ask, voice already slightly drying at the sound.

Irene reaches over and traces your jaw. Her thumb feels lovely pressed to the seam of your lips, rubbing over them slowly. Her mouth is this gorgeous color and you just can't stop staring. "So cute. What's your best guess, sherlock?" She pats the roof of the car, gently. "Get the fuck in."

-

Irene is, at her most shameless, a list of demands: give me your fingers, touch my clit, do it now; take my wrists, fuck me faster; don't you dare fucking cum - there's no rush here, so put in the effort. You have a basic idea of where you're both headed, and the situation demands you to, um, obey. The sound of her wet cunt fills the tight confines of the car.

"Fuck, Irene."

At her most elegant, she's pretty much the same, but she fucks like a total dream:

"Slow, yes," she'll coo into your ear, in the early stages, before her head starts falling back and her chest rises, and all the sweet notes from the back of her tongue get driven to the fore, and there are moans instead of directions, groans and cries. "Feel me. Deeper. Fuck, babe, just like that."

Her nails drag deep, and that's not usually the plan - the start is fast and easy; her pussy drips like she's soaking a cloth, a fresh layer every second, and a clench that swallows every thrust; and somehow the friction's good enough that if you stick around and keep your focus, you get Irene begging for mercy by the end of it, just to savor and relish the sensation, the motion of your body into hers.

"There," and her eyes flutter, "yes. You are so fucking hard for me." She leans in, kisses the shell of your ear: "you're fucking stretching out this little pussy, baby, you know that?"

"Jesus. Fuck, please-"

"Should we? Should I let you?" She clenches down, "fill me up, babe? You think you're worth the privilege?"

"If you'd let me - Irene, the things I could do," you don't breathe, "jesus fucking christ."

And she looks at you with wide, honey-smudged eyes. Pretty even when fucked; especially so. Her fingers get wrapped in your collar and she's nodding her head in rhythm with her quick little bounce. The snapping of her hips. Up and down, and up and down like she'd be insulted if you didn't drain your balls into her perfect little womb right then and there. She says don't do this, don't do that - and then she fucks you like you're supposed to.

"Yeah, that's right, be a good boy for me," her mouth whispers, even though there is no one else in her car, you're pretty sure. Her voice is like a vice, just you, with her hips, her hot little hands pushing you down so she's riding the top of your head. You can hear her dripping down into the space, a new leak.

"How're you gonna deal with it when I'm filling your tight cunt?" You thumb at her ass, squeeze. "This pretty, round ass? Want me to cum inside you every which way, huh? Marking up my territory?"

You hear her stutter on a reply, as her pussy gives a particularly strong flex, another contraction.

"All those wet loads, dripping out your cunt, down your thighs… on your lips… you gonna taste every last one, princess?"

She has a face like she wants to hurt you for that one, the moniker - you have a sneaking suspicion there's nobility in her blood, laid deep somewhere in her veins, another lifetime lived far from this one: she'll have a predilection for thrones, diamonds, queendoms to rule. And if that were true - well, you'd be downright lucky if she consented to an audience, even less entitled to her hand. She's out of your league regardless. Or maybe, she's the furthest thing from royalty and she just knows the script better than anybody. Kneel, she'll say, and you find yourself obliging; give me your mouth, your fingers, she'll ask, and you're compelled. It's all ingrained.

"What was that?" she asks, incredulous, riding your cock so hard the seat shakes instead.

"I said: this cunt, christ-"

You bring her closer to your face, have to feel that clasp of heat with every stroke - and when it is so fucking deep, her hips lock up, clamped, thighs quivering - you just hold her in place, give her a few breaths, let the satisfaction really sink in, even if she's already moaning.

"Well, I guess you got me there, huh." Her mouth gives her away, the lopsided-grin. "Yeah. So cum, give it." And then it twists. Her face looks so beautiful in distress, and you're certain you've had that thought many times since: if the situation demands it - maybe it would be just fine to push a little bit more? It's a neediness that doesn't go understated, even when Irene's more whining for it: like, the fuck are you waiting for, her tits out, panting, sweating, cursing and moaning at the slow drag through her slippery muscle, a grip like satin, like velvet.

You're a total mess:

"Breathtaking, the faces you make for me" - "you look so good, like that, so handsome" - "has anyone ever fucked you this good?"

It's official. She'll have to scrape you off the leather.

And as if to add insult to injury, Irene's hands come up to her hair, holding it up into a messy bundle above her head. There's a tilt of her chin, a bite into her lip. She's bouncing fast, taking your cock deeper on each twist, and it's all very performative. Fucking Irene is as visual an experience as it is visceral, because chiseled into her figure, the lithe frame, are these model-esque proportions - like she's not actually five foot nothing in her socks.

(A beautiful little paradox. She's showing off here. She's showing off, simply because she can.)

"And you're the one always calling me greedy," she breathes, like the punchline, as she takes the next inch, the wet slapping of skin. There's heat. So much fucking heat - she's got a pulse that pulls you forward and won't let go, your balls hitting her ass and thighs soaked, so red and plush and beautiful, a softness that takes a second and an elbow's reach and, fuck. Her thighs on the dashboard. "You've been-"

Your palms fit into the curve of her ass. How a small, fragile, dainty thing like her can have so much to grab onto remains a mystery and a fucking miracle.

"-a bit of a prick, honestly, for a minute-"

But she's so responsive - and you want to wring it out of her, really, a desire to destroy and savor, even when that sounds a little wrong and too close to sacrilege - you really ought to just call her the ultimate fantasy: she has the cutest tits, soft creamy thighs, tightly wound curves and a sexy-as-sin attitude; and when she sits heavy on your cock, wiggling her hips in a circle, you lose the plot and a little bit of your mind.

"-have to say, it's been getting to me."

"Here's hoping it doesn't give," you grumble as your arms tense and your back aches, your shoulders strain. Irene seems unconvinced, and she usually is, but the drive is relentless.

"Then you'll have to hurry up," the rake of her fingernails across your neck, "won't you?" and she is too slick and so eager, "because you're gonna cum for me, sweetheart, just let it all out, baby." Her cunt and her heels in the upholstery and the stinging welts draw you deeper-

Your hand braces around the center console.

She has her lips on your temple, your hairline: "I'm imagining how my pussy will look, all creamy and used and pretty - all because you fucked it nice and hard and raw - no matter how many times I fuck myself with my fingers, I'll keep feeling the ghost of this fucking perfect cock."

The noise that leaves your lips is a full, throaty, ragged groan, your muscles shaking and skin burning. "Irene, god," you sputter out; it's not super attractive, you think.

Irene kisses the juncture of your shoulder and neck like it's music to her ears, her jaw against your jaw:

"You've got to stop edging me, love, my little pussy was made to get stretched by your cock, show me-"

You thrust in deep.

"Fuck."

"Oh," she whispers, eyes hooded and lashes sweeping low, an awe so thick to her voice. "Such a good boy for me - now. Make me cum, yes - make me cum all over you - mhm-"

You jerk your hips again - your pants hanging around your thighs, her blouse pushed up around her waist. You've twisted and knotted the fabric over and over into something you can pull or hold onto - it's not clear to you yet which idea's more pressing.

Because there's no breathing room. You need to twist your hips just to fuck into her - her lips are parted with this insatiable moaning, and it's sweet and pretty and filthy. She wraps one knee higher. There's the lock to your ankle, but she's grabbing the lever and trying to pull your seat down, the rest of it; you absolutely let her. All this in heels that would be impressive without a tight wet pussy pressing down on the length of your cock, begging for what seems like an endless number of thrusts into that delicious heat, the perfect clutch. She rides you rough: the leather beneath your knees shifting with the constant scuffle. Her elbows bent, a thumb grazing her tits, pushing up the silk and the lace.

Her soft, pale skin is spilling all over you, her limbs finding purchase as her mouth slides against yours on a new rhythm of need and want: "that's the thing, right? You're such a delight when you put your mind to it." She's pressing a kiss against your temple - her tone, this intimacy, a hotness between her thighs that leaves you breathless, dumb - it's the only sort of inescapable validation that might suit.

You had the perfect view as she shrugged the jacket, unbuttoned the blouse, sat the bra over it, just undid her slacks: this perfection, laid bare, exposed in your passenger seat with her tits squeezed in both palms. Then it was her hand tugging at the zipper to your pants.

So - you're fucking her harder than you have any business doing. Her nails are digging trenches in the skin of your forearms and you have the slightest sense of everything she has, wants, demands; you've had her under you, bent her in half, folded at the corner of your bed. You've fucked her with your cock so far into the slick-dripping hole of her cunt until she can't stop cumming - or begging - or the Irene-equivalent.

"There you go," she says into your throat, like it's nothing, and sags a little further into your chest. "There we go," she repeats. Her brow is glistening with sweat, and you kiss it: hot, and a little bitter. You can't help it.

You're fucking her harder than she can handle. You're filling her. She's stuffed to the fucking brim with your cock, bulging at the folds of her insides.

And, christ, her fucking waist. She is so small, so fragile-looking. You wrap both hands around her middle, and as her hips grind forward, meeting the roll, she grabs your wrists, holds your hands up her ribs and gets, and gets - oh, just where you fucking left her. Your knuckles are left digging to the silky skin, bruises dotting purple across her back, her neck, her tummy and her thighs, every surface - you're grasping and claiming what she has to give you, just a hint. There's a million and one ways to love, to give back, to please a partner - but you have one goal: you're not an artist, you're not a philosopher, or a poet - so you'll leave physical marks, reminders, of everything you've done and will do. You'll make her cum. Just hold her still and make her cum again and again and again. The weight, the lift. If she asked, you would. Fuck. You would. She rides your cock and rocks you into the upholstery of the passenger-side chair. She sinks down and presses her mouth to the edge of yours, just shy, her own teeth pulling at her bottom lip-

"Your cock feels," and here Irene takes the moment for a heavy, contented sigh. "-ah, fucking unbelievable. Your fucking cock, jesus."

Her voice is… it's really so dreamy. The praise does strange things: you reach down and pull her thighs so they tighten at your waist. There are no illusions here, she's found something worth chasing. The bare-boned desperation drives her insides wild, you can feel it. The clench, the pulse, the absolute slutty-slick dripping, a real, honest, aching cunt, warm and clamped at the hilt of your cock - it's obscene, and your patience is stretching paper-thin. You aren't asking any questions; she's not taking them.

It's just you and this petite, absolutely stunning, heartbreakingly gorgeous girl sitting in your lap and working herself on you like a doll, and- oh. She really does look great. It's impossible to look away.

The windows are fogged, and her cunt feels divine as she runs you further into your car seat. Her hips snap up, back down - the soft drag and then the cinching flutter. The inside of her, a total fucking delicacy. One of your hands slides across her back, counting the rise-and-falls of her spine. One, two, three, and so on. Her lips are flush at your throat. You feel her whimper.

It's the most perfect noise you've ever heard.

"Baby," she mouths at your collarbone, her movements becoming more spastic, more erratic. "I can feel you throbbing."

The encroaching dark keeps threatening the corner of your vision, so much tighter each time.

"You're going to make me," you're gritting through your teeth - this feels a little insane, a little irrational. "Irene you- you're going to make me fucking cum."

"Oh?" Irene's reply is immediate. She slams herself down on your cock, hard. "Then cum."

Your patience is truly nothing at this point. There is not a single breath left inside her either: the heavy swell of her chest is proof enough, those eyes fluttering shut, the angle shifting as her ass meets your thighs. "Seriously, I'm going to fucking fill you, and it is gonna slip all down the back of your legs - Irene - sweetheart, I'm going-"

Her fingers curl behind your head. "Cum," and she groans, "I know- I'm here. Take it. Use this perfect little pussy, I want to feel you cum." and you pull the pace up into a frantic tempo. The metal beneath your back creaks with the strain; the bounce of her ass against your groin. The moan, it pitches: a need, a lust, and she is rolling, rutting her body in circles on top of you, a wild gasp and then a beautiful cry, almost in pure unbridled ecstasy.

The angle shifts and - fuck. You're able to fuck up into her so easily. Her cunt is hot and soft in all the right places, wrapped around your cock, tight and snug like she was made for you. Every drag of slicked skin and clenched muscle sends you both reeling.

"Irene," you barely say, and you're cumming, you're fucking filling her up with cum - the only possible endgame. You can't stop fucking into her even though she's just been fucked senseless, stuffed with your cock: little helpless noises, squeals and yelps like they're being tugged out of her. She goes limp on you, and then she collapses, shivering and whimpering with every deep-bore pulse: you're going to mark every inch of her body, claim every part of her soul.

"Oh my god." A groan. Another. It's coming off her like a wave - like a river, really, you're drowning. "It is so, so fucking hot. Your cum, in my pussy…" She trails off.

Her tight cunt twitches: pulsing with every motion. She squeezes down - hard. It takes a great effort for you not to let out a loud, embarrassing whimper. Your fingers dig into her ass, her hips, steadying her grind.

But you're looking right into her eyes when she falls apart, too, that long, tensing shudder, the gasping groan - fuck - because she feels exactly like everything that you've done, you know: Irene's tight cunt has kept your cock perfectly in place. She was just waiting for the spill of it before the final, hardest crest. The smell's in the air and the haze is all through her expression and, god, you want her, you could just sink a million words into that, every possible adoration and every bit of yourself and you still wouldn't be getting the entire story; just fuck - you can never not be fucking her, never not want to have her riding your lap, moaning out and falling and dragging every part of your body deeper-

"Mmmmm," Irene lets out, soft and satisfied, a tiny whimper in the way that she goes all soft around your cock and comes down and presses a wet, tired kiss at the base of your throat.

"Mmmm-m?"

"Thanks, I think." Her blouse is falling off one shoulder, the material crumpled. There are creases all across it. She's biting on her lip, flushed. "Thanks for that."

-

It has to be said, here - because you know, because the sun is setting on your open window and your arm is snug at Irene's waist and neither of you even have to mutter a word to acknowledge the fact that it will inevitably rise across your living room carpet again.

Irene is everything you might have been running from, everything you've ever chased - and you'd never ever stand a chance.

-

Greedy, however, just isn't the right word for it. Not really.

It's the way she leans in when you kiss. The way she fidgets. The way her tongue brushes across her bottom lip. So no - greedy isn't quite the right way to say it. It's more: instinctual.

She's this not-so-subtle tincture of want and desire, in its most basic form - and that makes this all so dangerous, isn't that right, miss? Because want isn't something to toy with; want is, by design, something measured in its inability to be indulged.

(And for the record, your car hasn't even moved from the lot. You were supposed to get frozen yogurt but that's looking less likely, judging by the way Irene's fingers are tapping lightly across your shoulder, your own clamping down on her chin.)

It's just so indulgent. Irene hasn't left your lap, blithely warming your cock for you. Stealing kisses while the day's last light bleeds low over the buildings. Soft sighs. Whimpers, mewls, muffled little keens of, "oh, oh, please." You trace the edges of her, where your body becomes hers, and her movements are fluid - supple and knowing and just this side of eager.

The car feels now even more cramped and narrow than advertised, the sweat in your skin starting to bloom. The musk of sex, a creeping heat: "go ahead," you rasp out.

She nods, a helpless dip, and that comes with a sigh, "yes, fuck, right there," her cunt squeezing, a hot, slick little velvety clench; there's something about being buried inside her and seeing her fall apart. This slow rock and build-up. All the hard edges worn to a perfect point. Her dark eyes are glowing, her clever little tongue darting to her lip.

You hold her, slumping together in the front seat. The leather squeaks with the gentle shifts, the slides. The color rising in her cheeks. She likes when your breath catches; her smile goes sharp, a hint of teeth: it's very obvious that she is very very drunk - on control, on cock, it doesn't seem to matter.

A beat passes before the architecture returns to her muscles. She's sitting up, and with your hand firmly cupping her ass, and your teeth pressed to the flat of her breasts. "You," she gasps, the most unironic and unexpected reply. The corner of her eyes is still glistening, still dazed, still blissful. "Don't play dumb. Fuck - no, don't stop."

"Sorry, say that one more time for me, miss."

"You- ah." She grins, and her hip shoves your cock out with a filthy wet sound in accompaniment.

The air of the car is sticky, and her slick is still covering your waist, so the discomfort makes the little groan extra appreciative, anyway.

"Fucking god-" she grumbles, and the whine that escapes is an order for attention.

You take her jaw with both hands. Pull her, and look her right in her eyes and kiss her. Not slow. Not gentle. Thoroughly, so the tip of her tongue reaches the very roof of her mouth. She ends up with her back shoved roughly into the dash, and your fingers tangled through her hair and tugging. And her laugh turns to a whimper, her eyes a half-closed - you fingerfuck her cunt open. Thumb pressed tight to the clit. Two, and the palm of your hand smacks between her thighs, resonating all throughout the car. It's your own hot cum coating your knuckles and drip-dropping off your wrist, so she's melting and needy. The evening's passing, her hands go to her bra, so she's twisting and slipping, the orgasms strung together like the pearls on her bracelet.

Her fingers squeeze yours, then let go.

She licks into your mouth. "Jesus, you're way too good at that," is what Irene murmurs, when you're both just left breathless, half-shivering, merely recycling the same torrid air.

"Let's get you home, princess," you kiss into her skin, joking. "Before curfew."

She sits up. "Shut the fuck up."

"Sorry," you lie, smug - not sorry at all. "Can't help it. You're too pretty when you get like that."

"What, when I'm cumming for you? When your cock is inside me? When you're fucking my brain to mush?"

Her heels clack to the ground.

"You're gross," she adds, and shoves your arm.

"You like it," you say to her, "don't lie."

"Because I'm just this sweet innocent thing, right? I can't be held accountable for anything. Look at you, fucking me like this - corrupting me." A flutter of eyelash, and she leans forward to meet your eyes. She's adjusting the straps of her bra. She's a picture-perfect pinup girl. "Is that really what gets you off?"

"It's not bad." You let yourself soak in it, for a second, just staring at her. "The whole naive, helpless schoolgirl act. It's a classic for a reason."

Irene snickers. It's sweet-bitter, and that's fitting. You like how her blush is red and stubborn.

"Goodness," she says, like you can't see the dust of a smile, of a smirk, take shape on her swollen mouth. "Okay sure, let's get into that; say my dad is sitting up with worry." Her head cocks, playful. "My family probably sent a search party out for me," and her laugh's lighter than air, warm, a few shades shy of ridiculous - if you thought that the sound could make you as much of a fool as she does - then yeah, that's pretty accurate.

"What - like in a rocking chair, with his shotgun and everything?"

"Yeah, you're so fucking dead. He's so going to shoot you on sight when he sees the absolute state you're returning me in. His precious little girl, " Irene picks at her bra, tucks herself back in, adjusts her hair. The last of her hairpins drops, falls to the dash. It rolls back, between your legs. "Pull the trigger and turn you into swiss cheese. Last rites, eulogy, the full nine yards." Her makeup's smudged - red lipstick, the tip of her nose - and you just don't feel like pointing it out yet.

"Cremation, most likely?"

"Eh, who knows," she smiles, and now, more than ever, there's not a sign of hesitation in her face, her voice, the light and effortless way she drapes across the interior, stretches. "You're so cute though. Maybe he'll give you a chance and let you run."

-

It hadn't really occurred to you until you arrived onto the front steps of Irene's apartment and watched her sink back against the door, exhaling softly in the fluorescent light, her eyes heavy, but you have a sneaking suspicion that you're doing everything completely out of order.

You aren't in some trope-addled tv drama, and Irene isn't your childhood-friend or your slowburn-material, someone with a sentimental backstory.

Maybe in a parallel universe, some twisted alternate ending, where she's in this long, silky wedding gown, both sides of the aisle are watching you commit sins the way people can't resist doing in those fuck-it stories, all heat and sex and dopamine without remorse - but not now, not yet.

(Probably - probably not ever, and if that's a cop-out you can't help it. Because isn't it silly, the things the people will do. Pretending to not be in love, all for the sake of the chase - getting themselves hung up in this world of digital advances and missed connections.)

You'll regret it later, you think. That's an unforeseen variable you should've predicted, though, isn't it?

Because you've both loved before, both been hurt, the excuses are all in the chamber: all the mixed signals and stereotypes. How she looks at you - or doesn't, some days. Your past, hers, the differences. You've never known exactly how this should go, if there even is a best version of this love to pursue, the idyllic happily-ever-after, that perfect white dress. Fuck, that is not the daydream you're supposed to be having.

The story instead, is like this: you drive her home. She sings along to the music on the radio. She kisses you over the console at a red light. Someone honks. You walk her to the door, because you're old-fashioned when you think it's useful. You're a charmer, she's yours. You grab her by the chin and probably end up making out for far too long.

Just imagine if it had all been by the book:

A first date, then text messages. A second, where you're supposed to invite her to dinner, drinks. You're supposed to call her, on the phone, with your voice and everything - low, a little assertive - not bossy or controlling, no: that's what the third date's for. There's a checklist for what to do, what to say; how you're supposed to kiss her, and why she's supposed to act all shy, the picture of demure - like she's innocent, though she'll be anything but. At the end of it, you're supposed to pay. She won't let you. You're supposed to walk her home. She's supposed to linger, put the keys in the door and ask you what you're doing next - she's supposed to look over her shoulder as she walks inside and say goodnight, be coy, let it dangle on the edge. And that's supposed to be that. All of it: quintessential.

Nowhere in that manual does it say anything about pinning her up against the door and slipping your hand into her slacks either - underneath the soft, dark lace of her panties and placing your other palm over her mouth so the neighbors don't hear what a little slut she can be when she wants to.

Just this side of coquettish. A total delight.

Irene practically sobs into the side of your hand. Her mouth drops open, and you haven't even really touched her; she's wet already, soaked - well. She's always wet for you.

"I'll catch you later," you breathe into her neck, letting your fingertips skirt the puffy lips of her cunt on the drag back up because you're actually not old-fashioned, like at all.

She tosses her hair, lets a sigh run through her smile, the blush, the creased eyes - and disappears through the door. It's the simplest way you two will ever say good night.

-

Ignoring all the rules of engagement, you and Irene never actually tiptoe around each other.

There's never even been a third date because the lines between hanging out and fucking and hanging-out-fucking blur with astounding ease. It's no real shocker: it's the little details in the way you find her sitting next to you at work, hips shifting minutely from side to side on the stool as she sifts through sheet music, sipping her latte, just barely making a sound.

It's the little details in the way she shows up, dresses to all the events, hands brushing yours to call attention to the ends of her fingertips; it's how every camera in the room seems to favor her.

If any of the 14th-century courtship philosophers could ever weigh in, now would probably be ideal. You'd be grateful, sure - because Irene is the epitome of entanglement. And that's your excuse. If anything's going to kill you, let it be her.

-

The texts do dry up for whatever reason.

Three hours between replies just to conceal a bit of earnest emotion or whatever. You wonder what that's called, wonder when it gets so boring - why all these steps had to be so dull, and why you can't do without them. The modern era has, after all, rendered the ancient rituals pretty fucking pointless - you could both use a time machine to the medieval ages, then you could get the fireworks. The gallant. Some declaration or betrothal - maybe a show of sword, a fistful of your bride's maidenhead. Or whatever the fuck they were calling it in those days, it all sounds a bit crude-

When it really comes down to it, this is less about the charm, the proposal, or the lack thereof. Less about the dear Irene, will you be mine, and more about the want. Want that's palpable, messy: about shedding decorum together and feeling filthy and rough, taking, receiving, biting into the sweet skin of her inner thighs and spanking her so hard she can't walk the next day.

That's all it is, you're pretty sure.

And look - she still attends a majority of your work functions even though, strictly speaking, she has no reason to. Everything is relatively normal, or maybe you don't know how normal is supposed to look, and that's alright because you're trying - and all you really care about is Irene smiling at you with that one knowing tilt of her mouth - and - and she does.

Hey, you're not entirely hopeless.

-

(The toxicity, the slammed doors, ignored voicemails and belted taillights zooming off into the night - look, not everyone is built for all the drama, not everyone feels the thrill at the tip of their fingers when they cut their losses and move on to the next. Floating through the memories thinking, wow, what a waste of time.

That's not you, you're aware. And Irene's seen it before, probably, had a story just like it in her own life, maybe been there, maybe not, but isn't it fascinating how all of it always sounds the same no matter how the story gets told.

So, keep it simple stupid. It's easy that way. Don't confuse her, or yourself, don't fuck it up by demanding more.

Afterall, it feels good, pretending not to care where she is at night.)

-

So - take some credit, you do something right for once. You call her.

It's a Saturday and she's working late because she's a singer. She's between hair, makeup and costume. Bored. Or, pretending she is, and if you were a lesser person, the type to lie to yourself, you'd let the pretension sit as-is. It's not even difficult: no effort required to sit back, close your eyes, and listen.

"The way he was just staring at me was so embarrassing," Irene is going on about this production assistant, and her voice is always light, playful - it doesn't matter who, it doesn't even matter what, it's the cadence to her speech that lulls. "Like I could read his mind."

"Can't you?" you ask, indulgently.

"Okay, don't try being cheeky, mister," Irene scolds into the phone, but it's hardly stern; her tone's the softest kind of sultry, like caramel, dripping. "He wanted to bend me over the table. Get some nice little marks in."

Hey, who could blame him? She exhales, almost sounds annoyed - the pout on her face is practically audible.

You are not a good person by the longest stretch of the imagination. "Then what stopped him, princess?" you question, not a hint of chivalry left in you. "Fooled me - isn't that your kink? Fucking men you've barely just met."

She laughs - once, breathless and abruptly; something sharp. You're not actually joking and she can't pretend otherwise. "Fuck." The word is a sigh, the suggestion is all over the air. You aren't blind. "You would, wouldn't you? Probably love to see me bent over, too - and split in half on some stranger's cock. Worshiping it like you've taught me, or whatever the fuck."

You hum in amusement, putting the pieces together from what she hasn't said. "Aw," you coo. "Missing me already I see."

"Don't flatter yourself," she shoots back, all quippy, fast: quick reflexes, the stuff of her brand. "What am I meant to be doing while I'm waiting for the crew, huh?"

And well, that's the thing - you end up on the phone for far too long, far too late: she leaves you to wait a minute when someone knocks on the door, and you'll have her later, probably, but what's wrong with dreaming of fucking her in one of those dressing rooms, pulling that corset down her curves and kissing her silent in case someone walks by - leaving teeth and nail marks across the tops of her breasts. You expect her to bring the conversation to something a little more in the moment, but her voice carries back into the room and she's asking you, casually, what's for dinner, how was your day. You laugh, tell her a funny story that happens, talk about everything that's mundane, everything she should know and would know about you if you actually spoke all the words in your head.

"Hey," she says, at some point, quiet and suddenly gentle, and you're already wrapped around her finger and you've yet to tell her. "I like talking to you. Keep calling."

This isn't like you, really. Or it hasn't been - not in a while.

"As if that's up to you," you shoot back, your voice so dry you know she can see straight through it, but maybe you're doing alright, making leeway - because at least, it's a placeholder. Irene seems to understand what you can't explain.

"Ha." Another laugh, airy this time: easy-breezy. A vocal shrug. "My hair is way too cute right now to deal with your smart mouth, anyways - they're waiting for me." She hesitates, but the gap isn't uncomfortable, a space to breathe. "Let's just say you'll get tired of me before I get sick of you."

"Do you want me to see?"

"Later," says Irene, almost hurriedly, like an excuse, but in a pretty way, and the click on her end of the line is still warm.

(You hang up, stare at the wall and take deep, shaking breaths: in, out, hold - when you don't, you can taste her. But still, you wait for the feeling to subside.)

-

At first, she had seemed entirely untouchable. It's funny. At first, you were convinced she'd look right past you.

-

She sends you a video, no commentary: the pretty, delicate sweep of her mouth brushing her shoulder. Her arm casts a shadow down the rise of her hips and your eyes trail that shadow south, across the soft planes of her stomach.

There are no questions after it, no words or emojis. Just her. In lingerie and no fucking context. The sound of her inhales.

(She says things with her face like that - or rather she says nothing at all. There isn't a hand-written translation key, though she leaves clues. She's playing it up, knows how you like her when she gets mouthy, lips glossy, knows how you like her panting. It wouldn't take much if she put her hand between her legs for you: you'd suck on her fingers, clean them off. You'd do anything.

The sound she does make eventually is low, frustrated. It's filthy - just thinking about her, all alone and barely touching herself: waiting for your reply.)

-

And yeah, it'd feel good not having to think about the bullshit anymore - you'd do your best to convince everyone that it's casual: the looks, the touches, all of it - the two of you together. It'd be a total lie, and you'd know it: everyone would know it, but that doesn't really matter. Because keeping things careless works. Never had it been about the feelings, and it's a cop-out, sure, that old cliché, but look - there's a really good chance you'll muck this up if you're given the power to put a name to the way her pupils dilate a half second before she grabs at you. Or the way you always fall a little more for her.

You think about that, about the worst of it: that she could ask you the most invasive question on her mind and instead, you'd answer, honestly and willingly, just like that: "hey, do you want to stay the night?"

-

But here's the thing: she's a singer and she's got all these friends. Colleagues and acquaintances from work who are, in her words, also 'friends' (code for: people I am required to tolerate by contract.)

Hey, you're no marriage counselor - you won't try to figure out the etiquette. And her labelmates aren't a total disaster.

It's only fair to make an appearance, meet all these alleged Bae Joohyuns. And - she likes it, in that way Irene likes a lot of things you do to her. She's texting you a new address every few minutes, texting nonstop by the time you've matched a tie to a shirt and are actually considering heading out. It's this afterparty, or wait, sorry, we're actually at a bar now - no, scratch that, it's a friend of a friend's place, you'll love it, I think? - and you can't really picture her stumbling through the city at midnight like she is, but there's a blurry photo of her and Seulgi and Wendy crowded around a mess of champagne flutes on a counter. An outdoor patio, a rooftop garden somewhere downtown. Her dress is breathtakingly gorgeous. There's an arm snaked around her waist and that's - hmm.

Wendy wants u here lol, the next text reads, and okay, you can't actually be bothered to give her shit for that right now. She can't be helped.

Someone's having fun, you type out instead.

Maybe I'm bored, comes the reply, just as fast, and then a few seconds later: i don't think anyone knows me here.

You roll your eyes. You'd love her despite, or maybe because of, a personality like that. "Never took you for anything like a celebrity."

Fine. I'll have to think of something to do, then, Irene responds, almost lazily, the following text-delete cycle appearing under your thumb like some new and innovative high-speed braille. Maybe.

But you could also come over and get me off, you think she should add. That could be fun, too.

No dice.

Meet me soon, she texts, and maybe a drunk mind speaks a sober heart, but she doesn't even know what it does to your stomach when she follows it with, I miss you.

You wonder, a little, how you got here. You wonder if things like that ever just become normal.

-

Kang Seulgi is standing out front when you spill out of an uber and onto the sidewalk, all stooped over under the yellow haze of the streetlight on the corner, smoke coming up off a cigarette hanging out of her mouth.

The chill night wind picks up and the edge of a leather jacket flaps behind her. It's almost eerie in how mundane the sight should be - and you think it's funny: Seulgi can make herself at home, anywhere.

"Hey," the brunette calls, stepping up. She's tall in her heels, the crescents under her eyes deep. The stars in the sky are shining against all the bright signs and street lamps, and it's hard to spot them. "Haven't I seen you before?"

"Around the office, probably-"

Seulgi's eyes light up - she's not as drunk as the photo suggested, you think - and she gives a bright smile. Her eyebrows jump in recognition: a blur, the glimmering pulse of neon over glossed eyes and a lip caught by a canine. "You're Irene's-"

"-work friend," you answer quickly, before she has the chance to finish. It makes her laugh, which you weren't really counting on, and pocket her hands. You have enough bad ideas; you don't need hers as well.

"Oh. So you've got an arrangement," she suggests.

"It's an occupation," is as much as you'll tell her. "We all have one."

"Mhmm," she agrees, the wince on her face passing as a thoughtful hum. She shrugs.

"Did you-?" You clear your throat, don't know why it's hard to get out. "Is, uh, Irene in there?"

She takes a slow pull, long eyelashes sweeping over her cheekbones. Smoke spills out over her top lip. "Of course," says the girl, with all the attitude. "Just, not so alone."

"So," you start, cautious. "Do I even want to…"

Seulgi waves her hand, drops ash off the cigarette. "Nothing to worry your little heart over, friend," she mumbles, shrugging. Her fingers are delicate as she blows smoke between parted lips, eyes angling up at the city lights. "She said she was meeting someone cute. And I'm left wondering, if that someone could be you."

"Um," you respond. "Could be."

"Hm." The word is loaded, considering, and when she takes another step forward there's a smirk painted to her mouth, the deep red cut in the center of her lips almost reflective. She tosses her cigarette aside: a clean arc into a storm drain. "Interesting."

Seulgi's fingertips brush your collar as she ducks into the door in front of you.

"Later, pal," she tosses over her shoulder, and doesn't look back to see what happens next.

-

(You'd feel so much lighter, like a feather, with her off your mind.)

-

A crowd's scattered around the rooftop, now spread a bit thin - most of the people you recognize from tv screens and billboard ads, and everyone else seems a mix of other media. They're talking to each other in hushed tones about some shoot-down, this piece of gossip. They're comparing agent fees, checking the pockets of their jackets, flicking gold-plated pens in their designer hands. The whine of a power drill going a mile a second comes from over the railing: a few shots left to take. A skeleton crew works behind a camera, behind the glass, but no one seems to mind the business of film in the midst of celebration. They really are a different breed, aren't they?

You pick her out of the crowd instantly - in a white silk cocktail dress that costs more than a college tuition and no sense to act the part, Irene is seated among all of them like she fits. It's never a surprise, her at the center of things.

The seam at her hip rides up when she turns to reach for her drink, her leg extended long: overstretched, one toe pointed elegantly as if she could place her full weight onto a thin little stiletto heel and not snap both ankles. Her bottom lip is coated with bright gloss, pink smearing as it pulls at the straw.

There's a pause where everything slows down: she licks the crease of her mouth, sucks something golden and sparkling down, swallows, blinks - slow, pretty, perfect. Her hair is dark, cute, spilling onto her shoulders, and it brushes a collarbone, slips a little into the slit between her breasts. She's looking for someone, gaze traveling across the patio, swimming through the party - searching - and then, suddenly, those deep-water brown eyes catch yours.

They shine just a little bit brighter.

And then, the only logical thing: Irene smiles, before her feet carry you right in your direction.

-

Inside, things aren't so loud. The night had gotten its worst out of the way early, the only source of music low and reverberating through the walls, the ceilings - all dark and liminal spaces; you and Irene find one to spare and fall into each other there, slow and searching and full of everything. It would be enough to get lost in her completely, this sweetness. You, and the kiss, and nothing else.

It's almost private enough to call it quiet; you're both out of sight and hidden, but there's voices, drowned noise all around. The bass can be felt through the floorboards, underfoot, but you can only focus on the rhythm that thrums from inside of her chest.

There's a disarm, here, too:

"I kissed someone tonight," Irene confesses, and then there's this break, a fragment where neither of you knows who you are to the other, what any of this means - if she'll bite down, be that sore reminder of a few unspoken words.

"Did you."

"Yeah," she says, exhale tickling your jaw. Her lips drag on skin, trace bone - and maybe it should bother you, but either way you can't help it: a thought finds purchase. Irene in someone else's grip, just enough a squeeze. Someone she'd like, or someone she could put herself back in a relationship with, or whatever they're calling this - and all at once, she's trembling.

The revelation is a bit like getting shot through the heart. A simple, awful: fuck. You think you might be bleeding.

Irene pulls the strap of her dress back up her shoulder and explains how it happened, out in that patio garden: a closed-mouth thing, some fleeting nothing, really, a bold dare on his behalf and her lack of inhibition. No, she assures you - he tasted like vodka and it was boring. She kept his hands off her ass, just in case you wanted to know. But still, the blood pumps harder in your veins knowing what she has and hasn't done - and what's wrong is how you only hear her confession in the middle of feeling something envious, a sudden, strong, profound desire to mark your claim: you'd leave this bruise, something ugly at the hollow of her throat. It makes you a possessive, possessive kind of person, and the sentiment, you figure, can only end in trouble.

"Sorry," she sighs, tipping her face forward to brush her forehead against yours, her eyes scrunching as she apologizes. "I don't think you wanted to know, but-"

You're trying to distract yourself; she's pressed between you and the wall, arms circling your neck as her spine bows under a bit of pressure.

"Yeah?" you question though. You can't not. There's this telltale roughness, the need to breathe: you'll hold on too long, take her mouth the way she deserves, keep her quiet, and let your tongue flick across hers until her lips are numb. "What then - should I care? Am I meant to?"

She swallows. It's all reflex.

"He kissed me," is all she says, and then her palm is stroking against the shell of your ear, soft, quiet. "Then he kissed me again."

She shivers, eyes wide, wet and round and wanting: you could say you understand how he could only dream of being the one to turn her head and bring out her charm, the easy way she smiles, but-

"All I could think of was you."

There was never a chance to compete; this star whose shine eclipses. Your binary system was never quite fair, was it?

Your hands are on her wrists then, trapping them at her sides; her eyes smoky and dark and looking straight up at you. She can't breathe like that, mouth agape as your nose brushes hers, your words blowing straight against the heat of her lips:

"Are you still thinking of me now?"

It's only that - though you can hear a sound building up from her lungs. You kiss the line of her jaw and whisper things into her skin: you have me, you can have me, you've always had me. The truth.

And her eyes are slipping shut: mouth curling into the kind of smile that drives you crazy; half the reason why you're all over her in the first place. You don't care where she's been so long as this is where she ends up, your face brushing hers, the kiss held just out of reach - you press into her forehead, her nose, her cheeks; she tilts her chin towards you, begging you to just - but your mouth is on her, feather-light, not near enough: she chases the pressure, gasps your name as your lips find hers, tongue sliding right past, and oh-

It's fast. It's heavy: you take, you push; her whole body shifts and shudders when she finds a grip, one hand braced on your shoulder as the other swung upwards, pulling you closer by the jaw. Your hand runs up her thigh and you hear her inhale, deep.

Irene kisses you like she was made to. She makes sounds with her tongue against yours, ones that twist in you, wind, undo. Like this, it'd be so easy to just let it go - take, take, take. There's not an inch to hide as your hand climbs her bare skin, feeling a shiver rise as her breath rushes hot against your cheek, over and over and-

"Breathe, baby," you mutter, and Irene huffs like it's a game, one of her soft shuddering hiccups, like there's something you should've known - the gasp when you kiss her mouth open, how it was getting easier to drown. She's not drunk, but she's getting there - and she doesn't ask to take it back when you both tip and crash into the wall beside. The reverberation of her back hitting the surface is nothing like the rest.

You take her arm, press her further against the space.

"Bedroom," she barely manages to request. Breathes, the sound shaking and short, almost - almost a plea, or a prayer. A beg. "Somewhere quiet, please. Anywhere. Please."

There's nothing Irene doesn't do without grace - but how she needs you: her limbs give, and she sags, falls against the line of your torso. There's this full, bordering helpless sound as you find her waist, holding her up, pulling her closer. You're kissing in this empty corridor, knocking on doors, jiggling locked door knobs and wasting time, barely, maybe, forever until you can step back into some stranger's guest room: some hallway hideaway; the unoccupied kind of paradise.

"I want you," she mutters when your hand traces the slope of her neck, and then her face is burying against the space below your ear, her open mouth skirting across the sensitive skin there. "So bad, so much. Out of these clothes."

Her neck tilts and you lick. You find a place beneath her ear, kiss - hard. Irene says please. You leave a mark. You know you'll leave more.

An unlocked door, and she shoves you into a bathroom instead, fucks you in there with her underwear tugged to the side and her skirt rucked up her thighs: the mirror reflecting back every whine, the squeal you draw out of her when your teeth dig too deeply, the shock, the undiluted want in her eyes when she leans up against it. You have her half on the sink, your arms a cage around her lithe waist, your grip white-knuckled in the silk outline of her dress; she cums around your fingers, cunt slick and slippery, gasping your name so loudly that you have to shush her; and even after that, when her gaze locks into yours, the pretty round of her cheeks all red and her lashes stuck with her tears: when she tugs your zipper down, fits you between her legs and pleads for you to fill her with your cock until the tightness around it is unbearable, fucking her just as you're pulling apart her clothes, the clasp of her bra snapped so hard she curses - even that doesn't stop. She doesn't ask you to stop - she's incorrigible, needy, practically begging.

"Please." Again. Again, as she touches her cheek, fingertips on the skin that's already turning a deep crimson, all shades and blooms; and then she touches the lipstick-smudged prints at the top of her breast, and all the ones on her jaw. Your teeth, where it was light, and your tongue where it was hard. You took, and you marked, and the way she is, her thighs quivering like an aftershock; her body pliable, barely-breathing: that was almost all of what she asked for.

Your hips snap, and the impact jolts through her: ripples sent into the curves of her body from the pleasure, the pain. You try not to listen, not to look - not the obscenities leaving her mouth in a steady stream as you press her down against the counter: every hiss and moan, your name, jesus fuck-

Irene cums a second time with a wail, like someone's hurt her, like she's been set free, like she'll never again breathe so well as she does when your lips catch the scream and hold down the sobs, fingerprints at the faint, fragile curve of her nape.

"God," she whimpers into your mouth; and the sound, that voice, as she moans it to you: "your cock - is gonna kill me, baby."

Her cunt is tighter around your cock than it's ever been, this total vice grip, her hips lean and arched upwards where she lies, slick-dripping onto the bathroom counter; the edge of her heel catches on the marble-topped basin, and her ankle knocks over the handsoap - the whole of it hitting the floor and shattering.

She doesn't care. She can't. She's a fucked-out mess: her black hair in knots, sticking to her hairline, her face flushed with need.

"Darling," the sweetest, her soft voice cracking with a laugh, the tipsy tilt of a joke; she's begging with it, some lazy, pretty curl of a request, some pretty plea that turns around into a bite, the heat, the feral - you kiss her harder. Take her harder. Leave a few more marks: just so you know she'll still feel it later, bruised and sore and sorry, and it might be too much, but oh, the way Irene grabs and pulls and fights and tries to cling when it crosses the line; she'll be feeling this tomorrow, a sharp tugging at the inside of her chest as she rubs circles into the scrapes and imprints on her hip bones. This reminder; of what's right there, if only-

Mine, you bite against her skin, and the voice in her head might scream with it.

You can see the fantasy in her eyes: her standing here in the mirror after you've filled her pussy, fucked your cum back into her cunt and had your fingers inside her for so, so long that she'd been soaking, dripping with it - your palm pressing firmly on her swollen, desperate clit, two fingers hooking deep, right on the spot that makes her twitch, tremble. Her jaw goes slack, eyes fluttering and back arching as you watch her drip with the mess you've made of her.

"It was always, I think-" and she hiccups, a small pained sound, "it was always gonna be you." She says it like an apology, voice quieter, more uncertain, a little shaky. "I just can't get you out of my head."

Your hips are reckless, a little mean - but your mouth moves slowly across hers. It's tender. It's everything.

"Baby," you plead back: and it's something soft and small when you sigh it into her mouth. Your fingers tracing her ribs and feeling how she breathes with your every motion; how you're filling her so deep she almost can't. Choking, with a whimper, like it's hard - and then her jaw goes slack, eyes snapping shut - her knees bend - like she'll give up on the control. Her body slackens and gives under you; her legs widen to fit your hips, all her weight sinking backwards on the marble-top-

She keens when you bottom out, a high, delicate noise. Whimpers at how full she is of you; she must've felt your rhythm slipping and letting it run too rough-

And even then. She asks, totally breathless, panting: "Right there," and fuck, god, please. "I love this," she whispers, the sweetest, the most gorgeous, lips moving as slow as a prayer - "and you fuck so good. And-"

Irene swallows; her chest expanding and then halting, shallow and deliberate. Her chin turns; her mouth opening in some expression of yearning before the word comes; a gasp, and she can't - she can't quite-

"Keep- baby, please." Her throat makes a noise and all the words taper. "Please, right fucking there."

She makes another sound, strung out and desperate - and she keeps gasping the faster you thrust your hips. Each drag through her hot, wet cunt has you both clambering closer.

"This," Irene's panting, this terrible, wonderful realization in her mouth. "This feels like-"

A stutter. A strangled sound: you don't even catch a full breath before she's trying again.

"-like us."

Oh, Irene, her heart murmuring. Like something soft, like something hard - this burn, this hurt; Irene, in her prettiest, highest pitch - the way she speaks, the way she breathes, her voice dropping a decibel like some clandestine secret. Like sin, a honey-coated whisper in the space between you two.

"Irene," you say, and she melts like you're inscribing it into her skin. DNA-deep, carved into her bones. She takes it like a baptism, something in it an invitation, a promise to hold her dear - and all at once, that smile grows, blooms.

It's intimate. It's affectionate. Fuck, it's true.

You break open her world with her own name, spoken like a sigh and sounding like sin.

There's this hollow, raspy sound she makes. Beneath the shallow of her clavicle. When your fingers push down, her nipples pressing back into your palm - there, as her breath hitches, as she quivers - right there; her cunt trembles around you, eyes wide-open, and you're just watching each other lose yourselves until Irene has to beg for another kiss, and the next, her fingers grasping at the collar of your shirt as she slips her tongue into the corner of your mouth. You wonder why she bothers with perfume; when all she is is vanilla and cinnamon, a saccharine so sweet with a touch of spice; she murmurs the words into your ear: I want your cum. Fill me up. Use me.

You think:

God, her body; god, the feeling. The sound.

Think, still:

Look, your hand. At her waist. At her pussy. Right here. The place where you're connected. Flesh, bone, a stretch of skin - the raw, obscene mess you make; when all it takes is a rock of your hips, a thrust upwards and in to dismantle everything that is her, everything that is Irene, until her entire world is centered around you-

It could be a chorus, a refrain:

Let go. Let me see. Drown me out. Kill the lights. You'll take three hours over three weeks where you pretend she doesn't exist. It's simple. It's, it's-

It's this: the press of her to your skin. The nails to your scalp, down your neck. The splay of her legs across your thighs. The sweat - hers, yours - all of it together; your mouths meeting and meeting and meeting. Again and again.

God. It's the entirety of you which you were hoping to avoid. You love this woman. You fucking worship her, all of her, every piece and the whole - that she's making that noise in the back of her throat, soft; that her breathing is rising, ragged; that you do this to her, just this.

It happens in a blink. You tell her to turn. Tell her to bend.

She ends up over the counter, gripping the sink, and you lift the fabric up to bare her ass and keep fucking her, deep, deeper. This sound is all you need, this whine that Irene makes, like you're reaching even her furthest, hottest spots - and then the push through her sopping cunt, how she spills around you and the slickness smears at the insides of her thighs; she clings and squeezes and fucks back against you so wildly, she doesn't even recognize her own name. It's the moment when she loses all sight: that's when you bury inside her, pull back her hair, wrap your hand around her throat, and she's under you, on you, body angling upwards like a flower to the sun. She cums so easily, shuddering into the pull of the climax; her pussy tight around the throbbing swell of your cock - the deep and penetrating pain of that desperate pleasure, like a flash-flood, an earthquake, oh, the grip, the warmth-

The moment stretches, just like that.

Her heels kicked off and toes arching to scuff at the cool, tiled floors; she's sensitive; she wants to play dirty. Your grip loosens, that same tender thing when her throat bobs, a little movement, swallowing for you. She knows exactly what she's asking for, exactly what this all means - Irene begs so prettily: "put it inside me."

There's a few seconds in which you feel nothing but the heat and the way she flinches, like a reaction that's programmed straight into all her nerve endings; the raw instinct; the shudder from deep within her core when your hot cum finally starts to spill thick and heavy inside her - it's been too long since your last proper fuck, and her moaning in the mirror is, how do you say: an incredible inspiration.

"Your pussy," you can hear yourself say, throat gravel-dry. "Is so fucking tight, baby, shit-"

And she's nodding, voice ripped to ribbons. All the words liturgical, a prayer. She's begging with them; yes, please, fuck, god yes, give me-

Her thighs press together, but her eyelids have begun to fall.

"Use me," she mutters. Her breathing begins to even out - the very real sign she's spent, near unconscious. "Want this, want you - so fucking bad."

And the evidence is there. Irene is falling apart beneath you, hands fisting and legs spreading even further as she's braced against the sink, bent, and presented. All of it makes a beautiful sight: the spread of her toned, ivory thighs; her ass pale and her folds so pink; how she's bent, waiting. Everything about her is an artistic consideration, designed, purposeful.

"Christ," is all you manage. The strain is evident in how your tone rasps.

Because your hips are still pumping Irene's cunt with cum. Fingers wrapped around her tiny waist and pulling her ass flush against your hips for good measure. Again and again and again; no room for doubt: you've missed the warmth, the fullness. Soaked to the hilt as your length curves within her; she coos, and she loves it. She says it's ruinous. She says it feels incredible. She says it around the shape of your name and with no hint that you should ever stop fucking her apart.

"Feels so fucking amazing." She's panting and she can't say another word for a while; it's a fact and the other is simple. "It's - so good."

She can't stop moaning.

You're both breathless, watching her reflection in the glass, a study in motion: the soft bounce of her breasts in the mirror, the cords of muscle tensing in her abdomen, the small, pinkish mark blooming below her left ear. There's her lower lip, pinched between her teeth, her eyes flickering shut as her hair drapes across her naked shoulder and her skirt rolls higher on her waist. She doesn't try and muffle herself: you could hold her down, or even give her your fingers to bite down on - let her go a little wild as she wrestles against the instinct to stay silent, keep quiet. You plant an open-mouthed kiss against the side of her neck and look up, see her watching the movements, her dark eyes lidded, dazed, fucked-out-of-her-mind content as she smiles - lidded and lovely and impossibly knowing and rocking her hips into the moment.

"You are unbelievable, you know that?" you're murmuring, your palm on her shoulder. Pushing her flat. "Absolutely breathtaking."

You rub a thumb against her cunt, pull at the outer, exposed, sensitive parts as Irene's smile falters. You just keep pushing.

"Oh, baby," she whines, pleading for more. For one more press, another, anything: she begs you. "Your cum feels" - she swallows hard - "so fucking warm inside of me."

A shush, the palm soothingly pressing between her legs, and she bites her lips hard. Still trying.

So - you push it all deep into her cunt.

There's this beat, this moment, this quiet - where her eyes pinch tight, voiceless, speechless.

And right after, Irene is whimpering: her body seizing and shaking and arching away from the viscous slickness that just keeps building with each and every drag; the cum left on your cock when you pull it out, leaving Irene on the verge of sobbing, collapsing on her stomach, trembling. Your fingers are covered in her cum. And this is how she likes it, stretched and sloppy. The shudder through her body is proof: all over her nerves, electrified. Irene's shoulders go limp when she feels the push - then your knuckles, curling. The gentle touch, the pressure, the fingers spreading her slit.

She asks what else, anything, please, and hints at wanting more; so much more.

"Irene," you say, smiling into the ends of her hair. Maybe, you consider. Maybe later, maybe when you're fucking her flat on your bed; your cock up her tight ass or your palm coming down heavy on the supple roundness. You let her fantasize a minute, imagining it's the roughness she wants to receive; maybe the hot, slow grind of you still inside her or the whisper at her neck and her toes digging into the sheets. The offer has her breath stuttering in the mirror.

Irene tells you it's unfair.

"Sorry," you say, and don't mean a word.

Another breath in, the lungs expanding against your palm, ribs slipping. In and out, a reminder.

"Don't be," Irene manages, exhaling a laugh.

She offers you her lips, you know she doesn't mind - and she kisses you. You sink down to the bathroom floor and she sits so easily in your lap, your mouths meeting over and over again. She strokes your spent cock. Your hands squeeze her thighs and you take her chest in your mouth. Wiping your own smear of wetness off her tummy, bringing them to her face, letting her nose knock into your palm and lick at the tips.

"Can you taste how sweet your cunt is? Baby," and your mouth is on hers, kissing all traces off her tongue-

There's so many things you could do, it's enough to keep you sated for ages. Her back is pressed against your chest, and you gently draw another spill of cum leaking out from her pussy; she shoves your digits into her mouth, sucks until her jaw clenches, your thumb rolling around the roof, tongue pressed right between.

"If someone sees us," she whispers, licks her lips, your fingers, moans, tilts her hips and grinds down a bit. "We'd be so screwed."

"Don't worry, I'd say," and you can't help the tease in it; your voice low and all grit, the heat and your heart rushing through every vein. "It'd all be my fault."

It's filthy: her sitting in the puddle of your cum, making it soak the thin material of her dress; your heavy spill leaking from her cunt and soaking your slacks as the mess seeps further and further down your pants and her ass-

"We are such a disaster." She says it wistfully. "You and me, like this. A total fucking disaster."

(With your clothes torn open, hair a disaster, the imprints of your lips and fingertips all over her, she means. If it was anybody but the two of you: oh, how ridiculous it would seem. But the sheer audacity of the possibility has her looking at the cum glistening on her thighs. Then looking back to you, her dark-brown eyes, brighter than stars, searching the depth of the hold in yours, your arms wrapped around her.

Maybe she just wants to have this. For as long as you're giving it to her.)

-

You can feel yourself falling so deeply into her, the pull. The draw. It feels a lot like being lost. Like, there's something about loving her. The night's long and she's pressed so closely, fitting like something just perfect, and the way her hands find your ribs is the nicest, fondest ache. You only break out of the haze once the footfalls of her heels begin to echo behind you. The bass fades as you both make a run for the exit. It gets harder not to laugh - your giggling voices slipping between you. You have her nose pressed to the dip of your collarbone, kisses dropping in her hair, her lips curved into a smile every time your thumb does another circle - that place right below her hip, or right there behind her ear.

"Take me somewhere," she sighs. Her body pressed against yours, her cheek snuggling against you.

"Any suggestions?"

She shrugs, and the elevator chimes. "I wanna sit with you."

When she leans forward, just the faintest movement, her mouth upturning in the smallest smile. Her eyes flit away, and her brow wrinkles and lifts, like this: here. You could swear, to god, or the devil: there isn't an ounce of light inside you that doesn't live at her mercy.

The clock is ticking down into the small hours. The night at its calmest, darkest, most wicked stillness. You ask her again, this time, just for clarity, a bit of guidance. "Somewhere we can go? If you have nowhere in mind, we could head back if-"

"No." Irene shakes her head. "Take me anywhere but home."

-

You're drunk. Irene's a little worse off. Her heel snaps. The usual grace, the poise, her ease, that's all but vanished. It's just her: Irene. Hair windswept and the edge of her nose nipped by the chill, the moonlight.

She's so fucking beautiful.

The night can hear her laughter in the air; you have her hands clasped around your middle, legs hoisted over your elbows. You're carrying all fifty kilos of her across the pavement; the streets are quiet and the city's yours. Her dress bunches, and her voice is in your ear, a kiss peppered to the back of your hair. The both of you collapse and - ow, it's the crash onto concrete, a scrape and a bruise and a story to piece together tomorrow. Is this from the tumble? the sex? I don't know, Irene will say, sealing a band-aid over the red, the swell. Maybe this, maybe that. It all happened. The physical marks, the chemical thrill - the proof of life, a permanence, tethered.

"Let me, Irene," you're insisting, half-joking, pulling at the broken heel and tossing it a mile behind you. And like it's instinct, you just can't - can't help yourself. "Your legs are gorgeous, but, y'know. I'd hate to see you get hurt."

You run your palm down her calf and steal the other shoe. It gets tossed in the same direction, over her whine. "Babe."

Irene pouts, still too lovely, still too fucking sweet.

She doesn't laugh, or blush, or try to argue. Instead, she sweeps your hair back, curls her fist at the nape of your neck, and suddenly you're staring, eyes locked and wanting. Irene leans in, her weight settling against your forearms, and gives you a look; just long enough and tender and dreamy and calm enough to have the ache of your heart match its rhythm with her own.

"What the fuck," and her smile cracks open as the words struggle in her chest; her hand goes down your arm and strokes a featherlight finger to the edge of your jaw. "Please don't throw away a woman's shoes without permission."

She hiccups. Sways.

You kiss her. And kiss her, and kiss her. Irene smiles right against your mouth.

"Stay right here," she says. "Go get my fucking shoes, but stay right here with me."

-

Look, it feels so good, not worrying where she is at night.

-

"I thought," she's whispering as you cross into a twenty four-hour minimart, Irene on one arm and both her heels in the other - a pack of wet wipes in your hand - and then her pausing, stopping; this brief flutter of something - she says, "I used to think about how this would all eventually fall apart."

Irene leans forward and gives her weight onto you, hand playing around with the sleeves at your elbow.

"I used to wonder which one of us it would be," and the cashier is ringing up your purchases: a bottle of water, a cold compress, baby wipes and neosporin. The ice cream Irene's insisted you treat her for. She runs a hand up the back of your hair and smiles when you meet her eyes again, "which of us would drop the other, you know, first."

"The thought still come up?" you say, sliding a bill onto the counter and offering a quiet "keep the change."

"Yeah, sometimes. Or I mean I'd be watching you, sometimes, I guess." She smiles at your reaction, bumping your shoulder. "That's the look."

You're walking out to the parking lot and you're pressing a soft kiss against her brow, waiting, patiently; because you always do, waiting. "Do I need to ask?"

Her grin, close-mouthed and gentle, a tinge of fondness, of humor: "you're going to ask either way."

"Hm," you say, popping the lid off the ice cream, breaking off the flimsy paper seal of the container. She's in the pocket of your blazer, Irene's fingers weaving in between yours, her hand reaching for a bite and grinning all the while.

It's four-thirty AM and the early hours will catch up to you, but. It's this: the yellow-orange streetlight above the two of you and her bare feet dangling off a concrete half-wall. In a white cocktail dress and sitting, you and her, atop a parking barrier. You're here, together, watching the skies lighten in the east - there, where the road will split to lead towards her place. Towards your own.

"There's no way," she says, wiping the corner of her lips with her pinky and then making a face. "For us to be together and not mess this up, eventually, somehow." She steals the carton and balances it between her knees. "There's no way to save this."

"Probably not."

Her mouth curls. There, and gone; there again.

"Doesn't that scare you?"

Your stomach is a riot of twists and nerves and the base of your throat is tight, like a swelling.

"It does." You lick your lips, can't think. "A bit, sometimes." You look at her - her profile, her silhouette, the messy, knotted ponytail, the wisping hairs beneath her temple. The press of her lips, how the gloss rubs off onto her knuckles, staining. "But then I see you - and I can't imagine how I'd even pull a 'it's not you, it's me,' convincingly."

Her throat clicks, and she leans her head against yours, and you're forgetting everything else.

You both stop. Sharing a bite. Sharing the silence.

There, and gone.

"Hey," she breathes out - and you can't explain her expression, how her brows knit together; she squeezes your hand, a tremor, and the corner of her lips pulls upwards, almost apologetic; sad, or thoughtful. "This ice cream is so fucking freezer-burnt."

"It's not great."

You watch her nose twitch like she's holding back a sneeze, or a sniffle. She laughs instead and leans against the warmth of you; the smell of her, your bodies touching.

"I love it," you hear her say, and she doesn't give the container back.

-

Irene falls asleep in the backseat of a cab as the sun rises, your blazer draped over her chest; she murmurs your name and pulls closer, seeking warmth. The traffic thins as the roads lead to where she'll disappear, and you find yourself dreading it already.

In a day, maybe two. It's funny. You could end up hating each other. You might have to force a pause, or take a break, or even step back from her entirely. That's how it goes. It's the hardship, it's living - it's the knowing that she has a lease on life that will end, will expire, a loan where all her days are slowly counting down; a timer you recognize the injustice that it might someday read zero.

Not to get too far ahead of yourself, or to project some awful ending where one isn't likely: but when Irene and you are like this, soft, sleepy, curled into each other; her hand at the small of your back, resting; this close, and closer. Your heart aches with an ambiguous type of feeling, indescribable-

Irene shivers a breath and presses her face into your shirt; and like a revelation: you fall further.

"Where do I take her, sir," the cab driver asks, and your eyes turn, watching her chest rise and fall, steady, easy; as her grip grows looser and her cheek presses onto the leather seats.

She's too gorgeous, too pretty in slumber, in sleep, the innocence the most dangerous thing; you fix these wispy tendrils of hair back behind her ear and press a hand to her temple, stroke the line of her jaw, the bow of her lip. How soft, she's always the sweetest sight - with her head resting, her mouth falling slack, eyelashes fanned out over the fullness of her cheeks, and all of her like this, all her darkness tucked away: you think about all those times you've traced her from across a room, across a city; if there was anyone else you'd rather wake up beside, in your bed and beside the pillow; someone who doesn't pick your fights and your silences and loves them in spite of, despite everything. Who lets the fights burn white hot until it leaves you both splayed raw and exhausted, in her, on you-

Someone who fits so, so perfectly with the grooves and the curves, who completes you.

"Just drive," you murmur, looking away, blinking away. "I'm not gonna remember."

You're thinking about a book you'd once read, an idea. The world of difference, the fact in its finer detail; all the myriad iterations of 'loving' and 'missing' and 'want': the imperceptible shifts between being the absence of something and feeling it, tasting it, taking it, drowning it and holding it in your palms, seeing it every time you turn, breathing, living: wanting to never let her go-

"You alright back there, bud?" the driver asks. The tone: the slow and steady understanding, his age, how he watches you, the soft shake in your voice, the gentleness with which you hold your gaze - he knows. A blind man could read what your heart's written on your sleeve. "Late nights are a killer," he says, a chuckle, before shaking his head, muttering, "but mornings even more."

There are a few more hours left. Maybe more, maybe less, of not worrying, and not caring. The thing about loving Irene is this: her touch, the press and the tugging and pulling; her body and her heart; she can be anyone, the best friend, the boss, the mistress, the princess. The pet. And you would be remiss, she says, not to remember: you, too, can be just anybody. So long as it's you, I always come running.

-

It's the last time you kiss her, and that's an okay thing; you pull off the side of the street to brush your hand up to her temple, and when Irene opens her eyes to you, her lashes fluttering against the swell of your cheeks; her hair in soft strands over her forehead and framing her face like this. This vision of her is for you, all yours, all the little things.

"I'll see you soon," Irene says, sleepily, and you know that you will.

-

The nook she occupies in your head by now, is so well-established.

You can't remember when it began. Not like there was a sign, a hint, or a clue. Just, her. And her lips and her tongue and her touch, all this reckless abandon - like everything else, there had to be a leap.

Even with all the lights burning out and the moon hidden in clouds and the nights and days unraveling around you - in those early days, the press of her shoulders or the palms of her hands would always send the worst kind of butterflies through you, like everything else - just her, the sway and the tipsy, the turn and the look she'd have before she would touch the pad of her thumb to your cheek and drag her nail down the curve of your smile.

(It had felt - and you're no longer in it - but it had felt so frighteningly fast.

Weeks, she had told you once. I fell for you in weeks. Months? Years? Fuck, no time at all.)

-

"Hey," Irene says in the not-so-distant present. She's sitting across the kitchenette - knees under her, bare feet pointed to the window, and the steam rises from her tea.

"Mornin'," you mutter sleepily. Stretching, craning your neck and arching your shoulders and ignoring the pop in your lower back, the strain at your ankles. Irene tilts her chin up and blows through the steam. There's an air of self-sufficiency, a state of mind she seems to always have, as if, the ability to ignore her vulnerability is a muscle she could constantly flex, expand, train herself to avoid - and all you're noticing is how that small movement has her shifting and curling over the cup, trying to keep warm. Her hair is pulled high in a knot and held up by an elastic, her baggy sweats loose and rolled twice over, the camisole low, a thin strap sliding off her shoulder.

"When'd you-"

"Had to wake up earlier today." She blinks, her legs slipping open, bending.

"Any chance-"

"No." And Irene snorts. The teasing pull of her lips has your stomach twisting a little more: "you know me."

That you do; the lazy Sunday, the slight pull in the center of her lower lip as she purses it. Irene, with her hair messy-perfect and that stupid fucking smile, so careless, and the joke-flirt she's doing; she knows just what she's doing and, yeah, god. You still have a weak-spot for her and it's so big; the twist in the base of your throat. Your morning wood rising. You're familiar with this: the deep ache.

"You know," you say instead, blinking through the heaviness of your lashes and scratching a thumb against the line of your jaw. "A girl could walk in and mistake this for an affair."

"Girls love me." She turns the cup around in her grip and grins again, makes sure that the image stays locked. "Or," and Irene holds up the fingers, counts on two. "I've had two affairs in my life. One is basically a distant memory-"

"The other?"

Her teeth press down on her lip again. "How am I doing so far?"

"Honesty and self-disclosure in the kitchen, at eight in the morning? Irene, you're really outdoing yourself."

She lifts a brow, then brings the mug to her mouth - like a second-rate cigarette and a scalding-hot burn. "If you did bring a girl here," she says after a while. And, smiling: "she'd see me sitting here, incriminatingly pretty. I mean, she'd probably cry. Screaming fits, a fist fight. Then the waterworks - oh, he was my first! I loved him! He took my flower - ow, don't touch me, I think I might faint-"

"I doubt it."

"Ooo," Irene sing-songs, turning and crossing the space to sit on the armrest beside you. The sway of her body's so obvious. You've got enough room to pull her onto your lap, but you keep your hands to yourself. She runs the tips of her nails over your shirt, just above the buttons and across the sleeves. "Hun, I bet she'd kill you. It'd be very bloody, but romantic. Sad, but inspiring in a mundane sort of way - something you've only heard in mystery novels. Riveting, sordid stuff. Could fill your entire inbox. I mean, as they say in Chicago: he had it coming."

"Nah," you decide, after a yawn. "Too dramatic."

"Not at all," she scoffs, peering at you over the tops of her glasses. "The man she loved was a heartless betrayer."

"Can I ask why my imaginary girlfriend always comes across like some cliché young ingénue? You seem to have a lot of opinions about this girl."

"What, the girl next door, a little smart, but neglects her intuition?" She flips the bun at the back of her hair. "All wide-eyes, a ribbon in her hair, a flower-child who's seen too many Wes Anderson movies." She sticks her tongue into her cheek. "Never once stops thinking about the bad boy."

"If you want to get technical, all my girlfriends have been older than me."

"Whoops," she says flatly, hand falling to her collarbone, "spoke too soon. Got you wrong. No need to panic. I'm sure you, a man, are not drawn to some young thing, easily swept up in a passion. Simply, if nothing else, for the sweet naivete. Those hushed little moans and then, the screams. She would tell you it hurts - and on the same note, she'd be begging you for more - the little slut. God, she'd still be so, so nice and soft and quiet. Ready to be anything for-"

"And if you're the girl?" You stand up and grab her wrist. "What then?"

She pauses, considering this new development.

"You do not treat me very well." Irene pushes the bridge of her glasses back up the curve of her nose. "No candle-lit dinners or grand, public gestures." She twists a curl of black hair around her finger. "Definitely not a confession on bended knee - oh, no, never, never - you'll not have to stoop to that. Because you are, in fact, quite terrible at it. I don't think I'd have a single opportunity to pine pathetically, waiting. And maybe you're a bad kisser, actually," she concludes.

You tsk, scandalized. "You are really not cut out to be the ingénue at all."

Irene laughs, softly, reaching out to tug gently at a tuft of your hair. She smiles up at you - and it's so easy for her, somehow. So graceful. "Shall I fix that for you?"

"Do not fall for me, sweetheart."

"I will try to resist the urge." She tilts her chin and presses a finger to her lips. "Kiss, first."

You lean forward, let your nose bump her temple, her hairline. "Glasses, first."

"Whiner," she murmurs. She yanks, gently. Tugs and pulls, and presses the pad of her finger at the sharp cut of your jaw - her gaze half-lidded and slow as she holds yours. Like she's reminding herself, something she can't forget - what it feels like, exactly. A reminder. You can only keep your eyes on the slide of her jaw. "Gonna keep you like this forever."

"Love," you find yourself whispering. Sometimes you wait just so you can relive that first kiss. Irene swallows. "What a beautiful temptation."

-

You imagine, again, if it had all really been by the book:

Three dates and a letter of recommendation. Making her pay for half, instead of making her feel guilty about paying at all, which for the life of you, you can't fucking figure out: how to treat a woman. Chivalry in modern times: a fucking travesty, truly. She'd lure you to her apartment, or you'd do the same to her - just after the first, you know, the obligatory. The getting to know her, except you'd end up skipping the post-dinner steps of being a gentleman, which would leave the night open-ended, and you wouldn't give it much thought until the kiss against her door is so fucking filthy it makes you reconsider everything and everyone, you know, the morality of fucking someone more than once in a day.

You'd have hit all the milestones, she'd have to lead you to bed, and you'd play all her favorite movies as she lays across your chest and shows you what she likes to do best: finger herself, or something. And you'd talk about it, afterward, you'd acknowledge it - because this should be what dating is, right? This should've been the next few months of your life. Running that same exact pattern, knowing each other so well you can tell what sex will be like before it even happens, anticipating exactly what kind of text you'll get the next day - the call the following night, the feel of her hands on you in all the right places. The lazy moans, her lipstick imprints on your skin, the smile at the corner of her mouth. Nothing like putting your own fucking hand in her pants and rubbing a few hasty circles until her slick gathers around her knees and she can't walk for a whole day.

Things fall into place, they fill gaps, the idea must be mutual at some point - mutual attraction, mutual enjoyment-

How it is Irene got to spending five, six nights a week at your place is beyond you. Not because you're worried about what people will say. You're not. It's just - weird, to not know what you've done to make this last so long.

Are there rules to loving someone? Is there a checklist, a script - what praxis will keep things in place: comfortable. Last you checked, you have no fucking idea how to treat someone like she deserves. To treasure and cherish, hold her tight but never cage - what qualifies, huh?

"Irene," you say, one day - as you're both brushing your teeth. Because really, what does.

She looks at you like she's bored.

"Forget it," you reply, laughing to yourself and leaning down to rinse your mouth. "Idiot."

"Wait, no," she says, stopping mid-brush, her toothbrush bouncing obscenely in her mouth. "What?"

"I said forget it," you tease, and of course, the glint in her eyes is a warning if you ever saw one - but who would you be, then, if you didn't lean in close and tell her, ever so gentle. The three words could be: not a clue, or, you're so petty, or, simply, I adore you and she'd let that one lay to rest.

You choose them a little differently, and Irene's face lights up like she hasn't known all this time.

A foamy spill of toothpaste leaks down her chin. "Th'a m'eh?" She's a mess, wide eyed and dripping and already reaching to swat you on the shoulder, disbelieving. "You can't just-" and her face scrunches, this exaggerated - ugh! - before she hides it in her hands.

Oh, you love her, and it feels so good, not pretending.

"Again. Say it again. I didn't even hear you." She knocks her knee against yours, grinning behind her palms, wide and genuinely - happy. "Like, have some decorum."

Laughing - so hard you can't breathe - you shake your head and curl your fingers tenderly around her wrists, pull her hands from her face. "You are so greedy," you attempt between breaths, letting yourself press against the softness of her palms, her wrists, the pads of her fingertips - wanting to be a poet, she is a masterpiece - and tell her properly.

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a/n: thanks for reading, it's always unbelievable to me anyone ever finishes these fics. This one's a very belated 'thank you' present for @yieldtotemptation. I'm like way late, but thanks for everything.